Build and Chill LIVE Stream in Second Life - Saturday Morning 5/23/26

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[00:31:16]So, I've been streaming for 31 minutes and thought it might be a safe time to say some words.

[00:31:38]So, Um, I did a video recently and it was about mainland and this really bad neighbor that meadow is having a big issue with.

[00:32:11]and um I decided to make a video to help her because she was struggling.

[00:32:27]Now, before I get into my other words, um I want to say a few things regarding some of the comments that was received on that video.

[00:32:45]I had to delete some. I had to remove some. I had to block some people.

[00:32:59]And a few of them I think might have been uh subscribers.

[00:33:03]Oh well.

[00:33:08]When people say, "Well, just don't live on mainland.

[00:33:15]Get a private SIM or rent on a private Sim.

[00:33:23]That's not helpful.

[00:33:26]nor is that supportive.

[00:33:28]And also it comes from a place of privilege because those people they could probably afford to have their own own sim to live to live on a well, you know, to live on a rented private sim or to rent a part of a private sim or to have a homestead. or whatever. Not everybody in ma in Second Life can do that. Not everybody in Second Life can afford what you afford.

[00:34:04]Everybody has a different budget.

[00:34:06]Everybody has different incomes.

[00:34:11]So, uh those are pretty [ __ ] comments.

[00:34:21]Also, there is this other one about you can derend. And then they proceeded to give instruction on how to derend something, which I found incredibly um insulting.

[00:34:38]One, because Meadow's been in Second Life for quite a while now. I've been in Second Life for 20 years. So when someone tells me or when someone leaves a comment, telling me something that I already know, assuming that I do not know, it really infuriates me. And I'm not talking from a place of emotion. I'm talking from a cognitive aspect.

[00:35:18]My brain is wired differently and that's the reason why I have a lot of issues with with people as a whole and particular people and uh here's the thing about drendering.

[00:35:45]If it's one or two things, okay, fine.

[00:35:48]If it's like a few hundred, okay, but there's an actual limit on the asset blacklist. It's 1,500.

[00:35:58]How do I know this? because I've hid it and I've got the message and I was unable to derend anything else unless I cleared out my asset blacklist.

[00:36:18]So when you're when you have a bad neighbor like Meadow does and it's like over 4500 objects and nothing is linked.

[00:36:33]Guess what?

[00:36:35]That oh so simple solution of drendering things does not work.

[00:36:46]It does not work.

[00:36:50]It does not fix the problem. It is not a solution.

[00:37:09]Now, I was highly disappointed that the people that Meadow and I, you know, thought would show up to support her, you know, because we're in the same group and this little community. They failed the core group.

[00:37:40]Nikki showed up because she commented.

[00:37:44]Thank you, Nikki.

[00:37:46]But and Ariel, uh, she she took it way too personally when I explained to her the difference between a spectator comment and a supportive comment.

[00:38:12]Nerdy. Well, I guess he didn't know what was going on cuz he he didn't comment, but he hasn't been commenting on videos for a while anyway.

[00:38:22]And Jack, well, yeah, he basically doesn't give a [ __ ] However, on a live stream, they do give a [ __ ] So, I don't understand.

[00:38:39]It's like look a community based group is supposed to be there for each other regardless regardless.

[00:38:59]And uh well uh I guess that's I I I I don't know what I don't know what to say about that. I mean cuz I I I don't because community is community. Now there are different psychological breakdowns of community like different types of community like how many people are in a community you know there's like the whole bystander effect which doesn't which does not relate to like emergencies like you can have like a bystander effect inside its own community like you know if it's a certain size you know and like uh like a group diffusion as And it's just like I've always said to the group, you come up with an idea, if it's a good idea, then you are the project head of that idea, that means you run with it.

[00:40:06]You don't rely on me to plan it out to sorry I had to call to send notices to basically do the things that as project head of something you're actually responsible for.

[00:40:41]I mean, if someone has an idea, well, that's somebody's idea. They're in charge of that idea. No one else should be in charge of that idea.

[00:40:56]They should set it up, plan it out, send out notices, remind people that that for everything to fall on me, it's like, oh well, you know, Asa will do it. Asa will take care of it. No, that is a drain on my brain and that takes any enjoyment out of it for me. It becomes a chore. It becomes obligation.

[00:41:42]It becomes a weight.

[00:41:47]And that's not fun.

[00:41:51]I mean, [ __ ] Look, I do videos.

[00:41:55]I do live streams. What I'm doing right now, I got the channel. I got crazy ass stupid ass [ __ ] idiot people comments that I have to like monitor and delete and [ __ ] And I've I reply to comments that are you I reply to all the comments.

[00:42:23]I heart comments. I do the work, man.

[00:42:27]And that's a lot for one person. I don't use AI to help me out. I don't use any special magical software to make my thumbnails. I do it all myself.

[00:42:38]Everything on this channel I do myself.

[00:42:43]And it is unfair for other people to expect me to do their [ __ ] as well. I mean, what the hell do you think a community is?

[00:43:01]You're it. It's It's It's highly frustrating.

[00:43:10]It it is highly highly highly f look see I'm starting to stutter that that's that that that that's how frustrated I am and and my brain cannot actually understand or comprehend And how how people cannot realize what I'm trying to tell them what I've been telling them.

[00:43:58]Like if I don't remind people, if I don't show up, then it everything falls apart.

[00:44:08]Do they not know how how heavy that is for me?

[00:44:16]I I I don't want to carry other people's responsibility or accountability or you know I mean it's like can you can you not can people not just do the things that are actually uh uh [ __ ] how can I say It that is just social common sense like the whole meadow thing.

[00:45:02]I mean it makes me wonder how these people treat their friends.

[00:45:08]I mean, [ __ ] if they can't even show support for a core member of the group, I'm not saying everybody, but particular ones or whatever. Point is if if a person can't show support for someone that has supported them in the past, then what the [ __ ] are you doing in what the [ __ ] are you doing?

[00:45:42]Like how like my brain cannot it cannot make any sense of that and it is wearing me out.

[00:46:00]I am a person of integrity and that's not by choice. Integrity is something that it is everybody has different levels of integrity, right?

[00:46:13]Some people naturally are wired to have integrity and some people aren't.

[00:46:22]The same with values.

[00:46:26]These are things that are determined or predetermined within us based on the wiring how our the architecture of our brain. Okay? It's not based in emotion.

[00:46:42]I take the time to find this [ __ ] out. I take the time to research this [ __ ] because it helps me live my life better to understand more about how my brain works because it helps my mental health. It keeps me from spiraling and all the bad stuff that comes with Well, yeah.

[00:47:11]And and I'm just how I am. And I accept that's just how other people are.

[00:47:22]They're just wired differently. And it's unfortunate that my brain can't can't function with uh I don't it's like a block. It's just like a a block.

[00:47:55]It it it has nothing to do with being dramatic or being uh over sensitive or anything like that.

[00:48:06]It It's um it's just there's nothing I could do about it. I can't I can't rewire my brain.

[00:48:22]I can't I mean and the whole coping skills thing. Yeah. It that that no you cannot use coping skills on your integrity or your values. I mean you know you can't like calm down or you can't like reset or like breathe through your values or your integrity or your uh or your morality. You cannot do that because it is ingrained into you.

[00:48:51]It's like love. There are some people who are capable of love and there are others who are not capable. Fact.

[00:49:02]And when it comes to brains and how people are and how they interact with other people, it's um well anyway, so that's where I'm at.

[00:49:32]that that's that's where I'm at at the moment.

[00:49:36]And um I I can't this is a this is a situation I cannot fix because it is actually unfixable.

[00:49:52]I can't uh change how people are. I can't force them to be a certain way. I can't force them to show up when they're supposed to. I can't I can't teach them or tell them to support another member of the group when they when they need it.

[00:50:17]I can't fix any of that.

[00:50:21]And if they're not naturally wired to already understand how all that works, then that's just not my problem.

[00:50:37]And if I did try to fix it, if I did make it my problem, it would harm me mentally.

[00:50:57]And it gets to the point to where I have to think about myself more than I do other people. That's my downfall.

[00:51:11]I care too much.

[00:51:14]I uh I expect people to know, you know, how to do the right thing and do the, you know, all the things that that we're supposed how we're supposed to treat each other. But well, that's a that's a folly because just because I expect it doesn't mean doesn't make it a reality.

[00:51:43]because people are just wired differently.

[00:51:49]So I um I just have to learn to well I have to first I have to get used to the idea that I can't fix everything. I certainly as hell can't fix people, even the people that I like or care about. I mean, it's like little [ __ ] far, you know? Damn.

[00:52:46]So, is there anything else I want to say?

[00:52:53]Um, um, I just think they can.

[00:53:32]Well, I I'm just Yeah, I don't I don't there's I don't that it's not very often that I have a trouble for words like to actually express my words. It's not very often. Um, so for me to be like this now, then it's a it's a big deal for me.

[00:54:22]regarding Meadow situation like and the people that we were expecting to like you know show support and they didn't Oh, here's a Oh, well, hello. Hello, Monet. Oh, you want a little cuddle? Oh, it was um it was more than surprising.

[00:55:04]It was well, it was disappointing, but most of all, for me, it was uncomprehendable.

[00:55:12]Like, what?

[00:55:16]She's an active member of of the core group. She has supported people when they needed it. She's been active and interactive and you know you built memories with her and you know she's having an actual difficult time and you can't show a member you I mean you can't show someone who's a member of the same community based group you're in support like Huh.

[00:55:59]So, so to me there is no excuse for that.

[00:56:07]Like my my brain literally cannot figure out why there should be an excuse for that. There should not be any there there is no excuse for that at all.

[00:56:25]My brain literally cannot comprehend how someone cannot see that for themselves.

[00:56:43]And it has really uh turned my mental world upside down.

[00:57:00]It I mean it's it's the principle. It's the it it the people who didn't show up it that they don't have the same values that I have.

[00:57:24]That's the bottom line.

[00:57:29]Um and uh my brain cannot compute literally th those that that th those uh and it's not about like you Oh, well, you know what? If they say they're sorry or you know, you can forgive them. You know, it was a mistake. No, here's the thing. My I literally literally cannot pro process that because there is just no sorry there. there.

[00:58:23]I I can't forgive that because if if they don't show up for Meadow, they're sure as hell ain't going to show up for me unless it's on a live stream.

[00:58:39]That's a pattern that that has been going on and I don't need to be around people and and and it's like how how a person treats someone else and you witness that and it's like It could either be good or bad. And in this situation, it's like my brain is like, uhoh, I can't trust them. They're not going to be there for me when I, you know, it I mean it and that's all automatic.

[00:59:21]That's just like my nervous system. It's it's threat detective system or whatever. And um it's just a um It's just not a fixable situation.

[01:00:09]Um, and man, you know, I I am an understanding person, but something like this, I literally cannot understand it. I can't understand it.

[01:00:28]And when my brain can't understand something and there is no solution, there is no way that I can fix it.

[01:00:41]It It breaks my brain and I am struggling.

[01:00:59]And this has nothing to do with emotions. I am not being oversensitive.

[01:01:04]I am not being over dramatic. I am not being um soft or whatever.

[01:01:18]Sorry, I keep having to mute myself to cough because I' I've got the allergies, man. Um and um and I can't afford to I mentally cannot afford to continue um trying to carry the weight of people to allow them to keep doing the things that they're doing.

[01:01:52]That breaks my brain.

[01:01:56]I mean, if if you don't show up for somebody that is in this and if she wasn't in the wrong, that whole video, I put so much work into that video.

[01:02:16]And it was a cognitive load for me because there there was all this all these details and how I wanted to explain it. All these things I wanted to say and my mouth just wanted to blurt them all out. But no, I had to break it down myself, write it out, do all the stuff, put things in order, organize how I was going to show stuff on the how on the screen to match what I wanted to say so people would have the full knowledge of what was going on because that was an an absolute extreme case of bad neighbor.

[01:03:10]He and I explained Meadow's position.

[01:03:20]I mean, it's a scary situation, especially, you know, when you're a female and you live on your own and you get this [ __ ] that is an extreme bad neighbor and, you know, she was questioning herself, well, maybe I'm, you know, saying, well, maybe I'm overreacting and and it's not.

[01:03:48]And I made that video to help her understand that no, she's not overreacting.

[01:03:54]It's not her.

[01:03:56]It's a reality that yes, he is a bad neighbor. And yes, it is affecting her.

[01:04:04]She's not seeing something that's not there.

[01:04:08]And it was highly important for me to help her realize that that video wasn't about content or whatever. It was reality is important and when you have like a trauma history, I know how important being able to have a grip on your actual reality.

[01:04:35]And for the people that we thought would be supportive and they weren't, that's a [ __ ] shock to the system.

[01:04:57]And no and no, this is not about well, you know, that's just how people are.

[01:05:02]You can get over it. That is not possible for my brain. It is not possible.

[01:05:13]And I don't and I don't think that people realize how big of a thing that is. When your brain is wired a certain way, you can't just brush off the things that actually break it.

[01:05:33]No.

[01:05:38]And I'm not emotional. I don't feel sad.

[01:05:42]I don't feel upset or angry.

[01:05:46]I mean, I was pissed off yesterday, but because I was pissed off because it didn't make sense why they didn't show up. Like, how can what? How can you not be there for somebody that was there for you?

[01:06:05]H how can you not be there for somebody who who who you who who you've built memory with? Who have you built memories with and and they're in a time of need and they need support and and you and and you don't you you you do [ __ ] You do nothing.

[01:06:29]I was pissed off because I I I that that did not that made no sense to me. It did not match.

[01:06:54]So um it's u it's like trying to it's like it's like trying to get a blind man to see what is right in front of him, but he's blind.

[01:07:42]That That's the best way I could put it.

[01:07:48]And so these people that say the brush away comments like, "Oh, well, don't you know, don't do this or whatever. Just just no.

[01:08:05]No, it is trying to force a blind a blind man to see when literally he is blind.

[01:08:50]So people saying [ __ ] to like get my brain to just accept it, you know? Well, that's just how some people are, you know.

[01:09:12]That is impossible for my brain.

[01:09:18]Um, I'm a integrity valuebased wired brain and that's it.

[01:09:34]My whole world structure is like integrity and fairness. Those are the things that my brain is hardwired for.

[01:09:49]That's just it.

[01:09:52]And I'm not saying that it's great because it's not because [ __ ] like this happens, you know, like it uh it intrudes on my interpersonal relationships.

[01:10:10]It makes it highly difficult for me to just forget and forgive because I can't my brain literally cannot do it because it is illogical to forgive a thing that goes against my inner value system.

[01:11:01]And um I haven't talked about that stuff before ever. I mean, I've talked about like, you know, my trauma and my PTSD and my major depression, but I I haven't talked about that stuff before. But, uh, well, there you go. I said it. And, um, I don't expect anybody to understand or to even care.

[01:11:35]Uh cuz expected anything out of people.

[01:11:45]Well, for one, other than it being disappointing, it's depressing. For two, it's pointless. or three.

[01:11:58]It doesn't make me it it it doesn't inspire me to continue to give people the benefit of the doubt because from my perspective, everybody's the [ __ ] same except for like a few.

[01:12:22]And it's like, well, okay, well, that makes it hard to, you know, meet different types of people or get to know different types of people because those types of people, uh, they're everywhere. And I'm like, well, [ __ ] I I I I just want to be on my own because I No. No.

[01:12:48]And a lot of the time it's always me having to do the work like man making sure people are okay and you know if they do something [ __ ] up or something hurts my feelings or whatever and they do the whole like oh I'm sorry all this stuff. I'm like, I give them grace and I'm like, it's okay. You know, I just put my my little hurt feelings or my, you know, broken brain, you know, like to the side and just accept it. And, you know, you think they'd learn from it and be actually remorseful, but no, they keep doing the same [ __ ] And I'm like, man, look, I'm tired of giving people grace.

[01:13:44]And I know someone out there, some people, somebody, whoever's breathing might hear this one day and go like, "Oh, that's about me."

[01:13:56]And then make it personal.

[01:13:59]And because they feel per they they feel personally affected even though they actually have no fact that it's actually about them. They will continue to go and be like and then take all the focus on the actual [ __ ] that I'm saying in this video and put it all on them.

[01:14:26][ __ ] That is emotional immaturity and that is like man look you know what ju why do I why do I bother ju just why do I bother you know it's like people say they want authenticity people say they want community people say they want you know real and not fake and it's like I'm all those things. I'm all those things. I offer all those things on this channel.

[01:15:06]And it's like uh it it it it's wasted.

[01:15:16]Absolutely wasted.

[01:15:18]So uh I can't I mean look I could hear I could hear in the back of my head someone be like he talking about me now I must make it all about me and it's like oh [ __ ] Oh, so I um I don't have anything else to say and My meds are kicking in and I I I'm just I don't know, speechless, numb. My brain is numb. My brain is like, uh, yeah, I'm I'm yeah, I'm I'm just I'm just gonna be over here somewhere else cuz I I can't comprehend that whole [ __ ] you know? And my emotions are just like dead cuz I'm not emotional about it. Um, it's just I mean, am I am I uh um am I worried or concerned that someone might have gotten hurt feelings?

[01:17:29]No, I'm not.

[01:17:34]Because I can't I can't say this.

[01:17:47]I can't I cannot care about the feelings of someone else when their pattern of their pattern of behavior has broke my brain. If my brain cannot compute and if if it it is difficult for me to care about a feeling of someone that has uh went against my own internal integrity and value system.

[01:18:34]That's it.

[01:18:36]That's basically it.

[01:18:45]And and I can't change that. I cannot change that.

[01:18:56]And it's not about being stubborn at all.

[01:19:02]It's just literally how my brain is wired.

[01:19:45]Now, if it was like, "Oh, I didn't know what happened." Oh, you know, then yeah, that I could that does. I mean, yeah, that that makes sense to me, right? You know, or somebody be like, "Oh, I haven't been around. I didn't know what was going on." Oh, I'm sorry. Let me catch up. Oh, you know, Meadow or, you know, I'm That makes sense to me.

[01:20:14]That behavior makes sense to me. I get it, right?

[01:20:21]So that's easy for me to feel, you know, about being concerned and and understanding and, you know, getting emotional because that makes sense to me.

[01:20:32]But this [ __ ] that I've been talking about for the last, I don't know, hour, whatever, no, it does not make sense to me. So, I'm just like, yeah, I cannot spare any feelings of concern uh or understanding because well, uh it it goes against my brain and so I I don't feel emotional about it.

[01:21:13]I'm not angry. I'm not disappointed. I'm just like that does not compute. That is not logical.

[01:21:21]Uh so um yep. Not going to not even going to try to understand it.

[01:21:31]Just going to go on with my life and uh protect my brain, you know. Just protect my brain.

[01:21:51]So, I uh well, I I did make some progress on Wilson's flights.

[01:22:16]I've I've moved it to my land.

[01:22:20]I took it from the realest land. I took it because Wilson was like, "Um, I don't belong here." He was like, "So, I moved it back to my land.

[01:22:46]Um, and you know, I'm not expecting, you know, like anyone to approach me, you know, with an actual um reflection.

[01:23:07]or with an actual address of this whole mess.

[01:23:13]No, I'm not because I I I cuz I've already seen their patterns. I mean, I know them pretty well and uh Well, they No, they're not going to do it.

[01:23:34]I mean, if I'm not there, then everything falls apart.

[01:23:42]So, and if nobody else shows up or steps up, well, it's never it's never going to be dealt with or talked about or or whatever.

[01:23:58]And if anybody does approach me, they're going to make it all about them.

[01:24:05]They're going to give me a bunch of excuses and I'll be like, "Does not compute.

[01:24:13]Sorry, there's no excuse. No, no, sorry. No, no."

[01:24:25]And then they'll be like, "Well, you just don't understand." And d I'm like, "You're right." You know, I I'll be like, "You're right. I I literally do not understand. I am incapable of understanding why you treated another member of the group so shitty.

[01:24:58]You're right. I cannot understand that.

[01:25:06]And what are they gonna do? Nothing.

[01:25:10]It's uh It's a dead space. They can't There's nothing they can do. Oh, yeah. They can be mad at me. Whatever. Fine. Okay.

[01:25:23]All right then.

[01:25:30]So, oh, I don't know if I should put a fake wall there or leave this here or I don't know.

[01:25:42]I don't know. I'm not even sure if I still like it there.

[01:25:47]I'll unlink it.

[01:25:54]I will say that it's nice to be able just to verbalize all this stuff, you know.

[01:26:02]Uh that was the whole reason why I made this channel cuz it was my therapeutic outlet when I got back to the when I retired to the states and you know I I had to come up with a way to help me regain my voice because if I didn't I would have ended up never speaking again.

[01:26:32]U so from the start this was a the whole reason for this channel was selfish well not selfish but for well for my reasons of self to be able to maintain myself was the reason therapeutic reason and you know over time, you know, I've improved and I wanted to help people and, you know, cuz I I just wanted to use the the experience of my trauma and the whole like feeling alone and like like depressingly alone, like the type of alone where You're unsure of your reality. You're you don't have any support. You're you don't have anyone to talk to. No one no one understands you. Uh you're unsure how to interact. You you all all I've been there. And it is it is hell on this earth to be in that situation.

[01:28:01]And I was in that situation in an entirely different country.

[01:28:05]So I I know how it is. And I and I cannot bear to see someone in that position because unfortunately I have compassion and I have learned that it ends up being wasted on the wrong people.

[01:28:40]Now, when I did that video for Meadow's situation, I don't regret it.

[01:28:51]I I felt compelled to do it because she was she was hurting and no, there was no way that I was no I I could not I could not uh allow someone that I've gotten to know that I've built memories with uh to go through something like that on their own.

[01:29:21]And I made that video because I I because I I I understood what would be helpful.

[01:29:30]And it was helpful.

[01:29:32]And she was very very thankful for the video, right? I mean, beyond words, thankful.

[01:29:43]It wasn't about thanking me. It was about helping her to see that, hey, you're not overreacting.

[01:29:52]Hey, you know, this this is actually happening. You know, you're not imagining it.

[01:30:00]and to validate her.

[01:30:09]Now, given that there is a current mess, uh if one was if if someone was to ask me would you do that for one of the people and uh my answer is no.

[01:30:35]No.

[01:30:38]Do I feel bad about that? No, I do not.

[01:30:50]A person loses my respect when they don't show up to support somebody they should have. That's basically it.

[01:31:01]And I don't feel bad about that because it does not compute my it does not compute in my brain.

[01:31:15]And I ain't going to be hating on myself because that's just how my internal integrity works. I'm I'm not going to be hating on myself for that.

[01:31:28]So there you go.

[01:31:40]Um yeah.

[01:31:49]All right. So, what I'm going to do is I'm going to put the music back on.

[01:31:55]Um, I will say this though.

[01:32:01]I haven't looked at the comments in a couple hours cuz But I will look at the comments on that video and I'll catch up on those. Think I got like a a couple of more since I last looked, which was hours ago.

[01:32:22]But um I guess I need to say if anybody watches this later, I need to say look, if you think I'm talking about you specifically, then I guess you're a a special special future teller or mind reader cuz damn, really?

[01:32:47]I I mean, [ __ ] Anyway, yeah. So, I'm going to put the music back on and I'm going to build for a while and then I'll probably end the stream.

[01:33:10]I don't have anything else to say. I said all the things I'd want to say and um Yeah.

[01:39:01]Yeah.

[01:41:38]Never hey.

[01:42:49]Hey, hey, hey.

[01:45:26]Heat. Heat.

[01:47:11]Heat. Hey, Heat.

[01:47:32]Hey, hey, hey.

[01:48:18]Hey, hey, hey.

[01:48:54]Hey, hey, hey.

[01:51:09]Hey, hey, hey.

[01:54:24]Night black and white street like I call for anywhere.

[01:55:14]She will be waking another confused.

[01:56:25]I don't fall Anyone step into the steps Take every chance to fall.

[01:57:02]Don't get your translations.

[01:57:13]When you find yourself waking somewhere in another careful choose careful choose.

[01:58:09]Heat. Heat.

[01:58:39]Be careful.

[01:59:11]Heat. Heat.

[02:00:50]Be careful.

[02:03:30]Hey, hey, hey.

[02:07:06]Hallelujah.

[02:07:16]Hallelujah.

[02:08:49]Make it.

[02:09:22]Yeah, stop.

[02:09:35]Hey, hey, hey.

[02:11:34]Heat. Heat.

[02:11:58]Heat. Heat. N.

[02:12:34]Heat. Hey, Heat.

[02:13:29]Hey, hey, hey.

[02:13:37]Hey, hey, hey.

[02:14:29]Heat.

[02:14:48]Heat.

[02:15:21]Heat. Heat.

[02:15:42]Hello.

[02:15:50]Hey. Hey.

[02:23:25]Heat.

[02:23:43]Hey, Heat.

[02:24:07]Mind and body entirely coerced.

[02:24:14]Eyes profound and enticing draw me in.

[02:24:19]Erotic heat completely consumes me.

[02:24:23]Forbidden desire, the strongest sin I need to give into my body's flames in your touch. Sinless chills down my spine, driving me into burning temptation.

[02:24:39]The need for a bottle.

[02:24:49]The sweet seduction is haunting my dreams.

[02:24:53]Yearning to act on these deouching schemes.

[02:25:34]devour.

[02:25:41]They coerced.

[02:25:51]devour the strongest they coerced.

[02:26:08]Devour The colors.

[02:26:40]The colors.

[02:27:18]Oh, maybe when I'm a little time to me.

[02:27:33]And when I need you, you will take me in your arms and you will say sure.

[02:28:01]It's always the way that all good things come.

[02:28:33]Can you hear me when I am way down here?

[02:28:41]Maybe you will one day walk away from me or stay close when the wind is never sure as the rising Morning.

[02:29:21]The way that all good things come, always, always, always.

[02:29:35]Sure as the rise always be always good.

[02:29:59]All right.

[02:30:10]One day you walk away. One day you walk away from me.

[02:30:24]Maybe you'll be there for me. You'll be there for me. You'll be there.

[02:30:33]Always sure as the rise always be the way that all good things come.

[02:31:36]rain.

[02:31:39]I'm waiting for you to take the rain.

[02:31:46]I'll never speak up, never be strong enough, never tell you cuz I don't want to rock my love.

[02:32:10]All of my love is lost.

[02:32:18]I don't want to make it all against my will.

[02:32:25]And I find love again.

[02:32:33]Love again.

[02:33:02]Stand out the morning rain.

[02:33:09]Alone today and feeling more than I'll never be good Never tell you cuz I don't want to rock the bone.

[02:33:41]My love is lost.

[02:33:49]want to make it all against trying so hard to find love again.

[02:34:04]Love again.

[02:34:07]Love again.

[02:34:47]This heat.

[02:36:10]Dream of something sweet.

[02:36:15]I will be there to wake you.

[02:36:26]Windows got invise in I dream something.

[02:36:58]I will be there soon.

[02:37:20]establish.

[02:38:12]Sleep till I come home.

[02:38:18]Dream of sweet steps. Every single parise. I see you.

[02:42:56]Hey, hey, hey.

[02:43:10]Hey, hey, hey.

[02:49:10]Am I breaking through my breaking I'm not breaking through.

[02:49:55]Coming through.

[02:51:08]Am I breaking through?

[02:51:24]breaking through.

[02:51:38]You're not breaking through.

[02:51:53]I'm not breaking through.

[02:52:05]Heat. Heat.

[02:52:26]Hey. Hey. Hey.

[02:53:50]Take me away from home.

[02:53:57]Show me all the places.

[02:54:11]All of these broken dreams.

[02:57:54]Heat.

[02:57:57]Hey, Heat.

[02:59:26]I take the high alone.

[02:59:42]Deep down again.

[03:00:10]Try again.

[03:00:20]When the sun Heat. Heat.

[03:01:14]Let's go.

[03:04:25]I think you don't reply.

[03:04:39]I'll keep looking.

[03:05:04]I need your heart.

[03:05:38]I think I'll keep looking for strong I don't care.

[03:06:15]I need to find know.

[03:06:40]I need to know.

[03:07:03]I need I'll try I'll try I'll I'll try to find myself.

[03:07:52]If I These mortals have awakened the gods of the world.

[03:08:19]We rise from our slumber to reveal our true power.

[03:08:30]Focus fire.

[03:08:52]Now to strike.

[03:09:02]Hey, everything.

[03:11:09]Hey, hey, hey.

[03:15:58]down.

[03:16:01]Are you I love your rising endless.

[03:16:33]Do yourself the race against one step at a time.

[03:17:20]You had yourself against now. here to stay. You bury yourself in chains every night.

[03:17:52]As your steps feeling coming to the end as your steps descend.

[03:18:39]You're Get back home.

[03:19:12]One step at a time.

[03:20:05]Run free.

[03:20:17]Why are we so ashamed to be alive?

[03:20:23]change and af We don't take harder.

[03:20:55]We are more than we are all behind your back.

[03:21:27]world's only standing in the air.

[03:21:57]We are all standing in the way of the shadow.

[03:22:20]Enjoy the army of the shadow.

[03:22:26]Enjoy the army of the saddame.

[03:22:56]stand.

[03:23:17]Whatever the party holds to be, truth is truth. It is impossible to see reality except by looking through the eyes of the party. That is the fact that you have got to relearn.

[03:23:35]It needs an act of selfdestruction, an effort of the will. You must humble yourself before you can become the same.

[03:23:45]Controls controls. Press open. Press open.

[03:24:11]Controls. Control. Controls. Press open.

[03:24:13]Press control. Press control. Control.

[03:24:15]Controls the future.

[03:24:43]Heat. Heat.

[03:25:04]feel doo.

[03:25:47]Heat. Heat.

[03:26:46]Heat. Heat.

[03:28:09]Can I break thisole from you?

[03:28:14]would mean everything.

[03:28:25]Tired of hearing excuses.

[03:28:44]I need Amen.

[03:30:15]Hallelujah.

[03:31:15]Heat. Heat.

[03:32:48]Oh, I could be If I could sleep, I dream of what we can that I don't follow this heart that escapes me.

[03:33:33]It escapes me.

[03:33:45]Oh, I was and become all I want.

[03:34:39]Oh, I Well, I think that's going to be it for me. Well, I mean, I'm going to carry on building, but I'm done streaming.

[03:35:02]Um and I am sure that nobody will know what I said earlier cuz uh you know that's just how people are.

[03:35:22]So all right, see you.