The Unnerving Nightmare of Alcoholism

Added: 2026-05-11

[00:00:25]Welcome to the world of tales from the I come from a family of alcoholics and that made me never want to be one. I can tell you what it's like looking into someone like you. My uncle died on the [ __ ] It took three days for anyone to find him because we all stopped coming around due to him being trashed all the time. My grandma lived in a tiny camp trailer all alone. Occasionally, I could show up early enough that she would be semi- sober and we could visit.

[00:01:16]So, one morning about 8:00 a.m., I took my little cousin over on the four-wheeler to see her. When I pulled up to her trailer, the wind blew open her door and there she was passed out on the floor. My little cousin, eight or nine, thought she was dead. I was so angry. I shook her awake, yanked her up off the floor, and put her in bed. I told her what her actions had done to her granddaughters and left. She died less than a week later.

[00:01:46]She drank enough to pass out early evening and didn't have the heater going. She essentially froze to death.

[00:01:54]My other uncle was 24/7 drunk, had three kids who he embarrassed constantly. He would show up at sports events and yell and be belligerent, always trying to fight anyone who tried to get him to settle down. Him and my aunt were fighting one day as usual, and as I'm on my way to her house, I pass him riding a pedal bike, drunk, of course.

[00:02:17]I run up to their house and drop off something. And as I'm heading down the same road I just saw him on, I see an ambulance parked in the middle of the road and a fire truck. I instantly knew it was him. Figured he got hit by a car.

[00:02:34]Apparently, he jumped off the curb and the tube popped off the rim. He went face first into the pavement and didn't get up. I got out of the car and walked over to the paramedics trying to help him. He's freaking out, thinking they're the cops. One paramedic sees me and asks if I know him and if I can calm him down. I shrug and tell them I'll try.

[00:02:57]So, I stand over the top of him to tell him and ask if he knows who I am. All snarky, he's like, "Yeah, I know you.

[00:03:04]Get the cops off me." I tell him they aren't cops, that they are paramedics and they're trying to help you. He's arguing with me, not needing help. I'm like, well, then why are you laying in the middle of the road, idiot? I'm like, you know what? Let him up. Somehow, he convinces the ambulance to let him go with me. He tells them I'll take him to the ER. Okay, whatever. So, as we're halfway there, he tells me he isn't going. I'm like, the [ __ ] you aren't? I signed a waiver. So, we argue and finally I pull over and tell him to get out of my car then.

[00:03:41]As I look over at him, I see blood running out of his ear. I shoved the car into drive and was like, "Well, missed your chance, jackass." He was on lifelight out of that hospital within 15 minutes.

[00:03:55]Two brain aneurysms, two broken collar bones, etc. Gave himself brain damage, actually.

[00:04:03]He quit drinking for about 6 months until his brother came by and took him out to do who knows what and they drank all day. My uncle took his own life the next day. That's a whole other story of drama in itself.

[00:04:18]The cop who shows up to pronounce the body was a good friend of mine. And after it was all said and done, he told me that he could smell the alcohol from my uncle over any other smell in that house.

[00:04:31]Don't be like any of these people if you have anyone in your life that you care for. Watching someone drink themselves to death is such a morbid heartbreak.

[00:04:40]It's like standing on the shore of a lake and watching someone you love drown. Alcohol is a depressant. It fixes nothing. It numbs who you are and makes you an embarrassment to be around. Not to mention, it makes you stupid. Wet brain is a real thing. It's going to take time for your mind to function properly once you quit. You're going to have to learn how to feel and process emotions, and it's going to be uncomfortable for a while. I hope my ramblings helped you see it from another perspective.

[00:05:25]So, first of all, and this is the part I hate telling, I have a serious alcohol abuse problem. It's not serious enough to completely uproot my life, but at times it gets pretty nasty.

[00:05:39]In October this year, I managed to drink about 12 tall cans of beer and then some strong stuff because I'm an idiot a day for 3 weeks in a row. I don't even know why I started drinking, but a few days in, I just didn't care anymore. Every day from that point on, I thought it would be my last one. It's difficult to explain. I just didn't want to go on any longer. So, why bother to stop drinking, right?

[00:06:07]terrible idea. After 3 weeks, it suddenly hit me what a damn fool I was being. I decided then and there that it was enough. Tossed out all the alcohol.

[00:06:19]Thought the cold turkey method would be best for me. It was not. My best friend warned me not to do it. And as far as good advice goes, I completely ignored it.

[00:06:31]I should have listened to him. Day one was doable. A little shaky, a bit funky, but I was able to do things. Day two, not so good. The shakes were bad. I had frequent spasms and tremors. I could barely keep myself upright. I won't even begin about what went on in my brain.

[00:06:52]Just madness. It was not a great day, to put it mildly.

[00:06:57]On to day three. From day one, I did not sleep for a single minute. So things were rather messed up already.

[00:07:06]While day three was just weird, odd hallucinations.

[00:07:10]Wherever I went, I kept hearing people walking and talking behind me. There were no people, but I heard them anyway.

[00:07:17]The day went on like that, and I was hoping the worst of it was over. It was not.

[00:07:24]Day four. All hell broke loose.

[00:07:28]Delirium. Call it whatever. full-on hallucinations like you don't want to believe. I tried to just go about my day. Went to the shop to get some food and every single person in the shop looked at me in an evil way. They said things to me I will not repeat here.

[00:07:47]Basically, they all wanted to murder me.

[00:07:50]Later that day, somewhere during the evening, the actual delirium started.

[00:07:55]Suddenly, I had the most wretched, foul, and utterly horrid taste in my mouth. A tarl-like, thick, black, and salty, bitter substance came pouring out from between my teeth. Seriously, the most horrible taste I could not have imagined possible.

[00:08:14]I've spent about an hour with my head in the kitchen sink trying to wash that crap away, but it just kept coming.

[00:08:22]Somewhere in between, I asked my friend on Skype to please call me a damn ambulance or at least come over to help me. He did neither of those things.

[00:08:31]Eventually, after gathering the last of my strength, I called an ambulance myself. By then, I fell to the floor multiple times, just completely drained from the whole ordeal. Not an ounce of strength left in my body.

[00:08:48]Talking to the emergency service whilst hugging the floor was no joy. The dude I spoke to lectured me about not calling them for non-life-threatening situations. I tried as best as I could to explain that I feared for my life. At that point, I was in full panic mode.

[00:09:06]After some persuading, he sent an ambulance, which in my mind felt hours to arrive while I was down on the floor thinking I could die at any moment.

[00:09:17]The ambulance arrived. A man and a woman walked up to me and were well unkind.

[00:09:23]The guy said something like, "Stand up, you dick." I couldn't. Asked if either of them would help me get up and they refused to help me. As I tried to get myself upright, I apparently kicked the woman upon which her colleague got rather pissed at me. I apologized, explained it was not deliberate, but a spasm.

[00:09:46]Some words were spoken which I do not recall or care to remember. Anyway, when it became clear that my situation was not life-threatening, they gently laid me down on my couch. They left, and after that, I heard a bunch of my friends, past and present, and family talking about what had just happened. I pretended to be asleep and just listened to what they were talking about. Not long after that, I fell asleep for the first time in days.

[00:10:15]A few hours later, I woke up ashamed as hell. Confused about what happened, I tried to retrace my day. There was no record of me ever having called for an ambulance. The devil's pus that came oozing out from between my teeth was nowhere to be seen. The tooth I thought I lost in the process was still there.

[00:10:36]My friends and family I heard talking were never there. None of it ever happened. That is how powerful a delirium can be.

[00:10:46]So there's my story. Do not ever do this to yourself. If you have an alcohol problem, been drinking for a while, don't think abruptly quitting is a good idea. It's not.

[00:11:10]One large bottle of barefoot Merllo, three bass ales, three shots of Jameson, one shot of Jagermeister, one shot of Gold Schlagger, put me in the ER for gastritis.

[00:11:23]I was unconscious and vomiting for about 16 hours. When I woke, I just could not stop vomiting and hiccoping. I went to the ER eventually. The doctor told me I'd burned away the inner layer of my stomach. I couldn't eat solid food for a week. The hiccups left a sharp pain in my solar plexus every time I swallowed.

[00:11:48]After this experience, my sleeping schedule reversed so that I was up all night and asleep during the day. I ended up on Zoloft and mood stabilizers. After this experience, I took them for about a year while abstaining from alcohol. They worked. I just got off the Zoloft recently and had my first drink in about a year. I never drink more than one drink in one day now. That is my new rule. If I break it, I'm done. I never want to go through that experience again. I nearly died from it.

[00:13:06]Heat. Heat.