Raw surrogacy update uncut

追加: 2026-06-01

[00:00:01]Well, hello and welcome back to the channel.

[00:00:03]>> [laughter] >> Um it's been a long time since I said these words. My name is Kim and I'm the traveling surrogate.

[00:00:11]I'm going for a different a different style video, I guess. I'm off social media. I went to Kenya in February, climbed Mount Kenya, was completely disconnected, and I absolutely loved it. Came back, obviously went down the rabbit hole again, got stuck in the algorithm.

[00:00:31]Then I've had uni deadlines. I'm in the third year of my bachelor's studying engineering, and I had four deadlines in 7 weeks. It's been pretty intense. Two of them like quite important ones as well.

[00:00:47]So I I just didn't have capacity for social media, but then I've been going down rabbit holes on YouTube of basically how damaging social media is.

[00:00:58]Like we all know it's damaging. We all know screen time is bad for children.

[00:01:02]>> [clears throat and cough] >> It's going to be bad for adults as well, right?

[00:01:06]And I've There was there were a couple of things that particularly stuck in my head. One of them was that if anything is free on the internet, you are the product.

[00:01:18]And that's just massively stayed with me.

[00:01:22]I've also got a theory, a conspiracy theory, that the internet is going to become totally unusable in about 5 years because of AI, because it feeds off of each other. There's just going to be nothing left, which any anything decent is going to have to be paywalled or like have a separate login like you do for um like university libraries and stuff like that to keep actual journal papers separate from all the slop.

[00:01:51]Social media, I think, is going to again become completely unusable.

[00:01:54]Hopefully platforms like YouTube will somehow manage that. Again, maybe it'll be paywalled.

[00:02:01]I think things like Substack Anyway, I'm I'm going off on a massive tangent, but basically, my point is the videos that I'm going to make are much more raw.

[00:02:10]I've got all my old videos on the channel, which were before AI was a thing. They're from 2020, 2021.

[00:02:19]So, now posting in 2026, I just feel like I don't need to edit. I don't need to have any makeup on. I've not brushed my hair. I've not brushed my teeth. I've not even got a bra on.

[00:02:28]But, this is it, isn't it? I think true human connection, human interaction, real life is going to become much more sought after. And the imperfections as well. And like, no one's I really like the word fallible. I'm not infallible. Is that right?

[00:02:49]>> [laughter] >> Um But, yeah, that's the point. We will make mistakes, and I think keeping them in a YouTube video is fine. I don't need to cut and edit out all of the ums and so's and tuts.

[00:03:02]I I used to get really annoyed. I have a habit of starting a sentence >> [laughter] >> and I'd cut all of them out. So, you might pick up on that now, anyway.

[00:03:10]Right. The actual point of this video is to talk about surrogacy, of course.

[00:03:16]I'm in Chris and Tom's house. They've just left for holiday.

[00:03:21]Should I say that? [laughter] Uh yeah, no one knows where the house is.

[00:03:26]So, yeah, we're staying here.

[00:03:30]Um Dilara's in the shower, and we've we've started trying this month.

[00:03:38]I'm debating when I'm going to post this. That's why I'm sort of thinking as I'm speaking, but I'm pretty sure I want to post it straight away. Um yeah, I think having real-time videos is really nice.

[00:03:50]Um but also makes me really anxious because if I don't get pregnant straight away, then that's putting it out there to the world. And I got pregnant straight away with with William. So, I'm really hoping that this one works.

[00:04:08]We did do an insemination over Easter, which was very last minute. Um I was ovulating. I got broody and horny.

[00:04:16]And uh I put due date calculators in.

[00:04:20]And I was ovulating over Easter. And any baby that was conceived would have then been due on Christmas Day. And I was like, "Let's make girl Jesus."

[00:04:28]Um cuz also aiming for a girl. Not that obviously you can choose, but if you do insemination slightly before ovulation rather than on the day of ovulation, it's a little bit more likely to be a girl.

[00:04:44]Didn't work. Um which I think was a good thing because of my my four deadlines in 7 weeks. I've been extremely stressed. So, if I had got pregnant, I think that would have been the most stressed by proxy baby ever.

[00:04:59]Um but yeah, so now this month I am feeling the pressure a little bit.

[00:05:03]About 4 days ago, I can always tell when I'm about to ovulate because my my thinking and my mindset changes a little bit. And this is where like the oversharing and everything comes comes back into the YouTube channel, but like I've always said, if it helps just one person feel more comfortable with who they are or they make a decision or you know, if it just makes someone feel more comfortable. So, being bisexual around just before and when I ovulate, I just remember that men exist. I'm like, "Oh, yeah, you're quite handsome." And then I'm like, "Oh, no, no, no. I'm just ovulating. My body's tricking me. I just you know, biologically want to get pregnant."

[00:05:46]Um and then the rest of the month, though, I totally forget that men even live on this planet with us.

[00:05:51]Uh, and I also feel a little bit broody in the sense that I either just want to be pregnant again, and I'm like, "Oh my god, I love pregnancy. I want to give birth. I really enjoyed it." Or I will start like debating in my head if it's possible for me and Delilah to have kids like logistically, and I'll think about how we'd make it work with shift work. And then I'll be like a few days after ovulation, I'll be like, "Oh my god, I do not want children." So then I sort of go back to normal. So about 4 days ago I started getting those, maybe 5 days ago, started getting those thoughts and feelings, and I was like, "Oh, okay, right, ovulation's coming."

[00:06:27]Um, I've been taking Wild Fertility Supplements, which from a surrogate friend who recommended them, who ovulated late in her cycles as I do. She said that it took about 3 months, but they did move her ovulation forward. So I started them in April.

[00:06:46]I normally ovulate around day 17, day 18 of my cycle, sometimes as late as day 21.

[00:06:52]Uh, last month I ovulated day 15, which I was very happy with, and this month is day 16. So that's an improvement. The amount of cervical mucus has also increased, which I think is to do with a combination of things. I'm also taking like CoQ10.

[00:07:08]Um, but yeah, I think it's the B6, zinc.

[00:07:12]There's a few other things, and obviously if you're going to take any supplements and stuff, make sure you do lots of research yourself cuz everyone's different, and I've I've trialed a lot of different things as well.

[00:07:21]So yeah, the cervical mucus then started um, I felt like a sharp pain, and I I always feel my cervix as well. I can tell the changes by the cervix. So that morning it had been quite like tight and quite closed and quite firm. After those sharp pains, I felt it again, and it started to open. So I was like, "Okay, cool.

[00:07:42]Entering the fertile window, which is 5 days."

[00:07:46]So, then the next night, that must have been Tuesday, the Wednesday night, we'd already planned to do an insemination.

[00:07:53]Um I was reading some George Orwell stuff this morning cuz uh oh, is it I went down a rabbit hole. It's a really weird somehow related to Trump and truth speak and newspeak and all that sort of stuff, and they call artificial insemination art sim, and I was like, "That's quite handy, actually. Art sim. I like that."

[00:08:14]So, we did one on Wednesday.

[00:08:16]Um yeah, it couldn't have been more spot-on, to be honest. Uh the insemination went perfectly.

[00:08:24]I can always tell when I get up in the morning and go for a wee if everything stayed in and then it comes out.

[00:08:30]>> [laughter] >> Um so, yeah, that was fine, and then Friday was yesterday, so I was I was doing the LH tests, the little pee sticks, which I've never found to be very very accurate for me.

[00:08:44]The the LH doesn't seem to drop off massively afterwards, so I don't find it very clear.

[00:08:50]And I've never [clears throat] had a very dark second line. It's meant to be like a dye stealer when you're having the LH surge. It's meant to be darker than um not the test line, the other one. The one that proves the test is working.

[00:09:03]The one on the right.

[00:09:05]And I've never had it that dark. So, I've been testing, but kind of like, "This is pointless. I know that I'm ovulating due to my body signs." Um but I had loads cuz I've been sent some by surrogates and stuff, so I was like, "Oh, I might as well just use them."

[00:09:18]So, I was testing twice a day cuz I know the window is quite short, and then yesterday, about half six in the evening, 7:00, I don't know what it was, but I was like, "I just feel different. There's something going on. I I know what. I'll do a quick test before we leave. So, I did the dipstick, chucked the stick in my bag cuz I was like, "Oh, I'll look at it later."

[00:09:42]And by the time we got to Chris and Tom's, I took it out of my bag and it was so dark. It's the darkest I've ever seen it. So, I was like, "Oh, cool.

[00:09:47]Okay, definitely ovulating on Friday."

[00:09:50]The egg thing gets released within 24 hours of the LH surge. So, that means I've now got all the sperm ready and waiting in my reproductive system. So, when the egg is released, um I think it might have happened last night cuz I don't feel ovulatory now. It's It's so hard to describe, like Dilara gets quite significant ovulation pain as well when I do. Um I think it happened last night while I was asleep. So, straight after the insemination, which is great.

[00:10:18]Um another definitely TMI bit which I do want to talk about because if it helps at least one person.

[00:10:27]Um normally I would try and have an orgasm after an after an insemination because it just helps. It helps like the contractions and everything. It helps the cervix and the sperm swim and whatever. But, Wednesday night Dilara was working an early shift the next day and I was like, "I just can't be asked."

[00:10:45]And then last night I was knackered, so I didn't bother.

[00:10:48]So, it's a bit of an experiment to see if it makes any difference. If I don't get pregnant this month, I don't think that'll be the reason why.

[00:10:56]Um but yeah, so we'll see. We're now in the 2-week wait, day one of the 2-week wait.

[00:11:01]The first week I never find too bad because just carry on as normal. The second week I start paying attention to every single sign of my body, every single little twinge.

[00:11:12]It's a bit of a nightmare.

[00:11:13]So, I will try and carry on as normal this week. I want to start going to the gym again now that my uni assignments have finished, thank god.

[00:11:24]Um but when we tried in at Easter, I was in the gym and I I feel what I thought was implantation and I carried on doing what I was doing. I was on the leg press, and I was lifting quite heavy.

[00:11:38]And then I didn't get pregnant. I was also very stressed.

[00:11:42]But, when I was doing my first surrogacy, something similar happened that I was doing some core work. I don't know why I was doing core work when I was trying to get pregnant, but whatever.

[00:11:53]Um and again, I could feel like a sharp discomfort in my uterus. I'm quite sensitive to my body in general. I don't know if I've already said that.

[00:12:03]And I could have been overthinking it and wanting to feel something, or it could have actually been implantation, and then I think physically stressing my body then kind of has made my body go like, "Whoa, okay, no, we won't implant."

[00:12:19]So, I'm going to try and take it easy.

[00:12:22]>> [clears throat] >> Implantation tends to happen between days 6 to 10 after ovulation.

[00:12:28]>> [cough and clears throat] >> Sorry, hay fever.

[00:12:31]And yeah, so I'll try and take it easy around those days. And I think if I feel anything that feels like ovulation uh implantation, I'm just going to stop what I'm doing, and like sit down, and rest, and put my feet up.

[00:12:45]>> [laughter] >> Uh which I'm not very good at.

[00:12:47]As soon as my last uni assignment was in on Thursday, uh I did so many things that day, which might be I don't know, a bit contradictory. You think you'd want to rest after working hard, but because I was working hard at the laptop, I wanted to then do other things. I said to Delilah, I was like, "I'm just so excited to do normal things like change the bedsheets."

[00:13:08]And I went down the shops, and I like browsed in Holland & Barrett, and I was like, "Uh, this is the best day ever." But, yeah, I was really busy. I cooked two separate dinners. I cooked one for that day, and one for the next day cuz we were both working.

[00:13:20]And yeah, it it was a good day.

[00:13:24]And I think that's everything I wanted to update you on. Um it was really nice to be making videos again and with no pressure as well. Like just just chill, isn't it? I don't need to make it perfect because AI is good at perfect and humans are not good at perfect.

[00:13:40]That's a better way of saying what I rambled um for 3 minutes saying [laughter] at the start of this video.

[00:13:46]I think I would like to just do a quick body update as well cuz I saw one of my neighbors the other day and she was like, "Oh, you've done so well to lose all this weight and now you're going to get really massive again." And I was like, "I don't really care though cuz I'll lose it again." And yeah.

[00:14:01]Um, so yeah, this is my body at the moment. I've got my loose skin on my belly from two pregnancies which doesn't bother me. Um yeah, um I have lost a bit of weight but I'm okay with that.

[00:14:19]I had gained a lot of muscle which I've started losing around my bum which I've gotten about cuz I worked really hard for [laughter] it.

[00:14:26]But I'm hoping that I can kind of build some of that back up in early pregnancy anyway, at least in the second trimester.

[00:14:32]And there was one more thing.

[00:14:35]Was it about my body? Was it about pregnancy? Was it about the channel?

[00:14:42]Oh, I might actually have to cut this bit cuz you don't just want to be watching me thinking out loud.

[00:14:48]I know the second I stop this as well I'm going to remember.

[00:14:52]What was it?

[00:14:59]It's gone.

[00:15:02]Totally gone.

[00:15:03]>> [laughter] >> No. Well, I'll finish it there. Um, thanks very much for watching. I'm going to try and update reasonably regularly.

[00:15:14]I've still got a couple of old videos from my last pregnancy as well which I might as well post. Um let me know in the comments if you would like them posted or if they will just happily live on my hard drive forever. I don't even remember the content of them.

[00:15:30]Um Oh, I'm going on a hike in July, which I think I'll be like eight or nine weeks pregnant if this one takes, which isn't ideal cuz that is when I tend to get pregnancy sickness. I hate calling it morning sickness. It's not morning.

[00:15:46]And activity does tend to make it worse, but we'll see what happens. It'll be fine.

[00:15:52]Um I'm really looking forward to that.

[00:15:56]I still can't remember the other thing.

[00:15:58]It was as I sat up, I was like this and I was like there's something else that I want to say.

[00:16:04]But I don't remember.

[00:16:06]Oh, well.

[00:16:07]Thanks for watching. Bye. I'll I'll finish it how I used to do. Bye for now.