OVERDUE DIARIES | is this finally it?!!!

Hinzugefügt: 2026-05-23

[00:00:00]We meet again. Welcome to the official overdue diaries. I feel very dramatic saying that because I am currently one day one day overdue. But do you know when you just know your body? I got to 10 days with Charlie. Then I was in juice and I had him on day 12. So I don't know. Part of me is like just expecting to get to that point again. I mean if she comes before that, that is brilliant. But I thought, let's just bring you along bits and bobs over the next few days until her lady ship makes her great appearance. And I'm just going to keep myself busy because otherwise I will just go insane. I know I will. So Dom, my husband, is finishing work tomorrow. So that's his last day. Um, he's had to start work finish work a bit earlier just because he's got some time off in June and they won't let him have more than three weeks off at a time. So overall, it should mean he gets about a month off, but the longer she takes to get here, the less time he's going to have with her. So overall, he might lose a week if I do go overdue, but it's not the end of the world. It's not ideal, but we have no control over these things. So it'll be what it'll be. But do you know what I want to do today? I just want to keep myself busy. I have actually impulsively booked a massage.

[00:01:18]This is a firstible problem, but today is my last like day to myself where Charlie's at nursery and I'm kind of guaranteed today because obviously I'm not in labor right now. So, I wanted to kind of stay busy. Um, but I bought myself a massage with some vouchers I've got for a spa that I got for my 30th birthday and I really need to get them used up and I thought I'm really going to struggle with a newborn. So, I looked and I managed to book it today and I'm like, "Oh no, I've booked the massage.

[00:01:46]Now, I can't be busy. Why am I like this? The midwife said I need to keep busy. But then so many people say you need to chill out and I just don't know what to do. So I'm just going to keep busy because what else is there to do?

[00:01:59]Feel like that's a good balance. Go for a massage, chill out, but also be productive. So this is what I want to sort.

[00:02:08]Yes. Once again, Kay wants to sort out Charlie's toys. But I've got a plan this time around. So, I went on my little friend chat GPT and asked him to mock up our living room. And you know what is so much better? Basically, Charlie doesn't play with half of the toys that he's got in here. He goes through phases with things he plays with. But overall, there's just a lot of clutter and he's not using it all. So, what I want to do is narrow it down to four boxes and have a basket of vehicles that he can play with and then that be that. will leave books upstairs and he can kind of bring bits down that he wants to play with and do it that way. That's how I did it as a child. And I feel like it's a bit less overwhelming that way, too. And then thinking about the future and little Pebble, I need to be careful with what toys are actually down here because I don't want her to be putting stuff in her mouth when she starts moving.

[00:03:01]Anyway, right, let me find this picture.

[00:03:03]As you know, at the minute, this is what it looks like. So, little bit mental. It did look nice to start with and I liked it, but as time's gone by, the shelves been open, it doesn't really do the job that it used to do when he was smaller.

[00:03:18]He just kind of is used to seeing those toys. And even though I do toy rotate, I just feel like it always looks messy.

[00:03:25]And then this is here. So, just next to me, we've got a little toy kitchen. So, I'm going to see if the toy kitchen will fit behind the door. And then hopefully that will work. And then we've got space for a little Moses basket if we want to get one or just somewhere for Charlie to play. And then I'm going to get this from IKEA. So obviously I've already got the boxes and it'll just be a little bit smaller. So that's a six. No, it's not.

[00:03:53]That's an eight. So that's like twice as big as I need it to be. I might potentially put it up on its side here today and just see what it looks like just so I can kind of get a vibe. And I know so many people are going to tell me off, but it is not heavy at all as long as I empty it all out and just see what it looks like from there. I just feel like it's going to feel so much better in here. Like it already feels better cuz we had a bit of a switch around. We moved like the furniture and stuff. I feel like this is like intense nesting.

[00:04:20]And this is a very long start to this video. It's probably going to be very chatty because I just feel very chatty today.

[00:04:27]Anyway, right, let's get to it, shall we? Um, I feel like this this video is going to be me spiraling. If I get to 10 days overdue, I'm going to be trying all the things. At the minute, I feel quite chill. So, I'm going to go for my massage, get my oxytocin flowing. That's about as much as I can be bothered to do today. I'm not going to be having no spicy curries yet. No pineapple, no um all of these different hacks and things that people say to do. I'm not there yet. I am not there. If she takes a few more days, she takes a few more days.

[00:04:58]that's okay with me cuz I feel like I've still got things to sort out. So yeah, I'm ready when she is basically. Um and at this point in time I haven't gone insane. If you've never been overdue or like past 40 weeks pregnant then I think it's hard to relate.

[00:05:15]But at the beginning of the day I'm very optimistic and I'm like this is fine. I can do this. I can get to 42 weeks.

[00:05:21]We're all good. By the end of the day when I'm trying to sleep and I'm in agony and I'm just like aching and I'm tired and I'm tired and I'm tired and I'm tired and I'm just over it. I think I wish I'd have done more things today to try to get this baby here. So yeah, my days are split in half. I'm like jackal and hide, but that is just that is just my life at the minute. So right, I am probably going to regret this, but I've got 45 minutes before I need to set off for my appointment. So, I'm going to get as much of this moved as I possibly can and I'll bring you all along.

[00:05:52]Hopefully, it might be satisfying depending on what happens next. That is just like the whole caveat for this entire video. Depends what happens next.

[00:06:00]So, yeah. But if I can see, then I can order these bits. They can come tomorrow on IKEA. I can get that sold on Facebook and I'll feel like just good. I feel like the house feels better cuz it just feels a bit like claustrophobic in here at the minute with all the toys everywhere. So, let's get to it. Okay, don't judge me times two, but this is the disaster behind the door. And also made myself a Chris sandwich. Feel like people don't share about Chris sandwiches, but they are delicious and elite. And I just thought that sounds really good right about now. So, I've piled it with butter and I've got cheese and onion and crisp. I know it's not healthy, but do you know what? food is made to be enjoyed. And this is what I fancy today. So, this is what I'm going to eat. I ate so many crisp sandwiches with Charlie when I was pregnant. And I haven't really done this time. So, if you have a baby or a toddler, don't fall for these. They do not play with them. Everyone I've spoke to says the same. They basically go through a phase where they will just tip them out of the bag and that is it. They never build anything with these, so don't waste your money. Basically, how many hoovers does one child need?

[00:07:28]Red stain, the clinking of glass, flickering shade on your face, pouring rain.

[00:07:39]Oh, I wish we stayed.

[00:07:45]misplaced.

[00:07:48]Got somewhere to be. Don't want to leave. Just one more drink. Don't want to think about anywhere. Anyone else?

[00:08:02]>> Oh, that feels loads better. I mean, this is way too high. Like way too high.

[00:08:07]But if it just came to there, that would be like a really nice height. So, yeah.

[00:08:13]going to sell this guy, I think. And then um Oh my gosh, we've got so much more space here now. Look at all that. I do think I might get a radiator cover if I do decide to keep it this way. I just feel loads better. Wow. You don't want to see what I can see in front of me.

[00:08:33]This is as far as I've got. And I feel like it looks so much better. Like it looks like an actual living room now.

[00:08:39]Obviously, we've still got this big beast here which is like taking over the room, but I feel like it flows a lot better now. So, hopefully Charlie gets on with it, too. And we just have a more minimal amount of toys. But I need to go for my appointment now. So, I feel like this is a good balance. When I get back later, all I need to do is just try and sort out these bits of toys that are left and find homes for them all. I'm going to go and have a massage now. Me and Pebble don't go into labor just now because I'd really like to enjoy my massage first. Thank you, Missy.

[00:09:24]I am back from my massage. Full drama. I think I passed out during my massage. I should have known better. My actual back massage was glorious. It was so nice.

[00:09:35]And then I had this foot ritual that I'd added on. And I should have said like, "Can you fully sit me up?" She asked me.

[00:09:42]She was like, "Does do you feel okay?" I was like, "I feel fine." But she had like the heated pad on and also the radiator was like right next to me and I think I must have fallen asleep and then I woke up and I woke up to her going, "Are you okay? Are you okay?" And I was like, "Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. I'm just a bit hot." So, we cooled me down. She carried on the massage. I've got this gorgeous cooling foot cream on now. Um, so yeah. Anyway, I've rang triage. They said, "Baby will be fine." Um, I should have known better. I pretty much pass out at every single like scan appointment thing where I have to lay on my back. So, should have known better with that one. So, just a heads up. If you're pregnant, don't try. It wasn't even like laid on my back. I was like the thingy was like this, but I just it wasn't the right angle, I don't think, for for me. So anyway, I feel very relaxed.

[00:10:38]I said to her, I think I just fell asleep. And she was like, "Yeah, you worried me a little bit. Um, but yeah, I feel really good for that. I'm really loving this new little spot that I've now got to film in. And I'm just happy that I've got this sorted. I am not entirely sure where I'm going to put all these toys. I really need to do a declutter, but it's really hard because I feel like he plays with everything just in phases. So, I don't really want to get rid of anything. And then the things he's outgrown obviously I need to keep for baby number two. Um, so anyway, I'll take them all upstairs and I'll figure it all out in a little bit. But it was really nice massage. Really enjoyed it. Really glad that I managed to make time. And then yeah, while I was there, it was really surreal. I was thinking to myself, "Wow, there is so much money in this car park cuz it's at like a golf club parked next to like a Porsche." And I was like, "How the other half live all just playing golf and going for lunch and going on a spa day?"

[00:11:35]Like, "Wow, you can't believe people live like that out there, can you?" And I mean, I'm very very jealous. I I was sat waiting for my appointment and like the ladies that were just milling around the spa was like, "It gives me life." It just I felt like I was in an episode of Desperate Housewives or something. It was just like I don't know. It made me feel nostalgic for some reason. But yeah, it was glorious. I highly recommend getting yourself a massage and I'm very grateful that I had those vouchers left to use today. Feel like I've had a good balanced day and I'm about to go pick Charlie up. But yeah, it just feel it feels loads better in here and I'm feeling more like zen. Um can't believe that I passed out during my massage.

[00:12:18]What a plonker. What a plonker. That's just such a K thing to do.

[00:12:24]Oh dear. But yeah, I might pick up this vlog again tomorrow or maybe in a little bit when I've like kind of properly cleared up all this mess that I've got everywhere and just show you like the after. But really happy with it all. I feel like these are the parts you don't see in like vlogs about being overdue or like even labor vlogs. I'm not in labor, but it's like half Well, it's not now. I think it's like half 4. I've been up since half 3. I just woke up and I was like, I'm wide awake. I am wide awake.

[00:13:03]And this is me like pretty much every other night at the minute. And it's just so exhausting.

[00:13:10]But yeah, apparently cortisol peaks from like 3:00 to 5:00 a.m. And so I just lay there for ages and some nights I get back to sleep and then other nights I just can't. Tonight's one of those nights and I thought I just can't bother to just lay there worrying about everything or like not even really worrying just like my brain just will not turn off. And it's not like always negative things. It's just Hello, darling. I'm sorry. I'm waking up your sleep as well, aren't I?

[00:13:43]Hello, darling.

[00:13:46]Yeah, just just thinking about everything. Sometimes it's excitement.

[00:13:50]Sometimes it's a bit of fear creeping in.

[00:13:55]Both cats have come like, "What are you doing, mother?"

[00:13:59]I don't know. I wish I could tell you.

[00:14:01]So, the last two times this has happened, I've gone back to sleep at 6:00 a.m. and then 9 out of 10 Charlie's woken up at 7:00, but one of the days he randomly slept in till 9:00, which was an absolute blessing cuz I had a day of solo parenting the next day and I was dreading it. So, God bless that child. I mean, tomorrow Dom's off with me. It's just hard because then I just feel like tomorrow I'm just going to be so miserable.

[00:14:29]Um, but it is what it is. So, I'm just gonna chill. I'm gonna eat some digestive biscuits and just potter, watch some telly.

[00:14:41]I'm just bored. I just wish I could sleep like the rest of the world right now. And then I think in my head I'm like, what if I go into labor and I've had like no sleep? And then I'm like, well, this is it. And I think unless you've been overdue or like past 40 weeks, well, like even get to 40 weeks pregnant. Some people don't even make it to 40 weeks pregnant, it's just such a battle. Like mentally, physically, it's exhausting. And I don't mean to say all of this to be like, play me the world's smallest violin. I just feel like everyone has such a different experience. And I should have known I should have known that I would go overdue. So, my my thoughts when I woke up this morning were, why do some women make it to 42 weeks of pregnancy every single time? And apparently, if you went overdue with your first baby, you are two to four times more likely to go overdue with your next baby. Love that for me.

[00:15:42]She'll come. She will come. I know she will.

[00:15:47]But the thing is, you have no control over it. I think that's what gets in my head at this point because as much as you say like you've got no control, baby's going to come when baby's going to come. On the other side of that, it's like people telling you to eat spicy curry, to have essential oils, to go curb walking, to rock on your ball, to sit up, to don't to relax, to not relax.

[00:16:08]And it's like then I feel like the pressure is on me, like am I doing something wrong? Have I done something to mean that I'm not going to go into labor anytime soon? And that's what gets in my head because then every day I think like I should have done more and then I'm like no but the baby's going to come when the baby's going to come. So I don't know I don't know if if it is anything to do with me or what I'm doing. Um the thing is when people tell me to do all these things, I think I did do all of this. I did everything every single thing with Charlie. None of it worked.

[00:16:42]And yeah, it just feels like a lot of pressure. Um, and I think that's what gets into people's heads at the end of pregnancy is that feeling of like, am I doing enough? Is it my fault that she's still not here?

[00:16:56]Um, what can I try tomorrow? And then just like that crippling disappointment at the end of the day when it still didn't work.

[00:17:04]Anyway, right, they're my midnight thoughts for you. I'm going to go chill cuz Rory's kicking off now. He's he gets so unsettled when I do this. I hate coming downstairs. It's like I try my hardest to put it off because I don't want him to wake up Dom and Charlie, but then also rolling around in bed disturbs Dom as well. And I don't want to disturb Dom's sleep. Not that he would ever say anything to me about it.

[00:17:30]Anyway, onwards and upwards. Hopefully I'll come back in a few hours with a more positive note. We are now two days overdue.

[00:17:42]less no just over a week just over a week till my induction date.

[00:17:50]My Instagram algorithm is now how to get yourself into labor. And so it's telling me all of these helpful things that I can do like acupressure points and different ball positions. So here we are trying them. One of them was to shake your bum which I am not going to share on here but it can't do any harm can it at this point.

[00:18:53]Got a cup there. Got some biscuits.

[00:18:56]I'll see you on the other side. Good morning. Welcome to day three. Are we all surprised I'm still here? I am not.

[00:19:02]I woke up feeling quite tired today, but I did sleep all the way through the night. Yay. Um, we've got a family day today, such as me, Dom, and Charlie. So, we're going to keep ourselves busy. Here comes the man himself.

[00:19:15]>> Hello, >> mommy.

[00:19:16]>> Yeah.

[00:19:18]>> Where's it gone?

[00:19:21]>> Up there.

[00:19:22]>> Oh, we'll go get them in a minute then.

[00:19:26]>> Yeah.

[00:19:26]>> Oh, gone. But yeah, I felt a bit hormonal this morning. So Dom and Charlie have been playing and uh went upstairs, had a bit of a cry and a shower and now I feel much better. I've got ready for the day. We're just going to keep ourselves busy. Yeah, I think we're going to go to a garden center, go to Tesco and just see what the day has in store. So much of me just wants to lay down and rest and watch Netflix all day. But I did that when I was pregnant with Charlie and it didn't do anything to my mental health. So feel like having a toddler is a blessing in a way. like you have to rest, but you also have to keep busy. So, yeah, makes the days go by a little bit quicker. Um, yeah, no real signs of anything happening. I have been losing a lot of mucus plug though. Um, but still nothing. So, I had I had tiny bit of cramping last night, but it settled down as soon as I laid down to go to bed. So, right, anyway, I'm going to get ready because Charlie is ready to leave this house and do something different now.

[00:20:25]We are back. Not as successful of a day as we'd hoped for, but you know what?

[00:20:30]You just have to roll with it. Charlie was so tired. We managed Tesco and that was about it. He had a nap in the car, which he's very hit and miss if he naps or not. So, kind of glad he had a nap because he was definitely ready for it.

[00:20:42]But he's going to p play in the garden now for a bit. Feeling exhausted.

[00:20:49]I um I think I'd just about fallen asleep when Dom came back in with him.

[00:20:54]Of course, Charlie only naps in the car now. So, one of us obviously has to stay with him. So, thankfully Dom did. So, I went up and tried to get some sleep, but by the time I feel like I'd finally dropped off, they came in and he was upset. So, obviously that was me awake again. My goodness, I just feel so tired. It's because I was up the other night and it's just like caught up with me today. This always happens. It's always the second day where I just feel dead on my feet and I would just love nothing more than to rot, watch Netflix, nap, do what I want. But um the show must go on. So that is what we are going to do. Anyway, I'm sure I'll probably check probably check in with you all tomorrow. Um I can literally feel my eyes like burning in my head. Wow. I know you'll be like, "Just go to bed, K, but you I just feel like when there's a toddler in the house, you can't nap because you're just on high alert the whole time, like wondering, is he okay?"

[00:21:50]Like, I don't know. It's just hard. So, anyway, not to worry. All is well. I just need to have an early night tonight. And I'm very glad I didn't go into labor last night because I was just really tired.

[00:22:02]Is this just me now? I'm just going to live in eternal state of tired for the next two and a half years. Love that for me.

[00:22:09]You going to do what this lady's doing?

[00:22:20]>> The energy for this really >> you were supposed to be mommy's workout partner.

[00:22:35]>> Mommy. Mommy. You're not doing much squatting to say this is a squat exercise.

[00:22:40]>> I don't know what I'm doing. Just trying to stay in time.

[00:22:44]>> You said go at your own pace. It's about the form.

[00:22:47]>> I wish like on a mission. It's >> about the form, not the pace.

[00:22:51]>> I don't know what I look like.

[00:22:53]>> What more?

[00:22:54]>> It's my back.

[00:22:56]I'm doing it wrong.

[00:22:58]>> Oh man.

[00:23:02]>> Mommy, slow down.

[00:23:03]>> Slow down. Okay.

[00:23:06]The cats have come to lay with me and Charlie's teddies are still here from this morning. Bless them. How sweet is that? I am definitely going to regret this angle that I am filming at. But here we are. This is life today. I am 5 days of due. I didn't do an update yesterday purely just because I don't really have very much to say. I've been documenting like daily vlogs on Instagram. So if you like short film content then head over there and you can catch up with them. But we just had a family day yesterday. I actually felt quite good yesterday. Like I had a really high vibes day today. I'm so tired and it's kind of landed really well. So Charlie is at my in-laws today.

[00:23:47]They've got in for the day. So they've gone to have a really fun day. They've gone to see some fish. So he's living his best little life and I can just relax and chill out. She says as she start sat literally editing a video. But this is what keeps me busy. I just feel exhausted today. I might have eaten an entire Easter egg while I've been sat here. But that's okay. That's okay.

[00:24:12]We're just doing things to make ourselves feel better. Feel a bit more perked up than I did earlier. I woke up at 4 again. Oh my goodness. Rory started meowing and I don't know why. And then as soon as I like got up, he went back to sleep and I was like, "Ah." So yeah.

[00:24:32]Oh my goodness. This is making my army.

[00:24:34]This is a terrible angle. Yeah. So that was me up for the day. So I'm pretty tired. Hopefully I can get a bit of a nap in later on. Dom's off work as I said, so he's just pottering in the garden, living his best life. We are both very, very ready for this child to arrive now. Um, but yeah, I'll check in with you guys tomorrow. I've got another midwife appointment tomorrow.

[00:24:54]should be my last midwife appointment because I am going to be booked in to be induced at the weekend which is 5 days away now which oh my goodness that feels like so far away but then at the same time I do feel like the last 5 days have gone really quick. I think just having a toddler keeping myself busy has helped a lot. So hopefully I come back to life in a little while and I can get some bits and bobs done but if I don't I know it.

[00:25:22]Oh, people keep telling me like tips of things to do to like trigger labor. And I'm actually finding it really entertaining this time. I don't know if I've already said, but last time I was very secretive about my due date, and I didn't tell anyone. Um, just like close family and friends, but in the end, I felt very lonely cuz I finished working at like 36 weeks, I think, and it didn't come till basically 42. Whereas this time, I am sharing it all on Instagram, and it just feels really liberating. And as annoying it is to be told like, "Your baby will come soon. The baby will come when they're ready." And like people telling me to have a curry and stuff, it it makes me smile because it's just nice. Like people I just I don't know. I just feel like I've got people in my corner this time, which is lovely. Um yeah, I'm just trying to make the most of it really. Oh, but yeah, I am very glad to be able to share this.

[00:26:16]Oh, I feel like I should probably try and have a sleep, but it's just like as soon as I try and go to sleep, my brain just like goes crazy and I just can't get to sleep. It's so frustrating. I just need to try and have an early night again tonight, I think, and see how we go. I've lost any hope that this baby is coming of her own accord. It would be so nice to not have to have any more interventions, but she's the one making the rules, I suppose. So, yeah, that's my update for today. have no feelings that she's on her way anytime soon. Been doing all the things. Might try some curb walking. That labor inducing exercise that I did two days ago did absolutely nothing.

[00:26:58]My sweep seemed to have disturbed my mucus plug, but it didn't trigger labor.

[00:27:04]So, we still wait. We still wait. I've been doing other things to try and get things going, but just like last time, nothing works. not expressing colostrum, not doing the unthinkable, none of it.

[00:27:18]None of it just does not do anything for me. She clearly just isn't ready yet.

[00:27:23]And you know what? That is okay. She will come when she's ready. I know that she'll come in time for her birthday.

[00:27:29]And I've just got to sit and wait until then. And if that means just having to lay and watch Netflix and eat chocolate in bed, then so be it. We went for it.

[00:27:37]We got an Indian. I asked you guys on Instagram what the best curry was. mixed reviews as to whether it's actually helpful or just causes some digestive discomfort. So, we're gonna go for it.

[00:27:47]I'm aware this is a lot of food. Um, this is probably going to be like today and tomorrow, but we went all out. So, I've got garlic naan. I've got I went for jal fryzy garlic rice on barges and then I've got chips as well. And then there's Papa's upstairs with a pickle tray. Oh my goodness. We don't have it often enough. So, I thought we're just going to go for it. So, hopefully this works. suppose it's going to go one of two ways. Um either I'm having a baby tomorrow or I'm going to have a very upset belly, but I don't think gel phrase is actually that spicy. I just didn't want to go for like a vindaloo cuz it just sounds painful. Um yeah, so we'll see. We'll see what uh what happens. But nonetheless, it's going to be delicious. And yeah, I'm happy to uh happy to give it a go. Just got back from my midwife appointment. It was quite positive, but I feel really flat today. I feel like my hormones are all over the place. Can't keep up with myself. So, I feel a bit like drained emotionally today. Um, but she was the most lovely midwife. Oh my goodness.

[00:28:48]I've had her once before and I just adore her. And I was so so happy that I had her today cuz I just feel like she just explains everything so well. She's so calm. She's so grounded. The whole way through. She was like, "Everything to do with this is your call. It's all your experience. and you know, we're not going to force you into doing anything that you don't want to do. Um, which I just really enjoy that perspective. Like she felt like such a levelheaded lady.

[00:29:15]Um, so I had a stretch and sweep again.

[00:29:18]It's pretty much a week since I had one.

[00:29:20]Um, so this time she said I have a slippery cervix, which I've never heard that before, but basically she was trying to say that like she she couldn't like kind of get it to stay in place where so she could assess me properly.

[00:29:34]Um, and so she thinks like well I can't remember if she said this or not, but basically like your cervix needs consistent pressure to dilate properly and mine seems to be moving around so like it must be moving around with baby's head moving as well. Anyway, eventually she managed to sort it all out. And I am 2 cm, but my cervix is funneling down to one. So, it's kind of going like this. So, at the entrance, it's two, but then it's narrowing. But she said that's a good sign that my cervix is shortening um and thinning out or something. Whereas last week, it was like it was still long and hard. So, progress in the right direction, I suppose. But until it's consistent like the whole way, then that's when like the pressure can really start to properly dilate you. But something is happening.

[00:30:21]So that is good. So it was a positive experience. It didn't hurt all. It just felt like pressure. She said it shouldn't hurt. So that was interesting.

[00:30:29]Um so yeah, I had that done and I've booked in for an induction for a few days. Honestly, I'm just so tapped out at this point. I feel exhausted. I think cuz I'm not sleeping properly. still got Charlie to look after. I've still got a million things on my plate. I'm just really tired and Dom's off as well. And it's just like every day that goes by just feels like another day that we're just kind of in limbo. So, as much as I don't want to rush her, um I do I do want to rush her and I know so many people will be like, you know, you should let them come when they're ready, but in reality, sometimes that's not always the best option. So, I've weighed up the pros and cons. I could have waited till 10 days passed, but I'm going to go at 8 and start the process.

[00:31:15]So, it'll be the Foley balloon again, which I had with Charlie, which is like a non-chemical induction, and the main aim for it is to get your cervix to dilate to 3 cm. So, that's the plan.

[00:31:27]Once it's dilated, last time my waters broke naturally on their own, so it was classed as spontaneous labor. If not, then I'll be booked onto labor w to have my waters broken. And she said, "At that point, I can choose whether I want to have them manually broken or let the process happen." But she did warn me that especially in a second pregnancy, your dilation can actually go backwards again. So like I could get the balloon go through all that pain and get to 3 cm to then have it taken out and then it shrink back down. Um so yeah, I feel like it's just like I've decided to be induced. I'm just going to go along with the process. Um, obviously if things don't happen, if it doesn't work, then I've got other options with like the peseries and you know the um hormone drips and stuff like that. So hopefully it doesn't come to that. But I just want to hear where I can see what she's up to now. My anxiety is something that I've got to take into consideration this time. And every day that she's not here, I can feel myself just getting more and more worked up and like I don't know. I just feel like that is such a huge part and everyone copes with this part of pregnancy differently, I suppose. And for me, I'm just noticing myself more and more like worrying or like trying to get everything to be right before she comes and just getting really in my head. And I don't want to do that. I really want to stay calm and I don't want to get myself into the pickle that I got myself into when I was overdue with Charlie. So, yes, long story short, um if she doesn't come tomorrow, I'm going to be induced the day after, which is kind of nice cuz I feel like with having Charlie this time, it's just so much easier knowing that like he's okay and I can say bye to him properly and it's not like all a massive rush. Um, so yeah, we'll see. It feels very surreal and I just feel like tomorrow is going to be like the longest day in history if I don't go into labor tonight. So, she said 24 hours. If the sweep is effective, she'll be here in like I'll be in labor in 24 hours. So far, I just feel a bit achy. Um, but she was actually able to do a sweep whereas last week she wasn't able to do a sweep.

[00:33:29]So, um, we'll see. I will check in with you again tomorrow.

[00:33:36]Oh gosh, it just feels like such a long slog at this point.

[00:34:06]I am now eight days overdue. I'm very warm because I've been running around the head running around the house like headless chicken. Dom's currently hoovering up outside in his car. It's funny the things you do when you're waiting for a baby to come. But yeah, I'm eight days over.

[00:34:23]Oh my goodness, she is so so low. I'm going for my induction today. Thus the bags. So yes, we are on our way. I will update you all when I know what's going on. The current plan is to have the folly balloon put in today and then it will get me to 3 cm where either my waters will break naturally or I'll be booked on to labor ward to have them broken. So I'll bring you along for the journey. There's lots of like ifs and buts and we don't really know what the next even 24 hours, 48 hours has in store. So, we're very much in I don't know. I just feel like I'm surrendering to the universe. What will be will be.

[00:35:03]It's all planned out and I'm just going to have to go along with it. So, that is that is today's plan. I'm going to shuffle these over to the door and mom can put them in the in the car, but I've got everything that I need just in case I go and I am 3 cm already. They might very well say there's space on the labor ward. Let's break your waters. So, I am prepared for either a coming home or b staying in. Who knows? Who knows what's going to happen? How are you feeling about it all? E.

[00:35:32]Oh, my big boy. Charlie's at my in-laws.

[00:35:36]They're having him for us. So, it's worked out really nice. He's gone to nursery this morning. We said bye. He was in such a good mood. And then they're going to pick him up tonight and have him sleep over and then they'll have him until we're ready for him to come back. I miss him so much already.

[00:35:50]But I feel like this is such a nice way for it to have worked out rather than him waking up in the morning to then being here and like having to take him to nursery and it's just all chaos. So yeah. Anyway, Dom's here now. So >> hello. Your chariot is ready.

[00:36:06]>> I'm very warm. Is it warm outside or is it just me? Uh, it's a bit cold windy on days.

[00:36:12]>> Waving a h super hot. Yeah.

[00:36:15]>> Just standing on the garden like a snowman.

[00:36:18]Noted.

[00:36:20]>> Right then. I'm ready to go.

[00:36:23]I feel really nervous. Everyone's like, "Are you excited?" I'm like, "I'm excited for the end outcome." I'm not excited for what's about to come my way.

[00:36:32]>> Right. Let's go.