“Non Stop Drinking: Every Day!” The Damage Was Insane!

Added: 2026-05-09

[00:00:01]An alcoholics a day.

[00:00:04]Drinking alcohol used to be fun for me when I was younger and then it became well I became hooked on it became a problem.

[00:00:15]But I'm going to go back to 2019 [clears throat] and tell you what my typical day was like when I was really struggling at the bottom of the bottle as it were.

[00:00:28]And I was just going to take you through one typical day.

[00:00:32]I'll go from the night before probably the best way to do 24 hours.

[00:00:39]So I'd go to the pub, get back about 11:30 at night.

[00:00:45]I would just sit up as long as I could and I would drink strong, only Stella or something.

[00:00:54]Now, I used to use a company called uh well, you could dial up and get them to deliver drink between [clears throat] 10:00 p.m. and 4:00 a.m.

[00:01:07]So, I used to have this cupboard which I kept my stock in.

[00:01:13]And you wouldn't believe how much beer I had in there. I used to get these slabs of Stella.

[00:01:18]There's 24 cans in a slab.

[00:01:22]And I had 40 in there.

[00:01:24]40 slabs.

[00:01:28]I was so afraid to run. Now I was in such had such anxiety. Now this is going back a few years. Prior to that one has well there was still a lot of checks being used and I used to write a check for these things. Now, as time went on, I couldn't write the check out and I couldn't even hold the card steady enough to put the machine.

[00:01:58]And the system this company used was the the buyer, me, would have to go outside and visit them in the van and they bring this beer to for security reasons, didn't want to enter premises. Um, we couldn't do that in the end. I used to have to get them to bring it in.

[00:02:16]So, when I couldn't write the check out, I used to get them to write the check.

[00:02:19]They just hand them my debit card and they take the number down. People don't use checks as much now. I was in such a state. So, I'd get my supplies and I'd probably sit up most of the night just sitting away at the stellar and then I'd try and get some sleep or I just fall asleep maybe 4 5 in the morning.

[00:02:41]And I always put a can of beer next to my bed in case I walk up and I couldn't get the L or whatever cuz I used to think well I need a drink just to even walk. That's how bad it was 5 years ago.

[00:02:56]Now eventually I'd get up at some point maybe midday and I used to feel terrible.

[00:03:06]generally be sick, just be sick of bile, the old yellow gun and whatnot. Couldn't eat anything. And I used to mix the Stella with with a lot with um with a little bit of lemonade just so I get the first sips down. I'd be shaking so badly.

[00:03:24]Not my whole body, my my arms. And I [clears throat] couldn't hold anything with my right hand. I used to use my left hand or even just dip my head into the glass a little bit just to get a little bit down or the can try and hold it up or even lie down and just pour a bit in. That's how bad it was at this stage of having this ascit fluid. I didn't know what it was. Huge inflated well distended stomach.

[00:03:51]I'd lost a lot of muscle mass. I wasn't really eating very well. But I used to force myself every day to get out of bed. Uh, didn't shower very much. Just had a bit of a wash on my face. Put some warm hair. Ruffled up a bit. Didn't get a shave.

[00:04:08]Rarely tidied the flat up. And as my daughter was coming up for the odd visit, which is very rare cuz I think even my relationship with her was suffering cuz they're drinking. They're in this huge rut right at the bottom of it.

[00:04:23]So, I'd sit just at the window of this flat and just look outside.

[00:04:28]Um where I was was a main road by semi- cutthrough road just to watch the world go by and some think God I wish I was out there I can't get out there that's how trapped I was and then I used to have a few drinks I used to listen to you too my favorite band and at the time my iPad wasn't working very well so I had about three songs on used to play them over and over and over again. You know, I thought I was going mad.

[00:05:01]About 4:00, I thought, well, I' got to try and do something. I was still a little bit unsteady, but once I had a few drinks, any alcoholic will tell you this. You had a few drinks, your system will settle down. Your body's getting what it needs, or your brain is anyway.

[00:05:18]So, I think, well, the guys we used to drink with would go to the local pub about between 4 and 5. I must go and get out of this flat. So I used to ring up the taxi firm. They knew exactly who I was. In fact, I went on an automatic system. I used to press one, two, three, and it would just turn up cuz it was recorded where where I was, where I was going to the local pub, Weather Spoons Pub.

[00:05:44]So used to walk slowly to the car, get in the car as best I could, go around this pub, maybe 5:00 or 5, have a couple of drinks. I started to drink Guinness then mainly just drunk loa maybe felt a bit better but maybe not not better but just I didn't and at that time I didn't like crowds. I didn't want to go weekends very much. I used to force myself and every time I had a drink I thought I was just thinking please make me feel better make me feel better but it all got worse. So I hadn't eaten anything for the whole day. So by about 7:00 I used to order some sort of snack. But I used to try and get a pizza down me and they were the only thing I could eat really cuz very salty, very cheesy and quite moorish on it. In the end I couldn't even eat a pizza. I was just eating like just picking bits of bits off it, you know. Um and then I would order a taxi and I'll be panicking in case it was a busy night and they couldn't get a taxi to me. I used to stand outside the pub when it was closed and I'm thinking, "God, I hope we're going to be all right. Freezing cold or something's at night and where's the taxi? Where's the taxi?" I used to panic.

[00:06:52]The anxiety was incredibly bad.

[00:06:56]Eventually, somebody would turn up taxi.

[00:06:58]When I used to get in there and I said, "Will you please go to the middle door?

[00:07:02]There's three entrances to the flats.

[00:07:05]The middle door is the only one that is near my flat. If I get in the middle door, I want too far to walk to the door. I was like so relieved just to get to the door and I would stand outside the flat and get my K. Oh god, I'm in. I'm in.

[00:07:18]You know, I didn't have acrophobia or anything. I just wanted to be in the flat and feel safe again.

[00:07:23]I put the lights on. I have a um I would never put candles on like I've got here.

[00:07:29]Probably set the place on fire.

[00:07:32]Put the TV on or the radio. She doesn't radio. And I start drinking again. And I sometimes at 2 three in the morning I used to try and eat a little bit. So a whole day was just trying to get through the day if that makes sense. Um I didn't open any post.

[00:07:49]Um rarely took any phone calls. My parents at the time were my mother still alive. They were ringing every day make sure I was all right. Still alive was all these ring to make sure you're alive. I didn't want to be bothered by anybody, you know. I didn't want to really be I didn't want people to see me in that state and the bed that had the slats had more or less collapsed so I wasn't sleeping properly. The bathroom was a mess. The there had been a leak in the bathroom and the flooring had all crumbled away.

[00:08:20]I couldn't deal with um any of that. At one point there was rats in in the flat.

[00:08:26]Seriously rats.

[00:08:28]managed to get the um pest control out, but they always wanted to come early in the morning. I think God, I can't have them early in the morning. I can't get out of bed, you know. So some they would come midday that that eventually got sorted out, but there was still this problem in the bathroom. Couldn't have a shower.

[00:08:42]Um cooker was us had a microwave.

[00:08:46]So when I got back at night, I used to try and microwave some soup and and one day I went as far as making some pasta, well putting this pasta sauce in the microwave and I spilled it on my foot and the bruise, sorry, the uh the blisters were incredibly painful. I didn't go to hospital. [sighs] Eventually the he I got somebody to get me some bandages. So when you're drinking that much and you're getting to the bottom, you don't even go to the doctors.

[00:09:16]Um, unless you're taken to the doctors, we force you to go.

[00:09:22]Um, and you just neglect your your health. I was so close to dying. I've just seen today a guy who's a bit younger than me. I'll not name him obviously, who had the same consultant as me. Um, and he didn't stop drinking and he's so jaundice. I haven't seen him for about 6 months. He's so jaundice.

[00:09:47]He's viciously yellow. He won't have long to live. He's 53.

[00:09:53]He had the same issues as me and I know that he won't last till Christmas. Start warning this, you know, it it'll kill you. This a day in the life alcoholic is pure torture. That's all it is. Pure torture.

[00:10:10]I don't mean to be the bringer of bad news. I'm just telling my experiences because I wish somebody had told me the real medical issues, the real problems you're going to have. Not just medical, emotionally, physical. Uh um there's also financial problems.

[00:10:26]Your world will fall apart if you continue to drink. It will fall apart.

[00:10:33]So, you got to get a grip with this thing. Nobody tells anybody until recently maybe the real dangers. You know, we're all told about drugs and this alcohol is the worst drug because it's so available, isn't it? I'll do another one if anybody wants any more information uh about a typical day. But the typical day is just survival.

[00:10:58]Surviving each hour, each minute. And when you're at that level of alcohol consumption, you can't stop because I did try and stop and had seizures. So, you're so frightened.

[00:11:12]You're going to have a seizure. You just won't stop. You can't stop. You've got to be You got to have medical intervention really. All these things that I've seen on the internet about, you know, join this and we'll get you sober in 48 hours and all. I don't believe it. That's my view. If it was that easy, everyone would do it, wouldn't it? And the hospitals wouldn't be full of bursting with people with alcohol related liver disease, kidney problems, pancreatitis, strokes, heart attacks, accidents, blood disorders, all caused by alcohol.

[00:11:46]If you have any comments, please drop me a line. Please subscribe if you uh enjoy the channel. Keep watching the other videos as well. I try and post every day something somewhere a bit more cheery than this because my life now is great.

[00:11:59]You know, I can look back with well, reflective mood, really a reflective mode, and think, well, you know, I cracked it. I survived. But I know the guy today won't because these consultants know what they're talking about. I'm not a medic.

[00:12:13]I've just got practical advice for people. He was told to stop drinking three or four years ago. He tried to cut down. That's impossible for alcoholics.

[00:12:24]You cannot cut down. You've got to stop.

[00:12:29]And this guy I know will not survive more than another few months. God bless.

[00:12:35]But u there you go. I'll speak to you soon.