Explaining what i went through 😭

Añadido: 2026-05-26

[00:00:01]Hi good people. Hi everyone.

[00:00:06]I'm spoke. I'm okay.

[00:00:12]Mhm. And so some of you people asked me about my my pregnancy.

[00:00:26]Okay. The thing is like 2 weeks 2 weeks to deliver. I had some complications like the complications like at first and then they became stronger. like it was that pain like you have like kind of food poisoning like some contractions but you really don't like feel like like it was confusing. So what I did I went for a checkup hospital because like now the pain was too much and I couldn't take it. So after going to the hospital scanning and all that then the doctor was like congratulations you're pregnant. I'm like and he even I remember he even told me like um like almost my due date. I was like, "Wait a minute.

[00:01:35]If my stomach is okay because I had some, you know, some complications, some pain, and all of a sudden, you're too weak to deliver."

[00:01:46]Honestly, I was so confused.

[00:01:52]I was so like emotionally, I was not okay.

[00:01:56]Mentally, I was not even prepared.

[00:02:04]Yeah. And so after I was pregnant, I remember the doctor was like, "They need to like take care of me because you see, I didn't even know I was pregnant.

[00:02:26]When you're pregnant, vitamins So like at this point like at a high risk you know the thing about okay from what I know some few people not like everyone I'm one of the few people I know they face that cryptic pregnancy all about pregnancy like that type of pregnancy where the baby bum the symptoms and signs of pregnancy they so mild go my periods just like normal maybe just sportings but I didn't know that I was pregnant because you have your periods just like always. Um like you don't have any any symptoms that can show you like you're pregnant. The symptoms headache, you know, headache sometimes you're just tired and me. Okay. Yeah.

[00:03:57]I was like, I mean, life is good. Maybe that's why because that's why I'm getting tired and everything.

[00:04:09]But honestly, I was pregnant and I didn't know.

[00:04:17]Let me tell you, emotionally, I've never healed.

[00:04:22]like you're just okay one minute, the next minute you're pregnant and you like in 2 weeks you're going to deliver. I remember for 2 weeks doctors and nurses all all over me working and everything.

[00:04:41]Yeah. So it was not easy.

[00:04:47]Sorry, someone is calling me. Sorry.

[00:04:55]Anyway, yeah, it was not easy and tier could deliver pain was extreme because during pregnancy I I didn't have no exercise. Maybe I didn't go for the prenatal checks.

[00:05:19]It was not easy. There were some complications. These were a lot of bleeding. Painful enough like yeah I know giving birth is painful but extreme pain and you know eight whole months.

[00:05:45]So I'm going to give birth to this child.

[00:05:50]What if something happens?

[00:05:54]Mentally you are not prepared. So like like you still don't believe it.

[00:06:03]Physically you are not prepared like baby shopping like it was just a lot.

[00:06:12]Honestly, I can say life life happens. Life happens. Things happens in ways that we we won't understand just give him give birth without even preparation and everything. It was not easy. Like I said, two weeks hospital without getting out. Like the moment they realized I was pregnant and I was like, they were like, "Did you know you are pregnant?" I'm like, "I didn't know.

[00:06:53]I'm just getting to know right now."

[00:06:55]They were like, "No, we need to take care of you. We need to stay here and you need doctors all over you."

[00:07:06]It was a lot.

[00:07:10]I know there's someone out there experience the same thing experience and I don't want you to judge me.

[00:07:26]I didn't know I want to bring the baby on him.

[00:07:47]It was my idea. That's when we going after mainly after because of the baby because I know it's the father because at the period of mine like when you doctors know like how long the baby is determin they know like for like how to tackle how many months in your stomach. So going back calculating the months and I was supposedly to get pregnant is the one I had intercourse like that period of conception is the one I had sex with.

[00:08:30]So that's why I'm assisting with the father.

[00:08:37]Me like all I can say is don't just judge anyone because you don't know what life you don't know what life has. You don't know what life brings.

[00:08:50]It's hard.

[00:08:53]It's hard when you're just a young girl and then all of a sudden you have to start becoming a mother. Seriously, it takes a lot mentally, physically, emotionally, socially, everything.

[00:09:16]And ever since I gave birth, all I can say is I've learned to love my baby.

[00:09:26]Yeah, I'm learning to becoming a new mom. I'm a new mom, actually. So, I'm learning to to be that good mother because I I can't say I had a good mother who raised me, to be a good daughter, to be a good Who who I just want to be a good mother to my kid. And emotionally I can't say I've healed from the shock.

[00:09:59]No, from the shock. Not healed from any like just the shock of you are pregnant but this is a human being that came out of me.

[00:10:14]And you know looking at that baby and sometimes I I be like I wish you had an answer and tell me how you in my stomach for all those months and I didn't like where are you where were you hiding because I had no baby B.

[00:10:30]Me I was just living my life. Thank God it didn't occur at one point where I used like alcoholic stuff because yo hey the baby would have But I don't I don't know what just Okay. I go parties. Yeah. You you saw I'm saying I was pregnant. I was going to parties you know enjoying life hiking somewhere mountain climbing somewhere party somewhere chilling somewhere. I was just living the life. But all I can say god because how it occurred I did all those things and no point I used alcoholic drinks or anything alcoholic or anything like harmful substance for the baby.

[00:11:50]So I guess that's how the baby like manage to survive. But I didn't have no baby B being the girl that I was, you know, trying to heal from my past relationship, if I can call it that, or whatever that was. And also trying to heal from my family's trauma and everything.

[00:12:17]Like, I had so much that I I didn't even realized I was pregnant. And the fact that I was receiving my periods every month that's like you know life is just something else like okay pregnancy doesn't happen to just anyone mostly irregular periods you know what I I mean by that so I am that one person so maybe that's why I didn't even realize I was pregnant because me, I was just there living my life. But I've learned to love my baby. And I promise you, I'm going to be the best mother in the world. I'm going to do everything to protect that girl. She's a girl. It's a she.

[00:13:08]I'm going to do everything in my power.

[00:13:11]Anything possible, everything to be the best mother that I never had.

[00:13:19]And I still believe like I know that Fin is a father. So I will just give him all the time he needs in the world to just process this because personally I was not given the time to you know process all the information or anything. But I learned to move on with it and I had someone say that you gave birth like 3 weeks ago and you're here jumping up and then like you don't you don't need time.

[00:13:48]Time to what?

[00:13:51]Yo, I'm having a whole human being that I need to raise. You need me to to have time to sleep and lazy around that oa what what do they call it?

[00:14:04]Nikona complications after birth like I need time to rest and all that. I don't need time to rest especially when I know that the father of my baby doesn't know that he has a baby.

[00:14:17]I don't have time to rest.

[00:14:22]I think I think like just want wanting this baby to have all that gave me all the strength without even one month but I'm here there they there because I want this baby to have all baby J must have all in the world all the happiness I don't want to see even a drop of tear from our eyes.

[00:14:56]So yeah, me I don't care about myself. I need time to rest, you know, and take care of the baby. I don't need time to rest until I'm sure that baby Giana has her father around and me around. Then I will rest.

[00:15:16]But for now, up and down just to make sure my baby is okay.

[00:15:25]Anyway, for those I know something like this, it's not something to be shameful about.

[00:15:38]Like, yo, we talking about my child. Yo, maybe that's the only child I God planned for me to have in this world. So, I cannot be ashamed of my own baby.

[00:15:52]I'm a mother. Like, I'm a happy mother as as as now I'm a happy mother. Aside from the fact that we're still waiting for the dad to acknowledge the baby, I'm a happy mother.

[00:16:08]So, yeah.

[00:16:17]and the going to know I can't just bring my baby.

[00:16:26]No, not she's she's still young.

[00:16:30]Give her time to grow. So that's all for today. Bye.