The harder I fought the urge to drink… the louder it got

Added: 2026-05-20

[00:00:00]I used to think something was wrong with me.

[00:00:02]I decided not to drink, and then a little voice would show up telling me, "One won't hurt. You deserve it. It would make you feel so good."

[00:00:12]I called my little drinking voice.

[00:00:14]I used to fight it, try to push it away, ignore it, doing everything I could to get rid of that little voice.

[00:00:22]But the harder I fought, the louder it got.

[00:00:25]What I didn't understand back then was that little voice wasn't trying to hurt me. It was trying to help me in the best way it knew how.

[00:00:34]And everything started to change when I stopped fighting it, and started to turn towards it with compassion and curiosity.