A Bridge towards Rejuvenation & Reemergence Towards Destiny

Added: 2026-05-26

[00:00:03]Okay, I'd like to welcome everybody to Dementoto Mori polit podcast about parapolitics, esoterica, crime, and apocalypticism.

[00:00:17]And this is like a random promptu stream to kind of ruminate over the various different things that I have encountered over the years in my research, I guess you could also say, in my spiritual path and all the wackiness that has inferred from things that I have experienced on the internet and in the real world, of course. And on today's subject, I'm going to kind of talk about sort of where I'm at at this point in time. And this is going to be a random impromptu stream to just discuss about various different things that I have I'm at at this point.

[00:01:12]And I don't usually do these streams that often. Eventually I'm going to get on a schedule.

[00:01:22]Um, so just consider this kind of a random impromptu stream where I sort of share some of my research which could converge on various different topics from esoterica down to parapolitics depending on whatever mood I'm in or depending on whatever interests me at the moment.

[00:01:41]So, I mean, you could kind of consider this sort of a crypto sort of skitsoid stream.

[00:01:48]I kind of go and ride the waves of, you know, whatever the world is going through right now. So, one of the reoccurrent topics that I have been looking into, I've been looking into the uh Chinvat bridge in the Zarastrian belief system.

[00:02:10]And this interests me because as of lately I've been delving into the cabala, the verboten text for many people and there's not a lot of reliable information when you go down the road and looking into the kabala or looking into esoterica.

[00:02:31]Fortunately, I have somewhat of a grounding in these various different topics. But like I said and I mentioned previously, I'm just going to look into this and just go into this and dive into this whole thing. That's been sort of my mission now is just to dive into these things and immerse myself into these various different topics with no concern about uh whatever my sanity or wherever the path may lead me.

[00:03:05]I'm a very adventurous person.

[00:03:08]I like to sometimes, let's just say, dwell on the wild side.

[00:03:14]And you know, you if you've been following me for all these years that I have been streaming, I'm not saying that I have a consistently large base of people, but the few people that have followed me over the years have seen sort of my uh development and evolution can kind of attest to that I am not afraid to delve into certain topics as with this particular podcast and with this live stream, I like to sometimes talk about issues concerning our society which a lot of researchers and a lot of people would not touch.

[00:03:57]That is the typical framework of stuff like extremism and how that overlaps with various different uh disciplines be it parapolitics or be it esoterica which sometimes all these things converge together to make uh and quite an interesting foray into the political landscape and over the years I've sort of gained a lot of insight and a lot of people I've interacted with online, offline, through the various different, let's just say, political spectrums that I have chosen to interact with.

[00:04:39]Good or bad, negative or positive, these things have shaped my worldview and I'm very blessed to have encountered many people. Albeit even the negative people have taught me much about myself internally and much about the world externally.

[00:05:01]And through all these things I've kind of reemerged a rediscovery of where my place in society is. And also as of lately I've wanted to strike out and sort of develop my own sort of worldview and not stand in the shadows of other people. Typically you kind of see me on other people's podcast and I'm usually discussing uh you know topics like the years of lead. I'm occasionally talking about uh you know sort of the extremist landscape that America has turned into over the years. But now I want to kind of develop and bridge into what I consider another journey in my existence.

[00:05:49]I have been thinking a lot about the consciousness about the consciousness that we all experience in our waking life and all of the things that uh sort of go along with that. And this led me down into spirituality.

[00:06:06]Coming from a Judeo-Christian evangelical background, I had many questions about the existence even in my youth and you know I thought about the cosmos went in briefly into studying the various different cosmoggonies of you know the ancient Egyptians. I've gotten into recently I've gotten into the hellistic people although I will admit a lot of my knowledge base about the henistic people is very uh very limited. It's very scant in scope and I also had the privilege to interact with many different people that exposed me to the worldview of the eastern world.

[00:06:54]I have read various different texts including a lot of forbidden academic text of very controversial per perennialist and also traditionalist thinkers you know that included the typically verboten Julius Cavola I've briefly ventured into the dangerous and treacherous territory of the lefthand path. I'm not going to name the specific group that I'm talking about, but if anybody is acquainted with the occult landscape online are very much aware of these people. So my method of looking into these things is kind of detachment which limits me in my scope because I don't like to politically entangle myself with any ideologies anymore.

[00:07:53]I've learned this can be a very very disastrous thing to do as a researcher and someone that's also an aspiring adept.

[00:08:04]This can be something that is very detrimental not only to your mental health uh which I mentioned previously that I have discarded that because I want truly inner understanding of myself and the world around me.

[00:08:21]So if you see me referencing certain particular people, it doesn't necessarily mean endorsement.

[00:08:28]I am only utilizing these texts and utilizing this as my own sort of personal research that I want to share with my limited uh but devoted audience.

[00:08:42]And I do want to emphasize that my limited and devoted audience is very much appreciated. And I don't say that in a condescending type of way. I say that in total love and total care.

[00:08:58]And also as a devoted sort of researcher, I have attempted to balance all the different worldviews, all the different streams of thought and consciousness and to condense it to try to help others that may be along that path. But now, as for now, I don't endorse anybody in particular. I don't endorse any political mindset. I will say that, you know, I am not really to the far right as I once was.

[00:09:38]I have sort of broadened my horizons and realized that a lot of political discourse unfortunately in like the modern sphere is a lot of it is dogma a lot of it is limited and a lot of it creates sort of a distorted sort of pathway.

[00:09:57]So with that said, I don't really have a particular topic to discuss other than the Chinva bridge.

[00:10:10]And like I said also my understanding of Zarastrianism, which is what the Chinva bridge emerges from, is somewhat limited as well. But I find this particular concept to be especially interesting.

[00:10:25]foremost as I've looked up the various different separate in the cabalistic tree I have discovered that various different separat um seems to coincide with a lot of different other belief systems.

[00:10:45]One in particular is the neoplatanist worldview which again I will emphasize my exposure to the neoplatonic systems is ongoing and it is ongoing to the point to where I don't want to speak authoritatively on it. I simply want to discuss some of what I have tried to piece together and that is platinus pla pluis.

[00:11:18]Uh forgive me if I'm also mispronouncing these words as commonplace in these live streams. If you see me mispronouncing words and I know that makes a lot of people cringe. just know that I am trying to develop uh you know a working sort of ontology of v these various different belief systems.

[00:11:43]So going back to the chinot bridge, one thing that has fascinated me uh from my inception and from my youth is the liinal spaces between the living and dying realms.

[00:12:01]For a lack of vocabulary, I will simply resort to calling them living and dying realms. The underworld is something in particular that has fascinated me. And it seems also that the consciousness that are within the underworld that in our existence we seem to experience let's just say in dream cycles and boy over the years I've had very vivid often not disturbing but very vivid very surreal dreams and these surreal dreams have you know fortunately impacted me in a very positive way. So I was thinking about and I'm starting here with my frame base and that is the ancient Egyptians. The ancient Egyptians believed that the sun went through varying different cycles. This correlated to the hours of the day. This also correlated to the various different gates that the ancient Egyptians looked to as being pathways to the underworld.

[00:13:07]And the underworld, of course, the Egyptians, quite contrary to what the modern-day western and mundane world sees as, you know, just kind of a final exit place. They saw it as a reemergence and a place to where someone could experience a type of spiritual rebirth, rejuvenation. And that very much is a part of my life.

[00:13:36]And I know on the internet often when the discourse of the occult, the magical or anything that is beyond the realms of the Christian context is often discussed quite sadly and framed in a type of diabolical and somewhat sinister aspect.

[00:13:56]And I think this is rather unfortunate because this is probably going to make a lot of people mad is that the occult is not necessarily evil or good. This is the dualistic aspect of morality. Of course, there are certain universals and ground laws that various different cultural people practice that is universal.

[00:14:24]But our modern day understanding, our manoachistic understanding of morality, I think has binded us and it has encapsulated us into our sort of prison, our demiurgic prison.

[00:14:42]And you have to understand over the years this has given me a lot of grief to try to reconcile all this together because of my Judeo-Christian background which I'm not here also to necessarily you know castigate any of the Christians as well. I openly embrace all different walks of life on this live stream and I ask people to have this certain understanding and move beyond the sort of uh loose farming aspects of the internet into something that is something a bit of understanding. We don't have to necessarily all get along, agree, and eventually probably a lot of us eventually will be dogmatic as we tend to go back to what shaped us and our reality from our youth.

[00:15:36]Uh, but I think we should, and I'm not preaching necessarily ecumenicalism or universalism because I'm unsure of those kind of concepts. I'm unsure of things like synchronism and some of these other aspects. And like I said, this is sort of a journey for me that I want to take by myself.

[00:15:57]Um, others along the way will probably appear, but this is, I would say, a kind of self-initiatory type of process.

[00:16:10]And like I said, I welcome and embrace differing points of views and differing aspects as I appreciate all these things as I've always been the person that has liked to interact um almost to my detriment to polarizing people of various different political as you know spectrums. It's quite unfortunate that people in this day and age sort of limit themselves, cloister themselves off to almost monasteries of the mind and almost to the aspect to where they house and enclose themselves into these sort of sealed spaces where their worldviews fment and their worldviews sort of entrapped them and ens snare them.

[00:17:04]And I believe also in Cabala, you could consider things that ensnare and entrap you to be clippoths and clipic um and demi-urgent type of entities.

[00:17:21]To some, I think they worship that because they like the chaos. And there's nothing wrong necessarily with the chaos. Chaos is part of our existence.

[00:17:30]is part of our world. So it should never be assued.

[00:17:35]It should always be sort of embraced.

[00:17:39]And I'm going to warn people also that if you choose to accept and go through this type of journey upon your own, be very careful.

[00:17:50]uh be very wary because like our secular and like mundane existence says that spirituality says that all these different forms do not exist. But I assure you this is not how the ancient people saw the world.

[00:18:08]I'm also not let me just also highlight I am not a reconstructionalist.

[00:18:14]I don't believe the antiquity, the ancient world can be reconstructed. For a long time because of like the state of like the world today, I have tried I immerse myself in also the trap of nostalgia, yearning for like the better days, yearning for the past. But I think as we move forward, we have to reconcile the past and we have to also forge sort of a new existence.

[00:18:49]And I'm sorry if I'm sounding newagy or any of these other things or this is woowoo to people.

[00:18:55]Um, like I said, we all start somewhere.

[00:18:58]And because my sort of spiritual path and my sort of uh reawakening of sorts has been sort of selfguided.

[00:19:10]I am not immune to many of the different flaws, many of different errors in my way. So don't expect me as to be any type of guru because I don't deserve the title.

[00:19:24]Also um this is not false modesty or false humility. I really do not deserve the title. Lots of people will you know when they are researchers or when they are podcasters or various different uh people you run into you'll run into a lot of charlatans until you peel away the layers and you can discern for yourself good information.

[00:19:48]Now what are the metrics to measuring if something is good information or bad information?

[00:19:55]And this all is dependent upon your mind state. For a lot of people because of the algorithm and because of you know the misguidance in our society, we tend to cling to personalities and we tend to cling to people that we fail in confidence which are always not the best guides to be the people to guide the way. But I will argue that you yourself and this is not to sound salopsistic or egotistical.

[00:20:29]You yourself are the best guide for this path. You yourself have to you know you have to internally sort of look at yourself and see if you know whatever pathway is appropriate for you.

[00:20:49]And I've struggled with that over the years. I will admit a lot of polarized politics, a lot of these different sort of worldviews, they give way to cultic type of underpinnings.

[00:21:09]And a lot of people because they are sort of drunk on power, they are drunk on guiding people and also because the fragmented reality that a lot of us live in, we typically go towards these things that very much is also part of this podcast as well. looking into the cultic millu of these various different uh groups.

[00:21:35]One in particular that I have studied over the years is ominio.

[00:21:40]I've looked into ominia which came to my attention around in 2019 although I had previously known about them you know from my childhood looking into the various different groups.

[00:21:53]So this is also a part of this podcast.

[00:21:57]This is also part of understanding of you know looking at the world and discerning the world around us.

[00:22:08]So like I said I have given you guys limited exposure to all these details but that's because I have been undergoing sort of personal development and through that personal development sometimes also it's not very good to enclose yourself off from you know society but sometimes you have to sometimes you have to seal yourself away from society to in order to gain what is truth and what is reality and you have to block out a lot of the extra noise that comes with the internet and I realize this is contradictory and many aspects because we depend on the internet in our daily lives to uh you know to like our friend groups some of us like do our shopping online some Some of us do you know a lot of our everyday lives online. So it would be very contradictory to say be just completely isolate yourself.

[00:23:16]But for some people this is a choice and for others people this is not a choice.

[00:23:21]um because of the way like I said that the world is structured now and the world is you know isolation is very much a part of our existence and you're kind of seen as a loser or someone that um is sort of asocial to discuss any of these issues but I think it is very vital and important to discuss these things.

[00:23:45]So, let me also let me also like just pull up this website real quick if I could and look into the Chinbot Bridge. Um, so bear with me a little bit. I'm going to try to pull up this uh this particular website I found on the Chinlot Bridge and kind of discuss it a little bit.

[00:24:15]And like I said, uh going back to like the underworld, the underworld is mysterious to a lot of people. Um does the underworld represent a certain type of consciousness?

[00:24:28]Does it represent a sort of undercurrent or shadow self that is dormant in a lot of us? Um, I know Carl Youngung is sort of a very controversial figure, but he did have some very vital points about the shadow self. And sometimes people look at the shadow self and they look at integration as being uh sort of a negative and sort of things that uh pre-exist within our consciousness that we don't always uh look into.

[00:25:04]So, let me just let me just look into the Chinbot Bridge here a little bit.

[00:25:16]And I don't want to like I want to find like a reputable website so I can discuss the Chinbot Bridge. I don't want to use like stuff like AI.

[00:25:27]I have grown very weary of a lot of AI stuff.

[00:25:35]So, and like I mentioned previously, I don't speak with any kind of authority, but I do believe on the cyparothic or tree of life.

[00:25:51]That's sort of seen as like the 11th cerat, which is the hidden or submerged cyparoth. And you have to understand for all the people that are kind of cabalophobic out there, you wouldn't really have a lot of Western esotericism, contrary to what a lot of people think or a lot of people say uh without the cabalistic tree. The cabalistic tree is sort of essential to people that want to explore Western esotericism.

[00:26:22]It's not a bad thing contrary to what people say. I've looked thoroughly into the various different controversial opinions and thoughts about the cabalistic tree and I found most of them to be uh nonsense to be quite honest with you.

[00:26:40]Uh for most part I don't look at the cabalistic tree as necessarily something to for world domination necessarily.

[00:26:52]Like I said previously, I know the the occult and all the rest of stuff is sort of a dirty word to people because to be quite quite frank and honest with you, a lot of people have abused it.

[00:27:04]And when you look into a lot of these different practitioners, uh even if you look into the life of people like Crowley and some of the others, they have quite a sorted past.

[00:27:19]The truth about this is is that human beings as we exist on this earth and this planet we all have a dark and a light side.

[00:27:28]The key is to I guess to integrate the both.

[00:27:32]So one doesn't subsume the other because if you have too much way light then you sort of become submissive and meek and if you have too much darkness you become sort of a tyrant.

[00:27:46]So I suppose some people would argue this is sort of the gray area and zone and there has to be balance just like with the water and fire elements that are talked discussed in our chemical processes because you have all these different things. They're not necessarily bad upon themselves.

[00:28:08]And you can conflate these things with your various different personalities, your various different developments in life.

[00:28:17]And some of us, of course, using the cabalistic tree are just stuck in malcuth.

[00:28:25]And that sort of like shades our whole entire existence. And people don't really get above a lot of our animal level of self. And you have to understand the animal level of self is not necessarily a bad thing.

[00:28:41]Uh it's primordial. It's something that's intrinsic to us, but it's something that we have to overcome in um our development.

[00:28:53]And I like I said, I don't want to delude anybody into uh or foster any kind of misconception about these things. I understand this is not everybody's cup of tea and I will assure you that this particular stream is not geared to solely one subject. And that's confusing to a lot of people because people like very specialized things.

[00:29:21]And I feel that specialized things sort of relegates you down to just a cog.

[00:29:29]I like to study various different things and sometimes find the intersection between these things and sometimes find some of the valid things and you know even that itself if you compartmentalize too much or if you synchronize stuff too much it can be detrimental.

[00:29:49]Huh. Like I said, I don't like to do that as well. I like to find some medium and some balance to a lot of these other particular issues.

[00:29:59]So, I want to say also that this is an introductory stream. This is not necess I'm not going in depth in any of this content. That is going to be ongoing.

[00:30:13]That is going to be something that I discuss on a regular basis. probably I'm going to try to do it at least two times a month um until eventually I sort of build something up to where I can uh maybe form a type of platform because like I said I'm sort of beginning all over again and this is like sort of what happens with society.

[00:30:41]Um you don't necessarily die a spiritual death. You don't necessarily like the ancient Egyptians had this concept to where you know your your heart is weighed as light as a feather and if you did not pass the negative confessions of myat you sort of just were eviscerated and evaporated into the atmosphere.

[00:31:08]You just were annihilated.

[00:31:11]And reality in life itself is that we undergo a lot of different annihilations.

[00:31:17]We undergo a lot of dead ends.

[00:31:20]And anyone that tells you otherwise that people have not underwent dead ends are lying to you.

[00:31:28]If you know you haven't been annihilated spiritually in your lifetime, these people are lying to you and trying to sell you um you know a lot of misconceptions.

[00:31:43]I'm also going to try to steer away from controversy in this stream. I realize that controversy is sort of the means of the internet.

[00:31:51]Now, I myself am quite a controversial figure, but for other reasons, and I don't really want to address this on this stream as I feel like it is a distraction.

[00:32:03]Just take me at my face value that I am going to discuss these things with the utmost sincerity and honesty as I try to uh explore them.

[00:32:17]And let's get into the Chinva bridge.

[00:32:21]And uh so basically the Chinva bridge is sort of this narrow bridge to where your sins and all your indiscretions on this earth. You walk on this bridge sort of like a thin sort of razor because the chasm that's beneath this bridge is an everlasting chasm.

[00:32:53]This is sort of like the whole bottomless pit to where you just struggle.

[00:32:59]And something that I looked into when I was looking into uh dot um which I believe is sort of one of those separat type of bridges is that separat is you're getting close to Keter. You're getting close to his various other and I like I said I'm not an authority. just speaking off what I have researched unfortunately quite secondhand because I can't I'm not a cabalistic scholar uh but I'm imparting into you like the best I have gleaned from various different resources that are available to me is that to get to sort of the and cross the abyss you have to walk past this sort of very thin and bridge.

[00:33:58]And this bridge is a lot of like it's a lot like judgment.

[00:34:05]It's a lot like also crossing the underworld as you go to get judged by um you know Anubis or Amp who and you know to Isis asset who's holding the scales and of course Jiuti or Toth uh some people will know as sort of writing down your deeds and reflecting upon upon these various different things that have happened over the course of your life.

[00:34:40]And you know, I'm not one to speculate about, you know, where the judgment came in Christianity or in Islam or the Abrahamic faiths.

[00:34:53]Because if you look at you know Judaism which is where Christian Christianity developed from Judaism doesn't really have a point like this in the early first temple period.

[00:35:09]It only has um a thing called shol which is the underworld. It has gehenna which is the prototype in later times people believe developed into hell.

[00:35:22]Uh even that's sort of like very speculative and a lot of what we perceive as hell is something that comes from Dante's inferno and from the pilgrims process pro prog sorry pilgrims pro pro sorry sorry um from John Milton the pilgrim's pro progress not process so a lot of that comes from later medieval times and from these various different like thinkers like Dante and this is not really shaped or coordinated in any direction. It is codified of course by later sort of Christian theologians but the Zarastrians are like the original uh formulators of this sort of concept.

[00:36:25]And what I found interesting in looking at just the historaphy of the Cabala itself is that you have to wonder if like Zorastrian concepts somehow diffused and maybe through the form of Mithism diffused into Neoplatonic study because much there's a text called the journey of um the dream of a cypio which talks about going to the various different spheres on a pathway or a journey and they go from sphere to sphere. This is of course seen in uh Plato's Tamias and of course you know Plato himself even had a concept of a type of machine type of demi-urgic system even though Plato itself is mostly philosophical content there are some spiritual undercurrens and stuff like Tamias that has like fascinated me and you would even like find a lot of concepts in Tamias and a lot of like early astrology.

[00:37:44]When you look into like early astrology, a lot of it was about, you know, following the forms of the the heavens and following the forms of the planets and uh this sort of highly influenced a lot of later texts that like the Pikatrix, which is like very uh and I have an avid fascination the Pikatrix as well uh because the Haranians, the people that lived in Turkey preserved a lot of the neoplatonic thought. This was a group of Islamic thinkers around that time period. And so like I have a very like sort of vivid interest in Anatolia or Asia Minor itself is very pivotal to the formation of stuff like stoicism.

[00:38:36]So when you look into like the the hellenistic stuff and uh one thing that also coincides with a lot of like apocalypticism is prophecy, right?

[00:38:47]Um you can blame a lot of my uh early curiosity into dispensationalism which is uh not a very good belief system even if you are a Christian uh to where your destiny should be tied to certain elements.

[00:39:05]uh certain elements in later periods of time. This is now this ties, believe it or not, this ties back to I believe the Plymouth Society.

[00:39:19]So you often wonder why is there all this fascination with the apocalypse in modern day Christianity? Why does this exist?

[00:39:35]primarily this kind of exists because the Plymouth Society John Nelson Darby what's interesting is that Alistister Crowley's father was one of the inherents of the Plymouth society and this is probably why a young Alistister Crowley not only utilized this to develop his Aionic system but also rebelled against a lot of his father's teaching as a lot of children often do with their parents.

[00:40:07]They rebel.

[00:40:09]And this like led to Crowley's fascination with the Scarlet Lady uh with the uh whole seals of the Apocalypse of Revelations. Now, you know, growing up as a kid, I also was deeply intrigued by the various different seals of the Revelations. It still fascinates me how sh St. John the relevator uh conceived of all this uh supposedly on the island of Patmos.

[00:40:42]This still like fascinates me even though I wouldn't call myself a Christian.

[00:40:47]I wouldn't say that I am immersed in Christian belief system. I mean teach their own I don't judge you know I don't judge people based on their belief systems. you know, whatever you believe in, as long as it's not like detrimental to you or greater society, I guess you're on the right path because like I said, we all have a entry point into looking at all these things.

[00:41:14]So I hand like like the reason also like just to circle back a little bit to the reason why I'm doing all this is because I got into esquetology and I didn't truly and the thing about it is is I'm being honest. I don't understand thoroughly a lot of these concepts.

[00:41:33]I try my best to piece together a lot of these concepts. I try with my limited scope uh through self revelation and through research and study because both are important if you're going to go down this path and I think truth is very vital not only about yourself but greater society when you look into these things.

[00:41:58]I think that's very important when you sort of use this as a guide and utilize it as a tool for development.

[00:42:07]um that you sort of understand some of the I guess you know like I said going back to the cabala some of the clipothic type of things that intercede with your uh you know stagnation your spiritual stagnation and part of that I think was my childhood looking into the book of revelations and I think this led me down a very nihilistic path This also put a very a distaste for a lot of Protestant mainline Protestant Christianity.

[00:42:46]This also limited I believe and put me in a kind of demi-urgic trap of nihilism which you know it's um it's a very big undercurrent in modern day society. I think if you look also at you know Nietze which a lot of people like to site but I think a lot of people don't understand Nietze as well. I didn't understand Nietze to a certain extent and still don't completely grasp the whole concept that Nichzche is talking about in his text.

[00:43:19]I think you have you know have passive nihilism and you have active nihilism.

[00:43:25]I'm not necessarily sure either one of them that are like you know intrinsically positive but they are like mind states and you know like I said niche is also another character that not necessarily a spiritualist or a cultist um but I can imagine he probably influenced also uh people like Crowley as well I don't know the direct link between Crowley or NZA but I'm pretty sure and Like by the way when I mention these various different people I'm not endorsing them. I do realize the limitations. I do realize the flaws and all these people and when you look into this is quite unfortunate when we look into a lot of these people that may have had certain insights into the world we start to see that they have character flaws.

[00:44:17]So, while we can acknowledge a lot of these people are sus to a certain aspect, uh we have to acknowledge that if you are like into magic, if you're into occultism, uh you have to acknowledge that they did kind of lead the way for a lot of further development or understanding.

[00:44:36]And even if you are anti-acultist, you know, let's just say you're anti-acultist. You don't like oultism.

[00:44:42]you think it is something that is detrimental to the world.

[00:44:48]Uh you can still glean a lot of insight into looking into uh the the sort of development of this in western society and even in eastern society not to exclude anybody because I don't talk on eastern uh you know eastern esotericism because I'm not that well versed in eastern esotericism. It's not something I have limited exposure to it from reading, you know, of course the controversial and often flawed character of Julius Avola, but I don't know anything beyond that.

[00:45:25]Uh, and I don't know how like much Evola actually understood eastern esotericism as I can't measure that. Um, like I said, I'm sort of a baby on my path to looking into this. And one thing I want to say also, I'm not a trend hopper. I noticed online a lot of people have heightened discussions in esotericism because I think it's probably very popular because you know like we live in sort of a void of a society right now to where uh things are chaotic and people are looking to something to try to control their life and balance their life and provide a counterbalance to answer some of the looming questions.

[00:46:10]So, you know, like I said, I'm not nec I don't endorse all these people, but I think you can't neglect these people.

[00:46:18]I don't necessarily like academic discourse about esotericism, but because I am a bit of a failed academic myself going into anthropology and so my university years and wanting to be an anthropologist, I also am quite a sort of failed academic myself.

[00:46:40]But I think concerning these issues, I think they're like I mentioned and I keep repeating this is it can be a balance. It doesn't have to necessarily be adversarial.

[00:46:51]uh when you look into these aspects, you know, another cringy sort of interest of mine and I know I realize a lot of people probably think this is cringey is I wanting to know how technology, how the internet and how all these things sort of interface and develop because I I know one thing even though we went through the enlightenment You know the western society went through the enlightenment.

[00:47:24]You know the spiritual tie that people had when they developed from uh what people would call superstitious or what people called a kind of more uh let's just say superstitious on you know ways of looking at the world.

[00:47:44]We didn't totally sever off our ties or cut that you know cosmic cord uh completely.

[00:47:56]If you look at a lot of renaissance to enlightenment thinkers a lot of them had deep ties to esotericism.

[00:48:04]I don't have to remind you. You know, Isaac Newton had ties to numerology, had ties to alchemy.

[00:48:13]People like Gerta, which is a powerhouse that um is part of the German idealistic mindset, also had ties to esotericism. And of course, Hegel, which is often under overplayed about Hegel's connection to hermeticism.

[00:48:35]This is sort of underplayed. Now, one notion I want to reject completely is I don't believe and this is going back to the Henistic thinkers. I don't believe Plato uh was some type of cabalist because I've heard people try to state and a lot of these people are looking for where they believe Western society went wrong. They often postulate that because the pcratics and because Plato may and people like Pythagoras may have had influences from the Mesopotamian area from Asia Minor that necessarily this is flawed and therefore this is you know incalculable towards uh reconciling this with the western notions and I'm not even to be quite honest with you. I'm not sure that I even like the western notions of esotericism. I'm not 100% certain it's necessarily my pathway. Uh but it's something I'm definitely exploring. It's something I'm trying to look at objectively as I look into like hermeticism and these various different concepts. I'm trying with all honesty to embrace a lot of these things and look into them.

[00:49:59]But like I said a as a you know fa kind of failed academic um I sort of still look at and frame things to how a lot of ways that I was taught in my you know anthropology classes like you know post structuralist structuralist type of anthropology you know I'm not sure how to divorce that other than I can try to marry all these concepts together and try to form a sort of peaceful synthesis of a lot of these ideas.

[00:50:33]So bear with me audience. Bear with me audience. I'm trying my best to like, you know, reconcile a lot of these things together because, you know, in even like going back to more secular stuff like parapolitics, looking at also a lot of people that have sort of dark past and looking how like the intersection of politics and even occultism works, which is kind of a popular pastime for a lot of people in these spheres because they the connections do exist.

[00:51:08]and they are there. But you have to understand also a lot of these people that were practicing a lot of these diabolical themes and their sort of practice were uh not only flawed individuals but they probably didn't have a very deep understanding of esotericism themselves.

[00:51:33]They didn't understand, you know, the golden chain of humanity that Godoro Bruno talks about. They didn't look into like, you know, the hermetic uh type of memory that Godoro Bruno looked into. They didn't have a good grasp of it. So, it sort of annoys me that sometimes people get lost in their own sort of pet projects to where they don't understand these things completely. And I've tried to tread that ground very lightly because I have friends and you know companions in the world that are into the esotericism and I also have people that don't like esotericism that find probably the occult not only antithetical to their own Christian or personal practice or for whatever reason they think that it has been shaded by uh diabolic intent. intentions over the years. I have people that often times uh you know that is a confliction and I'm just sitting over here. I'm trying to be objective. I'm trying to just be a researcher and I'm trying to understand these things. Um, and oftentimes this brings me into a lot of conflict with people and people often get the misperceived notions about myself or about what my intentions are.

[00:53:00]As of now, I am a jourer looking into these things. I am a person trying to find solace and truth in these various different things. At the same time, I'm also a parapolitical researcher.

[00:53:17]I find parapolitics to be very interesting.

[00:53:22]Albeit from the, you know, left or right side of the aisle. I find these issues to be very interesting. I also find very dark subject matters as it pertains to even people like Program to Kill and Dave McGowan to be interesting.

[00:53:39]Um, I find also labor history in America to be interesting.

[00:53:46]I find um you know the Epstein stuff to be interesting.

[00:53:51]Um I find you know organized crime and how it shaped how it was shaped through um the early America to be interesting.

[00:54:01]So, a lot of these things you might see, I'm typically when I go on podcast, I don't try to um I try to detach myself probably to my own detriment because a lot of the audience doesn't feel like they can connect to me because I haven't shared a lot of personal anecdotes about my life or but I have like I do I do like sharing those things but I also realize that in many instances um you develop ops or rivals online for whatever reason. Believe me, you know, for whatever course you're trying to take online, you're going to find you have ops. You have people that uh think you are, you know, up to something else other than what you're up to. So, it's sort of like treading that sort of skitsoid paranoia that comes along with talking these topics because quite unfortunately, it is true.

[00:55:00]that governmental agencies abuse the occult.

[00:55:06]Uh I have my own I they abused the occult through Operation Stargate uh through MK of Otton, MK Ultra, you name it. They abused a lot of these things uh and extracted a lot of knowledge. a very evil man, Sydney Golib, and some of the other people that were involved in all these operations. They were very much a cultist and very much dark practitioners.

[00:55:33]You know, if you whatever you want to say of that that term, they did have very bad intentions.

[00:55:40]But like I said, you can look at it as type of an art form or a tool that can be utilized for whatever your will will make it.

[00:55:53]Uh because a lot of it is determined on your will and a lot of it reveals you know what is truly inside of you internally whether you are truly a good person or not. And like I said I don't like to judge. I don't like to be the person that castigates or judges people, you know, I just want to seek truth, knowledge, and understand how that pertains to myself.

[00:56:25]Whatever journey you're on, I wish you the best and I wish you uh blessings.

[00:56:34]So, let me go and see if there's like anyone in the chat that has any questions or if anybody has any objections to what I've said. I've went on my monologue. I am going to keep this stream up because I think this stream in particular is just this is not an official type of podcast or official thing that I'm doing. It's just something I'm discussing. Um I do want to mention something very interesting uh in current events as it pertains to the magical world. I believe Peter Carroll, the chaos magician, uh, who was very influential in, you know, and then I think also to Kenneth Grant, uh, Osman Spare and people like that.

[00:57:25]They were very influential in developing sort of sigil and chaos magic, although it's deeper than that.

[00:57:32]uh this led into you know subcultures like Discordianism and Robert Anton Wilson and uh Church of the Subgenius and those various different things. I think you know as controversial as those things are we wouldn't have a lot of internet culture that we have now if it was not for those people.

[00:57:54]the way they um the way they you know the way that like he sort of uh is in an influential figure which I will acknowledge.

[00:58:03]We want to have a lot of like mimemetics and a lot of like um you know practices that a lot of people take for granted and chaos magic is something that I'm on the fence about. I'm sort of on the fence about chaos magic. It's another but it is not necessary. Like I said going back circling back to something I said is that you have to understand the antiquity was not dualistic as it pertains to morality.

[00:58:35]This doesn't give you you know it's I mean you can look at it like kind of in the low IQ aspect that this is just gives people uh sort of wi the will to be as evil as possible. That's not what that means.

[00:58:52]That's not what it means. Even in like chaos, there's a certain responsibility that someone has if you aren't adept.

[00:59:00]And I'm not speaking as if I'm an adept, but for my cursory understanding is that if you're well versed in this, you know, and that that will come to another, let me just put a pin in that topic.

[00:59:14]Uh, Baneful Magic is something that I probably will discuss as well because it's very popular. If you go on Tik Tok, if you go on other platforms, you'll notice there's these people that practice baneful magic, usually against people they disagree with politically or people they have problems with.

[00:59:40]And in some courses, I'm not going to totally condemn people that necessarily practice baneful magic other than say in certain instances when if someone is like transgressed against you and they've done wrong to you and it's justifiable, there's nothing wrong with it. Because sometimes people skirt our legal system and sometimes people uh transgress upon you that it has no recourse that uh you sometimes have to get vengeance and vengeance is not necessarily a bad thing. Uh but it can lead to your own path of destruction if you don't uh integrate your sort of shadow self and your darker instincts which we're all born with. Contrary to what people say, our darker instincts are not just confined to characters, you know, they are intrinsic in everybody, down to your minister at your church, down to your priest, down to holy men. Everyone has this capable, I think, of darker instincts.

[01:00:48]And I'm not going to sit here and say that only particular you know um figures throughout history or uh you know humanity itself that you know some people unfortunately are sort of born with those instincts.

[01:01:03]And I would argue and this is just that to step aside from just the all the you know the esoteric talk is that some of these people that are you know have darker capabilities often are talking about doing good.

[01:01:22]This seems to be like a concept that a lot of people misunderstand in like the western world is a lot of people who do good deeds. It's cover.

[01:01:33]It's cover for uh a lot of their real intentions and a lot of philanthropic uh millionaires and billionaires.

[01:01:42]They will participate in um philanthropy as a cover for a lot of their bad deeds.

[01:01:49]And if anything, if like you know parapolitical researchers and this is a little bit of annoyance of mine, they will they will you know disclose a lot of this stuff this information uh but they won't really give you insight into how this applies to your everyday life.

[01:02:10]So this does apply to our everyday life and this is just to get out on a tangent about uh you know about uh parapolitics here. I know it annoys some people that uh I utilize that term and some people are not even aware of what that term means but I'm sure a lot of people in this audience are familiar with what parapolitics is.

[01:02:34]if you're not. It's it's sort of a um a term that was uh that was like discussed made popular I believe by Peter Dale Scott uh discussed I believe sometime in the 70s about how uh some things in political theory on the far left or far right or the left right spectrum or wherever you lie.

[01:02:58]These things have you know undergirling type of instances where it's beyond that scope.

[01:03:08]It's beyond like the scope of these two uh bionaries. These two binaries don't combine political theory and it discovers it discusses a lot of fringe topics as well as stuff that is uh you know covered in assassinations uh conspiracies and also about you know uh money sources.

[01:03:33]I mean, let's put it in its most reductionist sort of simplified term as I can, but it's sort of like the side politics and something that is like uh subterranean as it pertains to like political discourse.

[01:03:50]And like I said, I hope I've conveyed a lot of my thoughts and people appreciate the stream and I will now like uh go and answer it like anybody has any questions uh to talk about.

[01:04:10]Okay, let's see.

[01:04:15]Let's see. might be a dumb question, but is this a dark cell?

[01:04:20]I subscribe to this channel, but I don't remember what this channel is about and not many posts on this channel. This channel is about parapolitics, esoterica, and also about a random cultural critique of the modern day society.

[01:04:45]This is like what this channel is about.

[01:04:47]This particular channel in in particular is not really confined to like one subject.

[01:04:55]So I don't just discuss one subject. I discuss mult a multiplicity of various different subjects and some of them controversial and some of them not. Um, and if you find yourself kind of lost in what I'm discussing, make sure to uh ask me questions, uh, try not to I will ask you try not to ask me too many racy questions as I'm not trying to lose my channel. Uh, and I'm not trying to go too far off the deep end that a lot of people on the internet does. I'm trying to leave it concise and to the point and to talk about these subjects. I mean I am going to cover more things thoroughly thoroughly and in depth but this is like sort of a channel that I made to try to understand uh subject matter that I had an interest in which is parapolitics esoterica and apocalypticism put in its most uh basic format. I do appreciate your subscription, but I don't think this channel is a quote unquote dark cell channel. I don't think that pertains to this channel, but uh you're more than welcome on this channel, but no, not explicitly what you're discussing.

[01:06:24]Let me see what else. So, okay. Wasn't sure got on YouTube in my subs, seen live, clicked, didn't maybe it was a different channel name.

[01:06:34]See, a lot of people think because of my name, Dementoto Mori, that I'm necessarily a doomer.

[01:06:43]No, I'm not a doomer. I just like embracing both the light and the dark.

[01:06:50]And I think both are essential in discourse and human existence.

[01:06:56]So, I don't shy away from either one of those particular topics.

[01:07:01]And so, no, I'm not a doomer. I'm not within the doomer subculture or within those sort of mind states. As of now, I would call myself more of an esotericist, uh, more of a person that wants to get deeper into esoteric discourse and looking into these very different topics.

[01:07:23]Uh, so that's sort of where this channel is go going. So let me see who else has a comment. Um let's see. Gehenna. Geenna is a physical place while the other is a spiritual place. Well, you have to understand when we talk about like spiritual and physical places. The people in antiquity uh which is what the people of the Bible were just as the ancient Egyptians and the Assyrians and everyone surrounding those particular cultures.

[01:08:00]uh they didn't really separate spiritual space from physical space.

[01:08:06]So a lot of the spiritual space is sort of a map onto their physical space and their physical space is sort of a map onto their metaphysical space if that makes sense to you.

[01:08:21]uh that's the most uh basic way I can uh you know explain that and that's why I was talking today about the bridge of chinvat which is a very the concept of like the judgment bridge in zorastrianism uh which you know I will probably eventually do a stream to talk about that the more resources and material I gather to talk about it so you know you have to understand there's not a lot of sep separation between physical and spiritual like uh real estates or um or geography not a lot of difference between the two uh because like you look just to give the ancient Egyptians as and the ancient Egyptians I'm most comfortable with uh I mean even like amongst the Egypt ancient Egyptians and the Mesopotamians they have different concepts of the underworld. Like our very term of the abyss uh comes from a Mesopotamian term that means absu which is the water into the water.

[01:09:34]And the Egyptians have a very a different underworld. Like the underworld within the Mesopotamians was more of like a clouded space that had different entities within it that they believed lived within these spaces. The Egyptians had sort of the same concept, but their underworld was more of a passageway to uh let's just say the stars. It was more of a passageway between the living and unliving realms of the world.

[01:10:09]And uh the modernday rural Egyptians still actually believe in a lot of these concepts that uh the pharaohs believed in which I, you know, I have touched upon as well in other podcasts that I've discussed.

[01:10:27]uh they have you know they they believed in a lot of you know they believed in like the living and dying realms of the world were not uh that much different from one another. They had a true connection to a lot of their you know ancestors and they believed that you know their ancestors could intervene in a lot of their uh worldly affairs.

[01:10:55]And I believe you know uh there are people that call this like the hungry ghost that are uh prevalent.

[01:11:04]I believe also maybe the north had these concepts as well.

[01:11:09]Uh so you know this these are like kind of universal concepts. So a lot of what you find with the early archaic Hebrews was not a lot different from the surrounding people. They just didn't have as developed of an underworld concept as the ancient Egyptians had until I would say the second temple period. So that's sort of what I'm I'm gathering at. Uh but I will I will try to discuss that later on.

[01:11:40]Let me see what else.

[01:11:44]I noticed that an Orthodox Jew didn't understand what Gehenna was. I think it was because they used the Old Testament by the quote there. Well, no comment on that on uh that. But um I you know I think I don't want to get this I don't want to discuss Judaism. I only reference Judaism to show that as a framework into the underworld.

[01:12:16]So, okay.

[01:12:26]Well, guys, I think this is probably going to be it for now.

[01:12:34]I thank you guys for tuning in for looking into uh my channel and I encourage people to also further look forward to like other things that I'm going to discuss in the future. This has been an introduction to sort of my path working and pathway and my bridge into my reemergence towards destiny. Thank you very much for tuning in. I thank you each and every one of you and send you blessings and for that have a good night.