What’s Really Driving Your 𝗟𝗢𝗢𝗣𝗜𝗡𝗚 Thoughts?

[00:00:12]OCD and OCD thinking, which is a part of it, compulsive looping OCD thoughts, is, if understood, is an aspect to get to the emotions underneath.

[00:00:26]>> [snorts] >> Effectively, OCD is a barrier to health and wholeness. It's It's It's a It's a blocker to our individuation.

[00:00:36]And our individuation, our wholeness, to experience all our emotions and the thoughts and the feelings that surround us in having the experience of the human being, um should all be all be allowed.

[00:00:51]>> [snorts] >> And if balanced and well-regulated and in touch with our higher self with these emotions, it will always choose for us things that are good suggestions. But we have split off those, so some of our thoughts, some of our uh thinking, our OCD thinking is extremely strange, extremely frightening, extremely uh depressing, and extremely anger-inducing.

[00:01:18]Because our body is designed to withdraw from anything it perceives as unsafe.

[00:01:25]And because we've dysregulated and because we're in fight or flight, our brain is searching for the reason why we're in fight or flight. So therefore, it's searching for the danger. There's no predator. There is no danger. We're not actually in a state of of of threat.

[00:01:42]So what it's doing is constantly scanning the body, constantly scanning outside, and trying to locate the the problem so that it can neutralize it.

[00:01:52]And in a normal body, things that are unpleasant, things that feel a way are there to tell us we probably need to withdraw from that and be protected from it. We have disregulated, so our poor brain now is saying, "Well, the actual sensation itself is the danger."

[00:02:11]And that the stuff in the shadow is the danger. And these compulsive behaviors are beginning to keep us stuck in regression, in the regressive function um to keep that shadow material at bay.

[00:02:26]It's started to believe the emotion and motions themselves are in fact the danger. And that they are the threat, that they are unpleasant. So, as we start to experience the emotions in the body, it will feel very yucky.

[00:02:43]You know, just as having to a man amend our coping mechanisms, saying no if we're a people pleaser, compulsively caring, compulsively being nice, etc. will feel very, very unpleasant because we don't have that habit and there'll be a conflict there.

[00:03:00]And if the ego thinks we are not somebody does these things, it will always try and block it. And one of the things it will do is, you know, as you said, try and trap us in repetitive behaviors to avoid what the shadow is presenting.

[00:03:16]So, this OCD goes right across, you know, from the behaviors, whether it's checking, whether it's compulsively experiencing our sensations, whether it's having um uh obsessive beliefs that are going on again, the perfectionism, all of these things are just a way that the ego effectively is trying to stop us being who we truly are.

[00:03:42]And who we truly are, part of it's in the shadow, which is now trying to reintegrate.

[00:03:50]And all of these behaviors, these mechanisms are trying to block it. These are thoughts. These are compulsions, and they are trying to manage our hidden fears and desires. Remember, some of the things in the shadow are good, things we want to do. I want to say no. I want to say yes to that. I want to be this person. I don't want to be her. So, if the ego is thought we're not allowed to because it's existentially dangerous, we'll be rejected, we'll be abandoned, we'll be criticized, we won't get our needs met because it still thinks we're at sort of 5-year-old child half the time, it's going to do anything to distract you from it. And what it will do is give us these, as we looked at, coping mechanisms. All of I won't go into that now cuz we've we've we've covered that in another video, but repetitive behaviors, repetitive thoughts.

[00:04:35]And you know, these compulsions are trying What are they trying to achieve? They're trying to distract us.

[00:04:43]And you know, they're trying to give us a way of staying safe, but how can we provide that in ourselves? We need to provide the safety of being with our true selves rather than as our ego thought, the safety of avoiding our true selves. And we do this slowly.

[00:05:04]We're doing this by changing the way we live, becoming authentic, feeling our emotions.

[00:05:11]Most of us have become emotionally suppressed and in turn repressed. All of these OCD behaviors come from emotional oppression.

[00:05:19]And if we conflict and oppose our own nature, our true nature, our self, which incorporates our emotions, obviously, and our instinct, we set up these neuroses. And these neuroses of OCD, these complexes, are are what we're talking about here. So, fear of fear becomes a need to control.

[00:05:42]Fear of chaos, this becomes a need to control. Fear of disorder becomes a control because if when we're younger, that meant we weren't safe because we weren't able to express our fears.

[00:05:53]Therefore, we have to try and protect ourselves from ever feeling that fear.

[00:05:58]So, the true order, the true safety, the true control comes from allowing, as we've said again and again. Otherwise, what we do is we end up in trigger management. Managing our thoughts, managing our sensations, and we are continually, therefore, repressing, suppressing, suppressing, with all this trigger avoidance, this management, as opposed to understanding the triggers, what's at root, as the head of a complex, as the head of a schema, a part of us, a part that we we we we disowned, normally an emotion, you know, split off, and you know, for a reason when we're younger, but we don't need to do that anymore. And if we now understand we want that back, and that the OCD is trying to thwart our access to it and block our natural dynamic um access to it with the ego.

[00:06:53]Uh and with the ego's resistance, we we we don't get what we need, which is wholeness. So, you are a person who has emotions. You are a person who has thoughts based on those emotions and feelings based on those emotions, all of which are fantastic if you're in touch with the full system.

[00:07:14]And the OCD is an attempt to stop us having access to the full system. So, OCD, [snorts] you can ask yourself whether it's a whether it's a thought, whether it's a a feeling, what would happen if I didn't do what this thought is asking, or engage with the thing that is getting me to avoid. Well, it would give me an emotion, and that emotion is very frightening, so we go there. It's fear.

[00:07:40]It will I'll I'll I'll explode with anger, or I'll be so sad I'll never never get out of it. This is what the OCD thoughts, feelings are trying to distract us from, and this is what our sensations, our pain is trying to distract us from.

[00:07:56]>> [snorts] >> The anxiety is designed to inhibit access to the core emotional expression.

[00:08:03]The irritation, the frustration, the the controlling every all of these things are trying to stop us going to the emotions. So, we just go to the anxiety rather than the fear, and then the anxiety gives us thoughts about the anxiety as we avoid it as it's more and more and more as the system is trying to manage operating on only two cylinders to keep us in homeostasis, which we is is so hard at this point because we're just dysregulating dysregulating the whole time because we've chopped off our emotions, and it keeps directing us back keeps directing us back to the back to the fear, but we don't feel the fear we see it as anxiety and anxious thoughts.

[00:08:43]This relies on a chronic reliance on our defenses as we have no access to the core emotions, which means we have more feelings. So, it's feelings, thoughts, feelings, thoughts, feelings, thoughts.

[00:08:57]So, if we find ourselves in this OCD loop of feelings, thoughts, feelings, thoughts, anxious thoughts, anxious feelings in the body, anxious thought and it's we need to go to the fear.

[00:09:08]And the same would apply for all the other disowned emotions.

[00:09:11]And we need to be really really brutal about understanding, thank you, that is a fearful thought, go to it. Don't try and get rid of it. Don't try and change anything to avoid it or to manage it.

[00:09:25]Just be with it and let it's very very obvious that you actually do need to be fearful because someone's coming in the room brandishing a a gun or something like that.

[00:09:35]It's not real.

[00:09:37]So, it's an opportunity to label it, go to it because otherwise we just have this this thoughts feelings loop. And remember, at the bottom of all of it is emotion.

[00:09:49]So, thinking thinking is our way back. Where is the thought?

[00:09:57]In the body.

[00:09:58]And what's the emotion underneath it?

[00:10:00]And just go to that.

[00:10:03]The more dramatic the thought, the more extravagant the the thought, the more dramatically hysterical the thought, you know it's just at root an emotion that is desperate to be completed.