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Added: 2026-05-10

[00:00:00]A lot of times I take man a ponytail and um as I got older, the tension I put on my head was weird.

[00:00:21]So just come with me as I'm coming as I'm trying to press my hair.

[00:00:35]and then try to [screaming] So you said what we how do you handle a stroke?

[00:00:59]This is not a certain thing that when it happens it's your health.

[00:01:09]Your health is unpredictable. And also keep in mind that having a stroke you have to do therapy yourself if you're lucky.

[00:01:29]So once your health start feeling you, you have to do therapy on yourself and the little things far as speech as in life.

[00:01:42]I'm not trying to hide anything for y'all. When I tell y'all different things I learned, I used to take this this thing and put on my mouth and I would just pull it cuz I had to kind of let the mouth go. So I would take my thing and pull my mouth cuz I had to keep it lined up. It's [laughter] not funny.

[00:02:02]It's not funny. But I had to line it up so it go back into place. over little lock and then you know you move forward and then it's the stroke that you can have when you go to sleep.

[00:02:22]So now you wake up your face is went back to normal.

[00:02:27]The stroke has twisted your face, your speech, everything. It's like ongoing therapy lesson.

[00:02:38]Then it's the memory.

[00:02:42]Your memory becomes shot.

[00:02:45]Sometimes I have to reflect from my resume and realize all the stuff I could do, but I don't remember.

[00:02:53]Your memory is shot.

[00:03:03]Okay.

[00:03:07]You remember me come shot.

[00:04:42]So weird.

[00:04:44]So your memory become shot.

[00:04:47]I guess I I guess I I should bother like B. I should have wor but that didn't bother me because I don't know what simple things you do you can't remember.

[00:05:12]Small things become big things.

[00:05:17]So if you're a person that suffer from a stroke, there is a possibility of coming full recovery.

[00:05:32]Sometimes people have a stroke and had another one, a heart attack, have another one.

[00:05:37]They have fell in them all across the board.

[00:05:58]So, in the meantime, you have to figure it out.

[00:08:17]This is weird.

[00:08:20]That reminds you, as you're older, you start seeing things that you didn't notice before.

[00:08:35]Little things that you do becomes big things you do.

[00:08:47]That's why in life it is very important to find somebody that really loves you.

[00:08:52]Don't waste your time.

[00:08:56]You have a stroke or heart attack and stuff and here it is. You with somebody that don't even care about you. Spend wasting time with the wrong pe person don't even care about you.

[00:09:09]So when the test comes across in life, how much you care about this person, they learn a powerful lesson.

[00:09:22]You don't care at all.

[00:09:28]I think it's a horrible lesson cuz they find out that you don't care about them.

[00:09:36]And It's It's sad.

[00:09:48]Now it is your health is following you and you're watching how you're being treated.

[00:09:57]And then some people act like having a stroke.

[00:10:02]People thinking, "Well, you're fine. Oh, it's okay. It's okay." But it's not okay.

[00:10:08]you sick.

[00:10:10]But I guess the fact you seem to recover a lot more better than most than they thought, they pay the mind or you over it. That's how it goes.

[00:10:23]That's not how it goes. Just Just because you want to have a good time and this like that, you act as if it didn't happen. But it did happen.

[00:10:35]I think the thing with me is the worst is that I can't remember stuff. I cannot remember nothing. And then this is speech. Your speech becomes so weird.

[00:10:50]I don't know.

[00:10:55]When I go to sleep, I feel like I'm about to think Dr. Death.

[00:11:00]Dr. Death.

[00:11:05]And then the recovery part is amazing.

[00:11:13]When you sick, that's when you learn truth.

[00:11:20]All the people around you don't care about you like you thought. I think it's a painful lesson.

[00:11:33]You know, when I think about myself back in the day, like I don't know this person.

[00:11:47]I don't know this person, but this person's been here all the time.

[00:11:52]But remind you, mentally you wasn't there.

[00:11:58]Life changes, lot of stress happens to you and nobody pays no mind.

[00:12:11]They'll be your doctor. Oh, you going to be okay. You know what we Nobody would even know.

[00:12:19]So even though you sick, like I'm still sick just cuz I don't show it. I'm sick.

[00:12:25]Oh, you'll be fine. Also, I need a doctor.

[00:12:29]It's okay, baby. You're gonna be all right. When I told people I had a stroke, they was like, "When nobody You couldn't even know."

[00:12:41]After heard it over and over and over and then I need you to prove it to me. So, if you had a stroke, I want you to smile. So, when I show you my smile, it's not funny. So you show him the smile. Well, it must have been your left side.

[00:13:00]So now you diagnose you diagnosing me when I just told you. But now you diagnosing me to see if it's actually true.

[00:13:12]And understand the world we live in, there's a lot of people in the world that just lie about their damn thing.

[00:13:18]But then there's people who's really sick and some of them don't show up no more.

[00:13:22]Does it feel like the sugar's bad enough? But you want to diagnose me?

[00:13:27]Shoot me down.

[00:13:30]It's weird.

[00:13:40]But I still think it is the worst feeling in the world when you're about to leave this world and you know it.

[00:13:58]It's the worst feel in the world.

[00:14:04]You move forward as if nothing is happening to you.

[00:14:08]If you have cancer, ace and you're leaving this world and you trying to remain positive at the end [clears throat] of the day, your time is up.

[00:14:28]And then other people around you said, "Will you be okay? I'll pray for you."

[00:14:32]Do you know how many people that's been sick, diagnosed It was sick. Little babies.

[00:14:42]It's the worst feeling in the world because all you can do is watch. You're in the movie. You're the star.

[00:14:49]All you can do is watch.

[00:14:51]As one thing of having a child, they were born sick.

[00:15:04]cancer, AIDS, and all you can do is watch them.

[00:15:12]Watch them cuz you can't do nothing.

[00:15:17]You go in the room and you pray and you pray and then somebody said, "Oh, the Lord gave me an answer." You have been your child has been given a second chance and then you be like, "Well, I hope you're right."

[00:15:43]But and the reason why I share this with you cuz at the end of the day I do these videos stuff like that and I'm heading out.

[00:16:02]When I tell my friends they was like don't say that.

[00:16:08]I was [snorts] like, "Well, you know what's going to happen, but stop saying it. You speaking to foolish and I can speak it all I want. I'm telling you what's happening." Well, don't say that. I I don't want to believe it. But it's not about you believing it. I'm telling you. So, when I decide I can't Well, I'm not going to say I decide when it happens that we're just not posting videos.

[00:16:35][laughter] It's just It's not funny.

[00:16:37][snorts] Just know that she gone.

[00:16:42]She gone.

[00:16:45]The journey is over. The fight is over.

[00:16:48]They'll say, "Well, now you can rest in peace." Okay?

[00:16:55]And it's so weird because a lot of times, which I've learned in life, people are not celebrated for being here.

[00:17:05]They seem to be honored more so in death.

[00:17:12]People that didn't care enough about you, now all of a sudden they showing up just to make sure what it looks what it looks like to see you dead.

[00:17:26]You have a president of the United States of America that's taking their body straight down.

[00:17:31]And the thing that gets me is they're allowing this.

[00:17:37]They took away medicine for elderly people, elderly for children, two spirit women, two spirit kids. They want the treatment to stop by somebody. That's Lucifer sitting in the White House and diagnosing your life.

[00:18:00]And y'all allow us.

[00:18:05]So our ancestors went through hell.

[00:18:11]They went through hell.

[00:18:14]Our ancestors went through hell.

[00:18:21]They went through hell.

[00:18:25]They were raped, beaten, and they still behind it.

[00:18:32]You ain't go through that.

[00:18:44]So, your ancestors were raped and beaten, and guess what you did to them? You voted for Trump.

[00:19:00]When I was at my job, that guy said, "Well, I voted him because I he needs to clean up this world." I'm like, "Are you [ __ ] kidding me?"

[00:19:15]He's like, "No." [clears throat] And this is why I have so much respect for TS Madison.

[00:19:33]Her body is in a good place. Her spirit is in a good place for trying to educate people.

[00:19:44]and she sits inside a water of darkness and have a conversation with you through laughter and stuff like that. But it's a sad sad story because at the end of the day, somebody put this stuff on the line for you and your gratitude is I'm going to be the the DL whisperer.

[00:20:13]So what did she do that was so bad that she felt as though she had to be destroyed?

[00:20:23]So now you sit there and then you have your own people sitt there looking cuz they don't like you but you standing up front. So when you go home in your bed and close the door, you're not going through what you're going through. They you're not fighting for your life.

[00:20:37]You're not that's not to you. So you can have a whole conversation, but it's not happening to you. Then what happens to you, you're like, "Oh my god, I can't believe this.

[00:20:48]Accountability is amazing thing.

[00:20:55]I firstand went through that when I was doing them. My pages look like I home.

[00:21:01]My page is packed with dead bodies on it.

[00:21:06]People just [clears throat] And I was attacked.

[00:21:16]So even me been attacked so much.

[00:21:22]I was like, I can't do this.

[00:21:29]I was I couldn't do it.

[00:21:32]So I'm trying to help you to make sure you okay and you attack me. So if you go to images on Google, there's my face all over the thing. I'm trying to help you so you could be okay.

[00:21:48]And my reward is you're going to attack me. You're not going to attack the person that's trying to attack you.

[00:21:53]You're not trying to attack the person that's trying to unlive us and kill us, but you attack me.

[00:22:02]The same ones that slide in your bed having sex with you, don't give a [ __ ] about you.

[00:22:10]So when it's time to stand up, you like I don't want to talk about it.

[00:22:17]There are so many cowards working in this world that won't stand up for you.

[00:22:23]So as a woman, you stand up and fight for what's right.

[00:22:30]And the same ones you fight for be the same ones to turn on you.

[00:22:38]It reminds me of when our ancestors was slaves lots of times.

[00:23:00]They were tricked home from a tree, compliments from them.

[00:23:11]And will we will we will we hear their story? No.

[00:23:18]Betrayal is the biggest thing in the world when it comes to people. And when you allow them to come to your world, It may be a possibility.

[00:23:51]When Jesus was around.

[00:24:01]He heard a message.

[00:24:05]They said somebody's about to deceive you, the Last Supper.

[00:24:19]So you got this information that the people you trying to help is going to deceive you.

[00:24:28]So it's been going on for years.

[00:24:33]I used to say before I used to get upset. I was like, "If I decide to fight back, will you come with me or I turn around and you decide like I'm not coming."

[00:24:51]So now I'm out there fighting the storm through the weather, the thunder, and everything. And I'm thinking, "You about to come out at my back. So if I fall, stomp them, I won't hit the ground.

[00:25:03]you ain't coming.

[00:25:06]So you create all this noise trying to help people and in the end you get betrayed.

[00:25:15]Now your whole life has been changed and shifted in now you're a target.

[00:25:22]And guess who cares?

[00:25:25]A lot of people don't. It's not everybody.

[00:25:30]I've heard of this girl named Morgan. I think she just got locked up for stealing money allegedly.

[00:25:50]So, as she's locked out, there was a girl online to have a make Joseph up by her life.

[00:26:04]So, this is funny for you.

[00:26:08]This girl's life is going through hell.

[00:26:10]As if it wasn't enough, but now she's going through hell.

[00:26:16]And then on top of that, well, I believe this story.

[00:26:20]You believed in one of was Michael Jackson. You believed it. You believed it because that's what y'all do. And it's not everybody, but a lot of y'all contribute to it. And I always find it amazing when they die. You're like, "Oh my god, this never going to be learned like them." But look what you did when they was here.

[00:26:40]Look what you did. But you go, "That don't count."

[00:26:46]So it was tolerated but not appreciated through death. They appreciate you. Is that what they wanted you to go all the time?

[00:26:58]But that's just life.

[00:27:04]I don't blend in. I'm never going to blend in. The Lord let me know. No matter what I do, it's going to be something.

[00:27:11]And I had to accept that. Once upon a time I wanted to build this so bad.

[00:27:19]But it's not gonna happen for me.

[00:27:27]But it is what it is.

[00:27:32]Hopefully somebody will catch on.

[00:28:01]If you're the kind of person that's been put down your whole life, whether you was gay, bisexual, you've been put down your whole life.

[00:28:22]So when when people come around you start saying things about you, you don't get upset. [snorts] Just saying, "Oh, is that the new thing about me from people who are cowards?"

[00:28:44]Cowards.

[00:28:47]You're afraid to be seen with me, but you ain't have no problem [ __ ] me.

[00:29:09][snorts] >> [snorts] >> You wake up in the morning and then there's a body hanging from a tree that wanted to live.

[00:29:37]Strange fruit hanging from the tree.

[00:29:44]And then you start screaming. No. Why? Why?

[00:29:51]But these ones that's here now, they don't care.

[00:29:55]They don't care.

[00:30:01]They never think about the nightmare they had.

[00:30:06]You being dragged out your bed to be murdered. Your skin is the wrong color, they say.

[00:30:16]And now as you being dragged to the bed, what did I do? What did I do? What did I do?

[00:30:23]You were born black and you decide I'm going to vote for racist and put him back in office cuz that's where he belong.

[00:30:33]He need to get rid of some of these immigrants.

[00:30:38]But they're known for stealing, stealing bodies.

[00:30:46]And you know this, but guess what you do? You can't accept that. Even though you know the truth, you close your eyes to it like it didn't happen.

[00:30:57]So there was a song I was taught when I was younger.

[00:31:04]This land is your land. This land is my land.

[00:31:08]all over the world. But guess who decided to fix it?

[00:31:14]He wanted to clean it up around round immigrants around these people.

[00:31:19]People have a lives and need to live and do things possible prosperity and stuff, but now you turning on them.

[00:31:30]I need to find me a Spanish treasure to vote for me.

[00:31:35]I'll give you a couple million dollars or thousand dollars and I need you to say this in front of them and then there'll be Spanish. Oh, oh, I vote for Trump. I vote for Trump. This is this is good for Trump.

[00:31:52]Now you both of him in the middle of the night.

[00:32:03]Somebody decide They're going to take you out the country.

[00:32:08]They're only going to take you out the country.

[00:32:11]They're going to place you in a place nobody can find you. So now you dying in some spot cuz you cold, can't eat, you hungry, and nobody's thinking about you.

[00:32:22]They ain't thinking about you.

[00:32:28]They're going to cry for a few days, then after a while, they're not going to care.

[00:32:35]It's sad, but it's real.

[00:32:40]The only ones are going to care is the ones that really miss you.

[00:32:45]One that's going to care is going to be the ones that say, "This ain't right."

[00:32:50]As tears come from your eyes, other people that's looking on us going, "Yeah, I know. It's [ __ ] up, isn't it?"

[00:33:01]So, you don't want to create a rally to stop what they're doing.

[00:33:07]You wipe your hands from it. So, anything everybody's going through, that's not your problem.

[00:33:14]But it is your problem.

[00:33:18]It don't have to be that way.

[00:33:22]But as the man told me, he need to clean up this world until it's your turn.

[00:33:36]So when this man pops up at your mother's house, elderly cabelly war, father's house, cabelly war, they're being pushed on the ground. Just imagine looking at your mother or grandmother or great-g grandandmother being pushed on the ground.

[00:33:53]Compliments from you.

[00:33:59]They hit the ground, hit the cement, now they can't function the right way. They hit broke. Now they have to figure out how they going to survive with health.

[00:34:10]But you took away all that. So if they don't have enough strength in their body or their body deceiving them, they're going to be dead soon.

[00:34:22]But you signed up for this. You signed up for this and it's amazing.

[00:34:33]It's amazing.

[00:34:46]A lot of people pay their mind and then slavery has not ended.

[00:35:09]There's black people own slaves, own them, meeting them, murder them.

[00:35:19]They're being released from their bodies.

[00:35:22]They're no longer in them.

[00:35:26]The tition is a powerful thing.

[00:35:29]So, here it is. The person that has a life that want to do things in life, life is being cancelled.

[00:35:38]As the onlookers look on as the onlookers turn their head away, I can't watch that. Just cuz you can't watch it don't mean it ain't happening.

[00:35:56]I give it up to the leaders out here that try to fight the best way they can deceive in the next platform.

[00:36:11]It's horrible.

[00:36:16]And then you watch this whole Democrat thing. They're fighting everything. And then you watching this whole conspiracy cuz we're going to learn certain things and we're not going to learn certain things and certain things will not be aired because we need to settle this whole thing as far as the way they see you.

[00:36:35]So we're not going to air that. We're not going to air this. We're not going to air this.

[00:36:41]We need them to become hopeless. Not hopeful. Hopeless.

[00:36:48]So now they become hopeless.

[00:36:52]That's called the enemy.

[00:36:57]And then there's somebody that's dictating somebody else's life.

[00:37:08]One thing I know, being rejected by society told me to stand alone.

[00:37:22]Stand alone.

[00:37:25]So you don't look for the cavalary, you are the cavalary.

[00:37:31]It's like that song Michael Jackson play.

[00:37:35]The life you save may be your own.

[00:37:44]And it's the truth.

[00:37:50]What they wanted to air they brainwashing.

[00:37:55]What they didn't want to air.

[00:37:59]All these years you let us we hear this story about these boys which was a lie.

[00:38:10]FBI recorded their phone calls and found out that Michael Jackson do didn't do this to this boys but they never played it.

[00:38:23]They never played it. So as a consumer, we heard the story. We stood behind him.

[00:38:31]We was like, "What's going on?" He's one of your top leaders.

[00:38:36]They didn't like him having that spot.

[00:38:37]So we have to bring him down a few. And we know the people love the children.

[00:38:46]So we're going to use children to destroy him. Now we have the evidence tap wiring to clear his name. But you won't do it. You won't do it.

[00:39:03]So when he dies, I'm still questioning Dr. Murray cuz if you're Dr. Murray, if you're like a Dr. Murray aka Kabokian.

[00:39:18]When Michael was sleeping, you could easily pinch him with the needle and give a protocol. What are you going to do? He's sleep.

[00:39:32]And it was a black man that did that.

[00:39:34]And of course, people say, "Well, it was the government. It was white men that did it." My thing is this.

[00:39:41]No matter whether it was black or white, you saw what color he was when he was there.

[00:39:50]You can say, "Well, I don't see color."

[00:39:52]Okay.

[00:39:54]So, at the end of the day, you took him out.

[00:40:00]Catherine Jackson, she watched her child be murdered.

[00:40:08]And as a woman, it is harmful. Horrible.

[00:40:17]Because all you could do is watch.

[00:40:20]You don't have receipts.

[00:40:24]And then the receipts could come out, but they going to make sure you don't ever see the receipts.

[00:40:33]So you're the biggest artist of all paid the dues and then you're being sued over a lie.

[00:40:44]They have to pay $3 million or so back by the lie.

[00:40:52]It could dream that somebody lying over you and people believe it.

[00:41:03]Now you have to ple your case. Listen, I've never would do this. Their minds already made up.

[00:41:15]These new age black people are new age everything.

[00:41:21]They don't stand behind each other. Not all of them, but they don't.

[00:41:28]They just want to be right.

[00:41:34]I've had many arguments with people.

[00:41:42]They don't care.

[00:41:57]This is crazy.

[00:42:02]The jobs are gone.

[00:42:07]If your person job trying to do the right thing jobs for like $9, $10.

[00:42:23]You're supposed to be getting 15 or 30.

[00:42:26]They ain't giving you that cuz they want to push you to get on welfare. So you in the system they got to punch you in and find out everything you trying to do. Eat, live. We're going to take away some of this stuff from you. We need you to suffer.

[00:42:41]So now you can't eat. You have health problems. You need to see the doctor.

[00:42:45]We're going to take more from you.

[00:42:49]As if you haven't had enough taken from you already.

[00:42:56]We have to break you down and rebuild you.

[00:43:02]And it's real. And it's happening.

[00:43:09]This amazes me when other men are two spirit women or two spirit men.

[00:43:20]S says, "I feel as though they're too young."

[00:43:31]So, here it is. A parent that wants to keep that child alive.

[00:43:35]You decide to put your stuff in say, "Well, I don't agree with that." Then they like to get older.

[00:43:42]So, make it make sense. I've had girls tell me this stuff. I was like, "So if they could avoid the pain they've been going through, you rather for them to go through pain.

[00:43:57]You rather for them to be hurt cuz you already know what happens, but you don't care.

[00:44:05]That's why I stay away from you.

[00:44:08]But I do remember you are you wearing my skin color, but you're not my friend in my skin.

[00:44:19]Y'all so naive and blind. Y'all forget.

[00:44:24]You got the bodies all on my page. Girls that's been killed and murder. But you don't care.

[00:44:30]Isn't it sad? What's sad is that you don't get it.

[00:44:38]and it becomes like a laughable moment.

[00:44:41]So you don't think that these girls didn't have the right to live.

[00:44:46]These girls just you just wanted somebody to love you and that was not reciprocated.

[00:44:58]You was strict. You were tricked out of your body.

[00:45:03]You were stripped out of your body.

[00:45:06]You ran towards love to a place had nothing but hate there.

[00:45:12]You was being received to see.

[00:45:23]But once you gone, so it was this girl, a two spirit woman.

[00:45:41]I'm not sure exactly, but she got off the train on the bus and a guy was attracted to her.

[00:45:56]So once he got a further so everybody get away from him by him so they can see him.

[00:46:03]He comes up to her.

[00:46:07]Hey, what's going on? I want to ask you a question.

[00:46:16]He says to her, "Are you a transgender woman?

[00:46:25]And she tells him, "Yeah, he's like, "You know what? I understand what y'all go through. I really like girls like you. You're not the first one I've been with before. And um I want to get to know you. Do you have a boyfriend?"

[00:46:42]She's like, "No." Cuz she's thinking this is her night. She's going to find her person, somebody that receive her and pull her straight in and give her the love she want all life cuz he already knows you want somebody to love you.

[00:47:01]So now you as a two spirit woman, you're naive to what's happening. You're thinking that your dreams going to come true. You're thinking that he's going to be a person for you.

[00:47:16]You ready to share with your friends about him?

[00:47:23]Can I use your bathroom?

[00:47:27]She said, "Okay, it's in there."

[00:47:30]Because you're thinking this a good person.

[00:47:36]You're thinking somebody's going to appreciate you and love you.

[00:47:49]I believe her name was Hernandez.

[00:48:02]So he decides he's 18 years old.

[00:48:13]to unal alive her and then people like but you tricked him.

[00:48:22]She didn't trick him. [clears throat] She told him and it also got to some sexual thing.

[00:48:34]But does does that catch a lot of heat or volume? It didn't.

[00:48:39]So why would I think it catch volume?

[00:48:42]Because when George Zimmon went after Trayvon Martin, y'all paid a mind.

[00:48:50]So why would I think this situation would be different?

[00:48:54]Here is a young black boy, young black man now going down the street with candy and stuff and Skittles and drinks and He became the judge, the prosecutor, and the assassin.

[00:49:23]And as a young black boy who this man did not know, he defended himself.

[00:49:35]So he defend himself for fighting back cuz he don't know this man trying to do something. He's fighting back. This is a baby. He's fighting back and then he kill.

[00:50:01]And then there are people who are antilack.

[00:50:05]They gave him money for taking out a man who was doing nothing.

[00:50:15]Nothing.

[00:50:21]And he created this whole life.

[00:50:28]Oh, we need to fix this. We need to fix this. We need to fix this. because it's not gonna look good over America. We need to fix this. So, we need to find somebody that's dumb as hell and they would speak as far as telling the story.

[00:50:42]So, they went and found this girl.

[00:50:46]They gave her something to read and she read it. Now, you're a her friend.

[00:50:53]You should be defending him because he always speaks. But you decide to take make sure his grave is dug even deeper.

[00:51:04]So while the trial came up, she was saying things everything to bury him.

[00:51:15]And now he's taking it away.

[00:51:24]Money or business?

[00:51:27]Slavery days.

[00:51:31]Fruit hanging from trees that looks like me and you.

[00:51:41]But that that doesn't matter.

[00:51:44]It doesn't matter.

[00:51:47]So now I'm the same baby that used to come home.

[00:51:53]It's gone.

[00:51:55]And now you want to paint the picture totally different cuz we don't want you to believe in that people like that.

[00:52:11]He was not a white man.

[00:52:14]It was a culture that was scared of the black culture, but he stays invested within the root of the culture.

[00:52:31]So they found he was a racist.

[00:52:34]They found out a lot about him.

[00:52:38]So ask yourself, was the black people really upset? was a black man, the gangsters, the one that's doing these kings that they sure would say, "No, you can't do this." Revenge his mind, said the Lord. But you listen to who did.

[00:52:52]So somebody created a story, he was a bad person.

[00:52:57]And guess what? It caught flight.

[00:53:00]So not only you couldn't tell a story, you get a black person tell the story and black people saying, "Oh yeah, that's messed up." So, did you hear?

[00:53:17]I don't care.

[00:53:20]I don't care.

[00:53:27]I've been attacked more than anybody to me.

[00:53:34]And I'm drink.

[00:53:39]I'm drinking.

[00:53:45]So even though you step your front line, you may have to carry that weight on your shoulders by yourself and even though you stand on the front line does not mean it's going to come clear.

[00:54:05]Jasmine Crockett protecting She's in the front line. They mean arrows going to be coming out at her all types of ways.

[00:54:17]Do black people like well protect her at any cost? No. She has to stand the front line by herself.

[00:54:28]Not only she has to stand the front line, she has to have a strong face to stand up.

[00:54:36]So even though some stuff may be killing her, she can't react as if it's hurting her because it make them think she's sweet. So she has to bear all the things that's on her shoulders and make us feel like we're going to get through this.

[00:54:51]As a black woman, you have to fight back.

[00:54:54]You don't want to fight back. You may want a man or something standing strong with you, but they ain't coming. He's not coming.

[00:55:05]But you on the other hand as a black woman will go to prison and make sure he's okay.

[00:55:16]As a black woman that's been incarcerated, they ain't coming.

[00:55:22]The person is packed with a whole bunch of women that check up on these guys and the prison are packed with a bunch of women.

[00:55:33]The mission should be coming to check on them. They ain't coming.

[00:55:38]Matter of fact, the story would end or start with a lot of entertainment.

[00:55:44]It's funny.

[00:55:47]She's been deceived.

[00:55:50]She's been deceived.

[00:55:56]You will stop a woman going down the street, convince her that you're different.

[00:56:03]talk her into falling in love with you, having a baby with you, and then leave you with the child and create a whole another family.

[00:56:20]You're supposed to be strong.

[00:56:25]A lot of us fathers that don't that's not around. We haven't seen him in years.

[00:56:33]We become so accustomed of not having a father that we don't even cry.

[00:56:45]We don't cry.

[00:56:54]But we will blame the woman for having this child. [clears throat] Bird and sh What exactly did you say to her to convince her to have your baby?

[00:57:07]What did you say to her? You had to convince her of something for her to believe that her life is about to change, become greater.

[00:57:18]What did you say to her?

[00:57:22]So now you have a baby cover for a man that's going to leave you and that raises you.

[00:57:33]So now you have to figure it out.

[00:57:37]So now 1 2:00 in the morning, the baby's crying, hungry, and then you have to get up. Now the one will make or he's making another one the new person.

[00:57:51]So now you crying.

[00:57:56]Can't eat. Can't got to go to work.

[00:57:58]Don't the job money ain't working. The money don't work for two children.

[00:58:05]Here it is as a man. You left scotfree.

[00:58:15]Now this woman has life has been turned around. She been not going to school.

[00:58:20]She would not be going to college.

[00:58:23]She has to survive off a baby that you convince her to have because you were going to be a goodbye because you would said to her, "I'm not like the rest. Just give me a chance."

[00:58:35]And she did.

[00:58:37]Next, you know, what a perfect raising a child by herself.

[00:58:43]And your words is, "Oh, I don't want to hear that shit."

[00:58:51]Or, "Shut the [ __ ] up.

[00:58:57]Sometimes I hate you. I wish you was dead." The same man that told you he was going to be by yourself, he was different everybody else. Now he's wishing death on you after he gave you a baby and left you alone. Now all of a sudden he's the victim.

[00:59:18]I want to see my child.

[00:59:30]But God is on the working table.

[00:59:40]A man will use his looks to get what he wants cuz he's in high demand.

[00:59:50]It's not every man.

[00:59:54]And once he knows he's in high demand, you can't go nowhere cuz he done [ __ ] your whole world up. Now, now you have to fix it.

[01:00:03]You going to be doing a lot of crying, a lot of praying, and then manifesting and praying, hurting, laying in bed, holding your baby, and you hurt and rocking the baby back and forth and the baby crying and back.

[01:00:21]So now the fe come, the baby's having a fever, you hold the baby against you.

[01:00:25]The baby is so hot that you have sweat coming down your face.

[01:00:30]Now you have to take the baby to the hospital to make sure they're okay. They said, "Well, just take some time off.

[01:00:38]The man is not there anymore, so he's not sticking around."

[01:00:49]And sometimes you get a breakthrough.

[01:00:59]Sometimes a breakthrough is a woman that's trying to make it through the darkness.

[01:01:11]No hope.

[01:01:16]And then there will be a baby with this girl.

[01:01:27]that you decide to leave her and move on.

[01:01:41]And then there will be a man that understand your story, understand what you're going through.

[01:01:52]You don't have to explain to him. He get it.

[01:01:59]We'll call this man Russell Wilson.

[01:02:06]So hit by him helping the woman to get much more happier. Now the men that wouldn't help her and give a [ __ ] Now he's a sip. Because if you help a woman now, that's a bad thing because she's supposed to be going down. Then you have another black man that's sign on saying negative stuff about her and for what?

[01:02:34]But you didn't decide to help her, but you did decide to put her name in mud, which is not where she need to be. But the Lord has amazing way of doing things. And he shows people who they are. Shows you who they are.

[01:02:49]So, here is a man you don't even know, but he's upset that Russell Wilson helped her.

[01:02:59]He's upset. He's a He's a sie.

[01:03:03]Everything you could say to push him out the door, away from her, to suffer more.

[01:03:14]Well, she's not a real woman. She's a man.

[01:03:20]It spread so hard and she was just a man.

[01:03:29]I had an argument with somebody to spirit woman. I said, "This is a woman."

[01:03:35]They said, "That's why you so stupid, baby. You can't tell them." [sighs] I said, "That's a woman."

[01:03:44]Women come a lot of ways.

[01:03:47]Some women look masculine.

[01:03:49][clears throat] Some women are built.

[01:03:54]And those same women were slaves once upon a time back in history days. They had to be strong. Carry the basket on top of their head and a baby tied to their back.

[01:04:08]They were strong.

[01:04:12]But you will make fun of them.

[01:04:18]She carries so much weight.

[01:04:24]They don't make sure the rag not packed with water.

[01:04:31]Water which is really your tears from your eyes.

[01:04:40]You as a woman have a bunch of tears behind your eyes that haven't fallen yet.

[01:04:50]And the same man that you thought love you tricked you.

[01:04:59][laughter] [snorts] Excuse me.

[01:05:10]and got up here.

[01:05:19]But she figured it out as a fighter.

[01:05:25]You figure it out.

[01:05:28]Now, you may not like the lessons, but what you know, you know. And then when you're not even angry or pissed off or stuff, nobody's mad manager.

[01:05:39]So you're mad at her for showing you I could make it without you. Not only she showed, he showed him and she could make it without him.

[01:06:00]Y'all got upset.

[01:06:04]Why would you get upset by helping a woman? But it's been it's been like a drug case spreading.

[01:06:17]And for black women, which is not appreciated, a lot of them they be hurt.

[01:06:28]You know how much traumatizing that is to watch a man that you love that felt so good leave you with a child.

[01:06:40]You have to figure it out. A lot of us won't even see our fathers anymore.

[01:06:47]Just won't.

[01:06:50]You had a choice. Death. Death is knocking at your door.

[01:06:55]Your father is gone.

[01:06:59]I guess he gave your mother gave him a headache.

[01:07:08]He was like, "You know what? I'm out of here."

[01:07:12]And it's going on.

[01:07:20]There is a young guy online.

[01:07:25]He wants a relationship with his mother so bad.

[01:07:30]He forgave her for everything.

[01:07:34]He just want her to love him.

[01:07:37]And she says, "I didn't raise you."

[01:07:42]Unfortunately, there are a lot of children in this world their parents don't want to have nothing to do with them.

[01:07:53]And they're hurting. They're crying.

[01:07:55]You're begging. Please. Please.

[01:08:01]I gave you away. Why you coming in?

[01:08:12]I saw this court show today.

[01:08:19]This guy and girl broke up.

[01:08:22]They were separating, leaving out each other's lives.

[01:08:32]But before they broken out really good, they decided to have a quickie.

[01:08:39]That means a person have sex with somebody, which pull out game didn't happen.

[01:08:52]He released inside of her.

[01:08:56]And once she told him she was pregnant, he gave her $700 to get rid of it, have an abortion, kill a baby.

[01:09:12]He didn't want them to do it, but he wanted the baby dead.

[01:09:20]Now they sitting in court.

[01:09:24]The baby's very much alive, 3 years old.

[01:09:28]So the man decide he wants to find a DNA test cuz he found out that she was having a birthday party for her baby. But he didn't want the baby. He wanted the baby dead.

[01:09:47]She found a man, end up getting married.

[01:09:51]So you didn't have to worry about the three-y old baby.

[01:09:56]You want the baby dead, then means gone.

[01:10:03]So after you found a husband that want to be with you, now you want to retaliate cuz now you want you want the baby. I want to be in the baby's life. But you wanted this baby dead. So why would why do you have to take them to court when you wanted the baby dead?

[01:10:23]Well, I want to know is my kid is still mine.

[01:10:29]So now you feel a certain type of way cuz a woman's been rescued and now you want to come into her life and mess things up.

[01:10:39]You got a good man that's standing behind you and now the one that did this to you is upset cuz he don't want that man calling you.

[01:10:49]Call your baby daddy his but you want this baby dead. If I wanted my baby dead, that means am I right? I don't care that. But now that you found things went differently, you want to know if the baby's yours or not.

[01:11:06]But you you want to make them dead. So why should you care? Cuz she found a man that left her through the situation. Now you pissed off.

[01:11:19]So now you want to know, I want to see my child. So when the baby's born, the new guy signs the birth certificate.

[01:11:28]And that means you're responsible for this child.

[01:11:31]His goal was I gave her something. She's supposed to get rid of it. She didn't get rid of it. She kept the baby. He felt a certain type of way. It should be dead. I should be going through this.

[01:11:44]This child should be dead.

[01:11:49]So when as a child growing up, when your baby gets older, you're going to have to explain this child that you wanted them dead.

[01:12:09]And somewhere along the way, you're going to try to maneuver it so you become out being a good person.

[01:12:31]But if you want somebody dead, that means I feel like all your rights are gone.

[01:12:42]But he was so upset that she found somebody else.

[01:12:47]He wanted to attack her more.

[01:12:54]So he went to court, come to find out the baby boy say his.

[01:13:01]I'mma be there in my child's life.

[01:13:12]So all this energy well comes from when you made it.

[01:13:17]So now you found out that she didn't go all the way down like you thought she would. She rolls up. You want to attack her again.

[01:13:28]But by right there to give it to him cuz it was his job. I don't know what state that was.

[01:13:37]But by his rights, he got to he has to see the child and stuff.

[01:13:47]It's just so sad.

[01:13:51]Anyway, I just I be thinking too much. I've been thinking too much. I have to get out my head cuz some stuff I just cannot believe what I was seeing. And this be true.

[01:14:07]Like I cannot believe this.

[01:14:22]Better be true.

[01:14:39]I've seen a lot.

[01:14:43]I've seen a lot been deceived.

[01:14:49]And I'm not trying to make it seem like women are just this beautiful thing cuz they're not they're not perfect.

[01:14:56]But there's some women out there that's straight from hell. Lucifer special.

[01:15:00]Straight from hell.

[01:15:04]And there's some guys out there that are really good. Real good guys. So, it's not like a certain gender or whatever the case may be. It's not like it's just certain people, but they're good and bad and everything.

[01:15:22]I just feel like when it's a child, children are innocent, you can give a child a beating and and and and they'll act like that never happened and they'll still be laughing and hugging on you, kissing you. They're the most innocent people in the world.

[01:15:51]But it's just weird.

[01:16:02]That's fine.

[01:16:05]I just don't know when it come to this world. I don't know.

[01:16:13]And now we're in a world of cameras where you can see things some stuff I wish I didn't see.

[01:16:40]I'm definitely going through something.

[01:16:46]I [clears throat] feel like I've I feel like what I'm going through, it's like a rebirth.

[01:16:59]It's like a rebirth.

[01:17:03]I don't know if it's the fact that I had this stroke cuz I'm learning everything over And I see things totally different.

[01:17:22]I see things totally different.

[01:17:27]And the way my life is lined up, I run into heavy elderly people on the street.

[01:17:40]And by me overthinking, I'm thinking they've been through some here. is you're a older person and you're walking moving forward trying to make it the way God got me set up.

[01:18:12]I see things totally different.

[01:18:18]It's the why question for me.

[01:18:23]Why is it that I can see my people, black people, and I'm afraid to go around them when we used to be cousins hanging from trees?

[01:18:46]Wait. Murdered. killed, but I'm afraid to go around you cuz I don't know which one I'm going to meet.

[01:18:58]So now when I walk around you, I have to be ready for what. It's not like I got anything. But at that point, you don't care cuz you know how they were raised.

[01:19:08]Their parents may have gotten rid of them. They could be a drug baby. So you don't know. I should be able to see you and say, "Hey, what's going on?" Back in the day, you see each other, they have on suits and stuff. Those are the times were different. Reme get dressed and go outside. That was a thing back then. But now you feel afraid when you see one of them. Cuz you don't know what they going to do.

[01:19:41]When I see black eyes, I'm not afraid.

[01:19:50]And that scares me cuz I'm like, what's happened to me?

[01:19:56]What is happening to me?

[01:19:59]What has happened to me mentally?

[01:20:02]I've left the building. I've left.

[01:20:10]And the fact that I'm so bold, I'm so bold.

[01:20:16]It scares me.

[01:20:18]I'm scared because I'm too bold.

[01:20:24]I treat people like I know them.

[01:20:27]I treat people like they're part of my family.

[01:20:31]So when other people be scared, I ain't scared.

[01:20:38]It's like a rebirth.

[01:20:40]It's like a reg.

[01:20:44]But I also monitor the temperature when they're around.

[01:20:51]And I could feel the spirits before they open their mouth.

[01:20:58]Sometimes the spirit is so dark, I can feel it.

[01:21:03]Sometimes the spirit is so light, I can feel it.

[01:21:09]And also I have to keep in mind the spirit of being afraid.

[01:21:16]People are afraid of people. People shouldn't be afraid afraid.

[01:21:23]They're afraid.

[01:21:28]And it's so sad cuz we should be afraid of our own people, but we are.

[01:21:37]We're afraid.

[01:21:45]And then when we see a white person, we're thinking, is this a good white person or a bad white person?

[01:22:01]Because this person right here could change my life forever.

[01:22:05]They could be a person that lift me up, give me life and stuff. There could be a person that decide to put a case in my life that you had nothing to do with that you did not commit this crime and they will go to their people that works on the government, FBI, the KKK, and they'll speak to them behind your back, not even aware of this. And now they tell a story about you that you're unaware of. And now your whole life is changed. Now you're sitting in prison for something you did not do.

[01:22:35]And they're going to convince that you did it. As you please your case, there will be black people that don't believe you.

[01:22:44]Like, yo, I didn't do this. There will be black people that look like you.

[01:22:48]Yeah, you did it. Like, I didn't.

[01:22:53]And then you like, well, when are y'all going to speak up for me? When is y'all going to come to my country? You ain't coming.

[01:22:58]You're not coming. I'm on my own with this.

[01:23:02]So now I'm sitting in prison for 10 years, 30 years, 40 years, and then I'll get an apology.

[01:23:10]Well, I'm sad. I was sorry. I'm sorry I sent you for prison for 50 years. I'm sorry. So now you as a teenager, 18 years old, life has been changed all.

[01:23:23]We'll pay you $1,000. We'll pay you a million dollars.

[01:23:28]So you cancel everything. my dreams and everything. You just you stopped everything.

[01:23:36]But I said I was sorry. Get over it.

[01:23:41]And then you'll be meet with black people laughing. Oh [ __ ] that's [ __ ] up. That's what I mean. That's so [ __ ] up. Oh my god, that's so [ __ ] up.

[01:23:51]What's so funny?

[01:23:54]How is this funny?

[01:23:56]Oh, I don't mean it to be funny. Then what the [ __ ] you laughing for? Anyway, I tell I may be overthinking and then I go through this thing is trying to fit in.

[01:24:16]Who don't want to fit in?

[01:24:19]Who don't want to be accepted?

[01:24:27]to only be rejected by the same ones that look like you.

[01:24:43]I would love to be accepted.

[01:24:49]I would love to be accepted, but I won't be. I know that.

[01:24:57]I won't be accepted.

[01:25:00]I won't be accepted by society.

[01:25:08]Some like all white people are not bad.

[01:25:14]Hell, half of them got your blood in them.

[01:25:18]There's so many people that's in your life that's related to you. You don't even know them cuz you was stolen as slaves.

[01:25:25]So you really don't understand that world cuz you was stolen. You got so many family members that you don't even know and you never going to know them.

[01:25:39]But it happens to cause you It's amazing when you meet somebody that could change your life for the better.

[01:26:05]They can make things happen to you that is so good for you that open doors for you that's so good. Oh my god, things happen to me. I'm getting blessed and then they'll take away from you.

[01:26:17]And then there's the Oreos.

[01:26:21]when I reported to my boss what I was going through what was happening to me.

[01:26:32]You want to be white so bad you would sell me down the river as I'm telling you they're having a KK me in a van and then you want to be white so bad.

[01:26:46]Well, it's not that bad.

[01:26:51]So then they'll fire me because obviously I'm trouble cuz you stay you speaking about [ __ ] that's we don't want we don't want we don't want you to grief laughing to this but I always say there's a mighty wind coming and when that wind comes it's going to knock all They are. I believe in it.

[01:27:23]I believe that God sits high and looks low.

[01:27:31]And eventually he's going to show up.

[01:27:36]It's not going to be on your timing.

[01:27:38]It's going to be on his timing.

[01:27:41]So when he shows up, he's going to do it better than you ever thought he could.

[01:27:54]There are so many people people in high position that can help them but they choose not to.

[01:28:03]Jealousy is a powerful drug.

[01:28:10]Jealousy is a powerful drug.

[01:28:14]I hate you because I want to be like you. I hate you because I want what you got. I hate you because I feel as though this power you possess, the strength you have, I want to take it down a few levels so I can step over it.

[01:28:44]I always wonder.

[01:28:48]I don't know why.

[01:28:52]When I see black people, I'm not afraid.

[01:29:00]I'm like, but what happened to me? I know I had a stroke. I had two, but at what point am I leaving?

[01:29:13]I'm leaving. Cuz now my brain is a new brain. New brain that can't remember nothing.

[01:29:24]I don't put something down in the next minute. I don't know where it's at.

[01:29:28]I can't figure it out.

[01:29:30]I should have known something was happening to me when I went to take a test for a job.

[01:29:41]I was shocked.

[01:29:43]I didn't know stuff like this existed.

[01:29:52]So I went to take a test for John says Jane goes to the store and gets some milk.

[01:30:02]I saw the Jane.

[01:30:04]I saw the cook.

[01:30:07]I couldn't put the words together because I couldn't figure out what it was saying. I could not figure out what was it saying. James went to the store to get some milk.

[01:30:16]Now she said, "Well, that's all it says." I could not think. I saw the words, but I couldn't put them in the sense. I heard what I was saying, but I could not to my brain. It didn't register.

[01:30:30]So, I would say to myself, but it didn't lock in saying my memory was gone.

[01:30:36]Obviously, that's probably why I had a stroke. And It was it was it was getting up there, but I didn't know it. It'll pass. So now that I know these things, your body, your body takes over and present to you a whole different body. Now you know, I feel like I'm sitting with Dr. Death.

[01:31:17]Anyway, my videos get my videos starting to make me depressed, too. I just It's a lot of my mind. I be overthinking, I guess, because I be seeing [ __ ] that don't make sense.

[01:31:32]And for me holding it for so long, it just trying to forget about it. My brain won't let me forget.

[01:31:48]So I went to the store and guys would try to speak to me.

[01:32:07]And I watched him.

[01:32:12]I watch.

[01:32:14]I don't see nothing.

[01:32:20]I can feel when somebody's up to something.

[01:32:28]You know how powerful that is? that you could feel them being up to something.

[01:32:34]Some people say, "You know what? I was thinking a little different." But you know what it feels like when you finally you were right.

[01:32:40]He was up to something.

[01:32:44]And you see when this happens, I don't say nothing.

[01:32:48]Cuz I was just listening to his words.

[01:32:50]Word for word. I'm listening, not saying nothing.

[01:33:00]And I'm listening to you.

[01:33:03]And sometimes I know the trickery is real.

[01:33:13]The trickery is I have to make you believe I'm a good person.

[01:33:20]The trickery is is that they could be a real good person.

[01:33:27]The trickery is like Russian roulette.

[01:33:29]You just don't know.

[01:33:33]And when you take a chance, you take a chance.

[01:33:39]Everything you thinking could be compromised and changed within a second.

[01:33:49]I don't know what's going on.

[01:33:52]I always say, I don't know what happened to me.

[01:33:55]Once upon a time, I was a person that just I don't know.

[01:34:01]I'm in a whole new body.

[01:34:04]Think totally different than I once did.

[01:34:10]So, the body I'm in now does not include my brain.

[01:34:15]My brain is gone.

[01:34:18]My brain is so gone. I ask people not to ask me things I need to think cuz if I have to think through my brain I don't know what's going to happen.

[01:34:31]So I stay away anyway.

[01:34:38]I'm about to go. I need to lay down and it's weird.

[01:35:07]Hey India, what's up? Hey Des. Hey, as I get older, these wrinkles and [ __ ] as best to just leave cuz these people are low vibration. And you're right there, Sean. It's not a bad thing. I hope bad things.

[01:36:06]Hope that I make it to be that right in there.

[01:36:29]Anyway, [clears throat] I'm about to go, y'all.

[01:36:45]Protect your spirit cuz that's all you got.

[01:36:54]Protect your spirit.

[01:36:59]And God forbid the stuff I've been through.

[01:37:04]I hope to God y'all never go through it.

[01:37:09]You never go.

[01:37:13]You know what it's like reading something and you can't put it together.

[01:37:19]You don't know what it's saying.

[01:37:22]I've been through a lot.

[01:37:26]And even though I don't want to address it, my brain is letting me address it.

[01:37:36]Anyway, I love you all. Protect your spirit and make sure my journey is not your journey.

[01:37:46]Make sure things happen to you much more greater and better and you avoid everything that you don't need to see. Cuz it's going to start messing with your spirit and your soul.

[01:38:00]Especially two spirit woman and two spirit men.

[01:38:08]The weight is so heavy on your soul.

[01:38:15]There were so many young young girls that had a life was taken from them and all they wanted was love.

[01:38:28]But they was tricked and now they're pushing up daisies from the ground.

[01:38:38]They want to live.

[01:38:41]It's the cheapest gift in the world, but the most expensive gift in the world is wanting somebody to love you. That's it.

[01:38:52]You just want a smile on you. Somebody to just show you that they care and you don't have to do anything to get it.

[01:39:08]You give so love so easy.

[01:39:11]They don't give it to you.

[01:39:20]But anyway, God bless those people.

[01:39:34]girls and guys I did stories on and being murdered.

[01:39:43]I probably should have never started that channel, but I didn't know.

[01:39:50]I didn't know that girls were being murdered at that level.

[01:39:59]I didn't know that by making people aware, Facebook would block me from putting the message out.

[01:40:08]For three years, I've been blocked.

[01:40:15]From putting the message out.

[01:40:17]Oh, so Raven, so you trying to keep them alive.

[01:40:22]We got to block you cuz this information cannot be shared.

[01:40:32]>> [sighs and gasps] >> Come here.

[01:40:45]It's important. You're right.

[01:40:49]But um I'm go lay down.

[01:41:05]My body's telling me I'm sick.

[01:41:16]I'm too tall.

[01:41:29]We have a whole bunch of follow.

[01:41:38]Thank you, India. I love you more.

[01:41:46]Anyway, I'mma lay down. take this [ __ ] wig off.

[01:41:55]At the end of the day, I have a boyfriend because most of them are energy spirit and the fact that my energy is strength.

[01:42:23]I see everybody around me.

[01:42:27]I see everybody.

[01:42:38]I see.

[01:42:54]Anyway, I just seen I just I just wish I didn't see so much, but You're right.

[01:43:09]You write I think the hardest thing in life is when you trying to make yourself go forward and you have no energy to go forward.

[01:43:54]So I try to figure out what is the message that God is trying to do.

[01:44:04]So I'm going make sure your mother don't love you. I'm going make sure your father don't love you. I'm going to make sure people hate you that don't even know you. I'm going to make sure that everything you try to get is going to fail.

[01:44:26]I'm going to make sure that you hit the ground a thousand times cuz I want you to be strong.

[01:44:37]So, you're building me up for something that's coming.

[01:44:42]So, I'm about to be deceived again.

[01:44:49]And the reason why because you keep getting back up.

[01:44:55]No matter how many hits you get, you still keep getting up.

[01:45:01]And I need to find a way to get you to go down.

[01:45:05]So I have to keep attacking you, make you stronger.

[01:45:14]But now when I sleep, I don't sleep normally.

[01:45:22]I go into this deep trance.

[01:45:25]It becomes more like a out of body experience. It's like when I go to sleep, it's like I'm leaving my body. Like I'm really leaving it.

[01:45:42]So I lay down.

[01:45:44]It's like Dr. Death and I'm not here anymore.

[01:45:49]And when I wake up, I'm always surprised that I woke up.

[01:45:59]I'm surprised.

[01:46:02]I am so surprised.

[01:46:04]That's the command knowing my brain is leaving me cuz I'm surprised. Anyway, all right. I love you all. I'm sharing with y'all cuz maybe and my friend said, "Stop saying that."

[01:46:19]I said, "I'm telling you something's happening."

[01:46:24]A lot of times people like, "Did you know when you give signs when Vanity left Denise Matthews when she left?" She gave signs when They gave signs when they were leaving.

[01:46:59]When Little Richard left, he gave signs.

[01:47:08]They gave signs that they were leaving.

[01:47:13]Now whether you want to listen to or not, they was telling you things.

[01:47:20]And if you don't believe me, look it up on YouTube.

[01:47:27]Before Denise Matthews left vanity, they gave signs.

[01:47:35]It was a story they gave as if they're in a funeral telling their story from the after world.

[01:47:47]They start saying things like the after world stuff like that. They start saying things and they give signs that they were leaving.

[01:48:02]And after a while when they left, nobody was shocked.

[01:48:16]But they said when you leave this world, the next world, they're already there waiting for you.

[01:48:30]waiting for you to cross over.

[01:48:34]So, while you may be asleep, they'll be like, "Wake up. Wake up. Wake up."

[01:48:41]And then when you see the familiar face, they're gone. You're gone.

[01:48:47]You're no longer waking up with them in the real world.

[01:48:56]So when the spirits come to get you, you won't.

[01:49:03]Anyway, I'm sorry. I'm just stepping it down. I overthink.

[01:49:16]Yes, India.

[01:49:21]You're right.

[01:49:23]India and south I don't want I keep anyway my brain is I tried to call it disability.

[01:50:06]So, I try to call disability to let them know and I'm sick mentally.

[01:50:18]And then my answer was, "Well, you ain't dead yet. Just hope keep holding on.

[01:50:24]So maybe you about to die. We don't believe you. So we will see when you're dead. We'll take it from there.

[01:50:39]Once you dead, we'll take it from there.

[01:50:47]So, I'm going be just like Octavia St. Lance that when I die, they'll take it from there. We're waiting for the body. We ain't waiting for the story.

[01:51:00]And you like whose body? your body.

[01:51:05]We can't have you still be here. We need you to go.

[01:51:11]I don't want to die. Well, that's not how it's going to go, sweetie. That's not how it's going to go, sweetie. It's time for you to go.

[01:51:20]Anyway, it is what it is. Y have a blessed day. I love you very much, and I thank God for creating you so I have to be here alone.

[01:51:28]And hold on.