I Moved to a Small Town and LOST MY MIND!

追加: 2026-06-04

[00:00:00]So, it's been about 4 months since I moved to this tiny little town. Special little fella. And I finally discovered why I'm losing my mind. The power is within us. We can make this better.

[00:00:13]Forget divide and conquer. Weather the storm together.

[00:00:16]>> I've lived in a big city my whole life.

[00:00:18]And moving here, I knew it was going to be an adjustment. It's a small town.

[00:00:23]There's nothing to do here. And I didn't care about that. I knew there would be nothing. And that's why I wanted to come here because it would be more quiet, little silence, slower pace, friendlier people, more nature. So, it's like, all right, sign me up. And immediately, I'm just like struggling, like just depressed. And I'm like, what the hell, man? I hate my life so much. And I have no idea why. And I finally realized small towns are less stimulating. When I was in Toronto, even going for a small walk down some side streets, there's more going on. There's always people everywhere on any side street. That's actually one of the more annoying things. You want to walk down a street alone and it's like there's always someone there and then if you dare go on a busy street, then it's like night life is in your face and people are eating hamburgers and they're drinking beers and they're going to movies and there's concerts and just the energy of that city. Even if you're at home inside, you feel it. Just outside, you know, all these things are happening outside. So, I'm here and none of it's happening. And so, this hectic Toronto energy has been ripped away from me. And all the things I used to do in it, even though I'm not like this party guy, I don't go out to eat. I do literally nothing. But I would go film things and interesting locations and people and all kinds of stuff. And there's whatever you wanted to do, you could do it in Toronto. Whereas now, I have a beach. It's pretty peaceful.

[00:02:03]There's uh some woods up that way.

[00:02:07]There's a downtown, but every time I go down it, there's no town. There's nobody's down. There's nothing there.

[00:02:15]There's nobody there. The odd person.

[00:02:17]And so, I'm used to this kind of stimulating life. And in Toronto, I'm always shopping for camera gear just to buy it and review it on my channel and then sell it off. And so I always had this whirlwind of cameras coming in, testing them, having fun, comparing them side by side, and then going out and selling them, and then getting the new thing. And it's this material focus that I wanted to get over. The only problem is it was like a drug and I'm missing the drugs. And so you're in this small town and there's none of that. Like I can't buy or sell camera gear here used.

[00:02:56]There's no market for it. And so no longer do I have this material thing to focus. Basically everything I used to focus on has been ripped out of my hands and I wanted that but I I haven't been able to replace it with anything. I got a bird feeder.

[00:03:13]That was cool. So it's like I've been trying to film those guys. It's like all right. We got birds here. All right.

[00:03:20]Small town life. It's a little different here. We go for walks. And it's just been hard. And I think that's why I've just been like lost. Everything feels different. Even like making videos for this channel feels different as well as the camera channel. It's like this is completely different now. If I ever get a lens to test for the camera channel, I don't know what to even film here. I'm like, who am I? Do I even keep that channel? like what what's going on here?

[00:03:48]Then I'm talking about health stuff here and it's like that's fun, but what am I supposed to do? Keep inventing wacky diets and document the terrible things that happened to me while on them. My dinner was mung bean sprouts and lettuce and broccoli and it's just it's so much volume and not a lot of calories. So, it's like you're stuffed to the gills, but you're still hungry. And I'm like, what am I even doing? I'm not even enjoying. Who would ever do it? The goal on this channel was to come up with the diet that heals mankind and then like we're all doing it. But every single one I try is like the most [ __ ] diet. Like who would ever even follow it. The futarian thing, no one's doing that. No one's shopping for what is that? Uh-oh. I'm attracting a lot of bugs. What does this light? Small town bugs. But it's been harder than I thought to adapt to this smaller like more peaceful lifestyle. Like it's so much better. Everyone I've ever met in this town numbering like into the 40s to 50s maybe. Like I get recognized quite a bit here. Everyone is so nice. Like it's so ridiculous. Every time I go buy groceries. There's always some fun conversation with the cashiers and the people. They're all just like laughing.

[00:05:07]In Toronto was just misery. Every cashier was just like, "Here's your change." Like it's never joking around.

[00:05:14]Like today was this lady was like, "I kill every house plant I've ever had.

[00:05:19]It's impossible. I killed a cactus today." And then the cashier is like, "Oh my god, you're a demon. How who How do you even kill a cactus? They're impossible to kill." She's like, "They're not that hard. They're not that hard, apparently." And like it's just so fun. The small like there's so much potential to this town. I can't wait for me to get over my [ __ ] Toronto agenda where I'm just like material driven and just stimulation all the time watching movies. It's like I'm not letting myself download movies. I'm just trying to be nice and normal. We're not pirating anything. Just happy times here. And I I don't know what to do with my time. I'm sitting there sometimes like what do I do now? I'm looking for like Jesus miracles. Just like, oh, I saw Jesus. I'm like, all right, there's what I'm going to do. I'm going to binge watch God. That that gives me peace inside. So, it's like it's been an adjustment and I don't have answers for it. But and I'm losing my mind if not have already lost it. But there's light at the end of the t. It's fading light, >> disappearing light. But it was a lot better before I got out here. It was all red and nice, but whatever. Oh my god.

[00:06:36]The [ __ ] was that? I do not belong here.

[00:06:39]That was big. See, here's just I'll leave after I say this. I'm vegan. But it's [ __ ] like that that you just saw.

[00:06:49]That's why it's on site with insects. No thank you to your life cuz they touch you. They just reach out and grab your face like, "Oh, whoops. Were you walking here? Sorry. I was just flying straight in a line towards your neck. And it's like, no. Yeah, you're done here. You build nests. Insects, you're not. You're not with me. You're not from God. You're devil beings. Creepy little [ __ ] So, like, no thank you to insects. You saw I was just trying to take out. They don't want me to have the small town joy.

[00:07:24]Someone's biting my neck right now. Just I'm up the video.

[00:07:29]The [ __ ] was that?

[00:07:34]How dare you thumb this down? Because you're so ethical that you're running a cockroach farm and you're planning on donating all the cockroach benefits to a homeless shelter.

[00:07:56]There's no benefits. It's cockroaches.

[00:08:00]So, have you noticed that? I've noticed a lot of comments. People say they moved to a small town, they couldn't handle it, and they moved back to the big city.

[00:08:07]It's because you couldn't handle your own mind. And so, I moved here and did a raw vegan diet, which also is not stimulating at all. And it's that's a that's a roller coaster of emotions on that one. Don't recommend it, but I could survive it. You have to admit that. I'll leave. Thank you for the Bitcoin donations.

[00:08:29]Comfort me with your thoughts.