I needed to disappear - no thanks to burn out

追加: 2026-05-09

[00:00:00]So, I needed to disappear to try find myself again.

[00:00:08]>> [sighs] >> I just had this urge to disconnect from everything like everyone because I needed to gain some clarity on what my soul wanted.

[00:00:28]Because I feel like I have so many ideas on what I want to pursue and do or who I want to be, but I just needed to cancel out the noise and just figure out once again in this new cycle or chapter that I'm entering like who is she? Like who does she want to be and what is she focusing on without the external pressures.

[00:00:57]I feel like I'm just in this phase where I'm what's the word that people use they say icked?

[00:01:06]Is that the word? Icked out by certain things and how people like carry themselves and doing a bit of a cleanse of what things and people I want to surround myself with and I'm like at this stage where I'm okay stepping forward without anything and anyone. Like I'm just so detached and so comfortable with myself and being alone and the journey that I want to embark on.

[00:01:46]I'm okay with that and I rather do it alone if that means I'm getting rid of the rotten apples if that makes sense.

[00:01:55]>> [sighs] >> At first I thought I was going through like a bit of an identity crisis and maybe I was or maybe I was just seeing things clearly.

[00:02:07]And when you disappear from social media and people's lives, you really get to see things clearly and you get to see what actually makes you happy, what doesn't, and what actually gives you peace by no longer having that around you or surrounding you.

[00:02:29]I need to make some changes and I need to address all of these new chapters and seasons of life that I'm about to embark on with you.

[00:02:40]And it's freeing, but it's like also very exhausting. Like I just feel so burnt out from just everything. You know what I mean?

[00:02:49]Like everything has just exhausted me to that point where I'm just like I don't give two [ __ ] about anything and anyone like right now. Like and I know sometimes that's a bad place to be, but that's actually a [ __ ] great place for me to be because I can burn all the bridges and cut all the cords and wouldn't give two [ __ ] I can reinvent myself and start again.

[00:03:13]>> [sighs] >> And I guess that's me for you in a nutshell.

[00:03:20]I'm a destiny center 10.

[00:03:23]Wheel of Fortune comes. So, cycles and changes.

[00:03:28]I'm a life path five.

[00:03:30]I hate being restricted. I like freedom.

[00:03:31]I like change.

[00:03:34]I'm a Sagittarius.

[00:03:36]Say less.

[00:03:38]I need to be free. I need to explore.

[00:03:43]I've got a lot of Scorpio.

[00:03:45]So, I like to rebirth like a phoenix all the [ __ ] time.

[00:03:49]I think this is It's where I'm at. It's a bit of a rebirth.

[00:03:54]And step back on what is it that I want to do in life.