Climbed the Mountain & Turned Around - Collective Reading

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[00:00:02]Hello, hello everyone. I realize that I need to start using my [clears throat] library of decks more, so I'm going to start incorporating all of that into what is ultimately all pieces of the blueprint presentation, the mind computer presentation. So, we're going to do a new little series or kind of incorporate it into an already existing series where you're going to start to see all the decks that you don't always see cuz I tend to stick to the same decks until my brain switches to a different patterning system.

[00:00:35]But, we're going to start with using a random deck or a channeled deck with one of the mats. So, today we are looking at the Tarot Disassembled with the Core Decoder mat.

[00:00:50]So, I wanted to kind of start this this reading off of what it says on the inside of the box, which is the true Tarot is symbolism. It speaks no other languages and offers no other signs.

[00:01:06]Which is the premise of the deck because the deck is Tarot Disassembled. It's all in pieces.

[00:01:13]Found that at the bookstore.

[00:01:15]Okay.

[00:01:16]And it has cool yellow It's not gold, it's very yellow yellow edges.

[00:01:23]And that's the back.

[00:01:25]All right, let's start and see what the topic is going to be.

[00:01:36]What is the topic here going to be?

[00:01:40]The Lovers.

[00:01:49]>> [snorts] >> It makes me think of a video game with the fire up the right side.

[00:01:55]Climbing the mountain and then choosing lovers choosing to shed your skin snake by learning from the fruit of the poisonous tree from learning from the lesson from the struggles from the journey up the mountain.

[00:02:16]Needing to keep your cup full enough that you keep enough firepower so that you can earn your wings. You earn your wings from the top of the mountain.

[00:02:28]Okay.

[00:02:29]Let's see what we get.

[00:02:31]Hold on, I need to get my tokens over there.

[00:02:34]We're going to start by filling in the token spots for the spiral the butterfly transformation brain to external symbolism here.

[00:02:44]When I when I redid this mat, it's it's better now and you can see this better, but you can't really see it now.

[00:02:50]However, it's a person with a light bulb in their head and then the reckoning and co.

[00:02:56]Let's see, I need four tokens.

[00:02:59]1 2 3 That's three.

[00:03:03]Four.

[00:03:05]Okay, so golden spiral we have judgement brain transformation butterfly we have crown. Okay, that makes sense.

[00:03:20]Light bulb head brain we have a at the skies and the reckoning and co. I think this is a number die.

[00:03:30]It is. Oh, it's a temperature.

[00:03:35]The reckoning and co. temperature altitude.

[00:03:44]Needing to shed the skin of the snake so to speak because your inner world is what is able to handle handle the higher altitude at the top of the mountain.

[00:03:59]Okay.

[00:04:01]Even I start inside odd I start outside.

[00:04:04]It's number four. We're going to start on the inside. Number two, what's the upright energy here?

[00:04:13]Justice.

[00:04:20]So we have justice, we have judgement.

[00:04:25]>> [clears throat] >> Is that a flipper?

[00:04:40]Upright energy.

[00:04:45]Earning the wings is the point of the journey. It's what's supposed to happen.

[00:04:49]You get thrown out of balance so that you can learn from the lessons up the mountain, the fruit of the poisonous tree in this case, because you need to get to a point where you have the option to choose right or wrong so that you know you're not just choosing right by default. So you have to be brought out of balance to be brought back into balance. That's not a shortcoming, that's part of the journey up the mountain.

[00:05:12]Upright energy, you're in the right for having experiences that you learned from. The world tries to shame us and judge us and paint our entire character off of our worst moments, often while they hide behind the scenes doing far worse than that.

[00:05:29]But they like to make us feel like we are the embodiment of our worst moment and we can't ever outlive it. That's not the case. We actually are journeying up the mountain and we need to learn from the from the tree and the fire.

[00:05:43]So that we can choose to shed the skin, earn the wings, and make it to the top of the mountain.

[00:05:49]So, your life experiences don't make you less than, and they don't make you broken. They were meant to be part of the journey.

[00:05:59]Number three, natural drive.

[00:06:04]The Empress.

[00:06:11]What is that? Oh, that's the pillow she's sitting on.

[00:06:25]The natural drive is to have enough experiences to earn the light in each of these stars on the crown.

[00:06:33]And once you do, you rebirth yourself.

[00:06:37]Rebirth allows you access to this endless stream of being able to keep a healthy crop, a healthy, nurturing life.

[00:06:48]Is this a ladybug? Which which may look like luck, but it's not luck. It's earned respite after a journey up the mountain.

[00:06:59]Journey up the mountain.

[00:07:01]Top of the mountain, rebirth.

[00:07:04]When you come back down from the mountain, people have watched you climb it, people have watched you come back down. And if you come back down the mountain, that was a very hard-fought journey. If you come back down, and you say, "Look, people, I have this well I you can take from the well. I can show you how to access the well. All I had to do was earn all these stars, and then I got the rebirth. It may seem like luck, but it wasn't. It was hard work. You carry your own torch.

[00:07:31]You come down from the mountain, and you pass that to the next person.

[00:07:36]Because the goal was never just to get yourself up the mountain. The goal was to get everyone up the mountain. That's how we win.

[00:07:42]But, we're only used to seeing people who are only out for themselves and try to make it so that we can only be out for ourselves either because we're stuck in survival mode.

[00:07:56]Number five, control response.

[00:08:04]Oh, there's two.

[00:08:07]The Hermit, there's the mountain and the Wheel of Fortune. Oh, I see why they came out together.

[00:08:19]The book is on its side.

[00:08:21]The book is crossed. The book is crossed. Will you learn from what you read or will you just discard it? And by what you read, I mean like what you learned from the energy and environment and experiences while going up the mountain.

[00:08:37]Cuz the snake is like pointing its tongue at the book. So, it's like the temptation is there. Take the easy route.

[00:08:44]Uh put down the burden instead of seeing what you have to learn from it. Give it to someone else instead of accepting your role in carrying the burden. Like those kind of things.

[00:08:58]And then with the Hermit, are you going to trust your light to stay the course or you going to seek light outside of you, seek answers outside of you and have to What is that? A beard?

[00:09:13]So, the beard's over here, but the person's over there.

[00:09:18]Mask off.

[00:09:22]Uh face hair.

[00:09:26]Are you going to give a face hair is making me think the Emperor.

[00:09:31]Are you going to give the authority within to an external light or you going to remember that you carry your own?

[00:09:43]Oh, and that's the mask. Oh, the mask.

[00:09:47]Oh.

[00:09:54]That makes sense.

[00:09:57]Because that depends or that will determine which way the wheel turns in your favor or it will need to turn in a way that provides you with a lesson so that you learn not to give your power away.

[00:10:12]Power display.

[00:10:18]Power display.

[00:10:23]Two of Pentacles.

[00:10:31]You you display your power by finding the balance and learning how to ride the wave, not expecting there to never be a big wave, but learning how to stay in the boat when it comes.

[00:10:45]And in the window with the top right, it even kind of looks like the back of a seat, like the emperor chair, like you like sitting back in your power through learning how to ride the waves, but also with that shoe on the one wave, it's like sometimes you know you can put the wave down, like okay, this isn't my wave. This is someone else someone else called this wave. I'm going to suppress it. I'm going to push it down. I don't need to deal with it. But then other times you know how to ride the wave.

[00:11:16]And you can maintain a cycle of that.

[00:11:21]Oh, and that's where the crown was.

[00:11:26]Balance and learning to ride the waves gives you access to the the chakra because you can be trusted to not be in the 3D overwhelmed by spiritual data.

[00:11:49]Number four, correction path.

[00:11:54]What's the correction path?

[00:11:59]10 of Wands.

[00:12:03]Carrying the burden all the way up the mountain.

[00:12:05]The only way out is through.

[00:12:11]The entire way up the mountain, the snake tempts you to either leave the burden, aka suppress it and pretend it doesn't exist, give it to someone else, aka step on someone else to get ahead, or um >> [clears throat] >> something along those lines, right? Um or like passing on the pain.

[00:12:35]What are the Wands representing? I know what they represent, but like how do I word what they represent?

[00:12:44]Ace of Pentacles, opportunities.

[00:12:50]It's like each wand you carry up the mountain is 10% of the wisdom that you need in order to I need to get my my drawing Kindle. Hold on one second.

[00:13:20]One second.

[00:13:23]Going to draw the picture.

[00:13:27]>> [snorts] >> Hold on. Let me pause this while I get this open.

[00:13:43]Okay.

[00:13:45]So, it's like here's the mountain and you have to climb up the mountain.

[00:14:00]Now, you have to carry 10 wands up the mountain.

[00:14:06]>> [clears throat] >> Some of these wands are super heavy, super trauma-inducing, super confusing.

[00:14:17]God plans it so that you get the lighter wands or lesser impactful wands here because you can't put any of these down until you get to the top because it's imagine these like tickets that you need to turn in in order to access the elevator, aka the ascension path internally. This is an internal mountain.

[00:14:45]Inner inner mountain.

[00:14:50]So, you have to carry the 10 wands up, right? So, you start with the wands that will >> [clears throat] >> the wands that will be the foundation.

[00:15:02]What is going on?

[00:15:06]Hold on.

[00:15:08]It added a second page.

[00:15:10]It added a second page.

[00:15:14]You start with the the wands that will be a foundation, but they are the wands that are like pillars. They can hold a lot of weight.

[00:15:23]In this analogy, they don't necessarily weigh a lot because they're not what's going on it. They're what's holding it up, right? So, you start with them here.

[00:15:30]So, you got 10%.

[00:15:32]Okay, hold on.

[00:15:38]So, you're carrying them up, right?

[00:15:40]They're each 10%.

[00:15:42]But, the ones up here are going to be heavier. They're going to weigh more.

[00:15:47]They're going to be more impactful.

[00:15:50]But, one, you're not carrying them as long. And two, you have as you go, you're carrying this, but it starts to integrate. It starts to kind of download into the system instead of exist as weight, right? So, really what you're doing is you're having these at the same time, but this one is kind of slowly dissolving in weight as it transforms into wisdom.

[00:16:18]Okay? So, as you go up, you're carrying like it's it's That's the two of Wands is what I'm trying to explain. You're finding a way to create that balance because you're not continuing to carry the weight of this. You're transforming it into wisdom, but you're not putting it down.

[00:16:38]You're not disregarding it. You're not making choices that aren't in alignment with what you learned. You're not um entertaining things that would not be in alignment with the version of you who learned that.

[00:16:51]If you integrate the wisdom, you don't have to carry the weight of it. So, like you don't have to repeat experiences where you're not chosen again. You don't have to repeat experiences where you're begging for basic respect again because you've integrated this. That's what the two of Wands is. So, by the time you get up to the top of the mountain, you would think, "Oh my gosh, I'm going to be carrying all 10 Wands?" Well, no, because by the time you get up here, you're you're manifesting the the integration of these a lot more quickly, right? So, by the time you get up to the top of the mountain, you you're basically just finishing integrating this last wand because you need the last wand at the top of the mountain because you need to witness yourself putting it down up there.

[00:17:37]The last wand is realizing how much this actually took.

[00:17:42]The last wand is turning around and saying, "Okay, it's my choice whether or not I want to integrate this wisdom, aka put it down, or if I want to enact revenge on the world, or carry that back down the mountain, carry that anger, carry that disconnect, carry that malware back down the mountain."

[00:18:04]Do I want to put it down, or do I want to reintegrate that patterning of pain into my reality? That is what happens at the top of the mountain.

[00:18:17]So, you need to still be carrying something, but through the integration of all the prior ones, [clears throat] why does this keep coming back up?

[00:18:25]Through the integration of all the prior ones, you recognize that you are able to also transmute that which you are left carrying at the top.

[00:18:37]Hopefully that makes sense. That's how I'm seeing it.

[00:18:41]Okay, how many of these cards to end? We have three.

[00:18:48]Three.

[00:18:53]Okay, so this is your view and or perspective from the top of the mountain when and if you choose to put the burden down instead of carrying it back down the mountain to prove a point with it.

[00:19:12]Four of Swords in reverse, a resurrection.

[00:19:16]Queen of Wands.

[00:19:21]A resurrection of perception.

[00:19:25]A resurrection of allowing yourself to be perceived. A A resurrection of allowing yourself to be seen and perceived.

[00:19:33]If you choose to put down the last wand at the top of the mountain, you will come down the mountain ready to being seen and perceived even if you went through absolute hell getting up the mountain.

[00:19:45]If you choose to bring that wand back down the mountain, you're going to hold a bit of either shame, blame, guilt, something that makes it so when those eyes are on you, you're going to not feel all the way at ease.

[00:20:03]Seven of Cups in reverse, clarity. Yeah.

[00:20:07]Your choice of what to do with that final wand and whether or not you're going to be hurt people hurt people or whether or not you're going to transmute it, do the hard shadow work, and put it down, that choice determines your entire trajectory coming back down from the mountain.

[00:20:22]Are you going to eventually have to repeat that so that you make the right choice?

[00:20:27]Because the goal is to put down all 10 Wands, but it is your choice whether or not you do that.

[00:20:33]>> [clears throat] >> Are you going to self-identify solely with the anger or rage or punishment or whatever of your pain, or are you going to find a way to become someone who identifies as I climbed that mountain and I chose to put it down and come back down.

[00:20:55]And pass on the river.

[00:20:57]Where was that?

[00:20:59]Pass on the river and the crop instead of the sword and the burden.

[00:21:07]So that is it. Again, it was Tarot Disassembled and the Decoder Mat.

[00:21:14]Thank you for watching.