DV Abuser, Hierarchal Abuse, Nothing to Offer a Man, Matriarchy, Child-free Women

[00:00:01][music] [music] this and then we're going to premiere it after. I don't think I'm going to premiere it. I think I'm just going to post it cuz the mic went out. What's up everybody? It's me, Erica, and we are down here for another video. Go ahead and like, subscribe, and comment and let me know that you stopped by.

[00:00:24]I don't have nothing to talk about today. I haven't been online. I haven't looked at anything. I just I got up at 5:30, did my little walk, did my little stretches, got myself together, got my coffee together. Got my fan, my Beyonce fan on me. Got my water, got my refas. Got my coffee. Got my water. Got my refer. Got my coffee. Got my water. Got my refer.

[00:00:54]Got my coffee. Hey, got my water. Got my refer. Got my coffee. Hey, got my water, my refer and my coffee. Hey, got my water and my refer and my coffee. Hey, I [snorts] do. And we are down here, girl. And um I don't know what's going on. So, let's go see what's [snorts] going on down to the block.

[00:01:15]>> I sponsor the Now I sponsor the blocks.

[00:01:18]Oh, I got all three ringers. All three ringers. All three rings on my finger today. Remember I told you? So, this one is a uh looks like a citrine probably citrine, carnelon, and amethyst. So, I have to get them. You have to get it.

[00:01:32]You have to get like one small and then you put the small one at the bottom and then you put the and then you start getting bigger because as you put them your, you know, when you stack rings, they got to either be you got to put the the largest one on the on the bottom.

[00:01:51]Yeah. the largest one on the bottom so it doesn't fall off. And then you cap it in with the smallest one at the top. So my little my fingers are a little swollen this morning because I went I did you see that was my my um my little walking thing. Um did you hear it? Um so you know my little my little fingers was a little swollen a little swollen this morning and then I broke this nail yesterday but I was able to reapply it.

[00:02:18]I broke like the bottom.

[00:02:20]So, I was mad. And then I went to go order some more. And the the particular seller that I bought two sets of these from, they don't have it anymore. So, I had to find another set. So, I found another stripe set, but the entire nail is striped and they have accent nails.

[00:02:36]So, like I think three of the nails are striped and two of them are black. So, those are coming next. And I think I got those in stiletto pumps in the club. I think that's what I got. I got stiletto and then I got some silver chrome.

[00:02:52]Now, I don't know how that silver chrome is gonna Maybe I should have got the gold chrome, but the silver chrome with my with my gold jewelry, I don't know how that's going to look, but it doesn't matter. We mix metals. I wear silver on this side, gold on this side. Um, but I have a gold ring on this side today.

[00:03:08]But I could put on my silver ring on this side. Hold on. Hold.

[00:03:14]Okay, there's a silver ring. We got a silver ring on this side. This one I could put on my thumb. I This one can't really go this side. It's always one hand. We're so a We're like asymmetrical.

[00:03:26]There's only one hand is always feels like it's like bigger than the other.

[00:03:31]One foot is bigger than the other. One titt is bigger than the other. One nostril is bigger than the other. One eye is bigger than the other. [snorts] I love that. I love that we're not like and they said that people who have like symmetrical faces are typically people who are deemed attractive.

[00:03:50]So I don't know what's going on. Let's go see what's going on down to the blogs. Bro G, [snorts] what are the seven comments that I have? What happened? The people are mad cuz I said right. So, I um there's this man that's going around um this video clip that's going around of this man who is a uh victimizer. He uh has been in I guess several DB situations and he's talking about how he feels that um when he when he was abusive to the women that they kind of deserved it and he doesn't >> I've been arrested about seven times but on one instance I went to jail for domestic violence twice in one day and I went to jail then I went and found her and beat her up for calling police on me and I went back again All in one night.

[00:04:49]>> So, did did any of the women like get restraining orders or protection orders against?

[00:04:53]>> Oh, that don't mean nothing to me.

[00:04:56]Restrain on nothing but a piece of paper. That ain't going to stop me from doing nothing. It ain't over till I say it's over.

[00:05:03]>> LIKE, I'm about to [ __ ] go get some food and go get some water and go get a gun.

[00:05:09]Like many former abusers, Charles says he was violent because he developed the view that men should be in charge of women.

[00:05:17]>> I never considered myself a woman beater, per se, because I didn't just hit women for nothing. I figured if I had a reason, then it was just not being a woman beat. It was justified. It was corrective actions. Just trying to get some compliance.

[00:05:33]>> Open his head. Walk with his hand.

[00:05:44]How many women did you do this to? I think >> I've been arrested about seven times.

[00:05:48]>> Doesn't care about restraining orders and stuff like that. I honestly I think that more women are coming into the awareness that they do need to, you know, carry a firearm or carry some type of weaponry. Um, depending on what their state's rules are. Um, some people can't like walk around or conceal to carry.

[00:06:09]Um, I think cuz part of our brain wants to trust people before we distrust them that before we don't, right? I that's part of our our human makeup. We want to trust people before and give them the benefit of the doubt. And I think in a system of patriarchy, so many women give men the benefit of the doubt. That's why women continue to date men even though they know all of the stats, the research, the anecdotal evidence. And this is what I said. So, I want you to listen to this video and I want to read some of the comments because I think also in the system of patriarchy, men, very toxic, abusive men have this idea that because you critique them, because you don't want to partner with them. They believe that the only other option is for you to partner with a lesbian, they believe that you want to be partnered. They don't even think about the idea that I might be a heterosexual person and still not want to be with men. Doesn't mean I'm a lesbian, but I don't want to be with men. And I'm going to show I'm going to let you listen to a video um where a woman describes what is it called when you are you consider yourself heterosexual but you do not desire to have relationships with men.

[00:07:45]and well, we'll listen to that. So, I want to listen to this this this milk dud looking man. And that's what I when that's one thing I think one thing we need to be telling our nieces and our nephews and our grandchildren and our cousins, our younger cousins who are still out there, you know, trying to figure it out. I think we need to tell them when a man or a woman decides that they want to operate in g in in archaic outdated gender roles. You that is a person unsuitable for partnership. You do not want to partner with a man who believes that he is better than you or superior to you.

[00:08:27]You do not want to date a man who believes he is superior to you. No.

[00:08:34]Especially considering the fact that you created him. Can you imagine your creation coming out and saying, "I'm better than you." What sir? I'm sorry.

[00:08:49]They don't even consider themselves mutation of the blueprint.

[00:08:55]They are literally a mutate. People don't like to say mutation because that sounds like that sounds like the aliens, right? But the truth of the matter is you are a mutation of the blueprint. You can look at the male anatomy and see that where how it comes from. We know that we all start off as female. We know that the leg breaks a mutation. That's why it's it's it's weird for women to even submit to that.

[00:09:22]That's crazy. That's like Dr. Frankenstein submitting to the monster. Are you crazy?

[00:09:30]We've created monsters, but you don't submit to the monster.

[00:09:40]Exactly. Right. I'm looking at you crazy, girl. When you think about it, think about it.

[00:09:48]This thing when you hear young women say, "I want a man to lead me." When you you want to stop them and say, "Listen, little little girl, niece, when you grew up, didn't they always tell you you develop faster than boys?"

[00:10:03]Yes. So why at your grown ass, ablebodied, fully functional brain ass, why would you get up here and say that you need to be led by a man?

[00:10:20]Think about it. Think about how you just literally just you grow up learning and you know why we learn that very early because they already are building up the excuse for them.

[00:10:33]Right? So when they weaponize competence and act like they don't know what the [ __ ] is going on unless you tell them cuz they they're a private and you're a general and you need to tell him what to do. But then you walk out on your porch and you wave a flag and say the man is the head of the household.

[00:10:53]You must think about that one again.

[00:10:56][laughter] >> Y'all don't see the weird. Y'all don't y'all don't see how that how it don't go. Girl, it does not compute because we are living in literally a perverted sense of reality under a system of patriarchy. It's perverted.

[00:11:13]Everything is literally upside down.

[00:11:16]Even the fact that you believe that women literally fight over men as if they are the prize when it's you are the prize.

[00:11:25]They even tell us the more contact you come into with us, we look at you as less valuable. So we are admitting that we make you less valuable.

[00:11:39]And whenever a woman gets with a man and builds him up and change his style and and do all of this, then he turns around and does what? Leave you. You made him better. He used you as a resource to make him boost him up. And now you done made him look so a certain way. Now you didn't open the floodgates cuz one, you've already co-signed him just by being with him.

[00:12:05]And now the floodgates are open. And now you done built him up, changed his whole look, changed his style, made the [ __ ] wash his ass. And now all of a sudden he's running a town. And you and how many women are like, "Damn, I built his ass up. I supported him. I did this. I did that. I did this. I did that. I did this. I did that." They don't. It's very rare that a man could turn around and be like, "I did this. I built her up. I did this. I built her up." No, you did not.

[00:12:36]Even down to the idea that women rappers need men to write their raps.

[00:12:44]She didn't write that. She got a ghostriter. She didn't write that. She couldn't have come up with that. A [ __ ] must have did it for her. Now granted, the guys do write raps for women. Little yacht Little Yachty. I think he wrote a couple of City Girls songs.

[00:13:01]But the truth of the matter is we have an idea that somehow some way that men are better. They're not. You cannot be the creation cannot be better than the creator ever. So, let's listen to this abusive man talk about this foolishness.

[00:13:26]>> I've been arrested about seven times, but on one instance, I went to jail for domestic violence twice in one day.

[00:13:35]>> I've been arrested about seven times, >> but on one instance, I went to jail for domestic violence twice in one day and I went to jail. I went and found her and beat her up for calling police on me and I went back again [laughter] only one night.

[00:13:51]>> So, did did any of the women like get restraining orders or protection orders?

[00:13:55]>> Oh, that don't mean nothing to me.

[00:13:58]Restrain ain't nothing but a piece of paper. That ain't going to stop you from doing nothing. It ain't over till I say it's over.

[00:14:05]>> Like many former abusers, Charles says he was violent because he developed the view that men should be in charge of women. I never considered myself a woman beater per se because I didn't just hit women for nothing. I figured if I had a reason then it was just not being a woman beater. It was justified corrective actions. Just try to get some compliance.

[00:14:37]>> How many women did you do this to?

[00:14:39]>> I've been arrested about seven. This is behind the rage. A film by Dia Khan. It says, "Exabuser shares that he never considered himself a woman beater as long as he had a reason. Says restraining orders mean nothing. Then I went out and found her and beat her up for calling the police on me. It ain't over till I say it's over." The way you need to make these [ __ ] into Swiss cheese. Girl, I'm telling you, it sounds it sounds crazy to say take them out before they take you out because the the the idea of being imprisoned.

[00:15:20]Women don't want that. So, they rather just go to the cops. No, take his ass out of here.

[00:15:28]That he's a threat to you. You don't I don't ever know if you guys heard the term neutralize the threat. Eliminate the threat.

[00:15:44]To me, it sounds insane. No, I don't want to be in jail, but I would rather be in jail and alive than a man take me out of here. And that's literally I think how women and then we need to know that in in a in an effort in a self-defense you can defend yourself. Yes, you might we've seen women kill their abusers. We've se we see it all the time.

[00:16:15]This is insane. But like my I'm going to read some of these comments and I want to read you every time I it it's it I don't know why but the comments I leave people get triggered by it and then the threads be going days and days and days and days and I be looking at the thing like I haven't even engaged with this post in a week and people are still on this [ __ ] thread arguing with each other. Sometimes I want to delete the thing cuz I I want to I don't want to get the notifications but because the thread is you know creating conversation between people although some of the conversation you know teeters on ignorant because when you're dealing with men who have been taught this their whole life from their little boys.

[00:17:01]What is the worst thing that you can be as a little boy is like a girl?

[00:17:09]Then you have the Bible to reinforce and you sit in church every Sunday and the reinforcement of male centered ideologies continue to be fed to you.

[00:17:22]So you think it's normal and it's not.

[00:17:27]You're looking at a cult following who center men and they reinforce that. You can even try to leave your abusive man and you go into a church and the so-called church therapist, church counselor is trying to convince you that you've done something wrong and you need to wait it out to see how this marriage is going to go.

[00:17:52]encouraging you to stay in relationships that aren't benefiting you. As long as it's benefiting the man, they don't give a goddamn because your role in this system is to be a what? A maid, a mule, and a mattress. You are an object, a utility, an appliance.

[00:18:12]Why do you think objects, inanimate objects have girl names? [ __ ] name their guns, girls. girl names. Their boats, girl names, their cars, girl names.

[00:18:28]Hurricanes, girl names.

[00:18:33]Objects, just objects have girl names.

[00:18:40]You are an object. And if you literally fall into the trap of being a submissive, compliant fool, this is how you end up in these weird relationships because the man already thinks he's better than you. So because he thinks he's superior to you in this system of in this hierarchal system, the way that parents parent children, the way that police deal with civilians, I can put my hands on you just because you are lesser than me.

[00:19:12]I see you as a lesser human being. I don't even see you as a human being.

[00:19:17]Honestly, he this man, this man, he should not be able to He shouldn't even be here giving this interview. The woman that he went back to beat up, she should have took him out of here.

[00:19:32]If I got to pay a [ __ ] Jay to take you out of here, that's what I'm going to do. I'm sorry. Oh, she's going to jail for premeditated. Why is she going to jail? Because the man was threatening her. So, what did she do?

[00:19:47]Because nobody Because the cops are just as abusive as the as the men you calling calling on. They're just as abusive.

[00:19:54]That's why they can sit up and talk to the man with their arms crossed laughing and giggling while you standing in the door frame crying wondering when they're going to take his ass away. And they sitting out there laughing with his ass.

[00:20:05]I've seen that firsthand.

[00:20:08]letting him go back in the house, knowing goddamn well when there's a domestic violence situation, you don't let nobody go back in the house because you don't know what they going in the house to get.

[00:20:20]But they have a camaraderie. These abusive cops, these abusive these abuse, these men are abusive because they believe they're superior. They literally believe that you got the patriarchy parasites running through their brains. They believe that they are better than you. And whenever you get an opportunity, you have to remind them that they are not. I don't care how many masculine, baldheaded, fat lesbians they call you. You let them know, [ __ ] I don't give a [ __ ] how big. I could be I could be white as all outside, licking [ __ ] baldheaded, but I still will never [ __ ] with you. And if you [ __ ] with me, I will take you out of here. You can call me all the [ __ ] names you want. You can call me a cat lady. You can say, "I'm going to be single forever. I will be alive. It will be you before it's me."

[00:21:13]If every if someone is a threat to your body, to your person, to your life, you don't go somewhere else and oh, can I need to call the law to help you with this? And then if he were to get in trouble, he's not going to stay in there a long time because they don't give a [ __ ] They don't. That's why one in three women experience domestic violence.

[00:21:43]Some I said this is my comment. It's 170 I'm sorry it's 17,800 comments on this post. This is from the neighborhood talk.

[00:22:01]Somebody said and he'd be on a shirt compliance that another woman said I'm grateful that I have not been physic in a physically abusive relationship. Let me tell you something. There are other forms of abuse. I think that if they don't see your arm broke, they don't believe that it's abusive.

[00:22:23]If they don't see you with a black eye and a gash over your head, they still won't even believe it's abusive. You You ran yourself into the door. You ran yourself into the door and got that gash on your head. Girl, he didn't do that to you.

[00:22:42]I'm grateful I've never been in an abusive a physically abusive relationship because I promise y'all I'm transforming into Huck from scandal.

[00:22:50]Girl, when I tell you the light, you going to be sitting there thinking you, "Yeah, I done beat her ass again cuz she tried to put a restraining order on me.

[00:22:57]called the cops. I beat ass again. All of a sudden, the lights will go out, [ __ ] You looking around. What happened? What happened? Then you going to hear something scurry across the floor. What the [ __ ] What the [ __ ] is going on?

[00:23:09]Then something's going to get you from behind and and choke your ass with a goddamn wire.

[00:23:16]Oh yeah. Yeah. I'mma turn into Huck.

[00:23:19]It's going to be what is it called? B16, B116, B16. What they calling, bro? It's going to be Huck after this.

[00:23:27]The whole crew were they The whole crew crew was shifty. Huck was just the craziest one out of the crew. All the whole crew was shifty. We coming up in your [ __ ] You think you going to beat somebody up cuz they called the cops on you? You out of here. You're a threat to my life. I got to take you out. [snorts] I'm not shaming anyone when I ask this, but I don't know how people don't immediately get creative when making sure people like this don't try it again. Me either. I don't That's That is the That is the main reason, one of the main reasons I I none. No empathy, no sympathy, no nothing. You trying to take me out? That's why when I've been physically abused, you don't get to be next to me anymore.

[00:24:21]You don't get to be in proximity to me anymore. You sh If you put your hands on me, do not trust me moving forward.

[00:24:32]Don't trust me to make your food. Don't trust me to do nothing. Don't go to sleep after you put your hands on me.

[00:24:40]Don't think it's all gonna be peaceful.

[00:24:43]No, no, no, no.

[00:24:48]I said, "Off with his head."

[00:24:53]I said it's still fascinating that with all the information, research, peer reviews, studies, anecdotal evidence, and blatant podcast discourse that the women will still risk their lives and attempt to be in relationships with men.

[00:25:14]It is literally a risk to be in a relationship with a man, a a heterosexual man.

[00:25:23]Women are risking their lives every day.

[00:25:25]They risk their lives on Tinder, on Aura. What is it called? On Bumble, on Plenty of Fish, on what is the one? Harmony. What is it called? Something harmony.

[00:25:42]They risk their lives. A woman I just read a story. A woman went on a date with a man and her body was in a in a deserted area. The next day she went on a date.

[00:25:52]First date and he killed her. Some of these men just want to kill a woman because it makes them feel like men.

[00:25:59]I wish I can find that. I cannot find that story anywhere where I I saw a documentary on this man who killed killed his wife.

[00:26:10]They were on a reality show and he felt like like the the the relationship was contentious and he felt like she talked down to him and stuff like that. He ended up killing her and then when he got on the phone with the cops, somebody asked him why and he his response was because I'm a man. That was his response. I I wish I could remember.

[00:26:35]I've been I've been looking every now and again I look for that because I want to hear that report and I want to show y'all. I can't remember that it was a white couple. The woman had dark brown hair and he looked like you know like a nice average you know like a average looking you know guy that be on the beach kind of got a tan the hair the hair you know you know just a a regular looking dude.

[00:26:59]They had a reality show and on the reality show he felt like he wasn't getting the spotlight. She was talking down to him and he ended up killing her.

[00:27:10]I think he like stabbed her with a sword or something like that. Like in her back multiple times and then he tried to say he tried to make some excuse but then when they asked him he's like cuz I'm a man.

[00:27:25]That's why they that's why the femicide rates are so high. These men are killing women just because they're women. No, for no reason but because she's a woman.

[00:27:35]And a testament to my manhood under a system of patriarchy is to take one of you [ __ ] out of here. But let me tell you something. If you think you're going to take me out of here, we are going together.

[00:27:49]We are going together. You are going to think that you have just experienced your worst nightmare.

[00:27:59]We are going to we are I'm if I get if you I'm telling you it that's just to me that's just human na that's just nature and we are going to go out of here like literally go out of here together that is I just I'm waking up around the globe I thank the heavens the gods and the goddesses and the angels and the ancestors for the internet because if it weren't for the internet, women will still be thinking that they are having these experiences by themselves, that no one else is having the experience.

[00:28:39]It's insane that Claudia in California and Nancy in New York and CeCe from Chicago have the same [ __ ] story and have dated three separate men.

[00:28:52]And when you come down here and critique these wild ass banshey ass [ __ ] then somebody's gonna call you a lesbian.

[00:29:00]You're a lesbian. You must like [ __ ] if you don't like dick.

[00:29:07]That's what they whittle it down to because they believe that every woman desires a partner. That's another lie created under a system of patriarchy.

[00:29:20]You all want a man. You all want a man no matter what. And women will risk their lives every single day going on dates. We know men are dangerous. That's why when we go on dates, we're sending our friends his license plate number, his picture, and everything. We already know it's a risk. We already know. We are cognizant of the risk because when we go out with these [ __ ] we're sending one of our friends his information, sharing our location here. The here's the thread in my thread. I said it's still fascinating that with all the information, research, peer-reviewed studies, anecdotal evidence, and blatant podcast dis discourse, I put disclosure that the women will still risk their lives and attempt to be in a relationship with a man. This person says, "So women should be so women should be with women.

[00:30:19]>> The girls are not well."

[00:30:20]>> Wait, no.

[00:30:22]>> So you would rather risk your life? What about single?

[00:30:27]You ever thought about that?

[00:30:30]Somebody said, "I love your YouTube."

[00:30:32]Thank you.

[00:30:35]I'm I'm hoping you're saying to be in relationships with these types of men because I'm not trying to bump coochis with another woman. Just looking for clarification. It's almost like you guys have no concept of being single. It's sick. It's actually It's actually weird as [ __ ] that you can't even envision your life without being partnered. that you feel like just because I'm telling you to be careful with partnering with men that the only other option is to be licking coochie.

[00:31:04]>> Baby girl said that we was gay. Girl, we was kissing lesbians. Girl, >> what about your lesbian relationship, [ __ ] >> Somebody said, "Or be by yourself. Stop picking desperate men and do a better job at vetting these men before you start sleeping with them. What happened to women's intuition? That's a man.

[00:31:33]Somebody said, "Right. It's not always a great option, though. If you find love, that's great, but don't be desperate for it. I've been around a lot of elderly people who wish they had a spouse to grow grow old with. You're lying. You're lying. You're lying. You're lying.

[00:31:46]You're lying. I don't care." Somebody said they can also be happily single.

[00:31:51]These men and women exist. Humans suck sometime. Doesn't mean love, real love doesn't exist in health, safe, healthy spaces. There's no s girl, shut up.

[00:32:00]Somebody says, "You're comparing 500 year 50 years of data with 600,000 years of history. Women standing up is recent and not prevalent." You're not. That's not true. Women have always been standing up. That's why men were dropping dead from being poisoned.

[00:32:15]There's always a group of women who are standing up and not with the b [ __ ] There will always be groups of women who are not with the [ __ ] and have never been with the [ __ ] They get called witches and then they get burned at the stake and then the pikmis point out she's a witch. She's a witch. She's oh, she's been she's been criticizing men.

[00:32:37]There's a witch over there.

[00:32:40]You're not you are you're not Listen to this. Listen to this. You're comparing five 50 years of data to 600,000 years of history.

[00:32:54]Women standing up is recent and not prevalent. You want peace, deal with a man in some way, shape, or form. I I can just kill you. That's what I I don't think that because women are not considered murderous people. So when you hear a woman talking about killing men, you're like, "Oh my god." Yeah. Eileen Waros needs a [ __ ] a statue erected in the public square.

[00:33:21]You want peace? Deal with a man in some way, shape, or form. You're just not strong or smart enough to set rules for yourself. And that will always be the case unless you get a man with a bleeding heart that's in a position or put someone in position to make a change. This is a man's world. Rights be damned. Just being honest.

[00:33:43]Uh uh uh [laughter] uh uh uh no now.

[00:33:46]>> Somebody said there is a lot of reported domestic violence with women and women relationship. So So that can't be what she's saying.

[00:33:57]So you want us to become lesbians?

[00:34:01][laughter] Or how about you got to you got to the source of the issue. Women are existing and it's men. How about practicing self-restraint and sexual discipline?

[00:34:20]Some women rather trust their toys and possibly a disease passound appendage that's attached to a male that you're sharing with unknown users. The white picket fence fairy tale is one in a million. Like a needle in a hay stack.

[00:34:34]Stop renting y'all wombs out to unworthy, flawed humans. Most males, rather human or animal or instinct, possess a lot of the same characteristics. Do with that what you will and centuries of evidence. These men wear masks just like the rest of them.

[00:34:53]And as soon as you see a red flag, you block and remove them. Period. I'm a DV social worker in a criminal court.

[00:35:00]Believe him. I've seen clients accumulate case after case. We issue protective orders. I've had clients in ankle bracelets and they don't care.

[00:35:09]Ladies and men, please be careful.

[00:35:12]People are unhinged. Erica, I was the one who told you about Jennifer Dulos from CT. Yes.

[00:35:23]Is really not worth it. It's not worth it. It's not to me. It's not worth the risk. does not, you know, you take a risk, right? When you invest in things, you take a risk. The risk and the reward do not align. You don't you're not getting it's not there's it's it's it's not as rewarding at the end of the day as you think it is. Now, I want to listen to this this this woman.

[00:35:49]>> Can we get >> say that you hate >> So, does anyone know what it's called when you're not a lesbian, but you're no longer attracted to men? Heteropausal attraction agit.

[00:36:00]>> Say that you hate.

[00:36:01]>> So does anyone know?

[00:36:04]>> So does anyone know what it's called when you're not a lesbian but you're no longer attracted to men?

[00:36:09]>> Heteropausal attraction adjourned.

[00:36:11]Emotionally solarp powered man-free maintenance mode. Heterero fatigued.

[00:36:16]Chronically wellelmed the great uncrushing pension plan. Pansexual self-p partnership plus the return to sender sexuality. Recreationally single.

[00:36:26]Missandra Light, romantically redundant, asexual by experience, been there, done him, zero tolerance, spin, platonic maximalist, boundary sexual, exhaust sexual, narro romantic, do not disturbian, low tolerance, sexual, situationship survivor, chronically unbothered, pissexual, mandatory, opt out, emotionally unsubscribed, solo sexual adjacent, hermit, curious, romance, retired, auto emorous light, posthero, Selective, celibate, menopausitarian, the audacity allergic, historically heterosexual, decaf desire, the peace preference, witness protection from dating, not looking thanks, emotionally out of service, patients exhausted, Y chromosone exemption program, professional third wheel, retired from customer service to men.

[00:37:14]Selective silent sexual couch and snacks romantic relationship remote control lost fully booked until further noticed.

[00:37:20]Me sexual.

[00:37:22]>> So, does anyone know what it's called?

[00:37:24]way.

[00:37:24]>> Let's read some of the comments. My brain doesn't work this way. This list is amazing. I found out that I'm a fto a fictoexual. I only like men I've met in books. How about when you like men and women a little bit but prefer to be alone? By myself.

[00:37:41][laughter] That's funny. That was funny. By myself.

[00:37:46]B I By myself.

[00:37:50]Legends say she's still going on with the names, right? Isn't that just menopause? Right. heard someone say mang man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man mang m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m man m manang an man man m man m man man man m man m man man man m man m man man man man an anxiety mang mansiety mansiety [snorts] this is actually unreal like how do you have so many well done I made them up with the help of chat GPT and my ADHD brain she says mexual exactly heterero fatigue absolute gold I love um asexual by experience because that's me because I'm like girl Oh, I have no literally I look at the state of the the the world and I have always felt that I should not be part it. I'm telling you, it didn't matter who, what male I was entertaining, there was always like a whisper in the back of my head saying, "You don't even you don't even want this." Like even acting like I remember girl when I tell you I was a trip. I remember acting like I cared about somebody so much that I would bring myself to tears. But then when it was out of sight, out of mind, I didn't give a [ __ ] And I knew I was like, are my the tears they're performative. They're what I think.

[00:39:16]They're what I think on how I should respond to this weirdo, right? Acting like you've you've liked this person or you love this person. And then when you realize that the love is fleeting to me, I always revert to well that means it was never real.

[00:39:43]I have never been in love.

[00:39:46]Infatuated maybe, possibly.

[00:39:50]But telling somebody I love them, I didn't love them because when it's all said and done, [ __ ] I really don't love you. Why?

[00:39:57]What the [ __ ] was I crying over this [ __ ] for again? Right. So it was a a lot of the times it was like a performative thing. I would be girl I would be on the phone with a girl I might be on the phone with a [ __ ] cussing his ass out. You did this and why did you do this and this is so stupid and d and then get off the phone and and be fine. Not cry. Tears just tears just well up. Like you was just acting on the phone with this [ __ ] making this [ __ ] think that you was feeling a certain way and then you get off the phone and go back to doing whatever you're doing, masturbating, watching Sex in the City, whatever the [ __ ] you want to do. Girl, and then you realize when you look back on your relationship, you're like, "Why was I acting like that? That was fake."

[00:40:39]I'm telling you, since I I've always like as I got older, like even like out of high school, it was like, "What are you doing this for?" like, "Oh, he's fun. You smoke a little weed with him."

[00:40:51]But this is like, and I remember writing in my journal, "You meet unavailable men because you are unavailable.

[00:41:06]You're not you're not even available."

[00:41:09]And so, you meet people who are unavailable as well.

[00:41:13]And then, who did I hear talking about this? When when you when you're a no strings attached type of diva, they can't take it. They don't even know how to act because they've been told you want them no matter what. You want to be in a relationship. So when you operate, you a young woman and you're going through your we're not calling it whole phases anymore. We're calling it eras of exploration.

[00:41:40]Your era of exploration. You're like dealing with these dudes then you're like I don't even what is what is the what is the purpose of this? Why am I participating then? And then you come to awareness and you're like bing I don't even have to participate in this. You know what I actually don't have to participate in this? That's why the women are in the comments. So what you expect us to be lesbians? You haven't even thought about the the the the idea of not even participating in it. You don't even have to participate in this.

[00:42:14]But people cannot fathom not being partnered. And then that's why you have the men thinking that everyone wants to be partnered. And when you tell them, "No, I just want to have a good time."

[00:42:24]They're like, "Wait, what? You mean I can't emotionally, you know, triangulate you with somebody else? You mean you're not going to fight o over me? I What do you What? I was told I can triangulate women. This is not working with you. I I told you what the girl said about you.

[00:42:44]You don't care.

[00:42:46]Wait, you you want to have sex and you don't and I got to leave after? Wait, I'm confused cuz I've been told all my life that if if we have sex, you're going to be emotionally attached to me and then you're going to like me and then I can emotionally abuse you and be emotionally unavailable to you and then have you want me more and more and more.

[00:43:08]I told you I heard the narcissist talking one day to these boys. It was outside, you know, in my community.

[00:43:17]And I could over hear him telling a junior high school boy that in order to get a girl to like you is ignore her.

[00:43:29]That's what I'm telling you. You can do everything you can in your house to make sure your son doesn't turn out to be ain't [ __ ] But when he steps out of the door in his independent journey, he is going to come across men in the barber shop, men at the auto parts place, men just telling him a bunch of dumb [ __ ] How you how many women you have sex with is a testament to your manhood.

[00:43:57]Emotionally triangulate these women.

[00:43:59]Don't be available to them. Play hard to get. They're gonna want you more. Oh, and the [ __ ] that you know are freaks, right? They freaked out. But then when you want to have sex, they're like, "Oh, no. I'm cool." They reject you, right?

[00:44:17]They play that game. I'm Girl, when I tell you, study your enemy, girl. Study your enemy. Study your apex predator so you can learn this [ __ ] ain't all what it seems. And you don't have to participate in this. You do not. I have a lot of videos. You don't have to participate in this. Here, hold on. Let me go through my my um >> So, does anyone know? Stop moving out the way for them.

[00:44:43]>> You know exactly who I mean when I say them. Stop moving out the way for them.

[00:44:46]Stop. I'm 54 years old.

[00:44:49]I'm divorced. I'm a single mom with two minor children. And I think a lot of men would think that someone like me doesn't have anything to offer a man in a relationship. And to that I would say you are absolutely right. My body is not available to men anymore. I don't want to be touched. I don't want to be groped. I don't want to be intimate. My body belongs to me again. All of my financial resources are for me and my children. I'm a single mom. I work a full-time job. I cannot give you any money for your bills. I can't loan you any money. I'm not going 5050 on anything with you. I have >> And what kind of man comes into a single woman's life with children? A single woman with children and start asking her for money.

[00:45:44]>> Nothing to offer a man financially.

[00:45:47]Nothing.

[00:45:47]>> I'mma tell you how diabolical I am. When that [ __ ] [ __ ] came out of jail and wasn't working, he wasn't working till he found a job.

[00:45:56]Do you know I claimed that [ __ ] on my taxes? I got his social security number and I claimed them on my taxes.

[00:46:01]You dependent ass waste of flesh.

[00:46:04]I'm I don't play these games with the girl. When I tell you I don't play these games with these [ __ ] it it's a very short time. That's why every little so-called relationship didn't last.

[00:46:14]I really didn't give a [ __ ] I really didn't. The era of exploration, I didn't give a [ __ ] Sometimes I acted like I did. Oh, I'm crying. Oh, girl, I can't believe it. Oh, he Oh, um, girl, I have a story that's that got to go on Patreon. [laughter] That got to go on Patreon. Girl, I do not give when I tell you I don't give a [ __ ] I don't give a [ __ ] I did it. And I it and it's so it's so weird how you act like you do and then when you get off the phone, how many times you been on the phone with a [ __ ] and and going off and then when you get off the phone with him, the tears just roll back up in your face and you off to doing whatever you finish cooking or whatever the hell you was doing. I've done it plenty of times. A whole a whole [ __ ] actress.

[00:47:03]You think Shamia and Porsche are actresses and and Drew are actresses, [ __ ] I could get a [ __ ] academy award the way I used to be acting like I was crying on the phone to these [ __ ] Girl, please.

[00:47:16][laughter] >> I don't want to share my living space with a man. No, >> you can't live here. You can't even visit. Nope.

[00:47:23]>> You can't use my bathroom. My personal space is for me and my children.

[00:47:29]>> It's not for a man anymore. I don't have any mental or emotional energy to give to a man. I can't support you with your mental and emotional issues. If you're having a hard time in life, your mental health is not in a good place. I cannot help you with that. I do go to therapy and all of my mental and emotional energy is for me. It's for me to figure out my issues, not yours. To be honest, I can't even laugh at your lame jokes anymore. Not going to even play that game with you. like makes a joke and he's trying to be flirty and funny and we laugh at their jokes just to make them feel >> and then when they give you compliments if you hit them with a I know girl you have a beautiful smile. I know.

[00:48:19]Oh, you're so pretty. I know.

[00:48:24]They can't stand it. You supposed to be thankful. Oh my god, a man gave me a compliment. Let me suck your dick. No.

[00:48:31]No. Uhuh. I'm not laughing at your dumb ass jokes. I mean, girl, in public, men will be trying to flirt and you just be I just be looking that when I tell you resting [ __ ] face.

[00:48:48]They be in the line trying to flirt with you. Oh yeah. What you get? Let me see.

[00:48:53]Girl, when I tell you I don't even get eye contact with these [ __ ] The way I lower my gaze like a hidic Jew, baby. [laughter] Not I'll be looking down at the ground, baby, in my phone. I would look over you cuz first of all, like an observer, I didn't already spotted you 100 feet away. By the time we get into the eye the line of eye contact, I I I'm looking past you. They can't stand it because they think your existence is for them.

[00:49:24]Like some women think men's existence is for them, too. They'll unlearn it once they get bopped upside the head and the eyes go back straight.

[00:49:33]I don't have time for it. And I'm and and and it it does come with age. It does come with experience. It does come with you trial and fail. Try and fail.

[00:49:47]Try and fail until after a while you're like, you know what? I don't even have to participate in this. I don't have to participate in this. And no, I'm not a lesbian, but I don't have to participate in this.

[00:50:01]I don't have to I don't have to. It's not required of me. My mission here has has I've I've known it and I've participated in this game until I decided not to participate in in in it anymore. And I had the final boss, a narcissist. And I was like, "Oh no, we're not doing this. I'm not doing this anymore. I'm not going to even risk it.

[00:50:26]I'm not going to even risk it because after the narcissist, [snorts] I met a dude who taught me a lot. He taught me He taught me a lot. He exposed me to a lot and we were cool friends talking. I don't even know how we met.

[00:50:41]I don't know if we met in the dating. I don't think we met on a dating app on in a Facebook group. I don't remember.

[00:50:49]But he started acting weird, too. And I remember he had issues with his mom. His mom is an educator. He was into like investing and stuff. He taught me a lot.

[00:51:00]Um his mother, black man, black dude. His mother was an educator.

[00:51:09]Her partner a white man. He hated it.

[00:51:12]When I tell you he hated it, but at the same time he understood it because he understood how men were. But he hated the fact that his mom was with a white man.

[00:51:23]One day he sent me a meme making jokes about making joke about a black woman. It was it was we I don't remember what the meme was but I sent him back and I was like why did you send this to me? He was like like it was on some like red pill [ __ ] and I was like why did you send this to me? And I don't remember his response, but I as soon as as soon as I got that meme, I was like, "Oh, he doesn't like women." And I just backed away from him. Just I just drew all the way back. It was no trying to figure out like I just said, "Why did you send this to me?" And he responded like, "That's that's probably how you are." Or something. It was something weird like he made this wild assumption.

[00:52:07]And I was like, "Oh, you don't like women."

[00:52:10]And so I backed away, right? And I'm like, I don't have to deal with this.

[00:52:15]I'm not dealing with this. I'm not dealing with no weird ass [ __ ] I'm not dealing with your weird ass emotional issues, your mental issues.

[00:52:23]I'm not doing that. I remember one time on the Grapevine. Shout out to the Grapevine. I really missed that that that form, the way they just sat around and had these really raw, truthful conversations with the men and women sitting at the table, the non-binary people sitting at the table and just having real conversations. I remember one time, I don't remember who it was on the on the panel, but I remember Uchi, remember her? She said that you will as a woman because we are always told it's your fault, it's your fault, it's your fault, you did this, you did this. So what do we do as as a response to that? We account for saying that you know you know you do this, you you you're wrong in this. We're accounting like, okay, they're saying that I need to do this in order to do this. I I need to do this in order to attract a man or whatever. You're always wrong. So, the women go out and they fix themselves, right? They go they get the self-help books, they go on retreats, they they get a they get into therapy, right? They start doing all the things and they gather a toolbox full of tools.

[00:53:37]And then you find this dude who comes along and he gets in your toolbox. He takes your tools and he starts breaking them.

[00:53:47]Just breaking your tools. Just keep breaking all your tools. He just keeps breaking them and now and then he takes your tools and breaks them and then he leaves and now you got to start all over again.

[00:53:59]You you you you're using your tools to be like, "Oh, I can help you. I can give you information and he just takes your tools and he destroys them and then he leaves and now you're left with a toolbox full of broken tools and you got to start it all over again.

[00:54:19]You you have you have spent money, time, energy into developing healthier ways to deal with these people. But guess what they're not doing? They're not doing that. They're using you as the resource and the appliance to you're now their counselor.

[00:54:39]You're now their mediator, right? you you become all these things for them and all they're doing is either siphoning your life force, taking your tools and banging them up against each other and breaking them and then trying to give them back to you only to be like, "Okay, I know I I took your tools and I broke them down and I figured I figured out some things. Now I'm moving on to the next fool with a tool box full of good tools that I can take her tools and [ __ ] her tools up to.

[00:55:09]everything that she has tried to do to become a better woman. And then you attract this dude. You let you allow him in and he gets all your [ __ ] and he [ __ ] your [ __ ] up. Comes in the house with his [ __ ] shoes on with mud on the bottom of it.

[00:55:25]Shows you the representative. There's no vetting. That is the reason why you need to sit on some ice, cool that coochie down before you put your legs to the moon and observe the behavior and then tell these mother [ __ ] until you have come out of the pocket of whatever the price of your pocketbook is, they need to come out the pocket before they even sniff it. Before they even smell your breath to kiss you.

[00:56:03]Stop. Stop it. Stop it. And I know I'm an old lady. You're like, Erica, you old woman. You have the experience. Let me have some more experience. To me, if I'm playing a video game and I see that all the women go that way and fall down the cliff. You know, I always use this analogy. And the women, all the women before you go this way and they fall off the cliff.

[00:56:26]They fall off the cliff. Are you going to go that way? Cuz you just want to see if how how far the cliff is from the ground. Like what? What do you What? Why do you need to go that way, too? Why don't you see? Oh, every time I see I see the woman go down the road, but then all of a sudden she disappears.

[00:56:45]Are you going to take that same road?

[00:56:47]Are you going to look at all the women before you who have disappeared off the cliff and be like, "Uh, yeah, I'm not going that way. I'm good."

[00:56:55]But that's why in a system of patriarchy, they spend so much trying trying to stifle our voices, right? They come out with the insults, trying to insult you. No man has the capacity to I don't care what he says he has there's there's he can't insult me it doesn't work them calling you masculine who give the the the part that I think a lot of women don't understand and black women specifically is that you cannot wait for white people or men to get their [ __ ] together in order for you to experience true liberation.

[00:57:35]Don't allow that to happen to you. Don't be hoping for men. Oh, we just need the men to No, we don't need the men to do nothing. Girl, aren't you going off of thousands of years of information?

[00:57:50]The fact that they revolted against the matriarchy and flipped and perverted the [ __ ] upside down.

[00:57:58]That should be all the reason why we hold them accountable now. You are not the and then they and then they come back and well well we created society.

[00:58:07]No you did not you did not create society. You did not create the way that we farm. You did not create how we do medicine. You you there is no father of gynecology.

[00:58:25]And when you hear about all these men who took women's ideas and and went down to the patent office, went down to the trademark office, taking their wives work, and then all of a sudden this man is the father of whatever [ __ ] thing, and it was his wife the entire time.

[00:58:45]Then Dr. Seuss steals stories from his wife and and and was the Dr. Seuss story is the craziest [ __ ] But there the [ __ ] that woman is not alone. Men are men op have been operating like that for years and then they'll throw it in your face acting like they were the creators of society and they were not.

[00:59:08]Read a goddamn book.

[00:59:11]That's my time. I got to go. Let me see if I have anything else before we go.

[00:59:15]Hold on. Oh god.

[00:59:18]>> I'm 51 years old.

[00:59:19]>> Oh, did I finish listening to her? Hold on. Let me finish listening to her.

[00:59:22]>> If what you You know, when a man like makes a joke and he's trying to be flirty and funny and we laugh at their jokes just to make them feel better or so the situation's not awkward. If what you have to say is not funny, I'm not going to laugh. I truly have nothing to give. And it is so wonderful and freeing to know that all the resources I have, financial, mental, emotional, physical, are all for me now and my children of course, but it's for me now. I have nothing nothing at all to give you.

[01:00:04]I'm 54 years old. I'm divorced.

[01:00:10]The first comment says, "I'm a phone sex operator and sexologist, and I listen to married women talk about their husbands cheating and bringing home STDs. Women who are in their 50s and 60s. It's just not worth it. Men tell me the craziest stories about how they they are married, but they have never been faithful. After 10 years of listening that to listening to that, I can say that you're doing the right thing by just staying away from them.

[01:00:39]Not going to be a nurse or your purse.

[01:00:41]If marriage was good for women, then they would have taken it away from us a long time ago. Agree. I'm 51. I have zero desire to be to date to be intimate or even pretend to be interested in a creepy middle-aged man. Not now, not ever. Single since single since six years in August. My pH is freaking healthy. Celibacy. Also, my nervous system.

[01:01:05]Somebody said, "Excuse me, ma'am. 54 wear. Yeah, because um she This This is the woman here.

[01:01:14]54 aware. You know why she looks like that? Do you know why she looks like that?

[01:01:21]Okay, we know why. You know, we know why she looks like that.

[01:01:26]I don't even have kids. Never been married. And I agree with everything you said. I'm 53. I don't have any kids. I am a sing I am single and I still don't have anything to offer a man. I'm over that. I'm over that. Everything I have to give to my is to myself and my friends and my family.

[01:01:45]I'll be 39 this month and I'm already there. And here, baby, it's nice and peaceful. And the And when I'm looking at these these images of these women, they're all different shades.

[01:01:57]All different shades. White women, Latino women, black women. Here's a white woman. Stay single and child-free.

[01:02:03]I know many people will not relate.

[01:02:04]However, the sacred feeling that you call romantic love are just the chemicals and hormones your body is designed and created to hypnotize you to reproduce and trap yourself and others in the re the reincarnation cycle. And this prison planet continues to enslave humanity.

[01:02:24]It's not even a real feeling. It's just a hypnotized state of mind, just chemicals and hormones. It doesn't come from the soul or divinity of any kind.

[01:02:33]So when you do the inner work, raise your conscences and your frequency, you understand the traps of the matrix and refrain from falling from such traps. No relationship when one person possesses another person's body, heart, soul, or money is sacred in any way. Possession is not love. It is just the opposite.

[01:02:50]Romantic relationships are the most diabolical traps of this matrix simulation. Oh, who is this? I want to follow you.

[01:02:58]Yeah, white girl. It's a white girl.

[01:03:03]It doesn't say where she lives. Um, I'm 56 and I've been man-free for seven years now. I've never been more at peace in my life. I highly recommend it. More women should try it and earlier.

[01:03:17]They're like, "Oh my god, Erica, your skin, you look so great." It's called No Man Essentials. That's the name of my skin care line. No Man Essentials.

[01:03:31]The people know, the people who've been here for a while, they know what the cos the the the skin care routine is. No man essentials, [ __ ] And and and to think if I had if I had access to some goddamn I don't really need anything, but you know what I'm saying? If I if I was uh you know, they said you get you get finer the more money you have.

[01:03:56][clears throat] here. I was called a damaged woman by a man that was so angry I wouldn't see his worth. A man that the man that wants me but I don't want. In an attempt to make himself feel better, he tried to make me feel small. He also said, "Why all the women I meet are just damaged women.

[01:04:16]They think you're damaged because you don't want them. That's the crazy part.

[01:04:20]You don't want us. You must be damaged.

[01:04:21]You must be bitter. You must be miserable and salty.

[01:04:27]They do it all the time. They do it all the time. It's like the same old playbook. You know how many [ __ ] I have to tell in a day, get some new material, girl. This don't work. This might work on a 23 year old, but not a 50 year old poo poo. That's not going to work. You old [ __ ] Get here. Get here and get the skin when you get here. Make sure you have the skin when you get here. Don't make sure you you are haggarded and depleted cuz you've been serving men your whole life, sucking [ __ ] your whole life.

[01:05:00]I just laughed in his face and said, "Why are you chasing after us if we're damaged women? I don't know what's worse, being called damaged or being rejected by damaged women over and over.

[01:05:10]Even us damaged women don't want you.

[01:05:12]Like, leave us alone. They're a waste of time and energy. I'm done. And I'm done.

[01:05:18]I'm done tired. I'm done tired of being used and abused. Whitney Houston sang it. I have nothing. This a white lady.

[01:05:27]This a white woman [ __ ] She said Whitney Houston sang it. I have nothing.

[01:05:31]Nothing. Nothing for you.

[01:05:39]Let me see what else I got and then we're going to go. Hold on.

[01:05:46]Look at this one.

[01:05:49]Hold on. Look at this one.

[01:05:52]A lot of people ask me why I don't have a boyfriend. This is why. This is me with a boyfriend.

[01:05:58]>> This is me with a whole husband.

[01:06:02]What is up crying every day? Swollen, skin red. Okay. This is me career focused, single, very much driving.

[01:06:14]Don't do it. It's trap.

[01:06:16]>> A lot of people ask me why I don't have a boyfriend. This is why.

[01:06:19]>> And then the way that the black women want to experience what the white women, what they thought white women were experiencing, and now the white women come to the front and be like, "Girl, it's a trap. Don't fall for the okey.

[01:06:32]Don't fall for the banana in the tailpipe, girl. Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't fall off that cliff. Don't go that way. You see all You see all the signs. The path is is lined with red flags and sirens. And you still like, well, I just want to see how far the cliff is from the ground. [laughter] [snorts] Girl, the people in the comments say, "Stay single and child-free." Okay, that's the same girl.

[01:06:57]She's on this She's on this post, too.

[01:06:59]That same girl that that I just read that I said I'mma follow her. No, that's called a body telling you you're with the wrong person. And a real man will make you look like you came out of the VMAs. It's not a trap. It's a happy ending to many.

[01:07:11]Wake up, sleeping beauty.

[01:07:17][snorts] >> Excuse [clears throat] me.

[01:07:19]>> Listen to this.

[01:07:20]>> If you were in your 20s, what would you do?

[01:07:22]>> Okay, I'll give you something really, really true.

[01:07:24]>> If I was in my 20ies, I would never think about getting married or having kids if I was a woman.

[01:07:30]>> Why?

[01:07:30]>> Trying to be free like men. Do what they like. Why would you not have >> responsibility?

[01:07:36]>> Too much responsibility. See >> child.

[01:07:39]>> So then you can travel around on your own and have more freedom of time.

[01:07:43]>> What about the fulfillments that children bring up? [laughter] >> There's too many downsides compared to the upside especially these days. Yeah.

[01:07:52]>> Downsides like what? Well, it's very expensive to have children and children are exposed to internet and they're exposed to lots of things they weren't and uh you don't have a lot of control and a lot of things can go wrong.

[01:08:04]>> Very true.

[01:08:05]>> And a lot of people I know a lot of people got kids and they have headache headache after headache and that's eastern suburbs kids.

[01:08:12]>> Well, do you have kids? No.

[01:08:14]>> Get back to work. Good luck with it.

[01:08:16]>> Okay. Thank you very much. I appreciate it.

[01:08:17]>> You're welcome. Byebye.

[01:08:19]>> Excuse me. You know how many women say that? And that's the that's the reason why they tell you not to listen to older women. Call them old. Call them grandmas. Call them call women like me.

[01:08:29]Oh, you know how many times I get called old in a day? You old grandma. You old fat lesbian. You old they I get called all the things. But I'm an insult from a man means nothing to me. You think I give a [ __ ] No, I don't.

[01:08:44]I'm still going to talk my [ __ ] You still You You still ain't [ __ ] I might be a kissing lesbian. You might think I'm a kissing lesbian, but you still ain't [ __ ] though.

[01:08:56]And the fact that that women even turn towards the girls in an effort to try to find companionship and partnership. They even like, girl, I might as well date a woman.

[01:09:10]But don't date a woman who is male- centered, male identified and and and and uses men as a template to act out the tox male the ma the toxic masculinity. There are a lot of lesbians who operate in toxic masculinity. Who are their examples?

[01:09:30]They have men as an example. So they adopt the way that men act with women.

[01:09:34]And you think you in a relationship with a [ __ ] [ __ ] with a whole [ __ ] doing >> $5 and >> so I'm going to go now. Y'all going to take care of each other. Y'all going to protect your inner energy, your [ __ ] and your assets, right? Peace.