i’m in a parasocial relationship with jacksfilms

Added: 2026-05-27

[00:00:00]I know I came off strong with the title of this video.

[00:00:04]So, I'd like to say I recently paid for a super chat. For the first time in my life, very recently, I paid $5 on a Jack Films stream.

[00:00:22]And I felt like a loser.

[00:00:25]And that's what this video is about.

[00:00:29]I've never done that before. And I also didn't think I'd be the kind of person to be paying for a super chat or an equivalent of a super chat. And I've always kind of thought like, who are these losers paying for a super chat?

[00:00:54]Like who are they? What are their occupations?

[00:00:59]Why do they have so much free time? What are they doing? They're probably a loser.

[00:01:06]And I say loser with love because I would consider myself a loser. A lot of my heroes are losers.

[00:01:17]I think losers are cool to an extent.

[00:01:22]Specific kinds of losers.

[00:01:24]um much like Jack's films.

[00:01:28]But um yeah, I paid five bucks and I felt really cool because a lot of people were interacting with my specific comment. Not all the other super chats were getting comments on it. I got like five or six comments on it. So I felt very cool.

[00:01:50]And then Jack didn't even read my [ __ ] comment. He just responded to it. It was literally like a couple seconds. I did screen record it and I still have the link to the video.

[00:02:05]It's unlisted. He acknowledged it, but I was like, I [ __ ] paid five bucks for that. What the [ __ ] I mean, the moment I paid five bucks for it, I was already like, "What the [ __ ] did I do?" But I did feel this like sense of excitement and thrill.

[00:02:28]And I guess that's part of it. It's kind of like, you know, getting the spotlight on you for a couple of seconds, paying to be on the spotlight essentially.

[00:02:42]Um, and everybody wants attention, especially from their favorite YouTuber or Twitch streamer or whatever. So, I kind of get it, but it is still weird. Um, and you know what's weird?

[00:03:03]I would probably do it again, but I would pay less this time because he was reading comments that people left like super chats that weren't five bucks. So, now that I know that, I will probably pay a lot less.

[00:03:25]But, I don't know. I guess it's just so um the concept of it is so weird to me.

[00:03:38]Just having disposable income and wanting to spend it on a [ __ ] YouTuber or whatever is so weird to me. You know, there was someone that was like, "Hey, Jack, I've been watching your videos for, you know, over 10 years now. I thought I'd, you know, just give you a donation." And paid like maybe like a hundred bucks or something crazy.

[00:04:10]And I just cannot fathom doing something like that. And then also, this isn't me calling anyone out though, okay? I love you guys and I love Jack Films. You have no idea how much I love Jack Films and how obsessed I am. I have like an like an autistic fixation on Jack Films at the moment.

[00:04:32]But anyway, also being on the receiving end of it, I'm like that must be so weird too. It's like, you know, a little bit like kind of dance monkey kind of vibes, you know, but it is his job, so you got to do what you got to do, I guess.

[00:04:59]And would I do it? I don't know. I've been thinking about this stuff. Um the other thing is and I also again I say this with love but a lot of people most people are annoying and stupid right?

[00:05:19]So for an annoying and stupid person, which is most people, to pay money to you with the expectation that you'll acknowledge the stupid and annoying thing they said is stupid and annoying.

[00:05:40]But then again, they're paying you. So it's like but that feels like but that feels like kind of enable you know I don't really want to enable stupid and annoying people.

[00:05:58]So, if I were to stream, maybe I don't know. Not that I'm a streamer, and I don't really intend on being a streamer anytime soon, but I've been watching like Jack's films a lot lately. I haven't really been someone that watches like streamers before. This is like the first time in my life where I'm like consistently watching someone's stream.

[00:06:34]So, it's just been on my mind a lot. I do I watch it because like I said, I'm going through a Jack Films obsession lately, like fixation more so.

[00:06:52]Um, I've been a fan of his for a long time. I've been watching him for like, yeah, well over 10 years. Um, but he's been kind of like, uh, you know, I'll go through phases much like all my favorite long-term YouTubers.

[00:07:15]Um, am I going to edit this video? I don't know. We'll see. Maybe minimal editing. Um, but anyway, I go through phases with Jack Films and I haven't had a Jack Films phase in a minute.

[00:07:34]Like, I think my current obsession with Jack Films is the strongest it's been since I was like, I don't know, 13, 14, something like that.

[00:07:49]Um, perhaps even stronger now because at the time I was really obsessed with Tobascus as well. I know. So were you. Okay. Like everyone was obsessed with Tobascus.

[00:08:06]Remember that guy?

[00:08:08]I don't know. I don't even remember his name, but he had like he would stream with this guy.

[00:08:16]He's this cute little nerd with glasses.

[00:08:18]I was more into him honestly.

[00:08:21]Um, but I love Toasius. I had the biggest crush on him and look at him now. I watched a I think a real that he posted or something recently. I don't follow him, but it was shared with me uh from a confidential source.

[00:08:41]And in the video, he's just he's just going off. Tobas just going off about, you know, going off on the libs or whatever he does. And I don't know. He's just so crazy and unhinged. I don't even know what he's talking about.

[00:09:00]But anyway, sideburns crew. Sean Klitschner.

[00:09:06]Sean Klitzer is a [ __ ] he's a producer for Mr. Beast now. He's like a big deal kind of. Oh the [ __ ] Ew. Anyway, I'm obsessed with Jack's films and but I haven't watched him so much in a minute.

[00:09:34]like when he started doing all the when he started like JJ Jack films and stuff, I wasn't really watching like I would watch some of the like main channel Jack Films videos, but I wasn't really keeping up with his other channels.

[00:09:54]But lately, I've pretty much watched Yeah, I think I've watched all the Jax films videos.

[00:10:02]I've watched pretty much all the Jack is a Nerd videos from the last couple years and pretty much all the Jack Swims videos.

[00:10:16]I've seen a lot of Shut Up Dennis videos, but that channel's not that active anymore. But anyway, I'm I'm like Jack's films out to the point where YouTube has stopped recommending me his videos because it knows I've seen all of them.

[00:10:37]Yet, I still seek it out and I put it on and I'm not even like I just put it on while I'm doing something else. It's very comforting. And you know what I like about it and what I like about him is that he he's a good guy.

[00:10:55]I think I don't know. I don't know him.

[00:10:57]So I don't know. This is me projecting onto him to an extent. But my assessment of him and his community is that they just like to have fun and laugh. They're all about laughing and I'm a big fan of laughing.

[00:11:15]So, like that's cool.

[00:11:19]And honestly, not even him or his fans, they don't really even make me haha laugh out loud all the time.

[00:11:31]But I love that Jack laughs a lot and he has a very particular funny laugh and I love that. And it just makes me feel good watching someone laugh.

[00:11:46]I don't know why the [ __ ] I said it like that, but I don't know. It's just it's wholesome to witness a group of people just trying to make each other laugh. And I get a kick out of that. And it makes my heart feel good.

[00:12:06]And part of why I started watching Jack's film so much is because I am now like allergic to romcoms and like anything romance in media.

[00:12:21]I just have an aversion to I can't do it. I'm over it because romcoms I think used to be like my favorite genre of movies and just you know like anything. I freaking love romcoms and you know I just loved it. But recently I have been going through a phase of like watching new stuff and being more open to watching newer things like things that I haven't seen before. Up until recently, I'm I was very much like a rewatcher type person. And I still am like with Jack's films. But recently, I've just been like, "Yeah, I'll watch a new movie that I haven't seen before. I'll watch an old movie that I haven't seen before. I'll watch a sitcom that I haven't seen before. I'll watch this really serious series that I haven't seen before. I don't know. [ __ ] it. Let's go." Which is very weird for me. I've never really been like that. In order for me to watch something, I have to really like mentally prepare myself.

[00:13:33]I am watching a new thing, new territory.

[00:13:39]You were warned. You know, I have to have a conversation with myself in my brain. Um, but lately it hasn't felt um so daunting to start something new. Um, so I've just been watching new stuff and I was watching Sex in the City and I really enjoyed it. I watched season 1, really enjoyed it, but then like it was too damn triggering.

[00:14:14]And just anything romance related, I was like, "No, [ __ ] this. I'm over it. I don't want to hear anything about boys.

[00:14:25]I don't want to hear anything about girls. I don't want to hear anything about like anything that fails the Beck doll test.

[00:14:35]I'm not into I'm not into anymore or at the moment anyway. It turns me off immensely. I couldn't even watch Arrested Development.

[00:14:47]Okay. I watched like I don't know, you tell me. I stopped watching after that episode in season one where Michael starts having a crush on Job's girlfriend, but like it doesn't work out.

[00:15:08]That [ __ ] was too sad for me and I couldn't deal with it.

[00:15:13]So that's when I realized, oh, I think I'm allergic to romance and media now. I just can't do it. I'm over it. So around the same time, I randomly started watching Jackson's videos, and I was like, "Wow, this there's something weirdly comforting about this." Maybe because it reminds me of being a 13-year-old YouTube fan girl and just having the time of my life, always on Twitter talking to my fang girl friends.

[00:15:51]And that was my whole life. And I peaked. I like to think that I peaked at age 13.

[00:15:58]Um because I was just I knew even at that age. I decided at that age. I even made a Facebook post being like, "This is the best year of my life, and I don't think it's gonna get any better than this."

[00:16:12]And that's that. I just had so much fun.

[00:16:16]I was having so much fun. I had the best 13-year-old life any 13-year-old could have. That's what I thought. And I still think to this day, the internet was still a fun place. I think wasn't so scary. I made so many friends all over the world and I went to some shows that were very important to me and life changing.

[00:16:52]And around the same time, I was watching a lot of Tobascus and Jack's films. So, maybe I'm just trying to reconnect with 13-year-old me who's carefree and uh just watching YouTube and having a good time. But yeah, I can't I can't do romance anymore.

[00:17:15]You know what I [ __ ] watched? I was on like a 12-hour plane ride recently.

[00:17:22]Unplanned. I watched all of HBO's Chernobyl.

[00:17:27][ __ ] loved it. It was so scary and it had like nothing to do with romance and I was like, "Yes, this is exactly what I need." So, I can only watch like Chernobyl and Jack films now.

[00:17:42]I've been recommended Severance, but I lit like Okay, another thing I relate to with Jack Homes is that he is scared of jump scares. He hates jump scares and he hates spooky movies. I think he's interested in scary movies though. Um, I'm very interested in scary movies, but much like him, I just can't do jump scares. They are disturbing. I don't get any thrill out of jump scares. So, I have to like look up jump scare timestamps, blah blah blah. So now on top of having to look up before I watch a scary movie jump scare timestamps for sinners, now I have to look up is there romance in severance?

[00:18:32]Is there romance in blah blah the boys or whatever the [ __ ] Because I just can't I just can't do it right now. I just can't like My brain does enough gymnastics in that department. You know what I mean? So, I can't I just can't. It's also It's just boring. I find it so boring now.

[00:19:04]It's like triggering and boring at the same time cuz I've just seen it all, man.

[00:19:13]You don't know how obsessed with romcoms I am. I will I would like to make like a romcom video one of these days.

[00:19:22]Specifically, there's a very specific romcom that I must make a YouTube video about called Longot.

[00:19:32]Do you know this? Starring Seth Rogan and Charize Theon.

[00:19:42]It's really [ __ ] good. It's probably like close.

[00:19:50]It's probably like my second close to first like favorite romcom.

[00:19:59]My favorite romcom is Bridget Jones Diary. You just can't beat that one.

[00:20:06]Now I kind of watch Bridget Jones, too.

[00:20:09]No, but I can't even just Oh, yeah. And I've seen Bridget Jones so many times. So many times. So many times. There were there were periods in my life I would watch it every single night to fall asleep. Every single night. I was obsessed with it. Actually, that I also did that when I was like 13, like 12, 13.

[00:20:35]So kind of crazy. But yeah, even that movie I don't know if I can handle low key.

[00:20:45]You know, I have been wanting like a cool like silk scarf though for my head for the summer.

[00:20:56]So, I've been kind of on the hunt for that at thrift stores recently.

[00:21:02]But anyway, yeah, even a story that I know so well, I don't think I can handle. It's just too much. Give me Give me another Chernobyl. You know, I watched uh Lo and Behold almost. I'm almost done with it by uh Burner Herzog.

[00:21:27]Pretty good. made me feel stupid though because when the scientists are talking like I'm paying attention especially at the start of what they're saying but then as they continue my eyes my eyes start like kind of glazing over and I'm like wait what the [ __ ] are you saying?

[00:21:50]So, I felt a little like called out and stupid, but it was really interesting and very wellm made.

[00:21:59]But anyway, are you a loser if you pay for super chat? The answer is probably, but I get it now. I kind of get it now.

[00:22:13]And you know, good for you for supporting a creator that you appreciate. What a great way to do that. You know what?

[00:22:26]Actually, you're not a loser. Maybe you are, but you're also probably a really great person.

[00:22:34]And like, that's really great. I'm really happy for you.

[00:22:41]And if you watch Jack's films, you're probably a chill person.

[00:22:50]And I guess that's where I'm going to end this video.

[00:22:57]I didn't really talk about the loser stuff, did I? I just kind of rambled.

[00:23:02]But I feel like I like these ramble videos, so I want to ramble more.

[00:23:07]Do you like the setting? I'm in like my closet, but it's kind of cozy. Also, I'm very much inspired by like, you know, Trisha Pis car mukbangs and HR collection, like screaming in her car type videos.

[00:23:27]So, I think I'd like to do more of that.

[00:23:30]Um, maybe I'll do a video like of me like in the middle of Tokyo rambling like this. I don't know. We'll see.

[00:23:43]I would like to vlog again. I did vlog the other day, but all the audio was [ __ ] So, I was like, you know what?

[00:23:52]This is a sign. This is a sign. Don't make this video. And you know what? I felt really good about that.

[00:24:00]Which reminds me, I want to make a video about letting go.

[00:24:06]Let go. Let go and take care of yourself. Let go and take care of yourself like me with my face mask.

[00:24:15]Um, I don't really have anything else to say, so I think I'm going to end this video. Thanks for watching.

[00:24:24]And if you have any ideas of things I could potentially rant about, things you want me to rant about or ramble about or if you have a question.

[00:24:37]So ask me your questions and I will ignore them cuz I'm a jackass. A big fat freaking jackass.

[00:24:50]Okay.

[00:24:53]Um, I'll be playing Jack's Films Bingo whenever that's happening next.

[00:25:02]So, see you there, I guess. I don't know. I love Jack Films. This is just a Jack Films appreciation post. Okay. Thank you, Jack Films. And thank you for watching.

[00:25:15]I'll see you next week. Bye.