Things my therapist did.

Added: 2026-05-12

[00:00:02]You know, one thing about therapy with me and I still think about this.

[00:00:08]My my personality disorder, narcissistic personality disorder was so bad, I didn't even know how bad it was.

[00:00:19]Don't get me wrong. I knew when I was doing wrong, I knew when I was gaslighting, I knew when I was lying, I knew when I was cheating.

[00:00:24]>> [clears throat and cough] >> I knew those things.

[00:00:27]But in therapy, if See, the Navy sent me to therapy. It it was part of my and people ask this question, it was part of my retirement physical.

[00:00:36]And um went to see ear, nose, and throat, the dentist, the chiropractor, they checked my knees, everything. And like the lady was like, "Well, your last stop is the psychiatrist, Mr. Walker."

[00:00:46]And I was like, >> [sighs] >> "She won't see me, he won't see me, they won't see me today." So, I went back to work and I had to turn my form in, piece of paper for to start my retirement.

[00:00:58]She's like, "You didn't get the psychiatrist's signature, Mr. Walker."

[00:01:01]I'm actually walking. I was like, "Don't worry about it." She's like, "Well, we can't process your paperwork until you get the psychiatrist." And I was like, "What?"

[00:01:11]Man, I'll tell you. That's how I was smoking Black & Milds and cigarettes.

[00:01:15]>> [clears throat] >> I drove back over to to the VA. I don't smoke anything now.

[00:01:19]>> [snorts] >> Drove back over to the VA.

[00:01:22]Went in their office smelling like straight up like fried pork chops with lemon pepper and Newports.

[00:01:28]I wasn't trying to see no psychiatrist.

[00:01:29]I wasn't cuz I wasn't trying to connect with my past.

[00:01:33]But let me tell you this.

[00:01:34]One thing I learned I had to listen to in therapy and it was question after question after question and recommendations and tell me about this, tell me about that. And the next week we could talk about this, next week that. And I was just like ready to curl up in a ball and eat my bottom lip.

[00:01:50]>> [clears throat] >> But as she talked, I realized I had some of the piss-poor sorry ass drawn-out, weak-ass, ugly, disgusting, stinky, funky excuses.

[00:02:09]I was listening to myself, and she would sit there look at me with a glass like I was like and she didn't have to say nothing. I was like, that didn't sound right did it?

[00:02:21]>> [laughter] >> That didn't sound right did it? She's like, I'm yeah. She was taking notes and every time I would say something she would be like typing.

[00:02:32]And I was telling my friend Claudetta, I read my medical record a couple years ago, and I told you about this, but it says PX, which means patient.

[00:02:43]Patient shall be in therapy.

[00:02:48]Patients uh The patient shall be in therapy indefinitely. Indefinitely is in caps and bold. And I read that.

[00:02:55][clears throat] And it made me reflect on I need to I supposed I'm supposed to be in therapy for the rest of my life is what it said.

[00:03:03]Just imagine not going to therapy, but should be in therapy for the rest of your life, and not even knowing that.

[00:03:11]But then you go and you know it. Then you she didn't tell me that. It was in my medical record and she was typing.

[00:03:19]And I read that and I was like, I said, man, I was really bad off. Lot of these men and women out here with narcissistic traits don't really know how bad off they are, but they know when they're making people bad off.

[00:03:29]So, that's just what I want to let y'all know.

[00:03:32]I had some of the worst excuses that I'm like these excuses had to be turning women off.

[00:03:39]How did they stay with me with these poor, dirty, dusty, stinky, funky, crusty excuses?

[00:03:47]And now y'all hear it now and and now it's like, how do you kiss this Leon? How do you have sex with this Leon? do you cook for this Leon?

[00:03:54]How do you iron and wash his clothes or her, Leona?

[00:04:00]Think about that. Y'all have a great day.