Why I Don't Take The Stuff Back | Cultural Understanding In Accra | Spiritual Perspective

[00:00:00]You know I'm in the region.

[00:00:03]Where [snorts] you get the church on a Friday.

[00:00:07]You know it bother me.

[00:00:08]I have a bonafide cold because I've been eating so poorly.

[00:00:14]But I'm drinking some lemongrass tea and it's making me sweat.

[00:00:20]Plus [snorts] I was walking on this cold floor cuz I took the mats and I gave them away because I was telling y'all over the mats. I used the mats in the living room. The ones [snorts] in the bedroom I still need them, but the mats in the living room are so warm.

[00:00:31]So I have my great ideas. I do have some extra mats though, so if I wanted to put them on that carpet, but I got to do something else. I got an idea kind of sorted out. Like I don't have an idea and I don't get the mats away, but Um But good evening. I hope you have perfect colon complete. I'm really really exhausted. I didn't sleep. I woke up very early yesterday and I didn't go back to sleep, but I was I was sleeping, [snorts] but I'm up. My friend is leaving to go to the states and I wanted to talk to her and then >> [snorts] >> And I had gas. So when I have gas, I don't really sleep. It's just the way It's just the way it is. Stay.

[00:01:12]I just don't. So.

[00:01:15]>> [snorts] >> But anyway, I'll be back on it tomorrow.

[00:01:18]The guest is leaving in the morning. It was fun. It was nice. Next adventure.

[00:01:23]I'm excited. So he's a great person, great guy and we had fun.

[00:01:32]So >> [snorts] >> I know that I did a video and I private it. I private the video because >> [snorts] >> one of my two friends, mentors like, "Oh, I was not going to watch that video where you was going You was talking to Eric crazy for 40 minutes." So I guess some people thought I was a bit hard.

[00:01:52]Um But somebody asked me why don't I just take my stuff back if I if he took it.

[00:01:58]Without our permission.

[00:02:00]So, let me tell you.

[00:02:03]He's a really sweet kid and you know, I have a mental health professional in my space, so he really helped me to understand what, you know, kind of condition that he has. So, that helps to explain a lot. Now, that doesn't mean it explains the taking of stuff. I don't know.

[00:02:22]>> [snorts] >> You know, I don't know. It just kind of just mine.

[00:02:26]Just it just runs and goes and he doesn't he does things and think about it later, but he's sweet and he's accommodating and he's here for me and he does his best. I don't really think he means malice. I really [music] think I don't think he truly gets it, you know? And then [music] also too, you know, Jamaicans aren't really into sharing things. This idea is kind of very American that this is mine. I know [snorts] it's that when I was with my ex, like he's brother could come over and like take all his shoes if he wanted to and that was just fine and his clothes and the whole bit. The concept of and I I kind of think it's kind of dope. I I don't think I could do it.

[00:03:06]Like Americans are very very I I don't know about Caribbean Americans or even African continent. Well, I know this is what I'm talking about.

[00:03:17]Or Latino Americans. No offense about if I'm offending black Americans.

[00:03:23]But out of all the people that I see, we don't really like to share in that way.

[00:03:28]We're not very good at that. If If Not to say we're it's we're better people because we can't do it.

[00:03:34]But we'll invite somebody over to the house and and you do wrong the one thing that's not right, we'll ask you to leave or we'll start getting antsy. We start getting nervous you're going to want to stay or you're going to want to might want to take over their house or they did something bad. You know, we a little different, you know, we a little different.

[00:03:51]Um but a lot of other cultures, you know, what's yours is mine and what's mine is yours.

[00:03:57]As sukasa, we call sukasa, is another one.

[00:04:02]So, we really have this ownership thing that this is mine. And it's really a long time now still. Taking me even longer. I'm not saying I got it.

[00:04:11]You know, here if they come to your house and they break something, it's an accident so they just say sorry.

[00:04:18]There's no compensation.

[00:04:20]There's nothing you can do.

[00:04:22]And if you ask can you pay for it, they say, "Well, you he said sorry, what's the problem?"

[00:04:27]Um, yeah, if you sit there and leave your stuff right there, probably not coming back, they're going to use it.

[00:04:35]It's right there in front of them. Even though it's not in front of them, but it is.

[00:04:40]His house is very nice. It's actually got a nicer than mine right now. I mean, yeah, I mean, I guess so, but all my stuff's in there. No, it's not all my stuff. It's It's a few things though.

[00:04:49]It's a good amount. But, you know, it's a nice amount of stuff, but um, it was just interesting. It was all this stuff that I really didn't want anymore.

[00:04:56]I don't know how he intuitively knew that. Not that I didn't want, but I didn't care for. One thing is like, I feel like I'm blessed. And the reason why I get blessed is because it's definitely because I got some high salary going on.

[00:05:10]I be saving a nickel and dime all the time. It's because I tithed. And I tithed to people like Quake who and Eric who look out for me. You have to have some type of family. I'm not buying my friend.

[00:05:23]And I'm not telling you, I'm telling you he has I don't know. I don't want to talk about diagnose somebody, but he's got a little He's on some spectrum and it's not the one that they think. It's another one.

[00:05:37]And um, but his heart, if you call him, he'd be getting here, he'd run to do everything for you, make sure you good. He makes sure When my guests came, Eric was there for my first two guests [music] and they loved him. They said they didn't stay long. You got family.

[00:05:53]This guest came. He [snorts] was like, you got a community, you got family.

[00:05:56]Eric is If Eric wasn't here, half the stuff that I get done would not get done.

[00:06:03]Well, all the [snorts] young men decided to skip out, it was Eric who was there for me.

[00:06:09]The whole point is he's a Leo like me.

[00:06:11]So, this the whole thing is hilarious.

[00:06:13]There is a blessing and reflection up in that piece, you know?

[00:06:18]Um but he means well and he really just loved His place looks amazing. Like I love I mean, he made me want to change my whole life like that. Thank you. Like like >> [snorts] >> His vibe is up in there. Super clean and it's like My stuff look good up in that piece.

[00:06:37]Like It look good. Like it look good. Like it's like I'm I'm kind of proud of him.

[00:06:42]Like I even look proud. Like, you know, auntie showed him and he did it.

[00:06:46]>> [snorts] >> I have so much, you know, as far as my is concerned.

[00:06:51]If I lose a little along the way, I'm really not losing it. It's actually losing It's loosening from my grip, you know? And it's allowing for more.

[00:07:00]You don't want to know my greatest secret of how I maintain with the you know, monetarily [snorts] small amount of money that I gather and I I'm an entrepreneur. So, I can have a client for years and then it's always a season where the funds all gone.

[00:07:16]It's But it's sometimes a year. They've been with me for 3 years, 4 years, 5 years.

[00:07:21]And then they got what they need and you know, they move forward and new ones come in.

[00:07:26]But that's a transitionary time. That's And And also too, June, July, August is my harder months. I always say I'm going to prepare for it better, but somehow I always get through. People [snorts] tend to be wanting to get out, do things with their family. I get it. So, every Sunday, you know, I don't always get it.

[00:07:40]So, I'm just saying my money is not like a regular paycheck.

[00:07:43]I have to make it happen, but things you know, stagnate. Not stagnate, things slow down.

[00:07:48]>> [snorts] >> And then me, even I would be needing a break then, too. So, you know, it works out perfectly.

[00:07:54]Um but it's I I get from wherever the source is that come is because I give.

[00:08:01]But Eric gives me a lot. Eric gives me So, everybody says the same thing, he wouldn't hurt a fly. He wouldn't hurt a fly. Yes, I be getting mad. I'm a mom.

[00:08:09]And then my kid kind of he pisses me off. There's so many cultural things that, you know, I'm not understanding.

[00:08:16]We are the selfish American where ours is ours ours and you know, we are we are very very non-communal. We're not very good at the communal thing. It's amazing. I see the old type of American whites like, wow, we're pretty I don't know about Korean people. They might I think they might be a little more family oriented and Latino people, but black American people not all of us now cuz don't get mad at me. Don't come for me, please.

[00:08:42]You know, I think we are truly American. Like I really feel like you know, I can see why black people do be like, we're American. We're the original Americans. And we kind of are.

[00:08:51]We we bought into the whole line of thinking. Um we we break somewhat disconnected from that connection to others and sharing what we have and you know, we share what we want. But in Africa, Ghana, they don't share what they want. They share what they have.

[00:09:09]That's two different things.

[00:09:11]We share what we want. They share what they have.

[00:09:15]It's two different concepts.

[00:09:17]So, it never crossed his mind to ask Madam, can I have Right. [snorts] So, that's a good question. I'm happy to answer.

[00:09:24]Um so, let me see.

[00:09:27]>> [snorts] >> All right away when I was moving the stuff from here to a car, I let them know. I said, hey, you I'm going to give you the It's a great question, so I'm not mad at it.

[00:09:37]Uh the [snorts] to the actual he I "Yeah, that's my my life, Jason."

[00:09:40]So, and I agree, first of all.

[00:09:43]But, I told him I said, "I'm going to give you the refrigerator and I forget what else.

[00:09:50]The couch, the table.

[00:09:54]Um I can't remember what else. I could that could just be it. Oh, this picture, the hunter.

[00:10:03]And he was very happy, very humbled. So, when he painted my house, the red, black, and gray, he didn't ask me for any money.

[00:10:13]He didn't ask me for any money. He did the work and didn't ask for anything because in his mind he felt like I gave him all the stuff.

[00:10:19]I did. And I didn't even think of that, but I was so happy cuz the work with me, my money was, you know, I needed that.

[00:10:24][snorts] So, I gave, he gave, you know.

[00:10:28]Um he goes to do a lot for me. So, I always thought In a way, I know he could ask, but I'm going to get to that, too.

[00:10:35]Let me tell you what I I'm going to do.

[00:10:36]It'll be better. And this is a hard one.

[00:10:37]This is a hard one even for um certain things that when I tell my friend Antonio, he'd be like, "Well, da da da da." I said, "Listen, if you know how somebody is or how they are, don't put them in a position to mess up."

[00:10:51]So, and then he got excited. He really wanted the stuff. He probably figured out I didn't really care about it cuz I ain't come back in 10 months.

[00:11:00]It's wrong. Don't get me wrong. It's wrong in our book. It doesn't make sense, you know. I know all of the names that wouldn't do it. They wouldn't know how to have to ask. But, I also know he has a condition.

[00:11:11]Um but two things could be right and wrong at the same time. You know what I'm saying?

[00:11:16]People say two things can be right. Some could be not right and also right at the same time.

[00:11:22]So, I uh Yeah, because yeah, he did borrow, he said. But, then, you know, there was some other things that he also [snorts] borrowed after I told him to not borrow the first one.

[00:11:36]So, for me, just not to put him in a bad situation, I'm just going to take the keys. He can't handle the job. There he had a job, he can't do it, and that's okay, cuz the jobs that he can do are magnificent.

[00:11:49]I know to to us to other people like it sounds like he's stealing, and I know it looks like that, and I know it's so hard to say. I just can't I don't see it as stealing now. I see it as taking things that he had and he didn't have belonging to I don't even think What is that called? Stealing.

[00:12:05]Um, [snorts] but it's not that it doesn't bother me, it's that I'll never put myself in a position for it to happen again.

[00:12:13]But, other words, I can't really throw the baby out with the bath water.

[00:12:17]You know when you say nobody's perfect, and your friends, you know, you got to take them if you want to, and you look at the best of them and don't worry about the rest.

[00:12:26]That's him for me.

[00:12:28]That's him for me.

[00:12:29]I was pissed off. I was so pissed off. I was pissed off I did a whole video.

[00:12:33]And my friend was a fan who I thought I was too hard on him.

[00:12:38]And what they're saying is to both of them, because they're older, >> [snorts] >> I'm going to go on into the top now. You really going to make yourself mad talking to somebody that's that's not really understanding what's going on.

[00:12:50]And I know you think like, "Well, he ain't stupid, he know."

[00:12:53]Some people don't know.

[00:12:56]What do they call that?

[00:12:58]I wish people that have something like I can speak on ADHD or on being on the spectrum with that, but what is it?

[00:13:04]Certain cues that he doesn't get. He doesn't I see I I I had a name for him that I was calling him. It was an old school name. It started with an R. And every time he would do something, I'm like, "Oh, he's so I can't say it, people would be offended.

[00:13:17]>> [snorts] >> But, you know, they got new words, so I can now give it I understand the name, cuz the when I saw found out the diagnosis, I understood.

[00:13:25]You know, that it's certain things he doesn't get in that way and certain things he's bringing in with.

[00:13:32]I love that boy. I love that boy. I was mad. I was I was upset. It's everything is true.

[00:13:40]But I just don't want to put I won't put him in a position to have to choose. A lot of things he forgot. Yes, he probably he told me now this is what I'll say.

[00:13:51]The thing with the um that medicine bed on the couch outside and the pillows.

[00:14:02]When he was so happy I saw I said, "Let me see your apartment." This is when he first got his apartment and I was in the prom.

[00:14:06]And he was showing me around and he said, "Oh and I want to show you your yard." So he showed me he had my two end tables out there. He had the ala chairs out there.

[00:14:16]And he really decorated. It looked really pretty. I said, "Ooh it looks so good." You know, I want to make him feel I mean cuz it's true. I said, "Ooh it looks so good but the all that that you put out there the rain will absolutely ruin it and I'll have nothing." There's a lot of things they don't know.

[00:14:30]So I think that he took the medicine bed and put it out there because he wanted the place to look pretty. And maybe he's probably sitting there. But they do that, too.

[00:14:39]He's probably he considers me like auntie family. And in their family you can go to your auntie's stoop and sit on it. You can pull out stuff for the company to come. You can do it.

[00:14:51]So he forgot cuz like you said my mind be plenty, you know. My mind be plenty.

[00:14:56]So he had plenty on his mind cuz he does. And he he would have he didn't remember to put it back.

[00:15:02]He didn't remember to put it back. I know that's so hard. I know you know how Yes. Yes, exactly. See what I'm saying?

[00:15:08]Exactly.

[00:15:10]Yeah, like I said I had another word and that but it's the it's the new and I got it. I said, "Oh yeah I get that."

[00:15:17]So he just he's a sweetie pie and And does his he really functions. He's a you know, it's interesting sometimes when somebody's on spectrum I notice they are very intentional about certain things and his is math. He could math I never seen somebody work on a he call it the calculations like that person does.

[00:15:36]Extremely. So he tell 55 57 like this is a god damn genius over here.

[00:15:43]Now yeah, he repeat a story to you a thousand times cuz that's that thing.

[00:15:47]That's what it do, you know?

[00:15:49]Like and then he he got it. And he's such a taskmaster like he going to get you there but yeah, it's going to be fast, it's going to be rushed. He not going to hear you he going to you have to repeat things a thousand times.

[00:16:02]But he is the sweetest kid. He's such a sweet kid.

[00:16:06]And I feel very blessed to have him in our lives. So no, he can't have the keys no more.

[00:16:12]Um we're not going to put him in that position.

[00:16:14]You know? I got other positions that he do very well. He going to get the my guests to the to the uh chauffeur tomorrow as he did my other guests. My guest one of them loving Eric.

[00:16:27]He's such a part of the family. The other guy totally left me for for dad for dad.

[00:16:33]And Eric said, "Hey, I know you lost tonight here but I there for you."

[00:16:37]I there for you that means I am there for you. I'm going to take care of you and he's done nothing but do that.

[00:16:45]He'd be working with the motor cuz he do a motor driving. He also got contracts that he can work with. And when he do his painting and his POP.

[00:16:53]But no matter what in between all of that if I call him, I say, "Well, Eric I need water." "Well, Eric I need" he come right back gassing up.

[00:17:03]Yeah, I would be heartbroken after an also Kwaku. I could be mad like, "Oh Kwaku, you know, you went over there and you did this and" but Kwaku is the is my son and I take him he will do anything for me. He also was day for me.

[00:17:18]And all the person even though the person was with me together, the other person would never even take me to the house or anything. Nothing. Be quiet.

[00:17:25]Quiet. Quiet. Quiet.

[00:17:27]We laughed together. Show up. So, I learned that especially when you're in another country, you can't be as choosy as you would.

[00:17:37]And on the matter of physical level, every single thing that he has, I really in my heart didn't like or didn't want.

[00:17:45]He actually helped me cuz I got all the other furniture that I got to bring back over here. Remember I'm I'm going to let the other furniture go.

[00:17:52]He kind of cleaned it up. So, now I thought to myself, well, then well, now you don't have to have a problem anymore when you say, "Damn, what am I going to do with this extra furniture I don't want?"

[00:18:01]I now I got somebody to give it to.

[00:18:03]I want you to also keep in mind, too, there's another funny thing that's kind of funny is you know, I tell you there was this there's a going joke, you know, I'm going to tell you if you want to make not get your house robbed, have African It's It's stuff in your house cuz Africans don't want no African stuff. They want something that when they rob it, they can go out there and get some money for it. So, I thought I was pretty cool. I thought nothing would ever be missing. But, because he worked with me and it was so interesting, a older woman, 78 years old, Miss T. Carr, >> [snorts] >> Mama T.

[00:18:32]She said to me this. And I said, "Okay, really?" She said, "You know, Eric's learning a lot from you.

[00:18:37]I mean, you're training him. You might not know it, but like you are saying like no, Eric this, the blue light this, no, we're going to do this, and then Eric's going to do this. You know, that's going to be bad. Remember?" She told me that. She's 78 years old. She saw it.

[00:18:49]She said he's going to watch him going to be doing his own spaces definitely. I I never I never thought I never saw it.

[00:18:56]Like and Eric has got African My African currency she threw in the bag.

[00:19:02]He got the hunter on the wall.

[00:19:04]He got the He got the um the king furniture with the matching chair and table.

[00:19:14]He got my little refrigerator in the perfect little place.

[00:19:17]I mean he encouraged his own little style, but he got my bed looking great in the living room. He wanted his bedroom. He got nice He got a nice frame. Like I His house is immaculately clean. Like I was quite impressed.

[00:19:34]And I I heard spirits say you should be honored.

[00:19:38]You converted an African young person to value their own stuff over the stuff they used to get before.

[00:19:49]I don't know. I I think that that is amazing.

[00:19:54]So, as the as the as the Dominican says, "It's your fault."

[00:19:59]It's your fault. You made him get a taste for something different and authentic and beautiful.

[00:20:05]And he says when he brings his friends over my friend calls his house has has has house the love shack. So, he says when he brings his friends over uh they all marvel at the African stuff.

[00:20:19]The same one the same young people would say they never want in their house.

[00:20:22]They never seen it put together. Well, most of them don't have a couple miles, right? They wouldn't know. So, um you never know whose blessing is involved. So, yeah, I don't want to uh I don't want to disrespect him ever like I did on camera. That's why I took the video there.

[00:20:41]And I don't want to um I don't know. I want to be respectful, kind of loving because he's family.

[00:20:55]My friend Antonio came.

[00:20:57]And Antonio showed me I'll tell you that day though Christmas passed.

[00:21:02]And Antonio showed me that I had everything I needed. That I had family and community. And if you saw it would be a picture that's the beautiful smile of Arigato, megawatt smile, >> [snorts] >> and the handsome boyish good looks of Quico. Both of them.

[00:21:21]That and I but I was sitting there saying I don't have no family.

[00:21:25]Community? Again, those two are very much my community.

[00:21:30]But I have other ones.

[00:21:32]I mean the way when I went into this place that I get the nuts, the hug was genuine.

[00:21:38]The sister that called my sister from the market that sold me the fruit.

[00:21:43]Um the neighbor, Eric's grandfather.

[00:21:48]Uh the pastor. I mean, this is sound like it's a movie I'm making up, right?

[00:21:53]It was like and and but I couldn't see all of it. It was had to take a stranger to come in and be like, this is well received. Like this is um Yeah.

[00:22:05]He said, "I never really see anyone so advanced for and so in the culture. You not just hanging out in the crowd. You done went way far in somebody else's literally like, "Oh, people in the crowd wouldn't come up this far."

[00:22:20]And I thank you for that love.

[00:22:22]So yeah, it was Eric is a part of my life and if I didn't have him, this other person left me like he never even knew me, which I understand you got to do what you got to do. I forgive him for sure, but >> [music] >> that one said, "I'll be there for you."

[00:22:36]And he never has not been there for me.

[00:22:38]So at least his word is bond. At least his word is going to He's going to take care of you. He ain't going to hurt you.

[00:22:44]And Tony absolutely loves him. Everybody loves him that meets him because he's a genuine kid. He's a genuine kid.

[00:22:52]J- His place is beautiful. Like I still go off.

[00:22:56]I ain't even mad at him. I ain't even mad at him.

[00:23:00]Okay?

[00:23:02]So I apologize completely for reprimanding his ass.

[00:23:08]Um I went up one side and down the other.

[00:23:10]And uh my Brooklyn came all the way out cuz it was But then when I thank God also for this mental health professional, this health care professional that came to my house and said, "Oh, he has done the God. I diagnose this all the time." I said, "I can see that. I get it."

[00:23:29]But he said, "See how he wouldn't hurt a fly He wouldn't hurt a fly." And I said, "I know he wouldn't."

[00:23:35]So, I feel very blessed today everything worked out. So, I had this I wanted to get somebody to help me clean this house. You know how dusty be when they first come back.

[00:23:44]So, I had this one I called one friend and he said the woman coming but she ain't come the first day or the second day. So, we knew that she wasn't coming.

[00:23:51]Then you got there was another one >> [snorts] >> that the young lady with the baby. I got to ask her baby, "Is this my daughter?"

[00:24:03]Um she uh and told some woman she said, "Okay, I think I can do it." She was young she must got overwhelmed and think she could do it.

[00:24:11]So, she didn't do it. And then she said, "I got the perfect person." Which is her boyfriend, which is the land owner of the land I own.

[00:24:20]>> [snorts] >> Sister her they came and did the damn thing.

[00:24:27]And then she said, "I wash clothes I can come on Sunday." Oh, you got it.

[00:24:31]Because if you wash clothes most people that clean your house well wash clothes well, too.

[00:24:35]She said, "I can also cook for you." I said, "Oh, I can show you how to make it vegan." Make it I'm going to have her make me vegan [snorts] stews and vegan soups and vegan I'm about to live a wonderful happy life with like I'm supposed to.

[00:24:49]Because I'm without there and I'm going to be that now. I'm I'm walking into it.

[00:24:54]>> [snorts] >> It's been the most magical I've never in my life, I mean, like you said, you know, you might be entertaining angels unaware.

[00:25:07]Incredible. I don't even have time when he's leaving tomorrow, so I'll have time to process this whole thing. I try to I'm trying not to process it too hard because it's just it was exactly what I needed at the time that I needed it.

[00:25:18]And so I was going to the states, we are still scheduled to go into the states.

[00:25:25]Oh, I could I'm getting everything I need, you know.

[00:25:28]You can save money, but you still got to live, so the money you save, you kind of got to use. It's just life happens, so it'll all work out. I'm not pressed or anything. I know seeing my family is going to be the greatest thing.

[00:25:39]The part about going to I don't I don't I'm just I'm just really wanting to know, not even know, just >> [snorts] >> figure out like what my next steps are.

[00:25:52]Um and the thing that I thought what I really wanted to do, I don't think I really want to do it. Not I'm going to see my child, so don't worry about that part, but >> [snorts] >> the other thing that I thought I really wanted to do, I got so clear, I realized I just was living in the past, and I want something to be like it was, but it's not going to be like that, and yes, I still have that burning desire, but I actually have a desire to do something else that I think is a little more I don't know, dare I say practical, cuz I'm not the most practical person, but um >> [snorts] >> so I'm just going to sit with that part for a while, but I it's like I got off social media or media, and I don't feel the same way about a lot of things anymore.

[00:26:40]It was a lot of destiny, y'all.

[00:26:42]Yeah, [snorts] I don't feel the same the way about a lot of things anymore. It's like now I got my own mind to myself, it's not influencing me, right? I guess that's why I call us being put in I got my I got get my nose.

[00:26:53]They call us influencers, right?

[00:26:55]It's not the influencing me. I was living in the past. I I was I so believed there was no other joy, happiness in my life.

[00:27:05]I had And I don't feel that need to have that happen. I don't feel that need to live in the past, and I don't feel that need to recapture the past.

[00:27:23]It just left me.

[00:27:25]>> [snorts] >> It absolutely left me. Isn't that something?

[00:27:31]It absolutely left me.

[00:27:33]I don't have it. I don't have that I don't have that desire.

[00:27:37]I'm not saying I don't still want those things. I think I what I was looking for was what [snorts] I was not. I was running away from aging and >> [snorts] >> which was not being comfortable with who I was and my body.

[00:27:52]Physical body, mental body, or spiritual body.

[00:27:55]And I don't know. I came up I It was just a lot. Like I mean, I can go where I want to go. I can get away anytime I want to.

[00:28:04]I don't have to run away. I can just get away when I feel like it. Anytime, place, with myself or with my friends, too.

[00:28:13]So, I don't feel nothing about the way I used to.

[00:28:18]I feel I feel great.

[00:28:20]I'm so glad to not have that [snorts] burden. That was a lot of burden.

[00:28:28]I'm just following my spirit, and and my spirit is very easy right now. My spirit is not leading me anywhere. It's not leading me away from anything. It's just like it's just moving forward. So, what I was holding on It's like I had to I keep saying this. I feel like it was no coincidence that we got over here. We did not plan this.

[00:28:49]I feel like I had to get out that cramped place. That cramped place had just created overstimulation, overcontemplation, overthinking.

[00:29:00]It was just way too much.

[00:29:03]Just way, way too much.

[00:29:06]And now I just feel so clear and just burden-free [snorts] and it was too heavy in there. I think too, as I said before, I don't like stuff crazy, but I think that black wall was a little too dark for me, y'all. I know, I know. I hope this is not sounding off topic, but like I painted that black wall black and I didn't like that. So, I can't do no dark colors like that no more. I'll never do it again.

[00:29:31]And also, >> [snorts] >> that building across the street is not is not good for you. You know, I remember the first time I ever heard the term noise pollution, I was in elementary school. And I just I thought that word was the most fascinating word I've [snorts] ever heard.

[00:29:49]And I say that because um I I never I [snorts] could I got it right away when I heard it. I was in elementary school.

[00:30:01]It's like, "Wow, noise could be bad for your health."

[00:30:05]Pollution is not good for your health.

[00:30:06]So, noise pollution is bad. And I resonated with that as a young child.

[00:30:12]And I know you have so many toxins and all that dust that continually comes into your home. You can't help it.

[00:30:19]And they throw trash over there. That just is disgusting, to be honest. And then, no trees. The no trees is a big part, too.

[00:30:27]>> [snorts] >> So, that place is uh I I gladly give it up. I gladly give it up. Not that I I'm so grateful for I'm so grateful for that. I'm so grateful for the life that I live for. I'm so grateful. Like, I mean it, but there's other things I can do with that money.

[00:30:45]>> [snorts] >> And right now, it's not even traveling.

[00:30:48]I I want to travel. I want to travel throughout Ghana um when I'm ready. I got a project I want to do first, and I want to focus on that, and then, you know.

[00:30:59]So, the way I see it is that I'm going to go to the States for a month, visit my daughter, and come home.

[00:31:06]Back to Ghana. That's what I feel, and that's what I see.

[00:31:10]And it'll be the Volta. How I'm [snorts] going to do dry season, I'm going to be somewhere else. And then again, I might not be. I might have to be here, but it doesn't matter. We'll work it out. I'll just take one day at a time. I don't I don't mind I don't want to overthink it.

[00:31:20]I don't want to I don't care about this.

[00:31:22]None of this is that big anymore.

[00:31:25]>> [snorts] >> But I was trying to recapture something that is gone. And I'm kind of glad cuz why what what Why long for something you had when you can have something different?

[00:31:37]And you have something new.

[00:31:38]>> [snorts] >> And I know I opened up to that. I know a portal had opened. I know that there's shift that occurred. I know that for a fact.

[00:31:47]I know that for a fact. I mean, I'm living it, so yeah. Not pressed. Not about anything.

[00:31:54]Well >> [sighs and snorts] >> All right. I'm so tired, y'all. I'm going to go get some sleep. Um I had some tea, so I'm going to go to bed. I got a little headache cuz I'm just I didn't get enough sleep. I'm just tired, you know. I'm really sleepy, and um my friend is leaving early in the morning, so I will see him out, and I'm not going to go to uh David and have to chase the people. I just wave at the end.

[00:32:16]>> [snorts] >> I don't want to up my routine here cuz I had a little routine before I left Accra, and I want to I want to get back on it cuz I have not been on it. And it's been okay cuz everything It was fun, you know.

[00:32:27]Um but I want to go to bed at a certain time. Cuz I miss my room. Like my room is kind of dope, like yeah. I guess I like I guess things is not in that was in that black and white.

[00:32:38]>> [clears throat] >> Um the lamp. I'm just thinking like why it seems so much more open space. There really There's a different bed, too.

[00:32:45]This the bedroom bed, but I love it in here. I love everything about it, so.

[00:32:49]>> [snorts] >> But I gave up the bed, you know. So, now I can do my little decorating, but with the reason everything and nothing I'm not I'm not spending a lot of money like that. I'm ready to travel.

[00:33:03]And I believe that I feel that I'll do my July here.

[00:33:09]Um >> [snorts] >> Um I know I got to get the stuff from there to here. And I'll I might give some stuff to Eric. So, it's a whole thing so various. I might If I get I got to look at stuff and say, "You know what? I need all this stuff. Eric can have some of this."

[00:33:26]So, Eric's going to get So, he's going to be the recipient of more stuff.

[00:33:29]And I don't even mind that man he's going to get more stuff, so.

[00:33:32]>> [snorts] >> They got all stuff that I got. I mean, this is stuff. I don't care about it, but yeah.

[00:33:38]So, my plans in the DR No, right now. If it If it comes up again or just happens or get to the state I I honestly I don't know how I would feel later.

[00:33:49]>> [snorts] >> If you ever see hesitation in me, it's because I'm so feeling the state of the world. And I know people will say don't feel it. It's not like I feel it like I just feel like it's a time to sit still or to be with ones you love.

[00:34:05]>> [snorts] >> And I don't want to be I want to do something else. I won't tell you yet, but there's something else I want to focus on and use the money for.

[00:34:14]Um a lot's happening. We got to stay very intuitive. I'm still off the internet. I'm still off the internet. I still just come for the content creator.

[00:34:22]>> [snorts] >> I think we got to be ready and I think we got to be prayerful and that's to see what that would look like being here by so. anyway y'all, I'm not feeling well.

[00:34:34]>> [snorts] >> Cuz the floor I took the mats off the floors, so the floor is all cold, so I got to figure I got to put something on that one quick.

[00:34:41]I got to put some find some socks, so yeah, I'm feeling real like I need to sleep for days, drink hot tea, have soup, and stay in bed. That's it what I need to do cuz I'm worn out hanging out my friend. I'm worn out.

[00:34:56]So yeah, I just wanted to say that and that's the end of that. Hello, happy happy June teeth smooth. Happy June teeth from Mukbang.

[00:35:06]And [snorts] Leo says, >> [clears throat] >> Okay.

[00:35:11]So maybe I am somebody you used to know.

[00:35:13]I used to know that you used to know Leon.

[00:35:16]I feel like I did.

[00:35:17]Feel better. Thank you, LC Mitchell.

[00:35:19]Yeah.

[00:35:21]I want I'm sorry. It's cuz I'm not getting enough sleep, but today I will get enough sleep.

[00:35:25]Tonight and every night after tonight. So tonight too.

[00:35:30]So yeah, I love y'all. I appreciate the feel better.

[00:35:34]I could just cozy in bed. Yeah, I'm really not I'm feeling I'm tired and I'm got sniffles and I don't believe I sniffled. Okay. And whether it's wet really or from all the salt, it's real cool. I'll see you in the next vlog. I love y'all. I'll see you when I feel better. Peace and love.