THIS SPEAKS TO MY SOUL!!!!!! Blind reaction to Inpatient (Ren x Chris Webby) - Neurodivergent

Added: 2026-05-26

[00:00:00][music] [music] What is up everyone and welcome to today's reaction video. And today's reaction is the very special monthly request of my incredible Patreon follower Jess aka Ferret Mom. Just thank you so so much as always for your continued support, for being a member of the herd and a member of the Patreon and just being such an incredible human being in general and such an amazing member of the Discord. It means the absolute world to me to have you in the community and to have had you support me for as long as you have. So, thank you so so much for that. And thank you for this month's request because I am so keen for this one. Every impatient song we've had so far, which is the collaboration between Ren and Chris Webbby, has been amazing. And the fact that this one is called Neuro Neurode Divergent, I'm so curious to see what it is. I myself am neurode divergent. So, I I am ready for a banger anthem. I am ready for anything that Ren and Chris are going to throw at us. I know this is going to be absolutely amazing. So, I cannot wait to hear what they are going to do with it and just have them blow my mind. I know that they are also releasing the next song of their uh impatient collaboration, I believe, either today or tomorrow. So, I'm glad I get a chance to check this one out before the next one drops so I can hopefully get to the next one before the one after that drops. They are dropping absolute fire continuously at the moment, so it's hard to keep up, but I'm glad I get a chance to check this one out. As always, please check out the original video linked in the description below. Give the original a like and a comment. Subscribe to both members of Impatient, both Ren and Chris Webbby. I don't believe that they have a collaborative channel yet, but subscribe to both of them separately. Watch this original video without all my pauses and interruptions because there's probably going to be a few of them. I like to talk. And we are going to get into this and see what it's all about. This is impatient Ren and Chris Webbby doing neurode divergent. Let's go. [music] >> [music] >> This is immediately This is how you start this film clip off. This is how you start this film clip off because as as someone who was diagnosed ADHD as an adult, literally 3 years ago, basically around the time I started this channel, I got my diagnosis and finally went medicated. And that's what's kind of allowed me to follow through on a task enough to keep this channel going. But the first thing that goes through your head once you're finally diagnosed is looking back on your schooling and going, "I could have accomplished so much more. I could have done so much more if I had just been diagnosed back then." The first few weeks, months of being diagnosed where suddenly you realize how much easier everything is now that your symptoms are being managed. It's a game changer. So yeah, I love the fact that we're starting off in a classroom because it's the main place in my life where I wish I could go back and change things because I feel like it's where it affected me the most.

[00:03:17][music] Stay calm, boy. [music] My thoughts are burning like I think I need to get away from this noise. [music] I hate the places that I came from.

[00:03:32]I'm burning message from the preacher [music] subliminal out there.

[00:03:43][music] >> Can I just say I'm still caught back on a line way back. I didn't want to pause immediately once we got started, but there was a line way back here that was like the second thing that was said. It was stay calm. Boy, my thoughts are burning like they're napal.

[00:04:03]This is what I love about Ren. His writing just manages to perfectly capture not only like not not only capture an experience but put the perfect words to it because that is what it feels like. That is what my brain feels like when I have an idea pop into my head just then when I was like, "Oh, that's a fire line. I want to talk about that. I want to pause.

[00:04:28]I can't even focus on what the next lines after that are. You'll wonder why I pause my videos so much. It is because nothing exists now. Nothing exists in here. Nothing exists out here. Nothing exists in there. All that exists is my brain going that napal line was awesome.

[00:04:44]That napal line perfectly sums up exactly what it's like in my brain.

[00:04:49]Everything else on once my brain latches onto something, everything else gets burnt down. the idea of talking about anything else that burns. That hurts my brain. No, we can't do that. We need to talk about the thing. The thing that is the important thing, that is what we're latched on to. That is what that that line just so perfectly sums up. And it's just a perfect example. Like I said, if you're I I get people complain on almost every video I post about this guy talks too much, this guy pauses too much, this guy likes the sound of his own voice.

[00:05:19]It's not that I like the sound of my own voice. It's just if I'm going to give an honest and true reaction and give my honest and true opinions, I need to be able to get this out of my head so I can absorb the rest of the video because if I don't, I'm just going to get caught on that napal line. And when we get to the end of this video, my reaction would have been that was a great song. Ren did so well. That napal line at the very beginning was awesome. And I have nothing to talk about for the rest of it because I can't focus on anything else.

[00:05:44]It's just such a good line.

[00:05:49]Boy, my [music] thoughts are burning like I think I need to get away from this noise. I hate the places that I came from. [music] Peace burn a message from the preacher.

[00:06:03]So out of speaker I never paid attention either. [music] There's something strange about my do [music] for this city boy. I've been sitting [music] pretty with prescriptions flipping stimulants and edibles. It's medicine cerebellum repable tweaking the biochemical peing. [music] I feel incredible but wait a second need dopamine my focus smoke machine precursor tyrosine and my racing deciphering [music] maybe the pilot Kawazaki ninja thing.

[00:06:41]>> Hold on a damn second.

[00:06:44]My man just spitting absolute bars.

[00:06:50]The the the speed that he is coming through. I'm not going to lie, I can't even focus on this video clip because the the flow is coming so fast and everything he's saying. I also love the fact that this song is neurode diverent.

[00:07:02]I'm ADHD. I don't have autism as far as I know. Never been tested, but I don't think so. But there are certain things in here that I'm able to pick up on as that's not an ADHD thing, that's more of an autism thing or that's more of a this thing or that thing. There are different types of being neurospicy. And I love that Ren hasn't pigeonholed it just down to one thing. Like the he he's he's hitting on little things that are different experiences that different people who are not neurotypical, who are neurode divergent will have. And I love that he hasn't just gone the most like the thing that happens a lot of the time which is that neurode divergent means ADHD not the case there is a whole bunch of categories that fall under neurode divergent and I love that he's touching on a bunch of them but this line in here I I've I've got to get back to it and hear exactly what it was because I've lost it out of my head but it was fire [music] >> don't feel pity don't feel pity for this boy with prescriptions [music] flipping stimul it's medicines repable tweaking the biochemical peaking I feel incredible but wait a second [music] dopamine my focus go that that's the line there that got me first of all talking about all the uh all the prescriptions and the the the mixing what was it mixing uh oh god I can't even find it now it's medical cerebellum I can't even say that cerebellum reparable Again, just the way that he writes his flows is is insane. Flipping stimulants and edibles into its medicine, cerebellum repairable.

[00:08:49]I It's not just the fact that his flows sound awesome and are incredible. And it's not just the fact that they make sense. It's the fact that they're so intelligent that I can't even like I understand. I could never vocalize. I could never begin to actually break down what he's saying because it's it's just so well put together. But this line here about but wait a second, I need dopamine. My focus goes the world smoke machine.

[00:09:22]It is literally what it feels like looking through the world as if everything's covered in smoke and it's like, "Yeah, I I need to be able to focus on this thing, but my brain doesn't want to. It's it's not even that my brain won't let me. My brain doesn't want to and it feels exhausting trying.

[00:09:39]I I don't know if Ren or Chris are neurode divergent themselves, but if not, man, they have done their research.

[00:09:46]They have spoken to people and gotten an idea of exactly what it feels like to be like this because it it's just so many lines in here. too many lines to pause and talk about everyone are just absolutely hitting in the most real raw way in a way of similar to when Ren talks about his own medical issues and hits them so perfectly and so personally that you don't I I don't expect him unless unless he is also neurode divergent I just didn't know about it you don't expect him to be able to talk about these things in the same way because they're not his lived experience if they are that makes a lot of sense if they're not. He's done the absolute perfect amount of not just research but obviously talking to people about what their experience is to manage to so strongly connect with this >> feeling. But wait a second, dopamine. My focus goes towards smoke machine.

[00:10:39]Precursor [music] burst from elyroine and my race back door psychodine deciphering. Maybe some might have been the spiraling Fibonacci pilot in Kawasaki ninja thing. My [music] pink and I go st [music] [music] what makes a person you both diver six for certain [music] neurodyiver >> they told me I was broken Nothing but a defect in [music] my head.

[00:11:20]Said that I was hopeless, just a [ __ ] reject hanging on by [music] a thread. But after all the pills that they got me, it turned me to a zombie. So welcome to the dawn of the dead [music] in the handicap spot just to see that doctor. This is what he said. Yeah. He said, "I got a touch [music] of the tism piece of my puzzle is missing while the attention deficit just sort of the [music] tunnels my vision." But see, this world's an asylum and [ __ ] We all in the system and our sanity [music] is the [ __ ] cost of admission. You see that glitch in the algorithm that's me don't fit in the crowd. I lift the boundary going sick.

[00:11:56]Let it out and flip. They found me. But the misfits [music] round. So [ __ ] allow me to show them what I came to do.

[00:12:00]Shut the blinds and keep the noise down cuz it's about time to let [music] them all in a mad man's mind. Not well, but hell, I feel fine. Go >> yo. So I'm guessing it's Chris. I'm guessing it's Chris that is um he he mentions in there about autism and attention deficit. So I'm guessing he is both of those things which makes a lot of sense. It make that it makes so much sense what he's saying here though about being a glitch in the system it hits in such a real and such an honest way because the thing is ADHD neuro like neurody divergence in general ADHD and autism the brains are wired differently. It's not that you have a wrong brain. It's not that you have a broken brain. It's not you have a brain that needs to be fixed. Your brain is just wired differently. And the unfortunate fact of the matter is that our brains are not wired to work with society. We don't like we can accomplish incredible things. We can accomplish incredible feats of creativity when our brains want to, but we can't force it.

[00:12:59]And the fact that society demands specific times, specific time frames for things to be done in, you need to get this done by this. you know, you can't focus on that thing right now. We need you to focus on this thing. And if you want to be able to eat tonight, you need to do this job. And we have to drag our brains into doing this exact thing at this exact time of day when all we want to do is sleep during the day and stay up all night working on the passion project that our brain is obsessed with.

[00:13:26]We're not built for it. That's why we have to medicate. That's why we have to force it. That's why we have to literally drag ourselves to do these things. Our brain isn't wired for the way that society and the way that the world works. So, it's not that our brains are broken. It's just that the system doesn't work with us. We are literally, as he said, the glitch in the system. And I love the fact they look at it that way and they say it that way.

[00:13:48]Um, but yeah, medication helps. It's not a solve. It's not a fix for the problem.

[00:13:53]And a lot of the time it can have side effects that are going to, yeah, leave you feeling like a zombie. I know myself. I'm I'm on rolin to help with my ADHD. And that's great right up until I get to the point of the day where my rolin wears off. And I I don't I wouldn't say I crash, but I sure as hell don't want to do anything for the rest of the day. And I better hope that by the time I take my last rolin for the day, I've gotten everything I need to get done done because I got about 3 hours after that and then I'm not going to want to do anything for the rest of the day. And it's it's it's just such a difficult thing of, you know, balancing.

[00:14:26]Yes, the medication helps in these ways, but it has these disadvantages. And then I can function in these ways, but not if I'm forced to. It's a continuous battle with your own brain. And it's exhausting. And the fact that, you know, it it's it's so nice to have a song like this where you can feel seen and feel understood and be like, "Yep, that that is exactly it. [music] Cut the blinds to keep the noise down cuz [music] it's about time to let them all in to a mad man's mind. Not well but hell I feel fine. Go wo go wo off script [music] stick is wo wo wo wo got twisted wo wo oh wo top lip split don't fit >> I do also love that in the video here they show Ren doing the uh do doing the illegal substance there because yeah a lot of people do self-medicate with that kind of thing in the same way that a lot of people who go through depression self-medicate with uh you know, specific herbs. Uh people with ADHD are known to self-medicate because it doesn't have the same effect on our brain as it does on other people's. It's not like we're going to bounce off walls. We just suddenly like, "Oh, cool. I can focus now." I've never personally done it. I was fortunate enough that I've just never been exposed to that kind of culture. And now is now I'm at a point where I've got actual proper medication, so I don't need to. But I know a lot of people who either that stuff or even scaled down version, the one that I did end up with was have extreme caffeine addictions because that helps a little bit to quieten the brain. But yeah, the fact that they Ren's gone to the point of showing the the doing the lines, it's it's a very common thing. Wo oh wo misfit don't fit. [music] What makes a person wo diver? Wo >> sick sick for certain. Wo [music] >> neuro diver.

[00:16:30][music] [music] Yes.

[00:17:04]>> I love that in the film clip as well. I don't know if this is how it's meant to be taken, but in the context of the song, this is how my brain's taking it.

[00:17:10]We saw him before trying to do a magic trick of storing someone in half, and it did not go well. We saw someone else shooting a bow and arrow through someone, it did not go well. These these things that they're being forced to do, these to for the talent show that they're aren't their thing, they can't do them. They're not going well, but they're forcing themselves to do it. Now that it you have that moment of walking forward with the guitar, the spotlight.

[00:17:33]This is the thing he actually wants to be doing. This is the thing his brain actually wants him to do. And he freaking nails it. He excels at it. And it's such a thing of again, it's it's a curse of our society that we can't just turn around and have, well, oh, so what?

[00:17:49]This week you want to be creating art?

[00:17:51]Okay, cool. Go create art and you'll get paid for that. It doesn't work. It's the same as with schooling. I understand why schools have to have curriculums because we can't just teach kids what they want to teach or what they want to learn.

[00:18:01]Sorry, it's not we don't have the resources to have every kid have a customized learning plan just learning what they want to learn. They need to have a curriculum and learn what needs to be known. But at the same time, for those who are aren't neurotypical, it's such a struggle to force your brain to do anything. And if we could just be left to do the things that we're passionate about, we'll excel at them because we will spend 12 hours straight drilling this one thing. We will forget to eat. We will forget to sleep because we're just getting so much joy and dopamine out of doing the thing we want to be doing. But you can't always have that. And that's where the struggle lies. But I love the fact that the video clip shows when he finally gets to do the thing he wants to be doing, he freaking nails it.

[00:18:45]W shrinks in [music] psychiatry wo my anxiety.

[00:18:51]>> Wo or my nons [music] sobriety is learning not to lie to me [music] too much. They try to silence me just soiety.

[00:19:05][music] That's fine with me.

[00:19:07]>> Never mind. I was wrong. It's a different kid that did the magic tricks.

[00:19:10]I I I got the wrong message from that.

[00:19:12]But either way, uh yeah, I I now now that I can see he's a different kid and he's running around still with the saw.

[00:19:19]So, yep. Okay. Um may may maybe he's not maybe I was wrong about that one.

[00:19:25][music] >> That's fine with me.

[00:19:46]>> [music] >> What an absolute freaking banger of a song.

[00:19:54]Absolute just anthem for neurode divergence. And I love that so much. And again, I love the fact it wasn't contained to just one style of neurode divergence. And I love the fact that there were even moments through the video clip, especially when we had that moment in the bathroom where it's panning and you had Ren making out with someone in one store and then next door over, you had a girl sitting on the toilet crying and looking all depressed.

[00:20:16]Sorry, no, you had Chris Webbby making out with someone in a toilet store. Then you had the girl looking all depressed and crying in the toilet stall and Ren was off doing lines. But the fact they show this side of it as well is incredible because when you have undiagnosed espec es especially undiagnosed but just in general any kind of neurospiciness it there are really really strong links especially with undiagnosed autism to things like anxiety, depression, all of those uh all of those more negative like all those more negative issues that can occur symptoms that can occur as an ongoing effect of having not feeling like your brain is right basically and putting this extra stress on yourself. My my husband is autistic.

[00:21:01]He's been diagnosed autistic now, but for the longest time he was diagnosed as uh having an anxiety disorder and having depression. And it was literally because he would get insanely stressed and overwhelmed if things didn't go a certain way, if they didn't pan out a certain way, if they weren't lined up in the right way. And it was literally his autism. But they just diagnosed him as having anxiety around certain things and social anxiety. Yeah. Well, that's a common thing with autism. It says it right at the start of this song that I need a quiet place. It all of these symptoms of the anxiety and the depression were really just symptoms of the uh the autistic side shining through. And it's so refreshing to see a video clip that again touches on so many little things and has so many little Easter eggs. I'd still love to know what the actual messaging behind the talent show that we see and the students mostly failing at their talent shows, uh, what that was. And then we have the one student that's really successful at the talent show. Was that meant to be a kind of like I I I'm I'm curious to what the messaging there was in relation to the neurode divergence and what kind of my brain missed because like I said, at first I thought it was the same student that did the guitar that did the magic show, but then I saw that it wasn't. So, it could be that it's meant to be that, you know, there's that one uh that that that's the one neurotypical student that's that's managed to pull it off because they've been able to I'm curious. I'm really curious as to what the uh what the intended messaging was there or what your interpretation of the messaging was there. So, let me know in the comments. But either way, this song is a freaking banger. It is everything I wanted a neurotypical, sorry, a neurospicy anthem to be. Uh, this was just so good. Please jump in the link in the description and go to the original video and give it a like and a comment and subscribe to both Ren and Chris Webbby because they are awesome. Also, leave a like and a comment on this video and subscribe to this channel. It helps out the channel so so much. I can't begin to tell you if I missed anything major that stood out to you or that you deeply connected with, let me know in the comments. Also, let me know what your takeaway from the talent show was cuz I'm really really curious to know.

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