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[00:04:40]Can you hear me? Hello. Hello.

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[00:04:58]I didn't I didn't think this down there. I can't turn it off though.

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[00:05:11]Hi. Thank you. Okay.

[00:05:16]This is the stream. This is the whole stream. Okay.

[00:05:21]It's harder to talk with this going on.

[00:05:24]things to write with this. Maybe I'll be okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay.

[00:05:35]Sorry. I don't know.

[00:05:44]Um, I never thought it would sound right. I feel like I need to turn off working noises.

[00:06:05]It's kind of sad.

[00:06:08]Okay. I can't I can't do it. No. Wait.

[00:06:16]I don't know how to disable it right now. Okay. Um, you guys can't hear it. I can hear it. The the I wanted to turn it off so I can't hear it. I can't think. I'm sorry. Hello.

[00:06:30]I'm closing this app. I'm closing it.

[00:06:32]I'm sorry. Thank you. Please don't.

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[00:06:42]Hello.

[00:06:44]Hi.

[00:06:46]Yeah. Did a switcheroo. The chat's muted now. Not me. Hello.

[00:06:53]I'm Shachi.

[00:06:58]I am so tired and I am so out of it. But hello, I'm back.

[00:07:06]Yippee.

[00:07:11]Sorry.

[00:07:13]For those who don't know, my the last it's been like almost almost two months. It's been quite the doozy.

[00:07:28]Glad to be back hopefully.

[00:07:32]Well, sorry for a bit. Nothing nothing else goes wrong. Looking at you, my dog.

[00:07:49]Yeah, blah blah blah. I didn't come prepared with anything here. I was just like, I want to draw. I need thumbnails.

[00:08:02]I'm out.

[00:08:05]I guess that was really great timing.

[00:08:09]Kissy, my dog, decided to Well, she didn't decide to.

[00:08:14]That's horrible to say. She started going blind.

[00:08:17]Started going blind uh when I ran out of thumbnails.

[00:08:24]My goodness.

[00:08:26]Um, yeah. I want to get Sorry, I'm I'm jumping right into this. Can I talk about my dog?

[00:08:35]Can I get that out of the way? I feel like I can't focus on anything else unless I I talk about my my dog real quick. I like my dog a lot.

[00:08:48]Sure.

[00:08:49]I guess it's an update of what I've been up to the last two months because it's all been centered around her. May I please just Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness. My dog.

[00:09:02]Okay. Um fill everybody in here. Sorry. I'm sorry to start stop talking about it's it's pretty sad, but hopefully it ends has a happy outcome. Anyways, my dog, she's going to be 6 years old this year.

[00:09:23]In July, she turns six. So, she's not that old.

[00:09:28]And for the breed and size, she is.

[00:09:31]She's She's not near a senior yet. She's got a few years till she gets to senior age.

[00:09:39]She uh got primary glaucoma. Fun fact, young dogs can get that. Started going blind.

[00:09:49]Um, but I caught it in time to save one of her eyes. So, she went completely blind in one eye. Did two surgeries to save the vision in her other eyes. And oh, it was Oh, it was awful.

[00:10:06]It was so awful. I had a I think I drove over 2,000 miles within a month because her treatment the specialist I went to see is in a different town that she had surgeries. Then I'd have to take her twice a week to get checkups and then it became once a week and then last week it became monthly. We reached the point where she didn't have to go get her eyes checked again for another month. And I was like, "That's huge.

[00:10:42]I can live life a little bit again outside of her treatment."

[00:10:51]And I thought, "Ooh, I will stream."

[00:10:56]And I meant to or I wanted to start using my mic and stream more in February. And I was like, "Yeah, March I'm going to stream and April I'm going to stream and then we'll see what's going on in the summer because that's when I get busy."

[00:11:10]Sorry, where was I? Yeah, she had her last checkup and I said, "Yeah, I'll start streaming again in two days.

[00:11:19]Uh, then an hour before her, no, an hour before I was supposed to stream originally, she threw up. I was like, that's not good." And I'm sorry, this is kind of gross, but I knew something was really wrong cuz she didn't want to eat her vomit.

[00:11:36]Like, okay, that's pretty bad. She She's not wanting to eat it. Okay, that's not good.

[00:11:42]Um, so I took her to the emergency vet and cancelled or postponed what I'm doing here.

[00:11:54]and uh she's having some issue that is completely unrelated to glaucoma and it's oh my god I I went to the ER and they're like yeah this could be um from like GI issues. It could be she has an infection somewhere or you know she's just not she might be a bit sick. Uh it could be leukemia.

[00:12:17]It it could be bone marrow disease. Go see a a specialist.

[00:12:24]So yeah, that was hanging on.

[00:12:30]What's the word? Oh my god, that was distracting me for a bit.

[00:12:37]But she's been getting blood tests every other day and the trend is going up which is good. Like it's improving. I don't know what's going on. So yeah, I apologize for delaying it last week. I know it was so exciting.

[00:13:01]And now I'm here. And I'm so sorry. I'm still just so out of so distracted. I'm so sleepd deprived. But it's I can't put it on. I can't I can't not do things just cuz I'm waiting on all this stuff.

[00:13:18]Yeah, just big big big stress. Thank you for listening.

[00:13:27]Anyways, um hello.

[00:13:33]Thank you for waiting.

[00:13:35]Um that I don't know how that happened. Why that's over there. Okay.

[00:13:43]Sha sha sha like that.

[00:13:57]Um I I like whales, the big things in the ocean.

[00:14:13]I like those.

[00:14:15]I like what else do I like? Do I like anything else?

[00:14:26]I don't know. Anyways, Anyways, I wrote this when I was seeing if you could hear if you could hear my tablet when I was testing the microphone. I think you can.

[00:14:41]Maybe you can't.

[00:14:48]Maybe not.

[00:14:51]Anyways, can you Nope. I have the There is such a split.

[00:15:01]I do. Some of you just have really good hearing or do some of you just have really bad hearing. It is so Yes. No, I hear Oh, hello.

[00:15:12]Hello.

[00:15:15]Yes, very faintly. I hear it when I when I I I I speak.

[00:15:23]Sorry. That was very funny. I feel like it was exact half and half. No. Yes.

[00:15:29]Yes. No.

[00:15:33]blah blah blah. Anyways, I am going to make thumbnails today because because like I said, I'm out and I don't know what to do. I'm going to probably ask for recommendations again. And is it safe to turn the organ noises back on?

[00:15:59]I'm going to Oh, I I closed out of the entire app. Uh, let's see.

[00:16:10]Probably it's safe.

[00:16:14]I hate phrasing it that way. How could I phrase orcan noises in such a way?

[00:16:21]They're always welcomed.

[00:16:24]Welcome.

[00:16:31]Let's see.

[00:16:33]Define safe. Um, will I be able to hear my own thoughts if I turn them on?

[00:16:44]What is truly more important, me speaking or the organ noises?

[00:16:52]No, probably not.

[00:16:56]Maybe on a different day. Maybe on a day that isn't today.

[00:17:01]I could maybe Can I turn them down?

[00:17:10]I just like I like the noises that they make.

[00:17:20]Sorry. I'm going to do I What? What?

[00:17:24]What happens?

[00:17:26]What happens?

[00:17:32]Excuse me.

[00:17:34]Oh, sorry.

[00:17:38]Okay.

[00:17:40]I'm I'm going to do this for for all of you.

[00:17:46]Oh, maybe a bit quiet. And then I'm going to do this for me.

[00:17:51]I think the issue isn't noise itself.

[00:17:54]It's how loud they are.

[00:18:08]Okay, I think I solved the issue for for everybody. Not that there ever truly was an issue with it, but Oh my god.

[00:18:18]Here we go. Anyways, anyways, anyways, anyways, enough about whatever I was just talking about.

[00:18:31]How is everybody doing?

[00:18:35]I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

[00:18:40]Free Ly, I saw somebody before the stream started. They were like, "Am I a true Orca fan? I only saw the first free." I also only saw the first one.

[00:18:48]The other two look really stupid. Sorry.

[00:18:54]The first one was good.

[00:18:57]And honestly, who who am I to say if the others are good or not? They just looked really dumb. And if I'm not willing to watch a movie with an orca in it cuz I think it's that stupid, it's probably it's probably is probably is bad.

[00:19:18]I decide all things orca.

[00:19:21]Just kidding.

[00:19:24]Is it the same orca? No, I think Okay, now I I truly don't know anything.

[00:19:30]I'm not someone who should be commenting on this, but the first one had a real orca. His name is Ko.

[00:19:38]I'm pretty sure the other two do not have real orcas. Don't Aren't they animatronics? I kind of want to look.

[00:19:43]Can I look it up?

[00:19:47]which that itself doesn't make it bad. I think the the main reason I like Free Willy. I haven't seen it in a really long time, but the reason I liked it is because of the orca.

[00:20:02]I'm assuming they're animatronics because they are there two in one of them.

[00:20:10]Isn't Bendy Irwin in it? Am I making that up?

[00:20:16]Hello.

[00:20:21]Me Hello.

[00:20:26]Nimi has two things have made me kind of want to play. Oh my gosh. What's it called? Tamagotchi. Is that what it's called?

[00:20:36]Her and I saw a screenshot somebody had Noel from Deltaroon interacting with Tony Soprano.

[00:20:44]I've never played to Tom tommoachi. I'm sorry. I don't know anything toodachi.

[00:20:54]I don't know anything about tommoachi.

[00:20:56]And for some strange reason when this new one was announced, I had so many people message me about it. I've never talked about it before. I've never shown any interest in it. And I've just been like I've been hearing Shachi, aren't you excited for the new Todd? I maybe it's just expected everyone's excited about it, but no one did that with other games. What's the other big hype one now? Poco Pocopia.

[00:21:22]I don't have a Switch too.

[00:21:25]I can't play it. I was really close to to buy for it, but I need to wait for more games more Switch to exclusive games to release on it to to Yeah. to really decide if I want to get one.

[00:21:43]It seems it's just expected. Everybody Everybody by default plays or knows Tomodachi life and Tomodachi. Isn't Tom toodachi is on the old switch too though? The old switch too. It's on the Switch, too. T O like my last name, right? Am I wrong?

[00:22:15]It is.

[00:22:17]It's true.

[00:22:20]That's true.

[00:22:26]Oh, two is your last name. Yes.

[00:22:33]Shi too the switch too. Oh, there is latency, isn't there? Is there you can talk?

[00:22:45]Yeah, sometimes.

[00:22:49]The switch too and the switch too.

[00:22:52]Maybe I should just go back to writing.

[00:22:54]You wouldn't know which one I'm talking about. What if I was trying to say the switch as well?

[00:23:02]I didn't say it that way.

[00:23:13]What are we talking about?

[00:23:15]Tomachi.

[00:23:20]Yeah. Anyways, what am I to do today? What time is it?

[00:23:27]How long has it been?

[00:23:30]Sorry.

[00:23:35]English is weird.

[00:23:40]Well, that one sounded weird. Did you Did you hear how weird that one sounded?

[00:23:48]Sounded extra distant.

[00:23:56]This music is also destroying brain cells, but oh well. I'm supposed to draw. I I I need thumbnails. If I am to stream more, I need thumbnails for those.

[00:24:14]And I wish to make all of them myself.

[00:24:18]I can't go back on it.

[00:24:23]Even though Gail made so much nice art, so much nice art made for me. Thank you.

[00:24:31]I'm sorry I'm not on top of liking and retweeting stuff. I really appreciate it though. I don't have Twitter on my phone and I don't have or no, I downloaded or not downloaded. I logged into Twitter on my uh my laptop. So, I was out of town like majority of March, but that wasn't until really the end of March.

[00:25:00]I I could not say anything.

[00:25:06]I appreciate it though.

[00:25:09]But I must make my own thumbnails. I'm committed to it now.

[00:25:17]Thank goodness you remembered your password. Yeah, about that. Um, I think I I change my passwords for things probably once a month at this point cuz I just keep I just reset them.

[00:25:35]I don't know what it is right now.

[00:25:38]Might have written it down in a book or something.

[00:25:46]Sometimes I'll reset my password. I'll make it something pretty simple because I tell myself, well, I'm going to change it really soon anyway. It it I won't leave it that for more than 24 hours.

[00:25:57]And by simple, I mean just simple enough that I can remember it and then I don't reset it within the 24 hours and completely forget what it is.

[00:26:10]It works out as long as long as I remember the passwords for for the the main important things. That's what matters. I not to toot toot my own horn, but I remember some crazy passwords. I just use different ones for everything as well. The really important ones I do remember and they're like not going to talk about what they are, but anyways supposed to draw.

[00:26:48]That's what I'm here to do today.

[00:26:52]Sorry. I stretch.

[00:26:55]I'm going to look at my dog.

[00:26:58]Are you okay?

[00:27:02]Kitty, are you okay?

[00:27:09]I need to make sure she's okay. Second.

[00:27:11]Hello.

[00:27:14]Hello.

[00:27:16]Are you okay?

[00:27:19]Everything you do freaks me out.

[00:27:28]I think she's okay.

[00:27:31]She's probably like, "Why are you why are you talking to your dad?"

[00:27:39]When was it? I think yesterday, maybe. Was it yesterday?

[00:27:44]Might have been the day before. No, it was yesterday. It was yesterday. She I'm sorry. Gross. This is gross. This is a bit of a gross story. She she vomited some bile and I saw red in it and I started freaking out. I took a picture cuz I'm thinking I need to show the vet.

[00:28:01]This is so bad. There's there's red.

[00:28:03]She's has blood in her in her vomit. And then I I go and I clean it up and it's it's a red bell pepper. I forgot I gave her like the tiniest tiniest little thing of red bell pepper and I guess she didn't chew it and she swallowed it and threw it up and I it wasn't just have a picture of her vomit on my on my phone now.

[00:28:30]A red bell pepper. Did I Did I specify why you thought it was blood?

[00:28:40]Everything Everything is scaring me with her. Oh, it's so horrible. She No, no issues always. Oh, she's so healthy. Oh, she's And now Oh. Oh, anyways.

[00:29:01]Anyways, time to draw.

[00:29:06]If I remember, I haven't drawn on my computer in a really long time. I've been drawing on my iPad and they're pretty different experiences, I got to say.

[00:29:19]What is this? a brush.

[00:29:22]Very cool.

[00:29:26]I think I draw better on my iPad, but painting is more enjoyable on my touchscreen tablet. Cintiq.

[00:29:36]My old old Cintiq. By old. How old is it? It's like It's at least 10 years old. It's 10 10 to 11 years old.

[00:29:48]What's nice about this inseek at least is with the pen has buttons on the pen. The Apple pen doesn't have that. I can color select colors. Do you see that? You see what I'm doing here? And I can choose lighter ones. It works really well for painting.

[00:30:12]On the iPad, you have to press a button.

[00:30:16]You have to press a button. It's so annoying. It's not that bad.

[00:30:22]iPads are so nice, though. I used to I used to hate on iPads back when they first came out. How long ago was that?

[00:30:31]Little me kid. She was a hater. I thought iPads were so stupid. They They were first advertised and I thought, "What? That is so dumb. Why on earth why on earth would you you get just an oversized iPhone and then okay to I understand them more now but outside of drawing I would never get one. I'm just not a tablet person. Like I said, outside of drawing, I'd just rather have an a laptop.

[00:31:12]And then I remembered I'd see people with uh keyboards with their iPad and I was like, "That is so dumb. That's so stupid. Just just get a laptop."

[00:31:26]Okay, listen. I was I was pretty young when the iPad first came out.

[00:31:32]I don't even know what features it had really.

[00:31:38]Hello puppy.

[00:31:41]Are you okay? Are you just tired?

[00:31:48]Sorry. You're going to hear me turn away to look at my dog a lot. What she doing?

[00:31:54]What the dog doing?

[00:32:01]I think I think my dislike for iPad just stemmed from me thinking you're you're just paying how much was it? I don't even know how was it. How much was it when it first came out? I was just thinking you're you're spending like $1,000 just for a slightly bigger screen to watch YouTube videos to watch movies just watch on the TV or watch on your phone.

[00:32:34]I'm so many different answers, but that's okay.

[00:32:40]I see the ballpark. Okay, maybe a thousand was too much.

[00:32:46]I just saw the iPad as like a silly a silly dad gadget. Does that make sense?

[00:32:53]Like think of Phil Dumpy from Modern Family be good for reading comics or manga?

[00:33:07]Yeah, but is it is it worth all that money for it? And can't you just read it on Why am I I don't know why I'm forcing I'm forcing hate on it right now. I don't I don't think it's bad. I don't hate it anymore. I don't think it's useless.

[00:33:31]To each their own. I say owning an iPad.

[00:33:34]You know what is so what is so upsetting though? I have Clip Studio on my iPad, right? But my iPad is old. I think I got it right before right before the the one after it released. I think it was literally a month before and I went to the store and they told me, you know, there's a new one coming out next month. I said, I don't care. Just give me this one.

[00:33:58]Anyways, Clip Studio. I don't I can't get updates for Clip Studio anymore because my iPad is outdated apparently.

[00:34:07]Feels feels a little bad. I wonder I got the the more recent one if it would have even made a difference.

[00:34:16]Or is that one outdated too?

[00:34:24]It's fine. I have I think I have enough features on Studio. I got my liquify tool. I'm satisfied enough with that. If I couldn't get the liquify tool, I would I would have Ooh. Ooh.

[00:34:39]Just kidding. I haven't done anything.

[00:34:51]I'm using my mouse right now.

[00:35:14]Um, That looks like a pumpkin. It's a ball.

[00:35:38]A sea lion.

[00:35:46]Not a seal. This is a seal.

[00:36:01]Hold on. Hold on.

[00:36:09]No. Um, what do their mouths look like?

[00:36:27]Here you go.

[00:36:30]That's a seal.

[00:36:34]Can you? Yes, you. Can you tell the difference between the seal and the sea lion?

[00:36:43]The body is absurd. That is not nice.

[00:36:51]Is jealous. What do you think? Cuz this is just chilling up to the rock.

[00:36:58]Y'all can be a banana.

[00:37:00]Banana.

[00:37:08]Got to keep its body out of the water.

[00:37:11]The tide coming in. It's not ready to swim yet.

[00:37:16]Not ready. Hold on.

[00:37:29]He's not ready.

[00:37:33]What do you think they do? They're resting on the rocks and the tie's starting to come in. They're not ready.

[00:37:39]They go into banana formation.

[00:37:48]Okay, you might be right. This is a little absurd. Anyways, oh yeah, sea lions have little flaps.

[00:38:00]They have little ear flaps and seals just have holes in their head.

[00:38:12]Anyways, cool stuff. Okay. I need I need I need I need from you uh ideas for thumbnails.

[00:38:25]Pretty please.

[00:38:29]Pretty please. Pretty please.

[00:38:33]Can just do random stuff too. What What was the pen I was using? This This is strange on my iPad. Okay, let me try to explain this.

[00:38:45]You see this? You see this pen marker looking thing? It's called felt pen.

[00:38:52]Felt pen.

[00:38:55]And this is the mill wait.

[00:38:58]This is the millie pen. You see there's a difference. This one has like more weight. I guess there's a weight. Is that the right way to There's more here.

[00:39:13]is in a very like okay it's not okay this one this one is on my iPad the names are switched they're completely switched on my iPad this one's called millia pen and then this one's called fel pen weird it weird anyways I think I was using the felt pen I like I have to remember how to draw this thing.

[00:39:59]Did I draw this thing?

[00:40:06]I've been giving her arms now, right? I didn't for a bit.

[00:40:11]I don't know why.

[00:40:18]What is she doing, screaming?

[00:40:37]Oh, I have this open to compare the sides.

[00:40:52]That was weird.

[00:40:55]Shi holding an iPad.

[00:41:00]She can.

[00:41:09]Wouldn't that be misleading? I'm not going to stream with my iPad.

[00:41:13]I used to do that.

[00:41:15]Did I stream with my iPad or I streamed with I used to go through insane lengths for drawing absolutely ridiculous lengths. I had some type of Mac laptop.

[00:41:32]I I didn't have a PC. I didn't have anything that ran Windows. So, I used what was it like Windows Parallel to draw in Paint Tool SA because I hated drawing in Photoshop. I still to this day I don't know how people enjoy drawing in Photoshop.

[00:41:53]And then and then I I got a PC. It wasn't a PC. I had a PC laptop.

[00:42:01]I had a laptop that ran Windows.

[00:42:05]And I would mirror my iPad screen to my laptop to record videos and to stream art. I'm pretty sure.

[00:42:20]Why' I do that? I have I had I had a drawing tablet before I had a before I had an iPad. Why did I do that?

[00:42:30]I think I just enjoy drawing on the iPad more for some reason.

[00:42:46]I remember I would try drawing on Photoshop Elements and it was horrible and I was so so young I didn't know you could download brushes. I was very internet illiterate and I wanted to use Paint Tool Sai cuz I was like the brushes are so crisp in Paint Tool Sai Photoshop. They're so fuzzy and stupid. But I think one of the issues was I I was drawing on way too small canvases.

[00:43:18]You can you can download Can you download brushes for Photoshop? I might be wrong. You can definitely download them for Clip Studio. I know you can download them for Procreate. I don't use Procreate, but I see people with really nice Procreate brushes, but I don't like Procreate.

[00:43:47]I've not made very much progress here.

[00:43:50]I'm completely out of thumbnails here. Before Before I do do anything else with this, I want to I want to sketch more.

[00:44:00]But what? But what?

[00:44:15]I used to have so many um speed paint saved.

[00:44:21]Back in what year? A long time ago where people still mostly drew in MS Paint, Photoshop or Paint Tool SAI. I don't think Clip Studio existed back then.

[00:44:36]Calm down. Oh my goodness.

[00:44:39]Sorry. That's awkward. I don't know if you guys can hear. That was noise outside.

[00:44:44]I was saying calm down to not you. I don't know. I don't know what this is picking up.

[00:44:51]Apology girl.

[00:45:04]Thank you.

[00:45:19]Orca.

[00:45:32]There's this photo. I feel like it's the most famous photo of an orca ever.

[00:45:38]Pretty sure it's photoshopped to an extent.

[00:45:41]feel like I'm drawing it really bad proportion. It's an orphan.

[00:45:49]It's going like this out of the ocean.

[00:45:58]I think the background. Hold on. I'm going to look it up. Hold on. Hold on.

[00:46:03]Orca.

[00:46:07]Just kidding. This is the most famous picture of an or of orcas. Probably this one.

[00:46:16]People love this picture. People love this picture.

[00:46:23]I'm going to be very embarrassed if I cannot find what I'm think. Oh, it's not it's not near the top at all. Where? I don't even see it.

[00:46:33]Well.

[00:46:35]Oh, that one's dead. It's not very nice.

[00:46:42]Never mind.

[00:46:47]This one.

[00:46:51]This is a good one. It feels familiar.

[00:46:56]You know what? I bet this was in I bet this was in the Oh my gosh. What are they called? Zoo Books. Zoo Books probably had this picture. Did it? I'm going to look it up. Zoo Books. That's what they're called, right?

[00:47:18]Thank you.

[00:47:22]Sorry, it's it's really quiet for me now.

[00:47:29]Thank you.

[00:47:32]I'm just making stuff up, I guess. I don't I don't I don't see it.

[00:47:37]What is this picture from?

[00:47:45]I'm just writing fantasy.

[00:47:55]Doing research.

[00:47:58]No, it's from 2005. That could one more zoo.

[00:48:08]I bet it was in the commercial.

[00:48:11]I might be wrong.

[00:48:18]But what what is crazy just absolutely insane. I can't find the picture that I said this is the most famous picture of an orca ever.

[00:48:31]Everybody's seen this picture and I I can't find it.

[00:48:40]Look at this one.

[00:48:50]Interesting. It's not there. Orca, Orca, Orca, Orca. Desktop desktop picture.

[00:48:58]Let's see.

[00:49:01]I found it. Is this what I'm thinking?

[00:49:04]Is this the right one?

[00:49:07]Maybe it's not. No, it's not photoshopped. But this one. Oh goodness.

[00:49:11]Hold on. So, anyways, this or name is Chainsaw. I wonder why.

[00:49:18]This is not even what I'm thinking of.

[00:49:20]It's I feel like I have a madeup image in my head right now. Every picture I've ever seen of an orca all into one image.

[00:49:35]This one is weird.

[00:49:40]There's something something's not right about it.

[00:49:49]I don't know. Maybe if you don't really care about orcas, it's not it's not something you would have seen before.

[00:49:59]But who wouldn't care about orcas?

[00:50:04]The thing that's really weird to me this why the is not this is strange because this is too big compared I just maybe it's not it's just it's weird no offense I just what am Right. Okay.

[00:50:40]I have a shirt with this image on it.

[00:50:45]It's really faded.

[00:50:48]Can barely see them anymore.

[00:50:52]You know those those wolf shirts? I think wolves are the most common ones.

[00:50:56]like wolf t-shirt.

[00:51:33]And I think they're way cooler.

[00:51:46]Oh, I found the shirt.

[00:51:50]Check it out.

[00:52:04]Sorry, this is not the time to do online shopping.

[00:52:09]Whoa, some of these are No, I'm leaving this tab open.

[00:52:15]I'm going to go back to this. Oo.

[00:52:19]Oh, these are stupid.

[00:52:23]Ooh, what's this one? No, no, it's not the E.

[00:52:27]Why is his face look like that? Okay, that's enough. I'll come back to this.

[00:52:30]I'll come back to this.

[00:52:43]Anyways, Oh my goodness.

[00:52:53]belly button. Now let's say hi.

[00:53:00]Did I What?

[00:53:04]Well, I'm confused.

[00:53:08]H I put that there.

[00:53:27]I think I was thinking of that one where the the fin is all weird or give it one of these.

[00:53:47]That looks a little silly when it's this when it's like a little chibi. It works.

[00:53:58]Don't remember how to draw.

[00:54:10]Where are you?

[00:54:23]Okay. Why is this green?

[00:54:28]Go back to a nicer color.

[00:54:42]So happy.

[00:54:49]That is fine.

[00:55:13]They don't all have to be full body.

[00:55:17]Decided that.

[00:55:19]And this one that the one up there isn't.

[00:55:24]Did I do Oh, no. That's one there.

[00:55:27]Did I do that?

[00:55:37]Just have a hike.

[00:55:42]Exciting exciting things. Riveting things up in the stream.

[00:55:50]What else? Why are these green?

[00:55:58]I need more ideas.

[00:56:30]melting puddle.

[00:56:38]I was thinking more like ice cream ice cream melting.

[00:56:44]Ice cream melts. Does it is it would you call that a puddle? Does a puddle have to consist of water?

[00:56:52]Can it consist of cream?

[00:57:04]Put you over there.

[00:57:15]You can um Sorry. Did you guys give give me any ideas and I didn't see did I miss it?

[00:57:38]What do you think would work well in a thumbnail?

[00:57:45]All right, painting druming.

[00:57:59]I just I might be overthinking it, but I just don't want to be misle I guess. I was just thinking, well, if I'm I'm not going to be drumming in the stream, that might be uh clickbait. But I have I'm skateboarding, and I most definitely was not skateboarding during that stream.

[00:58:29]Eating food. Which food this time?

[00:59:24]These I think is this is enough ideas for now. I need to make stuff happen.

[00:59:40]Oh yeah, right before all this stuff happened with my dog or maybe right after it started, I got Twitch part.

[00:59:53]Was a silly little little email to to see one day.

[00:59:59]Anyways, I will probably go back to Well, I don't know what the rule is anymore with that.

[01:00:14]Can you Can you stream on multiple platforms when you have Twitch partner?

[01:00:20]I know it used to be you couldn't.

[01:00:25]Thank you.

[01:00:29]Do they allow it now?

[01:00:34]You can.

[01:00:36]Okay, I'll probably go back to that eventually. Just today I did not have the brain capacity to juggle two different chats.

[01:00:49]They fixed the rule. It was a broken rule and they fixed it.

[01:00:54]Oh, you just can't use multiple chat.

[01:00:56]Okay. Well, I don't show any chat on the screen, so that's what Yeah.

[01:01:04]I see.

[01:01:09]I see. I see.

[01:01:20]Also, where you going?

[01:01:30]You okay?

[01:01:42]Doggo.

[01:01:44]Yeah. Oh, yeah.

[01:01:48]You know what's you know you know what else happened while I was away for my dog's treatment?

[01:01:55]My cat also got surgery.

[01:02:00]Three surgeries within a month across two different pets.

[01:02:08]But my cat's surgery was not not so serious. She has she had teeth she needed extract and she's old and had not good teeth and they needed to get out of there. It was free. I mean, because she's old, it was a bit nerve-wracking, but she recovered really, really quickly.

[01:02:35]She both of my pets really love food and she just had dental surgery and she was really out of it because of the anesthesia and she just wanted to eat. She wanted to eat her food so badly and she was struggling so much and she just dipped her face into her food and it get all over her mouth.

[01:03:00]But within 24 hours she was back to normal. She was eating normally and I think she is feeling much better than before. She purs way more than she did before.

[01:03:17]When I got her, she already had the issues with her teeth, but it had the surgery had to be put off for a little bit just to make sure she was healthy enough for it. And when I first got her, she was she purrred a lot and then I noticed she wasn't purring as much. I think it's cuz her teeth were really starting to hurt. So, I'm glad she got them out. I think there's a noticeable difference. I think she's a little nicer to kiss you now, too.

[01:03:47]It's really cute. Sometimes they boop noses. I really like when they boop noses, but sometimes they get mad at each other. Like, they still have to be I still won't let them be on their own together. Right now, Kissy is with me and Hy is out patrolling the rest of the territory. She's on watch duty right now.

[01:04:24]I got her so many places to sleep and she'll she's she keeps finding new favorite places and she'll completely abandon the old ones that she really liked. And I got Kissy a new bed.

[01:04:38]And I left it out for a while because it needed to air out. And now Hy has claimed this this bed that is way too big for her. I just did not expect her to want to sleep on a on a dog bed on the floor. She usually likes sleeping high up, but she really likes this bed.

[01:05:00]And then the bed I actually got for her, she no longer uses.

[01:05:08]That's okay. Cassie never ended up using that bed. I think cuz she's I don't know why she hasn't used it.

[01:05:19]Something really cute happened today.

[01:05:23]Hy was drinking water. Hy has her own water bowl, but it seems she prefers having like a communal water bowl instead. She never drinks from her own bowl, which Kissy doesn't. Kissy hissy.

[01:05:36]Kissy doesn't have access to. It's completely hissy's. So, she drinks out of Kissy's.

[01:05:45]And I saw Kissy was eyeing her today.

[01:05:47]And I was nervous. I was like, "Don't don't get any ideas while Hissy was drinking water because I'm just a little nervous about kissy."

[01:06:00]Kissy Hissy.

[01:06:04]This is more difficult to It's more difficult to use these names out loud than to write them.

[01:06:10]Great naming scheme. Thank you.

[01:06:15]Anyways, what's what's the story that I'm taking forever to tell?

[01:06:20]Oh, yeah. Kissy was eyeing Hissy as Hissy was drinking from Kissy's water bowl.

[01:06:28]Now I was getting nervous and I was going kissy kissy cuz usually if I call her enough he will come over break her concentration on hissy.

[01:06:42]But she was just being so nice and patient. She was just waiting for hissy to finish. Hy finished drinking water.

[01:06:47]Then Ky went and drank water there. She was lined up. She was waiting her turn.

[01:06:54]So respectful.

[01:07:01]There's another really cute interaction they had cuz their dynamic is basically Hissy does not care about Kissy. Hy does not want Kissy near her just but she doesn't mind her if she's, you know, not too close. She doesn't care. But if Kissy gets too close, obviously she cares. So Kissy's learning has learned the boundary a bit better.

[01:07:25]But sometimes she still gets a little too close and Hissy will hiss, but Kissy just really wants to sniff her. Wants to sniff her and just wants to follow her and see what she's doing.

[01:07:45]But when uh when Kissy when Kissy came home from her first surgery, I'd been away for like three three days. I was away and his or Oh my goodness. And Kissy was in a cone.

[01:08:08]Poor Kissy was in a cone and she wasn't feeling that great. She had just gotten out of surgery, I think, that morning. Oh, no, no, no. She had surgery the day before. Stayed overnight, and then I picked her up that morning, and I went all the way home with her.

[01:08:26]She was tired, still kind of out of it in a cone. She hates the cone.

[01:08:33]And Hy came over and gently sniffed her face and then booped her nose and then walked away. And Kissy didn't even try chasing her or following her.

[01:08:47]It was so cute.

[01:08:54]And then I started overthinking everything when Kissy had to go to the ER on a Friday because I was thinking, what if Hissy smelled disease on her? What if she knew something was horribly wrong with her and she was sniffing it and now and my dog is going to have some horrible disease?

[01:09:18]Hopefully not.

[01:09:20]I don't I still don't know what's wrong.

[01:09:23]But at least the most recent vets have been okay. The first vet I saw for for her emergency I'm talking about her again.

[01:09:34]This has consumed my life for 2 months now the past week.

[01:09:42]Um, the first vet I saw when Kissy's blood work was the worst that it was.

[01:09:49]She was so sweet. She was an ER vet, by the way. Like, she usually probably deals with trauma and animals that are in life-threatening situations. She was really sweet, but the her the way she spoke had me so freaked out. She's she's like, you know, it's just I'm not really sure what it could be. It could just be, you know, the small issue, but I mean, it could be there's leukemia. There's there's bone marrow disease, autoimmune. I'm just sitting there like, "Excuse me, I I came here cuz she threw up." Oh, okay.

[01:10:34]And just switching. I think I think Kissy's getting too hot in her bed. She goes to the floor, then gets hot. Oh, no. Cools down, goes to her bed, gets hot.

[01:10:50]Yeah. Anyways, really scary. And then the next vet I saw was also an ER vet because I couldn't get her blood work with her normal vet within what I considered reasonable time. She was a lot more chill about it. Her her results were better, but she she was a lot more relaxed, which I don't I'm like, do I want you to be relaxed? I don't know. I want you to be honest with me. How bad is it? But she seemed more calm. And then Kissy's actual vet looked at her most recent blood work which again improved a lot and she basically said I there's no trends of it being certain really bad things. So I'm going to hope it's not I won't know more until next week.

[01:11:36]I really hope it's not anything crazy and she keeps getting better. She's really close to being within normal range again. And I just I don't know what happened and why why what happened happened. And she wasn't feeling that bad either. She was I I really just took her because she threw up and I was like that's weird. She's not eating her vomit.

[01:11:58]I'm going to make sure this isn't anything too crazy.

[01:12:07]Oh, pets.

[01:12:10]Oh, pets. Oh, pets.

[01:12:13]It would be so awesome if they could tell us what they were thinking, what they were experiencing, and if you could also tell them, hey, you're being force-fed this disgusting medicine to help you.

[01:12:27]You have to go through this temporary discomfort so that you know you don't go blind.

[01:12:50]This looks insane.

[01:12:58]They should live till 70.

[01:13:01]How dare they not?

[01:13:14]communication collar.

[01:13:18]Oh, yeah. There's one in up. I was thinking of adventure time. Thinking of the the translating collars that Lady Rainicorn's parents wear or that Lady Readyorn wears one, too.

[01:13:33]Yeah. The old man collar.

[01:13:41]What else?

[01:13:43]What did I this?

[01:13:52]Have you guys watched any cool TV shows lately?

[01:14:04]I've been watching more TV recently.

[01:14:14]I think I already talked about I watched Night of the Seven Kingdoms.

[01:14:20]I liked it.

[01:14:22]I watched it twice.

[01:14:25]One of my two of my friends hadn't watched it.

[01:14:29]watched Game of Thrones recently all the way through which I was shocked to hear.

[01:14:36]Wanna want to watch Game of Thrones universe stuff that is not what you just recently watched.

[01:14:54]Not to be rude, but what I'm about to say is very rude. Hey, piss me off.

[01:15:04]Only in the beginning. In the beginning.

[01:15:06]I'm sorry, but I got used to him. I got used to him and I like him now.

[01:15:22]He just sounds so silly. He's I went in uh not knowing anything about the story or I keep wanting to call it tears of the seven kingdoms not knowing the story for night of the seven kingdoms but I like feel like I immediately was like okay he's a he's a tar oh oh I spoiled it sorry spoiler spoil Spoiler.

[01:16:00]Spoiler warning.

[01:16:09]Sorry.

[01:16:19]Anyways, I've also been watching Invincible.

[01:16:27]I feel really bad again. I'm very mean today.

[01:16:36]I'm just I'm just a I don't know. Is it because we were talking about the iPad? My old hater ways have come back. I'm not hating. I just I think the voice acting and pacing for this season, I don't remember how the other seasons were, honestly.

[01:16:55]Um, the voice acting and pacing. I feel so bad. I just burst out laughing sometimes when I want. But time card is pretty funny.

[01:17:07]They get me. They get me sometimes.

[01:17:12]Thank you.

[01:17:20]They are long episodes though. I can't even even fault it for being kind of awkward, the the pacing sometimes and or the voice acting kind of being out of feeling out of place or again I think it's pacing.

[01:17:39]It can be really funny though.

[01:17:45]I regain power.

[01:17:48]I honestly looked up a bunch of spoilers about Invincible.

[01:17:55]Yeah, I watched Was it yesterday? Two days ago. What are these lights?

[01:18:05]This doesn't What? What?

[01:18:18]I don't think I'm going to do this. The stick blades. It's not feeling right.

[01:18:23]It's not looking right.

[01:18:30]Anyways, have I washed anything? Uh, I was I was rewatching Breaking Bad for for like background noise and then I decided, you know, I never really fully watched Malcolm in the Middle. Sometimes I caught it on the TV, but I was never really a fan of it because that was back when I only ever cared about cartoons. I didn't want to watch anything else. I could I could watch Drake and Josh and I Carly, but outside of those I I did not want to watch anything that was not a cartoon.

[01:19:11]Are you a Skyler defender? I I don't defend the bad things she did.

[01:19:19]I do stand on the people hate her way too much. Unless you hate Walt equally or more than than Yeah. But when I first watched it, Breaking Bad, I was younger and I definitely also was like, "Oh my gosh, Skyler, just stop being so dramatic.

[01:19:41]He's making you so much money. He's saving your feet." I don't know how I She's so ungrateful.

[01:20:07]Skyler did nothing wrong except the smoking thing. I always for I I rewatched Breaking Bad.

[01:20:15]I think this is my third time re-watching it and again I totally forgot about that. That is pretty bad.

[01:20:21]That is really not good.

[01:20:27]But then there's Walt who put his entire family in danger of being killed.

[01:20:34]So there's that.

[01:20:48]What about the cheating? I'm not I I haven't been watching any more Breaking Bad because I switched to watching Malcolm in the Middle. That's now my background show for stuff. I don't remember when she she gets with her boss. I don't remember when that happens.

[01:21:05]Aren't they separated?

[01:21:08]I don't remember.

[01:21:14]All of them do. All of them are not good.

[01:21:22]It's really weird watching Malcolm in the Middle because like I said, I just catch it sometimes if it was on and I just did not really know what was going on. I've only been I'm only on the first season of it. I don't remember seeing episodes where they were that young or maybe I was so young that I didn't process that that they were so young. I only remember ever seeing them as teenagers.

[01:21:49]But I feel like when I was really little, like even someone that was a year above me, I'd be like, "That's a teenager." Like equivalent.

[01:22:08]I think in the in like the first season, Malcolm at least is in elementary school, right? I don't remember how old he's supposed to be.

[01:22:17]I just remember watching and thinking they were all teenagers. I thought they were all in high school.

[01:22:36]I remember being I think I was in yeah like in fifth grade near the end of elementary school and looking back when I was in kindergarten thinking oh the first graders are so old then I was in first grade the second graders are so old grade no second grade third grade third grade fourth grade fourth grade fifth me in fifth grade. Oh my goodness.

[01:23:07]I forgot how to color.

[01:23:17]This is why I usually don't use a microphone when I draw.

[01:23:24]It is so So it is me being slow.

[01:23:47]First crush in fifth grade.

[01:23:53]I think my first crush was first grade and it to wasn't even in my class.

[01:24:15]I was so confused.

[01:24:24]This pink doesn't feel right.

[01:24:39]First celebrity crush.

[01:24:47]Does Danny Phantom count?

[01:24:52]That's not a celebrity. That doesn't count.

[01:25:02]Only when he had white hair.

[01:25:06]Not Not when he wasn't in ghost form.

[01:25:20]I wrote it in my diary and I showed my best friend. I was like, "This is my deepest, darkest secret. You can't tell anybody." She's like, "Oh my goodness, she's going to tell me who her crush is."

[01:25:43]Phantom, that friend blew my mind. She showed me Abra Lavine's girlfriend music video without the censorship.

[01:26:12]I didn't know you were allowed to cuss in songs. I was I was shocked.

[01:26:44]I don't know why I I don't know why I was I felt so sheltered with with cussing as a kid.

[01:26:52]I feel like my dad cussed a lot, but he cussed in a different language. Maybe that's why. And I just thought he sounded really silly.

[01:27:22]Yeah, I was really I was scared of swearing.

[01:27:26]I don't know why.

[01:27:28]I was also just I was really scared of getting in trouble. Not with my parents.

[01:27:33]Like I was really scared of getting in trouble at school.

[01:27:52]I always made sure I bought the the clean version of songs or downloaded the clean version of songs for my iPod.

[01:28:04]My CDs the KidsBop version. Nah, I don't think so. I can't recall ever having KidsBop.

[01:28:37]Kids Kid Bop.

[01:28:43]Did they ever do that one? God, I don't know what the song's called. Do they ever do the one that's kind of like Is that a false memory that I'm having that that song is in kids? Cuz I if it is, I think I did have that that version.

[01:29:25]I remember the first the first CD I ever had that had like my own music, my choice of music on it. Was it even my choice? My mom had done it for me. I think my mom did it for me. It had the first one was um I just remember now I'm second guessing myself. It was either I think it was Kelly Clarks like grew up in a small town.

[01:30:03]What am I doing?

[01:30:12]Or was it a Hillary Duff? I don't remember a mixtape. No, it was not a mixtape.

[01:30:20]It was a CD.

[01:30:22]It had a CD player and it was pink.

[01:30:44]I feel like something's missing here. What else should there be?

[01:30:57]probably not going to put no mic in the thumbnails anymore. Even if there is no mic, I will probably go back and forth depending on what I feel like doing that day.

[01:31:18]Still put it in the in the the title.

[01:31:43]This one does not have a mic kind of.

[01:31:45]This one might be missing. She's talking.

[01:31:53]I don't want this in here anymore. I I think I'm just going off of the I can't think and draw.

[01:32:07]I might be talking too much now. She's so small.

[01:32:14]She looks smaller.

[01:32:18]Miss the punk rock on Twitch. I'll go back to to doing that most likely, just not today. I cannot consistently do this where I'm listening to this song over and over and over and over. Even though it's a cute song.

[01:32:42]Can't believe I thought I'd get more done today.

[01:32:47]I think at Oh my gosh, I have Sorry, I'm doing math in my head.

[01:33:06]Sorry. Okay, I think I have like another hour that I can can draw before I have to do more of my medication.

[01:33:20]It's very tedious. She went down on a lot like for the glaucoma and now she's on like five new things which are kind of just we don't know what's going on. So they just were like these can't hurt so might as well try them and see if they help.

[01:33:40]They might be helping.

[01:33:47]The glaucoma medication is oh my goodness. I hope none of your pets ever get glaucom.

[01:33:56]It's a very sad disease, but the management is just crazy, too.

[01:34:03]You have to give them eye drops. And I think my dog was on I think the the most she was on was eight or nine eye drops.

[01:34:14]And I was having to do not all of them, but some of them I'd have to do six times a day.

[01:34:21]And you can't just do them all at once.

[01:34:23]You have to wait 5 to 10 minutes between each eye drop because you need to make sure like the medication, you know, is actually getting in there.

[01:34:37]I think now her glaucoma medication's down to three times a day. Eventually, it'll be twice a day, but because of the vet visit last week, she's on more medication that is timed really weirdly.

[01:34:54]She's on one medication that she has to eat with it twice a day and then another one she eats four times a day and she can't eat within 2 hours of taking it.

[01:35:05]So, she can't eat 2 hours before. I think she can eat 1 hour after they said, but she's not supposed to eat 2 hours before it.

[01:35:14]Is glaucoma treatable.

[01:35:17]It's there's the reason I was going out of town for her treatment is because I did research and the specific doctor I went to does a procedure that isn't done by many vet eye specialists or opthalmologists.

[01:35:38]So the one the procedure she got has an 80% chance of preserving her vision past a year and then it goes down every year but you can get the procedure done again and the vet her opthalmologist was saying it's pretty in her she's been doing this for like a decade and she said usually it it lasts for most of their life from what she's seen.

[01:36:10]Yeah, but it was 80% the first year, then the second year I think it goes down to 70 something%, then it goes down to 60ish%, then the fourth year it's below 50%, I think it's 48%. That's from the studies and what they're what you know she they showed they showed me. But she said in her experience usually if they still have their vision after a year and a half they're likely to have it for the rest of their life hopefully. I'd rather she have four years of vision than go blind right now. So if it came to that and she said you can do the procedure again. It's not too crazy, but it's it what sucks is it's expensive. So, a lot of people can't do it or it's not it's it suck. Glaucom is really horrible because if you don't do if you don't try to save the vision then and if you know their eyes go blind or you can't control the pressure of their eyes, you have to remove them. And just removing them is thousands of dollars.

[01:37:16]So, a lot of people end up having to euthanize their pets.

[01:37:22]I don't know as much about cats, but for dogs, dogs can adjust to being blind usually pretty easily. It's not their main sense. They start to rely on hearing and scent more.

[01:37:37]So, going blind is not the end of the world for a dog. It's just they they can't just keep their eyes if the pressure can't be controlled. They have to be removed because they're really painful. They cause they basically cause migraines.

[01:37:56]But you can there's also so there's eye drops which are the same medications that like humans with glaucoma use and they can help for a bit but almost always they they don't last forever.

[01:38:11]Like it can be months that they work. It can be years but eventually they'll stop working and they'll either need their eyes removed or they'll need some type of laser surgery.

[01:38:28]Goku's horrible.

[01:38:33]But so long as you can afford at least the procedure to remove the eyes if they do go blind, it it's not, you know, life ending. It's not is not the worst thing that could happen to your pet.

[01:38:56]It's pretty shocking though.

[01:38:59]And my dog is not there's two types of glaucoma. There's the primary glaucoma which is inherited and can occur in younger dogs. And then there's secondary glaucoma which is usually slower progresses more gradually.

[01:39:15]And then it's a bit it's not as bad as primary glaucoma, but secondary usually occurs in older dogs.

[01:39:24]My dog is not old. She's five, but her vision's been pretty good. She her vision was really impacted after the surgery. She had inflammation, which was she was blind sometimes. Like she she did have times where she was completely blind and she couldn't see in dimly lit rooms for a bit, but she's seeing pretty well now. Her double perception's messed up because her other eye is completely blind, but she's okay.

[01:40:05]That middle Asian dog here depends on the breed. Her breed usually goes 12 to 16 years, so not for her.

[01:40:14]I guess almost.

[01:40:23]Yeah. As long as they're happy.

[01:40:28]And her her most recent thing was so she what really sucked was I was telling the vet I she she was just down. She was in a cone for a really long time and I could tell she was not happy about it.

[01:40:44]She was still wanting. She was still excited about food and wanting to eat, but she was started having trouble going on walks. She just did not really want to, but she wanted to play. She didn't really want to walk anymore.

[01:40:55]And we kept being like, "Oh, it's the cone." Like the vets were saying it too.

[01:41:01]It's probably the cone. Just keep an eye on it. And at her last appointment, I said, "I'm really scared I'm overlooking something. I had a gut feeling something was off." And unfortunately, I was right.

[01:41:13]But she's bouncing even more normal than she did before her or before her. She's acting more normal now than when she started developing the glaucoma.

[01:41:29]So, she seems to be feeling pretty good.

[01:41:31]And she wants to walk again. She wants to play. She's being annoying again.

[01:41:40]Yeah.

[01:41:43]As long as they are happy and comfy, I just hope whatever happened doesn't happen again.

[01:42:07]Is it play time after the stream? It's medicine time after the stream or kissy.

[01:42:16]After that, we can play.

[01:42:26]She has this one toy that she always really liked. It's like really big. It's a big stuffed animal.

[01:42:34]and she used to go to crazy lengths to get it onto the bed to play.

[01:42:42]And she hadn't done that like over a month and she just started doing it again. So, I'm really happy.

[01:42:58]I'm so scared to jinx it though.

[01:43:18]Knock on wood. That's not the wooden part. Here we go.

[01:43:34]I'm so slow.

[01:43:38]I'm too slow.

[01:43:40]What I used to do on my art streams is I I talk for a bit and be like, "Okay, 10 minute timer, no talking. I got to focus." I will probably implement that again.

[01:43:54]Thank you.

[01:43:56]Sorry, I have not been catching the whale noises.

[01:44:02]Thank you. Thank you. Thank you everyone that made a whale noise.

[01:44:17]I'm also listening for hissy.

[01:44:21]She Oh my gosh, she meowed so she meows. She just She's always hungry.

[01:44:28]I feel really bad because Kissy needs to stay in my room when I sleep and I need to close the door cuz I I one Oh, thank you. Thank you. Sorry.

[01:44:40]Kissy cannot be left without supervision. When there is a litter box, she will eat that poop.

[01:44:50]She's gross.

[01:44:53]Also, I just I'm just nervous about them bumping into each other at night and getting mad at each other. So, I sleep with my door closed.

[01:45:03]And Kissy sleeps in my room cuz Hy wouldn't sleep in my bed anyway.

[01:45:08]But I think she really hates that she can't go into my room.

[01:45:14]She hates the restriction.

[01:45:16]I've had to also leave her like if I when I'm cooking I have to put her away in her like in a room because it is dangerous. She can jump on counters and she will try to go for hot hot pans and stuff and she will meow and meow. She hates it. She hates just being confined like not being able to get out. And I think she hates that she can't get into my room cuz I'll open my door and she'll just sit there. She won't even come in.

[01:45:48]She just sits there. And then I close the door and she starts meowing again.

[01:46:06]She is silly.

[01:46:08]She's very cute before the stream today.

[01:46:13]She jumped on my desk while I was trying to set everything up and I was like, "Of course you're doing this right now and she sat in my lap."

[01:46:23]And then Kissy saw her sitting in my lap and he got a bit defensive, started growling, groaning.

[01:46:50]No, Hissy was the one growling. Kissy was the cat. She was growling. She was growling at Ky.

[01:46:58]Kissy was I mean I think Kissy was probably jealous, but she was just staring.

[01:47:04]I like slowly swiveled my chair to the other side and then Kissy came over to the other side.

[01:47:11]Thank you.

[01:47:17]I'm so happy that I see purring more.

[01:47:23]I think her teeth are really bothering her.

[01:47:37]Then I knew cats could growl.

[01:47:40]Like if she only does it if she's like really really upset.

[01:47:45]I don't know if growl is a it's it's like a she's like groaning. Thank you.

[01:48:04]Cats can bark. That is interesting.

[01:48:13]She makes some silly noises.

[01:48:30]I drew one thumbnail.

[01:48:34]Thank you. Ouch. One sec.

[01:48:49]Are you heard me? She heard me talking about her. She's meowing outside my door now.

[01:49:09]She doesn't stop in one minute.

[01:49:13]I'm going to see what she wants.

[01:49:20]I know you're not really supposed to do that. You're not supposed to enable their meowing or have them thinking.

[01:49:27]If they meow, they'll get what they want. But it's it's so hard. She'll be so she'll meow at like 3 in the morning for 30 minutes or Oh, she's she's crazy.

[01:49:42]Wow.

[01:49:46]I might go see what she wants.

[01:49:53]Thank you. Oh my goodness. Thank you.

[01:49:58]Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

[01:50:00]Thank you. Thank you.

[01:50:03]Okay. Sorry. It hasn't even been a minute. I'm going to see what she wants.

[01:50:06]One second.

[01:50:09]What do you want?

[01:50:12]She ate two hours ago. Perhaps.

[01:50:23]Perhaps she's just starving.

[01:50:26]It's been 2 hours since she ate.

[01:50:31]Okay, I'll be right back.

[01:51:54]Hello.

[01:52:00]I thought maybe she didn't have access to her litter box. I close the door sometimes and forget to open it. No, she wants food. She's trying to lure me to the kitchen.

[01:52:12]Not right now.

[01:52:16]She gets so excited.

[01:52:20]I'm going to do my best to block it out.

[01:52:33]Cannot blame her. She has a condition.

[01:52:35]She's always hungry.

[01:52:41]Too small now.

[01:52:49]I don't think I want to put text over it anywhere. Should I?

[01:52:54]Should I?

[01:52:58]Is this enough for a thumbnail?

[01:53:15]Don't need text. You guys know what what it's about.

[01:53:24]I do not think I will do much besides drawing.

[01:55:13]I totally wasn't talking the past 5 minutes.

[01:55:20]Hello.

[01:55:24]Hello.

[01:55:30]That is insane. Was that I truly thought you all were replying to me. How How did I go for that long? I I thought I was getting responses to what I was saying. I talked about like three different things there.

[01:55:47]I think I'm just I'm so brain empty. I just I'm so I'm so exhausted.

[01:55:57]Yeah, I thought we were having a dialogue. I thought we were having a back and forth.

[01:56:02]Oh my goodness. Whenever we deleted that thing saying my cat's meowing, that's I'm bad.

[01:56:10]Well, what did I even say?

[01:56:18]How on earth? I swear am I I might be going crazy. I swear I was getting responses directly to what I was saying.

[01:56:26]I said I went out there. She just wanted food. I thought maybe I closed the door to where her litter box is, but no, she just wants food. She was trying to lure me to the kitchen. And then I saw someone say, "You're enabling her."

[01:56:41]And I was like, "Yeah, yeah, I'm enabling her." Uh-huh.

[01:56:52]It's crazy timing, I guess.

[01:56:58]What's it called? When you see an image, like maybe you take a picture or you see you see an image and you you see an image in an image that isn't really there, but like like you see, this is an example from the TV show Glee.

[01:57:19]you see like Jesus in your grilled cheese sandwich and think it's a sign where a lot of you know paranormal pictures people take a picture and they're like there's a person in this picture but it's your mind seeing a face.

[01:57:36]Yeah, that thing. Something like that was going on here.

[01:57:52]Okay, maybe not what you guys are.

[01:57:55]Anyways, it was just so coincidental. It just so happened to match what I was saying.

[01:58:04]Then I said I saw what did I see?

[01:58:10]Oh, yeah. I was saying I don't know if I want the text here. You guys know what what what this is? I think someone said no text. I'm like, "Yeah, yeah, no text." You guys know what this is about.

[01:58:21]You know what I'm streaming? I don't need to put it there. I I swear someone You heard that? What on earth? Okay.

[01:58:31]What? Okay.

[01:58:33]What? What? What did you hear? What did you not hear? I also accidentally muted when I came back. No. No. I muted when I left, then unmuted, then I think at did at some point did I mute again.

[01:58:54]You were muted for less than a minute.

[01:58:56]Okay. Okay.

[01:59:03]Oh, I do not have the mental capacity to understand what just happened right now. I think I get maybe two to three hours of sleep a night kind of if I'm if I am in doomer mode about my dog's health. I'll be up until 4:00 a.m. Then I have to do Oh, no. I do her medication at 4:00 a.m. And then I have to do feeding and more medication at 6:00 a.m. And then I think I have to do medication at 8. It's crazy right now. I think I I might get more than two or three hours, but I I wake up every two to three hours.

[01:59:46]It's temporary.

[01:59:50]Tempor It's I hope it's temporary.

[02:00:01]Anyways, did you guys hear me say I might like Oh, so far.

[02:00:13]Are you okay? Yes.

[02:00:16]I get through it by knowing it's it's not forever.

[02:00:28]It is necessary for now.

[02:00:36]This has only been the last week. I was getting more I I had pretty normal sleeping patterns. I was going to bed at like 1000 p.m. at the latest for a while, but then I'd have to get up in the middle of the night and do medication, but then I'd sleep another 6 hours or so until the next one.

[02:00:59]The really bad sleep has just been the past week.

[02:01:14]It won't be forever.

[02:01:17]And I'm avoiding caffeine because it makes me can make me more anxious and I'm already a bit anxious because of all that's been going on.

[02:01:33]Anyways, I think Okay, I think was I muted for this part? I was saying I'm probably don't need to put any titles or not titles. I don't need to put any text on my thumbnails cuz I'm mostly just going to be drawing.

[02:01:51]And then I was thinking I might want to sing at like sing or do karaoke at some point. But I said, this is why I think I was mute. Did you when I said you I wasn't muted.

[02:02:06]I'm Hello.

[02:02:10]Okay.

[02:02:12]Singing is new. Okay.

[02:02:14]Okay. Well, I'm sorry. I should have finished what I was going to say because it's probably not what you want to hear.

[02:02:20]I have not sung in months. I Whenever my last little cover was, that is the last time I sang. I have not been singing and I don't really see myself singing anytime soon again. It's just not not been happening.

[02:02:43]Maybe one day.

[02:02:45]I don't even know what I sound like anymore.

[02:02:59]Oh yeah, I did sing for I sang for Doki and I sing for Nimi. What were those?

[02:03:05]When did I do those?

[02:03:13]That was I think still before when I did that curve.

[02:03:31]My part was pre-recorded. So that would it would have been I think I still recorded the other thing after no before before my last.

[02:03:46]It wasn't the thing for Doki was a while ago. Wasn't this summer?

[02:03:57]I think wasn't in the summer.

[02:04:03]It was It's July. It's like almost a year ago.

[02:04:15]That was definitely before the last time.

[02:04:27]John what?

[02:04:34]Yeah.

[02:04:36]What the sketch looks like.

[02:05:00]Thank you.

[02:05:04]Okay, I got like 40ish 40ish minutes.

[02:05:11]Do Thank you.

[02:05:14]Thank you.

[02:05:17]Do you think I can get another one done in 40 minutes? This one took about two hours.

[02:05:28]I'm probably not going to talk as much in future drawing. I don't know. Maybe I will. Maybe I just won't get anything done. I also took commissions. I think I got I need a I need to update that stuff. I think I finished about six of them. I still have more to do.

[02:05:51]I can probably do on stream now.

[02:05:56]I was I was so bored while my dog was recovering from surgery. I I just just in a hotel room like for days just like I need stuff to do.

[02:06:18]But now I'm I feel like I was making good progress. Now I'm behind though because I had a week where I was freaking out.

[02:06:32]I'll probably work on those on stream now.

[02:06:39]I work faster on my iPad though.

[02:06:41]absolutely work faster when I'm not talking. But we'll see.

[02:06:46]We'll see. We'll see. We'll see.

[02:07:00]I think I'm just extra happy today because of so many things.

[02:07:10]First time having a micro in a very long time.

[02:07:14]Thank you.

[02:07:35]That looks silly.

[02:07:52]Cute.

[02:07:55]This is small. Kind of like it.

[02:07:59]Cute.

[02:08:20]have one that looks like this already. I can't remember.

[02:08:25]Thank you.

[02:08:28]Thank you. Thank you.

[02:08:39]Thank you.

[02:08:52]I would like to know the opinions of people. Thank you.

[02:09:05]I think eventually my brain will be in a better place and I can focus onto chats, but I think for a bit I might I don't know if people like this I might just exclusively stream on YouTube or not exclusively I might just do one platform at a time. So I might if I stream it'll just be on YouTube then another day might just be on Twitch just for a little bit. cuz I I feel like I need to ease into having two chats again. Honestly, not permanently. As long as it's allowed that I that I can multistream, then I'd rather do it both at the same time.

[02:09:57]So, my next one might be just Twitch. I think I will just go back and forth. I don't know. Should I? I might.

[02:10:07]But I don't know what my what what how consistent I'm going to be. It really depends on what happens next week or what what whatever is going on with my dog. If I need to be out of town a lot again, then obviously I will be away or if whatever's going on is really bad, I will not stream.

[02:10:42]everything if everything's all right and it's not too much too much driving too much of everything that it's already been going on then yeah I guess a silver lining if you like to watch me draw silly things is my original plan or I don't to I haven't really had much of a plan I'm just kind of going with the flow.

[02:11:13]I wanted to see if I liked streaming art without a microphone and I like it. And I wanted to see today if I liked it with the microphone and I like it.

[02:11:27]I have been having fun.

[02:11:32]But before my plan, tentative plan was stream, see if I enjoying it. If I enjoy it, try a microphone. If I enjoy it, do it until I get really busy again. And then when I am busy again, do it just whenever there's time and I have energy, too. Thank you.

[02:11:59]But now because of my dog, it's kind of shifted like crazy. I was thinking, "Oh yeah, I'll stream a lot." Very, very March, April, and summer is when I'm usually supposed to be busy.

[02:12:14]Summer through fall.

[02:12:18]All the stuff with my dog. I think it's the opposite. I was away for March and a lot of April and I don't think I will be doing a lot of the things I was planning to do this year at least. I just I don't know.

[02:12:37]I don't want to leave my dog.

[02:12:45]I will have other times to do things.

[02:12:51]think I need to prepare to stay home.

[02:13:01]And if I'm home and I'm bored, then I can be I can draw and stream more.

[02:13:08]Very weird.

[02:13:11]I feel I don't know. I was thinking about it like while I was gone, but it's kind of been hitting me more. What is the like what is what is my near future look right like? What's this the rest of this year looking like?

[02:13:33]Oh my goodness, this kitty cat. She's meowing like crazy.

[02:13:50]We can wait. Oh, I'm I'm kind of saying the opposite. I'm probably going to be around more than I thought I was going to be.

[02:14:08]We'll see.

[02:14:11]I don't know. Life is uncertain.

[02:14:31]Oops.

[02:14:48]That's Kat.

[02:14:56]I think at least in the summer I'll be able to still do I don't have to cut everything off.

[02:15:05]There's still stuff I can do that I was planning to do.

[02:15:10]There's probably not as much.

[02:15:21]Oh my good.

[02:15:24]She is. It's been non-stop. The meowing has not stopped since it started. She is insane.

[02:15:46]She pawing at the door. She is not. But she will she will not like start putting her her paws under the door.

[02:15:55]Swiping under the door.

[02:16:29]Oh goodness.

[02:16:48]She misses me. I can assure you she is just hungry.

[02:16:54]When I stepped out, immediately she started towards the kitchen.

[02:17:01]She knows that's where the good stuff is.

[02:17:11]She's hungry and she misses, too.

[02:17:19]I wonder. Thank you.

[02:17:23]I wonder if she misses me. I feel like when I've had to for my dogs checkups, I'd have to drive like like eight hours on average, depending on traffic.

[02:17:39]Within one day, I' i'd go take her to her appointment. Checkup would be 30 minutes. Drive back the same day.

[02:17:49]Luckily, I had friends that were able to feed her dinner cuz I didn't get back till way later. All right. Comes back.

[02:17:57]She'd be so mad. She's like, "Where were you? You were supposed to feed me eight hours. Yes, I was doing that sometimes twice a week.

[02:18:27]I don't know. I was think I was away from I was away from home more than I was at home last month.

[02:18:36]If I count the days where I just drove there and drove back same day. I don't know. I guess it doesn't really count. I was over had to stay overnight too multiple times.

[02:18:56]Do you have a good playlist?

[02:18:59]Not really. Weirdly and I was driving in silence for a lot of it.

[02:19:07]Like not playing anything.

[02:19:14]I don't like driving. It has not been fun for someone who's not does not like driving.

[02:19:35]Most people really don't like driving.

[02:19:37]Really don't like driving that long. I do know people I remember my my mom when she was stressed out, she'd go on drives. just be like, I want to drive for a bit. I would never if I'm stressed out. I'm not going anywhere near a car.

[02:19:51]I'm not not driving.

[02:20:25]Now I need to take my dog to a specialist, which is also out of town cuz I I I contacted so many I contacted as many as I could that were within like four to five hour drive and I just went with the one that could take her the soonest. Thankfully, I think that one's like two and a half hours away.

[02:20:49]So, it's not horrible. I can do it in one day at least.

[02:21:10]Thank you.

[02:21:18]Where are they so far? I'm I'm choosing I'm I'm being kind of not picky for the for the specialists. I just need I'm like I need to see whoever can see her as soon as a lot of them weren't available till till May.

[02:21:37]So that's why I I contacted every everyone within a f four to five hour drive.

[02:21:47]And then I couldn't see an an eye specialist that was closer, but I I really wanted to go with the one that I chose.

[02:21:56]Yeah, they're really booked out.

[02:22:01]There was one that could see her a little sooner, but I think that one was 4 hours delay and it was only by two days.

[02:22:11]So it was no puppy.

[02:22:39]What are you doing?

[02:22:41]He's starting to get restless.

[02:22:45]Have we been in the same room for a while?

[02:22:54]Freedom soon.

[02:23:11]two drawings.

[02:23:17]Keep making them too small.

[02:23:24]I need to make them a little bigger.

[02:23:26]There's no text on these now.

[02:23:36]Meow. Meow. Meow. Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow. Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah meow meow. I probably I I shouldn't do that. You're not supposed to I looked it up. You're not supposed to acknowledge any meowing if you don't want them to do it what she's doing.

[02:23:55]Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow.

[02:24:08]Whenever I see flowers drawn like this, I just think of nail art.

[02:24:17]Reminds me of childhood.

[02:24:27]It's my 10th out of whale noise, but just sound like a meow. Just have meow on the mind. Thank you.

[02:24:44]I think it's really funny when Kissy, I think, gets annoyed with Hissy if she's meowing a lot at night. Then gosh, that was a loud one. And Kissy gets up and starts going.

[02:25:00]She'll go she'll go to the door and be like, Exactly what she sounds like.

[02:25:18]These are so light.

[02:25:30]I forgot what button do I use for shift?

[02:25:33]Have I just been using the key the keyboard? I cannot remember used to my iPad.

[02:26:05]That looks stupid.

[02:26:13]That also looks kind of stupid.

[02:26:24]You know what else I watched? I watched Dungeon Machine.

[02:26:29]Forgot I watched that. I haven't been watching anime.

[02:26:34]Really?

[02:26:36]I watched that though. I liked it.

[02:26:54]I think Chill Shuck is really funny. Can I give a spoiler? Spoiler alert.

[02:27:10]Okay, I'm going to say I think it's really funny. He's a middle-aged man.

[02:27:13]He's like estranged from his wife or something.

[02:27:20]He's He's like a deadbeat dad.

[02:27:27]That is so silly.

[02:27:52]Yippee. Yippee. Yippee.

[02:27:57]Does chat know what art program she's using? I know what art program she's using. She's using Clip Studio Paint.

[02:28:06]Wow. See the whole thumbnail.

[02:28:12]Feel like they need to have yellow in them now. Without yellow, they feel so so empty.

[02:28:32]Thank you.

[02:28:40]Um, can I fit one more?

[02:28:49]Thank you.

[02:29:02]This looks looks like something.

[02:29:11]How do you get the glow with the border?

[02:29:14]You duplicate the layer and then you go and do blur.

[02:29:22]And then you adjust it. Tada.

[02:29:26]Now it looks all soft and blurry.

[02:29:36]Slime.

[02:29:38]Sure.

[02:29:44]What flavor? Probably strawberry vanilla.

[02:29:52]Nothing too over complicated here.

[02:30:18]Hello. Hi.

[02:30:33]Oops.

[02:30:47]This looks weird. Thank you. Thank you.

[02:30:50]Thank you. Thank you.

[02:30:55]Looks like when I come home from work when I'm not as cute.

[02:30:59]Might be. How would you know?

[02:31:14]Uh oh, somebody's getting restless.

[02:31:20]You are just so excited to have your medication, aren't you? Thank you.

[02:31:27]She reminds me for her medication. It's really awkward now because she doesn't take it as much. Does she remind me? And she doesn't actually need to take Well, now she needs usually to take something.

[02:31:39]now in its place. She would remind me like she enjoys it getting eight eye drops in your eye back to back.

[02:31:56]Well, not not even back to back. You have to wait 5 to 10 minutes in between each one.

[02:32:04]Thank you. Thank you.

[02:32:09]I think I mean I was giving her treats in between them so she did have a positive association with them but then I stopped and she was still still reminding me not remind I don't know I I have alarm set and everything but she was near near the time she was trying to get antsy It's really hard not to repeat here.

[02:32:50]Even when my mic was muted, I was she was meowing at me. I was meowing back at her.

[02:33:02]Thank you.

[02:33:10]That's exciting.

[02:33:25]Thank you.

[02:33:28]It is hard not to respond.

[02:33:40]Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[02:33:56]That's really the the melting. It's not I don't care.

[02:34:01]I don't care.

[02:34:03]Okay, that's too much.

[02:34:12]Like this. This here is where I think it's Thank you. Thank you.

[02:34:21]This This is not When did Wicked come out? Sorry, I'm thinking of melting. I never saw the second part. Seen the musical.

[02:34:53]What is my came out?

[02:34:56]When did the f I don't know. This doesn't matter.

[02:35:02]The first one was here. Oh, yeah. Okay.

[02:35:04]I don't know why the first one was last year, but I was like, I don't think that's right.

[02:35:16]I did not mind the movie.

[02:35:22]I'd even say I enjoyed it, but I just have no desire to watch the second one.

[02:35:39]Thank you.

[02:35:43]or two is Was it bad? I didn't hear that it was bad.

[02:35:55]I guess I didn't hear that it was good either. I didn't hear I didn't really see anything about it.

[02:36:13]Thank you.

[02:36:35]I saw my ads for it and people I don't think I saw anything. Maybe I'm just not looking.

[02:36:44]I don't know where I would have seen ads for it.

[02:36:49]I feel like I've been able to avoid ads.

[02:37:08]H.

[02:37:17]Oops.

[02:37:30]Good.

[02:37:36]You guys are seeing slime. I'm seeing like an ice cream. Ice cream that fell off the cone.

[02:37:48]Now it's looking more like slime, I think. adding all this. Thank you.

[02:38:05]I think I see melting pink. I think the ice cream that Patrick dropped before he became a policeman.

[02:38:18]Spongebob, I always felt really bad for him.

[02:38:38]I feel like the the silliest things in cartoons left such a weird impression on me. The episode of Spongebob where the guy loses his pencil and Doodle Bob is born. that when he loses his pencil, I was so upset. And then when he gets the pencil back and it breaks, it it upset me. It It made me so upset.

[02:39:00]I felt so bad for him.

[02:39:06]Supposed to be some funny funny heha.

[02:39:10]No. Horrible.

[02:39:36]I feel like this might be No, no, no, no.

[02:39:54]What time is it? Okay, I can finish this by the time I need it, though.

[02:40:11]What you doing, puppy?

[02:40:13]She's at the door.

[02:40:16]She walks out.

[02:40:39]free her soon.

[02:40:43]Oh my goodness.

[02:40:46]I hear she's meowing in the kitchen. I can tell she's in the kitchen.

[02:41:14]Did I make any comfort meals?

[02:41:17]Not really. You know, I I started making really simple sandwich bread cuz it tastes really, really, really good when it's first out of the oven.

[02:41:28]Tastes good after that, too. But when it's first out of the oven, it's so good.

[02:41:35]But I want to I've been convinced to try making sourdough.

[02:41:43]I've reached that I've reached the age I've reached that point of being a girl that I want to try making sourdough bread.

[02:41:54]But I I haven't succeeded in a starter yet. For those who don't know, you need to you need to bur the starter. That was not a good way of putting that.

[02:42:09]You need to bring your flour to life like the bacteria because that's how you make sourdough.

[02:42:18]And of course, I started it once I realized, oh, I'm going to be home more. I can feed my sourdough cuz you have to feed it every day.

[02:42:30]You feed it flour and water every day.

[02:42:33]And that's all it is. It's you put flour and water in a jar. Make sure you don't actually close it.

[02:42:40]Don't want botulism. Uh, back to bed. No. Looking at me. Oh, shaking.

[02:42:51]All right. No, it's not. It's not dough.

[02:42:53]It's just It's flour and water. You put it in a jar and every day you have to feed it, though. Some people say you need to let it starve. You have to neglect your your little starter sometimes to get it to do what you want it to do, I guess.

[02:43:11]But most of what I saw says you need to feed it every day.

[02:43:17]I went a while without feeding it. And it sometimes it can it they say you should wait until it's 2 weeks old at least. But you need it to reach a point where it's alive enough. It has enough yeast and bacteria to properly make the bread. Otherwise, the texture is going to be god awful.

[02:43:47]Mine is not. It's alive. Like, I know it's alive because water collects at the top of it. That means it's hungry.

[02:43:56]People name their starters. I don't think I will name mine. I don't It's not even It's not even at that point where it deserves a name.

[02:44:06]Sorry, that's kind of mean.

[02:44:09]Will you name it?

[02:44:13]I don't know.

[02:44:16]I don't have any good I don't have any good ideas for a name.

[02:44:21]And I feel like that makes it worse if it if it never comes to life or if it never it's never successful.

[02:44:37]What show is it? Oh, it's The Office.

[02:44:39]The Office where one of the charact Oh, yeah. I remember one of the characters has a was named after his father, but he would turn out to be a bit of a disappointment. So, they changed his name when he was like five or something and made his little brother take his father's name instead.

[02:44:56]I feel like I'd be doing something like that, which is pretty horrible.

[02:45:09]This starter isn't deserving of this amazing name I came up with.

[02:45:16]Anyways, I don't think it's I'm beating it again, but still not ready. I don't know if it will ever be ready.

[02:45:27]I have a couple friends that have tried doing sourdough. One has succeeded.

[02:45:34]Said to just keep waiting. The other said, "No, I gave up. I gave up."

[02:45:47]We'll see.

[02:45:49]I don't even eat bread that I keep making bread. I make this sandwich bread and it doesn't last very long. I think it lasts 5 days in the fridge and I haven't tried freezing it.

[02:46:00]I I feel like the texture it just wouldn't be good after freezing it. At least how I make it.

[02:46:07]I have so much bread. I make two loaves of bread and I maybe eat half half of a loaf before it goes bad. But who knows?

[02:46:15]Maybe if I'm hungry it won't be I'll actually get to eat more of it.

[02:46:22]I never buy bread.

[02:46:25]I feel like people start making bread because they realize it's a lot cheaper and not that difficult than buying bread that's also super processed and has more sugar than it actually needs.

[02:46:40]I don't even eat bread.

[02:46:48]Sell the bread.

[02:46:50]I'm too I've been thinking about giving like my neighbors things, at least baked things that I make. They're really nice to me. They give me things, but I struggle to give them stuff back because I think they're not going to like it. What if I bake something and they they think it's bad?

[02:47:13]It's the thought that counts, though.

[02:47:23]One of my neighbors, they give me ingredients a lot. They don't really give me, they don't bake stuff and give it to me. It's more I grew this. Do you want one? Or like, do you want some?

[02:47:34]I used to have a neighbor that straight up made me entire meals.

[02:47:39]She was my my landlord's mom was living was like my neighbor where I lived.

[02:47:50]She'd make me entire meals and she didn't speak English.

[02:47:56]She'd knock on my door and I'd have the most delicious food.

[02:48:02]And it was a lot. She I have to wonder how much food she made.

[02:48:10]And I feel really bad because especially back then I was not I was not bad at cooking but it wasn't good enough to give to her because she was really good.

[02:48:20]Why would I give her food that is amateur when she makes such amazing things?

[02:48:27]I didn't know what to give her. I was like, I I hope giving money to your child is enough to live here.

[02:48:44]Okay.

[02:48:49]Did you think I needed I think she just made so much food. She gave me dumplings a lot. She gave me so many dumplings.

[02:49:01]She gave my dog dumplings, too. Then my dog became overweight. I didn't realize how many she was giving her.

[02:49:19]Okie dokie. Oops.

[02:49:24]Oops. Okay. I made three thumbnails, which means I can do at least three streams.

[02:49:32]As you can see, I am not good at multitasking here. I might get better at it. I don't know.

[02:49:40]I have not done this in a while.

[02:49:46]Yay. Great. We're done. Well, actually, yeah. Yay. Yay. You can say yay. Yay.

[02:49:52]Yay. Do thumbnails. I need more though.

[02:49:55]Oh, I need I need so many more.

[02:50:01]I will continue to make more.

[02:50:06]I talked a lot today, but I am scared of setting up an expectation that I will talk a lot every time I stream.

[02:50:18]I will truly do whatever I doing. And I probably even have times where maybe I'll stream and talk for an hour and then I turn my microphone off for like two hours maybe. I don't know.

[02:50:37]I just do not want to I don't know.

[02:50:46]I do not want to disappoint. I want to be upfront about what I feel like doing and what I don't know.

[02:50:59]Yeah.

[02:51:02]Anyways, I need to do the rest of my dog's medication.

[02:51:13]Oh, yeah. Also, I made I made merch with Oh my god.

[02:51:21]And I am shocked to see it's the main stock is out already.

[02:51:28]That's I felt I was telling her I was like I feel like you're taking a a risk a risk here with me. I don't know. I don't know how many people want a adorable pink or plushy. I want it. I want it. I have it.

[02:51:48]I want more. I'm going to I'm I'm pre-ordering I'm pre-ordering like 10.

[02:51:58]But but then also part of me is like who doesn't want orca stuff? Or I really like orcas. I cannot I cannot verbalize how how much I I like orcas. I like other whales, too.

[02:52:15]I really like orcas.

[02:52:19]Anyways, the initial stock is out, but there is still pre-orders if you want one.

[02:52:28]It's cute. Is that a picture?

[02:52:39]Oops.

[02:52:41]I feel bad.

[02:52:45]The plan the plan was to release it at this time. The plan was not for my dog to get glaucoma and for me to be out of town for for nearly a month and a half before it.

[02:53:06]It's cute. It's cute. Look at this thing. Look at this thing. It's cute.

[02:53:13]I like it.

[02:53:15]I like orcas.

[02:53:20]I like flowers and I like pink stuff, too.

[02:53:28]I had to fight myself a little bit when I was designing the orca.

[02:53:34]I was like, should should a flower grow out of its blow hole? It kind of needs that to breathe. I get I always I go well actually actually actually whenever I see people draw water coming out of the spout coming out of the blow hole I'm like that's not what that's doing.

[02:53:56]And then I decided, you know what? If it's pink anyway, it can have a it can have a flower coming out of its blow hole. It can breathe. It can This thing's not very heavy. Can breathe.

[02:54:11]Cute.

[02:54:13]Cute.

[02:54:15]I don't have a link right now. I will put one after this, but if you go on my Twitter or on's Twitter, you can find a link or just look up and you'll find a website.

[02:54:32]I also feel really bad. I was wanting to and thank you cards to say thank you.

[02:54:40]Thank you for getting Orca Orca thing.

[02:54:44]It brings me joy to when people have orca stuff cuz I really like orcas. I want other people to really like orcas. I want the world to love orcas.

[02:54:58]But I was not able to do it for all of the of the initial stock. I wasn't home.

[02:55:06]I did as many as I could when I was home. I'm sorry. They can't be guaranteed in every in everyone. Things have not gone at all how I expected them to go this year.

[02:55:22]But that's life.

[02:55:25]That is life.

[02:55:29]Yeah. Yeah.

[02:55:31]Okay. I must go for now. I must feed my dog. feed my dog. I need to feed my cat, give medicine to my dog.

[02:55:42]I will be around again soon.

[02:55:48]I don't know what it's going to look like. Like I said, I just I don't know if if things are okay with my dog, I will be around more.

[02:55:57]If I get not good news, I will probably not be around for for a little bit.

[02:56:03]We'll see. I just I don't know what's going on.

[02:56:06]I wish I had a better idea of what stuff looks like for me, but I do not.

[02:56:21]It's okay. Unfortunate circumstances, but also I'm in very fortunate circumstances.

[02:56:28]I cannot deny that despite all the stuff that's been really awful the month and a half. I'm also really grateful for all the stuff.

[02:56:37]I don't know, just I'm grateful I can get my dog the help she needs and I can save her vision hopefully. And hopefully whatever is going on now is just a weird thing that happened and can be explained by something not too crazy.

[02:56:56]And hopefully it doesn't happen again and then I will feel much better and then I will want to do more things.

[02:57:05]Yeah, like I've been in shock for like ever since I found out about her glaucoma. I I was fully convinced she was going to be completely blind within a month.

[02:57:22]It's It's not so like It's not so bad.

[02:57:26]It it sucks, but I when it when you it hits you and it's just so sudden, it's it's very devastating.

[02:57:34]I've had to deal with pets having health issues before, but they were all older.

[02:57:40]My dog before her live to be.

[02:57:43]She's supposed to turn 16 the week she died, but she was old. Gradual decline. And I feel like it was still really difficult, but it was easier to handle having it happen to a young dog and it being so sudden is is rough. Haha, get it.

[02:58:09]But that's sometimes what happens when you you own a pet.

[02:58:17]Anyways, hopefully I can um well, I think I'll stream before her specialist appointment, but hopefully after that I can have a better understanding what's going on.

[02:58:30]Hopefully, it's not horrible.

[02:58:34]Yippy, I love my puppy. I love my kitty.

[02:58:43]Yippy.

[02:58:48]Sorry. I feel like I was still really off today.

[02:58:53]But I didn't want to put it off anymore cuz I feel like I was just going to put it off till her specialist thing. I was like, well, if that goes bad, then I'm putting it off even more. I just know I need to want to not just spend all my time dwelling on it and putting all my energy into it. I need to do other things, too.

[02:59:12]I haven't been. It's all been very focused on her. I'm not doing much for myself. So, here I am. Hello.

[02:59:23]Okay, I got to go. Sorry, this is awkward.

[02:59:27]I will go do her medicine. I will be back when I can be. Um, yeah, probably on Twitch next time.

[02:59:38]I feel bad that I got partner and then disappeared for for so long. I wonder if I still have it. I don't know how it works. Anyways, we'll see.

[02:59:48]Thank you for watching. Thank you for everything.

[02:59:54]I can't be so happy right now. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I really appreciate everything. I really do. I Oh my goodness.

[03:00:04]Thank you for hanging out. Thank you for waiting. It really means a lot to me.

[03:00:08]It's really nice to have a distraction.

[03:00:10]It really is.

[03:00:14]Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

[03:00:17]Okay, I go for now. Hopefully in even better spirits soon.

[03:00:24]Okay, goodbye.

[03:00:28]Oops. No, no, no. My other brush. My other brush.

[03:00:33]Where'd it go?

[03:00:46]Okay.

[03:00:52]Bye-bye. I'm going to Oh, thank you. I'm going to going to mute this now. Bye.

[03:00:58]Byebye. Meow. Meow. Meow. Meow. Meow.

[03:01:01]Meow. Meow. Meow. Meow. Yeah. Yeah.