Parasocial Paranoia w/ Deflection

Added: 2026-05-31

[00:00:00]Mhm.

[00:00:01]Good afternoon to the world.

[00:00:07]Wherever you are.

[00:00:11]I just came I mean listen.

[00:00:15]I've been in my own world lately.

[00:00:18]I'm having a good time.

[00:00:21]Well, of course I saw Ngeo live earlier.

[00:00:26]Uh and I I was caught up to what she was uh live about.

[00:00:32]And my thing is like I'm all this [ __ ] all this [ __ ] is [ __ ] It's stupid. It's nonsense.

[00:00:42]And because It's like people really don't know how to conduct themselves like in this in in spaces where Hey Shayna Payne.

[00:00:59]Good afternoon.

[00:01:01]People don't know how to really conduct themselves like when it comes to being amicable and being realistic.

[00:01:11]Especially online like all of us are online.

[00:01:15]Most of us don't know this know know we don't know each other for real at all. Like we just share a space on the internet.

[00:01:25]Yeah, [ __ ] that's all.

[00:01:27]Hey Mel. Hey Mel. What's up Mel?

[00:01:30]I meant to tell you thank you yesterday Mel but um tagging me in interviews. I was so busy but thank you.

[00:01:37]Thank you very much.

[00:01:39]I got to catch up to that too.

[00:01:41]I was halfway through one of them but I've been very busy.

[00:01:45]Anyway.

[00:01:47]But I wish if people just going go their way, people go their way. It's as simple as that.

[00:01:55]It's no I go my way and then I see somebody over there or somebody sent me something.

[00:02:04]Oh, because somebody said my name on another chat. Like I mean, who the [ __ ] is Who the [ __ ] is anybody to say who Who Who can say what out their mouth?

[00:02:14]Like None of us can tell nobody what to say out their mouth.

[00:02:18]We can't You can't Ain't nobody over here dictating what nobody talk about out their mouth.

[00:02:23]So, it's just like this [ __ ] is is is getting corny and drawn out for no reason. Like Like people say everybody name every day.

[00:02:34]So, it's like it is what it is. And then it it it gets real corny now when you drag other people into it. When you start saying, "Oh, why you don't got this person for this?" And "Why this person with that with" If your issue is with that person, why are you constantly trying to throw other people into y'all mess?

[00:02:53]And that's the same thing that Rose did.

[00:02:56]And and we got on her about that. Like Nah, stick to the person Stick to the people you have a smoke like having back and forth with or whatever. Why you Why you throwing somebody else in it? They ain't got nothing to do with it. So, when it comes around to this, why Why that don't apply? Like Why are these other people being thrown into it? That [ __ ] is corny. Like And it's all And it's And it's And it's just so weird to me, y'all. It's so weird because as I sit back and think about it, it's like this [ __ ] is so it's so weird. Like [ __ ] really like This is like what they call parasocial relationships where we could be cool and cordial. I guess people don't understand cordial being cordial and amicable with each other.

[00:03:43]And and and and being agreeable in a space and sharing a space together. And it don't have to be no deeper than that.

[00:03:50]It don't have to be no intimate with or that's my friend. Oh, I love her or or this or that. Man, I don't even know how the [ __ ] you look. I never met you in person. We don't know each other for real.

[00:04:04]So, what the [ __ ] what the [ __ ] does what a what other people got going on with that person got to do with you?

[00:04:13]Time to throw other other people under the bus up because yeah, they did this to such and such. So, if you're cool with that person too, why you sitting with that person? It's like, why you if that person that person is a grown ass woman, she could speak for herself if she had a problem with somebody.

[00:04:30]If she had a problem with somebody, she know how to reach them and speak for herself.

[00:04:35]She more street smart than you.

[00:04:39]She she more street more she she way more street smart than you.

[00:04:44]Got way more social skills than you. So, why why are people throwing her under the bus talking about oh, you don't you care about her. No, that's your feelings, bro. You stick to your feelings.

[00:04:54]And stop trying to throw everybody else in it.

[00:04:58]Stop trying to throw everybody else in it. That [ __ ] is corny. Like I said, all of this [ __ ] is from a little girl mentality. Like just like school girl [ __ ] It's like school girl [ __ ] It is. Oh, because I'm I'm not friends with them no more, you can't be friends with my friends that I'm friends with.

[00:05:15]Oh, why you still friends with her? You know, it's like some little It's like it's sounding some little ass girl [ __ ] It continues to sound like little girl [ __ ] Like, do [ __ ] really are you here is this an adult?

[00:05:29]Is Is there some type of social aggression going ON HERE?

[00:05:34]WHAT IS What is What is the obsession with with worrying about who other people deal with if they're not bringing no problem to you?

[00:05:45]I'm sure Golden is the same type of way when she know bloods and Crips, right?

[00:05:50]A lot of y'all don't get that mentality because y'all not y'all never been outside for real.

[00:05:55]People know how to conduct they selves.

[00:05:58]You don't have to You don't have to throw somebody under the bus just cuz you cool with them you don't like somebody else.

[00:06:03]That [ __ ] is corny, bro. That [ __ ] is whack. And I show you don't really have no leg to stand on.

[00:06:10]Because [ __ ] want to be emotional about [ __ ] they never met in real life.

[00:06:16]You never None of us know each other.

[00:06:17]How How the [ __ ] How the [ __ ] I'm claiming somebody my friend I never met?

[00:06:22]Yeah, we cool online. Yeah, that's it.

[00:06:24]We amicable with each other online.

[00:06:29]Who's to say when you meet up the vibe is It's just like It's just like trying to date online.

[00:06:34]If I'm talking to somebody online, I'm not claiming that [ __ ] as my boyfriend.

[00:06:38]I've never met them [ __ ] How the [ __ ] I'mma claim somebody as my friend that I never met for real?

[00:06:45]And I'm just speaking for me. I don't claim friends.

[00:06:49]I know how to be cordial with people without having attachments. Or It's It There's no intimacy There's no intimate bond there for me to be know how to be cordial with somebody and cool with somebody.

[00:07:02]That's all it don't have to be nothing more than that. It don't have to be deeper than that.

[00:07:07]It just don't. I don't understand it. I don't understand why I got to be deeper than It's like It's like when you are just with [ __ ] right? And just cuz you cool with a guy, he think you like him now. Like [ __ ] no. I'm just being kind. You don't know how to be kind and cordial with people. Why you think I like you, [ __ ] What the [ __ ] I don't LIKE YOU.

[00:07:28]THAT'S THAT'S THAT'S THAT'S the vibe I'm getting. Like just cuz a [ __ ] is cool and she in the space again and now we is friends and and now we should all We should all move the same and think the same.

[00:07:40]Kind of weird [ __ ] is that, [ __ ] Like I'm It's like it's it's it's it's it's so confusing to me cuz I'm like motherf- You could tell [ __ ] ain't never been through nothing in real life, for real, like if this is if this is what they what they latching to emotionally and and and and and just a and then it's so important to them. You understand? Like if this [ __ ] is so important to you on YouTube, I can It's obvious you you never really been through nothing in life, like for real for real.

[00:08:14]Most likely had a sheltered life.

[00:08:18]Ain't never really been through nothing.

[00:08:20]Cuz this [ __ ] is some little Is this some 6-year-old girl [ __ ] With the tantrums that are in China And you got to be for somebody that you got a disagreement with somebody and that was Oh, but why didn't you say this about Oh, you doing everybody else today. No, [ __ ] what it's about you. The The problem is you don't Why are you worried about what everybody else got going on somebody else? Everybody else grown.

[00:08:45]They not speaking for themself.

[00:08:48]And I'm And I'm going to adjust this one thing last time, too.

[00:08:52]This Listen, I hate a [ __ ] [ __ ] though, for real.

[00:08:58]Like I keep saying there was no meeting addressing [ __ ] that like to be abused.

[00:09:07]And I said that a thousand times.

[00:09:13]There was no meeting about [ __ ] that like to be abused.

[00:09:18]And I stand ON THAT.

[00:09:22]YOU COULD TWIST IT OR WHATEVER YOU WANT, but I know what I said. There was no meeting about [ __ ] that like to be abused. I said that over and over again.

[00:09:32]You could twist it or whatever trashy people how you feel. I I give a [ __ ] I ain't say nothing about trashy people. I ain't say nothing about your kids. None of that. I said [ __ ] who like to be abused. That's what the [ __ ] I SAID.

[00:09:47]THAT'S WHAT THE [ __ ] I SAID.

[00:09:50]SO, LET'S LET'S SAY THAT REAL QUICK.

[00:09:53]Some [ __ ] want to act dumb like they want to twist some [ __ ] on me.

[00:09:57][ __ ] it's just not I'm not I'm not stupid. You can't you can't gaslight me and twist me with deflection tactics and all that dumb [ __ ] [ __ ] be doing.

[00:10:08]You especially not with a [ __ ] who like to sit on panels with [ __ ] [ __ ] and slow [ __ ] and all that and entertain them.

[00:10:17]So, no. It don't work with me. I said show me where since she claimed she addressed that, but now it was oh, I just addressed the trashy people.

[00:10:29]I I don't care about none of that. I don't care I don't give a [ __ ] who you feel about trash, whatever, whatever. I don't I don't got nothing to do with me.

[00:10:38]I I I don't take this [ __ ] on YouTube that serious, where I'm bothered by anyone. No one Nobody can bother my spirit on here.

[00:10:45]Nobody can't upset me like and get me out of my body on here. You crazy?

[00:10:55]It's you Oh, hi MGO. Yeah, so it's just it's just it's just childish not cuz like why is it still going and why you throwing other people in it?

[00:11:06]Why you trying to throw other people into the mess for what? When people address you for what you said.

[00:11:15]And and this whole oh, cuz I did this in my mind and I've always said this and this and that.

[00:11:21]First of all, I never asked to be nobody mind. Second of all could have been took in my mind in the first and type of way.

[00:11:29]If you feel I don't I I care about no [ __ ] monster.

[00:11:33]And and she offended about her little fantasy world. That's her fantasy world.

[00:11:38]Nobody had to partake in that. I wasn't up there acting like I'm a I'm security guard of the castle and I'm a I'm I'm a knight in shining armor. I ain't I ain't carrying none of those roles.

[00:11:49]And then emojis and emojis, that's what I'm saying. [ __ ] take it too far. You You be cordial and amicable with people.

[00:11:55]Just because you throw a little crown or something, you Now Now all of a sudden I'm I'm in a fantasy castle because I threw an emoji out.

[00:12:03]Because I threw an emoji out, now I feel like I'm I'm in I'm in some castle world or something.

[00:12:10]Like come on now. Is it that deep? It's not that deep.

[00:12:14]No, it It's not another tension, MGO.

[00:12:16]It's just [ __ ] is out of It's the same old [ __ ] [ __ ] that don't got nothing to do with nothing. Like trying to put 20 on 10 where it don't go.

[00:12:27]Trying to put 20 on 10 where it don't go. Like, all right, just move along.

[00:12:32]And and I feel like whatever you did just an excuse to keep on going. Oh, cuz MGO said my name in the in another sector. So what? Who the [ __ ] Who you going to stop from saying your name in any chat? That's crazy.

[00:12:46]Everybody say whatever they want anywhere they go. That's the thing. You cannot tell people what the [ __ ] to do.

[00:12:55]Especially since you claim you you don't care no more. You got ready to remove people from your circle, whatever whatever. Why do you care what they saying some somewhere else?

[00:13:06]There's plenty of times like [ __ ] say my name on over. I just be looking like, why they saying my name?

[00:13:13]It's just It's just It's It's just entertainment. I never took it that hard. Like, oh my god, they just said my name and I don't like it.

[00:13:20]The [ __ ] [laughter] Like, what's going on here? What This This [ __ ] is getting weirder and weirder. like, it's getting too weird, like you would think you you would just just to make you think you feel like um you broke up with someone. It's like a like you think you would thought you broke up with somebody where this [ __ ] happened, like, what the [ __ ] Who the [ __ ] I broke up with? This [ __ ] ain't that intimate. It ain't that deep.

[00:13:50]Yeah, >> [laughter] >> hey brown eyes. Wait, she did the same thing with me and wrote the album full.

[00:13:55]She wrote a post about you and Bobby?

[00:13:59]Damn, I must have missed that.

[00:14:02]I would not lie, I didn't I didn't When she threw that tantrum on you, too, I kind of I kind of blacked out. I kind of blanked out of my mind, too, cuz that [ __ ] was crazy to me how she blacked out on you, so when she threw that tantrum, I kind of just I removed myself.

[00:14:17]I did. When she went I think when she blocked you in the chat, I had removed myself, so I I probably I probably I most likely cuz I was just like, yeah, I'm good.

[00:14:33]Yeah, brown eyes. Yeah, you know who I'm talking about.

[00:14:37]Yeah. Now all of a sudden because [ __ ] talking about her fictional um castle and stuff, now everybody was a participant. [ __ ] it's your castle.

[00:14:48]You Nobody was taking no They ain't taking on no fantasy roles or titles or none of that.

[00:15:02]Right after you passed away because I said she dodged a bullet.

[00:15:06]Oh, I think I Wait.

[00:15:10]I'm trying to think if I remember.

[00:15:12]You was in Kim chat.

[00:15:15]Was that Was that where you talking on Freaky? I can't remember I remember bits, but it's not coming back to mind.

[00:15:22]But trying to remember what she said right after he passed away.

[00:15:26]I said I said she dodged a bullet and Ken Chat during an interview.

[00:15:34]Oh, you said that um Alex dodged the bullet?

[00:15:39]Yeah, like this [ __ ] like like damn.

[00:15:45]It It's just crazy like like who? It's just It's just crazy to me cuz it's like you you would feel like you would think like this is like somebody that that was like a deeper a deep connection you breaking up from.

[00:16:00]Like [ __ ] this is YouTube and it's still on YouTube [ __ ] None of this [ __ ] is real, like she bringing up her kids. Those your kids.

[00:16:11]If you if you felt that way, you should have been enforced that a long time ago.

[00:16:16]Don't And like I said, that's a crutch.

[00:16:19]She That is just a crutch cuz she she was mad about groceries. That's it.

[00:16:23]That's all.

[00:16:25]Oh, the Castle lady dodged a bullet.

[00:16:28]Well, yeah, in a way she dodged a bullet.

[00:16:36]She still got hit Well, she still got grazed though.

[00:16:39]Entertaining a [ __ ] [ __ ] And that's what I mean, like [ __ ] you worry about everybody your doing, but you entertain a whole [ __ ] [ __ ] in real life.

[00:16:52]IN REAL LIFE.

[00:16:55]THIS [ __ ] IS PRETTY [ __ ] You ain't got to see him. You only got to do is talk to him and you see the way he type, he's [ __ ] How the [ __ ] can you sit on this How you can you sit on the phone with that?

[00:17:10]I know you were joking. Um I know you were joking, Mel.

[00:17:14]But yeah, so it's just like it's just it's just it's just like mind-boggling to me like is it is just the [ __ ] that we talking about with um you know, parasocial relationships and [ __ ] like because it is not that deep. Like [ __ ] all the time don't know how to share the space and be cool with each other. I don't even get You know what's crazy? Cuz I never been the type to even make friends at my job. I don't make friends and I don't date nobody anywhere I work. I don't They don't never get my social media. They would never be in my personal life. Nobody I work with. Nobody I went to school and nothing.

[00:17:53]And it's And I have And those are people I met in real life. So on YouTube, why would I Why just cuz I'm cool, be cool, and share the space together? Why is it all of a sudden so deep for no reason?

[00:18:05]Why is it so deep? Like Why I don't understand that. Why is it so deep? We all share space. We all got our own opinions, own walks of life, own backgrounds, whatever.

[00:18:16]But no, because you're more cooler in a space with somebody else.

[00:18:22]I don't know. Is it supposed We supposed to be friends for real? I don't even know how the [ __ ] you look. I can't I I can't I can't go to your house and open your fridge.

[00:18:32]What the [ __ ] You can't You don't know You can't come to my house and open my fridge. It ain't How are we friends?

[00:18:42]HOW ARE WE FRIENDS?

[00:18:46]OUR KIDS NEVER PLAY WITH each other. We never went on trips together with our kids. How are we friends for real? Like Or I can say yeah, we was cool, but friends like this [ __ ] is taking it a little too far. And And I think that's the problem. [ __ ] can't separate the two.

[00:19:03]And And now it's become an attachment where it don't need to be no [ __ ] attachment. Cuz [ __ ] I don't know you.

[00:19:10]I don't know you to be upset about who you talk to and who you don't talk to. Just like I don't want nobody to care about who If I If who I talk to ain't compromising you or anything you got going on, what the [ __ ] you worried about it for? Cuz I damn sure don't give a [ __ ] who you talk to. I I don't.

[00:19:28]When she was talking to the slow [ __ ] did I ever go at her? No. I just I would just remove myself when I would have I didn't want to hear him talk.

[00:19:37]I didn't I didn't tell her You see with that stupid slow [ __ ] Where you know going in her mouth?

[00:19:44]That's her business.

[00:19:46]She a grown adult. That's her to deal with. Why would I tell HER THAT?

[00:19:52]SHE THAT'S HER CHOICE.

[00:19:54]That [ __ ] ain't got nothing to do with me. It don't impact nothing I got going on.

[00:19:59]Why the [ __ ] would I be invested in into who she talking or ain't dealing with?

[00:20:04]You understand? So, like, come on now.

[00:20:06]Like, be for real. Like, it's it's it's not [ __ ] out there everybody Everybody in your [ __ ] Everybody Everybody can speak for themselves and handle theirself accordingly.

[00:20:20]Everybody Everybody out this [ __ ] grown as [ __ ] All of That's what I'm saying. All this group up and tallying your [ __ ] now.

[00:20:32]No. Group up for what? To to for what?

[00:20:35]Like, they click for what? I don't How How can I work with a whole bunch of a group of strangers, bro?

[00:20:43]Every We all came to the sector for a reason.

[00:20:48]None of that [ __ ] ain't got nothing to do with what was going on what we came in the sector for. None of that [ __ ] So, if I want to donate to somebody, I can donate whoever the [ __ ] I want to.

[00:21:01]It don't mean I'm sitting up with them and being buddy-buddy. It's my [ __ ] money.

[00:21:06]How the [ __ ] you going to be mad over what I do with my [ __ ] money? What I don't give a [ __ ] if I gave it to Satan.

[00:21:11]Who the [ __ ] is you to worry about who I spend my money on?

[00:21:15]I don't worry about what she do with nobody else do with their [ __ ] money.

[00:21:25]And and that's why I act like she all perfect either. Like I said, if you if you was so stand on it, she she making it about so her kids I like I said, that's a crutch.

[00:21:38]Because I don't unless I miss something, what happened recently with somebody did something to her child? I don't know.

[00:21:44]And that still ain't got to [ __ ] to do with me.

[00:21:47]But at the end of the day, nothing happened for that for that uh mental breakdown.

[00:21:58]I don't know Well, I know part of it.

[00:21:59]Part of it because she mad at Will.

[00:22:02]And she mad she mad [ __ ] in little chat. She want us to hate Will cuz she hate Will.

[00:22:10]And and for some you for a [ __ ] you don't like people that judge your kids.

[00:22:15]You can't This what I'm saying like when you stand on something you got to stand on it all the time because you can't come in with like see even Ken agree with me. Ken agree with me about Will. I don't give a [ __ ] what Ken feel about Will. What the [ __ ] that got to do with me?

[00:22:30]Like I'm going to take what Ken feel about Will serious. What the What the [ __ ] that got to do with me?

[00:22:36]BUT YOU DON'T LIKE HIM, RIGHT? He's one of the trashy people you don't like or people that sit with him, you don't like that, right? But you want to use his opinion of Will for me to to um consider?

[00:22:51]Make that make sense.

[00:22:54]Make that make sense.

[00:22:58]You can't You cannot like the [ __ ] and then and then think you could use him to make a point with. Some [ __ ] agree with. It don't That's what don't make sense.

[00:23:11]And then and then that's what LGO.

[00:23:16]Well, Mel, she What the Well, at first she's upset with Will because she think Will's responsible.

[00:23:27]I guess because she felt like she put herself in Western issues cuz she went through the same [ __ ] of her going on the internet with the bomb. And basically Western and Will going through it. So now Will is a bomb, Will is this, and Will is that, just like the other one.

[00:23:43]And when she went his chat one day, when she went in on Will's chat one day, I don't know how they they started going back and forth with signs. And he said And somebody There was a whole bunch of trolls in the chat or whatever. I don't even know. I Well, they was trolls, but I don't know who sent them. They said they had a pic of her.

[00:24:05]And they sent it to him. And then he start talking about her the pic that he got.

[00:24:13]So now now that's why she was she was pissed off. So when he went live after that she was mad cuz she said, "Oh yeah, don't defend me this and this and that.

[00:24:22]He talking about me." I'm like, "Nigga, he talking about a picture. How the [ __ ] I'm going to defend some First of all, I don't know how you look. And it's a picture. It's just a picture. What the [ __ ] I look like arguing with a [ __ ] about talking about your picture?"

[00:24:38]Like, [ __ ] what? I I Like I said, I don't argue about [ __ ] that talk about me like that. What the [ __ ] I'm going to argue about another [ __ ] about a next next [ __ ] a next [ __ ] picture?

[00:24:49]What the [ __ ] does that look like?

[00:24:53]And then after that, she really got hit cuz one day I'm going to say well I'm going to just include myself. I was in a wheelchair and I guess when he was live that day she I don't know if she was got there late so she texting and texting.

[00:25:08]I guess she ain't get a response fast enough cuz she like oh what is he talking about me? What is he talking about me?

[00:25:14]And like it had nothing to do with her and I guess she didn't respond fast enough. I mean we ain't respond fast enough so she like oh don't worry I'll ask somebody else cuz I like Will anyway.

[00:25:28]Like what? We like Will anyway?

[00:25:33]We like Will anyway? Like So I SAID FINE THEN GO ASK SOMEBODY else then. The [ __ ] Don't don't Y'all supposed to run I'm listening to Will live we here before you you trying to make it about you and I'll be talking and I always tell her about that like why you always got to turn something about you? It ain't about you.

[00:25:55]IT AIN'T ABOUT YOU WE LISTENING to Will live she thinking that what the hell it got to do with her? She asking oh what is he talking about me? What is he talking about me? Oh because she didn't get a response fast enough. Oh cuz y'all like him anyway never mind I'm ask somebody else. Well then go [ __ ] ask somebody else then.

[00:26:11]The [ __ ] I care if he talking about you for [ __ ] You ain't the topic the [ __ ] >> She had the nerve to question my mother's girls because of who I'm Virtue Soul is.

[00:26:27]>> Oh that was what you were saying about the mothering thing because who I sit with?

[00:26:33]Ver- That's what I'm saying that [ __ ] weird bro this [ __ ] Yo How you going to question somebody's mother because of what goes on on a [ __ ] internet with a whole bunch of people you will possibly never meet or see in your life most likely. What the [ __ ] Even if the people come around acting like angels, we don't know them for [ __ ] for real.

[00:27:03]I have never based my kids by kicking their father out and moving in an abusive loser from the internet.

[00:27:09]Hey, well, I feel you on that.

[00:27:14]Ah, that's one I would never do either.

[00:27:18]Especially not that slow, [ __ ] You crazy. Yeah, how he talk. You see how he look. That's crazy.

[00:27:28]I believe where was already upset and the comments came off guard.

[00:27:34]You talking about what What you talking about, Ally?

[00:27:37]When um about the picture when he got the picture Right. Exactly, Mel. I don't listen to somebody. I don't agree with that. I don't have to agree with them or like them personally. It's not personal.

[00:27:55]The [ __ ] is going on here? Is this the [ __ ] Twilight Zone?

[00:28:02]Even if agree with the [ __ ] that they do or believe in, and we can still be cool.

[00:28:10]But but for some reason on YouTube, it just got to be some beef.