Escape Plan Step 109: Have a Moment of Peace

Added: 2026-05-26

[00:00:00]Later that day, I went over to Becky and Tom's house. They made chicken and Yorkshire puddings, which I had never had before, and I immediately became obsessed with, and it was lovely. We sat around talking and eating while their dog ran around looking for his ball and attention. At one point, they even opened a bottle of sparkling wine, and we toasted to this being the first of many such occasions, and to the rest of my life. I didn't tell them I'd actually talked to my ex that morning, although I'd tell Becky tomorrow. But that night, I just didn't want to ruin it. I didn't want to sit in all the pain and grief and confusion of what had happened. I wanted my cinematic movie moment where I smiled into the camera and rode off into the sunset with like fireworks and maybe an exploding helicopter in the background or something. But that's not what happened. And in some ways, what did happen is better. Because as I sat around the table with them, eating the food, drinking the wine, petting the dog, I felt something that had been missing in my life for a really long time. Peace. Now, things with my ex were not over yet, and they wouldn't be for a long time. But for just this one moment, I had a glimpse of what my life could be like without abuse in it.