A Truth I have Carried For Far To Long|Fazza sheikh Hamdan|Fazza new English translate poems

Added: 2026-05-19

[00:00:10]I can't hold this inside any longer.

[00:00:16]There is a truth I've carried for far too long. Not because I wanted to hide it, but because I never knew how to release it. How do you confess something that lives in the deepest part of you?

[00:00:45]How do you share a feeling that has reshaped your entire world? How do you speak a name that has become the heartbeat of your life? I tried keeping it buried. I told myself the silence was safer, easier, quieter. But every day that past the weight grew heavier, it pressed on my chest, tugged at my thoughts, demanded to be spoken because love was never made for hiding. and her name her name deserves to breathe in the light. Everything changed the day she entered my life. I wasn't searching for love. I had convinced myself that I didn't need anyone that my heart was fine the way it was closed, calm, untouched. And then she appeared. No warning, no noise, just a quiet, beautiful arrival. And my entire world shifted. It wasn't just the way she looked. Not just her voice, her smile, or her presence. It was deeper.

[00:02:56]It was the way her soul felt familiar, as if I had known her in another lifetime. The way she saw me, truly saw me, past every wall, every layer, every fear. The moment I met her, I knew she wasn't temporary. She wasn't someone passing through. She was the one who was meant to stay. Her name began to echo in my mind. It settled into my mornings, drifted through my nights, rested quietly between every thought. At first, I tried to deny it. I labeled it as admiration, as curiosity, as something that would fade. But real feelings don't fade. They deepen. They root. They bloom. Soon her name became the soft drum beatat of my heart.

[00:04:35]Whenever I heard it, something inside me tightened. A rush, a spark, a warmth that words couldn't fully hold. Her name became more than sound. It became comfort. It became connection. It became home. keeping her hidden was never about shame. It was about fear. Not fear of loving her, but fear of exposing something so precious to the world.

[00:05:26]Because once her name left my lips, once the world knew everything would change, she would no longer be my quiet secret.

[00:05:44]She would be known, seen, recognized.

[00:05:50]I thought I was protecting something delicate. But love isn't delicate. Love is meant to be witnessed.

[00:06:05]It is meant to stand in the open, unashamed, unafraid, undeniable.

[00:06:16]I can't hold this anymore because she is not simply a name. She is late night conversations that stretch until sunrise.

[00:06:34]She is warmth in moments I once faced.

[00:06:40]alone. She is laughter filling spaces I didn't know were empty. She is the peace I didn't know. My heart was missing. She is everything I never expected.

[00:07:04]Everything I never planned for.

[00:07:08]everything I never knew I needed. And now the world deserves to know her name is no more silence, no more hiding, no more waiting because what I feel for her, it's real. It's powerful and it refuses to stay unspoken any longer. Her name, it isn't just a word. It carries a weight, a presence, a meaning that goes deeper than language.

[00:08:01]It is the name that shifted the direction of my life. The moment she entered it, every time I say it, I feel the memory of the first moment I saw her. The first moment I realized she wasn't like anyone else. The moment I understood that I never wanted a world without her in it. Her name is a promise, a vow, a commitment that I will protect her heart stand beside her in every season and choose her again and uh again and today finally I can speak it.

[00:09:15]But before I do, I need to explain something. The weight of saying her name out loud her name carries a softness and a strength I can't fully describe.

[00:09:39]It's a name that brings stillness to my soul. A name that feels like music playing quietly behind every moment of my life. A name that never loses its warmth. No matter how many times I whisper it, saying her name isn't just revealing a secret. It's acknowledging a truth that has been living inside me all along. She is not just the woman I love.

[00:10:35]She is the meaning behind every change in me. She is the reason my life feels fuller, clearer, alive, and the world deserves to know. No hesitations, no second thoughts, no more locking this inside my chest.

[00:11:06]Because love like this isn't supposed to stay hidden. It's meant to be seen, to be honored, to be spoken. her name is.

[00:11:24]But there's more. There comes a moment in life when a truth becomes too large to contain. When holding it in feels like carrying fire with bare hands. I've been trying to keep this inside. Not out of fear, not out of confusion, but because some but because some feelings feel too sacred to exposed to soon. Yet the truth has its own weight and the weight keeps pressing harder. I can't pretend anymore. I can't act like this doesn't shape everything. I think everything I feel my heart made its choice long before I was brave enough to speak it its time. The name that has been echoing inside me. The name that changes, the room, the moment it enters my mind, the name that feels like home every time I breathe it. Her name is the one I whisper in silence. The one that lingers long after she leaves. The one that makes my world feel sharper, brighter, more real. She is not just someone who passed through my life. She is the shift, the turning point, the answer to questions I never said out loud. The reason my heartbeat sounds different now and the world should know because she is not just a name I love. She is the reason behind all this change inside me.

[00:14:24]I held it back for so long, not to hide it, but because some truths feel too beautiful to share before the right moment arrives. And now the moment has arrived.

[00:14:50]This moment, the moment I finally speak, her name has been building inside me for longer than I can admit. Her name isn't just a sound to me. It's a feeling, a memory, a promise, a warmth that settles into my chest. Every time it crosses my mind, it carries comfort, belonging, certainty, a kind of peace. I never knew I needed until she gave it to me. Her name is the first thought when I wake, the last thought before sleep and the quiet echo that follows me through the day. It's the name that brought light into every corner of me. I didn't even realize had gone dim. I told myself that keeping her a secret was the right thing to do. that maybe the world didn't deserve to know. This part of my heart that maybe silence was a kind of protection. But love real love isn't meant to hide. It's meant to be spoken, declared, lived out loud, and I'm finally ready. Her name is, but before I say it, I need to tell you what her name means to me. It's more than letters.

[00:17:26]more than sound, more than identity. It is the memory of the moment everything changed. When I met her, something shifted quietly, gently, but powerfully enough that I felt it long after she walked away. Her presence wasn't loud, but it left a mark a stillness inside me that I didn't understand that first.

[00:18:13]I've heard many names in my life, but hers was the first one that felt like home. The first name that made me wonder, could this be the one I'll carry with me forever? She's not just someone I care about. She's the reason I learned what love actually feels like. Before her, love was a story. Other people lived something. I watched from a distance. But with her love became real, tangible, alive. Her name holds every moment. She's given me the laughter that filled my quiet nights. The warmth she brought into my coldest days. The hope she placed in my tomorrows. Her name is a vow, a commitment, a future, and I can't keep it inside anymore. I've held it close to my chest. guarded it like something precious, something too delicate for the world to touch. I thought saying it allowed would make me vulnerable would expose how deeply she lives inside me. But what is love if it stays unspoken?

[00:20:33]What is devotion if it hides in shadows? What is truth if it stays locked behind silence? Her name deserves to be known. Not because the world needs the story, but because I need to say it because she deserves to be honored, acknowledged, recognized as the one who changed everything. Her name is the one that softened every hard day. The one that made my heartbeat stumble. The one that made everything feel right again. The moment I said, "There are names that pass by and fade." And then there are names that stay with you forever. Names that imprint themselves onto your soul.

[00:22:04]Her name is the second kind. She is the reason I can't stay silent anymore. I used to think love could be quiet, that some things were more beautiful when kept hidden. But now I understand some love. Stories aren't meant to whisper. They're meant to be spoken openly, fearlessly, truthfully.

[00:22:49]Because when I say her name, I feel like I'm returning home. So here it is no fear, no hesitation, no more holding back. Her name is the only one that matters.