adjusting to a quiet life that’s no longer just mine.

Added: 2026-05-10

[00:00:00]Hi, I am Jian.

[00:00:03]I didn't think this part would feel this way.

[00:00:07]Not in a bad way, just unfamiliar.

[00:00:12]I've always lost my quiet, my space, and now I'm learning how to share how to share that without losing myself in it.

[00:00:25]I didn't have it all figured out yet, but this this is what life looks like right now.

[00:00:33]>> Audio Fire production production.

[00:01:17]How do Let's go.

[00:03:47]the fact that you don't know the time.

[00:03:51]>> Of course you do.

[00:04:08]Let me tell you guys, every time I try to make a conscious effort to step out of the house, it's like there is a thing or two that I need to get done inside the house and I find it really very convenient to work in the house.

[00:04:21]Sometimes I just want to go out to do some work, but the truth is Lagos is not a place. I'm supposed to go out later today, but I'm just going to get some work done. And I hope you guys are enjoying the vlog.

[00:04:44]Wait, I just turned on my system and this is what I'm seeing. I I don't want to. Oh my god.

[00:04:54]Oh my god. Can you see? This is the screen and then this whole place is black. I don't even want to believe what I'm saying because I'm just going to run crazy.

[00:05:05]Ah, God, I beg. Where do I start from?

[00:05:09]Jesus Christ. I'll put off this thing and put it on again. Let's see. God, I beg. Oh, Jesus.

[00:05:17]I'm not going to find it funny if anything happens to my sister. That's going to be like the biggest setbacks ever because I just finished editing a video last night. A video that is supposed to go live today um tomorrow and there was no our in died last night.

[00:05:37]So, I was unable to export it. So, I would upload it because whenever I'm done editing, I usually export it and upload it on YouTube.

[00:05:47]Oh my god, I don't even want to start panicking.

[00:05:52]Yeah, I don't want to start panicking.

[00:05:56]But let me try again.

[00:06:06]Good morning, gummy bears. Today is Sunday, but I didn't go to church. I have some editing to do. Yeah, I already had my bath. I actually wanted to go to church, but my hair, you see how scanty my hair looks. Now, when I when I loosen it, you won't see that scantiness, but when it has been braided, that's when you see it. And if I remember, that was not how I've always been. I know that when I was little, I used to have full hair, right? So I don't even know what caused the damage. Is it when I was dying my hair? I I I used to be on low court. So I don't know. Was it when I was dying my hair or was it when I started relaxing my hair? Or you see the truth is Nigerian hair stylists do not know how to take care of natural hair.

[00:06:55]And for someone like me who is so tenderheaded when I keep natural hair is like it's like I'm passing out when I get to to to make my hair. So, I've been thinking of going back to being a natural girl. Hy, a natural girl. Hely. I for a little while. I've been thinking of going back to being a natural hair really. And but I've just been thinking of the pain, the excruciating pain that I usually go through. I don't know if it's a medical condition or that's just how God created me. I don't know. So, I'm I'm in the middle of, you know, contemplating on what to do with my hair.

[00:08:13]guest who just made her home's full time stay with me. This makes me really happy because now I don't have to keep guessing what are we going to eat today?

[00:08:23]What are we going to eat tomorrow? Like, okay, this will now, you know, yeah, this will now organize my thoughts. So, let's have them. This is for four weeks, four good weeks. So, this is also going to help me, you know, plan my purchase, whatever I'm purchasing, so that we don't waste things and overspend on where we're not supposed to spend. Cuz one of the challenge I've been having since I became a wife is trying to figure out what to cook every blessed day. Yeah. So let's find way to, you know, put this See this part where it's like just coming up like a little horn. Huh? What happened was when I went to the salon one time and they were losing my sew in, they cut off my hair here. So this is just the growth and now it is natural.

[00:11:04]So it's not it's not as straight as the other part of my hair. So that's the reason why it's just bulging out there.

[00:12:14]Here we go.

[00:13:17]It's okay.

[00:14:06]Happy birthday.

[00:15:58]The pepper in this noodles is crazy.

[00:15:59]It's too much. But it's not a lot of noodles. So, I'm trying to just eat it and have something in my stomach. This is what happens when you allow a Yoroba man to cook for you.

[00:16:10]>> Few days ago, my tripod got broken. This part, I can still use this for, you know, phone. The phone holder is still okay. But the part where I get to screw my camera is what got broken. Had to order a new tripod and it just came in. So, we're going to be doing an unboxing. I had to order this because you guys planning for a trip. My husband and I, we're planning for a trip. We're going to Republic and this is like our first couple's trip together and I'm so excited about it.

[00:16:48]So, yeah. I had to quickly get a tripod because it is needed on this trip. I feel so excited because I have something that I'm looking forward to. And you guys, my last video which I uploaded, the sit down video got so much love. A lot of people could resonate and I feel so much at peace with who I am currently because ah oh getting that off my chest did something for my mental health for real for real. I don't think I'm not I don't like to talk about mental health but the truth is a lot of us are going through it and we're just you know keeping quiet. I just could not be quiet anymore.

[00:17:37]So I had to just pick out this is not exactly the type that I got before. This is the A A1588.

[00:17:46]So new baby. I got this from Ladies Hub. By the way, that's where I get all my gadgets.

[00:17:55]I get all my filming equipment rather from them. Not all my gadgets like when it comes to my tripod. Yeah, I've been getting all of them from LA Hub.

[00:18:07]came in this bag. It always comes in a bag, but I always misplace the bag.

[00:18:13]Oh god, this is not as small as the other tripod. Look at the difference.

[00:18:19]Oh my god. This was why I bought this because of how small it was. And now I I didn't know it was going to be this big.

[00:18:26]How am I going to fit this in my handbag? Oh my god. Let's see. Wait, I could actually remove this part and attach it here. And then I travel with this. Yes, I'm a genius.

[00:18:47]I'm going to swap it. It's the This is what got broken on this tripod. So Oh, yes. This This makes me feel so happy. And now we're going to be traveling with this tripod. I want to start preparing for my trip to Cotton. I see I've been to Ben Republic like uncountable times. I've been to Ben Republic more than I can count. But I can say for a fact that every time I went, I don't think I really enjoyed my stay over there. So, I'm really looking forward to traveling. Let's let's let's let's prep for our trip. Ah, anyway, my nails are done.

[00:19:39]My feet are done. So, all that is left is for me to go make my hair and pack what I need. I'm not buying new clothes.

[00:19:47]And I'm supposed to be editing this vlog currently so that I can post it on Saturday. Nobody is as lazy as I am when it comes to packing for traveling, but I love traveling. I love to travel.

[00:20:01]Travel is what gives me joy. Traveling is what makes me happy. Traveling is what I like to do for fun. So when people ask, "What do you like to do for fun?" I say, "I love to travel. I love adrenaline rush. I love things that makes my adrenaline pump and rush."

[00:20:22]Those are the things that I call fun.

[00:20:25]Those are the things that give me joy, which is why Lagos has been boring for me. Now I'm looking forward to traveling and I'm I'm just so happy. You can tell my energy is a whole lot better in this vlog. My energy is so different and ah oh my god. It's like I'm finding my spark again. Yeah. Safe to say that I lost my spark living in Lagos. That's the truth. You know, we tend to lose ourselves in bits without even knowing that we're losing ourselves. But some of us are so self-aware that when things start changing and we stop feeling like who we are, we realize immediately and then we take a step back and then we try to do