You Guys Were Right

Added: 2026-05-25

[00:00:00]Yo, welcome back vlog. Another day, another dollar. Literally starting off this vlog. We are in the burn room today. So, few burn cases on the board.

[00:00:13]And I'm also the late resident today.

[00:00:15]So, not too sure when I'm going to get to leave. Nothing crazy going on this week. Pretty status quo. Let's have a good day.

[00:00:30]All right, guys. I am settled into my first case of the day. I'm in the burn room. So, it's a variety of things that you can really have when you're in the burn room. You can have really large, crazy burn cases, a lot of blood loss, a lot of fluid management, very scary stuff. Or you can have really small burns that just are getting debreed. They my cases are the ladder, which is really nice. So, pretty straightforward cases from the anesthesia perspective. You can usually do those with an LMA rather than a full-on endotracheial tube, keep the patient breathing on their own. You'll do some like multimodal pain control.

[00:01:05]So, you can do like blocks to the areas to help with pain. Uh, a lot of fun in that regard. A lot of variation in anesthetic plans. Right now, we are big chilling. I'm the late resident and my cases will not go all day. So, at some point, I'll go to another room and take over cases. I'll figure that out later.

[00:01:22]Right now, my attendant got me out for some breakfast. Got some hard-boiled eggs here. Banana, piece of cheese. So, my go-to. Nothing too crazy. I'll see you guys in a little bit. Yo, we are done, baby. Honestly, super chill status quo day. Everything went swimmingly. Felt pretty autonomous, which was really, really nice. I've already discussed my cases with my attending for tomorrow. So, I think right now I'm going to head to the gym with my roommate Eddie.

[00:01:52]and it'll be a really relaxing night.

[00:01:54]All right, home from the hospital, hitting the gym with this guy.

[00:02:14]>> All right, guys. I just got home from a workout. Last week's vlog, I talked a little bit about how I felt like some of my habits have been following through during residency. Things like sleep, diet, skincare, working out. So, lately, I've been trying to track my habits more again because I do feel like when you track your habits, you're more likely to stick to them. One of the more recent habits that I've started to track again is my weight and body composition, cuz that's one of the things that can very obviously go downhill when your life gets very busy and hectic. And for that, I've been using Hume Pod, who's actually sponsoring this video. The Hume Pod is basically an InBody scan that you can do at home. You know those big fancy $20,000 machines that you can use at the gym? Basically that but in your own home. The Hume Pod has eight sensors.

[00:02:56]The base reads your legs, the handles read your arms and torso. That's basically why it works so well because normal body scanners typically just look at your lower body and then estimate the rest of it. But the Hume Pod does your whole body and it's 98% accurate compared to medical grade devices. And the HPOD actually gets linked to the app. And the app is really cool because it essentially shows you this little body diagram and breaks down everything by body part that includes each arm, leg, my torso all separately. It's got over 40 metrics and the two that I care the most about, especially as a resident physician and athlete are the muscle mass and visceral fat. Anesthesia is one of the more sedentary specialties. So, for all I know, my weight could be staying the same, but I could be losing muscle mass and just replacing it with fat. With the human pot, it will consistently track that. so I'll know if that's happening. And visceral fat, of course, is important to track because that's directly related to things like heart disease, which as healthcare workers, we're actually at higher risk for. Another cool thing about the app is that it pulls in your sleep, activity, heart rate, and uses AI to connect it all. So every week, you can get a little report that's like, hey, here's what your body's doing and here's what you need to do, which is nice because with busy schedules, that's not necessarily something you can worry about thinking about every single day, but a weekly summary definitely helps put it all together. If you're someone who cares a lot about your body composition and want to track it, then I definitely recommend the Hume Pod. If you want to try it out, you can actually use code Shawn at the link below. And my discount code actually stacks on top of whatever discount they're currently running up to 50% off. It's only good for 7 days, though, so make sure to jump on it. And if you're in the US, it's actually HSA and FSA eligible. So, great thing to be using that money on. Make sure to check out the Hume Pod. And thank you so much again to Hume for sponsoring this week's video.

[00:04:37]>> And good morning vlog. Another day in the O. We've got pretty long lineup of some head and neck stuff. Not too crazy.

[00:04:45]I am second late today. So, really praying I don't get out of here too too late. Let's have a good day.

[00:05:04]All right, guys. It is about quarter after 4 in the afternoon. Not a lot of vlogging. Just been really locked in today. Pretty high turnover day. Kind of interesting cases like I had a pet's case and some other cases that are a little bit more novel to me, but they've been going really well. Actually, today's been pretty smooth in general, which is really nice. I kind of had a rough day. What was it? yesterday where I felt like things weren't very smooth and it just was kind of like the theme of the day and patients are fine. Of course, it's like me and little things that I do and little skills that aren't smooth. Don't worry guys, there's always an attending and other people. So, a little down coming into today, but so far so good. Everything's actually been very smooth. We getting really good feedback from my attending, which is good. And honestly, that's just like the theme of residency. Like sometimes you'll have like really good days where you feel like you're progressing and you feel more competent and then other days you'll have like just a rough bad day where you're like dude am I even like cut out for this? Like what what am I doing, man? And I've had a lot of those days. I've also had good days. So sometimes they come right after each other like yesterday and today.

[00:06:21]Sometimes you have a good stretch of good days and then sometimes you have a really rough stretch of bad days. I think when things feel good, it can snowball into you doing better because you kind of have that confidence. And then I think when things are bad, that can also snowball cuz one thing will make you overthink the next and then it just becomes, you know, something that's just worse than maybe it has to be. So that's just how it goes sometimes.

[00:06:46]That's just the life we chose. Anyway, getting a little afternoon break, refilling on some Celsius. I am the late resident or second late resident today.

[00:06:55]Thank goodness I'm the late resident.

[00:06:56]However, as a second late resident, I can be here pretty long, which is pretty rough. But I have a 2-day weekend after this and then I'm on a 24 Monday and post call day. So, just got to make it through the next couple days, which is also a theme of residency, telling yourself that you just got to make it through the next couple days so that you can then make it through the next couple days and then make it through a couple more. Anyway, I'm going to finish my break and then head back to the O. Guys, it's a miracle. It's only 5:00 p.m. and I'm already leaving the hospital on a second late day. For context, I typically don't leave the hospital when I'm second late until like 7 or 8. If you're first late, probably closer to 10, 11 midnight. So, this is extremely awesome, especially considering I have a 2-day weekend now. I want to follow up a little bit on last week's vlog where I talked to you guys a little bit about some of the feelings I've been having and a little bit of the sadness and everything. And I just want to say the response to that vlog um was incredible.

[00:08:03]Honestly, I really wasn't expecting so many of you guys to watch and especially comment on it. the fact that I'm supported by so many people, especially strangers on the internet, it it's just incredible. And honestly, you guys aren't even like really strangers. Like, so many of you guys comment on the vlogs every week. Like, I recognize your names. I look forward to your comments and seeing just the support of what essentially was just like 10 minutes of me sitting there and venting to you guys. Um, it was pretty awesome and I really appreciated it. I think it was very therapeutic for me to talk about cuz honestly I was kind of putting off posting a vlog for like those 3 weeks because I didn't really know how to express the way that I was feeling. And honestly, even when I filmed that video, I was kind of rambly and I don't think I was really expressing it that well either. And after reading your guys' comments, a few of the takeaways for sure are that one, this is really just a cumulative effect of what has been about 9 years or so of grinding and training that is really catching up to me. And for some reason, it's catching up right now. I think it's the long work hours and also maybe just being in a new city or maybe it's just time for it to catch up, right? Like it has to eventually. I either burn out in residency or I burn out in attending hood. And I I think it's just catching up right now. And um so I don't really blame myself. I don't blame like the way that I feel on me being weak emotionally or unable to do the job of what a doctor needs to do. I think it's just like me being honest with myself. And it feels good to be honest with myself. It feels good to be honest with you guys and I really appreciate the support. So going forward, I do think that the vlogs will continue. Of course, it's not that I feel like the vlogs are making it hard for me to live my life. The vlogs are one of the reasons I get to live my life the way I have been. So that's not something that I think is going to stop. What is something I am going to be thinking about is like when do I need to upload a vlog? I think I've held myself to the standard of it being every single week and me vlogging every single day. And if you've noticed on these last few vlogs, I haven't vlogged every day of the week versus up until literally like a few weeks ago, my vlogs were start on Monday and Friday, edit Saturday, upload Sunday. Maybe I just have to vlog a couple days a week. Maybe just on a, you know, on a good day or something interesting is happening. And then maybe a few other things in life. They don't need to be 20 minutes long like they have been. They don't need to be 15 minutes long. They can be shorter. And I think that if shorter vlogs, maybe even every other week, makes it so that I can show up for the vlog better and I'm excited to do the vlog, I think that's a better outcome than just showing you guys the mundainess of residency.

[00:11:10]Because at first I would vlog every day because I thought that was important to show you guys that every day does kind of look the same and blend together and that this kind of is what residency is. A lot of rinse and repeat long days at the hospital. I think you guys get the picture. I think you guys get the idea now. I don't think I necessarily have to show that. That's kind of the beauty of creating a vlog or chronicle is that you guys can go back and see what's happened so far. But I think moving forward might just be good to post a vlog when it feels right and when I'm ready. And I think maybe going to a bi-weekly schedule might be the way to go. Or we'll stay weekly. I don't know. It kind of just depends on how I'm feeling. And I think that's kind of the overall message is I'm just going to be in touch with the way that I feel and we'll move from there. And then secondly, I kind of stopped vlogging at home and outside of work because I wanted to keep the vlogs kind of more so just like part of work.

[00:12:12]But I think one of the reasons that the vlogs show me in a place that maybe I'm not so happy is because I'm vlogging when I am kind of the least happy. And so maybe moving forward I also put a little bit more focus on vlogging the things I'm doing outside of work because that is when I'm happy.

[00:12:33]Not that I'm not happy at work. I'm just a little less happy at work right now.

[00:12:36]Again, this is just the running kind of thoughts in my head as I as I move through my life. And um anyway, I won't bore you guys with more of that. For now, I want to start my weekend and enjoy it and get some sleep and some rest. So, I am going to go do that. But Monday, I'm on a 24. So, I'll take you guys with me for that. And then we'll just play things by ear. We'll get it as we do. We also hit 90,000 subscribers this past week, which is absolutely incredible. I can't believe it. We are so close to my goal of 100,000, which has always been in my head since I started this YouTube channel. So, really excited. If you haven't subbed, make sure to subscribe. Anyway, I really appreciate you guys and that's it for now.