Finding My Way Through a World of Chosen Moral Hazards

[00:00:00]Hi, today I'd like to talk about finding my way in a world of failed moral hazards.

[00:00:10]A failed moral hazard is is is a choice. It's a choice that you come across like a fork in a road.

[00:00:21]Uh when an opportunity comes, an opportunity to change your life for the better, for the worse.

[00:00:34]You could use this opportunity to make your life more peaceful, maybe have more leisure, maybe have abundance.

[00:00:49]Or you could use the opportunity to do the opposite.

[00:00:54]create discord, war, to create uh scarcity, to destroy, but it it it doesn't it's not like so simple in the beginning. Uh when you have this opportunity, you think, "Oh my gosh, there's like so many things so many awesome things that are going to happen from this."

[00:01:23]And it's hard to think about the bad consequences or the con the consequences unintended consequences that you you you don't want but will happen if you make certain choices. So so that that's that's a moral hazard. It's um it's when the choice exists that uh could make your life a lot worse than it than it is. even though you think it might make it better.

[00:01:56][sighs and gasps] Yeah.

[00:02:01]Uh I don't know if that even really fully captures it because um I'll just I'll just start talking about an example that that I I've been thinking about um recently.

[00:02:16]Yeah, I've been thinking about um the predicament we're in with our changing climate, the the climate that we've been changing very quickly with uh deforestation and releasing greenhouse gases, CO2, methane, amongst others, into the atmosphere to rapidly warm this planet. I mean, it's warming so fast. I mean, Canada is on fire. There's smoke throughout the northeast United States and Midwest. Um, there are forests here even even though uh right now I'm on the coast. It's cool and foggy. Well, yeah, foggy. Um, but inland there are fires.

[00:03:02]Um I was reading about possible ways to get out of our predicament.

[00:03:13]One of them is uh through solar radiation management SRM solar radiation management.

[00:03:23]So essentially what's happening is is the sunlight comes and hits hits the earth and is converted to heat.

[00:03:34]CO2 and other gases they uh trap that heat. They they they convert the light into infrared energy which is heat like a warming blanket. Um but there's a possibility of using [snorts] of humans tinkering further with their environment with the environment. It's not theirs.

[00:04:00]It's something that we all share um with all the other living beings that we share this planet with. Um, there is a possibility of us tinkering further through solar radiation management. And I'm not talking about chemtrails or that BS conspiracy stuff that like people keep talking about like that. That's BS, man.

[00:04:26]I'm talking about the real the real idea that I think where all the conspiracy theories come from.

[00:04:35]The real idea that's not being done yet, solar radiation management, it's releasing sulfate particles into the upper um stratosphere, I believe, like the upper atmosphere.

[00:04:54]Um, sulfate particles are white and and they can float in the atmosphere for a long time.

[00:05:06]Well, actually, not in geological terms, it's not a long time. Something like 5 to 10 years or something like that.

[00:05:15]And because they're white and because they're up high up in the atmosphere, they reflect the sunlight back into outer space before the sunlight can enter into the lower atmosphere and encounter um things that will heat up heat up the earth.

[00:05:33]In a way, it's like applying a tint, you know, like you put a tint on a window, a car window or a house window.

[00:05:42]is like putting a tint on the Earth's atmosphere.

[00:05:49]It could cool the Earth pretty rapidly by a significant amount. You know, we've raised the temperature, average temperature of the atmosphere um about 1.5° C above pre-industrial baseline. That means before the industrial revolution that means like uh 1700s we've raised the average global temperature 1 1/2° C. Now you may be like one and a half that's not much.

[00:06:22]That is a lot and is very quickly. Um the atmosphere uh temperatures have not changed this quickly in recorded history.

[00:06:36]Well, no, geological history like uh and we're able to go back and figure out how quickly temperatures have changed in the past and they've never changed this quickly. We we are we are the winners.

[00:06:47]We are the champions. We're number one.

[00:06:55]One and a half degrees means we start we start engaging tipping points in the uh in the climate.

[00:07:06]cause a runaway hot house earth. It means that we started it but the earth will finish it. It means it means methane and CO2 released from the perafrost Siberia, upper Canada, Alaska.

[00:07:27]That methane is way more powerful than CO2. Doesn't last as long. CO2 lasts about the warming effect lasts about thousand years, but the methane uh the effect on the climate is order of magnitude higher than CO2.

[00:07:44]Doesn't last as long, maybe like a hundred years. I'd have to look it up.

[00:07:51]But as we warm the planet, we initiate these positive feedback loops that exist in the planet.

[00:08:02]The forest burn. We're seeing that they release CO2.

[00:08:06]The perafrost melts, methanes release.

[00:08:14]There are methane deposits in the Arctic that are frozen. They melt and then they start bubbling up, released into the atmosphere.

[00:08:28]The polar ice cap melts.

[00:08:31]Now, what was white and reflects sunlight back into the uh into outer space without heating the planet now is dark blue water that absorbs the sunlight. It heats up very quickly. Actually, the oceans are heating on the on the magnitude of well, it's accelerating now. Something like 10 Hiroshima bombs every second going off. All the energy is going going into the ocean. The ocean like the ocean right there.

[00:09:08]We're we're uh we're causing these feedback loops that uh once they're triggered, it's it's no longer it's no longer just us heating the planet up. It's the whole planet.

[00:09:22]The planet is responding to us.

[00:09:27]Well, one and a half degrees is when those tipping points start. And once those tipping points start it can become essentially irreversible at least on the term of human scale. Um like humans will be gone for a very long time before it can reverse again start cooling off. uh the amount of CO2 in the atmosphere is in in geological history ended up causing about a 10° C increase. I mean that is extinction level and that's what happened previous times that CO2 has been this high. extinctions, mass extinctions, like 97% of life forms gone.

[00:10:21]Well, we're at the very beginning of that.

[00:10:25]One of the things that uh we could do is solar radiation management. We we can mimic a volcanic explosion where sulfur particles are injected into the atmosphere because this has happened a few times when a very large uh volcanic explosion happened and then injected sulfate particles into the upper atmosphere actually cooled the earth. This has happened several times uh while humans have been on this planet. Humans have been on this planet for about 300,000 years. Um in fact it's thought that uh there there was a time of mass famine um in Europe and u well essentially the civil just human civilization where humans lived at that time and it caused a destruction of the civilization the collapse of the bronze age I believe it's Then the people called the sea people went around and just destroyed all the all the kingdoms and civilizations and there was famine and lots of death.

[00:11:48]It's thought that that was triggered by a volcanic eruption that rapidly cooled the planet for a time, caused crops to fail.

[00:12:02]Um, and at that time, yeah, it was the Bronze Age. It was the end of the Bronze Age because there were that people were making chariots. Uh they were they were fighting and causing war uh with the weapons that they they could make from mixing copper with a little bit of tin. Uh that makes bronze, you can make swords and spears. You can make ch uh well, you can have chariots.

[00:12:32]Uh but and you can have just you could have advanced farming equipment, plows made with bronze.

[00:12:45]You can make a lot of food and you can make a complex civilization. But at that time it required everything was so interconnected and there were only a few areas with tin mines.

[00:12:57]Tin was very scarce.

[00:13:02]And then things tipped over. A volcanic explosion happened.

[00:13:09]Crops failed. Civilization started to fail.

[00:13:14]All these expensive chariots built for warfare during a time of abundance became useless against a mob of sea people.

[00:13:25]The sea people were humans. They were just kind of like nomads. No angry mob.

[00:13:30]Angry mob of people traveling and destroying uh the sea peoples. Um I think about today. Today is uh we've got billiond dollar warships and um F-35 fighter jets.

[00:13:54]We've got all these satellites.

[00:13:58]The United States military has like the most advanced equipment to make war, but they're losing. They're losing against people with drones, like really cheap to manufacture drones.

[00:14:18]It's like the chariot. The chariot being overwhelmed by mobs of people. There's there's no good there's no good against mobs of people.

[00:14:27]Well, we haven't even seen the rise of the sea people for our time, but I I think there will be a time when we see the rise of the sea people 2.0.

[00:14:40]Um, yeah, it's going to happen.

[00:14:50]It This is a That was a collapse of the Bronze Age. This is the collapse of the silicon age. Ah, I coined I coined a new historical term in this in in this video. The collapse of the silicon age well I digressed a lot. What I was talking about was um we know that you can cool the planet by injecting sulfate particles into the upper atmosphere because of volcanoes.

[00:15:29]Volcanoes can do that. And so people have been talking about recreating a volcanic eruption by flying airplanes that will spray these sulfate particles into the sky at the very very as far as the airplanes can fly up in in the in the atmosphere and it will cool the earth for a handful of years. Not thousands of years, a handful, less than 10.

[00:16:01]potentially it could it could undo like it could undo the one and a half degrees Celsius rise that we've caused over the last couple hundred years temporarily while the sulfate particles are up there. We could cool the earth back down to to the stable climate we've had for 10,000 years.

[00:16:26]We could avoid the tipping points, but we'd have to keep flying the airplanes up.

[00:16:37]And this is where the moral hazard comes from.

[00:16:40]If we cool down the planet by flying airplanes, spraying chemicals, not chemtrails, that's a conspiracy theory. But I think the conspiracy theory comes from this idea, which has not been done yet.

[00:17:02]The moral hazard comes from if we cool the earth, flying airplanes, spraying sulfate particles, then there's then we'll we'll probably just keep burning even more fossil fuels because, you know, what's the what's the big deal? We can just cool. We can just turn down the thermostat of the earth by spraying chemicals up there.

[00:17:29]That means we can just burn as much as as much gasoline and diesel and oil and coal as as we want because we can like wow. We're so smart. We're so smart. We can just we can just set the thermostat on the the whole earth. Humans are amazing.

[00:17:49]That's the moral hazard.

[00:17:51]What's the problem with that?

[00:17:54]Well, you got to keep flying these airplanes and spraying chemicals. And in fact, if you start burning, if you keep burning fossil fuels like we have been, that increases the warming blanket on the Earth, you'll have to spray more chemicals. You'd have to tint the Earth to a darker tint in the upper atmosphere.

[00:18:16]You have to do it over and over again.

[00:18:18]You have to do it every year. You have to do it. You have to keep doing it more and more and more. What happens if you stop?

[00:18:28]What happens if we run out of fuel to fly these airplanes?

[00:18:36]What happens if the sea people 2.0 start destroying civilization?

[00:18:46]start taking down the US military like the sea peoples destroyed the armies of all the civilizations at that time then to the bron bronze age what if they what if the sea peoples 2.0 I know, subscribe to the uh chemtrail conspiracy theory and they say, "Look, they're actually doing the chemtrails.

[00:19:18]They're poisoning all of us. We've got to blow up those airplanes." And they do blow up those airplanes with cheaplymade drones, firsterson drones, and they just put holes in the fuselage of of these airplanes, and they they they can't fly anymore.

[00:19:35]What happens then? What happens if you've been spraying sulfate particles into the upper atmosphere and you stop all of a sudden?

[00:19:46]Well, now that cooling blanket from the sulfate particles goes away within years, within a few years.

[00:19:56]And if you fall into the moral hazard of thinking, well, now we can control everything, so we might as well burn all the rest of the fossil fuel that we've got while we have it. Might as well have grand old party. Well, the party's over at this point because you've got a very strong heating blanket that's no longer counteracted by cooling blanket.

[00:20:19]That means you got extremely rapid warming. is we set the temperature back down to pre-industrial baselines, but really the Earth it's it wants to be up by at that point like 5 10° C is going to heat up so quickly.

[00:20:41]That means all the forest up in flames.

[00:20:46]That means drought. That means death from lethal heat waves.

[00:20:58]Wet bulb uh wet bulb lethal temperatures.

[00:21:01]That means billions of people dead very quickly because we fell for the moral hazard.

[00:21:15]Well, I I think that if if humans were to if humans were to do the solar radiation management, I think we would fall to the moral hazard of continuing to burn fossil fuels instead of stopping burning them.

[00:21:34]And why do I think that?

[00:21:37]Well, because we've pretty much failed every other moral hazard that that we we've had.

[00:21:44]Um, we can go back in time chronologically.

[00:21:48]Look at AI.

[00:21:50]AI had the promise to have machines do a lot of work for humans.

[00:21:59]We could have used AI to make humans work less so that we don't have to have a 40hour work week or more for some people.

[00:22:12]Humans could have worked a couple hours a day, four days a week. We have three day weekends every every every week.

[00:22:21]Work a total of eight hours. Well, because we've got AI. AI did the vast majority of work.

[00:22:30]We could have used AI so that people can have more leisure time, more time with family, more time to learn how to grow their own food, more time to build communities to strengthen local bonds, to figure out how we can survive without this global fossil fuel-driven economy.

[00:22:59]Time to educate ourselves. Time to talk.

[00:23:07]Time to get to know one of each other.

[00:23:10]Time to debate, figure out what what do we want to do with our lives?

[00:23:20]We could have done that with AI, but instead we've used AI. We've fallen for the moral hazard. We've used AI to increase productivity, increase the GDP, work everyone just as hard to the bone. Now, they can produce more because they're working with computers. AI is helping increase their productivity, but they're not working less. In fact, they might be working more. Deadlines are shortened now because well, you should be using AI to make it make it shorter.

[00:23:57]If you don't want to get fired, if you don't want to be in the bottom 10% that's going to get laid off from this company, you got to use AI and you got to produce, man or woman.

[00:24:09]You got to produce.

[00:24:12]So, we failed. We failed that moral hazard.

[00:24:21]Same thing with the industrial revolution. I'm No, no. Okay.

[00:24:30]Before that, renewable energy or so-called renewable energy. I I say so-called renewable energy because it all requires fossil fuels to be made. Solar panels, wind farms, they all require fossil fuels to make and to replenish because they have lifespans. Solar panels and wind farms have lifespans and they they need fossil fuels to be replenished.

[00:25:08]Well, we could we could have used those the energy from the sun and from the wind. Um, oh, nuclear energy is bundled in with renewable energy, but it's not renewable. It's based off of a fuel, a fision fuel, uranium, that's finite on this planet.

[00:25:34]But going back to wind and solar, you know, we could have used that to use less fossil fuels, we've built huge wind farms and solar farms, but have we decreased our fossil fuel usage? No. We've actually increased our fossil fuel usage. We've used the energy from the solar farms, solar panels, wind wind turbines from the wind farms. We've we've used them to add on top of increased fossil fuel use.

[00:26:14]The whole purported use of so-called renewable energy was to use to release less carbon dioxide and methane into the atmosphere. But we haven't done that. We've fallen for the moral hazard.

[00:26:28]We've failed it.

[00:26:33]Let's just go back to the internal combustion engine use of fossil fuels.

[00:26:38]They're ghost slaves.

[00:26:41]Civilizations have used slaves.

[00:26:45]Like pretty much every civilization that we still have slaves today.

[00:26:54]Well, we just don't call ourselves slaves to the system. I mean, some people do uh because we've got ghost slaves that do a lot of work for us. The ghost slaves are the fossil fuel energy in engines or power plants, generators.

[00:27:17]They they provide energy of hundreds and thousands of human beings.

[00:27:24]human manpower.

[00:27:27]There's there's thousands of hours of manpower um hundreds of thousands I believe in just a single 55gallon drum of oil.

[00:27:39]That's the ghost slave.

[00:27:42]So while while we're all sort of slaves to this capitalist uh suicidal system that that we all are part of um we don't really think of ourselves so much as slaves because we have ghost slaves working for all of us in our cars in our in our home that we're connected to the grid.

[00:28:07]There's ghost slaves. Now, could we have used that to make our lives better?

[00:28:12]Well, they have in some ways. We have climate controlled rooms. We have electricity. We have light. We have communication. It has made our lives better in some ways.

[00:28:27]But what have we done with it?

[00:28:30]Uh, we've blown each other up. We shoot each other. We uh cut down the forest.

[00:28:43]We we poisoned the planet with plastics, microplastics, and forever chemicals.

[00:28:49]Uh George Carlin said that the the the purpose of humans was to make plastic. That that's that's the only reason humans exist on the planet is to make plastic, to cover the earth in plastic. And he's right.

[00:29:04]But we fell for a moral hazard. Instead of just making our lives better, we polluted the earth and we cut down the forest. Um, we made an immense amount of food and we made a lot of people. A lot of people cutting down trees, throwing trash everywhere, throwing plastic everywhere, over fishing the seas until fish are going extinct.

[00:29:37]Well, and and burning all that stuff.

[00:29:39]we're ushering in a mass extinction.

[00:29:42]That's a that's a failed moral hazard.

[00:29:45]You know, I don't even know how we we could have used fossil fuels without going down this path. I mean, maybe we just shouldn't have burnt stuff, you know? Maybe maybe burning stuff, fire, maybe that was a moral hazard that we failed. No other species that I know of makes fire. Humans are the only one on this planet.

[00:30:14]What have we done with it? Well, we burned trees down for a long time and then we figured out we could burn oil and coal and natural gas and and then we usher in a mass extinction includes ourselves.

[00:30:34]I think the the first humans that burnt stuff figured out that they can make fire by like rubbing sticks together or scratching flint into um some thinly shaved wood, a wood pile.

[00:30:51]I don't think they were aware of the moral hazard that exists with fire.

[00:31:01]I don't think that the the the the humans that first started planting food and killing off any other animals or or um fungi that want to eat that food. this this way of agriculture, this totalitarian agriculture. I I don't think the first humans that started doing this realized the moral hazard that was inter intertwined with this opportunity.

[00:31:38]Well, we live in that world.

[00:31:44]But the title of this video was finding my way in a world of failed moral hazards. I think I think we have failed the moral hazards of burning stuff, of growing lots of food, and not controlling how many people we have alive. decide, not not even controlling, just deciding, just talking about, hey, how many people do we want to have on this planet? How many people would be a good idea to have? And how many people is too much? How many people is too little? We never we never talk about it.

[00:32:17]In fact, if you start talking about it, everyone just gets pissed off and like calls each other's names.

[00:32:28]We've we failed the moral hazard of population choice. The choice of what we want to do with our population, with our food.

[00:32:39]We've failed the moral hazard of the industrial revolution. We failed.

[00:32:48]Well, we are failing the AI moral hazard. And we're failing.

[00:32:54]Well, we haven't even done solar radiation management intentionally.

[00:33:01]We did it unintentionally when we were burning a lot of fuel that had sulfur in it and that created an aerosol blanket.

[00:33:07]Um, but as we cleaned up the fuels, the blanket went away and the earth has rapidly heated even faster over the last decade or so. Yeah. Decade. And so that that's how we figured out that we were unintentionally causing an aerosol pollution blanket of sulfate.

[00:33:26]And so now we're talking about maybe intentionally putting a blanket up there, a cooling blanket, a tint of sulfate, geoengineering.

[00:33:39]Well, we don't have a good track record of avoiding the moral hazard.

[00:33:48]We have a track record of plunging straight in, straight into the moral hazard. Like, okay. Hey, hey guys. Hey guys, look, you know, there's a couple ways we could go here. That way is death. That way is well, we could continue to live. In fact, we might be a little bit more comfortable, but we got to not do not do that one thing. And everyone's like, "Ah, no, man. We just got to do that one thing. Let's go this way and that that's the way we go.

[00:34:20]Destruction.

[00:34:25]So when I read about solar radiation management and then people write, well there's a moral hazard involved with this, I'm like, yeah, well that's exactly what's going to happen. Exactly. is probably not a good idea because if there's a moral hazard, humans are going to choose that moral hazard.

[00:34:48]Uh we can't help ourselves. It's just the way we are.

[00:34:55]Well, is that true? I don't know.

[00:34:58]Certainly seems likely.

[00:35:08]Well, the title was trying to find my way or finding my way through this time.

[00:35:16]I I I've been just trying to come to terms with um the fact that we we live this way. We choose these things.

[00:35:27]Uh coming coming to terms with a mass extinction that started, coming to terms with the beginning of a runaway hot house, coming to terms with uh the coming seat people 2.0, the rapid degradation of the complexity of our society. Um uh already starting to feel scarcity. uh when I lived in a time of abundance prior to that. I think all of us, you, me, everyone who's alive right now is on that cusp of a time of abundance shifting to a time of scarcity. Um, a lot of us still live in a time of abundance, but it's shifting. And I think all of us can feel that. I think that's why so many people are so pissed off all the time. I think that's why far-right movements they they they get a lot of support because people are pissed. They they feel they feel the shift happening from abundance to scarcity.

[00:36:36]Everyone's feeling it. Well, maybe not consciously, but subconsciously for some people, and it's driving them crazy.

[00:36:44]They lash out. They don't even know why.

[00:36:47]I think we all are feeling that.

[00:36:51]Um, I'm just trying to find my way like uh what do I what's my life, you know, look like? What are what are the choices I'm going to make? Like what what do I want to spend the rest of my life doing?

[00:37:06]Uh, do I just like try to have as much fun as possible? What is fun now?

[00:37:16]Is fun burning more fossil fuels?

[00:37:19]is fun. What is fun? It's fun traveling by burning more fossil fuels in airplanes and eating eating eating food at of different cultures and meeting people. I mean, that is kind of fun.

[00:37:34]Well, what is fun?

[00:37:37]Why do I need to have fun?

[00:37:41]Will we even have airplanes, jet fuel?

[00:37:43]is jet fuel, diesel, gasoline. All the stocks are depleting rapidly with this war that's going on.

[00:37:52]Our strategic petroleum reserve is is hitting the uh secretary of defense threshold of you don't draw anymore unless you got congressional approval.

[00:38:06]Well, it's supposed to be that way, but with the government that we have now, they'll probably just keep drawing it down until the caverns, the salt caverns where the the oil is stored right now, just collapse in on themselves because that's the moral hazard. The moral hazard. You don't want to draw down the strategic petroleum reserve below a certain level, about 150 million barrels, because if you do, you risk the collapse of the caverns. But with the government we have, they don't care.

[00:38:36]They don't care. They just want to maintain power.

[00:38:40]They will do whatever it takes.

[00:38:46]Oh, that was a moral hazard. Democracy.

[00:38:50]The moral hazard of democracy.

[00:38:52]Tolerance. The moral hazard of tolerance. If you're too tolerant, you tolerate the intolerant. You tolerate the racist, the fascist. the the the psychopaths.

[00:39:05]If you're too tolerant, if you're too democratic, well, I don't even know if that's the right word, but if you're too tolerant, a tolerant society allows its own destruction by the intolerant. You allow psychopaths, you allow fascists, you allow just people hellbent on a collective murder suicide into power and they will do whatever it takes to stay in power.

[00:39:41]They'll even go on TV. This this was last week. president of the United States went on TV and said, "Hey, the electoral systems are all they're all infiltrated. They're not working.

[00:39:51]They're they they they've been used they've been used to um cheat."

[00:40:00]And I'm like, "Huh?" [laughter] You know, anyone with like a few brain cells that are connected to each other will realize, okay, if that's true, if it's true that our voting machines and electoral systems have been compromised and they've been used to cheat, then that means that whoever is in power right now is il illegitimate.

[00:40:26]Illegitimate. They got there by cheating. Well, who's in power right now? the guy who's freaking saying it on TV, all his cronies in Congress, Senate, in the House, if the electoral systems are compromised like he's saying, he's also saying he is an illegitimate president.

[00:40:59]If it's true, then we got to just hold we just got to hold immediate special elections for everyone right now that is verified by people handc counted.

[00:41:17]If what he's saying is true, we we we have to we have to stop everything right now and redo the whole system.

[00:41:28]Yeah. But like yeah, we I think we fail the moral hazard of a tolerant society. We allow the intolerant to become powerful. We allow the people that hate others and we'll destroy them. We'll murder them, instill fear, divide. We allowed them to come to power. We allowed the wealthy to create a system that that keeps them wealthy and and lets them hoover up, vacuum up the wealth of everybody else and put it in their pocket.

[00:42:12]the tax cuts, the pump and dump of of of the financial markets, the insider trading, the tax havens, the Citizens United allowing corporate money into politics.

[00:42:37]You have to have millions and millions of dollars to run for office.

[00:42:42]Well, how do you get millions and millions of dollars? Well, you get you get that by corporations and wealthy people saying, "Hey, you're going to do you're going to do what I want so that I can stay wealthy and powerful."

[00:42:56]And then they say, "Okay, well, I get millions of dollars. Sure. I I'll say whatever. I'll say whatever you want me to." And then they get they get elected.

[00:43:05]We we fail the moral hazard of democracy, of a tolerant society. So, so it's like, you know what? What do I want to do? What do I want to do? Well, I I slept out here in a tent um last night and um it's very windy out here.

[00:43:27]I uh my wife and I put up uh like a sun shade canopy and um I forgot to bring the stakes to stake down um the legs of the canopy. I had the stakes for the tent and um I was like watching the the canopy and I was like ah this might blow over but it seems to be holding. So I was like well this probably be okay.

[00:43:56]Well, it blew over and it tore a small hole, a hole about 10 cm by like an L-shaped hole, like a 4x 10 cm hole in my in my tent.

[00:44:14]And I we've had that tent for we've had that tent for 11 years now.

[00:44:23]It's a good tent. Um, I was really sad about this hole.

[00:44:28]Well, this this happened and um I was like, "Okay, well, you know, I I I think I got to I got to patch I think I can patch this up. I can patch this." Oh, well, the canopy got totally busted.

[00:44:39]Like a metal it flew. The wind flew it against some rocks and one of the metal support beams snapped in half and um it's gone. Like I I looked at him like, "Can I repair this?" And like I just I can't repair that snapped metal piece.

[00:44:58]There just my battery ran out so I had to change it. I was talking about how the canopy fell over. It blew over, hit some rocks, a metal support bar snapped in half, and I looked at it and I was like, "No, there's no way I can repair this."

[00:45:12]Unfortunately, I'd have to like weld stuff. I don't know how to weld stuff, and I don't have the welding equipment.

[00:45:19]Uh, but the tent just had a hole in it and it was about 10 centimeters by 4 cm in an L-shape. It ripped the fabric and it's sad about it because we've used that tent for 11 years and I'm thinking gosh, you know, like I I don't think I can just buy a replacement rain rain guard cuz that's what tore I think I'd have to buy a whole new tent which are like hundreds of dollars these days. probably $300 or something. And I'm like, that's really expensive. Um, and and I was like, I think I can repair it perhaps.

[00:45:58]Um, and I was like, I'll do it when I go home. But at night time, I was laying there and I was sleeping and then it was really windy. You know, the the canopy blew over. Well, the wind was blowing against the tent and I I I could hear this like And I was like, "What is that noise?" It was waking me up. Um and I was like, "I've never heard this noise in this tent before." Um and it just happened throughout the night.

[00:46:30]And then we stop and go. [laughter] And then uh I woke up this morning and then I I I went outside and that 4x 10 cm rip became 4x 20 cm.

[00:46:45]That sound was the fabric ripping overnight.

[00:46:52]It made a huge gaping hole now in this rain cover because there's tension and the wind was blowing on it and just tearing it more.

[00:47:04]So, um I woke up before my wife did and um Dewey woke up with me and actually no, she was still asleep and I I I I went outside and I I walked out here and I looked at the waves and then I I went back and I was like, I think I have a sewing kit in my truck.

[00:47:29]So, I I like rummaged through I have a toolbox in my truck. Um, and I was like rumaging through the tool box. I'm like, I think I have a sewing kit in here somewhere. And I did. It's just a little It's just a little um piece of paper with different colored thread wrapped around it and a single needle and and some scissors, like a small scissors. And I I was like, I'm so happy I have this sewing kit. I don't even remember where it came from.

[00:48:04]And I I I I put down a little pad next to the tent.

[00:48:09]My wife uh was still sleeping, but Doobie woke up and she came and sat next to me and um I I had the the thread, the different colors of thread and was looking at the tent the g the tent cover color and it just so happened that tent cover is gray and I had a perfectly matched color of thread gray amongst the like seven different choices of colors that that were wrapped around this piece of paper. Um, and uh, you know, I used to be a surgeon. Um, I haven't sewn human tissue back together for 3 years, 3 years now.

[00:48:56]Um, but I still know how to sew. So, I just sat down and next to this ripped tent while my wife is still sleeping inside and my dog's sitting next to me.

[00:49:08]Um, and I just started sewing, putting the needle through the tent fabric, tying it, and doing like a baseball stitch all the way up.

[00:49:23]Very, not like a baseball stitch, much finer than that. Just going couple millimeters, thread the needle through. Couple more mil millimeters. Needle through. Tighten the thread.

[00:49:43]It It took a while. It took like took like I don't know maybe like 30 minutes or 40 minutes. It was a long gash and and I I wanted to make it hold well. So, I was being very careful with my needle placement and um and and uh the spacing between the sutures.

[00:50:06]I call them sutures. Uh the sewing um and I repaired it. It looks pretty pretty cool. It looks the tent has more character now. It's like it's got a scar on it.

[00:50:24]Um, and I think it's going to hold just fine.

[00:50:29]I think time will tell.

[00:50:33]Um, and I didn't have I didn't have to buy a $200 tent or $300 tent or whatever they are now with inflation.

[00:50:45]You know, inflation is just the price is going up because we're running out of easily accessible fuel, fossil fuels.

[00:50:56]We're we're running low on ghost slaves.

[00:50:59]When we run low on ghost slaves, well, everything costs more to make cuz you got to have you can't make as much stuff. Inflation.

[00:51:08]Well, I don't want to spend money on buying a new tent. So, I repaired it. I spent time this morning repairing the tent with thread that I had. Curiously, the thread came from um a hotel that my wife and I stayed at.

[00:51:30]It was a really nice hotel that we stayed at like a decade ago, a long time ago, when we lived in a time of more abundance. when we all lived in a time of more abundance, but personally we lived in a time of more abundance. I was still practicing as a doctor. I had more money. We had more money to go places and stuff. And we stayed at this hotel and it was really nice. And then they left a little sewing kit with all the different threads colors that you could repair your your clothes if you wanted to. Um, and I I kept it. Um, and I I I remembered where I got it from while I was repairing this tent. I was like, "Oh my gosh, this sewing kit, like I couldn't remember why I had a sewing kit." I like, "This sewing kit came from that really nice hotel we stayed at."

[00:52:24]And I was telling my wife, I was like, "You remember that hotel? This is where this sewing kit came from." And she's like, "Why do you have a sewing kit?" I was like, "It comes from that hotel that we stayed at." And she's like, "Oh, yeah. I remember that." And then and I I said, you know, that place was so nice.

[00:52:39]It's even bringing smiles to my face many years later.

[00:52:47]It was like a time capsule, like a message in a bottle. Um, this sewing kit came from a time of a former time of abundance in my personal life, but also on a global level, a time of abundance.

[00:53:02]It was just with it's been with me for a long time.

[00:53:08]And then in a time of need, I was able to use it and I was able to repair something and not spend another $300 on on a new tent. This tent's it's going to work fine. That made me really happy.

[00:53:28]And I I think that's how I'm finding my way. Um that's how I'm finding my way this this time where I feel like we we've essentially got a big hole in our tent collectively.

[00:53:47]We've made choices.

[00:53:49]We've chosen we've chosen the moral hazard. We've chosen to really mess up big time. We've chosen, you know, the the choice of cake or death. And we've always chosen death, thinking it was the cake, but no, the cake was the other way.

[00:54:06]Cake or death. Death, please. That's a Eddie Isard skit. Cake or death.

[00:54:15]Um, we've chosen death instead of cake.

[00:54:20]We've got a big hole in our tent and it's ripping is becoming a bigger hole.

[00:54:27]is ripping while we sleep. In fact, it ruins our sleep because we can hear it ripping. We may not even know what that sound is, but we know that there's a sound and it's it wakes us up.

[00:54:40]Well, that sound is the hole in our tent getting bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger. Um, I'm trying to find ways to repair that hole in my life.

[00:54:56]I think collectively we can choose to just let that hole get bigger or find that sewing kit that we've kept for years from a time of prior abundance.

[00:55:10]Maybe maybe maybe we have that sewing kit somewhere and we just got to sit down and take the time to sew up that hole.

[00:55:20]Uh some of us may not have a sewing kit.

[00:55:23]Some of us may not know how to sew, but you know, that's that's that's the that's the amazing thing about being human is that we live in communities.

[00:55:32]Somebody's going to have some sewing kit. Somebody's going to know how to sew.

[00:55:38]Just ask your neighbor.

[00:55:42]You got to know your neighbor.

[00:55:45]You got to trust your neighbor.

[00:55:47]That's a big ass these days.

[00:55:52]Yeah. [sighs] I mean, that's part of the hole in our tent is ripping. There's a big hole in the fabric of our society, our social fabric.

[00:56:02]Yeah. [sighs] Uh that that's that's how I've been trying to find my way, at least right now, is I'm thinking about repairing the hole in the tent if I can.

[00:56:23]Not not to like save my life or save someone else's life, just because just I just want to repair the hole. I know that if I leave it, it's just going to keep ripping through the day and the night. I'm going to hear it. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to have a giant giant hole where now the tent's useless.

[00:56:47]I have to repair it now.

[00:56:50]So, that's what I'm going to do.

[00:56:55]Those those are my ideas so far on moral hazards and living in this time, which is it's it's a hard time. My my wife asked me the other day, actually yesterday, when we're driving up, and she's like, "Hey, how how you doing?"

[00:57:12]I'm like, "Oh, man. That's that's a I'm okay.

[00:57:19]You know, it's like how how do you answer that question? And I'm like, okay, I I can I can tell you in more detail, [laughter] but how how are we doing? Gosh, you know, there's just so much stuff. Life is so full of like so many layers.

[00:57:42]I guess I am doing okay, though. I mean, that that's the truth. I'm alive. I have health. I I I'm with my my dog and my wife. We're camping.

[00:57:54]Um my tent doesn't have a hole in it right now.

[00:57:58]My canopy is busted. That that sucks, but that's okay.

[00:58:06]I'll be all right. We'll be all right.

[00:58:11]Uh, I'll have Dubie say hi. Hey girl, why don't you say hi and we can go back.

[00:58:23]She's been uh running around the beach this morning and digging.

[00:58:29]She found a dead pelican. Tried to keep her away from the dead pelican. There's a lot of interesting creatures on the beach. There's a lot of sand dollars, both alive and and and dead. But the live ones are crawling. There's a lot of uh jellyfish, too. And pipers, I think, the birds and seagulls and muscles or clams. Yeah. Do you have anything you want to say to the viewers of our channel?

[00:59:08]You look like you're ready for a nap.

[00:59:18]Bye.