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[00:00:00]And when I see you again, I'll wear the blue shirt. It's my favorite one and I like the color and the way it feels on my skin.

[00:00:06]>> [music] >> I wear it first after every laundry cycle, so it usually lives in my hamper.

[00:00:10]It's so blue that it's almost black and I can pair it with anything.

[00:00:13]Maybe I'll wear my hair down and I'll let it stay wavy just [music] like it was when you loved me. So maybe you'll remember that you still just might.

[00:00:20]And when I see you again, I won't wear makeup. You already know what I look like at my best and my worst. You don't need me to put on a show for you and I don't want to put one on anyway because you won't deserve [music] it.

[00:00:28]You will never be deserving of everything that I am capable of being.

[00:00:32]And when I open your car door, I won't look at you right away. I won't be able to.

[00:00:36]I'll shut the door so I can prop myself up against the window. I'll wrap my arms around my legs in the passenger [music] seat because I need to hold myself together in this ball of adrenaline.

[00:00:45]I'm so afraid to see you again that that makes me sick and I need to guard something. My body, my heart, my hands from reaching over and grabbing you. My fingertips have [music] minds of their own, but when you look at me like that, you dissolve every thought I've ever had.

[00:00:57]You know exactly how to evaporate every reason I need to hate you with just one touch.

[00:01:03]So when I see you again, I'm afraid that I want to kiss you. That I'll need to.

[00:01:06]That I'll want to melt my body right into yours and stir the pot of our past and our becoming. Do you remember the right way to hold me?

[00:01:13]It seems I've forgotten. Tell me, does a heart break after years if we have become unrecognizable to one another?

[00:01:19]So I can prepare for this moment that won't happen with every thought I can find in the cobwebs of my mind. I can plan every detail meticulously, but it will all fall away the minute you say my name.

[00:01:29]Say my name and I'm 16 and I need your approval again, please. Just tell me if I've done all right for myself. Explain to me why I have been plenty enough for everyone else in my entire life but you.

[00:01:38]Tell me why you were the only one I ever cared enough to beg to love me.

[00:01:42]And somewhere deep in my broken mind, I think preparing to see you again is so much better than knowing I never will again, which is much more likely.

[00:01:50]If I plan, perhaps there will be some control, knowing I have none when it comes to you.

[00:01:55]Although I decide how to appear, how to present myself to you. Perhaps I can camouflage the truth that you are the moon and I am the moth. I have always been the moth when it comes to you.

[00:02:04]So maybe I'll keep my favorite blue shirt tucked away in case you want to see me at a moment's notice at a midnight hour because that's the only way it could ever be.

[00:02:13]I don't expect a thing from you. You taught me early on not to, but oh, how quickly I will fly straight into the light if you just tell me how fast to beat my wings.

[00:02:22]Maybe later I will be angry at the universe for burning me again, but when you call I won't wipe myself from the stream. I won't want to.

[00:02:30]What is a moth with no dream? And when I see you again it becomes so clear that you will always be mine.