On and off again romance need this…

Added: 2026-05-25

[00:00:02]Hi my lovers. Hi my sweets. My little sensitive babies.

[00:00:08]So romantic and sweet. Hi.

[00:00:12]I hope this video finds you strong.

[00:00:17]Capable.

[00:00:22]All right.

[00:00:23]This is a general message, so take what resonates and leave the rest. Whenever you find it, it is the right time because it is timeless. I will never reach out to you for personal readings because I'm not doing them. And I would not do that anyway. I don't know why, but I just [ __ ] thought of a meme.

[00:00:38]Uh oh, well there's like a little I have those rotating things on my computer, like the backgrounds.

[00:00:45]>> [snorts] >> Um and it's a picture of the globe.

[00:00:49]And my friend and I, like we watch those like um documentaries and stuff. Like We get up We dive deep into um conspiracy theories and we went through like a flat earth phase, like watching all that [ __ ] and um there was a meme that was like >> [laughter] >> this dude all [ __ ] pissed off cuz it was like when flat-earthers find out that their conspiracy was the only one that wasn't true.

[00:01:19]>> [laughter] >> I don't know why that's coming out, but Anyway.

[00:01:35]Meme it.

[00:01:37]Well, uh so there's a picture of the of like the radius of the world and then there's space.

[00:01:51]Um the band is Sleep Theory and the song is Gone or Staying.

[00:02:00]So, that was the song on shuffle.

[00:02:03]>> [cough] >> So, we're going to do a reading on um like that on and off again like can't let them go kind of person like kind of situation like >> [clears throat] >> I know I shouldn't call you when but it's raining [singing] and you keep on saying that you're all alone but I ain't with these games you keep on playing you gone or staying make up your mind and let me go.

[00:02:39]>> [clears throat] >> So, on and off again type of thing.

[00:02:47]Uh you hide it well but I can tell by the look in your eyes you were falling to pieces and with a glance you let me dance with your greatest disguise and it's leaving me sleepless. Back and forth you push and pull me as I get lost in what we should be.

[00:03:03]I know I shouldn't call you but it's raining and you keep on saying you're all alone.

[00:03:08]>> [clears throat and cough] >> Well, well, that that card wanted to come out.

[00:03:12]Um also this band like I don't know why like cuz I I have a quite a few of their songs but now I'm like realizing like oh [ __ ] they did that song too.

[00:03:22]They they have a lot of songs that are like um like with that like you should have let me know like something was wrong and didn't just like let this keep dragging on stringing along. So, there's the theme here. We have the Ace of Cups in reverse that came out. Ace of Jugs in this deck.

[00:03:44]>> [clears throat] >> I know I shouldn't call you but it's raining you keep on saying that you're all Five of Pentacles in reverse, five of cactus in reverse.

[00:03:59]10 of Cups, 10 of jugs upright.

[00:04:05]>> [sighs and gasps] >> God, these things are so [ __ ] messy.

[00:04:14]Like these situations are always so [ __ ] messy.

[00:04:23]>> [snorts] >> I mean somebody's like searching like for happiness and not wanting to be alone because they feel empty inside.

[00:04:28]They have a hole inside of them.

[00:04:31]Ace of jugs.

[00:04:35]>> [sighs] >> Here's the thing. Like this is so [ __ ] messy and I'm not super keen on these types of messages, but it be asking for it. Okay.

[00:04:52]And please use your own discernment cuz the reason why is like people get so wrapped up in like this desire to want something to work out or whatever it is.

[00:05:02]Um they have embarrassment over the situation, whatever. So they get like hostile in the comments or they're like they don't use their own discernment and put the blame and power to somebody else.

[00:05:20]>> [snorts] >> I'm allergic to that [ __ ] >> [laughter] [snorts] >> I know I shouldn't call you, but it's raining.

[00:05:31]You keep on saying that you're all alone.

[00:05:35]Devil in reverse.

[00:05:38]>> [snorts] >> I know That's [clears throat] freedom.

[00:05:48]Yeah, there's some like there's like a hole inside and somebody needs to fill that hole because essentially there's like a person out here that like things get too real, get too close, and they pull away because they're scared.

[00:06:04]And then they come back cuz they want that hole filled inside of them.

[00:06:09]But it's like they want the benefits of connection.

[00:06:18]And like this is like wounding here. So like don't get like angry or whatever the [ __ ] Like it's just part of this human experience.

[00:06:35]>> [clears throat] >> This person needs to free themselves from that empty hole inside. They're feeding this part of them and refusing to heal it and they want it fed from somebody else.

[00:06:57]They honestly might just need to hear like this.

[00:07:01]>> [cough] [clears throat] >> Also for this reading like be honest with yourself where you are on this. If this is resonating for you be real with yourself where you are at in this story. Like are you the person running away or you the person that like hey like what the [ __ ] Can we figure this out?

[00:07:25]Four of Pentacles.

[00:07:31]This person wants freedom because they don't want like the essentially with true connection the risk you take is being seen fully for who you are, all of it.

[00:07:46]Um Empress in reverse is definitely stems from like mother issues or uh somebody was hurt by a feminine energy in some way.

[00:07:59]Baby mama.

[00:08:01]Just a bad mother.

[00:08:04]>> [clears throat] >> Someone that's really um hurtful.

[00:08:11]Um like verbally, physically, whatever.

[00:08:14]But also would like pull you close um or pull this person close, whichever.

[00:08:19]And um So there's like some weird [ __ ] up dynamic there.

[00:08:26]Uh So if the the person that like pulls away and like, "Hey, I need space."

[00:08:32]Like, "Whoa."

[00:08:34]Um they have this hole inside them cuz it wasn't fed. It was It wasn't nurtured by the feminine energy as it needed to be. It was injured in fact by this feminine energy.

[00:08:50]>> [clears throat] >> What are they supposed to do with this though? That's the thing.

[00:09:02]Seven of chilies.

[00:09:05]Okay.

[00:09:08]Handyman upright or sorry, in reverse.

[00:09:13]I always say that when I And the moon.

[00:09:20]Honestly, this is like battling [ __ ] demons, man. Like straight up. Like battle your [ __ ] demons. Battle these wounds within you.

[00:09:28]>> [clears throat] >> There's a lot. Like there Seven of wands is like protect what's yours.

[00:09:38]Protect like that is the That means like a lot of things are coming at you, but you're also really capable of dealing with all of these things.

[00:09:46]Um And it's time for action towards >> [clears throat] >> these unconscious behaviors.

[00:10:11]Okay, what else? Where else do they need to go with this? Like where else can they go with this?

[00:10:17]Queen of Chillies in reverse.

[00:10:23]Four of Swords in reverse.

[00:10:31]Emperor.

[00:10:34]>> [cough] >> It's time to take charge of like this um ambiguity.

[00:10:44]Yeah, it's time to take charge of like what is this? Like, oh, I'm not going to speak on this to upset somebody. I'm not going to whatever the [ __ ] Like there has to be an end to the ambiguity. Like there has to be some sort of clear concise [ __ ] >> [snorts] >> Watch yourself though. Sorry for the gross noises. I'm like I ate some [ __ ] I ate at a different restaurant yesterday and I just like felt super gross.

[00:11:07]My [ __ ] face was all swollen. Like it was just definitely not good food for me.

[00:11:11]>> [laughter] >> Yucky.

[00:11:15]Yeah, my face is all swollen. I just Um Yeah, watch out that when you come out this that you're not coming out of it from like this has to be this way and we need to get through this in this specific way.

[00:11:40]Like watch that you're not like coming at it and like bringing your um worries and concerns and restlessness and control into this. Like there's a way through this and to like push [clears throat] to the true issue and like get some sort of clarity um and to the bottom of this. However, watch that you're not coming at it in this like overbearing, insecure, like stressed out, uh controlling energy.

[00:12:11]There's a way to like have control and be a leader with that emperor but also not be controlling and like have this [ __ ] just shot down. There has to be action towards this ambiguity though with that moon card.

[00:12:26]And there's a way like you have the ability to like get there.

[00:12:30]Um and since this situation has two people, like two people are involving themselves in this [ __ ] So, it's not just the other person as well.

[00:12:52]Hermit. [clears throat] The action that needs to be taken is we have we can't you can't just keep like okay, what is this within them? I need to withdraw. Like you have to reach out and actually interact with each other.

[00:13:09]And not just like oh, well I want good times only or whatever. Like whatever the [ __ ] is being contemplated and and stirred up and overlooked and overthought and all of this within yourself and the person that's involved that needs to come out.

[00:13:28]No more contemplating internally all of this. Like that [ __ ] has to come out.

[00:13:34]But watch that you're not coming at it in like a super controlling, super overbearing, restless, stressed-out energy because that shit's going to backfire on you big time. We have the Magician in reverse. It's going to come off as uh manipulative, um cuz if you come with that energy, you're ultimately trying to get the result you want, which is like you need to do it this specific way, open up in this specific way, you need to tell me what's going on.

[00:14:01]Or like if that's you and you're you're on the other end of this and you're like, "No, I don't want to talk about it." Like just or why can't it only be good times or whatever the [ __ ] Like that's you're trying to control the situation.

[00:14:15]Just watch that you're not doing that.

[00:14:18]Cuz ultimately you want a specific outcome.

[00:14:22]And with two people that have two free wills, you can't. You're not going to get everything you want. You can talk about it and come to some sort of compromise, but that's ultimately what that needs to happen. And I there might even be a little surprise of like you both want the same thing, but there has to be some like hurdle, some healing, some wound that needs to be spoke upon or some communication like, "I'm here for you. Like I'm dedicated to you. Like what do you need?" Or what are you searching for from me? You know, whatever it is.

[00:14:55]Um what like this is what I I'm looking for. Like in true honest like this is what I need.

[00:15:02]Like I'm scared or whatever. Like there has to be some real [ __ ] Like none of this like controlling, like playing on someone's emotions, like trying to get a specific outcome because that is going to backfire straight in your face.

[00:15:20]We have the Eight of jugs.

[00:15:23]Three of chilies, three of wands, and the ten of chilies, which is the ten of wands.

[00:15:31]>> [clears throat] >> There needs to be a release and letting go for one of baggage on both [ __ ] sides. And it's mostly like I'm kind of seeing like since it's jugs and it looks like moonshiners, like [ __ ] that you're not supposed to be doing.

[00:15:48]Like both people on either side of this situation are doing [ __ ] they're not supposed to be doing and they know they shouldn't be doing it, but it's like some weird [ __ ] up coping mechanism cuz they they want to be like rebellious or they think that they talked themselves into acting this way because of a hurt like oh, that's me learning the lesson. It's trickery to the ego and trickery like [ __ ] like that. It's not really what's happening, what needs to occur.

[00:16:19]>> [clears throat] [snorts] >> It's going to take hard work on both sides and growth on both sides.

[00:16:39]There [clears throat] yeah, there's some definite [ __ ] both people are doing some [ __ ] they shouldn't be doing and they need to [ __ ] leave that behind.

[00:16:45]That's like I don't know, I'm just seeing it as like moonshiners like bro, we need to stop doing this illegal [ __ ] Like we need to get the drop the jugs and let's just get the [ __ ] out of here.

[00:16:54]I'm tired of running from the cops. I'm tired of like living in this secretive like manipulative energy because it's stressful and I have to stay on top of it.

[00:17:03]Both people are in this. Both parties are doing this. It might be unconscious.

[00:17:09]They might think they're doing the right thing because they think they that's the way they learned the lesson from past hurts, but it's not. It's not helping either person.

[00:17:20]And by letting that go, that's going to help tremendous growth. And there's this willingness to like, okay, I just have to step into this space of the unknown and know that growth is coming with this.

[00:17:33]I will have to carry my burdens. I will have to do that work, carry my baggage, and figure out how to lay that to rest.

[00:17:44]And I can't [clears throat] keep putting this on this other person with trying to control them like they need to treat me this is specific way.

[00:17:52]Cuz ultimately, like you it's like a lie into yourself that like, oh, if this person treats me in this way, then like I'm good. Then But that's just making you feel good temporarily. The The baggage is still there.

[00:18:12]Two of Swords.

[00:18:17]It's an inside job.

[00:18:19]And there's like a there a decision needs to be made from internal like with you, with yourself, what you're willing to do, what you're willing to let go, what you're willing to grow.

[00:18:32]Look within and stop like needing this I need this person to act this specific way because that is an undealt with emotion, undealt with wound and you're trying to control a situation to feel safe and secure.

[00:18:55]Seven of Swords in reverse. Yes, that is ultimately what's been happening and it's so unconscious cuz you I'm getting like people are going to be like, I haven't been doing that. Like if there's [clears throat] this conflict and [ __ ] happening, you've definitely been doing that. Like I'm just like and it's now time to be real with yourself.

[00:19:13]Like, you don't need to do this tactic and strategy.

[00:19:16]You can just trust that this is unknown territory, and it's safe to like know that there's the good things coming for you. Good growth coming for you.

[00:19:26]This is waiting for your ships to come in, but it's an You have to walk through the door of the unknown.

[00:19:33]>> [clears throat] >> Make up your mind and let me go.

[00:19:53]Yeah, ultimately like is the seven of swords in reverse.

[00:19:59]No more tactics. No more trying to get this person to act a specific way.

[00:20:04]Um And that's on both sides.

[00:20:09]That is on [ __ ] both sides. There needs to be true like outward conversation over the [ __ ] that's very uncomfortable.

[00:20:20]And instead of like trying to control them by like, "You need to act this way.

[00:20:25]I I stand on this. Like, if you don't treat me this way, then I'm gone."

[00:20:31]But ultimately like I mean, there has to be a line, of course. Like, you know if somebody's good for you or not. And if since you can't let this [ __ ] person go, you know there's something there that you desire. You can have this conversation and be like and be real with yourself that you've been having these like um you if you don't let treat me like this, then we're done.

[00:20:54]Um conversations and realizing like, "Okay.

[00:21:00]I'm trying to control this person."

[00:21:03]That's ultimately what it is.

[00:21:06]So, you have a choice to like be honest like look, I feel insecure and I'm wanting security from this behavior cuz I feel scared and I don't want to lose you. Like there has to be like true yucky conversation like that like uncomfortable real [ __ ] and mindful as [ __ ] with the magician in reverse that you're not trying to control them and manipulate them into acting the way you want through having that conversation.

[00:21:35]It's just true like I feel like this whenever this happens and I like and that's also taking accountability for like I wanted you to act this way because so I could feel safe.

[00:21:53]>> [clears throat] >> Six of Pentacles.

[00:22:14]The Hierophant.

[00:22:29]Sharing like what your vision is is probably most helpful.

[00:22:34]It's very vulnerable and puts you in a compromised position, but that's what needs to happen is like true vulnerability.

[00:22:45]And you know, then you'll get your answer. Like if this person isn't willing to meet you on that true vulnerability, then that's and you like just it's whatever you're willing to put up with quite frankly, but true honest innocent vulnerability of like hey, this is my vision. Like, I want to get married. Like, I want dedication. I want loyalty. I want higher level commitment."

[00:23:10]With that hierophant, like, that's what I desire. Like, this is what I'm working towards. I want us to get along. Like, whatever the [ __ ] it is.

[00:23:19]>> [clears throat] >> This is why I can't let you go because like I have this vision of us.

[00:23:24]And like, there has to be realness with yourself of like, "Okay, I've been acting in this way in a hopes that we would be like, things would get better." And like, true vulnerability of like, "I was acting in this way and like wanting you to be this way because I felt that that would give me security, but ultimately we just need to talk about like what we genuinely, honestly see." And putting yourself in that compromised position is the key.

[00:23:53]That's the magic.

[00:23:56]Cuz if this person can't meet you there, then then you get your answer. And two, like, the universe is going to like bless you.

[00:24:05]God is going to bless you because you're truly being honest and real.

[00:24:11]And that is going to set you free. Like, it's going to be difficult because you have to like admit that you were like being controlling or whatever, but it also sets the stage for somebody to be just as brave as you are and speak upon that.

[00:24:25]Um you're leading by example. That's the only way to do to be the good leader to as leading by example, putting yourself out there, putting yourself in the compromised position, and having the courage and the strength to do that.

[00:24:41]If you're not ready for that, then you're not ready for the commitment you're desiring, the the relationship you're desiring.

[00:25:01]>> Nine of jugs in reverse. Yeah, if you have any sort of smugness or like pretension or if that comes from that other person, then it's not happening.

[00:25:16]You're not better than anybody else.

[00:25:18]They're not better than anybody else.

[00:25:19]There's no competition. There It's just like true vulnerability. Like, "Hey, I want this."

[00:25:25]I [ __ ] up and And also, you expecting this person to put that out there is another control tactic.

[00:25:34]So, there's that as well.

[00:25:37]Wanting to them to be like, "Oh, I'm sorry for doing this to you or whatever." You expecting that is another control tactic. So, just check yourself.

[00:25:47]I love it cuz we see the judgment. That is going to raise you in such a high vibration.

[00:25:52]Like, just focus on yourself in this situation.

[00:25:56]Putting your vul- being vulnerable, being exposed in that way.

[00:26:00]And that's going to help you just live life more free and like take this heavy weight with that ten of wands, take that heavy weight off of you. That's the heavy-duty work that you need to do.

[00:26:13]Um one more on that nine of jugs in reverse.

[00:26:19]Yeah, king of jugs. There he keeps that [ __ ] inside.

[00:26:24]Um but also, he's very aware. The king of jugs is very aware of his emotions. He's mastered his emotions. He knows what Oh, this is just a feeling. I need to ride it out. I don't need to speak upon this. I don't need to put this on somebody else.

[00:26:39]Whatever it is. Okay, this is definitely something I need to speak about.

[00:26:42]Whatever. Like, check yourself that you're not trying to be a pretentious dick and controlling the situation.

[00:26:50]Um acting in a way that's instable, like let it ride out before you just come at somebody all [ __ ] sideways.

[00:27:02]And make these conclusions and [ __ ] like that. Anything else?

[00:27:09]Eight of Wands in reverse, slow down.

[00:27:11]Don't be firing like all this [ __ ] at somebody like say like speak only with your innocence and your um vulnerability and your like putting yourself in that compromised vulnerable position.

[00:27:27]Only speak upon yourself, like don't be like, "Well, you acted this way." And you know, we just put yourself out there, like I desire this.

[00:27:37]I was hopeful for this. I acted like this because I was afraid and didn't feel things were clear, like if you're willing to do that, like everything is just going to [ __ ] fall into place.

[00:27:51]But if you're not and you're not ready for that, then this shit's going to continue.

[00:27:57]Just check that you're not [ __ ] popping shots at this person cuz that's going to make things a million times worse. And that's you getting back into your magician in reverse energy, which is that controlling energy, like I want this person to act a specific way, so I'm going to say a specific things.

[00:28:13]Check yourself.

[00:28:14]All right, babies. I love you so much.

[00:28:15]Thank you for being here. Love you. Bye.