read it or unhaul it ✨ep. 1✨ | generator picks from every book i own |

Added: 2026-05-31

[00:00:00]Welcome in to a brand new video of mine.

[00:00:02]I'm so excited. I haven't done this. I'm very nervous, but I just prepped for it all morning. We are going to be doing a read it or unhaul it. I've seen this a lot and it's people who like have hundreds of books on their TBR. And I like these cuz it makes you read the books. It makes me read the books that I was never going to read. It makes me read the books I've been putting off for months, even years. I have Luna. She's down here. She wants to say hello. I can tell. Hi. Oh my goodness. She doesn't really like to be held very often. You can see how she's leaning very far away from me.

[00:00:37]That's all she's going to give me. So, I have entered every single book that I have not read with the exception of if it's a second or third in a series because sometimes I do buy multiples in a series without even starting the first. But I put every book that I have not read yet.

[00:00:54]I'm out of breath from going up my spiral staircase.

[00:00:57]Anyways, I put them all into a random spinner wheel. So, let me get that. I believe if I counted correctly, there are 128 titles on here. It's a lot. It's a lot. Let me see if I can screen record. Actually, look at her. I'm I'm literally am screen recording. There are so many things on here. There are so many books. I even There were a couple I was like, do I really want to put this on? Like, do I really want this to be an option? But I put them on. I just want you to know that I thought about it. I thought about cheating and I didn't. and I put them all on. So, even books like A Little Life are on here. Books like The Nighting Gale are on here and I don't want to read them. I have the next couple of days off. I want to do three books. I think that's the goal will be three books. Obviously, that will be heavily dependent on the size of the books. If I get a little life, I'm not going to read three books. But episode one of Read It or Unhaul it, I am ready.

[00:01:49]I'm so scared. I'm so scared. You know, the way I see it is if I get a random ass book that I bought in 2022, this can be my excuse if I'm not feeling it 30 pages in, I'll literally get rid of it and start a new one. I make the rules.

[00:02:02]That's the point of the whole video.

[00:02:04]Read it or unhaul it. If I don't want to read it, I won't read it. And we'll pick a new book. So, I have no idea how many books we're going to get through. We'll see. But book number one.

[00:02:14]Oh my god, I thought I just stepped on Luna.

[00:02:25][ __ ] So, it's the way I used to be. Let me get it. Here she is. I actually have an autographed copy that I got from Julia's. It's in red Sharpie. Could be worse. I feel like this will be a quick, easy read. You know, at one point I wanted to read it. So, maybe it's a good book. Who freaking knows? Oh, I've never seen that before. On the pages, her name is printed on every single page. like that says Amber Smith. That's the author's name. And then on this side, I don't know if you can tell, it says The Way I Used to Be on every single page. That's weird. Okay.

[00:02:58]Wild summary on the back. In the first little paragraph, we talk about her getting assaulted and it uses uses the R word. That's pretty hardcore for a YA book. So, it's told in four parts of freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year. And I think it just goes through it says her brother's best friend sexually assaults her. So, I think I'm going to make the rule of I'm going to give myself at least 50 pages before deciding if I'm going to unhaul it or not. Feel like 50 unless it's like a really big fantasy book. Maybe not. But for this, at least 50. So, we'll check in when I start it. I have to go to book club. So, we'll be back later. So, there's good news and bad news. The good news, I started the book. Double good news, actually. Double good news. It's on Kindle Unlimited. I got to page 17.

[00:03:42]Not very far. The bad news, actually.

[00:03:45]Double good news. There's double bad news, too. The bad news is I have found my new favorite um hyperfixation shirt.

[00:03:51]Unfortunately, I am obsessed with this shirt and I've had it for years. I have had it for years and it's from Goodwill.

[00:03:58]It's like a 2XL long sleeve and I'm obsessed with it. It's always a little chilly in my apartment. So, I just love having this on and I love the color and it's really big. So, unfortunately, you're going to see me in this um 90% of the time from now on. It's like this with a bear shirt and you're going to have to deal with it. Part one for freshman year goes through page 59. And we open up like right around Christmas, New Year's. I think it's in between Christmas and New Year's. And we um we it happens immediately. It happens like page one. We are immediately thrown into it. We're immediately like uncomfortable. I just I don't know the actual plot of the rest of this book other than just her dealing with this.

[00:04:38]So I don't know if like she starts dating someone or like if someone's just like helping her through this. She like tried to tell her mom and then her mom saw blood and just assumed period and like kept trying to like talk over her and like not shut her down because she didn't realize what she was doing. She was just like trying to reassure her and was like oh it's no big deal. Like don't worry and like try to make her feel better. And then the girl was just like in her head and she was just like never mind. I'm not like I can't say it. So far it's not been a fun read. And I have the second book too. So, I'm excited to see like where happiness is going to come in because if this entire book is just like very depressing, I'm not going to read it. I don't like very depressing books. I like books that something happens and makes me cry because of something sad or depressing that happens. I don't want to read start to finish a depressing book, though. That's just that's not fun for anyone involved.

[00:05:29]I'm okay crying. I love to cry books. I love sad books, but it needs to be something that like an event happens that makes me cry, not just a really [ __ ] life of this little teenage girl trying to figure out what to do. So, that's where I'm at right now. Only page 17. So, I'm going to try and read for a little bit. I have like I have a video uploading right now and I want to read until this uploads, probably for like the next 30 minutes and then I need to go grocery shopping. So far, not super impressed, but again, 17 pages in, so I'm not making any decisions yet.

[00:06:13]That fell perfectly flat. It landed up.

[00:06:16]That's hilarious. It did not hit Stinky.

[00:06:19]Don't worry. In case anyone was wondering, I am indeed not caring about this book. But I got to page 25.

[00:06:26]So I have like 29ish more pages until the end of part one. And then I will need to be heavily convinced to keep going.

[00:06:36]I feel like I'm reading, which like it is for YA. Yes, I understand that. But I feel like I'm reading some textbook that's like trying to teach kids how to I don't even know what I'm trying to say, but it feels like I'm reading a textbook of like someone trying to show a kid how to be a good person, but in like a way that they'll understand. So, they're using like analogies they'll understand. Like, I just I don't need to read this. I'm giving it 10 more pages.

[00:07:05]I'm not [ __ ] reading this.

[00:07:11]Oh my god, we have to head back downstairs. I have news to share, but I would rather go downstairs with a little bit better of lighting and I'm getting kind of hungry, but I made it to part two. Can't see it. Part two is sophomore year. Let's go. So, for as far as read it or unhaul it goes, we have our first Unhol It. I just can't listen to it anymore. I can't put myself in the mindset of a 12-year-old girl. I just read I'm sure it gets better because she becomes a senior at the end of it, but I just reading from the mindset of a freshman in high school.

[00:07:48]I don't care. I honestly don't care like what she's going through or how sad it's going to be. The highest we're going to get is 17. And I just I'm so far past that. Especially like a traumatized 13, 14, 15. You know, I don't want to do it.

[00:08:02]And I have no interest and I don't think it's going to get better the older I get. So, but the good news is that means I get to unhaul this and the second one.

[00:08:10]And I don't feel as bad because this I got from Julia. So, I got this for $4.

[00:08:15]And then the second one I got from a library sale. So, I think it was like $2 or $3. So, two books unholdled. But that means we get to pick our next one. Hi, Mr. Dank. Oh, which all the books are upstairs. So, we're picking the second book.

[00:08:35]I can't even. It's so small. I can't even see the titles.

[00:08:42]Okay, we have Inter Mezzo. Honestly, I feel like this is good because so far it's picking books that I had no plan on picking up anytime soon and don't really have any sort of attachment to. So, I will be quick to unhaul if I need to.

[00:08:58]Like, the way I used to be was hidden.

[00:09:00]It was behind one of my chairs. So, it's kind of good that it's gone. Like, I have zero attachment to inner messo. The only attachment I have is because it's Sally Rooney and I love Normal People, but Inner Mezo is bigger and I've heard less about it. I have heard much less like positive reinforcement about it.

[00:09:15]Let me see if it's on Kindle Unlimited.

[00:09:17]But I got Inner Mezo for one single dollar. That's another one that like I just I won't care if I get rid of it.

[00:09:24]And it's not Kindle Unlimited. All right, let me go get it real quick. Here she is. I don't really even know what it's about. H. It's about two brothers.

[00:09:33]Gh. I like have zero interest in reading about two brothers, but I'll try. I will give it the 50 pages and then if not, it's joining the graveyard. I'm going to start a stack of books. Maybe this will be like the best thing that's happened to me. I'm going to realize and it'll be a moment of growth for me that I don't need to keep all these books. All right, I'll come back when I start it and have some thoughts.

[00:10:15]I am 10 pages in and already skeptical of how I'm going to like it. I don't remember it being this like intense with normal people like the writing style.

[00:10:25]Obviously, I feel like everyone knows Sally Rooney doesn't use quotation marks, which didn't really bother me in normal people, but like this entire page, one paragraph, no breaking up at all.

[00:10:39]And it's not even the fact that there aren't I would say maybe one every It's like really loud. Maybe one like every 10 sentences. It's a compound sentence.

[00:10:48]Every single sentence is like five words or less. Christine glancing back at him.

[00:10:53]her tasteful skirt suit navy marino.

[00:10:56]Always like that with her. Yes, he answered. Thanks. All of those are their own sentence. I'm trying to get. Sorry, I did not realize how many cars were going to be coming by. It's hard for me to connect because it's such just short little sentences. No problem. Have you eaten? Sensible woman like that. I'm not exaggerating. Those are literally the sentences back to back to back. I don't like reading that. And I'm in the mind of a man. I'm in the mind of a man. I don't ever want to be in this place.

[00:11:23]Literally ever. The first very like I'm only 10 pages in. So, the very beginning his dad has died. It's hard to like tell where we are in the story cuz we were at the funeral and then it's been 2 weeks since the funeral and now we're already back at the funeral. So, like it's kind of confusing. I cannot read How many pages is this? I cannot read 450 pages of writing like this. I will throw myself off my balcony. And I'm kind of excited to give it the 50 pages and move on. If I'm already ready to move on by page 10, that's not very good. It's mostly the writing style. Like, okay, I just went forward to page 19. Page 19, it's the end of the first chapter. This is the the last bit of this chapter. Of course, she says, "Period. No problem."

[00:12:06]Period. Don't say it. Period. I'm in love with her. Period. You if only.

[00:12:09]Period. You could text him. Period. In what language? Period. L. Period. E4.

[00:12:14]Period. Yeah, he answers. Period. You're right. Period. I will do that. Period. I will. Period.

[00:12:21]Um, so I've just decided I'm not doing this because I'm going to spend the next however many pages. You know what? I will finish this chapter. I'll finish the next nine pages. I just don't want to spend 50 pages being pissed. And honestly, I don't care about the story.

[00:12:36]So, we I didn't realize how quick I was going to be to DNF these books. I'm feeling growth. I'm feeling growth happening. I'm kind of having fun. I'm like, DNF it. I don't care. I'm calling it calling it Time of Death, page 10.

[00:12:50]I'm not doing it. Actually, page 11.

[00:12:52]Time of death, page 11. I'm not doing anymore. It's just It's just not for me.

[00:12:56]I'm not wasting my time reading a book that's going to piss me off. Inner mezzo on the second to the graveyard.

[00:13:03]Technically third. Third to the graveyard. Time to pick our third book.

[00:13:08]How exciting. Ready?

[00:13:11]Okay.

[00:13:25]Interesting. This is probably my longest owned book, so that's kind of crazy. How fun.

[00:13:33]I didn't grab her mazo.

[00:13:40]We have The Haunting of Ashurn House by Darcy Coats. I don't know what it's about, but we're going to find out.

[00:13:46]Maybe a fun thriller is what I need right now. Okay, fun. Says like everyone knows that Ashurn House is like super haunted and that the old owner went mad and that ghost still like walk the halls, but Adrien is desperate and in need of a place to stay. She inherits Ashburn House and it says, "Strange messages are etched into the walls.

[00:14:07]Furniture moves. She has no idea how to escape and no idea how to survive.

[00:14:13]There's a cat. Cat named Wolf Gang. Why do I feel like I've heard that before? I feel like there's either a movie or a book I've read where the cat or something was named Wolf Gang.

[00:14:36]If I read the word bequathed one more time four times already, we have used the word bequeathed. Open thesaurus, please.

[00:14:46]Like just say left. She'd assumed she'd been bequeafd one of the small suburban properties. Could have said she'd been left one of the small suburban properties. Maybe if you use it once in a sense of proper like maybe if it was like in the will, which she did use it when she was talking about the will at one point, but she used bequeathed four times already. Three in one page and then once more just now. I thought she was mimicking. Like I literally thought she was making fun of the word. She used it three times in one page. So I thought our main girl was kind of making fun of the word cuz she it seemed ironic.

[00:15:18]There's no irony in this one. She's just using it to use it. Please pick up a thesaurus. It's kind of giving me the Haunting of Hill House vibes, which is funny. The Haunting of Ashurn house. I didn't even think of that, but it's giving me those like initial vibes and I kind of love it. Like she pulls up at this huge house and there are signs everywhere like no trespassing. Turn back and it's like on the top of this huge hill overlooking the city. And I'm excited. I hope it's really spooky.

[00:15:46]She's also all alone.

[00:15:48]We're not doing that. I'm not doing that [ __ ] I just got to chapter 11, page 76.

[00:15:55]I'm still pretty like intrigued by the story. We were getting a little bit more of like the the previous woman who lived in the house. We're getting a little bit more of her lore. Apparently, the entire family that lived in the house was murdered and no one knows what actually happened. The only one not murdered was Edith, who was like a little kid when it happened. And Edith is the one who just recently died and passed the house to her. It's not like, "Oh my god, I can't put it down." But it's not annoying me to the point where I'm going to DNF it.

[00:16:23]Odds are it probably will be like 3 3 and 1/2 at the rate that we're going.

[00:16:27]But if it gets really creepy, I could see it going up. I haven't read a really good creepy book in a while. So, I'm hoping it creeps me out. It is 120. I'm going to a workout class. We're trying a new gym today. We're trying F45 to see if we like that. So, that is at 4:30.

[00:16:44]So, I'm just going to see how far I can get in the next like 2 or so hours.

[00:17:00]Sorry, the door is open and Luna's laying in the sun, so I will not be closing it right now. But I was getting literally spooked last night. I was getting spooked. That's literally all I could ask for. She woke up in the middle of the night and tried to turn the lights on. Electricity is out. First, she tries to start a a fire because there's like a fireplace in one of the rooms. No kindling. So, the fire immediately goes out, but she looked at like a flame long enough to where she was like, "My night adjusted eyes now can't see anything." So, she turns around and everything's just black.

[00:17:29]Like, she her eyes haven't adjusted yet.

[00:17:31]And she's trying to walk around cuz she knows there's an oil lamp downstairs.

[00:17:35]And she's like, "I just need to get to this oil lamp so I can light it and see." She makes it to like the area, but it's right in front of the front door.

[00:17:43]So, she can see the front door and she sees a shadow outside and hears the floorboards creaking.

[00:17:49]She said this was at like 5:00 in the morning or something and she's just like paralyzed with fear. I was like, "Me, too." Literally, me too. I'm so [ __ ] scared right now.

[00:18:04]I'm so sorry. This is at the expense of Luna's happiness. So, like, I can't take that away from her. She's belly up right now. She's never belly up. So, I'm letting Luna do what she wants. She is the owner of this house. So, I'm having a good time and I'm liking that it's genuinely creeping me out. And she was saying how because she has a cat and she was saying when she was walking around, she thought she like saw a couple shadows in the corners of the room and she was like, "That literally has to be Wolf Gang. Like, that must be the cat cuz what else would it be?" And I'm like, "It's probably not the cat. It's probably not." Very excited. I'm halfway through though. Today's Thursday. I went to my F45 class this morning. When I tell you I can barely use my arms.

[00:18:45]And now I like can't move my arms. Ow.

[00:18:47]My god, I'm hurting. I'm hurting bad. I was shaking today. Like the Pilates shakes, you know, except just during a strength workout, but I'm liking it. So, I like F45. Okay, now we're locking in.

[00:18:59]Oh, no. Well, I was saying all that to say it's 9:40 and I don't have anything until my staff meeting tonight at 5:30.

[00:19:07]We have the whole day to read. Hey, hey, hey.

[00:19:52]Oh [ __ ] no. Like absolutely [ __ ] no.

[00:19:57]We're gone. We'll be homeless. Don't give a [ __ ] Okay, I'm officially shutting the door cuz the sun is like it's moved far enough. So, she's on her way back and of course was later than she intended and so it's starting to get dark. She hears things in the forest like branches breaking like someone's walking behind her and is like running at a sprint, falls down some stuff, ends up where this like cemetery is like the this one single grave. Fast forward um she looks up well the grave has been dug up. She looks up, dead great aunt. The the previous owner who left her the house, the dead aunt is standing there like fully nude, decaying, obviously like a zombie ghost type thing. So she naturally freaks out, tries to run away.

[00:20:45]She said the aunt starts walking, scarily walking at her, like she can tell it's getting closer and she's like, "How is it getting closer when it when I'm like running and she's only walking?" And then she says she only glimpsed the dead woman for a fraction of a second. Edith had been scuttling.

[00:21:02]She'd moved on all fours, using her hands and feet simultaneously to grip the trunks, branches, and roots to propel herself forward. This old woman who is dead is running at her like an animal.

[00:21:20]My [ __ ] god, no. And then like it actually does get worse. So that site already like thank god I didn't read that last night cuz I would have been scared. She all of a sudden searing burning pain cut into her ankle. She caught up to her. The the old lady caught up to her, grabbed her and bit into her ankle. Edith crouched and looking more like a leathery animal than a human. Had sunk her teeth through Adrienne's jeans and into her ankle.

[00:21:48]And then she does make it inside the house. Of course, it was locked. So she like had to get her key out and unlock it. and she like doesn't have use of her ankle. She gets inside the house right as Edith approaches and she like slams the door shut on her. Edith starts climbing up the door and scratching at the door. Then a low steady scrabbling began as Edith clawed at the door. The sound moving higher as Edith lifted herself up the door. So no, no. Come sunrise, I didn't realize there's like 100 pages left. There would be four pages left of my story. Come sunrise, me and my cat are gone. I actually cuz she's like trying to find Oh my god, that actually scared me. She's like trying to find out the history and like what actually happened because no one actually knows what happened to like all the murders at the house. I don't care anymore. That's really not my problem. I have an injured ankle, a physical wound from a dead woman. I'm out. And like she was scuttling. We're not scuttling.

[00:22:49]We're not scuttling. Me and Wolf Gang, if Stinky was here, he's right here. You can't see him. Stinky, if we were at that house, we'd be gone. It would be hard for me to stay there that night.

[00:22:57]But like, I'm not leaving the house.

[00:22:59]We're not leaving the house. The next chapter says, "Adrien woke and immediately wish she had it. Same. I'm uneasy but enjoying it." Oh my [ __ ] god. What is going on? Like literally, what's going on? So, it's the next day and she's like gone through all of these different scenarios of what she should do and she landed on not going into town because she's scared Edith is still out there. She doesn't know. Obviously, nothing has happened during the day. So, she's like there's a good chance she doesn't come out during the day, but she's not like 100% positive and she doesn't want to get stuck holding her cat going like it's a 20-minute walk, so she's like, "It's too risky. I'm just going to wait." She does go outside though trying to find all the [ __ ] she dropped when she was like fighting with this [ __ ] corpse yesterday. She turns around. She's like, "Okay, I got my flashlight. I'm not going any further.

[00:23:48]I'm just going to go into the house."

[00:23:49]Movement caught her attention. And she raised her eyes. Edith crouched on the roof.

[00:23:59]No. Crouched like a predatory animal on the spire near the chimney. She said Adrien dashed toward the door in the same instant that Edith threw herself forward. She was half running, half plunging towards the gutter.

[00:24:13]This is horrifying. She scuttled again.

[00:24:16]This is like not what I was expecting whatsoever. Like I haunting of Ashurn House. I was expecting ghost stories.

[00:24:23]Not an old woman scuttling around, throwing her dead body off of roofs and just standing back up. Also, mind you, this isn't like some small house. This is a three-story house. This is a mansion. She threw herself off the roof, crumpled on the ground, and then rided herself back up.

[00:24:41]I'm scared for I'm scared. I'm so scared. This is during the day. How dare she come out during the day. That was exhausting. I'm I'm stressed. I have to finish this before nighttime because it will freak me out.

[00:24:54]There's a basement. So, I feel like so much has happened. The important bits is she finds out there's a basement. She doesn't have the key to lock it. So, she's trying to move the grandfather clock in front of it. And as she's doing it, I'm sitting here thinking, "Nothing in the whole world could get me to go down those stairs." Lo and behold, the one thing in the world that would get me to go down those stairs, her [ __ ] cat, who she hasn't seen in like an hour because he was just roaming because cats just roam. Her [ __ ] cat went down the stairs. She was like, "No."

[00:25:29]I'm just trying to picture if this was me. Maybe if it was like Luna because she could hold her own, she probably is the dead woman. So I'd be like, Luna can take her. I'm picturing like if Mugs had walked down those stairs, I'd be like, "Oh my [ __ ] god, I would be so mad at her. But I have to go get her. You can just not go get her. I would be cursing her entire life, every step of the way.

[00:25:54]You're never leaving your room again, you blind bitch." I would be so mad at her. But that is the literal only thing that would have gotten me to go down there, which is awful. She literally is like, "Wolf, please come back up." I will say that's one thing I really do like about this book and her writing. She writes her like very realistically. Like earlier she was talking about taking care of like cleaning her wound. Ghostwoman like bit her leg. She was like, "I had seen enough movies to like kind of understand how to clean a wound." And she was like, "But there's a whole lot more crying and whimpering coming from my side." Not just made me laugh, but like so many things like that that had made me laugh.

[00:26:34]She said she had like scared away someone could have come to help. She like accidentally scared someone away, making them think like she was a ghost.

[00:26:41]And she was like, "Edith may as well put me on salary." I was like, "That's so random." It made me chuckle. So I have like 30 pages left. I think she's about to go into the basement.

[00:26:56]I mean, everything was explained pretty much. And I did guess one thing, and I feel like it's pretty simple how she's going to get out of this. So, I don't know. I'll check back in in a minute.

[00:27:06]Yay. I'm done. Woo. Obviously, I don't want to like spoil the end. I don't It's not that I didn't like it. It's just not what I was expecting. I probably would give it like a solid four, like a high four. Like I had a really good time and it was a really easy read and the end didn't like annoy me or anything. I feel like a lot of thrillers their endings are like trying to just like really pull something out of their ass and it annoys me. But I liked this ending. It wasn't terrible. Wasn't what I was expecting.

[00:27:35]Could I kind of guess the route it was going? Yes. But it was still fun. So I'm going to give it like a solid four. Will not be unhauling. But that means I get to pick another one.

[00:27:58]Okay. You know what? I love Peter Pan so much and I have such an emotional reaction to like Peter Pan and Wendy stories. I'm not like super excited, but also I have been really intrigued by like these Disney retellings. I've never actually read one. So, let's go get her.

[00:28:17]500 pages of a Peter Pan retelling. I got this for 250. So, this is going to be one that I will not feel bad about unhauling. I'll give it the 50 pages.

[00:28:26]And if I'm not feeling it, we're going to unhaul it. And I have so many of these. So, it's like I just need to I need to dive into one and see if I actually like them. Maybe it'll prompt me to read the rest of them. Oh my god.

[00:28:37]Y'all are not going to believe what what just happened. I'm trying to find the name of this book literally anywhere.

[00:28:46]This isn't the book. I open it. I take the cover off. I'm like, "Okay, fun key." And I was like, "What does a key have to do with it?

[00:28:55]This is not Straight On to Morning." Oh, I'm so I'm actually upset. This is called The Secret Keepers. Do you know how confused I would have been? I would have read the first like three pages being like, "What the [ __ ] does this have to do with Peter Pan?"

[00:29:10]This is not Peter Pan. Now I am unhauling this. We have our fourth unh hall. Well, guess what that means? We get to spin the wheel again. I have meditation music going because I've been very anxious all day. I don't really know why. All right. I believe this is book number four. Maybe five.

[00:29:28]I don't know. I can't keep up at this point.

[00:29:41]You think I won't unhaul that book? I [ __ ] will. I'm feeling so picky right now to where I'm at a point. Let me see if that's on Kindle Unlimited. This may have me unhauling books I never thought I would. It is not on Kindle Unlimited.

[00:29:54]I mean, she's on Libby. The way I see it, if I ever I'll read the first chapter. Like, I'll I'll start it. Don't worry. The way I see it is if I ever for some reason am in the mindset to read Christian Hannah, I'll just get it on Libby or get it on Kindle, you know? Not looking forward to it. There's 549 pages. Oh, I guess could be worse. It's like I know it's a good book. I don't need you to comment and be like, "No, but the grade alone is so good." I'm sure it is. I am not looking to read like a lit fick women's fiction type book that's going to make me cry. It's just not what I'm looking for in the summer. I'm not kidding when I say um like chapter one. If I'm not vibing with it, we're going to get rid of it. And I'll inhole it. I don't care. I have no feelings towards this book. Just know I'm not happy about this.

[00:30:56]He loves He loves to reach. If he's doing anything on me, he's reaching for something. I don't know what, but he's reaching.

[00:31:41]I've been trying to get my thoughts together for the past minute. I just immediately get really bad vibes from the great alone and I don't want that like at all. We were reading about Vietnam War and the dad coming back was super trauma and I'm not doing it.

[00:31:56]Sorry. Maybe one day, not today. Okay, next pick is Emily Wild's Encyclopedia of Fairies. Gorgeous book. I love how these books are bound and that there's no cover like sleeve. It's just the book. I think it's beautiful. I got this for a dollar. Yes, I got this for a dollar. So, another one that I won't care to get rid of if I have to. I have this one and the second one both for a dollar. So, it's at least picking books that I didn't buy for full price, so I won't feel bad not finishing. I'm going to do my best. We're going to take it in stride. I'm going to read a little bit and we'll see. I have absolutely no idea what this book is about. So, we're going in 100% blind. There's a character named Wendle. That was my nickname as a child.

[00:32:37]They called me Wendle. No, I'm not gonna be able to read this dude's name without laughing. So, I read chapter 1. I don't know if it's just like me being in a mood. Like, maybe it's just like my current attitude towards all the books I'm getting picked is really negative.

[00:32:53]So, it's making me dislike everything I pick up. And also like my head is hurting. My heart has been racing all day. So, I feel like it's just like all of these things are happening reading book after book of different story. I don't know. It just feels like there's a disconnect there. I'm gonna wait before I DNF this. Before I choose to not read this. I'm going to take a little bit of a break. Maybe take a nap. I don't know.

[00:33:15]I feel like I need to reset my body.

[00:33:16]Like I just woke up and today was like, "Oh, we're going to be anxious today."

[00:33:20]So maybe if I go take a little nap cuz I don't want to just keep reading one chapter dnfing, one chapter dnfing. I don't I don't know. It doesn't feel like the move. So I'm going to not dnf this yet. I'm not saying I'm definitely going to read it. not not what I'm saying cuz just based on the summary, it sounds nothing like what I want to read right now. She's a 30-year-old professor travels to this place because they're known to have little ones and they're like little fairies or like the little fay folk that she's writing about. She's just researching about that's it. And I guess like her rival comes. Yeah. Her academic rival for some reason shows up.

[00:33:55]I'm like, "Of course he does." Like that just doesn't I don't know. and he's like trying to ruin her research. Like that just doesn't sound anything at all like what I want to read right now or like maybe ever. So, I'll give it like another one or two chapters, but I'm definitely not going to force myself to read it and definitely not right now.

[00:34:13]So, I'll be back after I can like get a new personality. So, unfortunately or fortunately, depending on how you see this video, we're not going to read this. So, we are going to pick a new one. Honestly, this has gone better than anything I could have imagined cuz I'm fine. I'm happy to get rid of books. I have a really hard problem getting rid of books and I have a hard problem dnfing. So, I feel like this is like exposure therapy. It's making me dnf books I don't want to read. We're growing. We're growing a lot here and I honestly I like it. Next spin.

[00:35:00]What book is that? I genuinely don't know what book that is. I guess I'll go try and find it. I don't know.

[00:35:07]Adding to the graveyard.

[00:35:10]And book two.

[00:35:13]It's definitely going to be over here if I don't recognize the name.

[00:35:19]Oh, okay. Here she is. Pack up the Moon by Kristen Higgins. A sixstar find. I got this from Books a Million clearance section. Lauren is okay. Joshua and Lauren are the perfect couple.

[00:35:35]Newlyweds. Newlyweds. Wildly in love.

[00:35:38]But Lauren gets a terminal illness. Of course she does. So, she's going to die.

[00:35:46]She leaves letters for him to open, one for every month. So, she dies. Why would I want to read this? Why did I [ __ ] buy this? That makes me so mad. She dies and we follow Joshua. Like, again, I don't want to be in the perspective of a man, especially a sad man.

[00:36:04]So, like, what the [ __ ] is this? I don't want to read this.

[00:36:11]I'm not happy about this. I mean, I'll give it a shot cuz I said I'll give them all shots. She's writing a letter to her dead dad about how she's dying. Said, "Thanks for everything, daddy. I'll see you soon."

[00:36:25]Cut the cameras. I already am pissed.

[00:36:28]I'm so [ __ ] pissed and I'm so over it. What am I reading? I'm not reading to be depressed. Sometimes I am. I'm not right now. Like, he's just talking about his dead wife at her funeral. Like, what the hell?

[00:36:42]You know what? I'm not going to feel bad about dnfing. That's the whole point of this video, you know? So, guess what that means? I think we're going to pick another one.

[00:36:53]Okay, next one. Time to go.

[00:36:57]Like, please pick something I've been looking forward to reading.

[00:37:03]I'm scared to look.

[00:37:10]I think this thing just [ __ ] hates me. I don't want to DNF that. So, I think I will end up reading it. I don't know. I thought I was in the mood for a romance, but apparently I'm not. But doesn't [ __ ] matter. I got to read it now. I think that Ashburn book really put me in the mood for thrillers. Okay, I can at least say I've wanted to read this before the movie comes out. So, I was going to read it eventually. I don't really know any about this other than it's like a STEM romance, but it's got to be popular for a reason. This is my first Ali Hazelwood book actually. I read like one of her novellas during the Halloween season and really liked it.

[00:37:44]So, we'll check back in probably tomorrow and I may do some on audio just because just because just cuz I can. I'm sure I'll like it. I just need to I need to get past the like initial 30page hump of a new book and then I think I'll be okay. But I cannot I think sitting on my couch is what's making me like more frustrated with books as well. So, we're just going to call it a night. I will start again tomorrow. I'll check it at some point. I'm finally reading. I'm on page 39. I just read the last I might look a little ridiculous. I just read some of the hardest chapters in redeeming six. So, it has not been fun.

[00:38:17]And now I have a headache cuz I cried so [ __ ] hard. Anyways, we're getting back into this. I will say if I hadn't just DNFed like four or five books already in this video, I probably would DNF this just because I can tell it's not what I'm vibing with. Like, this type of romance is not what I'm wanting.

[00:38:34]I just don't like a mean man. Like I'm sure deep down he's not actually mean, but like he's a dick and like I just I would I would meet him and be like ew pretentious doctor. Ew. Like that's just not what I want to read about. And that's what it's giving. Even if he is nice all along or like I don't care. The first meeting he's kind of a pretentious dick. He's known as being a dick. So I don't want her to be with him. I don't know. I'm just like not really not loving it. And I also am just like not really in the mood for like a STEM romance like science talk. It's just like not what I'm in the mood for. But I don't want to just keep dnfing books and I don't necessarily want to unhaul this because the movie is coming out. So I do want to read it before the movie. Now that being said, I am on 39. Chapter 2, which chapter 2 is like 50 [ __ ] pages. Chapter 2 ends at page 50. I'm going to reconvene. See if I can read another chapter. If not, I'm probably going to call it. I just don't want to waste my time reading about a man that's gonna piss me off. And like these days, every single man I come across is pissing me off. So, I don't want to read about it in my books, too. But, I do feel like I'm being extra harsh like for all of my books. So, I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but whatever. I'm actually in the middle of reading sprints with Jaci. So, we are on like our third sprint. So, I'm going to sit down. There's 18 minutes left of this one. So, I'm going to sit down and read some of this. hopefully have a better attitude about it. So, I'm not not enjoying it. I did keep going. I'm on page 58, but it's kind of feeling like she's forcing tropes to happen.

[00:40:07]Like, obviously, the whole fake dating thing and they're just kind of like looking for reasons why it makes sense to do it. He's like, "Well, actually, this would really work out for me because they want me to stay and they're taking away millions of dollars." And I was like, "Okay, well, they've already taken your money." And will a little relationship with a student make them be like, "You know what? I think he's here for good." I don't know. That feels kind of like a stretch for me. And then hers, I can see a little bit more for her.

[00:40:37]She's like, "I'm going to reap the benefits from this." So, like, whatever.

[00:40:40]Cuz if it was just her friend, I'd be like, "Okay." Also a stretch. But she's like, "People are respecting me. People are a little scared of me. You know, I'm going to write this out for as long as I can." So, I can't blame her for that one. Now she's like, "Okay, rule number four. There should be a deadline." I'm like, "Of course there should be a deadline. They're going to try and make it like a deadline romance, and the deadline's going to come up once they've already decided they have feelings for each other, and they're going to be like, "But we said," and he's going to be like, "I don't care what we said."

[00:41:09]It's they're going to like try and make it emotional. It just feels like a book that I would really enjoy if this was like my second, third, or fourth even romance ever. And I just feel like I've read so many so many and it's just full of tropes. It's just full of tropes and it's the grumpy misunderstood guy, but he's really good deep down. Okay, I'm just like already kind of over it. It's not It's not annoying me enough to DNF yet. I'm going to keep going, but just know I'm having like a three out of maybe 10. Three out of 10 time. I think it's growing on me. I think it's growing on me. Tom, what's his name? Ben or something? whatever the [ __ ] his name is. Him coming in and being what's his name? Is it Adam? Why can't I remember anyone's name? Being Adam's friend, I think is a fun little twist. I wasn't expecting that. So, I think that that's fun. And having to watch them like fake date in front of him, I think will be fun. It's growing, but I'm getting tired. So, I'm going to bed. I got to chapter 6, page 95. And tomorrow, I work all day.

[00:42:13]All day. So, odds are I'll probably listen in the car on the way to and from work and then see what we do after. I don't know, honestly. I can't think that far ahead right now. So, I've gotten pretty far. I have less than 100 pages left. I'm in chapter 18 and these are these are only a couple of my complaints. Like, as of right now, it's looking like a solid three star. Not in like a bad way, just in a I feel like I've read all this before type of way.

[00:42:39]one, I'm over like this is a very small and specific complaint, but he calls her smartass uh way too often. It's like not cute anymore. Like the way he's saying it, I would be like, "Ew." Okay, icky.

[00:42:51]Anyways, that's a that's like the smallest complaint. So, we just learned like the whole Well, that feels spoilery. I'll I'll speak in code. We did the whole like conference with Tom.

[00:43:02]We did the conference with Tom. That whole thing happened, which did kind of shock me. I was like, "Oh, okay. Got it." And now the whole Harvard Grant with Tom thing was talked about and I was like, "Oh, well this sucks." Oh, another complaint I had because it was earlier in the day. I almost forgot the like miscommunication. The It's like the classic fake dating miscommunication where they start to like each other, but the other person it's like they're scared to tell, which like I get the obvious reasons why you're scared to tell. In her head, he doesn't like her.

[00:43:32]Like why would she think that? So she goes with the lie of like I was talking about Jeremy when he overheard her.

[00:43:38]whatever. I guess that's like probably the most plausible lie she could have come up with. But then for him, I don't know. It's like all of the all of the little things she's heard from like his friends, the the oversharing that his friends do, which they love to do. I just feel like she could put two and two together that he likes her. Now it's kind of feeling like sticky situation with the whole Harvard thing. That is it is a very that's a sticky situation. I would rather go sticky situation route rather than we both think the other person likes other people and we're just lying to each other like that. I don't like that miscommunication idea cuz it just like annoys me cuz at this point I'm like okay obviously you two like each other but anyways now we've moved forward a little bit. We had the conference obviously what happened we knew was going to happen regardless and I think I'm just like stuck on an average romance read. I also like the I don't know if it's just heterero sex that doesn't do it for me anymore because I've read so much so many like queer love stories that are just so beautiful and the sex is so beautiful that now I'm reading like a very average heterosex scene and everything he says I'm like gh literally shut up first of all like this sounds like tmi but the whole his finger was too big I was like oh my god I was rolling my eyes from the very beginning the very beginning and then just like the the very male things he was saying.

[00:45:03]I was like gh and then it's like the I've I've talked on this before the like overly consent king. He's like you say the word and we're done. You say the word and it stops. Like that is a quick way to bring me out of the scene. I'm like oh my god we get it. Like we know you're a good guy. Okay we know it. So, I think just like I don't know, those sex scenes just like don't really like interest me anymore. Or maybe it's just like an older booktalky book where the sex scenes just kind of like cringey to me. So, it's probably going to land at a three star. Not but not in a bad way.

[00:45:41]It's not a bad three star. I just will literally never think about this again until I watch the movie and then I'll never think about it again. We're done.

[00:45:47]We are officially done. I saw the bonus chapter and then realized how long it was and was like, you know what, I actually don't care. I don't need him pining over Olive right now. I think also what I realized, one of my main complaints was the lack of like friendship with an like this was supposed to be like her best friend and Olive did all of this just so Anne could be happy and be with Jeremy. I mean, I can't really say she gave up so much because she found the love of her life from it, but like she was giving up so much just for her to be happy. there just felt like a lack of a girlhood, lack of a female friendship towards the end of the book. I felt it more in the beginning, but then I just feel like on just kind of slid into the back, which I I mean, yes, this is a romance based on the romance story, but I still I like seeing those female friendships kind of shine through and for them to like be there for each other. And it kind of just felt like she was like, "Oh, Jeremy's over there. Bye." You know, so it just kind of felt like on just like dropped off the face of the earth. So, we're landing on a three. our second finished book. And you know what? Just because just cuz I'm feeling fun and flirty, we're going to do a third. I think I want to get a third fully read book. So, if we like unhaul, DNF another one, I think I'm going to keep going until we can find one that like I really want to read. Let's just really hope really hope that it's it's it's a good one and it's a short and easy one. I'm kind of wanting a thriller. I'm not going to lie. I think that that's what I want. A short fantasy or a thriller I would be happy with. I don't really want to do romance right now.

[00:47:26]I don't even want to look.

[00:47:30]Oh my god.

[00:47:32]Okay, this is one I will not care if I have to unhaul. I won't at all. The good thing is it's very big font, very it's not a long book. The bad thing is it's gonna be an extremely emotional read.

[00:47:47]So, do I want to do that? Do I want to cry about dogs today? Probably not. The other good news is I think I got it at Goodwill for a dollar. So, I won't have a problem dnfing and unhauling. But, let me go get her. It's only87 and my options were to edit all night or read all night. So, we'll just kind of see how the book is feeling. This one says, "Marley and Me combined with Tuesdays with my." So, it's giving really sad.

[00:48:12]This dog is gonna die. So, like why am I why am I gonna read that? I haven't read Tuesdays with my but like from what I can gather it's like about life and like probably getting older and [ __ ] like that. So, I think like mentally obviously I knew it was told from the perspective of a dog. I wasn't mentally ready to read from the perspective of a dog. Mother did this. Sister did this.

[00:48:38]And he calls his siblings like fast and hungry. Hungry did this. I'm like, no. So, we're going to get rid of her.

[00:48:48]Sorry, not sorry. We're getting rid of her. I don't think I'm ever going to be in the mindset also like I don't want to read about dogs dying. So, I'm past that. I think I've had that book for years. I haven't read it. I'm not going to. We're going to pick another one.

[00:49:00]Honestly, the wheel is the most fun part. So, and like I'm I'm going to read it. I'm going to end up listening to it and then half listening to it and then I'm going to end up like giving it a three because I I consumed maybe 80% of the words. So, it's just a waste of everyone's time really. Oh my god, this landed it was two over from A Little Life where it landed. Like what if it lands on a little life or what if it lands on like I don't know. I have other books on here that like I'm just not ready to read but it doesn't necessarily mean I want to get rid of them. like a little life. So, let's just hope not.

[00:49:34]We're going to shuffle. Let's just shuffle her up. I'm scared, but I'm ready.

[00:49:39]At this point, I would rather unhaul a book and reby it later than read a book I'm not ready for.

[00:49:50]Yes, it's a thriller. Oh my god, I'm so excited. Oh my god, I'm so excited. I'm going to get her. I'm going to get her.

[00:49:58]Everyone shut up. So, I started reading like January or February of 2022. I think that first week of my reading, I was like, "Holy [ __ ] books are so cool." And I spent hours on book talk getting like book recommendations and then would go and spend $70 a week at Barnes & Noble buying new books quicker than I can read them. This was a part of my very first book haul. This is about two women who I believe run into each other at the airport. I don't know what gets them to, but they swap flights. And then as they're swapping flights, the one girl, her plane goes down. I don't think they know each other. Yeah.

[00:50:37]Together, they make a last minute decision to switch tickets. And I hope it like immediately gets into the story.

[00:50:42]It seems like it's going to. I just need something to get me quickly because obviously we can tell I'm very I'm very low patience right now. I need something quick and easy. It's not quite what I expected it to be. I thought it was going to be a dual POV of these two girls who meet at the airport and like given their backstories and just given like what their life situations are. One of them was going to lie or something and they were going to swap. But we're in the POV of this one girl who is in this like political marriage, but he abuses her. He's physically abusive and she has tried to leave him before and he apparently like kind of killed. It's like an accident, but it's pretty obvious he killed his last either girlfriend or wife. And she's tried to leave him. Like present day, she has tried to leave him before. And he basically was like, "Yeah, it's not going to work." She has planned this whole thing with her friend in secret.

[00:51:33]She has a whole new identity ready for her. And she's about to get on a flight and head out. And she has like a plan that she I guess is going to swap. We haven't gotten to the part in the airport where she like picks the person she's swapping with. So, I'm assuming she knows who she's swapping with already because she has everything detailed out perfectly. But I just if I thought it was going to go differently than what it is. I mean, I'm going to keep reading to at least like the plane crash part because I want to see like what that is. And we haven't even met the other woman yet. So, I definitely want to meet the other woman at least before I give up on it. But, it's just not quite what I thought it was. I forgot I wanted to update on my Bob Ross situation. It doesn't really make a whole lot of sense to me because you fill him with water, right? Fill him to the top with water so that everything is covered, you know, like it grows. It gets watered through the ceramic little guy and you know that's how it grows. So down here, he's growing down there, but like you'll water him and he it seeps out. You know, it's on a drip tray because it seeps out of Bob Ross. like you have to pour out the drip tray and rewater him every single day. But like the water up here, it it it no longer is touching up here because it drips out so quickly, you know, like it doesn't have time for these guys to grow. So that's why so much is growing down here because there's constant water down here. So like I don't really get it. And it's really gross and ugly. Like it's actually disgusting when you look at it.

[00:53:06]So he will be getting thrown out. like I'm not enjoying it at all and it's like getting almost fuzzy. So, it like is trying to grow mold. I just don't get it. It just doesn't make sense. So, this was the extent of our Bob Ross. I really had high hopes. Like I I really thought he was going to have a full full bush head and that didn't work out. So, sorry Bob. It's kind of giving stupid. This whole scene I'm reading right now, it's like everything is too perfect and it's giving stupid. My heart was racing for a little bit. I'm not going to lie because Claire had this whole plan and she was going to fly to Detroit. Like she was already flying to Detroit for something for her husband and she was going to pick up the package at the hotel of all of her stuff. Her new identity, her new passport, all this cash, everything was going to be given to her at this hotel in Detroit. She was going to take it and leave. She wakes up the morning that she's supposed to go to her flight and she wakes up being told that she's actually going to Puerto Rico. and her husband's the one going to Detroit now and he's already left and he's like going to be in Detroit any minute now.

[00:54:06]So, of course, she's panicking. I'm kind of panicking. So, she calls the hotel being like, "Hey, so can you forward this package that's coming to somewhere else?" She's like, "Oh, I actually already gave it to your husband." So, she's like, she's panicking. She's like, "Okay, perfect." So, now she's like, "Well, the jig is up. He's going to figure it out.

[00:54:24]I won't be able to leave. He's going to literally kill me." She's trying to make this new plan in Puerto Rico where she's going anyways. She's at the airport and then we swap POVs to this girl named Eva. So, I'm glad we were getting the other POV. I was worried we weren't going to, but now it's like turning stupid cuz Eva, we don't really know what she's running from yet, but she sees she overhears Claire on the phone panicking to her friend about needing a new plan. So, she's like, "Huh, interesting. being a girl talking about going off the grid and needing to vanish. She's like, "I want to go off the grid and vanish." So, she like tracks her down and follows her around this airport and starts the acting of her life. She like sits down next to Claire pretending to be on the phone is like just doing this long story pretending to be really upset about her dead husband on the phone. She hangs up and is like mumbling to herself. She ordered a vodka tonic from the bartender and is like, "I knew it would catch up to me. I just didn't know it would be this quick."

[00:55:22]like talking to herself so that Claire would overhear and I'm like that is the dumbest thing ever. Like that pissed me off already. She's trying to like obviously get Claire to ask her. And so she just starts the conversation with Claire. She gives this whole sob story.

[00:55:36]She's like, "My husband had cancer. I low-key killed him at the end. He was in pain." And blah blah blah. It doesn't really matter. Claire like doesn't really care, but she's like, "What are you talking about? Like what what's wrong?" She's like trying to engage. Our new girl is trying to like direct the conversation to like where should I go?

[00:55:54]Do you think a person can vanish? Like where should I go? And Claire's like just like this this was the too far for me. They randomly hear a girl crying like they're at the airport so like a random kid is crying and the mom goes no I won't let you watch Parent Trap for the hundth time. This new girl's like so glad the new generation is still keeping up with Lindsay Lohan. Then she was like, "What's that new one that she does where she switches lives with someone and Claire goes to Freaky Friday?" And she was like, "Right, h who would you switch lives with?" Like, it's actually pissing me off. Like how stupid this whole acting chapter is. Like that kid just happened to be talking about the Lindsay Lohan movie. Are you kidding me?

[00:56:34]Like that's so stupid. So now I'm just going to be like, "Huh, if only I could freaky Friday with someone else."

[00:56:42]Like this is a woman who's literally fearing for her life. Like shut up. It's pissing me off that that's how this is happening. She literally goes, "Who would you trade with? Who would you want to be?" And Claire didn't answer her. So then she goes, "Freaky Friday would sure help me right now. Slipping into someone else's skin, being able to inhabit a totally different life. I'd still be me, but no one would know it."

[00:57:06]Like, oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god.

[00:57:08]So stupid.

[00:57:29]Okay. Well, I have just scanned the entire book because I I I knew I was going to get bored very quickly and I just wanted to know how it ended. So, I did find out and I'm kind of glad I didn't take the time to read that whole book because there ended up being connections between everyone and I just I wouldn't have believed it.

[00:57:48]Unfortunately, it's going to go into the unhaul pile. There's no reason for me to keep that because I just I'm going to have no connection towards it. So, we're getting rid of another one, which means I get to do another one. I'm not counting that as like another finished book. We're going to spin the wheel again. Time to shuffle.

[00:58:09]and finding out hopefully our last book.

[00:58:21]Okay, it's another thriller. Let me go get her. All right, it's called People Like Her by Ellery Lloyd. So, she is an Instagram famous mom. She's like a She's basically a Tik Tok mom. I guess her like her popularity is like straining on her marriage. It kind of sounds like she lies about stuff in their life to like become more relatable or something to make people like her. She gets a stalker. It says her stalker thinks she doesn't deserve her life that she has her blessed life. Could be interesting as someone who puts their life on the internet. It could be interesting to like watch someone else doing that and getting stalked, but also I can see it being stupid or like me not liking it because it has to do with like a mom.

[00:59:04]But we'll see. This also was a dollar from Goodwill. So, another one I won't mind unhauling if I have to. So, I'm only on chapter three. It's page 35.

[00:59:13]It's interesting seeing it. As someone who does do social media, it's very interesting to read the things that they're saying. We're following the mom who it is like her entire brand is very cultivated. Like all she's talking about is how everything is masterminded. her entire brand is being this relatable mom and how she doesn't really know what she's doing either and she's in it with you guys and you know she has over a million followers and it's like everything is fake. Both of her kids actually sleep very well so like all of her little stories they're all fake.

[00:59:46]They're all little bit of a lie. They were getting interviewed by the Sunday Times. She keeps like a relatively clean house. Like she doesn't have a messy house at all and she told the little girl to go and like messy up the living room so it looks chaotic, you know. And then we have the husband who is like her supporter. I can't really tell how he's feeling about it. He definitely is like kind of over it and it definitely puts a strain on their relationship. Like you can just kind of tell. And then we have this random italicized paragraphs of this person who hates her. At first I thought it was the husband cuz it was in his POV chapter. So I was like, "Okay, crazy switch up." But it's just completely random. These paragraphs will come in. She's reading the article of the Sunday Times. This or it could be he. I don't know yet. And it just says there in the mirror behind their heads, the one next to the window, a glimpse of the name of the pub opposite their house. And all she sees are in the first word it ends in RD and the second word starts with an N. She said that it was all I needed. I was like, that's so funny. Like that's so all the girls these days. Like we can find [ __ ] out.

[01:00:44]All we need is the smallest little thing and we can figure it out. Like it's just really not that hard. I will say it's interesting. I don't know if I'm like, "Wow, I can't wait to see where it goes.

[01:00:54]This is crazy." But it's keeping my attention at least right now. Okay, it's getting a little wild. At least this last chapter was a little wild. I had to pin my bangs up out of my face cuz they're really pissing me off. We find out that the secret stalker is a 60-year-old woman. She talks about her daughter, Grace. I I don't know if Grace is alive or dead. It's kind of giving Grace is dead, but also I think Grace had a little girl who died. That's kind of what it's giving or that she was taken. She was talking about making them panic the same way Grace panicked or like the same type of fear that Grace had to go through. And I'm guessing Grace maybe killed herself. I'm not quite sure, but it doesn't seem like Grace is in the picture anymore. And the daughter, I don't definitely isn't in the picture anymore. So, I think something happened online or like something our main girl said maybe made Grace like do it. I don't really know, but I'm excited to find out. And the grandma is talking about how she knew in that moment she was fully capable of throwing that child over the side of an escalator, dropping her off a balcony, or hurling her head long into traffic.

[01:02:05]And the only reason she didn't was because she has something much worse planned for Emmy and her family.

[01:02:14]Worse than killing your 3-year-old daughter. Like, what the hell?

[01:02:20]Literally, what the hell? It's like little portions like that I'm really liking, but then we talk about anything else that we're talking about. It's talking about kind of like the annoying side of the influencer life, you know?

[01:02:31]So, like I don't love that side of the book because we're kind of giving like the main girl and her husband. We're getting their different POVs of like these influencer events she's having and like just how calculated everything is.

[01:02:44]So, it's like that part of it I don't really care to read about cuz it also like makes me nauseous thinking about it. Then these happen and it's so much fun and I'm sucked in. But like we're on page 100 and that's the only thing that's really happened. Page 100, like we need to get it going. We have less than 300 pages, so we need to get it going. I need the worst things planned to start happening cuz if I have to go over the influencer life anymore, I'm going to freak out.

[01:03:11]That's me clocking out for the night. I just got to page 129. The last thing is there's been an accident. They're in the hospital. So, I'm going to keep reading just in bed cuz I my my ass is too numb for this. And it's 900 p.m. and I have to get up at like 5. So, I'm just going to read until I pass out in bed. But, I'm like halfway. So, that's pretty good. I'll at least finish. We have found the book I'm going to finish. It has kept my attention enough. I don't think it's going to be anything crazy.

[01:03:43]Like, the absolute highest I think would be a four if the end was crazy. Right now it's at like a three. There needs to be some crazy plot twist and it needs to heavily pick up to be higher than a three right now.

[01:03:58]I finished the book last night. You couldn't pay me hardearned cash to record last night. I was so tired. I was so tired and it was like 7:00 p.m. So I was like, I can't go to sleep at 7:00 p.m. So I'll just read. And then I ended up reading the rest of the book, which I didn't really expect to do. I don't know how to feel about it. I really don't. I think I'm going to land on a 3.75 when I thought there was a Well, there was We did go through a dead baby couple of pages. So, like if you don't want to read about a dead baby, maybe don't read this. And then um I thought we were going through which we did. We thought we did. We thought we did. We went through another murdering dead baby situation. So, that's where I was like, um I don't really know how I feel about this book. It's a little unsettling, but like in a dead baby way. Like I don't know. I just feel like of all the things in the world, dead babies just aren't really my thing to read about. Then we get the whole story, only one dead baby.

[01:04:57]So, there's that. I would say the last like 50 pages pre-epilog cuz epilog was like 50 pages. The last like 50 pages pre-epilog was pretty good, but you know, that was the dead baby stuff. So, I'm like probably like a three, three and a half, I guess. like I can see it being cool but not really sure. And then the epilogue was pretty cool. There were a couple like twists and turns in it and then like no dead baby involved. So, and then the very very end like another twist like coming like a little oh my god no way. So like I did enjoy it. So I think it bumped it up to like a 3.75.

[01:05:31]Just there was still like it was just a little too slow for me for a book under 300 pages. I would say somehow a little too slow still. I was expecting more action and more thrilling. My child's been stolen like halfway through and it was kind of just like setting up the entire story and then everything happens in the epilogue. A little slow. A little slow for me. But we did finish. Now I have to go get all the other books. Oh my god. I need a day of just a nap. A long ass nap. Oh, I have an unboxing to do. I'm going to throw it into this video because I can. Because I can. I'm not gonna do another video anytime soon.

[01:06:09]I want to know what it is right now. So, we're gonna unbox it right now and then I'll go get all my books from upstairs.

[01:06:18]Okay. White box.

[01:06:25]Oh my gosh, that is so sweet. It's products to help my monstera cuz my monstera is starting to droop. Floopy droopy. Oh my gosh. And this like helps it helps it grow upwards. I have to go get it. It's upstairs. Oh, and it's a light. Oh, my monster's going to be a freaking baddie. She's going to get so big. Oh, I can't wait. Okay, we'll do it together at the very end. I have to go upstairs to get the books anyway. So, I'm going to grab my monster. We're going to get the books. My gosh. Kiara, is that how you say your name? I'm going to assume it's Kiara. Thank you so much.

[01:07:01]That is so sweet. Oh my god. I have been worried about my monstera. She was looking too floopy droopy for a little bit. All right, I'll be back in just a second. Looking at this stack. I actually can't believe we did all of these. Like I didn't even remember trying to read some of these. I really don't. So, we're going to go through my unhaul list really quickly. So, the first was I actually I don't know if these are in order. I'm assuming they're in order. The way I used to be. Just not my vibe anymore. I don't really want to read about teenage stuff. And then that means I'm also unhauling the second one as well cuz I will never read it. This was $4 and this was $1, I think.

[01:07:37]Unhauling intero which I did get for a dollar so I don't feel bad about it. The writing style and like from the point of view of a man just not what I want.

[01:07:45]Straight on till morning that I bought for 250 and it's not straight on till morning. So will not be reading that.

[01:07:52]The grade alone I almost forgot about that. I think I got this from Julia. So, it was like4 $4. And if I ever read a Kristen Hannah book, it won't be this.

[01:08:02]It'll probably be The Nightingale. And then if I really love it, I'll get this on Kindle or audiobook, but I don't need it. It doesn't give me good vibes like seeing it up there anyway, so I don't really care. Emily Wild's Encyclopedia of Fairies. I just don't really It's not really what I like in fantasy. Like, I just don't like reading about this kind of stuff. It's not really the vibe I want. Which means I'm also getting rid of the second one. I got these for a dollar each. I am a little upset just because the the front is cute, but like I don't I'm never going to open those books. Then Pack Up the Moon. I don't want to be depressed. Doesn't seem like the kind of story I want. And from the perspective of a man as well. I got that for I think it was $5. Then A Dog's Purpose. I don't need that. And then The Last Flight. Just technically I know how it ends. I did skim the entire thing in like under five minutes. So this one was my one full price book. I bought it for $17 like 3 years ago. And if it sat on my shelf for that long and I was never inclined to pick it up, it was probably for a good reason. So, here's our entire unhaul list. Oh my god, it's going to fall. There you go. But we did manage to read three books, and I've liked them all a decent amount. Haunting of Ashburn House, actually really kind of spooky and fun thriller, like suspense, horror type of thing. Love hypothesis. I found myself thinking about them the next day actually. So maybe maybe I will continue the series. I don't really know. I have the second one. So we'll see. And then People Like Her by Elleroy, which I found out is a husband wife duo. So how fun. Did enjoy, but like kind of in an e way, weirdly enough. A successful first episode of Read It or Unhaul It. And I will be doing this again because it actually was really fun. I like being forced to read something and then being able to willingly just stop whenever I want, which we've seen I will easily do cuz there are one, two, 10 books we're going to get rid of. And I'm not sad about it, like literally at all. I think just like knowing opening it because I have a hard time getting rid of books that I didn't even give a chance to.

[01:09:59]Like I'm not going to get rid of a book that I've never even cracked open. So the fact that I've cracked them open even if it was for 15 pages and it's not my vibe, I'm going to get rid of it and it makes me feel less bad about it. Now I'm going to work on my monster plant.

[01:10:12]So if you want to hang out with me and do my monster with me, feel free to join. If this is where you're leaving because I'm done talking about books, bye. Love you so much. Thanks for watching. But now we're going to go over to my monstera plant. I have to figure out how this works first.

[01:10:28]Okay, so she's pretty big. When I first got her, she was not this lively. Okay, I'm probably going to do it wrong somehow. Oh, there's a little baby leaf growing right there.

[01:10:40]Okay, so that gu is going to stick there. Now, I think I should put a little one here to hold this guy up.

[01:10:46]Now, if you have suggestions, just let me know.

[01:10:59]I like feel like I should do something about these, but they're just growing sideways. So, like if I pick them up, they're going to break, you know? So, how do I do that? I don't know if there's anything to be done about that, but you let me know. Also, question for these like dead pieces like on the ends, do I just cut them off? Like, how does that work? Someone who knows a lot about plants message me, please so that I can make sure this guy lives. I mean, she's standing. I'm proud of her. Now, we can set up the light. Okay, she's all set up. She's up as much as I can put her without being scared that they're going to break. But her little light is here.

[01:11:38]It's very cute and I love her. Honestly, it makes it look more put together. But so, thank you, Kiara. You just saved my monstera probably cuz it was just going to grow sideways. I will take any and all plant advice, please, because I know nothing about plants. But I do I do love her and I don't want her to die. So, any and all advice. But we finally made it to the end if you happen to watch me do my monstera. So, thank you so much for watching. I love you so much. And I'll see you in the next one.