An Unproductive Day as a PhD Student

Added: 2026-05-08

[00:00:00]Good morning mamas. Today I woke up real early cuz Yasha was scraping my door.

[00:00:06]That little [ __ ] right there was scratching the door asking to go outside. So now I'm just going to get ready ASAP to get to work PhD work. It's been a long time since I did any work at home because as I said there are distractions. I'm not good against them.

[00:00:22]But you know here's a funny thing. So I was sort of getting to the point of near burnout and I say this with half pride and half sadness in my voice. But I think I've become a bit of a professional at understanding when I'm near the breaking point and I was very well aware that she's getting to her tipping point very soon because I was trying to read nothing could get in my head. I was trying to go out. I could not even imagine [music] getting out in the sun. Of course part of that is due to my Lucio face like she's wrecking my life understandably.

[00:00:59]At the same time I feel like >> [music] >> I didn't have any time to rest at all.

[00:01:02]Like I was just alternating between PhD and maid [music] work and throughout the whole thing I'm also vlogging and editing. And so I was I was getting it up to here. And so I was like all right it's time to pause. And you know what I'm going to do? I'm going to spend [music] a whole day playing Mobile Legends and sleeping. That's all I'm going to do.

[00:01:21]And so that's what I did. I spent a whole day just [music] playing re-queuing just having fun not even thinking about work not thinking about how guilty I am not thinking about a deadline of mine ass nothing. And then after playing for a while I'm like you know what I'm tired. I'm just going to take a nap. And I took a nap in the middle of the day. It was like the most revolutionary thing in my life. And so after that full day because before this I've had a few times when my body has refused to work. My soul has refused to work and I allowed it a day of just doing whatever [music] the [ __ ] I want and it was able to recharge its battery that way. And so I did that and it worked because the day after that I was able to work from home. Oh my god miracles. And so I was able to submit something yesterday. And I did spend a few days not vlogging at all because I was just running out of battery. I couldn't go outside. I couldn't do anything. It was just a whole thing right? And normally I mean honestly for normal people that is pretty normal just to have a rest day right? I do have a few new things that I want to update you girls with. First of all we have reached YouTube partnership. I did put a post out on that and this video will come like way later. But still I just want to say thank you to all of you for finding me for discovering me and for leaving such amazing comments and staying so that we can become little nest of beautiful people. Kind of creepy if you think about it like a nest like a bird nest but it's like full of these tiny ass beautiful people. That's scary.

[00:02:46]I don't know. I think thinking about tiny tiny people like all clumped together triggers something in me. It's like similar to trypophobia but it's like when I was younger I had a nightmare cuz I was playing with my doll and I really love dolls and I really love like dressing up the dolls and whatever. But one day one of the dolls the leg fell off. It was the doll that looked like very crooked. It was the doll that was chewed up by my sister's old dog and she was just mama she was haunted. So when that leg fell down I was like nope. And the rest of my life I didn't play with dolls anymore. I got a nightmare about me being stuck in a room and the dolls were just like slowly creepily crawling onto me until it's like I'm I'm like a mound of dolls and I couldn't do anything about it. And now that I think about it that's giving me the nuff.

[00:03:31]Interesting. Anyways yeah what else is there to update you about? A lot of things happened in the past couple days. I'm just here responding to my customers comments. They're trying to book in on the day that I'm working and I'm like come through come through my friend. I appear on a lot of those promotional things and then the customers be like is that girl that little bite of 87 >> [laughter] >> going to be in on this day that we want to go in and I'm like hell yeah she's replying to your comments right now. And they're like absolutely let's go. I don't care where this goes but I'm just going to do my best that whatever happens I won't ever have to say it was my bad for not giving it my all.

[00:04:16]Also I am so tempted to like a makeup haul kind of video like refreshing some of my makeup stuff. For example eye palette you know like getting a new eye palette because mine is 5 years old and 100% expired. Also you know it might have like some more interesting color scheme or some more like doing appropriate shades but I don't know. I think it'll be very fun to go makeup shopping with you girls. I'm a disappointed because we were getting into really cold weather. We were getting to the 9 degrees the thunderstorms and now it is so sunny and hot. Don't know when winter is finally going to come. She keeps teasing me. My balls are blue. I bet you when that winter comes you'll see my efficiency skyrocket. And you might be like in the comments like girl what do you mean?

[00:05:10]Like your efficiency is already off the charts. What are you going to like work yourself to death? Right now some of the days I don't even want to go to the office because the outside is sunny. I'm not even trying to play character being Dracula or whatever but I genuinely just [ __ ] hate being out in the sun and sunny days irritate the [ __ ] out of me.

[00:05:28]Very much a gloomy day girl. And I told my mom this and she was like it's probably because you were born on a day with thunderstorms. Like you were born on a gloomy day. I think I also have another reason which is that back then gloomy and stormy days you were allowed to stay home. Like you don't have to go to school. Cold days as well when you were a kid when it's super cold you don't have to go to school and it also aligns with Lunar New Year you know the time when you don't have to go to school.

[00:05:55]At the same time the sun is just like morning time whereas afternoon is when you're allowed to go back home. Guess what? From school. I remember one of my favorite memories of all time is waking up one day and it was a gloomy day right? I remember everything about this day and it's only a split second moment but it's like in my head forever. My parents were very very busy. I mean to be honest like they're still pretty busy right now. When I was growing up my parents were so busy we barely ever had time together. It's usually like when I wake up they're already getting ready to go to work and then we're getting ready to have a whole day of no interaction with each other. As a kid like I never sort of complain about this but I think I think my kid brain understood what was happening and it did not like that because one day it was a gloomy day. It was a rainy day. I woke up and when I woke up I saw that my mom was sitting on the bed in her pajamas reading a book next to me. [music] And I don't know why I want to cry every time I say that. Then after I saw that I was so happy and I was able to go back to sleep. And I think that's because you know I never get to have that. Like she's never staying at home and I'm never allowed to sleep in and it's just like the perfect It was the perfect morning you know to see that your mom is still there to see that she's taking it slow for once to see that you get to take it slow for once as well. A very small moment but it really like it was really significant [music] in my mind. I know I yap so much during the makeup like when I edit all my vlogs I realize that the initial part of the vlog where I do my makeup is always the longest because that's when I yap so much. And then the part where I actually do [ __ ] it's like tiny. Another moment I can recall that's pretty significant which is the moment when I felt absolute happiness. And now I think a lot of us we go through life wanting happiness wanting to chase happiness or find happiness. A lot of people don't really know what happiness feels like. I think I have achieved that. I think it was like 3 5 seconds but I was sitting in the living room with my parents. I think it was just an off day or I was I think I was home during summer when I was studying abroad or something. It was just a regular afternoon. My dad was watching TV. My mom was sitting there with me. For some reason I don't know why but for 3 to 5 seconds I felt whole.

[00:08:25]Like I felt complete. And I felt this sense of happiness where everything froze essentially. Like time froze and I was in the perfect moment in time. It was so complete. It was so I I can't even like explain it to you. It was insane it hit me out of nowhere.

[00:08:44]Like I wasn't trying to be happy. I wasn't I wasn't anything but I in that moment I felt like this is it. Like I could happily die right now. It is so perfect. And I was so shook by it that I I rushed to the nearest paper and pen and I wrote down the day and I was like today I felt complete true happiness. My mom was a Buddhist so she was like at that [music] point you probably like ascended for a little bit. Like a taste of Nirvana you know but I don't know. It was just it was so out of nowhere and I'm not a religious person.

[00:09:14]>> [music] >> I don't meditate. I nothing [snorts] at all. So it was just very surreal to feel that and I hope you get to feel that you know one of these days just so we can relate on that front because it's quite an insane experience. Okay so this is a hilarious thing to happen but I got ready and as I was about to go out to work [music] I saw a comment on my post about membership and about like having channel emotes. I had four cat meme emotes and this comment pointed out the shockingly obvious mistake that I had made and they said you need bear emotes.

[00:09:53]And I was like >> I guess I'm not going to work.

[00:09:58]>> [laughter] >> I open up my computer and I search for bear meme emotes and let me tell you, it is so hard to find funny bear meme emotes. Everything is cat nowadays.

[00:10:10]Everything is a cat face, cat meme, blah blah blah. There is no resources for bear memes. It's so sad. So, I tried really hard to find one and then I got four right now. If you want to see what they look like, go down in the comment section below. I use them all the time.

[00:10:27]If you also want to use them, you can join the membership. It's only 0.99 a month. It's literally like the lowest price point that YouTube allows. I would have these emotes for free on YouTube if they allow it, but since they put it behind a membership, you know, I just have to create that so that I can use it. Um but yeah, if you want to use it, if you want to join the gang of my beautiful people, check out the membership, but otherwise you don't have to. You can still watch my videos for free and you and I will still be uploading as usual even if we have no members. But uh yeah, so now I will finally go to work and I was staying in my bedroom. My bedroom has these black curtains that attract the heat of the sun. So, I was in my bedroom and I did not have my AC on because my balcony is dirty right now and it's taking in all the dog poop and dog piss smell and [ __ ] So, I didn't want to turn on the AC. So, I was cooking myself in my bedroom trying to scrape the internet for these bear memes. It was not good.

[00:11:26]It was not a It was not great. But at least now we have some lower accurate emotes. So, I'm going to head to work now. Okay, today is a horrible day because I had to cook myself in my bedroom for another 20 [ __ ] minutes um trying to search for my [ __ ] earphones, the ones that I'm wearing right now because I can't fathom going outside without music. I also need music as I'm working. Couldn't go without it.

[00:11:49]And I tried to look everywhere. So, the first place that I searched for also my hair is [ __ ] splitting. Today's horrible. Today is so horrible. I really want to stay home. The first place that I tried to look for my earphones was in my work bag because that was the last place that I put it. I couldn't find it.

[00:12:04]I tried to find it in every single [ __ ] bag and every single [ __ ] jacket and every nook and cranny in my house for 20 damn minutes only to find it in the work bag that I searched for in the first place because it's a white earphone and it's a white work bag. I'm going to kill myself. Sorry, it is so hot. It is so [ __ ] hot today. I am sweating as we speak. My hair did not stay on today. Can we see that she's [ __ ] moving? I am not having a good time today. My skin is so tacky and so itchy from all the sweat.

[00:12:36]>> [sighs and gasps] >> I feel like I should move.

[00:12:39]I should move. You know where I should move to? I should move to one of these very tiny European countries where they just don't get sun. Like maybe a year they get like 6 days of sun. Everybody rejoice and then they go back to their gloomy selves. I need to be in that state right [ __ ] now because [ __ ] this sun and [ __ ] this weather and [ __ ] this heat and [ __ ] these sweats. Can you tell I'm in my luteal phase?

[00:13:03]I don't want to go out anymore. I want to like erase all of this and stay home and work. Wait, actually I can do that.

[00:13:07]Can I do that? Can I please do that right now? [ __ ] this sun. Can you see how disgusting it looks? Ew. I know that a lot of people say that they admire me for my work ethic and that I'm an inspiration of hard work and all of this, but you know how like even Superman has kryptonite? My kryptonite is the sun. Wait, kind of That's kind of like the opposite of Superman.

[00:13:30]Basically, when the weather gets like this, I stay the [ __ ] home because [ __ ] this. I hate it. Sincerely. I'm seriously debating just doing my work at home because like what the [ __ ] the difference? What the [ __ ] is the difference? Sincerely, I go there and then what the [ __ ] do I get? What What do I get? See, I'm going to do my work at home. I I don't care anymore. I hate this. And I'm sorry to my sunny people, but I just cannot be you. I'm not you.

[00:13:55]I'll never be you and I'm fine with that and I hope you're fine with that, too.

[00:13:58]Can't [ __ ] breathe in my bedroom. My bedroom genuinely becomes an oven.

[00:14:01]That's like 5° hotter than the outside of my house, but I have to be here to do my [ __ ] So, you know, now that we're here, here's my two cents. Okay, let me just be frank. Let me stop being Coco for a second and let me turn into Frank because PhD, you know, I I love the people in my PhD office. Okay, I said that so many times before in my vlog. I love my supervisors. I love my colleagues. I love blah blah blah.

[00:14:23]At the same time, why the [ __ ] do I have to be in office to do work again? I don't understand that because all I need is laptop and my brain. That's all I need. Like, what the [ __ ] I hate I hate when people are like, "Are you coming into the office? Oh, why aren't you coming into the office?" Because the weather, Barbara. Because do you see these UV rays? It is insane. I I don't know how I got pressured into this. All right, but I should just re-embrace my hikikomori [ __ ] roots, my shut-in roots, and just stay the [ __ ] home.

[00:14:55]Because this is where I'm the most comfortable. This is where I feel literally at home. Hello? Like you have you have that phrase for a reason. It's the peak condition to be in. Every time I go out, my dogs have to be lonely, my cats have to be lonely. I have to be lonely. The follicular me can take it.

[00:15:12]Okay, the ovulation me can take it. The luteal me, baby, she is not taking a single thing. All right, she can't take it anymore. Seriously. Why the [ __ ] do we have two weekend days anyways? That's not enough. 8 hours of work, okay? How many hours of commute? Let's add to that. How many hours of getting ready?

[00:15:30]Let's add to that, too. How many hours of burnout? Let's add to that.

[00:15:33]Socializing. I'm so done. I'm sorry. I'm cracking. I'm cracking. Yeah. Humpty Dumpty is cracked right now. So, I need to act the way I look. Demeanor.

[00:15:43]>> [laughter] >> No, I'm sorry. I'm just like It just gets too much sometimes. You know, sometimes I wish that life is like a video game. You know how like doesn't matter if you're in a boss fight, doesn't matter if you're on a quest, doesn't matter if you're low health, doesn't matter whatever. When you pause the game, okay, and you exit out of that game, time freezes. You don't lose your progress. The game doesn't nag you to keep going and you just exit. I need that. And then after you've recharged, grabbed a bite, slept on it a little bit, you know, just like relax.

[00:16:15]Whenever you want to log back in, you can log back in. I need that for life right now. Like I need this so that every time of the month when comes the time before thy bleed, I can just log out. Let me just log out temporarily, okay? Let me just exist in a cocoon of pure darkness and zero stimuli [music] and zero thoughts and zero feelings and let me just let me just exist a little bit, okay? And then I'll come I'll log back in. Promise. [music] Promise I'm going to log back in when I start bleeding. I'm going to log back in and I'm going to be way more efficient and there's going to be no drama, okay?

[00:16:54]There's going to be no meltdowns, no nothing because I don't have to do anything. I can just log out. I don't have any guilt. I don't have anybody pressuring me. I don't have the grind, the hustle going on around me. When I'm not there, I don't have to see any of it. I don't have to do any of it. I'm just log out.

[00:17:13]I don't know. I feel like a lot of the people in the comments will understand what I'm saying, but then there's some there's going to be some people who are like, "Oh my god. What What are you Are you like weak? Are you a pussy?" And by the way, I don't agree with the phrase, "Are you a pussy?" Me and Days we're actually changing things around in this household because I saw a meme and it says that a [ __ ] can take a beating, but a ball sack little flick and you're gone. So, I actually call it a ball sack now instead of a [ __ ] So, it's like, "Are you a ball sack? Like are you weak or something?" You know what I mean? And it's like, "You know what? I am." Like I actually am. I am kind of weak and kind of fragile. I have no hair or claws. I mean >> [music] >> I kind of do, but like you get what I mean. You know, like I don't have fangs.

[00:17:54]I don't have a turtle shell on me. I don't have any of these protective mechanisms. All I have is my brain and my brain in my luteal phase is not my friend, okay? Like she is someone else.

[00:18:06]So, like why the [ __ ] do I have to keep going on when this is happening? I don't get it. Of course, I understand that I'm very lucky that I'm in a position where I can work from home, where I can just like chill like this. I know some people don't have that luxury. They have to be at their workplace, you know. So, thoughts and prayers to you if that's you. I'm so sorry, girl. I I can't imagine like being a girl with PMDD getting to this time of the month and just [ __ ] disintegrating at the workplace is just Do you see the pain of being short? I have to use a stool to access my own noodles. All right, let's see what kind of poison we can pick today. These ones are my favorite. They are so god tier. You know, if there are still people who watch this and think that I'm exaggerating, okay? Think that, "Oh, you're just doing that for the camera. You're just trying to be dramatic. You're just trying to get off work." You got to understand, okay? I have been raised in a household where your worth is your medal. If you don't have a medal, you don't have a worth.

[00:19:12]>> [snorts] >> And all I want in life is to be able to work every single waking moment skipping food, skipping pissing, skipping everything. Okay? I just want to achieve. I just want to do as many things as possible. Like besides my parents' mindset, I personally also have this mindset for life where I think of it as the only chance that I get to live. All right, I don't believe in reincarnation. And so for me, it's like any break that I take is a missed opportunity to do all of that. And so, why the [ __ ] would I want to [ __ ] myself once every month and go on this rampage, okay? Of like, oh, my house is going to be in wrecks, my emotion is going to be in wrecks, I'm going to feel horrible about myself, I'm going to pause all activities that I was wanting to do.

[00:20:06]I'm going to sour my own relationships with my loved ones, I'm going to scare my pets because I get irritated and they can feel it in my energy. It's like, why would I want this? It's so funny. But, it is impossible, okay? It is actually impossible to explain it to someone who doesn't go through it, and it's not just dudes, right? Like, obviously dudes don't go through this. But, I think even within our girl group, it's like girls with PMDD and girls with PMS, complete different ballgame, my girls, because I talked to my girlies with PMS and they're like, "Oh, yeah, and then I get, you know, irritated, and then the cramps hurt." And when I say, "Oh, yeah, do you also want to like >> [music] >> every single month?" She's like, "Excuse me?" Like, you know, she gets really, really worried. But, when I talk to my girlies with PMDD, she's like, "Oh, finally, an ally. Oh, you too? All right." It's It's like It's a different ballgame.

[00:21:09]Okay, so I've been attempting to work from home for the last couple of hours, and I got to say, I don't love it. I'm kind of struggling right now to focus. I don't feel like doing anything. I can't get into anything. It's so weird because like I feel like sometimes I get into it, and when I get into it, like no one can pry me out of it. But, if I don't want to get into it, I myself can never force me to do it, >> [laughter] >> if that makes sense. I also need some advice from my supervisors, and they're not coming back to me, so >> [sighs] >> I don't know. One of the things that I really dislike is paperwork. I really dislike paperwork. I think the whole like bureaucracy stuff, paperwork stuff, is just like the bane of my existence.

[00:21:58]It's so I I don't know why. Downlighting is like an actual crime. Like, I look so cute here, and then what the [ __ ] is that? I'm going to I'm going to talk like this from now on.

[00:22:06]>> [clears throat] >> No, but the thing is, does anybody know why paperwork is so frustrating? Like, there's got to be a reason. Actually, I'm going to look this up right now. Why do I despise paperwork so much? Because it's a low-stimulation, high-cognitive load task that drains mental energy, leading to errand paralysis and anxiety. It forces hyperfocus on monotonous detail task, often triggering perfectionism or fears of errors. It is a common struggle, especially for neurodivergent individuals, due to the need for sustained executive function, dopamine deficiency. Paperwork is often boring and lacks the instant reward or excitement the brain craves.

[00:22:45]Particularly challenging for those with ADHD. Here's the thing, like should I just book an appointment with point.

[00:22:50]Does anybody have ADHD? Can you please drop a comment real quick? Does the medicine actually help you? I've had so many people in my life tell me that I definitely have ADHD, but the thing is, if it does, and that's the reason why I'm successful, would I want to take a pill for that?

[00:23:06]No, but seriously, like if it helps, if it helps, please please drop a comment.

[00:23:10]If it actually helps me go through this and like get rid of all this block, I would love to do it because here's the thing, >> [music] >> when I was doing research, right? When I was in the middle of research for my project, I just went on and on and on and on, and I did that every [ __ ] day, and I love falling into those rabbit holes. But, right now, what I'm having to do is the paperwork part of PhD, which is the ethics, [music] and it is so like it sucks the [ __ ] soul out of me, and I just I can't I can't stand to look at it, if that makes sense. I don't know. I feel like some people are going to really relate with me, and we're going to like hold each other's hands and be like, "Yes, yes, exactly." What some other people are just like, "You're just making up excuses. Just get through it." It's like I hate every form of paperwork. Not even just this PhD stuff. Like, for example, if I need to do paperwork for my passport, for my visa, for my application, for anything, if it just has paper, it just [ __ ] like kills me. Anyways, this vlog is a very negative one.

[00:24:08]>> [laughter] >> I apologize for that, but actually I don't, because this is just how it is, you know? Like, life has the bitter and the sweet. Can't be sweet all the time.

[00:24:18]I feel like I could have made three [music] more videos in the amount of time that I spent staring at this piece of document that I did not edit because I don't know where to start, and I don't even know if I want to start, and it's just like Maybe I have to restart this. Oh, my [ __ ] I'm going to I'm going to Do you know how many times I've written this ethics document? But, I feel like editing it is more work than just starting a new one.

[00:24:51]Oh, my god. I really hate this. Oh, my god. What? Just realized how much I hated this. That is wild. Wait, hold up.

[00:24:59]What is the price of a therapy?

[00:25:01]ADHD diagnosis in Australia involves multiple sessions, usually two or five, costing 2,500 plus AUD for a full assessment. I have to pay money for someone to acknowledge >> [music] [laughter] >> How often do you take ADHD medication?

[00:25:24]All right, what does this say? Once daily or multiple times daily? Wait, that is [ __ ] I don't want to be dependent on a drug for the rest of my life. When I was younger, okay, I think I was like in middle school or something, I told my mom that I, you know, I had [music] different voices in my head. And the thing is like I can't hear it the way my ears can hear it.

[00:25:45]Like, I don't think it's the same as like say a schizophrenic person hears it. But, like I was just saying there's different, you know, voices in my head.

[00:25:52]Like like I can hear myself. It talks a lot, like the voice in my head like talks a lot. It's not like cursing or saying haunted [ __ ] or like, you know, scary anything. It's just like it just keeps [ __ ] talking, and like I can never turn my brain off. And when I told her that, I don't remember how, but I think there was like a psychiatrist who gave me this pill, and it was like in this orange bottle, and it got a white cap, and I don't remember what the name of it was. I mean, I was I was a child.

[00:26:17]And then she was just like, "Take these." And I [ __ ] you not, the voices disappeared. It was quiet in my brain.

[00:26:24]But, it was so quiet that I got really scared. I remember telling my mom like, "I'm I'm not used to this, and it's really scary, and it's really lonely, and it's it's very weird. It's very uncomfortable." So, after that, I stopped taking the pill, but I didn't get like diagnosed with anything, which is very strange. I don't even know what that pill did. I don't know Is that the same with it I don't I cannot believe that I had full makeup on today just to stay home. Isn't that funny? I didn't stream or anything. I didn't make any use of this makeup. I needed to go outside, and then I just ended up staying home all day. But, well, job well done, makeup. Now it's your time to retire, and the worst part will be washing these glue-bound hair.

[00:27:09]I'm just going to take it off because after a couple of hours of wearing it, I get pretty not frustrated, but like physically overwhelmed. Like, I don't know how to explain it. I don't know if you girls have the same experience, but for me, if I'm in makeup for more than a couple of hours, like at the end of the day, when I have my makeup on for the whole day, I will have this sensation where I want to claw my face off. Like, it feels so suffocating. It doesn't matter what product I use, but it just feels so like this intense feeling of wanting to burst open. It's like claw my [ __ ] face out. He just came back home from work, and he knew that I was in my luteal phase. He knew that I was [ __ ] suffering and going through it, so he bought me a cake, a cheesecake, a pack of sakura Kit Kat, and a box of sponge cake. I was very happy, and I was in the middle of washing my hair, and then I cried.

[00:28:12]>> [laughter] >> I don't know, man. I'm just like I'm just being Humpty Dumpty right now, okay? I'm just like one poke away from either extreme rage or extreme sadness or extreme happiness. It's There's no in between right now.

[00:28:27]I'm going to eat my cake. I hate that the moment I said I'm going to eat my cake, there's immediately a voice in my head that said, "What did you do to deserve this cake?" Because I didn't work well today. Um, but I also love the fact that I'm now an adult, and I can reply to that voice, "I can eat this cake because I'm alive on this earth, [ __ ] and I'm only alive once. I've already been born. There's no going back, so let me have my [ __ ] cake." I love how the cake comes with a little fork. That's so demure, and it comes with a piece of marshmallow on top as well.

[00:28:59]That is adorable. Itadakimasu.

[00:29:01]Oh.

[00:29:03]Hair in my mouth. How could you ruin my first bite like that? All right, redo.

[00:29:07]Itadakimasu.

[00:29:10]Mhm. Oh, my god, that is thick. She was so [music] thick that I tried to get her out of the fork, but she just stuck to it.

[00:29:17]Damn, that cheesecake did not come to play. I take the days that today when I went down to get our parcel, Remy stole my last sakura Kit Kat on my table, and he chewed on the packaging. He didn't eat any of it, but that was my last sakura Kit Kat, and I was waiting to eat it. I was like saving it. So, he bought me sakura Kit Kat.

[00:29:38]When we first dated, obviously Daze didn't know anything about like PMDD or how how bad it could get, or how I would suffer through it every month. And I think it was it was also a shock to him to see like how bad it can get. But now like he's very understanding of it and very loving to me throughout all of it.

[00:29:58]So yeah, I consider myself really lucky and I'm very happy. Oh-oh, there's some tea in the maids girl group chat. So I'm going to sip it a little bit and then I'll be right back. I just wanted to show you girls a little bit how there was this new skin on Mobile Legends and it was like a gotcha thing.

[00:30:19]And it was supposed to be like 500 diamonds to get her. Her original price is around 800. There's a sale so that you can get her for around 500. I got her in 100 and something.

[00:30:33]Today I felt horrible but my man came home with cakes and now I win a gotcha.

[00:30:39]>> [laughter] >> Yay. This is sucks.

[00:30:41]>> Oh, you smidgerinos.

[00:30:43]The only thing is because he's such a messy eater, I just see Kitty like crunching it up. Which is fine.

[00:30:50]Remy puts it places.

[00:30:53]Places in the back of the So this is my favorite thing to order in China Bar. It is duck rice and it is so [ __ ] good but I am so offended. The other day I was at the office. I was eating this and two of my Chinese colleagues came over. I was trying to like make conversation. I was like, "Oh, so you know I'm eating China Bar. What do you think about China Bar?"

[00:31:15]Like cuz for me as a Vietnamese person I'm often disappointed by Vietnamese cuisine here in Melbourne. And so they they didn't have any mercy. They were telling me it is probably the worst thing ever and you only eat it when you don't have any other choice. And me with the piece of duck in my mouth still I was like, "Are they really good?"

[00:31:35]Because it's so good. What do you mean?

[00:31:37]So now I understand when other people say that, "Oh, Vietnamese food is so good in Melbourne." And I'm just like, "Mhm.

[00:31:44]Now I understand what they mean. But yeah, I'll enjoy this apparently not great roast duck rice from China Bar. Is if anybody has eaten um roast duck rice from China Bar and is Chinese and does like it, please let me know in the comments. Give me some solidarity here.

[00:32:00]Hi, I'm back from eating and also playing a lot of Mobile Legends and in between the matches I was actually able to get some work done.

[00:32:09]For some reason I think I can work more at night. I've been so thirsty these days like I've been drinking two bottles and bottles of water and I have no idea why. Anyhow, I guess that's good for health. Um I accidentally released two videos at once. What the [ __ ] I don't I have zero idea why that is possible. I thought my scheduling was on point and now I feel so bad because usually I schedule the videos a bit apart so that I always have a decent flow of videos coming out. But now that I [ __ ] it up, I will have to delay the rest of the videos or I won't have enough videos in the works. So today is a bit of a fumble of a day but you know what? We we got through it and it's it's still fun, you know. I'm just going to show you my cats a little bit because they're cute and then I'll end this vlog. My little babies, hi.

[00:33:04]Oh, you're so cute.

[00:33:07]Hey [snorts] Archer.

[00:33:08]Is it is the camera moving?

[00:33:11]And who's this?

[00:33:14]Oh, he's so sweet. He always gives you girls a little kiss. Hello.

[00:33:20]And who's this?

[00:33:22]Who's this cat?

[00:33:24]Oh, what a strange cat you are, mister.

[00:33:26]Yeah, my DJI is running out of battery.

[00:33:28]I look haggard. Holy [ __ ] This is what a what a hormones does to a [ __ ] No, but um I'm going to stop the vlog here and hopefully I get to do something useful tomorrow. I think tomorrow should be a cleaning day actually because I haven't cleaned my house in a while. There's a lot of chores that's been piling up and hopefully I'll work from home as well.

[00:33:52]So even though this wasn't a very productive vlog, I hope you enjoyed.

[00:33:56]Have a wonderful day wherever you are.

[00:33:59]Okay.

[00:34:00]Thank you and I'll see you in the next time. Bye.