IS THIS A REAL JOB?

Added: 2026-05-22

[00:00:00]Hello, hello, hello. How are you guys doing today? Happy Wednesday. Happy Wednesday of love.

[00:00:12]Happy cousin fun day. I feel like I am rushing right now and I don't like it. I like to sit out here and be very relaxed. Okay, I just poured the rest of my iced coffee that I got when I was out with Caroline today. I just poured it into this glass. I bought these plastic glasses last year. Do you remember them?

[00:00:36]Anyway, I need to get into relaxation mode. Why does this taste super sugary to me? You know what I did? It already had two Splenda in it when I got it and I just put a equal in it because I I wasn't thinking it's real sweet. I don't love real sweet coffee. I mean, if it has creamer or something in it, I don't mind that obviously, but I don't like like I have friends of mine when we go to meetings and I'm like, "Do you want me to get you a cup of coffee?" They're like, "Yeah."

[00:01:07]I mean, the styrofoam cups are little styrofoam cups, you know? And I'll be like, "What do you want in your coffee?"

[00:01:12]And they'll be like, "Nine sugars, four creamers." I'm like, "What?

[00:01:19]That I'll have some I'll have some coffee with my uh creamer and my sugar, please." And Tanya Jean, she always gets the largest size coffee. And then she's like, "Extra whipped cream, extra sprinkles, extra all this stuff." But then she gets a decaf and I'm like, "Girl," she's like, "Make sure it's decaf." When we go to that Miriam's where I get my espresso tonic that I love so much, Tanya always orders some I don't know what it is that they have there, but it's some deal with all his whipped cream and butters and it's got so much butters. It's got so much stuff on it. But she tells him like six times, she's like, "It has to be decaf." I'm like, "Okay, girl." She don't drink decaf soda. That's the problem is like well she drinks a lot of water but during the day when she drinks her fountain pops she don't ever drink and she always blames on the coffee like this is what she'll say to me okay if we go to a meeting she's already had that day probably three diet cokes well she drinks half diet coke half regular coke so she'll have like let's say three of those okay throughout the day then after we go to the meeting she gets the fountain pop okay 32 oz but she usually gets the big gulp one that's the large size she never drinks it if you open her refrigerator like the top row of refrigerator is like five old drinks from f who is putting new she goes I'll drink them and then she starts laughing.

[00:02:37]She's like you're always right. She's like I always like whenever I throw them away cuz I've been saying it to her for 20 years. She's like when I throw them away like once a week I go in there and I just like throw them all away cuz she'll like get a fountain pop and then she brings it home and then she puts it in the refrigerator like I'll drink it later but she never does you know. So anyway, so then we'll get a coffee on the way to the meeting or she'll have coffee at the meeting. And the coffee at the meeting is like labeled like regular decaf.

[00:03:04]Okay. And always the decaf is like the regular, it's like one of those big coffee makers, you know, like at weddings and stuff like that. So at the the regular is huge and the decaf is small. So it's not like you don't know which one is it. Okay. Tanya will call me like at midnight and she'll be like, "I can't sleep." And I'll be like, "Oh, you can't, sweetie. What's going on?"

[00:03:25]And she'll be like, "I think they gave me regular coffee instead of decaf." Or she'll say, "I think at the meeting they made the wrong coffee and a decaf." Oh, it couldn't have been those 15 diet cokes you had today. Do you know what I mean? And I'll say that, Charle. Yeah, girl, they must have they must have snuck that regular coffee in there. It couldn't be those five diet cokes you had. She She'll start laughing. So, anyway, how are y'all doing today? No, I feel rushed. And this is the reason why.

[00:03:49]So, thank God I didn't agree to go to this birthday dinner tonight. I was kind of sad. I was kind of like, well, it would be kind of fun to see everybody, but then I was like, no.

[00:03:58]So, Alex has his birthday dinner. He actually just texted me. He's on his way right now. I I'm uploading a video on my Peter Watches TV channel.

[00:04:07]Well, this is part of the We'll get to that in a second. So anyway, it is currently 5:53 p.m. So Alex is on his way to the birthday dinner right now, which is at the Al Emporium, which is like 10 minutes up the street, maybe 15. So he's going to leave there. So we thought, so Liliana was texting us, it's Carlos's birthday today. Happy birthday, Carlos.

[00:04:29]So it's I texted him. I said, happy birthday, Ste. He was like, thanks, buddy.

[00:04:35]So anyway, so it's Carlos's birthday tonight, but Liliana was like, "We're going to have cake and stuff like that, but it's going to be like after Carlos gets home from baseball practice for Caros's because he coaches Carlos's baseball team or he had like a private he coaches privately too, people and stuff like that. So um Carlos has he was telling me this at Mother's Day. He has like one person that's being like they're watching in college right now to go into like major leagues and he has two people that are like starting in college as freshman that he coached individually. If you guys didn't know this, Carlos played on a farm team in Venezuela. So, he's real big into the baseball. Now, Caros plays Carito plays baseball and football and Sebastian plays soccer and basketball. So, they're basically busy all the time. So anyway, well, any other time that we do this for like Carlos's birthday or one of their birthdays or whatever, we're getting together after they come home, it's always like 10:00 at night. So Alex and I both just kind of assumed that they would text us today and be like, "Yeah, come over at like 9:30 or 10," which would work out perfect for Alex's dinner. I wasn't going to go anyway because I knew I probably wouldn't get back from being with Caroline till like 3:00 and then I wanted to film videos and vlog and make sure all that stuff was up because I wouldn't be able to relax if I knew I had to come home and vlog or something like that. And Alex is like, "That's totally fine." He's like, "Some of the husbands are coming, some of them." Well, most of them are husbands now, not just boyfriends. But he was like, "Some are coming, some aren't, so it's no big deal." I was like, "Okay." So he's like, "But you want to go to Carlos's, right?" And I was like, "Yeah, I want to go to Carlos." But Liliana text today and she said that it's going to be at 7:30 and they're going to have a rape bus and they're going to have cake. So, but they're kind of always running behind.

[00:06:20]So, Alex texted me and he said, "I will pick you up between I'm going to No, he said, "I'm going to leave here." I just actually texted him again. He goes, "I will be leaving here between 7:10 and 7:15, which means that he'll be here. I have to be ready by like 7:25 because if he decides to leave early or whatever, I have to have the dogs in their house and everything like that.

[00:06:40]So, that that's easy. But I wanted to take a shower and stuff before, but I think this is not going to be any big deal.

[00:06:46]It'll probably be Carlos, Liliana, the kids, me and Alex, and his mom. That's probably all it'll be. And we'll probably be there for like 2 hours and then we'll come home." So, I'll just take a shower when I come home, probably after my nap. So, anyway, well, Liliana texted us and then I'm like in my head and Caroline and I were out running around and we filmed this video.

[00:07:11]We got done with the video. I said, "Oh my god, Caroline, it's almost 4:00." I didn't go home till after 4:00 today.

[00:07:17]So, we didn't even end up going to Trader Joe's. I didn't really need anything from Trader Joe's either, and she didn't either. So, we like after we filmed the video, we came home. So, anyway, Caroline picked me up today at 1.

[00:07:29]Well, first of all, first of all, I stayed up way too late last night cuz I really wanted to finish season one of Slasher, which is very, very good. Um, it was something. Okay, Holly's husband direct. So, yesterday, if you didn't watch my vlog yesterday, I gave a shout out to Holly who messaged me and she said I can't look on it cuz I'm uploading this video right now and if I go out of it, it'll stop it. But anyway, I think his name was Billy. So, he's actually I think they he got a cameo before for me for Holly, but I could be wrong about that. But, he's messaged me before. But anyway, u it's funny when like husbands and boyfriends message me and they're like something that like will come up in a vlog, but they're not messaging me like, "Hey, can you shout out Susie in a video?" They're just like, "Hey, you were mentioning this show." It's so like that to me is like the crossover. I love that the women start watching the show, like the show, the vlog in bed, and their husbands are kind of like scrolling through their phone. They're kind of listening and then they'll message me and be like, "Hey, Peter, if you like this, you'll really like Homeland." Like, they message me on their own. I love that so much. And he has quite a bit. Not tons, but Holly, don't worry.

[00:08:37]As if anybody's worried that I'm breaking up homes or anything like that.

[00:08:41]So anyway, but he messaged me today. It was Yeah. Well, I always check my phone until I go to bed. So he messaged me today and he was like, "We were watching your vlog last night." I can't I'll have to look it up and see what he said when this gets done uploading, but he was like, "I noticed that you said Holly and she had walked out of the room."

[00:08:59]Something like I called her back in the I don't know, something. But he was like, "Oh my god." He was like, "That was so funny." I was like, "I'm glad that you enjoyed it." And whatever. So, it's so weird how, you know, like this is the 10th year of vlogging.

[00:09:12]I think you guys would be surprised, especially those of you like, and I just want to say, thank you for understanding. Like, when I wake up, I wake up and I'm not even exaggerating up this, like 30 to 100 direct messages on Instagram. And that's not cuz I'm so grand or whatever, but it's like people will send me like TV. It's really to be honest with you like if something big pops off like drama-wise it'll be that.

[00:09:35]But mostly it's not. Mostly it's like funny memes, squirrel memes, rescue memes, television things, people things about thousand lb sisters. What was people sending me yesterday? Oh, this girl that is saying that her dad's on reality TV and people have put it together that she's Ken's daughter and welcome to Plville. Is Kim PL is Kim Pla talking about having another baby?

[00:09:58]I can't imagine she is. But apparently in this Tik Tok, this girl said she's talking about how her dad's a bad dad and all this kind of people send me that kind of stuff. They think it's funny cuz a lot of people watch my TV reviews or I'll talk about it on my vlog or let's like you like this book. A lot of people like Mayor and Lisa, they just check in with me all day long. I love it. I love it. But you would be surprised if you especially if you direct me on direct message me on Instagram. I probably looked at your Instagram um and I would just be like, "Oh, who is this?" and I kind of like go through I'm like oh like you know they're they graduated from the University of Nevada or whatever you know or UNLV or I'm like oh you know like my mom's friend used to be an administar there so I look at people's pictures and stuff like that not like every picture but just kind of so I have an idea you would be surprised how many of you so like when I'm vlogging like I think of certain ones of you that have direct messaged me stuff or whatever. I do want to say, especially recently, um, I've been getting a lot more DMs and especially if it's like a lot of people send me the same thing. I don't respond to it. Um, and everyone that I've gotten like where somebody is like I haven't like accepted their DMs before. I'm trying to be better about accepting that. So, I don't but I don't like I can't if I responded to every DM, you guys, it'd be two hours of my day. So, don't get your feelings hurt if I don't. But, I do read every DM. I want to make that clear. I read every DM. So, I want everybody to know that. But like sometimes like especially if people like share really like personal stuff with me. I usually try to DM especially like hey you know sending some love or whatever. But don't get your feelings hurt if I don't. Don't think it means you think it means that I don't care. It just means that like when I opened like I was getting ready to like go to my brother-in-laws and then I just opened it and had 30. That's usually when it happens. Um cuz I know when I say this people be like oh you always respond to me. Well, I must open my Instagram at a time that you message me that I wasn't doing anything cuz if I'm getting ready to do something, I don't respond a lot. So, I don't want anybody to get their feelings hurt about that. Anyway, um but it's weird like this being my 10th year. Like, one of the Oh my god, I forgot I put this back.

[00:12:02]I wonder why I only have three batteries. I put this in the jacket the other day. Anyway, you know, it's interesting like one of the things that people reach out to me about that are like YouTubers, Tik Tockers, and stuff like this. Um Somebody reached out to me the other day. I don't want to say who it is on here. Um, but they were like, "Are you serious about like paying for advice?" Like, cuz they wanted like some help or whatever.

[00:12:27]And I was like, "Oh my god, you've been so kind to me." It wasn't like an big influence or anything like that. I don't think that he would care that I even mentioned it, but anyway, but he watches my vlogs and stuff like that. I was like, "Oh my god." Like, no. Like I'm not I was I mean like oh like if if somebody like a big influencer like Totty reached out to me. No, Totty can pay me for my time. No, I'm done with that stuff. No, I don't do that anymore.

[00:12:48]And then have it used against me later.

[00:12:50]No. But like as far as like one of the things that people have asked me for a long time is like how to develop a community on YouTube. I don't really to be honest with you. No. I mean, I think I think what has worked best for me is like just completely being yourself. But it took me a long time to get that comfortable being myself. Um, just completely being yourself on camera and that those people that are supposed to find you will find you. You know, I've also been real lucky that I've had people through the years that have shouted out my channel, you know. Um, I need to be better at doing that. I've done a lot of that through the years, but I need to do better at that. Um, and linking people's channels and stuff like that that I find. Um, one of the reasons why I'm always kind of hesitant of that unless I look through their whole channels is like if there's something problematic about it that I don't know that's like from 3 years ago and then it comes out, then I'm like, well, I shouted out their channel. You know what I mean? Like, um, so I don't do that as much because that has kind of bit me in the ass where I'll shout out somebody's channel and then later somebody will say, do you know how problematic this person is? I'm like, "No, I didn't know that. I didn't watch every 30 videos that they had for the last 10 years."

[00:14:01]You know what I mean? Or 300 videos from the last 10 years. But I don't really know. Like I think like once especially in my vlog, my vlog really I think is where it helped me build like I don't even know if you call this a community.

[00:14:13]Oh my god, the tripod fell. And all of a sudden I'm like smelling poop. I'm like, did I step in poop? No.

[00:14:21]Oh, you know what? I bet it is cuz everybody's putting down their mulch this week.

[00:14:25]Maybe that's what it is.

[00:14:29]Some of these bugs got some of these bugs, but there ain't no poop on me.

[00:14:35]Anyway, the tripod hasn't fallen for a long time.

[00:14:39]Well, it did the other day. I was showing you how it goes back. No, it's all solid. What was I talking about?

[00:14:46]I think I was talking about like Oh, I was talking about somebody. Uh, okay. Okay, I was talking about the person that reached out to me and was asking me the questions and then they were and I was okay. So anyway, um I don't know how like it is something that a lot of people have noticed about. I don't really be honest with you. I really think about it. Um it is something that other people have reached out to me, not just starting channels but channels that are bigger than me and they've been like you have like such a close-knit community of people that really like you and blah blah blah whatever. And I'm like I I do and I'm grateful for it. I you know it really started with my vlog honestly. I don't know and I feel like when I look back I mean I've talked about this a lot recently. I think coming up on 10 years of everything I've kind of like watched some of oh this video just got done.

[00:15:36]I've watched some of my earlier videos and I just feel like looking at myself who was texting me.

[00:15:44]Alex, looking at myself back, I can tell how uncomfortable I was at the time that I was like how socially awkward and how comfortable I was filming those videos.

[00:16:01]Um, it I just I feel like I kind of had to hide a little bit behind a mask. I was really uncomfortable my first two years filming. Like I don't know. I just um I think especially I I have never like the numbers of the views and stuff like that. Like I don't get ate up with the numbers, but it's interesting to me like how many people like I've talked to through the years since I started this that don't really have a concept that the numbers translate to people. Um, I was actually I I rarely ever get on Tik Tok, but I got on Tik Tok last night for something that somebody sent me because I wanted to look at this for a drama video that I'm going to do this week and um I was looking at it and I just started like rolling through Tik Tok and I was like and I rolled back and then I rolled back. Does each one of those count as a view? Like if you roll like let's just say people are just rolling through, right? And you just look at it. Do you have to look at a Tik Tok? That's interesting. I want to look that up. I don't know um if it matters cuz people be like, "I got so many views on a Tik Tok." Um how long does a tick tock Tik Tok need to be watched?

[00:17:29]Look, it's all to be monetized, to make money, to get paid. I see that's not what I never I didn't start caring. That wasn't why I started doing this.

[00:17:38]To be counted as views. Let's see. This is interesting. I've never looked this up before. On Tik Tok, a view is almost instant is almost instantly, usually after about 1 second of playback, as soon as a video appears in a feed.

[00:17:53]For videos 3 minutes or more, the threshold is 3 seconds. So that means literally if you're rolling through Tik Tok, like every time somebody's rolling through TikTok, they don't even stop.

[00:18:01]One, two. I mean that counts as a view on Tik Tok. I think Tik Tok has disproportionately really changed people's views. Like you know, like on my like on my Peterisms channel, my book videos, like I don't get a lot. I mean, even over here for 10 years of doing it, let's be for real. I mean, 2 to 3,000 views for somebody that's been doing videos for 10 years is not a lot. Um, especially in a channel that has like 40 plus thousand subscribers.

[00:18:29]It's not like a lot. I I love it that there I've retained that. I mean, it's basically my views have basically been the be the same the entire time I've been on this vlog. It's like I get a little more sometimes, a little less sometimes. But I think that Tik Tok, it's interesting because I'll see this like on Instagram a lot where somebody will say like people think a 100 likes on a picture isn't a lot, but if you had 100 people in your in a room complimenting you, you would like it's something like that that they say. It's so true. Like social media has so skewed like our view of like onetoone interactions and things like that. I don't know, maybe it's my age, but I've never lost that. Like I can remember back in the day talking to people and they would be like, "Well, I only got so many like 10,000 views on this video. It didn't do very well." And I'd be like, "That's like a Britney Spears concert like or Lady Gaga concert or 20,000." I mean, like that many people willingly watched your video. Like that's a big deal. Like that's more than some cities, you know? Like that's a big deal. And I've never lost sight of that.

[00:19:35]Like, and I think more than anything, my vlog has really kept me centered.

[00:19:39]Especially, I know there's a lot of people that watch my vlog that have never commented. Um, it's interesting cuz a lot of people recently have said, "I've never commented on your vlog, but I just want to DM you and let you know that I've watched you from the very beginning." Which is cool cuz there's some people that have watched me literally from like the very beginning that are DMing me now. And being like, "Hey, I just want to let you know I've watched you the whole time." That means a lot to me. Thank you. Don't ever feel like you have to DM me or comment on a video or whatever. I just love that people enjoy watching my videos, you know, at the end of the day. Um, I think I've never really lost sight of that. I don't know. I mean, I feel blessed to have gotten the subscriber counts on my channels that I've gotten and the views that I get. Maybe it's because it's not in the millions or something that it just still seems to me like I can see it as people, especially maybe like on some of my smaller channels.

[00:20:26]Like I mean 2,000 views is not small, but like I mean it's not like people are getting 60 to 100,000 to a million views a video, you know what I mean? Like I think at some point you you probably do kind of lose sight of that being like each view is is an actual person sitting out there watching you on a tablet or a phone or a TV or whatever. You probably do lose sight of that. And I don't know that that's necessarily to blame on the person. I think at some point it probably does seem like a weird concept for our minds to make sense of if that makes sense. like maybe we can't figure that out. I think Tik Tok to some degree and YouTube shorts and in Instagram reels and stuff have really screwed that. Like my husband at night, like he rolls through Tik Toks so fast. I mean, some of them that he watches, he'll like sit there like and he'll go through a Tik Tok and he'll watch like 2 seconds of it, 3 seconds of it, and then move on to the next one. He usually gives a Tik Tok like 2 to 3 seconds if he's not interested in it. other ones to watch all the way through. I mean, he must watch I can't even guess how many Tik Toks and I he watches. Caroline's the same way. Tanya's the same way. A lot of you know, a lot of you watch Tik Tok and love Tik Tok. Nikki loves Tik Tok. Um I think when you're getting a Tik Tok and it you look at it the next day and it has even let's say like a,000 views when I started. I remember getting a thousand views on a a book video I did and it so blew me away that I was like that was more people than I maybe it was when I got 1,000 subscribers I don't remember 1,000 subscribers or 1,000 views on a video but I graduated with like 670 people. I remember I was like that is more people than I went graduated with my my senior year in high school. um that willingly like you didn't force them into a room to watch a video like they willingly watched my video like that was unbelievable to me. I think today on like Tik Tok I don't think a lot of people would think a th00and views was a lot or a thousand followers was a lot. I mean it's not like Tik Tok famous. So I think the fact that I started on book maybe kind of gave me a different point of view. I've always said to people too, don't start.

[00:22:43]I saw somebody the other day and they were talking about like, well, I my job has been social me. I think that sounds so phony if you want to know the truth. Okay, I cannot stand I cannot stand when I meet people and they say to me like, oh, and they're real arrogant about it and they're like, what do you do? And I'm like, oh, blah blah blah. I I don't really come right out. They usually say first and they'll be like, oh, I'm I'm a social media influencer.

[00:23:07]I'm talking about like if I'm at the airport or I don't know here in town I'll meet people and it's interesting because they act like a hundred times more professional about it than I've ever been in my entire life. And they'll be like, "Oh yeah, like I'm a social media influencer." I think that's why the word influencer started turning me off so much. They'd be like, "I'm a social media influencer." I'm like, "Oh, really? Like do you do Instagram, YouTube?" They're like, "I do I do a a medium a mixture of mediums. I do some Tik Toks." you know, you have to like I'm like, "Oh, okay." And then they're like, "What do you do?" And I'm like, "Oh, I make YouTube videos." Oh, what's your content? And I'm like, "Well, the channel that I'm kind of known for the most is like my drama channel and I like do like gossip and tea about like, you know, influencers and pop culture." And they're like, "Oh." And I'm like, "But I have a vlog channel where I vlog every day. I started on book." And I'm like, "Do you know what book is?" And they're like, "No." Like, that's kind of how it gets into it. Then I go and I look, okay, at their at their in in their influencer career. And my question would be to somebody like, "How are you making money off this career?" I just saw somebody like this yesterday that um somebody sent me this thing and was like, "Do you know this person?" And I was like, "No." And like I was watching one of her Instagrams and she's like, "Having been um a social media influencer for over 10 years." And I was like, "Oh, you I don't even know that I take it that seriously." Do you know what I mean? Like I film videos and I'm lucky enough to pay my bills with what I make on it. I don't think about it that deeply if you want to know the truth.

[00:24:41]And I think that's part of it. Like I always tell people like don't go into this whatever you do, Tik Tok, YouTube, Instagram, whatever. Don't go into it like do it because you love it. Do it because you feel like like I went into book because I want to be part of the community. Did I ever think it was going to turn into drama? No. I watched a Jeffree Star video about Kat Von D. I saw these drama channels on the side, Karina Kaboom and Sanders Kennedy and I was like, "Oh, there's people talking about this." And that's how I got into it. I never in a million. Nobody was talking about drama channels and commentary channels 10 years ago. They just weren't there. I never could have even predicted that this would turn into eight channels. I never thought that.

[00:25:18]Never did I ever think that, you know?

[00:25:20]And so I always tell people like if if this is something that you want to do, do it because you love it. because it might never Hey, how are you?

[00:25:29]>> How are you?

[00:25:30]>> Good. It's good to see you. You're trying to miss the rain, aren't you?

[00:25:33]>> It's about to start pouring down rain.

[00:25:34]Anyway, um it might never turn into anything or it might turn into something unbelievable.

[00:25:42]I mean, 10 years ago, I've talked about this before. I was friendly with Charles Gross, like my first year. He gave me so much great advice.

[00:25:49]So, I'm so thankful for him. He gave me so much great advice. But I remember one time talking to him on the phone and he said something about his first paycheck.

[00:25:56]I don't even know how we got talking about it because I'll tell you one thing, I don't usually talk about money with people. Very rarely if it comes up and whatever, but I don't usually talk money with people about it. I just it's whatever.

[00:26:07]Um, but he said something about how much he made on like his first paycheck, which I don't think was anything compared to what he was making then. But to me, I was like I had no idea that you could make I mean I knew people were but I didn't think they were making like I don't know I don't know what I thought but I didn't know you could like do this and pay your bills like I never got that right. So I never had that attitude of it. Well, then it kind of was just like, "Oh, like I can do this thing." But I to this day, like I always think I need to be more businessminded about it. Like today, I came home and I was like, "Oh shit."

[00:26:50]Like I even said, if you watch my drama video today, I said, "Today is going to be a twofur." I sat down in that bed and I don't know what I thought. Like I got all the time in the in in the day to film 15 videos. That video that first I thought I was going to film two 20-minute videos. as the first video is 40 minutes and I said I was going to do two drama videos today because I'm so many topics behind which I am. I got out that video. I thought if you don't if you want to do another drama video that's all you can film today. I did a TV video. I didn't film two drama videos today cuz I was like I don't have time.

[00:27:15]If you want to do your vlog, my vlog is very important to me. So I was like I'm not missing a day on this vlog. So you know I was like okay I did a book review cuz I don't want to forget what the book was that I finished yesterday. Stolen tongues. I started the new Blake Crouch the newest Blake Crouch book. What's it called? Rebound.

[00:27:34]Res something. No, Recursion was the last one. Upgrade, I think, is what it's called. Yeah, I'm just at the beginning of it. Upgrade is what I'm reading.

[00:27:41]Listening to five books ahead on the Audible, by the way, or on my Good Reads goal. So, anyway, I um This is probably so boring to people. I don't know. But anyway, I um and I got to make sure that I keep an eye on the clock so that I don't Oh my god, it's 6:20 already. Um almost 6:20. But anyway, I um because I got to get the videos up and get ready and I want to take the dogs on a walk and stuff like that. Yeah, I'm going to take a shower afterwards. I think it's getting cold. I'm just going to put a hoodie on. Everybody today was talking about how yesterday it was like 85. It was nice all night long last night. It rained, but it was like warm by the back window open. And then today it's like, well, let's see what the temperature is. And it's supposed to be cold for the rest of the weekend. And then next week it's supposed to be in the 80s. It's 61 right now. Should we see what Carlina said? Are y'all so happy that Carlina didn't lose her job?

[00:28:32]Can I just tell you what the comment that I got in my vlog? Did I read this the other day? Somebody said James Charles is coming online ranting about a Spirit employee.

[00:28:45]I loved this comment. Somebody said James Charles is coming online ranting about a Spirit A. I've covered it all on my drama channel if you don't know what I'm talking about. Spirit Airlines employee reaching out to him with a GoFundMe asking for money. And Peter is worried about a madeup character that works for the weather channel named Carlina losing her job.

[00:29:06]I love that so much. Let's see what Carina has to say today. Cloudy tonight, low of 50. A gray cool kind of day.

[00:29:14]Classic sweater weather. Nothing wrong with it. Just dressed with a chill and go. I love Carina so much. Don't you?

[00:29:21]And so many of you were worried about Carita last night. That was so nice of you. Anyway, yeah, I can't be talking forever cuz I got to uh get some stuff done before I got to get the vlog up. I got to post my other videos. Honey, I got No, I don't have time to take no shower. I'll take a shower when I get home tonight. Put my cozy pajamas on.

[00:29:35]Well, I bought new cozy pajamas today at Vonmar. I bought Well, I'll show it tomorrow in my haul cuz Mayor sent me a package, too. I know what it is, but I got a package from Mayor. I got stuff that I bought online. I didn't really buy that much stuff today. I got nothing at Costco.

[00:29:53]Mayor's package at the post office.

[00:29:56]I got a graduation invitation today at the post office. And then what else did I get? Nothing at Trader Joe's. I got bunch of stuff at VMart. I got a pair of jeans. They were like $200 marked down to like$124.

[00:30:09]I got them for $64. Mauvi. I've never worn that brand before. M A VI.

[00:30:15]But they fit me perfectly. And I got them. And I got them real long so I can cuff them up real big. I tried them on and everything. They fit perfectly anyway. So I'll show those tomorrow. But I'll just throw on a hoodie or something tonight. It's going to be real casual anyway. Well, they're always real casual. They're always just wearing like, you know, kids are in sports stuff or sweat sitting around the house.

[00:30:36]Anyway, but it'll be nice to see everybody. I'm excited about it. Yeah.

[00:30:40]So, okay. Okay. Well, first of all, let me just say to the person that reached out to me and they emailed me, cuz I said I would never charge you. What I was talking about in the video when I said that was that like, well, let's just call it what it is. Raw Beauty Christie called me up for suggestions and advice and then later said I got her on the phone. No, we're not playing those games anymore. If you're going to call me up for advice, there's going to be some, and a lot of people back in the day did. A lot of influencers reached out to not just me, but a lot of I would say every drama channel has been reached out to by multiple influencers. And we would just give them free advice. And you know what? They always did the opposite. And then they would come back to us later and they would say, "I should have listened to you." Okay.

[00:31:16]Well, or they would get in a video and say, "I don't know why people are still talking." Well, you should have done what we told you to do. And this is what they would always say, okay, is this is your area of expertise. This is you know what you're doing. Now, I don't know in retrospect if they were just blowing, you know, hot air up our ass to like charm us so we wouldn't make videos or if they really believed that, but I've had a lot of people that reach out reached out to me. They always do the opposite. And having talked to other drama channels, I know that literally every drama channel that I have ever talked to out there has been reached out by at least one influencer, but mostly many, for suggestions and advice on what to do in a situation. Um, I think I don't think I can think of one drama channel ever back in the day that wasn't reached out to at least by one or not even just one, but numerous. So, no, I'm not giving Kelly Coutron says, "We're not giving out any more free advice anymore. If somebody's going to call us up for we're in the business of advice."

[00:32:07]That's what I do in my videos. If a big influencer wants to call me up and say, "What should I do in this situation?" Number one, I'm going to record that phone call. Number two, we're going to be have signing something. Okay? And number three, there's going to be a paycheck at the end of it. No, I My time is valuable.

[00:32:24]I'm not We're not doing that. I'm not I'm not getting caught in a situation like that. He said, she said, and I didn't say. No, I know what I said.

[00:32:30]Okay? I'm not getting caught in that stuff again. Never again. Uh-uh. No.

[00:32:33]Never again. I will never put myself in that situation again. You learn. When you know better, you do better. Honey, that's what I'm saying right now. Okay?

[00:32:40]I don't need somebody to be guessing at what I said on a phone call that I remember. Next time, there will be a recording. there will be no confusion cuz we will just play the recording and there will be paperwork that says I can play the recording and that will just be how it goes. So anyway, and that's not just with Robbie Dissy, that's with several people out there. But anyway, so but like somebody reached out to me like they had started a channel and they're like, you know, they asked me and I said just send me a bunch of questions and like you know, we can talk on the phone or whatever like I can email you back, but just be patient with me cuz I've been real busy this week trying to get back in the swing of things. So I am going to get back to you. Don't think that I'm blowing you off. Somebody asked me, "Oh my god, for dinner like a month ago and they gave me two dates, the 9th and the 23rd and I for totally forgot to respond. I feel so bad." Anyway, I'm bad about that stuff. I don't like I write it down in my calendar book and then I kind of forget. Anyway, um so just be patient with me, please. Okay, but no, like if somebody if one of you guys reaches out to me and like what do you Now listen, a lot of people reach out to me about real personal stuff like addiction stuff. I don't usually get into that. like I just share my experience, strength and hope. I'm I don't get into giving advice about that.

[00:33:48]You guys need to make personal decisions. But if it's something to do with like YouTube, listen, I always tell people the same thing. If it's something you want to do cuz you feel like you you're pulled to it, whatever that is, whether it's YouTube or writing a book or making an album or whatever, do it cuz you feel like I I I can't not do it.

[00:34:08]That's how I felt when I started book.

[00:34:10]Like I just wanted to be part of the community. that I never in a million years, honest to God, thought that it would look like this down the road that I would have eight channels and that I call it a job. For a long time, I never wanted to call it a job, you know, like I just felt like that kind of detracted away.

[00:34:25]But what I've realized is it's a blessing, especially in today's economy and world, that I get to get up every single day and do something that I love and be able to call it a job and pay my bills for it. And that's because of you guys out there watching my videos. I think that's also partly why I've never kind of forgotten that there's a person behind the view. You know what I mean?

[00:34:44]Like, and I want to make videos that entertain people. And like somebody said on my video yesterday, they said that they had kind of like stepped away from my channel for a while because I wouldn't talk about important issues, but then what they realized was that I don't know, I I can't remember who said it. It was a really nice comment, but that this is kind of a safe escape. Listen, there's a million in one places to go and hear what's going on in the world.

[00:35:06]I'm aware of it. I keep very up to date with what's going on. We're all aware of it. Okay. And then somebody said, I this was such a compliment. Somebody said, Peter, because I intentionally, this is very intentional. They said, Peter's like Dolly Parton. He doesn't speak on everything, but when he does, you know, it's important. Like he he will speak on it. Yes, of course I will. That comparison to me of Dolly Parton really meant a lot. I really appreciate that.

[00:35:28]It's very intentional over here. Um, I feel like when people speak about everything as if they know everything, and I don't know everything. I I'll be the first person to tell you I'm very ignorant on this subject or I'm very ignorant on that.

[00:35:44]I'm not the person to go go to, you know, it's like I can't remember who said this, but it's like, why are we always going to influencers for like world issue stuff? I'm not the person to come to. I'm not educated on a lot of it. I'll be the first one to admit it. A lot of stuff I am very educated on and that's when maybe I'll speak on stuff.

[00:36:00]But I also know that the vlog is a place for people to unwind at the end of the day where they make dinner. You know, we can hear that. We can turn on the news.

[00:36:06]We can get on Facebook and see people having fights. I think it's important to have those discussions. I know this is a place and I have specifically asked people not to talk about those things over here because I want this to be a place where and then it's thrown in my face. Well, you'll talk about gay rights. Well, that's my experience.

[00:36:22]that's my lived experience, you know, or addiction or whatever. Um, but I want this to be a safe place for everybody to feel like they can come and we're talking about movies and TV shows.

[00:36:33]Sometimes I get deep talking about my mom or experiences in my life, but that meant a lot to me. The comparison to Dolly Parton, I don't know why like that like brought tears to my eyes. I really appreciate that because it is very intentional the way that I I do things. I think people are like, "You're afraid to talk."

[00:36:50]Honey, do you watch my other channels?

[00:36:51]I'm not afraid to say anything. Okay?

[00:36:53]I'm not afraid to say anything. And if I feel like I need to speak about something, I will. I don't know that I think that a YouTuber is always the person that needs to be speaking on anything. Okay? And I don't know that I've ever in my life changed somebody's belief system about something. What I will tell you is, and this is about like me being gay, one of the things I learned is that I've never changed anybody's opinion about what they think about gay people by shoving it in their face or shouting from the mountaintop.

[00:37:20]Never in my life have I ever by people getting to know me and realize, oh wow, he's no different than anybody else except for that he loves a man and he's married to a man, that has changed people's opinions about gay people in general, that we're no different than anybody else except for how we identify or who we love or who we're attracted to. Um, shouting people's faces and screaming that to me that has never changed my mind. Um, I'd rather get to know somebody and then when you know when I, you know, but like I I want this also to be a place where I want this to be a place where at the end of the day that people can come over here and they can like turn it on and they can just lay in bed and laugh or cry and it doesn't have to be like in all honesty, one of the reasons why I'm only on Instagram and like I don't get on Facebook a lot and is I've stepped away from all that stuff is because sometimes no matter where people stand and obviously the people that I'm friends with on Facebook and things like that, it's very one-sided. I I mean most of the people in my life feel exactly the same way that I do about world issues. Okay, I believe in humanity.

[00:38:39]I believe in human rights, but most people stand where I stand. So, it's not like I see a lot of arguing or fighting, but it got to be so much that I needed to turn off at the end of the day. I think, you know, like, and you know, this was long before I was ever on YouTube. I fought hard a lot of my life. I fought really hard, you know, activist point of view, hard. I was raised by a mother that was an activist that was like believed in that. Um, I want people to have a place at the end of the day where they can come to and they can turn it on and they don't have to worry about it being all that. You know what I mean? Like I don't know that that's just that was so weird. I was just talking about my mom and that cotton just floated by.

[00:39:31]Somebody said it's pollen the other day.

[00:39:33]But anyway, thank you for the comparison of Dolly Parton. I I mean I think there was a special place in heaven for Dolly Parton. No, I truly do believe that. I I love that woman. I always have. I loved her as a kid. I put balloons in my shirt and I'd be like, "Here we go again." But no, I think she speaks such wisdom and truth in such a gentle way, you know.

[00:39:56]Um but thank you for that. Um but no, like anybody that's wanting to start a channel or whatever, reach out to me.

[00:40:01]Email me. Email me is probably a better way than direct messaging me. I appreciate that because then I can like respond to it and see like you know the back and forth where the DMs kind of get lost sometimes. I'm more than willing to give advice on stuff like that. Um start it cuz you're passionate passionate about it because you can't not do it is what I would suggest.

[00:40:19]They'll never think I I feel like we have so many people today that are starting it and they're like, "Well, I'm going to this is going to be my job."

[00:40:27]And then they're watching all these videos on how to make your I'll tell you what right now I have watched a lot of those videos on like what to do or not to do on YouTube, what works, what doesn't work. I don't know that I believe in any of those videos. I've done some of those things and a lot of them I haven't. And I don't know like they always kind of turn up for me on my videos. I don't know why. even though I don't seek them out.

[00:40:51]But don't get inundated with that stuff.

[00:40:53]I've always in my life just believed be yourself and those people that are supposed to find you will find you. I'll tell you what, especially over here.

[00:41:04]I feel so comfortable being myself over here. Like this is and this has allowed me to be my most comfortable self on my drama channel and my other channels.

[00:41:13]This has the channel that when I started it back in the day, everybody told me, "Why are you starting another channel?

[00:41:18]This is stupid." And I was afraid the drama channel was going down. Baby, the glitch, honey, got me. The glitch was getting me. I thought, "No." I thought this channel is going to hell. I got to start something else. And so I did. What time is it? I don't want to I got to get this stuff ready. So I started that this vlog. This vlog changed my life. This is This vlog has been everything to me. And this sitting here through driving around the accident, the lockdown, the accident, after the accident, now finding my place on the front porch has really been like all these periods of my life and now here I am has just been like stripped raw. Take me as I am. Some days I'm laughing and giggling. Some days I'm crying. Some days like yesterday I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about. But is allowed me to fully be exactly who I am. And it has been so refreshing. Hey, >> don't get caught in the rain.

[00:42:13]>> Yeah, you're out in the cold.

[00:42:14]>> I know, but you're in the rain.

[00:42:18]>> Drying off.

[00:42:18]>> Okay, that's I love them so much. Um, but I can see it raining right now. He's saying it's drying off. Um, I always tell people when you're talking to the camera, just imagine like I used to imagine talking to the dogs, talking to your best friend. I don't really think of it that much anymore when I'm vlogging sometimes like if something goes through my head like a book I'll think of Stacy or like I said something about the cowboy junkies and Lisa said oh I forgot about them like I think about that kind of stuff like comments that people leave and whatever.

[00:42:51]Um I'm grateful so grateful for it. I don't know. You know, I think like part of it for me is and I think also like feeling like you're just talking to a group of people out there makes you realize that those numbers equal people.

[00:43:16]I'd stop the other channels if the numbers I mean I can so many people have told me through the years if you got rid of five of those channels that aren't doing well, you could focus more attention on that. those five channels or whatever. Every channel has saved my life at one point or another. When it's like the it's the drama, it's too heavy.

[00:43:30]It's like, well, I can make a TV video and laugh my ass off or come out here on the vlog and I mean, do it cuz you love it. Do it because you can't do it. You know, if tomorrow I've thought about this, if tomorrow YouTube said we're not paying nobody anymore, I'd still keep this up. I don't know that it would look exactly the way that it looks today because I'd have to figure out some way, you know, like I have to go get a real job or I mean it like this is not a real job. Like let's just be for real. I used to say that to people and I was like, "Oh my god, when people know that this is my job, they're going to be like, "Well, you used to tell people get a real job." This is not a real job. Okay?

[00:44:03]My friends are so nice. They'll be like, "Yes, it is." Like you sit out there for this is not a real job. This is a dream job. Okay? Sitting on my front porch talking to a camera. The camera's tough.

[00:44:13]This is a dream job. I mean, and I never even knew that this is this was my dream until I got to do it. It's a blessing and it's I get to do it because you guys watch my videos. Like, period. Like, I'm so thankful for that. Um, yeah.

[00:44:29]But I feel blessed also because it doesn't happen to everybody. I see people out there all the time that are like, I have been, and I get emails from people like this, not all the time, but I used to. They're like, I've been doing this for 10 years and I have 200 subscribers. I'm like, do it cuz you love it. Like, it may never turn in. I don't know. It's a lot of luck. It really is. It's cuz somebody found you.

[00:44:48]I see people all the time blow up and I'm like, I don't understand why they did it. They made it and they didn't.

[00:44:52]Like, why are they getting a million views a video and this person over here that's in the same category of videos is getting 500 views. It doesn't make any sense. I see people all the time that I'm like, "This doesn't make any sense to me at all." Like, you know, it just doesn't. But I don't know. So, always do it because you love it. And and to be honest with you, like YouTube has been very kind to me.

[00:45:16]It's been it's, you know, given me the life I wanted and allowed to travel and have a lot of awesome opportunities and meet people and stuff. But in all honesty, the growth that I've had, the helping with the social anxiety, the feeling more comfortable in my own skin, the being able to retell stories in my life that nobody was going to sit around and listen to, you know, the the laughter.

[00:45:36]I think like on my drama channel like being able to be the silly side of me that sometimes like like people want to know like why I laugh at my own jokes.

[00:45:45]Sometimes I don't real like I am I can be funny. I do realize I'm funny but sometimes like some people come out of my mouth and I'm like did you just say that? Like seriously like it kind of cracks. I'm like you did not just say that on camera right for all and then I'm like I don't give a I'm too old to care. let anybody, you know, so it is funny to me, you know, but like it allows me to be a side of myself that I'm not when I'm just walking the dogs down the neighborhood. I feel like all those versions are merging together and YouTube has allowed me to be that.

[00:46:13]YouTube has allowed me to find out who I really am. It's hard to hide from that when you're looking at yourself in a camera every day. You know, it's kind of like hearing your voice. Do you know like back in the day when it's like you never knew what your voice really sounded like and then you hear their voice on like an answering machine, you're like, "Oh, is that what my voice sounds like?" It's like that like YouTube like filming yourself. You film yourself and just watch it back. You know, it's the same thing. I don't know.

[00:46:34]But we live in a world where everybody knows what they're like now. But I don't know.

[00:46:42]I love it.

[00:46:44]So anyway, okay. What did I do last night? What did Alex and I watch last night? Oh, we watched Real Housewives of Rhode Island and two episodes of Vanderpump Villa. Alex wanted to finish it. I said, "Babe, I've got to take a nap. I'm so tired. And so we've got two episodes left. We have the finale and the reunion of Vanderpump Villa. And then we're going to start watching Traders Canada, Traders UK. We have the last season of Traers UK to watch. We're going to start watching those. We love the Traers. And then I took a nap and laid down and listened to that Stolen Tongues. I did my review of Stolen Tongues. I listened to it in one day. It wasn't quick enough, I'll tell you that. The scariest book ever, people told me. So, I did my review of Stolen Tongues on my book channel today.

[00:47:27]It's uploading right now. And then when I got from my nap, I listened to more of it. Took the dogs on a real long walk right before the rain hit again. Oh my god. So, last night, I have to show you this. I took in between shows I was like, I think the rain has stopped a little bit. And so, the rain stopped and I took the dogs on a walk and we were like, Walter wanted to poop. He just kept on pulling me down the pool. We got down to next to the pool and then the rain started the rain started pouring down. So they were soaked. We were all soaked when we came in. So then Alex was like, "The dogs need to be brushed." So there's Alex brushing the dogs. He loves to brush the dogs. And you can see Vanderpump Villa in the background. But anyway, so he I have all these videos of Alex. Here he is just watching TV waiting for the dogs to run around.

[00:48:16]Here he is brushing Walter. They look so nice now. So, then I took a nap. I got up from my nap, listened to an hour of the book. I think I finished the book while I was sitting there. Then I watched Hacks, last week's episode of Hacks. And then it was kind of a sad episode, honestly. And then I watched um episode 6, episode 7, and half of episode 8 of the first season of stalking or sha what's it called? I have it written down on my list. I talked about it every day this week.

[00:48:54]The slasher. I've got half of the last episode left and then I'm done with season one. It is so good. I mean, it's cheesy kind of, but I love it. I think it's scary. I honestly do. So then I'm gonna start a new show tonight. I don't know which one.

[00:49:08]Tonight is a two-hour finale of Survivor, but I'll probably watch it tomorrow night. And then tomorrow, do I have therapy tomorrow? I think I have therapy tomorrow. That's it other than filming videos. So I don't really have a whole lot to do tomorrow so I can sleep in.

[00:49:22]Yeah. And that's it. But I'm going to go get ready now so I can get all Oh, 20.

[00:49:26]It's Oh, I got to start getting ready to get these videos up so I can get ready.

[00:49:31]I'm just going to throw on a sweatshirt.

[00:49:32]We'll go over there. It'll be fine.

[00:49:33]Anyway, I got to get the dogs in their walk and all that. So, I'm going to get off here now. I know that vlog was kind of all over the place. I just wanted to make sure I had something up. Anyway, hope you guys are having a magically amazing Wednesday. If nobody else has told you today, I love you guys. If it's cooled down where you are, then stay warm. If it's still warm where you are, I'm jealous and I wish we had that weather. I want to go to THE POOL THIS WEEKEND. ANYWAY, I love you guys so much and I will see you tomorrow. Bye. Love you. Do what you love.