Womb Envy Episode 5 🎙️ “A.A.” 🏳️‍🌈 Secrets, Sobriety & Queer Truths #FullEpisode #Mpreg

Added: 2026-05-31

[00:00:00](chill music) (Divine chimes) - If you think you're pulling off this maternity wear as hipster chic, you're wrong.

[00:00:08]- [Max] Privacy, please.

[00:00:10]And can you maybe not drink while I'm getting ready for AA?

[00:00:13]- To see lover boy.

[00:00:15]- We're not lovers and he thinks I'm straight.

[00:00:18]- Oh, honey, you're not that good of an actor.

[00:00:20]- Shut up.

[00:00:21]- Confess.

[00:00:23]Live your truth.

[00:00:25]- [Max] I can't.

[00:00:27]- All right.

[00:00:28](audio booms) Let's talk about this last month.

[00:00:32]There was the Razzie-worthy performance at Lamaze class.

[00:00:36]- [Maggie] Remember to support the baby's head.

[00:00:37](Max gasps) (Maggie gasps) - (screams) I killed our baby!

[00:00:40]- Kyle blocked your number and your TikTok, your Instagram, your Twitter, and your DudesNudes.

[00:00:46]Girl, why do you still have DudesNudes?

[00:00:48]You're lying to Maggie so that you can go to AA meetings every week to see Patrick.

[00:00:53]You're lying to Patrick about, well, everything.

[00:00:56]So much lying, so bad for the skin.

[00:01:00]- I'm handling it.

[00:01:02]- Yeah, let's see how long you can keep this up for.

[00:01:04](Divine warbling) - Are you wearing one of my maternity shirts?

[00:01:13]- Uh, yeah, um, I thought it was cute.

[00:01:17]- Oh. - Do you mind?

[00:01:19]- No, not at all.

[00:01:20]You do look cute.

[00:01:21]- Thank you.

[00:01:23]- So where are you off to in my pregnancy couture?

[00:01:26]- Uh, just work.

[00:01:27]Um, another shift.

[00:01:30]I have another mouth to feed soon.

[00:01:32]- You know, I don't expect you to pay for- - [Max] I'm just kidding.

[00:01:36]- You're a good father.

[00:01:39]- Uh, do you need anything before I go?

[00:01:41]Like a nap in a real bed, maybe?

[00:01:44]I feel bad you're sleeping in the living room.

[00:01:45]But thank God Dorothy's not letting us sleep in the same bed before marriage.

[00:01:49]- I mean, I think it's a little late for that.

[00:01:52]- Because I already planted my seed.

[00:01:54]- Ugh, awful.

[00:01:56]- Basted you with my baby gravy.

[00:01:58]- Oh, I hate that.

[00:01:59]- 'Kay, love you.

[00:02:01]- Love you back.

[00:02:05](bell dings) - [Max] Um, Patrick.

[00:02:10]- Hey, Max, how are you?

[00:02:11]- Uh, good.

[00:02:12]I'm- I'm good.

[00:02:14]- Did you end up talking to Maggie?

[00:02:15]- Uh, about us?

[00:02:18]- About AA.

[00:02:19]- Oh, right.

[00:02:20]No, not yet.

[00:02:21]Just waiting for the right time.

[00:02:23]She just loves drinking so much.

[00:02:25]Uh, not while pregnant.

[00:02:28]- I thought she was concerned about your drinking.

[00:02:31]She'll be supportive.

[00:02:33]Why wouldn't she be?

[00:02:34]You guys are amazing in class.

[00:02:35]Really good partners.

[00:02:37]- I, uh, do make a great partner.

[00:02:42]- Hey, everyone, let's get started.

[00:02:44]- I was hoping to go first.

[00:02:47]I have a lot going on right now that I really want to express to everyone and, uh- - Sure, but- - Great.

[00:02:53]So, um, last week, I was thinking about sucking the alcohol out of an old stain on my couch and, and- - But before we get started, I just wanted to recognize that tonight is Max's one month and he's getting his red chip.

[00:03:06](people clapping) - So as I was saying, um- - After a month, I think it might be finally time he spoke to the group.

[00:03:14]- Oh.

[00:03:15]Nah, it's okay.

[00:03:16]- I- I was hoping to go first.

[00:03:18]- A huge part of AA is community.

[00:03:20]So on this milestone day, if you wanted to share any feelings or struggles, don't be afraid to be totally and completely honest.

[00:03:32](Max hisses) (Max whines) (Max groans) (Max slurps) (gentle music) - [Narrator] "Womb Envy."

[00:03:46](bright music) - Hey, how are you?

[00:03:58]Good.

[00:04:00]Uh, just staying with a friend in Toronto.

[00:04:04]Why?

[00:04:04]Um.

[00:04:07](sighs) Okay, uh, so I should have told you when I first found out.

[00:04:11]I know that, um, but I freaked out and I didn't know what to do, and then my mom freaked out and, um... Get to the point, um... I'm pregnant, it's yours and I'm gonna have it.

[00:04:24]And I want you to be a part of our child's life.

[00:04:27]But I also can't stand you and want nothing to do with you.

[00:04:31]Okay, bye.

[00:04:32](Maggie clears throat) Well, that went pretty well.

[00:04:37]Uh, good practice run.

[00:04:39]Maybe two, 300 more times and we'll make the real call.

[00:04:44]God, I hope it goes to voicemail.

[00:04:45](door creaks) - I come bearing baby gifts. (laughs) - Mom, enough.

[00:04:51]We don't even have room for half of them.

[00:04:53]- We have to be prepared for anything that little guy's gonna throw at us.

[00:04:56]- Please, stop gendering my child.

[00:04:59]- Fine.

[00:05:00]I'll stop calling him a boy. (chuckles) Maggie, honey, wanna thank you for letting me back into your life and allowing me to be part of your child's life.

[00:05:16](gentle music) - Um.

[00:05:20]I want a relationship with you and I want my kid to know you too but things have to be different this time.

[00:05:28]And they have been but they need to stay that way.

[00:05:33]- I'm not gonna mess up again.

[00:05:34]I promise you.

[00:05:37]I'm a woman of God now.

[00:05:38]- I know and I've seen a big change in you.

[00:05:43]- Oh, Maggie.

[00:05:44]It means the world to hear you say that.

[00:05:46]And thank you for sharing your beautiful engagement to Max with me.

[00:05:53]We should be thinking about getting back to Elliot Lake soon.

[00:05:56]That's where you and Max should settle.

[00:05:58]Good community.

[00:05:59]Close to free babysitter. That's me. (laughs) Can I make you something to eat?

[00:06:04]Mac and cheese, your favorite.

[00:06:06]- Mom, mac and cheese hasn't been my favorite since I was eight.

[00:06:09]- Oh, okay.

[00:06:11]Well, did you know that there is an app every restaurant in the city on it?

[00:06:15]I found it when I was trying to turn off my flashlight.

[00:06:18]Do you know how I... It's been on for three weeks.

[00:06:22]Where's Max?

[00:06:23]- Uh, he's at work.

[00:06:25]- Why does he have to work so many nights?

[00:06:26]He should be home with his fiance.

[00:06:28]- Max is doing more than enough.

[00:06:31]Trust me.

[00:06:32]- He doesn't seem the least bit interested in planning a wedding.

[00:06:34]Typical man, I know, but it would be nice if- - Mom, I wanna focus on the baby right now, not wedding planning.

[00:06:42]- That's okay.

[00:06:43]No undue stress like Patrick said.

[00:06:46]- Yes.

[00:06:47]Trust the professional.

[00:06:48]- (chuckles) He's just a man who read some books.

[00:06:51](laughs) Any woman who's given birth is a professional.

[00:06:55]- (chuckles) I thought you were too wasted to remember giving birth.

[00:06:58](book thumps) Mom, I'm sorry, I... - I think I'll just go to bed and read.

[00:07:06]I can use my flashlight.

[00:07:08]Glad you didn't help me with it.

[00:07:11](pensive music) (bell dings) - Is there anything you'd like to share?

[00:07:17]This is a safe space.

[00:07:19]- Uh.

[00:07:20]I would like to share that I'm really good at just listening.

[00:07:25]Okay, uh, fine.

[00:07:27]Where to start?

[00:07:28]Uh, a month ago, I was living a totally different life, like, completely different.

[00:07:36](Divine chimes) It's, um, it's... - Oh, don't mind me, just pretend I'm not here.

[00:07:49]You got this, babe.

[00:07:49]Just be yourself.

[00:07:50]- [Max] I'm... - Gay.

[00:07:53]- I am... - Homosexual.

[00:07:56]- I'm... - A big old fairy!

[00:07:58]- Scared.

[00:07:59]- Yeah, of the truth.

[00:08:02]- It's very difficult to keep the line between the past and the present.

[00:08:06]- Oh, "Grey Gardens" quote.

[00:08:08]Butch it up.

[00:08:10]- I wanna move forward but I don't wanna change who I am.

[00:08:13]- Ooh, deep.

[00:08:15]- I'm trying, okay?

[00:08:17]- You don't have to keep going.

[00:08:19]- No, I want to.

[00:08:23]My body's changing.

[00:08:25]- [Patrick] That's what happens when you stop using.

[00:08:26]- No, but it's really changing.

[00:08:29]Like, why is this happening to me?

[00:08:32]- Don't forget about the imaginary drag queen following you around.

[00:08:34]- Harassing me!

[00:08:36]- Whoa.

[00:08:39]- My past, um, it's like it's harassing me.

[00:08:46]How do you marry your past and your present in a way that leads to your future?

[00:08:54]Or compliments who you've become?

[00:08:57]Um, I wish there was a clear path other than sobriety because once you're sober, but then you have nothing to blame your problems or mistakes on and where do you go from there?

[00:09:14]How do you be everything to everyone and- a- and be honest while you do it?

[00:09:18]I just want to scream!

[00:09:21]But I'm also very happy because nothing like this has ever happened to me and I don't wanna lose it.

[00:09:32]I can't lose it.

[00:09:36]Does any of that make sense?

[00:09:38](people clapping) (bright music) - [Patrick] I'm really proud of you.

[00:09:50]- [Max] (chuckles) Of my verbal diarrhea?

[00:09:52]- You are open and vulnerable and that can be hard.

[00:09:56]- Uh, you haven't told me about how you lost your vision.

[00:09:59]Is it hard to talk about?

[00:10:01]- [Patrick] No.

[00:10:03]The more people who know, the less stigma there is.

[00:10:06]And people should know when they're being an ableist.

[00:10:09]- If they're being what?

[00:10:10]- People who don't have a disability or aren't close to someone who does probably won't understand how the world caters to non-disabled people.

[00:10:17]That's ableism.

[00:10:18]Whether they're aware of it or not.

[00:10:21]- Well, I am not ableist.

[00:10:24]- An ableist person would say that.

[00:10:26]- Ah, damn it.

[00:10:28]- It's the little things people take for granted like just walking to the store, or open up a can, or seeing out of your right eye.

[00:10:35]- I am totally ableist.

[00:10:37]- [Patrick] Now you know.

[00:10:39]- [Max] Well, I heard knowing was half the battle.

[00:10:41]- Yeah, I heard that too.

[00:10:43]- So how did you lose- - I'll tell you another time.

[00:10:46]- Fair.

[00:10:47]Not everyone can be as open and vulnerable as I am.

[00:10:52]Uh, and thanks.

[00:10:55]- For what?

[00:10:57]- For everything, I guess.

[00:10:59]- I can't take credit for everything.

[00:11:02]- Hug it out? (chuckles) - Sure thing.

[00:11:05](gentle music) We should stop hugging now.

[00:11:14]- Oh.

[00:11:15]Yeah, um, sorry.

[00:11:18]Well, I'm right up here.

[00:11:20]- I'll walk you.

[00:11:22]- Uh, it's still, like, 10 blocks.

[00:11:24]- I could use the exercise.

[00:11:26](bright music) - [Person] My son Chakra is my best friend.

[00:11:40]People laugh at me when I say that. - Pickles are my best friend.

[00:11:43]- [Person] Yes, he's only 38 and a half weeks old but our non-verbal conversations are some of the best I've had in my life.

[00:11:51]He teaches me so many amazing life lessons.

[00:11:55]Yesterday, I was reading him my favorite Rumi quotes.

[00:11:59]Rumi is his favorite 13th century poet.

[00:12:05]His first words were, "You are not a drop in the ocean-" - [Max] Patrick, you are so funny.

[00:12:11]- "you are the entire-" - Oh, man, yo, my mom tells me that all the time. - "ocean in a drop."

[00:12:16]I wasn't quoting Rumi until I was at least- - Didn't realize Max was working his shift with Patrick tonight.

[00:12:24]- [Person] To your child.

[00:12:25]They see more than you think.

[00:12:28]- [Narrator] "Womb Envy" is created by Champagna, written by Mark Keller, produced by Charlie David, directed by Jake Horowitz, cinematography by Paul Maxwell.

[00:12:37]"Womb Envy" is produced and distributed by Border2Border Entertainment, in association with AMI and OUTtv.

[00:12:42]Integrated Described Video by AMI, featuring Daniel Fernandes, Storm Steenson, Jeffrey Haase, Helen Holtham, Champagna, and Luke Avoledo.

[00:12:51](bright music) Copyright 2023 Border2Border Entertainment.

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