Why I am a Christian

[00:00:01]I've tried to film this video so many times.

[00:00:04]But there've been so many distractions, y'all.

[00:00:07]But this is the last time. Okay. No matter what happens, we're going to film this video.

[00:00:11]Anyway, so you know, as a kid, I was born into a Christian household.

[00:00:18]But I never really cared, y'all. I more likely cared like if I was going to if I was going to play with my friend that day.

[00:00:25]Then when I was 16, I got really into theology.

[00:00:29]And because I had a friend group who used to like um like theology, but that friend group dissolved.

[00:00:35]And we used to have like all these theological debates. I'm talking about Thomas Aquinas, church fathers, Marcus Aurelius. I never really understood those things as much, but I used to I used to enjoy it.

[00:00:47]And, you know, I started getting older and I really started um getting into math and physics a lot.

[00:00:57]I would find I would I would define myself as a science girly.

[00:01:01]Um but, you know, the deeper you go into physics and math and all these things, things just start not making sense.

[00:01:12]You know, one of the things that I never understood about physics was how we couldn't find an answer to to anything.

[00:01:27]Or we couldn't find an answer to the fundamentals of existence.

[00:01:32]And I'm talking about fundamentals of existence as in like the most basic fundamental particle.

[00:01:37]Not basic, but the most fundamental particle. And I never understood how it was held together by forces.

[00:01:43]I'm like, okay, what within that? What even is a What even is a force in the first place?

[00:01:48]You know?

[00:01:50]I mean, I know what a force is it as a definition, but what even is the force and where does the force come from? But then you find out where the force comes from.

[00:02:00]But even that has holes.

[00:02:03]You know, you get to a point in science where instead of it finding answers, you're just trying to justify the fact that God cannot exist.

[00:02:16]>> [snorts] >> But one big FU to the whole science society, science, whatever thing is the black hole.

[00:02:23]And the black hole is my role model.

[00:02:27]There is something called an event horizon around the black hole where the laws of physics seem to fade.

[00:02:34]Doesn't exist.

[00:02:36]Laws of physics seem to even bend towards the will of a black hole.

[00:02:42]And you know, one of the things that obeys or I'll say the the the the one good citizen to the laws of physics is light and even light itself bends towards a black hole.

[00:03:01]You know, once you start adding rules to creations that you haven't created, it starts getting messy.

[00:03:11]You know, humans were given the gift of creation. Hold on.

[00:03:15]Humans were given the gift of creation.

[00:03:18]But the only thing we can't create is life.

[00:03:21]No, doing the horizontal tango does not create life. God breathes life into the babies.

[00:03:26]That's the babies exist as like as babies, you know? That's life is created.

[00:03:32]You are merely a vessel.

[00:03:34]Um but that's besides the point. We have been given the gift of creation and I think that we can give rules to those things that we create. However, once we have overstepped our boundaries and start giving rules to things that we haven't created, that's where it becomes funky.

[00:03:52]I never understood how people who are very versed in physics and math especially weren't Christian.

[00:04:02]Because I'm like, surely you know that nothing makes sense, right?

[00:04:07]Surely you know that at some point to justify the fact that a rule exists, you have to literally create new words words and the sentence in order to justify that thing is literally created of new articles.

[00:04:22]Talking about the.

[00:04:24]You understand what I mean?

[00:04:29]So, you get to a point where you're asking what are they trying to keep me from understanding? You understand what I mean?

[00:04:40]You know, it's more of like um a question of for example, I can give you an example, why are they showing us the Dr. Steen files?

[00:04:48]Cuz they want us to know the Dr. Steen files. Why are they showing us? You know? Cuz much easily they could have hidden these things, but I won't talk about that too much.

[00:04:56]But it's like why are they trying to justify something? What are they trying to justify this sort of science against?

[00:05:03]And I've always been a Christian.

[00:05:06]I've always liked theology, but I never really thought about my connection to Christ as a whole.

[00:05:14]Because I'm going to tell you guys something.

[00:05:20]Humanity is taking the same path of Lucifer. They want to be smarter than Lucifer. They want to be smarter than Christ.

[00:05:30]However, you cannot just put new rules on things.

[00:05:37]You just can't put new rules on yourself if you yourself have not created yourself.

[00:05:45]You can put rules to your ego as you build up your ego, but you can't put rules to your very existence. You have not created yourself.

[00:05:52]And for those who think believe in the Big Bang, I mean, let the Big Bang put rules onto you. Ask the Big Bang for the rules.

[00:06:00]Sorry, that's a that's a jab at the community, but yeah.

[00:06:04]You know, I I can't say that my the way I strengthen my belief in Christ was, you know, through a drawing board and putting pins on the wall and whatever and putting red strings, but you know, another answer of why I am a Christian is because there have been so many things in my life that has happened where it can only be described by divine intervention.

[00:06:29]Um and also things in my life where you just see that, no, the way that people are acting, this cannot just be normal.

[00:06:37]There has to be some sort of spiritual aspect to it.

[00:06:43]But in terms of things that have happened in my life, you know, situations have turned around to such a point where the chance of it working in my favor was so impossible, you haven't even imagined it.

[00:07:01]It's also things where let me give an example, guys.

[00:07:05]I I don't like using the doctor steam files, but so many mentions about the ritual, so many mentions about evil things.

[00:07:16]But the evil can't exist without the good. That's the evil wouldn't be evil, it would be the matter, you know?

[00:07:24]So, I don't know understand how people can also acknowledge the fact that people are eating babies for rituals, but they can't acknowledge the fact that there is goodness that exists.

[00:07:40]People will tell us or tell me that no, the Christ was brought on a ship by the white man.

[00:07:48]And they tell me how the Ethiopians were brought Christianity if If they themselves think that they were one of the founding churches, like okay.

[00:07:57]I'm not going to lie, guys. If you still believe that Christianity came on a ship, you need to do some research.

[00:08:03]But yeah, that's besides the point.

[00:08:09]People who believe in the bad things of this world in terms of the spiritual things don't often want to believe in the good things of this world.

[00:08:19]And I always wondered why.

[00:08:24]Can I be honest, guys?

[00:08:27]I don't really read a lot of philosophy.

[00:08:29]I tried maybe for the first 2 months of January.

[00:08:32]Literally the book here, The Brothers of Karamazov by Dostoevsky or whatever like you say his name. I've tried to read that book, 80 pages in, and it's so boring. I can't.

[00:08:43]I've read some I've read some um Albert Camus.

[00:08:46]I've tried to read some Søren Kierkegaard. I've tried to read some Nietzsche. I've tried to read some I've just tried, but you know, every time I read these things, I'm like, you know, I I could just find the same principle in the Bible.

[00:09:05]The only book I usually look for reference in is the Bible because I believe that that really the Bible has the best I guess philosophy which is the philosophy of love.

[00:09:21]And like I said, what are they trying to distract us away from? And that is love.

[00:09:29]Christ, I believe, is the philosopher of love. And what I believe can really make our world a good place is love. and you can see it in so many things these days. They are trying to remove love from everything. I'll say two things.

[00:09:45]They are trying to remove love and they are trying to remove spirituality.

[00:09:51]Or they do a worse thing and they bastardized the two.

[00:09:55]Lust Island.

[00:09:57]I tried to make a video about Love Island yesterday. I ended up screaming at the camera. I said, you know what?

[00:10:01]I'm not going to post a video on Love Island.

[00:10:03]Lust Island, they bastardized it.

[00:10:05]Spirituality, they have bastardized it.

[00:10:07]Not even that, but they have taken spirituality out of the church.

[00:10:12]I've only recently started really delving into the spirituality of Christianity.

[00:10:20]And I realized that even if our even in our own churches, we have failed to preach the importance of spirituality because one thing about people and humans also is that we're not just made of a body and a mind.

[00:10:37]We are made up of a body and a spirit.

[00:10:39]We exist I guess in I don't know that's something I'm still trying to still trying to figure out on, but you know, the connection of the body, the mind, the spirit and the consciousness.

[00:10:51]Something I still have to think about if I really make a good I guess if I think about it good enough and I actually make a a sentence to describe it, I will make a video on that, but it is something I'm still trying to think about, but we have removed the element of spirituality and telling people that they exist solely as their bodies. Lust, they have taken things like love and they have applied the rules of love in the in the I guess a worldly sense and you get things like lust.

[00:11:19]You have taken things like Christian spirituality.

[00:11:23]You have bastardized it and you have turned it into other things and saying that no, spirituality only exists within certain things. However, you're forgetting the OG spirituality.

[00:11:36]Literally the Holy Spirit. I always say that the Holy Spirit is my advisor. If I need some sort of advice, um I only go to philosophy books. I go to the Bible. If I need help in thinking about something I can't find the answer to something, I always consult the Bible. I don't need no philosophy books.

[00:11:55]I don't need to read no Søren Kierkegaard, although he's a although he's a Christian philosopher. I don't need to read no Nietzsche. I don't need to read no Arthur Schopenhauer. I don't need to read all of these things. I always consult the Bible because I believe that the original truth comes from there.

[00:12:14]Finding truth from humans does not make sense because look at what they've done to physics.

[00:12:25]There's only truth in Christ. That's what I believe.

[00:12:28]And as a person who thinks a lot, I always try to find conclusions, which is the truth.

[00:12:34]But if I rely on the truth of humans, I will never find a conclusion. I will I will find a conclusion that is solely bastardized.

[00:12:42]I'm not saying that all philosophers have preached things that weren't real.

[00:12:47]But sometimes you think about people like like how Arthur Schopenhauer was such an angry uncle. Why was he so angry?

[00:12:55]But that's besides the point.

[00:12:58]I I'm not like >> [laughter] >> I don't know how to explain this, but I'm I'm not a I'm not a smart person. I'm not someone who is like a philosophy whatsoever. I'm just a person who thinks a lot.

[00:13:16]It's why a part of me also just doesn't understand why so many people watch my videos in the first place.

[00:13:24]It's why you know I would before I usually make a video I pray. Well, I try to pray before I I watch videos and before I read I make videos.

[00:13:36]And I'm like, you know, God, I don't know why you have pushed my videos to people.

[00:13:43]A part of it scares me.

[00:13:47]I don't know why you're pushing my videos to people. However, I know it's part of your agenda part of your agenda, but I know either it's it's working for me or it's working for something else. I don't know, but I I was I always tell him I I don't know why you're pushing my videos to people.

[00:14:04]But one thing I do know is that not even I have my best interest in her in my heart.

[00:14:10]And people don't have my best their best my best interest in their heart even if it's a 0.01% chance.

[00:14:16]However, I know that someone who has the best interest in their heart is Christ of me.

[00:14:22]He has my best interest in my in his heart and I know that you know, even if I do things and some things are working some things aren't it's for a reason and then it's for the best for me.

[00:14:40]Even if I don't understand it now, I know that it was for a reason.

[00:14:45]You know, another thing why I am so fond of Christ is because he is the one who defines me.

[00:14:58]You know, identity is something that everyone thinks about.

[00:15:02]And my flesh doesn't define me, not even my morals. So, what defines me?

[00:15:09]And most people identify with their creations or their creator, I mean, because not even your creations define you.

[00:15:21]And most people try to identify with things that aren't true.

[00:15:25]A loser.

[00:15:27]I'm a bad person. I'm a loser. But no.

[00:15:30]The only true thing that I think exists is Christ. The only truth, absolute truth, is Christ. And thus, I think I would rather identify with him cuz I can't even identify as my mother's child.

[00:15:43]Cuz she did not create me. She was merely a vessel.

[00:15:49]Some people might call religion copium.

[00:15:52]Which, I mean, I low-key agree.

[00:15:57]Because, I mean, if Christ doesn't exist, I mean, at least I lived a good life. At least I lived the life that was true to me, you know?

[00:16:10]But if he does exist, then I guess that's great. But >> [laughter] >> which, I mean, I do believe he exists, but you know, I just feel like at this point, it's almost as if it's not even religion anymore. It's more like a relationship with your creator.

[00:16:31]It's so odd because you know, I owe everything to to Christ.

[00:16:40]Literally, the breath I wake up with every day.

[00:16:44]The fact that I'm getting views on my videos.

[00:16:49]Because sometimes I watch back at my videos and I'm like, "What is this girl saying?"

[00:16:54]And I'm like, oh, like I'm like, for real, it just might be the Holy Spirit speaking through me. I don't know.

[00:16:59]Whatever it is, um I just feel like it's it's so hard not to fall back on the one that created you.

[00:17:13]Because I feel like in a world like ours, it's the only thing that makes sense.

[00:17:20]And that's why I'm a Christian.

[00:17:22]Um it's why I'm a child of God.

[00:17:25]Um and being a child of God also means that you don't have to be validated by the things of this world.

[00:17:34]Because people who have been created themselves don't have to put rules onto you because they themselves have not created you.

[00:17:41]That's why must they put their rules onto you?

[00:17:44]The only one who I need to be validated by, the only one who validates me and qualifies me is Christ. Cuz he created me. Thus, he can implement those rules onto me. And even if the world rejects me, Christ won't because even he says, "Come as you are."

[00:18:00]As funky of a human being as you are, come as you are and he will sanctify you.

[00:18:07]The world will tell you, "In order to enter my club, you have to do this and this. You have to buy Gucci and Balenciaga."

[00:18:13]He says, "Strip yourself of that flesh bag.

[00:18:16]And come as you are."

[00:18:18]Or strip your identity from your from your flesh bag and come as you are.

[00:18:22]He doesn't need you to change before you come to him.

[00:18:26]Yeah, but this isn't a video trying to push any sort of religion to anyone.

[00:18:32]Um that's not what Christ preached. If God If Christ did it was not wanted in the place, he didn't force himself there. He simply leave left.

[00:18:39]But that's kind of um what I wanted to say. Oh, one more thing.

[00:18:46]But yeah, that's also um So, what more talking about like being qualified and a validation from people is that well, you know, cuz people think that Christianity is something that's tyrannical, but I believe it's one of the most freeing things that you can subscribe to. Subscribe to. It's so weird.

[00:19:05]Um if you're not a Christian, but yeah, it's it's one of the most freeing things you can subscribe to because you realize that people of this world have been people of this world are created.

[00:19:17]Thus, they themselves can't have an accurate judgment upon you. And the only one who you have to answer to is Christ.

[00:19:24]So, you can be whoever you are in Christ.

[00:19:30]He is the only one who sees you for who you are. And he accepts you regardless.

[00:19:35]If the world rejects you, then Christ will be the only one who accepts you, and that is freeing.

[00:19:40]And that is freeing.

[00:19:42]That's why I can post videos online and not really be scared if I'm going to receive judgment on it.

[00:19:51]Because I know that, you know, even if the world doesn't agree with me, I mean, Christ obviously wouldn't agree with me. Even if the world calls me this and that, I I know who I am in Christ.

[00:20:05]And the funky opinions of people, I mean, of course I I look at the criticism and I think about it, but if it's genuinely hate, I know that the hate should not affect me because that's not who Christ says I am.

[00:20:20]Because I'm not a loser, I'm not a larper, I'm not a unworthy person. I'm a child of God, and that's what I am.

[00:20:30]And that's kind of all I wanted to say.