Allow yourself to feel your feelings! 🫤

Added: 2026-05-23

[00:00:02]Don't worry.

[00:00:06]>> [laughter] >> God damn.

[00:00:17]So like I've mentioned before on this channel, right?

[00:00:22]So I was a very sensitive kid.

[00:00:25]So I [snorts] had uh extremely high empathy to the point where most people would see it uh as a detrimental thing.

[00:00:33]And I was very emotional. I loved very deeply.

[00:00:41]And I gave easily. And of course this became one of my biggest problems as I got older.

[00:00:49]Because I attracted a lot of takers and a lot of abusive people.

[00:00:58]>> [laughter] >> People who want control, who want to dominate, who are uh domineering, too. I mean, even my mother was domineering.

[00:01:09]There was a an intense desire, an intense desire for control at all times. I barely had autonomy until I would say around 2 3 years ago.

[00:01:23]2 3 years ago was the first time I I started being able to be the person I could say, "Oh, I'm I want to go here and I want to do this." Um I mean, it was so intense. I think when I was uh I think when I was around 19, I I got my first dating boyfriend situation. And I remember But I remember my when my father found out cuz I couldn't have a boyfriend.

[00:01:49]When my father found out, oh, he was so angry. Uh That's why I'm saying, can I share that here? It's pretty dark. But, he did he did uh punish me for for for >> [laughter] >> for having a boyfriend at 19. It wasn't it wasn't unusual for people my age to have a boyfriend. Remember, just anytime anyone gave me affection outside of my family, uh I was practically punished for it for a very long time.

[00:02:22]Anyways.

[00:02:23]So.

[00:02:24]>> [laughter and gasps] >> And so, obviously this created uh a wounding in me emotionally because I because I closed myself uh off to sharing love and or receiving love and affection. It taught me that I should be punished for being loved.

[00:02:44]And so, I became closed. Ah, my phone case has ears, and they keep flapping in front of the camera, okay?

[00:02:56]>> [laughter] >> What?

[00:03:01]Oh my god. Okay.

[00:03:04]>> [snorts] >> Anyways. So.

[00:03:08]I became closed off. And I stopped receiv- I don't even have the strength.

[00:03:15]Internally, I I had a wound internally in my subconscious where I taught myself that it was it was punishable and it was bad to receive love. And so, after that, I >> [laughter] >> I kind of connected with people that were the same way as me, uh who have blocked off love. And the thing is, one thing I didn't realize, like with a lot of the emotional wounds that I have, right? With most of the the pain like the re- resistance to things that I have, um, was what was blocking me from receiving it, right?

[00:04:01]Um, so I I had a blind spot for it. I didn't see that that's how I was operating because that was my normal.

[00:04:09]I took time to heal. I took time to embrace that, and I took time to question what that meant for me or why I thought that way.

[00:04:19]This is where >> [laughter] >> This is where I talk about feeling my feelings.

[00:04:24]I didn't realize the traumatized ways that I was operating were because I I didn't even realize I had traumatized ways in which I was behaving.

[00:04:40]But as I felt as I felt my feelings, as I felt my feelings, I started to heal them, right?

[00:04:51]Um, when you feel your feelings, you allow yourself to heal.

[00:04:59]When you feel your feelings, you allow yourself to heal.

[00:05:05]So, if you feel bad about something, just feel it. If you If you feel jealous, just feel it. If you feel hateful, just feel it. If you feel angry, just feel it.

[00:05:18]And I started feeling my feelings, and it When I started feeling my feelings, I started healing the trauma that I had.

[00:05:31]So, what was preventing me from healing was that I wouldn't feel the the way my body wanted to feel. I was preventing my body from feeling it.

[00:05:42]You know, of how I grew up.

[00:05:48]Because it wasn't safe to feel, you know, especially if you're coming from a place like that or a family like that where it's you're always in danger and you're always unsafe and no matter what you do, you're always on guard and ready to protect yourself.

[00:06:05]You become subconsciously someone that's just can't express the way you feel.

[00:06:13]Cuz it's dangerous. Your nervous system tells you it's dangerous, which is also why I talk about nervous system healing and nervous system regulation because because when you change that, you're you're able to be a different person, you're able to live a different life, you're able to get different things that you would never get if you were dysregulated. Cuz even this, I'm just like a clown outside, okay?

[00:06:45]And I'm black.

[00:06:46]>> [laughter] >> For me to do this, I have like A1 emotional regulation, but I would have never been able to do this if I was unhealed, especially cuz I have a lot of trauma from the people.

[00:07:00]So.

[00:07:02]Yeah.

[00:07:04]Even my fear of judgment and criticism, I healed it, you know?

[00:07:16]So then I don't feel it as much.

[00:07:21]Well, yeah. My order of business for today was to smoke weed >> [laughter] >> and sit outside dressed like a clown.

[00:07:32]That was my my plan for the day.

[00:07:37]And I think I've done that. Also, this is just the absolute perfect life for me.

[00:07:43]But, this is the perfect life for me.

[00:07:46]Right here, honey.

[00:07:54]Hug me.

[00:07:57]Okay. Um Allow yourself to feel your feelings, because that's how you heal, and that's how you process your trauma.

[00:08:09]You got to cry sometimes.

[00:08:15]You got to cry, and cry until you can't cry anymore.

[00:08:29]Thank you for watching my video. Thank you for watching my video, guys.

[00:08:32]>> [laughter] >> Mochi out. All right.