Yes, I'm Doing Better, Making Progress!

Added: 2026-05-05

[00:00:00]I'm doing pretty all right. Thanks for asking. How about you?

[00:00:04]Yeah. So, things have been on the up and up, as they say. I mean, up and down.

[00:00:10]There's an occasional down, but generally the average trajectory, if you will, to put it really nerdy, has been up.

[00:00:19]So, I just want to let you know. A number of people have asked me if I'm feeling better now after seeing me out and about and doing stuff with swords.

[00:00:28]And uh yes, I have indeed been doing better. Um there are still bad days and uh by that I mean not just your average bad day where you feel a little bit off, but uh awful days where I'm barely functional, you know, where trying to think feels like dragging a body through molasses. Before you ask, no, I don't actually know what that feels like. The chronic fatigue is still very much a thing unfortunately, but even that has gotten a little better overall and definitely the uh other stuff, you know, feeling really sickly quite regularly, that's a lot better now. So, I've been easing back into exercise, doing it more and more regularly, which, you know, on some days is still a little challenging because, uh, sometimes it makes me, uh, gives me what I could best describe as nausea except in the head rather than in the stomach. If that makes sense. I don't know. That's how it feels. But I'm feeling so much better than I did say 3 or 4 months ago where I could barely be on my feet like 10 minutes and I would already feel absolutely rotten. Sometimes I forced it and then paid for the reckless tough guy routine as seen in the behind thescenes video for patrons from doing the mace versus flail tests. That was pretty dumb and made everything much worse. So, I'm really glad that I'm doing much better now. Also pacing myself more intelligently so I can do more now. And uh I it's I can't begin to express how grateful I am for that. You know, when you hit such a rock bottom healthwise, it's uh you start to wonder like, is this it? Am I just stuck like this? Will I never be able to do the things I love anymore? You know, it might seem dramatic, but that is how it feels.

[00:02:28]That's very much how it felt. And nothing I tried made it any better. So yeah, it's eventually you kind of start to give up hope, but new medication and lifestyle changes. Finally, finally having broken through the damn food addiction and uh you know the emphasis be there being on addiction. Now that I'm treating myself like an actual junkie, you know, who just has to go cold turkey on certain things, it's it's better. It's still hard. It's definitely difficult every day, you know, being constantly hungry and uh, you know, having to to kind of fight food fantasy sometimes. But, uh, at least I can do it now. For a while it was absolutely impossible to tear myself out of this, you know, addiction loop, you know, where it's just I would be constantly like pathologically obsessed with certain foods and unable to stop binging and all that. So that's a lot better.

[00:03:41]And before you say anything, no, you can't see anything yet.

[00:03:48]you know, when you get to a certain level of fat, even if you lose quite a bit, uh, it's not going to show anytime soon. I mean, I say quite a bit, it's not that much yet, especially relative to how much there is left to go, but just seeing the scale go down consistently is nice. I've been at it for a bit over a month, you know, with not a single slip up. What does that mean for you? Well, more practical kind of videos, I suppose, you know, demonstrations and tests and things of that nature.

[00:04:25]Um, otherwise, I mean, maybe me being a little more energetic, you know, I've been trying to not let it show even when I felt absolutely awful, you know, just pushing through it and all that. Um, so I don't know how much you can tell the difference.

[00:04:45]But yeah, it definitely allows me to do more.

[00:04:50]Right, one thing I almost forgot to mention. Uh, next month in midmay, I'll be in Vancouver for a couple of days.

[00:04:57]And if you have any suggestions for collabs, you know, people in that area to reach out to, let me know. And ideas for good places to stay are also welcome. Thanks, folks. And another thing I almost forgot, what scatterbrained me never. If there are particular videos you would like to see or see more of, any kind of feedback of the constructive count, suggestions, ideas, all of that is very much welcome.

[00:05:24]I don't just want to, you know, I mean, mostly I do just what I feel like at the time, what interests me the most and all that. That usually leads to the best result. At least I think so. But do feel free to tell me what you want, if you even know.

[00:05:42]>> So, in other words, I'm making a comeback, or at least clawing my way back out of what I hope was rock bottom.

[00:05:50]I definitely don't want to go back there, let alone lower, at least not until my 70s or so.

[00:05:56]But, you know, it's not like you always have control over that. When it comes to things like chronic illness, there's not much of a choice. But anyway, not that this comeback is reflected in the numbers in any way, but hey, I I'm doing what I can. Oh, uh, speaking of which, here's a question for anyone who might be watching this who maybe has been making videos on YouTube for a long time. Uh, have you also started losing subscribers every time you upload?

[00:06:33]Seems weird. I mean, well, maybe not so weird. It could just be viewer fatigue and, you know, the niche being saturated and, you know, me being worse at video making when I feel worse. uh could very well just be that. But it is a little odd to see it that consistently regardless of what kind of video even the sort of bread and butter stuff like you know videos about historical arms and armor and uh sword demos and and reviews and stuff like that all uh going downhill for one reason or another. So, just in case maybe there's a trend that I'm unaware of, something happening. I don't know. Either way, I want to thank those of you who keep sticking around. And you can expect more energetic videos from now on, I suppose.

[00:07:30]I mean, the recovery is going to be slow, you know, particularly the the hematoma in my brain or rather the out between the outer layers of my brain from that head injury last year that takes a long time to heal.

[00:07:44]So, it's going to take quite a while before I'm anything resembling fitish, but I sure am going to try to get there.

[00:07:53]So, thanks for watching. Hope you're doing well and take care.