Keep That Energy

Added: 2026-05-17

[00:00:05]Let me tell you something about communities.

[00:00:07]Some of them will chew you up, spit you out, and then spend the next 3 months talking about the taste.

[00:00:15]I know.

[00:00:16]I watched it happen in real time.

[00:00:20]8-hour streams, 7-hour streams, creators screaming at each other, doxing, fake emails, fabricated drama, people weaponizing deceased relatives, people mocking DV survivors, people mocking medical conditions, grown adults sitting in their living rooms performing outrage at strangers on the internet for sport, night after night after night.

[00:00:52]And apparently, I was supposed to want to be part of that.

[00:00:57]Here's what actually happened.

[00:01:00]I covered a creator because the content was there, and the story was real.

[00:01:05]I helped when I could.

[00:01:08]I sent information when people asked for it.

[00:01:11]I used my actual email accounts.

[00:01:14]My Proton email for day-to-day communication, my personal email for music files, video files, and legal matters, because that's what you do when you're a real person doing real work.

[00:01:28]I had three YouTube accounts.

[00:01:31]One is my main channel.

[00:01:33]One was my music channel, since deleted.

[00:01:37]And one is an older account attached to a phone number I no longer use.

[00:01:42]It's still there.

[00:01:44]I just don't use it.

[00:01:46]That's it.

[00:01:47]That's the whole network.

[00:01:50]Three accounts, two active, one dormant, all mine, all above board, which, just so we're clear, is exactly what YouTube's own policy allows.

[00:02:04]And then I found out a creator I had been documenting was pregnant, and I stopped. Full stop. Immediately. No drama, no announcement, no production.

[00:02:15]I privated the content. I deleted what needed to be deleted. I moved on. Not because anyone told me to, because that is a personal line I hold for myself. I don't cover pregnant people, period.

[00:02:28]That was before any of this started.

[00:02:31]Before the accusations, before the streams, before my name became a recurring character in someone else's content. And what did I get for that?

[00:02:40]February 10th, Croma Reels is not ran by just one person. I have a tendency to believe that it is likely two people.

[00:02:48]February 12th, I expect Croma Reels to probably have accounts that talk to each other and have whole conversations.

[00:02:55]I'm waiting for it. March 30th, I think Croma Reels is ran by multiple people, but they use mostly AI for their productions. May 5th, I actually believe that Croma has more than her. I believe Croma works with Terry Lynn. I believe there's multiple people. Three months, same accusation, zero receipts, stated as fact every single time.

[00:03:20]Now, let me tell you about the standard being applied here, because this is where it gets interesting.

[00:03:26]There is a person in this community, a self-admitted troll, who openly admits going into chats under multiple accounts, who goes on panels, who is celebrated, who is defended publicly and loudly every single time someone raises a concern.

[00:03:43]That person's own admission, documented on stream, she's a self-admitted troll.

[00:03:49]And the response to that? I like her.

[00:03:52]She's great. She's a wonderful human.

[00:03:54]She will always be welcome here and I don't really give a damn who that bothers.

[00:04:00]Same stream. She brought factual information. She cared about the facts.

[00:04:05]And again, she's amazing. Self-admitted troll, multiple accounts, goes into chats uninvited, goes on panels, celebrated, defended, amazing, always welcome.

[00:04:18]Me, two active accounts per YouTube policy, real emails, documentary content, documented receipts.

[00:04:27]May 5th, Cromer Reels is just a slot bucket, messy, tried to do a bunch of stuff.

[00:04:32]And the person saying all of this? May 11th, her own stream, her own mouth. I don't have troll accounts. I have research accounts. I got like three research accounts. I do now have officially like two or three. I think it's three different accounts that I'm managing right now.

[00:04:49]Three accounts currently managing for research.

[00:04:54]I'll let that breathe.

[00:04:56]Now, since I walked away from that environment, I have watched from a distance and what I have seen is creators accusing each other of doxing while actively doxing each other.

[00:05:07]Creators screaming about being lied to while being caught lying on camera.

[00:05:12]Creators performing outrage about harassment while cord-meeting harassment campaigns.

[00:05:18]Creators with three accounts calling out other people for having two.

[00:05:22]Creators with nine, nine separate moderator chat groups for one creator.

[00:05:29]Direct quote, May 11th.

[00:05:32]I heard you're in two of nine of Brit's mod chats. There's nine now these days.

[00:05:38]Nine moderator chat groups.

[00:05:40]But I'm the coordinated network.

[00:05:43]And somewhere in the middle of all of that, my name in streams, in chats, attached to things I didn't do, attached to people I'm not, attached to a version of events that requires you to ignore timestamps, documented evidence, and basic logic to believe.

[00:06:01]I've been told I'm not welcome in certain chats.

[00:06:04]Said with the energy of someone who thinks that lands like a consequence.

[00:06:08]Honey, I left voluntarily before any of this started, on my own terms, for my own reasons.

[00:06:16]You are not keeping me out of somewhere I was trying to get into.

[00:06:20]You are guarding a door I already walked away from. And while you're standing at that door, performing outrage, running 8-hour streams, cycling through the same accusations with the same zero receipts, I'll tell you what I've been doing.

[00:06:36]Building, documenting, researching, creating actual content with actual evidence, using actual tools, and sleeping soundly.

[00:06:50]The behavior I have watched in this community since I left, the mocking of domestic violence survivors, the mocking of medical conditions, the targeting of children, the fabricated emails, the doxxing, the coordinated harassment, the weaponizing of grief, none of that is something I want proximity to.

[00:07:11]Not a single piece of it.

[00:07:13]So, keep the energy.

[00:07:15]Keep the 8-hour streams.

[00:07:18]Keep the nine moderator chat groups.

[00:07:20]Keep the three research accounts.

[00:07:23]Keep the self-admitted troll on panels and celebrate her while you're at it.

[00:07:28]Keep the fake receipts and the selective memory, and the double standards, and the accusations that have been recycled for 3 months without a single piece of documented evidence.

[00:07:39]Keep all of it.

[00:07:41]I'm good over here.

[00:07:42]I have been good since the day I left.

[00:07:46]The door is closed.

[00:07:48]I closed it.

[00:07:49]Chroma reels out.