I'm 4 Weeks Sober Today.. Again

Added: 2026-05-07

[00:00:02]All right, guys. How we doing? Uh, welcome. Welcome back to another video.

[00:00:06]It's been four weeks, four weeks sober.

[00:00:08]Let's just dive right into this. Let's cut a long story short because it's really not that long. You know, 28 days flies by. Um, the older you get, the the more, you know, every every time I get sober, the time just goes faster and faster, and it it's such a tragedy that when you're in active addiction, you are literally wishing your days away. You're wasting your days away, if not wishing them away because you're just feeling like absolute [ __ ] day after day thinking, "What is the point? What's the point in this? What is what, you know, no one wants to live like this? No one should live like this. I deserve better. I want better. I just don't know how to get it.

[00:00:51]And neither do I. I'm just here to update you and say that I am 28 days sober.

[00:00:58]And it's gone like that.

[00:01:00]And I'm also 28 days into my latest transformation, body transformation, health and fitness, nutrition, fat loss transformation. That's what I'm calling it. Calling it a 90-day fat loss transformation. and I am vlogging it on my other channel which um I will put uh I'll try and try and put a a little link. I don't really do these too often but I'll try and put something up there.

[00:01:26]Um but yeah, I'm here because I missed out on making a video last week. I made one at the 3 week mark, but it wasn't specifically around being sober for 3 weeks. It was basically giving my thoughts on my 15-minute lunch break at my delivery driver role about how without employment or at least without a meaningful reason to get up in the morning each day, your chances of of sobriety or your chances of not white knuckling it but actually embracing it are slim to none. That's just my opinion. Everyone's got one. You may agree, you may disagree. I think initially I said you needed employment.

[00:02:16]Uh but I've changed that now to the notion of just a reason to get up in the morning. Now being 28 days into a fat loss transformation, I have gone hard in the paint as I normally do and I'm suffering the consequences. Um, but a little bit of tiredness and uh minimal pump in the gym are absolutely nothing compared to the life of a function functioning alcoholic where you are consistently constantly looking for your next drink. And the first thing this I've just thought about this now. The first thing that pops into your mind after another big night of drinking is okay. How hung over am I today? I need to I need to I need to assess, you know, the head, the eyes, the body. How does it feel?

[00:03:10]Well, it's going to feel like [ __ ] but just how much did I drink that night before? Because I don't know.

[00:03:16]It gets to the point where you black out most nights. At the end of the night, you'll leave things out on the counter.

[00:03:23]You will have that last drink, make it a really strong one, not remember doing it, wake up the next morning and think, "Fuck, where did that alcohol go? I don't remember drinking that much." But the one thing I just thought about and the first thing you think of in the morning is alcohol. And I will say that probably for the last 26 of 28 days, the first thing I've thought of in the morning is grateful is is being grateful. It's it's a sense of gratitude for not having drunk the night before. It's a sense of gratitude for waking up in the morning feeling alive.

[00:03:59]You know, it's it's classic. It's alive.

[00:04:08]How are you?

[00:04:11]Alive.

[00:04:15]How are you alive? Well, seriously, that was me every morning, if not worse. And I [ __ ] I may not have looked like that, but uh I certainly felt like it.

[00:04:24]No thoughts of alcohol first thing in the morning. Yes, there are temptations.

[00:04:28]They're everywhere. I haven't acted on those temptations. And it is one day at a time. It's waking up in the morning, feeling that that that gratitude for for being strong, staying sober, making healthy choices. And at the moment, I'm waking up with with a real sense of gratitude, which I had the last time I was sober, which is, you know, one of, okay, I'm not drinking, but I'm also exercising. I'm getting back in shape.

[00:04:54]And I've kind of I've real like last time I I I I got sober, I I got to this point and the pink cloud had faded and I was here on my own, you know, I didn't have my kids to to to be there for. So I was kind of I was more lonely. I was also in a job that I didn't like. So yes, I was sober, but everything around me was kind of just so so. Whereas this time, I feel like life is uh well, it's more interesting and I've got more of a So I've just gone and rambled for about 5 minutes. You won't have seen that that portion of the video, but I do that from time to time. I don't want to be here for too long.

[00:05:40]I just want to say that it is a dayto-day situation.

[00:05:47]You take each day as it comes. I wake up every morning with a choice to make. Do I give in to temptation? Have a drink with the thought in mind that I can just have one or I can just have five, but knowing deep down that that is not going to be the case. I'm going to go and buy a bottle and that bottle is going to be finished that day. Then I'm going to have to wake up the next day and battle, you know, [ __ ] go right back into into warfare against this substance.

[00:06:22]It's a battle that I I I don't want. Yeah, I can do it. I can battle it like I've always like I always have. I'll never give up. Eight times down, nine times up.

[00:06:35]But it's not really a battle that I want to I want to wager right now. I don't want to wager that war because it is a war. I'm out of it right now. I have retreated.

[00:06:45]I'm out of it. I surrendered. Now I'm just living life, trying to make the most of it. So, couple of things that I'm pretty excited about for the rest of the year is um is to get in shape. And yes, I know I always refer back to that, but [ __ ] man. That is where I'm mentally, not only physically, but mentally most optimal. I have the most confidence. I feel like I can achieve things. Um, I want to get out there and do things. And living in a [ __ ] hot place like this, man, all I want to do is just wear singlets and uh and whip my top off and and feel confident, feel comfortable and confident swimming and doing all sorts of stuff and just feeling like I can I can spontaneously do things. That that spontaneity comes back into my life when I'm in good shape and when I'm exercising regularly. And so what I will say at this point is that we've been here before. I've been here multiple times before on this YouTube channel. This channel is 3 years old.

[00:07:46]This would have to be probably the sixth, seventh, eighth time I've attempted to get sober. And at this point, mentally, it is what it is. You know, recalibrating, uh, allowing the brain time to adjust and and, um, time to heal.

[00:08:03]So, mentally, it is what it is. It's, you know, I'm going to have good days.

[00:08:07]I'm going to have bad days. Temptations are always going to be there. that is something I can focus on later.

[00:08:13]You know, when when when the time's right, I will feel it. I will feel that that shift. I will feel that clarity. I will feel that op, you know, optimism.

[00:08:23]But for now, I'm focusing on my physical my physical health, my physical appearance. And we're 28 days into that.

[00:08:32]So physical body first, emotional mind and clarity second. That is how I see it right now. And we move.

[00:08:47]So thank you for watching. Thank you for being here. I know it's quite ironic that I pulled this three panel hat out, but I really like it. Picked it up for $3 in New Zealand at a at an op shop.

[00:08:57]And at that point, I was heavily addicted to alcohol, but I thought, "One day, one day I'm going to be able to put this hat on and not be drunk at the same time because really, I mean, it is advertising H2O, baby, not alcohol." So, whatever you thought this referred to, it probably doesn't.

[00:09:19]But, um, I like it. I like the design.

[00:09:23]I'd probably prefer it if it had like a Nike tech on there or something. But either way, guys, four weeks, four weeks in, four weeks of dieting under the belt, four weeks of slowly but surely ramping up my exercise. Uh, four weeks of living, four weeks of waking up without a hangover, without those immediate thoughts of how much alcohol have I got left, how much alcohol did I drink last night? Where am I going to get my next drink? Uh, how much money have I spent on alcohol this month? You know, every single thing revolves around alcohol, doesn't it? Because we're not you're just using alcohol to to to feel normal at that point. You know, you do not feel normal. You don't you don't feel comfortable in your own skin when you're sober.

[00:10:10]It takes a while to get that back. Am I there yet? Probably not. Will I ever be?

[00:10:14]Probably not. But I'm working on it.

[00:10:16]Thanks, guys.

[00:10:18]See you soon.