about my childhood

Added: 2026-05-22

[00:00:00]I posted a video yesterday sharing how my sister and I got pregnant at 12 and 14 years old. And as usual, I got a ton of comments and a ton of questions. I have time to just sit around and answer questions because I'm always on the go.

[00:00:11]I'm always driving. I'm always doing stuff. So, I thought I would answer right now while I'm driving. You guys always get mad when I'm driving and videoing, but I just want you to know that I start the video before I drive. I have it mounted. I don't touch my phone at all. I'm stopped right now. I'm in my driveway. And when I'm driving, I am watching the road. So, I won't be looking at you. I'll be looking at the road, but I just want you to know that I'm safe. I got my seatbelt on. My hands are not on my phone. And you can rest assured that I am all good. I'm headed to Walmart right now to get a grocery order. And so, the question right here that I have up on the screen is, "Can you tell us more about your childhood?"

[00:00:46]I have a lot of people that get upset when I post these videos because there's certain questions that everybody asks that I don't answer. Particularly questions about my parents or people that were involved in my life when I was younger. Especially, I just do not answer those questions. That is a personal boundary that I've set for myself. I have, you know, said things here and there about my past, but I'm not obligated to share anything that I don't want to share. And there are a lot of things that people on the internet just may not understand. I've decided that I will share what I'm comfortable with and what I'm not comfortable with, I won't share. And I understand there's a lot of curiosity around the way that we grew up because it seems unfathomable that we got pregnant at 12 and 14 years old. We were pregnant at the same time.

[00:01:30]But we did. And for the most part, if it's about me, I'm an open book. I don't have secrets. I hate secrets. And I believe in sharing my story. I think it's so powerful because it shows God's goodness in my life and God's protection in my life. And it just shows that God can take somebody that comes from absolutely nothing, somebody that is so broken, and somebody that is as wicked as me because, let me tell you, I was, completely change your life and make you a new creation. So, I love sharing my testimony because I want to give God the glory. And my sister, the one that got pregnant when she was 12, she's the same way. She's an open book. She loves sharing about her addiction and her past because it just gives people hope that you're never too far gone, you're never too broken for God. You can always decide you want to turn your life around and you want to live a different way.

[00:02:19]So, that's why I share about my sister on here because she has given me full permission and she thinks that it's great that people hear her story and they feel like maybe they can heal also.

[00:02:30]Other people in my story do not want me to share about them and I respect that.

[00:02:35]And I also don't share about certain people because I don't want to get on here and look like I'm just bashing people and talking bad about people and acting like a victim. I just don't want to do that. But I can share about my, you know, me and my sister's childhood.

[00:02:50]I do think that it's fascinating, especially from somebody that doesn't come from trauma or brokenness or dysfunction. Obviously, our childhood was very dysfunctional. We were pregnant as kids. I had a lot of people ask, "How does that happen? How does somebody get pregnant at 12?" And the answer is really simple. It's s e x, okay? That is how you get pregnant and that is how me and my sister got pregnant. We were exposed to that lifestyle at a young age and we became very active in that way at a very young age. I don't know if I can say the word on social media without getting like reported or something. But this is just me being totally honest and open and if that kind of scares you away, then you can keep scrolling. But I think it's important for people to understand this is the reality for a lot of young girls. My sister and I both, I would say, had self-esteem issues, felt unlovable, felt unworthy, and we wanted attention, we wanted acceptance, we wanted to fill that void in our life, and we wanted to do something that we were good at and that made us feel valued. And since our brains were not developed and we weren't really taught right from wrong to begin with, we found that we could do certain things to get attention that made us feel good about ourselves.

[00:04:09]So, that's what we did. I'm pretty sure my sister was 10 years old. We were talking about this the other day. I'm pretty sure she was 10 years old when she lost her, you know what.

[00:04:18]And she wasn't like a normal 10-year-old because, remember, we weren't our innocence wasn't protected as kids, so we were much more advanced and mature in that way. So, we knew about it. We knew how to do it. We knew what it looked like. You know, we'd seen things and it really wasn't a big deal to us. So, she did that when she was, I'm pretty sure, 10 years old and instantly decided that is something that got her the kind of attention that she wanted a lot of. I was 13 years old, I think, when I did did the same thing and discovered the same thing, okay? And our life really spiraled out of control very fast from that point on. And so, because of what we were doing, we both got pregnant at 12 and 14. It is so funny the difference in myself and my daughters.

[00:05:08]I'm so proud of my girls and I've always been very transparent with them. I talk to them in very realistic ways. They know my past. They know what I went through. They know the things that I did. I always wanted them to be better and they are. And I always told them s e x is an intimate, holy thing that God gave us and he gave us guidelines around it because he knows that it can be a beautiful, wonderful thing to bring two people together and really bond you or it can be used in really terrible ways and it can hurt you deeply. It can break your heart. It can give you STDs. It can give you self-esteem issues. It can make you feel worthless or dirty. Or I mean, I could just go on and on about the ways that s e x can hurt you. And that's why I believe God gave us guidelines and told us we should only do that with our husband, the one that loves us and cherishes us.

[00:06:12]And when you do that, it's an absolutely beautiful thing. So, I always raise my daughters to save themselves for marriage because what a beautiful thing.

[00:06:22]And I've had a lot of people say, "That's unrealistic. That's dumb. You know, your kids are going to just do it behind your back and not tell you. And you know, you need to teach them to be safe and put them on birth control." And I just never could get on board with that. I know what's right and wrong, and I know how damaging it can be to give somebody else a piece of you in that way, and then they throw you in the trash.

[00:06:46]And I never wanted my daughters to experience that, and I just never could justify saying, "Well, every other kid does it." And you know, at the end of the day, I just said, "If my daughters or my sons do engage in that kind of activity with their boyfriend or girlfriend in high school or whatever behind my back, at least I can lay my head down at night and look in the mirror when I'm washing my face and know that I did my very best to teach them right from wrong, to teach them how to not get their heart and their souls crushed." And if they don't listen to me, well, that's like any other thing. You tell your kids not to do drugs, and if they don't listen to you, they're going to do drugs, and they're going to face consequences of that action. But if you tell your kids, "Yeah, go do drugs. Just don't drive when you do drugs."

[00:07:35]Who does that? You don't do that because you know the drugs are going to hurt them. And it's like it's like giving them a free pass. You're not going to tell your kids to go do something that you know for a fact it's going to hurt them. As a parent, you have to tell them, "Don't do that. Do not do that. I love you. I don't want you to hurt.

[00:07:52]Doesn't matter if everybody else in the world is doing it or every other kid is doing it. If every other kid was smoking crack, would you tell your daughter, 'Yeah, go smoke crack. I know it's unrealistic for me to tell you not to.'"

[00:08:01]Anyways, I just went off on a total rant, didn't I? I'm at the gas station.

[00:08:04]I got to get gas, but that's a little bit about my childhood and how I feel.

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