Overthinking at Chili's and on YouTube

Added: 2026-05-28

[00:00:00]HEAT.

[00:00:20]HEY. HEY. HEY.

[00:00:33]I am at the Flint Bishop Airport in Flint, Michigan, waiting to pick up my parents. It is a small little airport, but uh I love flying in and out of these smaller airports cuz there's a lot less hassle with parking with the TSA lines, and it just is usually just such a nicer experience. And my parents feel the same way. But I'm picking them up. They're traveling home uh from being away and I didn't realize when I left my house about an hour ago that their flight was delayed going out. So, I'm here a little bit early and I'm just sitting in the mobile phone parking area. This airport is never busy. There's always parking right out in front and you just walk right over into the into the airport. Uh never a line at the TSA. I think the longest we've ever waited was like 15 minutes. And um yeah, it's it's a breeze compared to some of the other airports that I've been to, especially like the Detroit Metro Airport. Um I avoid that as much as possible because it is, you know, it's the biggest airport in the state, but it's also the busiest and the most chaotic. So, I like flying out of these smaller airports as much as possible. I'm going to check on flight tracker where they are. Arriving in 3 minutes. Oh, okay.

[00:02:14]So, I picked up my parents and it had been a while since they had eaten anything, so they were starving. So, we decided to go over to Chili's, have dinner. And while we were sitting there having dinner, a couple came up to our table and said my name. And I looked up and it was a couple that I had graduated high school with. And we were just, you know, catching up and talking a little bit. And they mentioned like, "Hey, it's our 30th reunion this year. Are you going to go?" And I looked at them and I said, "No, that sounds awful. I don't want to do that at all. And I hope that came off as like jovial as I meant it to be of kind of like, yeah, no, I don't want to do that. Um, and I think that they had like a similar sensibility of like, yeah, I keep in touch with all the people that I really want to keep in touch with. So, I'm I'm pretty good.

[00:03:02]Now, I don't know if I'm the only one that does this. And if any of you do this, please let me know in the comments because I would take great comfort in knowing that I'm not alone in this. But I will often analyze those interactions that I have out in public and think over and over in my head like, why in the world did I say this? Or, oh, I should have said this. Like, I said okally doy.

[00:03:28]I'm not Ned Flanders. Why would I have squeezed that into our nice conversation? Oaky doy. Well, it was really nice to see you.

[00:03:38]That's not something I usually say. And for the whole rest of the night, I was like playing back that conversation in my head and thinking like, "Oh my gosh, did I come off as a jerk?" Like, was I being super flippant to all of these different things when I thought I was like trying to be funny? And um I just replayed that over and over in my head like, "Oh, I should have said, you know what, it was really nice to see you."

[00:03:58]And like all these things started like flooding into my into my mind of like, you could have said this, you should have said this, you should not have said this. Um, do any of you do that? I would feel better if some of you did. See, I don't just overthink my YouTube videos.

[00:04:15]I overthink everything. Eh, what are you going to do?

[00:04:26]So, speaking of YouTube, I feel like I've finally hit an era of not giving a crap in the sense that I am less concerned with what I think a video should be and should consist of before I film it and post it. And that feels a lot more freeing like I can just pull out my camera like I've done today without really a plan and kind of vlog along the way and um not putting so much pressure on myself because I think when I have this rigid like template in my head of what I think a video has to be, it's got to have a beginning, a middle, and an end and a narrative like throughout that wraps up at the end and um you know like a sitcom like like Full House, you know, when when Danny Tanner at the end comes in and like ties it all up in a bow and and and everyone hugs. Um that's how I felt like my videos need to be for a very long time. And now I'm just kind of like, let's whip out the camera and start filming. This is just recently, by the way, so um it hasn't been long, but it does feel a lot more freeing. And even my last video that I just posted, I had this like talking head, you know, video of just, you know, me talking straight to the camera for a long time. And um I thought it was kind of boring and I didn't have any B-roll, so I made my own B-roll in AI. And I thought that there was going to be a lot of comments like, "Oh, AI slop is killing YouTube and you should be ashamed of yourself." And all of the comments were really positive, which is good because like I don't know, those little videos made me laugh. And I it's how I envisioned it in my head of like a cartoon version of me acting out the things that I was describing. If I couldn't show myself actually doing them, then I could show an AI version of myself doing them and get the point across. So, I am really loving and embracing this don't give a crap era of YouTube and it's still me, right? You know, I think it's still authentically me. That's how my brain thinks. My brain thinks in like SNL sketch format. I get an idea and I want to, you know, try to find a way to transfer that to my camera. So, my hope for you, if you are a content creator of any kind and you're watching this, is that you have a similar sense of making whatever it is you want to make, no matter what it looks like. if it's inconsistent with what you normally post, if it doesn't look like a traditional vlog like everyone is used to, um, whatever it is that you have in your head that you want to make and post, I hope that you do.

[00:07:29]So, thank you for watching. Hit the like button if you've made it this far and I will talk to you