Serious chat about psychotic episodes

Added: 2026-05-23

[00:00:00]Good morning, good evening, good afternoon. I've got more selfie stick issues. It's a little bit wobbly. So, I'm really hoping you guys don't fall in the water.

[00:00:13]I'll have to row very carefully because it's really It came off its stand.

[00:00:18]Actually, I want to talk about something very, very deep and important today. Patient zero.

[00:00:28]And I'm serious about this. Whoa, whoa, whoa. What I'm going to do is try and keep you wedged against the seat.

[00:00:39]I'm terrified my phone will go down to the bottom of the sea.

[00:00:44]Let's try that. And I'll try not to get foot cramp during this video. Let's go a different way today.

[00:00:51]Uh yeah, patient zero, Megan Markle.

[00:00:55]Now, I'm not laughing at her today, and I'm not uh taking a piss. I Well, for the last few days, I've been doing a lot of gardening and a lot of cleaning at the house, and it's all coming on really nice. And you know how it is when you're doing lots of housework, your mind wanders. And I haven't really been thinking about Megan at all. I've been thinking about a subject that I often talk about, which is mental illness. not mental health, mental illness. Because I think when people use the term mental health, they think that just that means someone's mentally ill. Well, it doesn't necessarily. You know, a person has everybody has a form of mental health.

[00:01:44]That may be very good mental health. It may not be so good, may be very bad. So, what I want to talk about is mental illness. And so over the last few days I have watched a considerable amount of videos of um schizophrenics being interviewed which I mean it's heartbreaking and at the same time really really enlightening. Um because now I know there are some some people who would criticize me for talking about such matters by saying things like you're not qualified, you're not a psychiatrist and all that is true. I am not. And yet in the same breath we have care in the community where we the unqualified public are expected to deal with this and we haven't got a [ __ ] clue what we're doing or what we're dealing with. And so that is what has developed my interest in the subject over the last few years. You know what what the hell did I do wrong or say wrong there or then? And it's like you can't [ __ ] win with some of these people. Not everybody. There's so many different forms of mental illness. Um but with Marl obviously a lot of people say, "Oh, she's a narcissist." And I have no doubt she is.

[00:03:01]But there's something that um she does a lot. So there is evidence that she has serious mental health disorders.

[00:03:12]There is there is evidence which I will come to. Um she rewrites history. Now a lot of people say well she's lying. Well I'm not so sure she is lying.

[00:03:26]I think she believes her own false memories.

[00:03:31]I feel that she rewrites history.

[00:03:35]When something has not happened the way she likes, I believe she then creates a new memory, a more acceptable memory. And I have discovered that that this is a thing.

[00:03:49]Apparently, we all do it to a certain extent, which I didn't realize. It's called confabulation, if I've pronounced that correctly. Confabulation, which I thought was just a word that Black Adder made up to take the piss out the guy who invented the dictionary. But apparently, or was it combobulation? He thought it anyway. Uh, confabulation.

[00:04:10]Apparently, all of us when we have where we have memories, uh, we remember things slightly differently all the time. Oh, I can hear an engine.

[00:04:24]I don't know if it's on the building site or coming around the corner.

[00:04:30]>> Yeah. Where each time we remember an event it can alter slightly and apparently this is a very very normal thing. But in more extreme conditions um they become outright false memories.

[00:04:45]Oh good golly ho. What the [ __ ] is going on? Oh it's all right. I thought it was a tug. It's the Guardia Seville.

[00:04:53]Two boats from the Guardia Seville. So, I'm sure they won't run me over because they're police officers. They're not allowed to run rowing boats over.

[00:05:03]Um, yes. So now she has mentioned this before like when she wrote the letter to her father she said to Jason Canor in email that she found the experience very cathartic.

[00:05:22]Now, I've looked into this and the reason that she would have found it cathartic is that it is literally almost like rewriting history and that it is a much more acceptable version of history for her to accept.

[00:05:40]It's a defense mechanism most likely because she has narcissism, serious narcissistic personality disorder.

[00:05:50]Um, after the Oprah interview, her f one of her friends was on a UK TV interview who said it's been so cathartic for her and Harry to tell their truth, which is where the expression their truth as opposed to the truth came from.

[00:06:13]So, if we begin to look at it that way, I think I might have to get past these boats because they're quite noisy before we continue.

[00:06:25]I don't know what they're doing there.

[00:06:26]Having a party by the toilet block.

[00:06:39]I always know when they drive past my boat because their boats are so noisy and very distinctive.

[00:06:57]Oh, I think they're just using the toilet.

[00:07:04]You'd think they'd have one on board, a big boat, but they've got two boats.

[00:07:08]They've got a little one and a big one.

[00:07:32]I think they're having a bit of a party.

[00:07:38]>> Look, I'll get them on film.

[00:07:45]Look at that.

[00:07:49]There's a gorgeous yacht in the marina.

[00:07:51]I don't know if I'm going to go that far down cuz it's actually the wind is blowing us out to sea. We're drifting out to sea at the moment. Hola.

[00:08:00]Look, there's a handsome a handsome chappie. Oh, he's turned his back.

[00:08:10]And there have been so many other instances where uh she repeats stories and stories change. I think we've all noticed that over the years. And I've always assumed that it's intentional, deliberate lying. It's only now cuz I mean I'm just a citizen trying to cope and trying to understand um mental disorders because I feel surrounded by them. You know, I feel there are a lot of people I've watched some pretty good documentaries on care in the community. Um I've just watched one where they were interviewing not necessarily schizophrenics. One guy was schizophrenic and he had voices in his head. Um I I'm fascinated by that. Oh, I found this organization. Oh my god, it's it's just wonderful. Uh I was talking to that Gemini AI yesterday and I said, "Why is it that the scientific community who's starting their [ __ ] engine now?

[00:09:08]Oh god, it's going to be busier today cuz it's nice weather." I said to the AI, "Why is it that scientists and psychiatrists are so certain that schizophrenic people are imagining the voices in their head?" So the AI comes back with the usual guard rails, you know, the crap that Google and various human beings have decided are acceptable answers. And I said, you know, don't don't give me that guardrail [ __ ] I want a serious conversation about this.

[00:09:36]And they said, well, you know, it's neurological damage to the brain and blah dah. And I said, okay, okay, so how do they know when they scan these people's brains and they have a slightly different brain? Perhaps they're tuned in to a different frequency that the rest of us can't hear. and perhaps they are really really are hearing voices and that would drive a person mad if they can genuinely hear something and everyone around them's going no you're imagining it wouldn't it that would make it worse and the AI actually after you know shaking off all the what Google will and won't allow it said well actually in the 1980s an organization was formed called something like um hm He hearing voices network I think that's what it is called hearing voices network and it was founded by a psychiatrist and a patient who basically explored this and the psychiatrist interviewed the voices in her head as opposed to interviewing her because I said to this Gemini AI why is the scientific community dismissing millions of witnesses being schizophrenic sufferers that it is the scientific and medical community, it seems to me, are dismissing all those witness testimonies when that is valuable data. And they say, well, there isn't the data. Do you see what I mean?

[00:11:01]Um, and and the AI said, actually, yes, the the uh psychiatric community is beginning to interview the voices and to say to patients, maybe you're not imagining it. Maybe you really are hearing something that the rest of us can't. And do you know what? The Hearing Voices Network started in the 1980s, still exists today. I've been on their website and it's just it really warmed my heart. It basically starts off if you are suffering with voices, you are not alone. There are lots of us. Uh apparently 10 uh no 5 to 15% of the general population hear voices. I had no idea it was that high a percentage.

[00:11:43]and um and they get together and it's nothing to do with doctors or the medical community. This is a peer-based organization and they compare notes and do you know what a lot of these schizophrenic sufferers they have ended up not having to take medication having fewer or in some cases no episodes no further episodes just by having someone else say you're not mad. you know, maybe maybe you are hearing something that the rest of us can't. My god, I was just so happy to see that there has been some breakthrough and apparently it's being led by the NHS.

[00:12:22]So, you know, gives me a bit of hope for humanity instead of just boxing people off on on uh medication and, you know, locking them up and stuff like that.

[00:12:36]You well, you guys that know me quite well, you know, I've always been very unsympathetic to such conditions. I I see it as, you know, I don't [ __ ] know how to cope. I don't know how to cope when people have serious conditions. This documentary and I do believe Megan has a serious one. That's my belief as an unqualified person who's had comm care in the community thrust on him. That is my belief that she has serious serious a serious mental disorder and that it's a lot more than just narcissism.

[00:13:05]There's a lot more going on there. Um and I do believe that she uh what was it? con confabulates and that she but in a very exaggerated way she completely rewrites the way things happened completely. I mean the getting married 3 days before getting married. Obviously that sounds in a logical sense as the archbishop went to their little cottage and had a bit of pre-marital guidance which is quite normal. That's Church of England. Um my daughter and her fianceé, they're going to get married in uh Gibralta Cathedral next year and they went and had premarital uh marriage guidance. Um they came out here a few months ago and had that and that is something that the Church of England offer. So I find it highly plausible that the Archbishop did visit their home, but in her mind she's rewritten that as we actually got married 3 days before we got married. That's how she sees it. not as a literal marriage.

[00:14:05]Well, in her mind, it probably was a literal marriage. But, uh, look. Yeah.

[00:14:10]Look, you see there's the sea. And And if I were to sit here like this, I'll just show you. There it there's the sea. We are actually drifting out to sea right now. We're actually drifting out.

[00:14:22]See, look at those fenders.

[00:14:25]See those big fenders? My kids used to play on them. it when they have them in Gibralta and um it's not allowed. Of course, the captain of the port would have gone mental. They used to go down with their mates running on them like hamster wheels and one of the kids got caught between the the concrete pier and the and the fender at one point. I don't know about going down to that fancy yacht cuz it's a bit close to the actual sea for me. I think might go go around this way for a change and see what's what.

[00:15:01]So yeah, I do I believe that this is and and of course then Harry is living with her and he will also have adopted this way of creating false memories.

[00:15:18]I believe these are serious serious mental conditions. I mean as just one example one very small example of Harry's uh false memories in his book spare he referred to being at Eaton and his desk at Eaton and he spoke of a photograph that he had of Princess Diana on his desk. Now any of you can look this up. He did he had a picture of Princess Diana. Now, as I recall, I think the frame was black, but in the book, he said it was silver, or he might have said it the other way round where it was actually silver, but he said it was black. Now, that's an easy thing that either he or Mo Ringer could have Googled to just double check if his memory was correct, but they didn't. They got it the wrong way round.

[00:16:11]Whichever it was, they got it completely the wrong way round. [ __ ] hell. Do you know what? I'm I'm pulling quite hard and it doesn't really feel like we're moving. I don't think we're moving much.

[00:16:24]I think we've got a bit of a current as well as the wind. Oh dear. Maybe we are going out to sea after all. It's a good job I brought my life jacket. Look, I I brought this got that for €18 last year on Amazon. I was quite impressed. I thought just for some reason I thought no, I'll take that today. Oh, I think it's quite a low tide today. You never know. Might do the bridge.

[00:16:47]So, this could be quite a long video.

[00:16:50]See how we go. Oh, we're making a bit of headway now.

[00:16:56]Drifted over here. Right in the middle of the channel.

[00:17:06]Now, if I'm right, and they both I mean, I think that he has obviously always had issues, should we put it that way.

[00:17:17]And he's obviously a little bit arrested, isn't he?

[00:17:21]And remedial, but I mean I I feel she has serious serious uh a serious condition on top of narcissism.

[00:17:34]She quite frequently says things like, "Oh, I feel so cathartic. Oh, I feel so happy. Um, I've just, you know, I've just had a break. It's like, and yet she says these things after she's had a bloody awful, you know, year or couple of years. She'll come out with this one of these statements. Oh, I feel so happy, so free. So, she makes for quite an interesting subject matter.

[00:18:07]Oh, yeah. This is our book.

[00:18:17]I've got to nip into Dib after this and go and get the cat some more treats.

[00:18:20]She's running a bit low. She knows when she's running low. She can see there's only one packet and she she can tell by the way I shake it. There's only a few in it. So, she started to she she meows a bit. Says, you know, you better not forget. So, I've got to nip in, get some cat treats, and I'm going down to the house. Oh, my son's such a little fiber.

[00:18:43]He did a video yesterday. I spent hours in the house doing gardening and cleaning. Of course, he hasn't cuz his foot's still sore. Um, and he fixed my pool cleaner. Bless him. I was very happy about that. And um, and he said in his video, "Oh, I've spent all day cleaning the house." I thought, "Woo, you little liar." No, you haven't.

[00:19:08]I'll tell you what, this is really hard work today. Where's the flipping bridge?

[00:19:16]It's further along than I remember.

[00:19:28]I mean then then I'm looking at Katherine's early years cuz I've also been I mean I've watched a lot of schizophrenics who've been interviewed um get out of [ __ ] way. There's a boat sailing school wants to come out.

[00:19:52]I mean, one guy was convinced that he'd been put in a mental hospital because he wanted to learn to play the piano, you know, and the guy interviewing him was like, "I think there might be more to it than that. I think there might be other reasons."

[00:20:05]Um, and another lady, she well, it wasn't schizophrenia, she had some sort of obsessive disorder. She was convinced that bed bugs were up her nose and crawling all over her face. And uh she got really distressed. Oh, I wonder if I can get under that. Well, let's go and have a look at it. If I don't feel like it when we get there, I'm not doing it.

[00:20:33]I'll give it a go cuz I don't I don't really fancy. If we go back that way, we're going to whiz down there like a bullet and then I might struggle to stop when we get to the marina entrance.

[00:20:46]Safety first, ladies and gentlemen. I don't want to drown you all.

[00:20:50]And I mean I see it a lot in society, not just with Megan. I see it a lot. Um now what one guy I watched who was very interesting. He said you may notice a lot of people who lie right are not lying apparently. He said the thing is a lie is when someone knows that they're lying, but um this confabulation thing, he said their recollection is is that is the way it happened. And so when they come out with what appears to be like extreme gaslighting and or just a blatant bloody set of massive lies and people say to them, "Stop lying. That that was only yesterday. It didn't happen that way."

[00:21:37]They get all upset because they don't think they're lying.

[00:21:42]Now, that could apply to Marl as well and Harry.

[00:21:46]I mean, how does any family cope with that? And I mean, I'm glad the royal family are not going to tolerate it or put up with their nonsense or have them back. Um, but it must have been very difficult for the royal family to have this woman enter. I wonder at what stage that they realized that she was basically exacerbating any mental disorders Harry already had. And I wonder at what stage they realized that she herself has some pretty serious mental disorders. Sort of persecution complex convinced paranoia convinced everybody was out to attack them to get them. Um, I remember quotes from sources in the palace saying that she had a lot of perceived slights. Um, you know, what she believed was a slight.

[00:22:43]I think the tide's going out. I think that's why it's a bit more tiring today doing this.

[00:22:54]Might have to use my hands to get under the bridge.

[00:23:17][ __ ] hell. This is hard going.

[00:23:26]It's good for me though rowing.

[00:23:29]I mean I don't want to be a psychiatrist and I don't want to be a psychologist but uh I do feel that I need to try and at least try and understand why some I mean I used the term mad with Gemini and Gemini went oh that's politically incorrect. I said it's a [ __ ] word. It has a definition and that is the definition. Don't tell me what word I can and can't use. And if you noticed with these AIs, they don't fight back.

[00:23:58]Once you've told them, they go, "Oh, okay."

[00:24:04]Let's have a look at the height of this bridge.

[00:24:08]I should have checked whether it's tides going in or out. Of course, you guys are going to be too tall if we go through if we go through it. Am I My son went under it once so low that a fish jumped out of the water and into the boat.

[00:24:48]Now, how tall are you?

[00:24:51]You're a little bit tall there.

[00:24:59]Want to loosen that bit.

[00:25:06]That might work.

[00:25:08]I think it'll be I think it'll be shorter.

[00:25:14]Should we do it? Oh my god.

[00:25:18]What's the worst that can happen?

[00:25:24]Oh my god. I don't know if I've got like paranoia. Whoa.

[00:25:29]Whoa. Nearly lost me all then. Oh, I don't know.

[00:25:51]Come on, Fiona. See it as the challenge of the day.

[00:25:55]I don't know why this fills me with paranoia.

[00:25:59]Not even using the ores. I'm just It's so low.

[00:26:03]Well, you can see it, can't you?

[00:26:06]You guys are all right.

[00:26:18]I'm so glad there's no beasties under here cuz the one in Ocean Village, there's like a load of little sea bugs that crawl up the wall like wood lice. Oh, we're nearly there.

[00:26:35]We've done it. Oh my god.

[00:26:40]Oh. Oh, I'm quite proud of myself for doing that. Do you know what? I'm shaking. I'm shaking from doing that. I don't know what isn't that ridiculous. I mean, it's not like the tide would just go whoosh and come straight up.

[00:26:52]Oh.

[00:26:54]Oh, thank God for that. Then I don't have to row all the way around back the same way.

[00:27:03]I'll tell you what though, some of those concrete beams are quite badly cracked.

[00:27:06]Makes me think twice at driving across that thing. Look, I'll show you what it is. It's a It's basically the bridge for the road, but they put this gap for the water, you know, for the tidle change so that that the water circulates, but the cars drive above that.

[00:27:27]I know. I'm a real chicken, a real crybaby. Takes me a lot to uh to do [ __ ] anything adventurous.

[00:27:36]I am the complete opposite of my late husband. He would jump out of airplanes, leap into the sea, go. Oh, he'd do all sorts. Made my palms sweat. Just the thought of it.

[00:27:50]So, yes, ladies and gentlemen, now I'm going to add something which probably very unwise, but I'm going to say it anyway, and I've said it before. Many years ago, I saw a post on I can't remember if it was Kora or Reddit and it was years and years ago from someone who claimed to be a psychiatric nurse and they claimed that patient zero, yes madam, had been one of their patients.

[00:28:23]Now, I know I hear you say that's quite far-fetched, but I was intrigued and I really wish I'd kept a picture of this comment. It was a very long comment.

[00:28:35]Um, and they listed a lot of antiscychotic drugs that they claim Megan had been prescribed. They said that she was in a secure unit for a very short period of time.

[00:28:52]I seem to recall the claim was two weeks. I mean, whether this is true or not, you know, anybody can put anything on the internet, can't they? I just tell you, you know, I saw this for what it's worth.

[00:29:04]Um they claimed that she had been admitted as uh a psychiatric patient for a couple of weeks for observation and as part of a deal connected to the college that she went to because of various behavior, you know. Oh, excuse me. I've got something in my eye.

[00:29:31]That was the claim of the poster.

[00:29:33]And it was fascinating. It was a long long post. It wasn't just like any old person had written that.

[00:29:43]They were using a lot of medical terms.

[00:29:48]They um there were no spelling mistakes in it, you know, no grammatical mistakes. It was written very clearly, concisely, very well.

[00:29:56]And I mean this was early early stages.

[00:29:58]I think this was before anybody had even suggested that she had narcissistic personality disorder. And this uh person who claimed to be a nurse said, "Believe me, as the years go by, it will become obvious to members of the public that she has a condition."

[00:30:18]Now, the nurse was not certain what the condition was because she had not been in the facility for long enough.

[00:30:26]Um, but she had put forth a few hypotheses as to in her opinion what type of thing it could be from what she'd seen from other people.

[00:30:36]She did use the word psychotic quite a lot. I mean, I'm being serious. I know a lot of a lot of you make jokes and stuff. Oh, Meg's psychotic.

[00:30:45]Yeah. And and we all use that as a sort of a term, don't we? If someone's kicking off, you go, "Oh, they're being a bit of a psycho." But I'm talking more in the literal sense.

[00:30:54]So if we then reframe it and look at Megan in the context of that she may have severe mental disorders, how that would affect Harry living with her um and the other people around her. And she does. She creates new realities all the time. I've often said when I look at her, I imagine her singing the Disney music in her head because it's it's happier even in the engagement interview for her to say, you know, oh, it's just noise. I just block out noise. I mean, yes, it's good for people to ignore negativity on the whole.

[00:31:37]But when someone practices that all of the time that it's constantly, well, I just that I'll just pretend that didn't happen. I don't like that. Therefore, that didn't happen. I don't want that reality. Therefore, I'm going to make a new one. I don't think that's very healthy. Again, speaking as a completely unqualified person, you know, I don't know what I'm talking about. I've watched a few YouTube videos. I've had a chat with AI and I've read a few medical journals on various mental disorders and I landed on confabulation.

[00:32:08]Um, basically, she cannot face up to reality. Um, it is far easier for her when she says that she got a standing evation at the United Nations. She did not.

[00:32:19]But that is in her memory or in her version of reality at the time. She may well have seen and experienced that even though it did not actually happen.

[00:32:30]Do you see what I mean?

[00:32:34]And I think that somebody who, if I'm right, of course, because I don't [ __ ] know, but if I am right, um, then somebody like her, if she were to have an absolute existential crisis, you know, real crisis, like, oh, Harry's leaving you. You're going to have [ __ ] all. I think that that would create a breakdown, which would create something really catastrophic.

[00:33:02]not necessarily violent, but uh probably a really really extreme uh case of rewriting it. You know, even if he were to say to her, I want a divorce, she would change it immediately that she asked him for a divorce because that would be more acceptable to her in her mind, if you see what I mean.

[00:33:25]That anniversary thing was a bit weird.

[00:33:27]Why were there only four candles on that cake? And and why were they using the tune of happy birthday to sing anniversary? I don't know. It's amazing what you can do with AI these days. I am not convinced that they are a happy couple. It doesn't matter how much she tries to put this kind of crap and [ __ ] out there. I don't believe it.

[00:33:45]And even if that was him, I believe that he went, "Oh, go on then. I'll come around to the house and we'll pretend we're all happy families and we're having a happy anniversary." you know, and if I'm right about her mental disorder, then he would know better than anyone. And he would know, well, probably the easiest thing is to do is to play along with the fantasy because uh if you break the fantasy, that can cause um a psychotic break. And if there are two children there and you know that's the last thing he wants to do, isn't it? Thick as he is, I'm sure even he's worked out or anything to stop her screaming, you know.

[00:34:23]Full circle. We've done the whole marina. Oh, can't believe uh my next challenge, ladies and gentlemen, is to crawl up that pipe. I've always wondered what's up that. Look, I'm only joking.

[00:34:34]I'm not I'm not crawling up that. That's just the drains that go to the road. And Oh, we've survived another row.

[00:34:51]I mean, what do you think? I'm serious.

[00:34:53]What What do you think? Do you think that she's just, you know, [ __ ] [ __ ] and up her own ass, or do you think there's some serious problems and conditions there?

[00:35:06]Look it up. Confabulation.

[00:35:10]Bullshitting is another way of putting it, isn't it?

[00:35:29]docking.

[00:35:50]Oh, that went quite smoothly.

[00:35:53]Well, I shall look forward to your comments on this one. Good morning, good evening, good afternoon, and may your God be with you. And thank you for joining me in the tunnel.