I'VE LET MYSELF GO.. BAD.. LETS CHAT & GET READY

追加: 2026-05-05

[00:00:00]Unfortunately, that's gonna be me. It's me. I'm not gonna do a one for you.

[00:00:10]I don't want to use it, so I probably won't lose it. Hi guys. Oh my gosh, I'm coming out on the other side. I'm finally not sick anymore. Brutal cold for the last week and I am on day six now and I'm finally feeling better. So, we are going to do a get ready with me today. I would do part two of the last video that I did. If you guys did not watch that video, actually, you guys, your comments lately have been so good.

[00:00:39]I've been absolutely loving reading the comments from you guys cuz you're just so fun. And it's been really like I cannot even stress enough how fun it's been filming makeup content again and just like being silly with makeup and not taking it all that seriously. It's been so freaking fun. cannot have my hair like this. I look like I should be wielding a sword. You guys comments lately and just like the interactions that we've had in the comments. So fun.

[00:01:07]I've been loving doing makeup content again. It is the best. So, thank you guys for liking it, too. It means the world to me. I know that's kind of like how I built my YouTube channel. Not kind of 100% is. And I got out of it for a few years cuz, you know, had a child, lost myself, tried to find myself. Is she there? it. She's back. She's back.

[00:01:29]It took 5 years, but I actually saw a thing the other day that said it takes 5 years to get yourself back to kind of like pre who you once were. And I can totally 100% agree with that. 100%. 5 years is when I'm like, "Oh, there you are." Anyway, what I was going to say is I was going to do part two of my last video because I've been sick for the last week. my nose, upper lip, this whole area, crunch city, just flakes, flakes, and blowing my nose 600 times a day, sneezing in an amount that I didn't know a human could sneeze that amount. I don't want to ruin these products a second time.

[00:02:08]Like, I want to do them justice, and putting them on this skin right now is not going to do that. So, we're just going to do a get ready with me today.

[00:02:15]We're going to chat about stuff. My next videos will be the ones where we are going to go in and we are going to give it a round two, but instead of using that IT Cosmetics Do It All, we're going to try this one, the uh Charlotte Tilbury Beautiful Skin, and I would love to have some beautiful skin. Okay, so moisturizer that I used today was Freck Rich For the last 5 years, I've been taking it so minimal and I just I'm over it. I'm over it and I want to go You think you know, you have no idea.

[00:02:51]This is the true life of RBK. I hate resting, but it is it is necessary when you're sick. This is the first time, this is going to sound pathetic, but it's just the reality of my life. This is the first time since I've had my son that when I get sick, I actually rest during the sickness. I was I just be laying down this last time. And I feel like it kind of passed quicker. I think resting does help.

[00:03:17]Who would have thought that that literally every scientist and doctor ever knows what they're talking about? I rested. I drank my electrolytes. I took my vitamins. And that's why we're going to talk about today's sponsor, which you know who they are, and you know because I love them. Ritual. You may have just seen me sniffing these.

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[00:05:21]What do we use for foundation today? I don't know, but I do want to try this again. Um, I want to try it in the next video as well. This is Polite Society Cocoa Caviar. Okay. And you guys let me know after that video that Polite Society is owned by Jared Bllandino, who is Why am I covered in cat hair?

[00:05:38]Literally, do you see this? There's so Yeah. So, apparently Polite Society is owned by Jared Bllandino, which is the owner of Too Faced. So, that's interesting. The branding got me. So, I don't know. I remember this looking crazy last time, but maybe it I don't know.

[00:05:56]Does this look insane? Yeah, it does, doesn't it?

[00:06:02]Oh my god, I forgot. It's funny cuz I remember thinking it looked good cuz I only use it on one half of my face.

[00:06:08]Remember being like, this kind of adds a nice glow. This is straight up ami orange. Like, oh my god. On camera, insane. Like, insane looking. In person, it kind of looks like I just was out in the sun all day and like am healthy. I don't want to like knock it too bad.

[00:06:28]Like you can It is It does have an orangey undertone on camera. I'm gonna do a little bit of the Too Faced Born This Way Super Glow because I did this in a video recently and I kind of feel like it looked pretty. Oh, this reminds me. I need to order Element. I'm out. I drank an entire pack. I want to try a different flavor this time, though. The thing is is that it's like they only sell packs of Element in one flavor. And so if I'm gonna buy one flavor, I'm gonna buy one I know I want. And which I love the raspberry, but I'm kind of like not sick of it, but come on. I like the watermelon. That one was yummy. So I might go with that. You see how that adds like a nice glow to the skin? I don't know, you guys. An or nice orange glow. so annoyed with myself because I want to so badly start a completely new hobby and I can't because I know it's going to be so expensive to start this hobby and I already have done pottery and love doing pottery but this is a hobby that I have been passionate about and have never done never done but have wanted to do for like at least 10 years.

[00:07:41]I bought a book about it. I have I watch all the videos about it. I know everything about it. I know how to do it and I've never done it and but I just know I'll like it. And that's stained glass. And I want to do stained glass so bad. And yet I have never done it. But I am ready to risk it all. So I'm like, get off of the computer, Christy. I tried a different flavor. So hopefully I will enjoy 30 packs of the watermelon flavor. I don't mind the raspberry at all, but the watermelon is a little more like intense in flavor. But when you don't feel good, it's kind of nice. I don't know. That's all I can say. We're gonna go in with the Vivve Skin Nova Complexion Balm. And this was too light for me. So, I'm going to mix it with a little bit of something else cuz I don't want to have super light skin right now.

[00:08:26]I used way too much. Way too much. I want to look tan and glowy. So, I'm going to use this IT Cosmetics CC cream.

[00:08:33]This is the shade light medium. And it is way too dark for me. So you can see the two colors mixed together are probably going to be just perfect because those look terrible.

[00:08:45]I actually feel like that color is even though I even though I'm looking absolutely insane, that color is a decent match, I think.

[00:08:56]But I want to get some red, red, some purple and blue and all those other color correctors because Rosen Ben on Instagram has truly made me want to try color correcting in a different way cuz all my foundations are way too yellow.

[00:09:12]And so let's do it. She uses the um Rare Beauty blush for a lot of it. So I'm going to try that. You know what I'm going to do is I'm going to apply a decent amount of this right now. And then I'm going to go wet a sponge and I'm going to like remove a majority of this cuz this looks disgusting and horrifying. Where are you sponge?

[00:09:34]Why can't I find you?

[00:09:39]Why have you gone?

[00:09:48]This is a sponge.

[00:09:51]My sponge is heart shaped.

[00:09:55]>> It is. See, it's a cute little one covered in cat hair of all things. But brother, please.

[00:10:06]It's just me. Mim me. You see what I mean? See the crusties? I can't do a makeup video right now that relies on a review when my skin looks like that. I think I'm going to start getting facials. I can't justify the cost, you guys. I'm so cheap. God, I'm so cheap.

[00:10:27]But like when I see people's skin like Jaclyn Hill, I'm like, I need to get facials. I need to start putting more time and effort into my skin and my appear. We're going to talk about my appearance for a minute. We're going to talk about it because I don't want to ever hear about this again. I don't want to say it again. I'm sick of it. I'm sick to my stomach about it. Listen to my rant. I don't want to say this again.

[00:10:51]But I will because I have a problem. I was editing a video of myself today and I was like, "Who is that? Who is that woman on my screen looking like a big fat grandma waddling around the yard? My posture, my stance, my demeanor. Ain't no way. Ain't no way. And look, I'm all about self-love. I'm all about loving myself through every stage of where I'm at and not judging myself too harshly for for existing. And look, I love a good meal. I don't think any of us ever had a question about that. However, when I saw her today standing there slumped like a big bag of gravy, I thought, there ain't no way you stand like that.

[00:11:48]And what is that outfit? Granted, I was very sick in this picture and I was wearing clothes that were not sweatpants and just trying to be comfortable and be outside with my son. Okay, we were building fairy gardens.

[00:12:01]Fair enough. That's how my son's going to remember me. That's how my son's going to remember his mother. My posture, the posture, or lack thereof, just standing there like Marcus. I can't I cannot I know I've said it before, but especially after this sickness, I feel like I've got to lock in on some degree because I I was I was flabbergasted. My flabers were gasted. If I had all the money in the world, I'd be getting weekly facials. I'd be hiring a personal chef. I cannot with the feeling of cat hair on my face. I feel it on my nose, bro. These are all excuses. And I know it.

[00:12:38]And I know it. And I know it. But man, little bit of a wakeup call when I saw that. So anyway, if you see me out in public and you're like, "No, you didn't." No, you didn't. Every time I talk about my weight, and I'm not exaggerating, the comments inevitably will be, "Then get on a GLP1. Why won't you just get on a GLP1?" Look, I hear you. I am so painfully aware that a GLP1 would probably be the answer that would help so much of the food noise and just all that kind of stuff. I have to say some things and I know I know I will get the survivorship bias comments. I know I will. So, I'm already aware of what the comments will be, but just let me say my piece about GOP ones. While I am so aware that they may be the answer for me and actually make me healthier in in a regard, I am also not I'm not going to do it and it's actually not negotiable for me. And I'll tell you what my main reasonings are. Number one, I just don't want to. And I think that's okay if people don't want to take a a drug that they don't want to take. There's been a lot of things that I didn't want to take that I ended up taking like an SSRI. I'm on an SSRI and it has helped me and I was resistant to that as well. But look, as far as a GLP1, I see that it has taken people who struggle with weight their entire lives, and it has made them literally able to lose weight for the first time in their lives and keep it off for the most part while they're on the medication. But it has reduced the food noise, and it has helped so many people with so many health conditions.

[00:14:13]And I'm like not I'm not downplaying that at all. I know that to be true.

[00:14:18]There are also other truths that I fear people don't want me to bring up and andor when you do they like get mad about it and that is that there are some side effects that can come with GLP1s that I have heard of that I'm unwilling to put my body through for the possibility that it'll help me have less food noise. The GLP1s reduce the food noise and make you feel fuller off of less food. So, you just eat less. I.e., eating less is what makes you lose weight. I can eat less on my own. I can do hard things without needing something to help me through that. Am I doing it?

[00:14:59]Not necessarily. Can I though? Yes. You also lose a lot of muscle mass. I've seen this from doctors. This isn't like me making it up. I've seen that a lot of people are losing like a significant amount of muscle mass as well. And I understand that when you're on one of these medications, if you hear somebody like downtalking it, which I'm certainly not trying to do, you almost want to defend your medication. And rightfully so, it's like when I hear people talk about SSRIs, I'm like, "Enough.

[00:15:22]Enough of the fear-mongering. Not trying to fearonger. I'm explaining why every day I get comments of people telling me to take a GOP 1." And every day I'm telling you I'm not going to. And that I understand where you're coming from. And when something has been legitimately helpful for you, you want other people to experience that. And that makes a lot of sense. But we have to respect people's decisions. And and this is my decision. I'm not taking one. But not because I care if you take one. Take one all you want. I'm actually kind of jealous of people who take them and have great results. But I'm not going to take it if I don't want to. And maybe one day I'll change my mind. maybe new research will come out and I'll be like, "Hey, that sounds great." But as of right now, where I'm at, I'm not going to do it.

[00:16:08]And I I hear people. I understand. I know it's probably kind of annoying because you're like, "Dude, you literally are struggling. Just do it."

[00:16:16]And it's like, I I hear you, but no, I I personally know people who have gotten gastroparesis from it. And that sounds like a nightmare. And I'm good. Not saying that you will. the amount of people that are on them that are not getting gastroparesis significant if that being a possibility.

[00:16:36]I'm good. Like I'm good. I am going to use this today. This is I'm going to use the cream one in the next video, but this is the Made by Mitchell curve pressed case. So, this is the same colors I think that I got in the other case, but these are powder. So, I'm going to try this today. So anyway, I I feel like there is even friends of mine who I know personally, like I want you to know if you are watching this, I have no beef towards you, towards any of your choices. I actually am jealous. Like I wish I didn't worry so much about things like side effects. But I'm okay with my choices. I I'm aware of the risks. I'm aware that probably the obesity related risks of my health might be more significant than the risks associated with GLP1s. I'm I I understand that and I feel better with those risks right now. Whether or not that's misguided, it's probably it probably is. It's probably not where I how it should be.

[00:17:35]But whether or not it's how it should be, it's how it is realistically. Like I am realistically at the the point in my life where I need to change my mindset and and actions towards healthy choices without needing to have something make me feel fuller. I don't know. I I I I understand. And there's like this whole movement online going on right now where if you say any of this about GLP1s, people get mad at you. And I'm well aware that in this video I am going to get those comments. I get it. I I get it. I get having your convictions and also feeling like everybody around you maybe isn't as um educated as they should be about the topic. I'm not going to lie pretending to say that I am. I am not educated as much as I should be about it. But my doctor didn't want to put me on them. She will. I'm sure she would. When I talked to her about weight stuff like years ago, she literally said to me, "I don't feel comfortable putting you on a GLP1 when they are so new." And this was again, this was a few years ago, by the way. I'm going to use feeling more like these colors. Uh, okay. Those look really orange on camera and on in person they're like pinky pinky orange. Okay, we're going to mix in a little bit of the other colors. You guys, I've lost it. I don't know what I'm doing with makeup anymore. I'm just Look, this will all come together at the end. I just have faith that it will cuz it always does. So, yeah. Anyway, I I'm just well aware of the discourse surrounding JLP ones and how people are really passionate about it and rightfully so. If it's changed your life and you've been able to lose like 100 lb, 200 lb, 50 lb, you're you want to share that with people and you want people to stop villainizing something that has helped you so much, especially if maybe it helped your depression and anxiety and it helped your other issues and like you keep hearing people say like it's causing depression and anxiety and you're like no, it's helping me and like fair enough. Like I I hear that and I want to acknowledge that that is absolutely true and I'm sure I am sure that would be really frustrating if people were like shit-talking the thing that's literally changed your life and you're like don't understand. In that same vein, as many people as there are out there that have positive stories of GLP1s that are like this has changed my life. I've been able to lose 100 lbs.

[00:19:46]Blah blah blah. There are equally people out there who are like please don't do this. I cannot eat food anymore. I have to use a G ttube. I lost significant muscle mass. I want to acknowledge that both are true. There can be positives and and negatives of the same thing and there always are. That's why every medication comes with a list of side effects and every medication comes with like benefits as well. Like I'm on SSRIs and while yeah, I feel like they help me. I absolutely get muscle twitches. I absolutely have sexual side effects.

[00:20:16]I've had all kinds of issues from SSRIs at the same time as having benefits. I'm going to do my eyes cuz I feel like as soon as my eyes are done, the rest of my makeup just will not look crazy like this. Kind of feeling this today. Urban Decay Naked Honey. I don't know. Kind of sounds fun. Nothing is all good and nothing is all bad. And I'm well aware that there would be benefits for me. I'm well aware. Like I I I know what I look like. I know what I am hoping as my goal. I know blah blah blah blah. But I also know my body and know how I react to medications and things. And I also have like a very somatic brain. And so I am also aware that I probably would get more side effects in the negative because I am expecting them. So they're probably brain created, but that's not fake. It's absolutely real. And so I just I'm trying to just, you know, I'm trying to just know who I am and not pretend. I also am so aware that the personal trainer that I talked to you guys about a few months ago that wrote me up an entire plan. Have I done it? I did two weeks of it and I found that it actually was totally moderate and not difficult. The one difficult part that I did find with it was getting 10,000 steps a day I find very difficult just for myself personally. I can do the workouts. I can do all that stuff. doing the workouts and getting 10,000 steps a day just feels like a monstrous task for me. I don't know if anyone else I I can get like seven, but that additional 3,000 steps feels n impossible. I don't know why. Feels hard. I did not foresee that. I thought that would be one of the easiest parts, and yet it isn't. It isn't for me. But I know what to do. It's about consistency and making consistent long-term changes for a really long time. And that's how you see results. And I feel like I can do it. I No, I don't feel like I can do it. I know I can do it. I It's not that I can't do it. It's that I haven't done it. Period. I know I can. I just haven't. I haven't prioritized it in the way that I should because I have been prioritizing everything else. I've been prioritizing my garden. I've been prioritizing my son and friendships for him and, you know, extracurriculars and taking care of my house and taking care of my yard and building this house for my sister. And I've been prioritizing pretty much everything else, but not putting my health and my fitness on the front burner. That's been on the absolute back burner. And then I like I keep being like, I'll do it tomorrow.

[00:23:02]I'll do it tomorrow. I'll do it tomorrow. And then I don't do it tomorrow. And then I put it off towards next week. And then I put it off towards the week after that. And and that's just that's kind of how it's been. It's not I just haven't been prioritizing it because I just don't want to. It's a it's a want. And I am I'm just I'm not going to lie to myself. It's not like I'm like I can't. No, I just haven't. It I can. I am fully capable. I just haven't. I just don't I didn't want to.

[00:23:31]I'm not even looking for advice really.

[00:23:32]Just chatting. And I I feel like every time I talk about GLP once, people get really mad. But and rightfully so, dude.

[00:23:40]Like I I hear you. I understand why people get mad. It It would be frustrating to have something that changed your entire life for the better and then have somebody that like you know will benefit from it and you're like, "Just do it." And they're like, "No, unfortunately that's going to be me. It's going to be me. I'm not going to do a GB one for you.

[00:24:05]I don't want to use it. So, I probably won't lose it. This palette is performing better than I remember. And honestly, does do they even still make this? Cuz if they don't, they should.

[00:24:18]It's literally stunning. It's beautiful.

[00:24:20]It's performing really well. And I feel like this is lovely. Do they? I bet you they don't make it because I'm using it.

[00:24:26]Because this is what makeup does. It It used to be like these core products that they would like work on for a really long time and then it would be like and we're launching our core and then it would like stay and now it's like these limited edition releases that leave.

[00:24:41]They just leave forever. All right, I'm going to put some liner on. This is Ravie Drift. Put that on my lower lashes. All right, I found some liner.

[00:24:51]Huda Beauty life liner. Quick and easy.

[00:24:54]My husband was saying that there was a deaf checkout worker at Costco that they were just there and our son said, "I'm sorry, I don't speak sign language." And he said, "It feels bad, TBH, that they're kind of alone in the world because a lot of people don't speak in sign language." Tell me if that is not so true. Like, I feel like that is a failure on our part as a society that we don't teach American Sign Language as an absolute like part of the school curriculum. Shouldn't it be? I feel like it should be because it would be so lonely to have the entire world not speak your language. All right, I'm going to toss a pair of lashes on real quick and I will just do that quickly off camera. This is the Ardell Wispies Kofi Flames. I'm going to do the Made by Mitchell gloss on top cuz it turns this really pretty pink color. It's called Strob.

[00:25:41]This is Viv Skin Dew.

[00:25:45]Just a tiny bit. I feel like I just need it. All right. And that I think is the finished makeup. It's pretty glam, but not super glam. I mean, it's still pretty wearable glam, you know. Day one of not being sick and loving it. All right. And now I'm going to go I was going to go outside and work in the garden. It's so gloomy outside right now. It looks almost like nighttime during the day. Do you know what I mean?

[00:26:08]So, that doesn't really feel like the best gardening day. But if you want to watch a gardening video, I'm going to have it linked up here. We have been uploading so many videos on our other channel, The Sweet Life of Zach and Christie. And there's some sunny sunshine content over there. Zach made a waddle garden bed, you guys. It is so freaking cute. It's vomit worthy. So cute. And I planted a bunch of violas in my front little garden walkway. So, if you guys are interested in checking out gardening content, I'm going to have it linked up here. Subscribe. We are uploading all the time, posting constantly about my beans, my peas, my garden. We build a raised bed garden.

[00:26:39]Zach built a water bed. We planted a flowering cherry tree. I'm going to be planting literally hundreds of bean plants, hundreds of potato plants. It's like it's going to be the garden of a lifetime. And uh if you guys would like to see that, subscribe. I'm going to film a video for my Patreon today. I have not been good about posting to my Patreon in the last month because I've just been uploading so much gardening content. It's hard to run three different places. I've got Patreon, I've got YouTube, and I've got my second YouTube channel and Instagram. It's been It's No, it's it's not like I'm trying not to. It's just like I'm one person.

[00:27:11]Okay. But I'm going to be filming a video for Patreon today. I'm going to do what Patreon suggested. So, I'm going to go and um read what they are interested in learning and talking about and I'm going to talk about that in an upcoming video. So, if you guys are interested, I'm going to have that linked down below if you guys want to subscribe to be a patron. And um to the rest of you who have, thank you so much. Even if you haven't, that's totally fine. I will also upload it to my YouTube membership tab. So, if you guys want to instead of doing Patreon, which is a separate platform, I'm going to have it on my YouTube memberships as well. So, if you guys want to become a member of my YouTube channel, you just click the word join next to the subscribe button on my YouTube channel and you guys can become a YouTube member and watch additional bonus content. All right. I thank you guys so much for watching. Thanks for hanging out with me. Thanks for chatting with me. And I will see you at my next video.