Running From Her Religious Upbringing: The Tragic Reality Of A Pastor's Daughter | Full Drama Movie

[00:00:50][music] My name is Karen Taylor. I'm your new executive pastor.

[00:01:17]My kids, Riley and Luke and I [music] are so happy to be part of this church community.

[00:01:25]Today, I'll be doing the reading out of the book of Matthew, chapter 11. Verse 28.

[00:01:33]This verse is dear to me as [music] I have had many struggles in my past.

[00:01:41]I hope you find your rest in him today.

[00:01:45]The verse reads, "Come to me all who are weary and burdened and I will give [music] you rest.

[00:01:58]Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in [music] heart.

[00:02:09]And you will find rest for your souls.

[00:02:14]For my yoke [music] is comfortable and my burden is light.

[00:02:22]This is the word of the Lord.

[00:02:45]This little [singing] light of mine, I'm going to let it shine. [music] This little light of mine, I'm [singing and music] let it shine.

[00:03:01]This little light of mine, [music] I'm [singing] let it shine. Let it shine. [music] Let it shine. Let [singing] it shine.

[00:03:16]Let [singing] [music] it shine.

[00:03:24]Let [singing] [music] blow it out. I'm going to let it shine.

[00:03:32][music] Let [singing] it out. I'm let it shine.

[00:03:39]Let it shine.

[00:03:41]Let it shine. Let it [music and singing] shine.

[00:03:49][singing] Let it [singing] shine.

[00:03:57]This little light of mine, I'm let it shine.

[00:04:05]This little [singing] light of mine, I'm let it shine.

[00:04:13]Let it [singing] shine. Let it shine.

[00:04:16][music] Let it shine.

[00:04:30]Mom.

[00:04:34]Mom.

[00:04:43]Mom.

[00:04:44]Mom, wake up.

[00:05:22][ __ ] Hey, precious pearl.

[00:05:32]Hey, hey, hey.

[00:05:36]>> How you feeling? Hi. Is anybody in there? Hi.

[00:05:43]>> What happened?

[00:05:44]>> Yeah. What happened? I was at Smugglers last night.

[00:05:48]>> What?

[00:05:49]>> Yeah. And then all of a sudden, I look over and I see two wrinkly ass white men trying to shove you inside a vehicle.

[00:05:56]>> DON'T TOUCH ME. COME.

[00:05:58]>> WHOA, WHOA, WHOA, WHOA, WHOA.

[00:06:02]>> Remember getting there?

[00:06:03]>> Uh-huh.

[00:06:05]>> What did you have to drink?

[00:06:07]>> I remember getting a beer.

[00:06:20]You had You had one beer last night.

[00:06:23]>> Yeah, that's all I remember.

[00:06:28]who was working.

[00:06:31]>> James, >> I've heard like endless stories about James putting [ __ ] in girls drinks for like months now. This is not good.

[00:06:40]>> What?

[00:06:41]>> I got something for you here.

[00:06:51]>> Oh, what's in that?

[00:06:52]>> Oh, don't ask questions. It's uh for hangovers. I'm just not too sure about drug hangovers.

[00:06:59]>> Oh, drink it up. Up. All of it.

[00:07:02]>> Oh my god.

[00:07:03]>> All of it. Good girl. Yeah. Ooh. Make daddy proud. Okay. Not too Not. Okay.

[00:07:10]Please not any more of that.

[00:07:13]>> Okay.

[00:07:18]>> Yeah. Do you want to get up?

[00:07:19]>> And my phone.

[00:07:20]>> Your phone?

[00:07:21]>> Oh, wow. Is that me? Even got a little bit on my shoes, >> but I love you anyway.

[00:07:29]>> Sorry.

[00:07:30]>> It's okay.

[00:07:32]>> What do you Oh.

[00:07:33]>> Oh my god.

[00:07:35]>> Yeah. Oh my god.

[00:07:40]Check it out.

[00:07:41]>> Look. No. No. I have to call him.

[00:07:44]>> Luke. Luke. You're after me.

[00:07:49]>> You called your brother like a million times last night.

[00:07:53]Phenomenal. But you might want to make a few apology calls. I'm going to go shower the eggs off. You take it easy.

[00:08:02]Okay.

[00:08:04]>> Okay.

[00:08:05]>> Love you.

[00:08:07]>> That dude.

[00:08:52]Riley. Hello. Are you there? Are you there?

[00:08:56]>> Hey, Mom.

[00:08:57]>> Hi. Hi. What happened last night? Lou said you called 47 times. You were freaking out this morning. Do I need to fly up there?

[00:09:04]>> No, you don't need to do that.

[00:09:06]>> Sounds like you're in trouble. You said people were after you. What's going on?

[00:09:08]>> No, I'm sorry. Everything's fine.

[00:09:12]>> You were drunk?

[00:09:13]>> No. No. I just had one beer.

[00:09:16]>> So So you what?

[00:09:19]>> No. I just think somebody put something in it or something.

[00:09:24]>> Oh my gosh. You were roofy. Are you okay?

[00:09:26]>> Are you okay?

[00:09:27]>> Mom, everything's fine. Nothing happened. I'm safe. I I crashed at a friend's house.

[00:09:33]>> You at a guy's place. How do you How do you know you weren't raped?

[00:09:36]>> He's gay. How did this thing happen?

[00:09:38]>> Mom, just stop.

[00:09:41]Stop. I'm good. I just woke up.

[00:09:43]Everything's fine. I'm safe. I'm like nothing happened.

[00:09:47]>> Okay. Um I I I I understand what you're going through.

[00:09:53]>> Okay. You've been drunk. You you you've been drugged at a bar.

[00:09:57]>> You know what I mean?

[00:10:00]Honey, I want you to call me next time.

[00:10:02]If ever something like this happens again, I really want you to call me.

[00:10:08]All right. Bye.

[00:10:10]>> I love you very much, honey.

[00:10:20]>> Mom, >> hold on. Yeah, >> mom.

[00:10:22]>> Hold on.

[00:10:24]>> What?

[00:10:25]>> I'm sick. I don't feel good. I need you to come home.

[00:10:29]>> Oh, you're being dramatic.

[00:10:31]>> No, Mom. Please.

[00:10:34]I threw up.

[00:10:36]>> Oh, Riley, come on. You're too big for that. Just go get a bucket and lay down.

[00:10:41]>> I can't find one. Mom, I'm hot. Please come home.

[00:10:45]>> No. If you can't find a bucket, go to the kitchen. Get a big bowl. Okay.

[00:10:49][music] All right. Okay. I love you and I'll be home later. Okay. Be my big girl.

[00:10:54]>> Love you.

[00:10:55]>> Love you.

[00:11:05]Come on.

[00:11:12]Oh, honey. Hi.

[00:11:15]Hey.

[00:11:16]How are you?

[00:11:19][snorts] [snorts] [snorts] Hey, I'm going to steal your bike and leave you a little present on the ground. Okay.

[00:11:38]>> Sorry, I CAN'T HEAR YOU. I GOT TO GO.

[00:11:40]>> OKAY. Love you.

[00:11:43]>> Okay. Love you, too. Bye >> bye.

[00:11:47]>> Don't Hello.

[00:13:01]Hello.

[00:13:45]What?

[00:13:46]>> Hey, Oscar, you still around? I'm here.

[00:13:47]>> I was there when we were supposed to be there. Where were you?

[00:13:49]>> Yeah, I know. I know. It's just >> time to meet. We meet at that time.

[00:13:52]>> I know. I'm sorry. It's just >> I know you're selling to your friends and they better be paying up.

[00:13:57]>> Okay. I'm sorry. Okay. Okay. I get it.

[00:14:00]All right.

[00:14:02]>> Just stop.

[00:14:08][ __ ] Okay.

[00:15:44]Who are you?

[00:15:45]>> No. Get the [ __ ] off of me. No. Don't touch me.

[00:15:49][screaming] [ __ ] are you boyfriend? Who the [ __ ] are you?

[00:16:15][music] Hey, it's Luke. I'm not around. Uh, leave me a message. Thanks.

[00:16:54]Hey, Luke. I uh it's been a while. Just uh trying to get all you I just uh I just wanted to say sorry for all those calls. I just I [snorts] didn't mean to freak you guys out. I I had a rough night, but I'm good.

[00:17:15]Yeah, just I just want to say sorry.

[00:17:18]Uh maybe we'll talk soon. Love you. Bye.

[00:17:22]Jesus loves me this [snorts] for this tells me so little was me.

[00:17:37]>> Baptism is the physical [music] outward expression of a change, an inner change.

[00:17:44]All of our sins are washed by the holy blood of the lamb, our Lord Jesus Christ. Karen, why are you being baptized here today?

[00:17:53]>> Because I love Jesus Christ.

[00:18:00][music] What are we doing here.

[00:18:55]>> What are you talking about?

[00:18:58]>> Come on. I keep seeing you and the lamb.

[00:19:01]What's the deal?

[00:19:04]>> I was at the bar.

[00:19:09]>> But you know I'm not the real Jesus, right? I'm white and I'm got it.

[00:19:18]>> These are flipflops.

[00:19:19]>> I get it. Okay. [clears throat] You know Jesus was Middle Eastern. He's a brown man.

[00:19:26]>> Wasn't blonde.

[00:19:27]>> I know.

[00:19:27]>> Eyes.

[00:19:48]So what do you think he Jesus would say to you?

[00:19:54]>> Like the real Jesus if there is one.

[00:19:59]What would I he think?

[00:20:07]Nothing.

[00:20:18]That's it.

[00:20:18]>> Yeah. Nothing.

[00:20:26]>> Real deep.

[00:20:29]>> You the do you know?

[00:20:40]I don't know.

[00:20:44]I'm just a figment of your imagination.

[00:20:48]A weird blend of alcohol and coke and lack of sleep, but I know you're not really being honest with me. And I'm Jesus.

[00:21:24]Well, sort of >> [snorts] >> Oh my god. God, I'm just so hungry.

[00:22:08]Hello. I'm starving. There's Go-Gurt in the freezer. We need to know. Are we keeping the house next semester?

[00:22:17]The landl.

[00:22:21]>> Oh my god. What? What? No.

[00:22:25]>> It's delicious.

[00:22:39]Tim told me the other night that something went down at Smugglers. Was it wild?

[00:22:53]Tim thinks somebody put something in my drink.

[00:22:57]You got roofied.

[00:23:04][bell] >> Go away.

[00:23:05]Who's that?

[00:23:07]>> Hey, we're naked.

[00:23:09]>> Open the door.

[00:23:10]>> Oh, hey. We're nude. No. What? What is it?

[00:23:17]>> Hey, Oscar.

[00:23:18]>> The FBI. They're after me.

[00:23:21]>> Don't contact me again.

[00:23:28]>> Shut the door.

[00:23:36]Oh my god. Oh my god.

[00:23:41]How much is in here?

[00:23:45]>> A lot.

[00:23:47]>> Oh, we're doing all >> We are.

[00:23:51]>> Well, it looks like I just became unemployed.

[00:24:20]>> [music] >> This wife's such a >> dude. I know. So >> sick of her sending us home stupid ass homework. I found this in my dad's closet. He doesn't know that I know that he does it, but do a little bit of this.

[00:25:04]How much you want? You want big line?

[00:25:07][snorts] >> Yeah.

[00:25:10]>> Wow.

[00:25:11]>> Your turn.

[00:25:12]>> I'm okay.

[00:25:14]>> Come on.

[00:25:15]>> No, it's fine. Hey, it's okay. Her mom's a pastor. Yeah. But well, her mom's not here, so it's >> fine. I'll do hers. [laughter] >> It's awesome.

[00:25:27]>> It's actually not bad. It's fine.

[00:25:38]>> I think they call them Cheetos cuz I feel like I'm cheating on myself when I eat them. [laughter] >> You're not.

[00:25:45]>> Stop. In that case, >> yeah, >> what are you doing, baby?

[00:25:52]>> Oh god.

[00:25:56]>> Oh. Oh my god. Zeus in my mouth, girl.

[00:25:59]This is disgustingly.

[00:26:01]>> How did you do that? Okay, you need to stop. You need to stop. Give me that.

[00:26:05]>> Put a fork in my hand.

[00:26:06]>> Come here.

[00:26:08]>> One minute.

[00:26:09]>> Okay. Nice.

[00:26:11]>> That feels [snorts] so good. Oh my god.

[00:26:18]What is [clears throat] this? Was this been somebody's mouth? I want more. No kidding. No. No. No.

[00:26:24]>> Did you not, Sarah?

[00:26:27]>> Yeah. No. None of that was for free. I need to tighten up.

[00:26:31]>> That's all there is.

[00:26:32]>> Oh my god. Here we go.

[00:26:34]>> Okay. I'm going to collect later.

[00:26:36]>> Sorry, baby. Oh my god.

[00:26:38]>> How do I look with dreads?

[00:26:40]>> Sorry.

[00:26:42]That's a receipt. Okay, that's not going to work.

[00:26:46]Aha.

[00:26:48]>> Ow. [laughter] >> Yo, what [music] happened to Oscar?

[00:26:57]>> He's leaving town.

[00:26:59]>> So, I need to sell the rest and >> cereal. Yeah.

[00:27:02]>> Yeah.

[00:27:04]>> He said bye-bye.

[00:27:05]>> What you're missing is that this is mana from God himself. Okay. And what I'm thinking is that you should share it with us poor poor sinners.

[00:27:14]>> What the [ __ ] got you mean?

[00:27:16]>> Well, I mean it's the last day of classes, right?

[00:27:19]>> Wait, are you still a student?

[00:27:22]>> I have a stupid idea. Okay, chill out.

[00:27:24]Stop it.

[00:27:27]>> Let's >> give the people a taste party.

[00:27:30]>> Let's throw a party.

[00:27:31]>> A house party.

[00:27:33]like a business house party where you like, you know, like a social like real life networking event where everyone does Coke and you use half your Coke, you know, for the good people and you sell the other half to the other people who are not as good friends.

[00:27:47]>> I don't have a supplier anymore.

[00:27:49]>> Well, you need to get rid of this [ __ ] eventually.

[00:27:51]>> Eventually. I'm not actually not in a hurry.

[00:27:54]>> What?

[00:27:56]>> Chill.

[00:27:57]>> Yes, you don't you want money? But seriously, you broke my bike. She broke the bike.

[00:28:02]>> She broke my bike.

[00:28:04]>> So, you kind of owe me this party. And I want to get pretty in front of my friends and I want Randy to be there. I just want to have fun for once.

[00:28:12]>> Come on.

[00:28:13]>> Come on, Riley.

[00:28:18]>> OKAY.

[00:28:21][screaming] >> OKAY. We'll just bring a couple people.

[00:28:25]>> Pregame slumber party burning.

[00:28:26]>> Pregame slumber party. [screaming] We talk. Would we please talk? Sarah, would you >> No, we didn't. You just sat and yelled at me.

[00:28:37]>> If you hadn't figured this out anyway, >> get out.

[00:28:56]I don't think you're hearing me at all.

[00:29:01]No, we spoke in my room. I found the pics. I kicked YOU OUT. NOW GO HARD.

[00:29:08]Talk about this real quick.

[00:29:08]>> No, we're not talking anymore. We're not talking anymore.

[00:29:12]>> No. Tell me how you feel. Sarah. Riley, can you come down and open the door for me, please?

[00:29:17]>> No, buddy. No, buddy. Come on. If she's being irrational, but you're being loud.

[00:29:21]You're waking up the whole neighborhood.

[00:29:23]>> Why is she yelling at me? You never said what this was. Sarah, I'm sorry. CAN YOU PLEASE CARE THAT YOU'RE SORRY.

[00:29:31]>> CAN YOU TEXT EACH OTHER?

[00:29:32]>> OKAY, tell her we can put a label on it.

[00:29:35]We can be whatever she wants to call us.

[00:29:38]>> Please, >> what did he do this time?

[00:29:41]>> What do you do?

[00:29:41]>> Oh, well, he had some other girl's tits on his phone.

[00:29:44]>> Uh, what >> did you talk to?

[00:29:46]>> Please. Riley, you >> know my protocol. I don't get involved.

[00:29:52]>> Shut up. What you say?

[00:29:54]>> No, I'm not telling you. No, he didn't say anything.

[00:29:57]5 minutes, please.

[00:29:59]>> Okay, >> good.

[00:30:01]>> Maybe I use Olivia's phone and tattoo the pictures, too. And then I have an excuse because otherwise I I can't I can't do anything. He won't listen to me.

[00:30:10]>> Sarah, >> listen.

[00:30:11]>> No, >> you've been dating a year and he's like, "Oh, I don't want to come in. I don't want to be your boyfriend." Like, where are we?

[00:30:16]>> Draw the line.

[00:30:17]>> Shut up.

[00:30:20]>> Tell her I'll do whatever she wants.

[00:30:22]>> He'll be your dude. He'll be your guy.

[00:30:25]>> Okay. Okay. And that's the last.

[00:30:27]>> Okay. All right.

[00:30:28]>> Sick girl.

[00:30:29]>> Last time. Sick.

[00:30:30]>> I love you. I love you so much. I love you.

[00:30:55]I got to drive you in the water. You go.

[00:30:59]Thank you. You're welcome.

[00:31:10]Now, now I are you can swim.

[00:31:32]The trend kill.

[00:31:45]>> Mom.

[00:31:46]>> Hi, honey.

[00:31:47]>> What happened?

[00:31:48]>> How's bath time?

[00:31:50]>> What are you doing here?

[00:31:52]>> Oh, I just took a little stumble. Um, can you can you get yourself ready for bed? It's really late. Okay.

[00:31:59]>> Yeah. Okay. And I need you to help with Luke put his PJs on.

[00:32:04]>> Okay. All right. All right. I'll be in soon. Okay.

[00:32:57]Hey Honey, I'm sorry. It's just Well, I've lived a lot of what you're going through and I can tell you that it didn't end well.

[00:33:09]But you were there. You know that.

[00:33:12]Anyway, it's not why I'm calling. I have a work trip to Sri Lanka and um they won't let me go by myself. So, I asked if I could bring you with me. And the church said, you know, that they would pay for everything. They pay for your housing, your travel, your food. And since you don't have any summer plans, I wanted to see if you wanted to go with me. It would be a free trip across the world. It's a week at a Christian conference and a week of vacation.

[00:33:41]And yeah, you can miss, you know, most of the conference stuff. So, no pressure if you don't want to go. I just have to make a decision soon. So, let me know either way. Okay. Love you. Byebye.

[00:34:03]Love you.

[00:34:18][snorts] Please, please, please, please, please, please take him. Please, please, [music] please don't let him take away from me. Please, please, please don't let him take away from me.

[00:34:40]Please don't happen.

[00:34:43]Oh god, I know I'm a mess. Please help me.

[00:34:50]I don't want that. Please.

[00:34:54]Please.

[00:34:58]>> I think those of us who don't know Jesus, if you're feeling called to accept Christ in your heart tonight, this is the time to [music] do it. There is no better time than this.

[00:35:08]Lord Jesus, I know that I'm a sinner. [music] I know that I messed things up. And I know that there is nothing that I can do to repay [music] that.

[00:35:20]Tonight, Jesus, I would ask, would you please come into my life? Forgive me of my sins. Make me new, Lord Jesus. Lord, [music] I want you to become my savior.

[00:35:32]Thank you so much for loving me and for forgiving me in your [music] precious name. Amen.

[00:35:54]I can do it.

[00:36:00][snorts] >> This is about the end of that.

[00:36:07]>> You good with me?

[00:36:09]>> Guys, guys, guys, guys.

[00:36:15]>> I just finished. Excuse me.

[00:36:16]>> She's speaking.

[00:36:17]>> I just finished. Oh, sorry.

[00:36:19]>> My last day OF CLASSES.

[00:36:22]>> OH, YEAH.

[00:36:24][applause] >> A therapy thing.

[00:36:28]>> Oh, hi. Hello, Sarah.

[00:36:30]>> Um, >> oh my god.

[00:36:34]>> And by the way, me and wear >> uh close.

[00:36:39]>> Oh my god, you're being so vague. I looked through your room for your Coke and I couldn't find it.

[00:36:44]>> Please.

[00:36:45]>> You guys are doing my stuff.

[00:36:46]>> No, we didn't like go through your stuff. Not me >> for your stuff. It was me. We like looked for Coke in your stuff. We couldn't find it. I couldn't find it.

[00:36:54]Please, baby.

[00:36:58]>> I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

[00:37:00]>> Coke.

[00:37:01]>> Yes.

[00:37:01]>> Yeah.

[00:37:02]>> Yes.

[00:37:06]>> I can't believe I can't trust this to be safe in my own house.

[00:37:09]>> Well, obviously it is safe cuz I can fight it.

[00:37:11]>> But pay up first. I'm not I'm not running a charity.

[00:37:13]>> I got a shitty joint. I >> don't have my wallet on me.

[00:37:19]>> I will. Can I pay you back?

[00:37:21]>> Me, too.

[00:37:21]>> Yeah, we'll figure something out, >> right?

[00:37:24]>> It's like a good luck thing.

[00:37:25]>> Like I normally feel like I'm in Florida when I use [snorts] R20, but I feel like in Miami specifically when I use the >> Yeah.

[00:37:39][music] [ __ ] [music] >> All right, go get some booze. I'm going to go get some party supplies and [music] chips. Go get some chips and dips. Riley, these are ones.

[00:38:10]Seriously, come back. I can't buy a suit with this.

[00:38:42]I hate to say it, but I think you're going have to get your bad ass out of there.

[00:38:48]>> Sorry.

[00:38:58]What are y'all doing over here?

[00:39:00]>> Oh my goodness. Get out of the car. What are you doing? Breaking stuff. Quinton, can we get you over here real quick, Quinton? We got a got a spill. Now you going to pay for that bottle. You know that, right?

[00:39:30]Karen, >> is that you? Karen, >> it's Regina.

[00:39:34]>> Oh, yes. Hi.

[00:39:35]>> I haven't seen you for so long. How are you?

[00:39:38]>> I'm well. It's good to see you. This is Lucas, but we call him [crying] Luke.

[00:39:42]>> Hi.

[00:39:43]>> Hi, Luke. [laughter] >> Hi.

[00:39:44]>> And your daughter. What? Beautiful brown eyes she has.

[00:39:49]>> And you have blue eyes. Well, your mother didn't tell me you adopted.

[00:39:53]>> I didn't adopt. Oh, no. Oh, okay. No, no. Oh, no. They They're They have two different dads.

[00:39:59]>> Oh, no. I'm so sorry, >> Riley.

[00:40:02]>> What?

[00:40:03]>> We have to go.

[00:40:04]>> I'm not going.

[00:40:05]>> Yes, you are.

[00:40:05]>> No, I'm not.

[00:40:06]>> Why not?

[00:40:07]>> Because I don't like it at Dads.

[00:40:08]>> Riley, we go through this every time.

[00:40:11]I'm sick of going through this.

[00:40:13]>> Why can't I just not go? Because it's part of the agreement. You have a dad.

[00:40:16]You have to go see him. Come on. We have to go.

[00:40:19]>> I'm not going.

[00:40:22][music] >> Are you done yet?

[00:40:27]>> No.

[00:40:30][music] >> Stop.

[00:40:36]>> Are you done yet?

[00:40:37]>> You done yet? No.

[00:40:38]>> No.

[00:40:41][snorts] >> You're kind of done. I can see you like kind of being right.

[00:40:51][snorts] [snorts] >> I'm not going to fight you.

[00:41:00]>> I'm not going to fight you.

[00:41:01]>> Fight me. Fight me. Fight me.

[00:41:04]>> I don't Hey, go get one of these. I'm paying.

[00:41:11]Stop. No. [laughter] >> Hey. Hey. Hey.

[00:41:16]>> What is going on with this bottle?

[00:41:19]>> Look, I don't appreciate being harassed right now. We're trying to shop in your store. Okay.

[00:41:23]>> I'm paying for it. What are you freaking out about it? I'm paying for it. [ __ ] you, man.

[00:41:28]>> No. No.

[00:41:29]>> No. You [ __ ] think we're liars.

[00:41:31]>> Got to go.

[00:41:31]>> Whose side are you on? You want me to go outside? You I'm never coming back here, dick.

[00:41:49]Hi.

[00:41:52]>> Where the hell have you been, dude?

[00:41:53]>> Oh my god. We have to go get Ry's work then.

[00:41:55]>> You've been sitting here for like a hour.

[00:41:57]>> Hello.

[00:41:59]>> Why do you >> Oh my god.

[00:42:05]>> All right.

[00:42:06]>> This isn't breakable, is it?

[00:42:09][ __ ] Sorry, Randy.

[00:42:22]Let's go. Let's go.

[00:42:26]Okay, Randy, relax. Relax. Remember how we manifested the spot? Okay. Thank you.

[00:42:33]Hey, you're right there, babe.

[00:42:35]>> Mhm. kind of look like [ __ ] right now.

[00:42:38]What is going on? You okay?

[00:42:40]>> I'm going to sleep.

[00:42:41]>> Yeah. Get a nap. Okay.

[00:42:45]>> Hey, can Randy and I stay on the air mattress tonight?

[00:42:52]>> Uh, yeah. That's That's probably the only time there is, Sarah. Oh my god.

[00:42:59]>> Hello.

[00:43:01]>> Yeah.

[00:43:02]>> You want coffee?

[00:43:04]>> Sure.

[00:43:04]>> Okay.

[00:43:06]Hi.

[00:43:08]Hello.

[00:43:14]>> Hey, gross people. I need some help in here.

[00:43:19]>> Tim, I'm done with classes. Aren't you excited for >> I need coffee. Sarah, please can you come in here right now?

[00:43:25]>> Sarah, >> guys, it's not funny. I need a coffee right now.

[00:43:30]>> It's really hard being me sometimes.

[00:43:32]>> Press the button.

[00:43:33]>> Okay, just press >> the button.

[00:43:37]There's two.

[00:43:38]>> Hi. Can I help you upstairs?

[00:43:42]>> Great.

[00:43:43]>> Yep. We're doing this. Come. Come on.

[00:43:47]Get those feet underneath you guys. I'm taking Princess upstairs.

[00:43:51]>> Okay.

[00:43:53]Sleep.

[00:45:07]What's up?

[00:45:08]>> Hey surprised [snorts] her up. Thought you'd be sleeping a little longer.

[00:45:28]>> Yeah, it's been a rough couple days.

[00:45:32]>> Sarah told me you were having a nervous breakdown.

[00:45:35]>> Really?

[00:45:36]>> Mhm.

[00:45:38]Which is fine cuz everyone's having a nervous breakdown this time of year.

[00:45:46]My dad doesn't want me to be a music major, so I'm not.

[00:45:52]I'm doing business.

[00:45:56]So sucking business. I get to because my dad's paying for a degree that I don't want.

[00:46:07]>> That's very [ __ ] You know, it's like so many people don't even get to go to college and I'm sitting here complaining.

[00:46:18]Awesome.

[00:46:26]I avoided my mom for as long as I could.

[00:46:31]I just wanted to get away from everything.

[00:46:36]Then the other day we talk on the phone and it's like it brings everything right back and I'm a little kid again and that little kid that took care of her when she was drunk out of her mind.

[00:46:56]I raised my little brother and I was a good Christian girl, but for some reason I still miss her.

[00:47:20]Wouldn't you have a nervous breakdown?

[00:47:24][laughter] I'm having my own nervous breakdown.

[00:47:27][snorts] You can keep that one. [laughter] It's weird. We're like kind of stuck in this strange Bermuda Triangle kind of thing.

[00:47:42]Like [snorts] listen, it's like so we're not exactly our parents' dream, right?

[00:47:54]we're not who we're not who they thought we were going to be, but it's also like we're not ourselves after that. So, we're like trying to figure out if like we should hold on to that stuff or if that stuff should be let go of or I don't know to be honest with you.

[00:48:17]>> I don't want to keep any of it.

[00:48:24]It [snorts] was my fifth grade continuation.

[00:48:29]It was a big deal. It was like one of these they would have these little ceremonies and we would all dress up and I had this big yellow dress.

[00:48:38]I felt so beautiful.

[00:48:43]My mom didn't come.

[00:48:46]I was like the only kid whose parent wasn't there.

[00:48:52]She didn't even pick me up afterwards.

[00:48:58]Walked home.

[00:49:06]It's like, what? What do I do with that other than forget it?

[00:49:15]It's like afterthought.

[00:49:20]two. I love you. I love you. I love you.

[00:49:26]>> Can I ask you a question?

[00:49:28]>> What kind of question?

[00:49:30]>> One of those existential crisis. I'm still trying to figure out [snorts] life. I don't know what the going on. [laughter] 3:00 a.m.

[00:49:40]kind of question.

[00:49:41]>> Uh, big boy.

[00:49:43]>> Big boy. Yes, big boy.

[00:49:52]Being a pastor's kid and living the way that you do, how do you feel about God, Christianity, or both? Actually, >> I'm a straight A student. I am uh headed for law school. Is that what you're referring to?

[00:50:10]>> No, actually, how about this? How do you feel about being a complete cliche, being an out of control PK?

[00:50:20]>> You You know, when I left to drive up here, my mom said, "You find a good church up there."

[00:50:52]She would ask me every time we would talk.

[00:50:58]And one day she just stopped asking.

[00:51:06]It's weird because it feels like she gave up.

[00:51:14]>> You want to know a fun fact?

[00:51:17][snorts] >> I learned how to play guitar in my junior high worship band.

[00:51:23]>> No way.

[00:51:24]>> Yeah. Way.

[00:51:34]>> [snorts] >> You [music] came from [singing] heaven earth to show away.

[00:51:50]>> No way.

[00:51:50]>> Uhhuh. Yeah. Uhhuh. Yeah, you do. Liar.

[00:51:54]>> I don't really do. You remember the hand motions?

[00:51:56]>> No.

[00:51:57]>> Yes, you do. You are crossed right now.

[00:52:01][laughter] >> Loosen up. Shake it up. Came from heaven to earth to show [singing] the way. From the earth to the cross, mind. [singing] From the [music] cross to the grave, from the grave to the sky. Lord, I lift your name on high.

[00:52:42]You want to start a worship band?

[00:52:44]>> Totally.

[00:52:45]>> Yeah. Hit the road. You and me. Church to church.

[00:52:50]>> Totally.

[00:52:51]>> Yeah. WWJD bracelets and toe.

[00:52:54]>> Puka shell necklace and sandals.

[00:52:55]>> Puka shell necklace and sandals.

[00:52:57]Totally.

[00:52:58]>> Absolutely.

[00:53:08]>> I got made fun of a lot in youth group.

[00:53:14]So I stopped going.

[00:53:21]My grandma died last year.

[00:53:24]So, I went home to Indiana for the funeral.

[00:53:28]Um, we went back to my Baptist church. And after the service, uh, this little old white-haired lady, she comes up to me and I had longer hair at the time and the lip ring.

[00:53:47][snorts] And so she comes up and she's like, "You know, we uh we need people out there in California living for Jesus."

[00:53:55]>> Oh, no.

[00:53:57]>> Mhm.

[00:53:58]Yeah. I didn't know who this person was.

[00:54:01]No idea.

[00:54:04]Like, who are you to judge my life?

[00:54:11]>> What did you say?

[00:54:14]>> You said I know.

[00:54:19]But are you living for Jesus? [snorts] I don't even know what that means.

[00:54:36]>> Keep playing.

[00:54:38]>> Well, if we're going to take this tour out, I have to >> remember some of these old things.

[00:54:43][music] I think it's all just GCD.

[00:54:45]Anyways, okay.

[00:55:13]We make a trim.

[00:55:18]We are actually make a teal.

[00:55:22]>> Yeah. Yeah.

[00:55:26]>> Hi, sweetie. What do you think?

[00:55:33]>> Mommy is just going to lie down for a little bit.

[00:55:38]>> There. Look at it.

[00:55:40]>> And remember, Hey, sweet. Remember, if mommy doesn't wake up, you call 911.

[00:55:48]>> Call 911.

[00:55:58]Are you there?

[00:56:01]Are you there?

[00:56:03]Mama, are you there?

[00:56:07]>> Come on. You're not.

[00:56:09]>> No, you're not going to Sarah's. It's too late. You need to finish your homework and get to bed. Come on.

[00:56:13]>> Come on, >> honey.

[00:56:15]>> This is ridiculous.

[00:56:16]>> Karen, she can't talk to you like that.

[00:56:18]>> James, I got this. Please.

[00:56:19]>> She knows. James, >> honey, I need we need to set up some guidelines, some curfs and things like this is unacceptable >> cuz James thinks so.

[00:56:32]>> Mom, [laughter] come on. You know this is dumb.

[00:56:36]>> No, it's not.

[00:56:40]that you weren't even supposed to get married again in here. I am getting the [ __ ] out of it, >> Riley.

[00:56:48]>> Okay, James, off I go to bed. Respecting my stepdad and mother like a good Christian girl.

[00:57:01]>> Can you guys keep it down?

[00:57:05]>> All right. All right.

[00:57:11]Deuces.

[00:57:13]>> Hi.

[00:57:16]>> Hey.

[00:57:18]>> Got my bacon fat toe.

[00:57:21]>> Good. I think we're set up.

[00:57:24]>> How you feeling?

[00:57:26]>> Good.

[00:57:29]>> [ __ ] >> My mom just invited me on a free church trip to Sri Lanka.

[00:57:38]Okay. Okay.

[00:57:42]>> That's awesome, right?

[00:57:44]>> No. What am I supposed to do with that?

[00:57:46]>> Go.

[00:57:48]>> Well, no. It's just going to be the same thing. Everybody's just going to praise her for being some amazing conversion story.

[00:57:56]>> Okay. I really love this performance of this whole existential crisis you're in right now.

[00:58:03]>> What?

[00:58:04]>> You know I love you.

[00:58:07]Maybe you'd present me with the opportunity to present you the opportunity to see yourself in a new light. The existential light, if you will.

[00:58:19]>> Okay, >> what happened the other night was really up and God, anyone in your position is going to take a minute to process that [ __ ] You need to recognize that.

[00:58:38]And if you need to go on a trip with your mom or take a free excursion to Costa Mesa, Costa Rica, Sri Lanka, Sri Lanka. Jeez, girl. That's like China, Middle India.

[00:58:58]>> I don't know. I just Googled.

[00:59:00]>> Okay. Okay. Well, it's not over here.

[00:59:03]You owe it to yourself. Let go. What the hell, girl?

[00:59:09]That's just mama's two cents.

[00:59:10]>> Okay.

[00:59:12]>> You want to hit that [ __ ] >> I'm good. Thanks.

[00:59:17][music] [music] >> [music] >> I ran my fingers through your hair [music] like all the others [music] before.

[00:59:49]But I could not feel anything. [music] No, I want something more.

[01:00:01]I trace your tattoos with my fingertips [music] like I heard once in a song, [music] but I could feel no impressions.

[01:00:16][music] I think something's wrong.

[01:00:22][music] Oh, that I could see you as they do [music] as a treasure box full of gifts.

[01:00:33][music] But all I see from you are the things that I can get.

[01:00:46][music] No, there is no love between us. [music] What kind of man have I become?

[01:00:57][music] If you could see the thoughts in my brain, then baby you would run and run.

[01:01:11]Is there really a lake of fire [music] where all the bad people go?

[01:01:23]And the worms eat out their brains [music] and their skin just burns a glow.

[01:01:35]If the devil is a lion and Jesus is a lamb, [music] why can't they lie together?

[01:01:51]Why can't they lie together after the trumpet sounds?

[01:01:58]GODAMN ALL THE ROADS [screaming] I'VE DONE.

[01:02:02][music] in my whole life. [screaming] GODAMN. ALL THE THINGS I TRIED TO do but DID NOT COME OUT RIGHT.

[01:02:21]OH, forgive me in the morning for what I will do tonight.

[01:02:31]Forgive me. Somewhere down the line. Down the [music] line. Just please before I die.

[01:02:43][music] Before I die.

[01:03:24]>> [snorts] [snorts] >> Where we at now? Flipped off.

[01:06:18]Hello.

[01:06:19]>> Hey, Mom.

[01:06:23]Hey, sorry it took so long for me to get back to you.

[01:06:27]>> It's okay.

[01:06:28]>> What were the dates to that trip again?

[01:06:32]>> We'd leave Sunday and be there for 2 weeks.

[01:06:35]>> Oh, wow. It's close.

[01:06:36]>> Yeah, no pressure at all. I just thought it could be fun.

[01:06:38]>> I um would like to go if that's if it's still possible.

[01:06:45]>> Really? That would be great.

[01:06:47]>> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, it sounds like fun.

[01:06:49]>> Okay. Well, I'll go ahead and book your ticket and email you the info. Does that sound okay?

[01:06:53]>> Yeah.

[01:06:53]>> Bring light, airy clothes because it gets intensely humid over there.

[01:06:57]>> Thanks, Mom.

[01:06:59]>> We're going to have a great time.

[01:07:01]>> Thanks, honey. Love you.

[01:07:03]>> I love you, too.

[01:07:24]>> [music] >> airport.

[01:07:34]>> Yes, please.

[01:07:43]I want to tell you where deep [music] [music and singing] >> Yeah, we just saw a freaking an elephant.

[01:08:19][music] >> Oh [ __ ] [music] >> We're going to eat some food [singing] and we need to get back. I don't know which direction is to our van.

[01:08:43]>> [music] >> It's uh >> more humid than I thought. [music] [music] Follow [music] my finger. That way.

[01:09:21]>> That way.

[01:09:34]Let's go. Just go.

[01:09:53][laughter] Just kidding.

[01:10:10]>> [music] >> I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

[01:10:16][music] >> For the son [music] of man who came to seek and to save what was lost.

[01:10:40]Hello. Hi. Nice meeting you. Thank you for joining us.

[01:10:44]>> This is my daughter Riley.

[01:10:45]>> Hi Riley. Welcome.

[01:10:48]>> Thank you.

[01:10:55]How many truly lovely [singing and music] are we I feel love.

[01:12:44]I mean, set aside [music] the fact that you snuck out. You lied to your mom. Did Did you actually take a minute to think about what could have happened to you there? I look, you're grounded for a year, man. And that means no basketball, no track, and you will spend every single minute of that time in this room. Do you understand that?

[01:13:08]>> Stop it. You're not going to take my sports away, >> Riley. Do you think this is some kind of joke? This is not a joke. I We care too much about you to let you go to a party and get wasted and let some idiot take advantage because that happens all the time. Riley, >> screw you guys. You guys used to drink all the time.

[01:13:30]You really CAN'T BE THAT STUPID, CAN YOU? I MEAN, HEY, >> it's okay. I James.

[01:13:36]>> No, >> no, no, no, >> no, no. Listen, listen to me. She's walking all over us here. She has got to learn what the consequences of her actions are. Did you stop TO THINK ABOUT WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED TO HER?

[01:13:46]>> I understand. I understand. But you're you're yelling and it's not helping.

[01:13:50]Okay. She's got all my [ __ ] and she doesn't need yours to she doesn't need yours. Okay. on top of it.

[01:13:58]I need to discipline from here. Okay, please just let me do this. Let me Riley, [sighs] I'm so sorry I said you were stupid cuz you're not.

[01:14:25]You're pretty smart and that's why it's so frustrating.

[01:14:31]I just want you to know that I love you and I want you to be safe cuz your mom and I, we we made all those mistakes and um I just want better for you.

[01:15:00]I don't understand any of this.

[01:15:03]Like, all I want to do is go out and drink with my friends.

[01:15:08]>> You can't do that.

[01:15:10]>> Why not?

[01:15:11]>> You're way too young.

[01:15:13]>> That's stupid.

[01:15:14]>> No, it's not.

[01:15:16]>> Do you have any idea what could have happened to you? I'm not just talking about our punishments here. I'm talking about >> This is ridiculous. I'm going to go to sleep.

[01:15:25]You can go.

[01:15:30]You can go.

[01:15:34]>> Are you okay?

[01:15:35]>> No, I'm not okay.

[01:15:39]What the? No, I'm not okay.

[01:15:43]>> You want to talk about it?

[01:15:46]>> No.

[01:15:48]No.

[01:15:52]Where was all this when I was seven?

[01:15:56]>> What?

[01:15:58]>> Where was all this like caring when I was seven?

[01:16:02]Yeah. Did you forget?

[01:16:06]Yeah. I didn't get to have a childhood because you were I was screwing around.

[01:16:11]I didn't get to be little. I had to be the other parent. So, no, you don't get to act like you're a good parent. No, I'm not letting you do that. That they may not have seen who you were, but I did.

[01:16:26]Next year, I'm out of here.

[01:16:29]I'm done.

[01:16:34]I'm done.

[01:16:37]I'm done.

[01:16:38]>> I hear you. I hear you. Okay. See you in the morning, maybe.

[01:16:58]Thank you for sitting through all these with me and thank you for coming on this trip.

[01:17:09]>> So good.

[01:17:10]>> Nice to get out of the States for a moment, huh?

[01:17:12]>> Yeah. Feels like a Hawaii trip.

[01:17:16]>> Yeah, >> it does.

[01:17:23]>> I've been missing this.

[01:17:29]I miss talking with you.

[01:17:32]Miss knowing what's going on in your life.

[01:17:36]Even when we disagree, we were still able to communicate.

[01:17:49][snorts] Where we're at now, this is new to me.

[01:17:58]And to be honest, I'm not a fan of it.

[01:18:01]Like, it sucks.

[01:18:05]Guess selfishly that's why I wanted you to come on this trip.

[01:18:16]>> No James, no Luke, just us for a little while.

[01:18:20]It's okay.

[01:18:31]I know we don't talk about the hard stuff much, but I feel like I feel like we both like to just let that be.

[01:18:48]Maybe maybe I just want to let it be.

[01:18:58]But I want you to know that I see you all those years.

[01:19:09]I saw you and I see you now.

[01:19:20]I see you now.

[01:19:27]OKAY. HEY. HEY. RALLY. COME ON OVER.

[01:19:31]>> I'll be right back.

[01:19:33]>> Let's pray. We will have a photo and we'll pray also for pray for you.

[01:19:40]>> Take a picture of us.

[01:19:43]We would like to join.

[01:19:46]>> Yeah. They will have a picture together.

[01:19:48]>> All right. Uh-huh. Uh-huh.

[01:19:50]>> All right.

[01:19:52]Okay. Three, two, one.

[01:19:55]>> Uhhuh.

[01:19:56]>> That's so good.

[01:19:57]>> Yeah. Thank you.

[01:19:59]>> Let's let's let's pray for this team.

[01:20:01]>> Okay.

[01:20:02]>> Yeah. Thank you.

[01:20:04]>> Loving God, heavenly father, we commit this team in your mighty hand. God, thank you for giving them safe journey around the country and we pray for them and uh we pray to you that they may have a safe trip back home. Oh Lord Jesus, Lord, as they travel, give them all the journey mercies that they are in need.

[01:20:23]Oh God, especially we pray for a safe journey back also we commit this service that we are going to have. Bless us together, oh God. And we pray that let your blessings may rest upon us as we worship you and lift your name up. Thank you for hearing us in Jesus name we pray.

[01:20:41]>> Amen.

[01:20:41]>> Amen.

[01:20:42]>> Amen. Amen.

[01:20:43]>> Okay. Thank you. Thank you for the picture.

[01:20:45]>> Thank you.

[01:20:46]>> Okay. God bless you. God bless you.

[01:20:48]>> Yeah. God bless you too.

[01:20:50]>> Thank you.

[01:21:00][music] >> How are you?

[01:21:09][music] You guys want it [music] to just be the three of us from now on?

[01:21:28]>> Yes.

[01:21:29]>> Me, too.

[01:21:33]>> Snuggy bears.

[01:21:38]>> [music] [music] >> says to them that thank you for being in our >> hallelujah.

[01:21:54]>> Hallelujah.

[01:21:56]>> Let's pray that God may speak to each and every one of us in Jesus precious name we pray. [music] >> Amen.

[01:22:03]>> Amen. Please be seated.

[01:22:07]Let's take some time in intercessory prayer. Um we will pray for uh this service as well as the team that's in our midst. Uh that God may bless uh their work. Uh whatever uh language is comfortable to you. Please let's uh pray for these matters.

[01:22:30]>> Lord we thank you for your grace.

[01:22:38]We give you all glory.

[01:22:40]We thank you for bringing your servants all around the world who want to do your will.

[01:22:48]Thank you for loving us. Oh father, we thank you for the opportunity to serve those who hurting all around us.

[01:22:57]Father, I believe there is someone here running away from their calling.

[01:23:04]And there is a girl from United States who is running away from her calling and the Lord is asking are you done running it? Father we thank you for the opportunity to serve you. We pledge our life to you.

[01:23:22]>> In Jesus name we pray. Amen.

[01:23:24]>> Did you tell them about me?

[01:23:26]>> I've never met him. No. [applause] >> [applause] >> Every [singing] Every time [singing] I look [music] for me sing it Are you done yet?

[01:24:45][music] My head's [singing] [music] but underneath I don't want your faithful song [singing] for me.

[01:25:44]And you me, are you done yet?

[01:26:23]>> [crying] [laughter] >> [ __ ] Where should I [music] run? Where should I hide? You've got it all inside of your eyes. Where could I go? Why should I stray? You are my home, so with you I'll stay. Jesus, you'll be the sun and I'll be the soil that you can shine on. Your love is like the rain and I am a flower shooting up on [music] your love. So Jesus, you be the sun and I'll be the [music] soil that you can shine on.

[01:28:37]You [music] can run, you can hide, but I'll be right by your side. You can go, but if you stray, don't think I won't give chase. Jesus, you be the sun. I'll be the soil that you can shine on. Your love is like the rain and I am the flower shooting up on your light of your love. Oh Jesus, you be the sun and I'll be the shine on [music] our [music] letting Go. Our love is unsppable.

[01:29:48][music] Our love is unsppable.

[01:29:56]I'm [music] not letting go.

[01:30:00]You're not [music] unsppable.

[01:30:11]And I'm not [music] letting go.

[01:30:15]You're not unsppable.

[01:30:22]My love is [music] unsppable.

[01:30:30]I'll be the shine and I'll be a flowering up on your plus and I'll be the The old flying fish.