Why I Make So Many Transgender Videos

Added: 2026-05-18

[00:00:00]Hello everyone. It is kind of late and something has come to my attention and I thought I would mention this. I've had a lot of comments on this video right here recently this last video I've posted and it's it's kind of come to my attention a lot of people are talking to me as though I have some sort of beef with trans people. This comment that I got I'll see if I can't dig it up. This person was saying that I was posting videos that were critical of trans people for clicks and for money and because right-wing ideas or whatever and just just as a pick-me kind of girl and uh There's something you guys should know about me.

[00:00:48]>> [laughter] [gasps] >> There's something you guys should know about me. Um a lot of people are new to my channel. I have a lot of new subscribers and I'm so grateful that you guys subscribed. It's really nice to to have you here. So hello to all the new subscribers. Um if you didn't know this about me you probably should. There's a reason I talk about trans issues a lot on my channel.

[00:01:10]It's not that I am trying to demonize trans people or speak negatively of trans people or make life difficult for trans people.

[00:01:20]The reason I talk about them these issues is because these are very personal issues for me as an individual.

[00:01:28]I talk about these issues because when I'm talking about transition I personally I would love to transition.

[00:01:36]That would be beautiful. That would be wonderful. The reason I was talking about it in in this video the reason I was doing a response to that video is I you know it's there's it's such a beautiful idea. It's it would be so beautiful and I think you can kind of see that in this video if you realize um I'm I'm an autoandrophile. That's That's That's the Blanchard model of trans people. Like I never I never really come out and say, "Oh, I'm a transgender person." because I'm never going to transition. So, it doesn't seem very honest of me to say that I'm transgender if I'm never going to transition. Um it it seems like I've seen so many people who are like, "Well, I'm uh non-binary."

[00:02:18]Yeah, I'm non-binary.

[00:02:20]Um and that that just means a big pile of hooey. It It doesn't mean a damn thing. And I see all these people who are coming out and saying, "Well, I'm non-binary." It's like, "Good for you."

[00:02:30]But, um that that's that's just a word. That's a word. You don't have to actually back that up with any actions. And I kind of feel that way about myself. I can say I'm an autoandrophile, and certainly if you look closely at my life, you can see ways in which that has manifested itself. But, it just seems very it it's something that I can't really demonstrate in a physical way or a measurable way for people. So, I'm not going to really lean on that. I'm not going to be saying, "Oh, well, I'm transgender, too." and wearing a big trans flag behind me when I'm making these videos or anything like that. Um that's that's not what I'm going to do because, honestly, me being an autoandrophile is just part of my nature. It's part of who I am.

[00:03:18]And choosing to transition is a whole 'nother level of thing.

[00:03:23]However, uh I'm very critical of transition because I did that research. I I went and looked up transitioning. I actually watched top surgery procedures. Like I I watched video of the procedure being done, real-life procedures that were being done. I watched human bodies being cut up in a surgical room. And it's honestly pretty disturbing to see any human body being cut up in any way, uh it's a little unnerving. And then to imagine that being done to yourself is an extra layer of Ooh, do I really want to do this to myself?

[00:04:01]Um so that's definitely something that I have done. I did the research on the procedures. I researched the drainage tubes, which a lot of people really don't have a fun time with. I really looked into it. Hello.

[00:04:16]And so when I I talk about things like the the the negative health effects of cross-sex hormones, I'm not just saying it to demonize transgender people or make transgender people look other or alien or feel bad or anything like that.

[00:04:35]I am literally looking at it and saying as a biological female, if I took exogenous cross-sex hormones, so exogenous testosterone, my chances of developing aggressive cancer would go up in a way that I really don't want to have to deal with.

[00:04:58]The negative health effects of some of these procedures and medications and hormones they are bad. They are very bad.

[00:05:07]And a lot of people who are choosing to transition are not adequately warned, which is that whole informed consent thing. People aren't being adequately warned. And that's the reason we have this huge flood of detransitioners who are like, well, I never knew that this was going to happen to me. And many of these people have disfiguring medical conditions as a result of transition and the negative health consequences of transition.

[00:05:40]And I as a person who would love to transition, looked at all of these negative health consequences and said, "Nope.

[00:05:49]Nope, not for me. No, thank you."

[00:05:51]Um When When people are like, and I've gotten this comment, "Have you even met a trans person? Do you even know any trans people?" It's like, "Well, I looked in the mirror this morning. Does that count?"

[00:06:06]I I I don't like calling myself trans because again, I'll never transition.

[00:06:11]And so, I can't really I can't really back up the claim that I'm transgender cuz I'm never going to transition. So, I'm not really a true trans person. But, I am an autoandrophile and that is kind of an inescapable part of who I am.

[00:06:31]I know I'm an autoandrophile.

[00:06:33]I I don't know if you guys know what an autoandrophile is, but it it shows. It shows in a lot of ways in my life. It manifests in a lot of ways in my life.

[00:06:44]And right now, I'm in a very good place. I'm very happy. I feel very good. I'm doing really well and I think that a lot of that has come about because I changed my diet around and I started exercising very regularly. I started getting a little bit of muscle. I'm starting to get some muscle tone around my body.

[00:07:04]And I feel okay inside my body right now.

[00:07:10]And that's a really good feeling. I need more muscle. This this here.

[00:07:15]This This is not enough. It's It's better. It's definitely It's looking a little bit better. It's not enough. But, it's it's better. Um it's taking me in the right direction. It's taking me where I want to go and that's what I want for myself.

[00:07:31]I don't need to change my pronouns around. That would be confusing for my family and my children and it would not really achieve much.

[00:07:40]I don't need to get top surgery. I would love top surgery, but again, I've seen what those procedures are like and it is not necessary at this time. If Lefty and Righty down here ever get cancer, Lefty and Righty are going. And I mean, that's happened enough times in my family.

[00:07:56]Everybody in my family gets cancer, so it might just be a matter of time before these two are gone.

[00:08:04]And I think I think a part of me would be very very happy if that happened to me, but right now we're not there.

[00:08:16]And like I I think I think a lot of people think I think trans people are icky or something and it's like, "No, I'm not talking about other people out there.

[00:08:29]I'm talking about the trans community, the community for trans people, which has a lot of problems.

[00:08:37]It is difficult to be a healthy person in a community that gets so much of its identity from its victim status.

[00:08:49]It's difficult to be a healthy person in a community where if you say the wrong thing, you instantly get ostracized and demonized.

[00:09:01]And I feel like as a person who would love to be a member of the trans community, but looks around and says, "Wow, there's some really toxic going on here."

[00:09:12]Um yeah, I I I have some criticisms and I I feel like I should be able to voice those criticisms.

[00:09:24]Am I ever going to be a true trans person?

[00:09:27]I mean, what is a true trans person? You guys You guys The trans community still hasn't given us a working definition of what a true trans person is. And I finally made this video right over here saying, "Hey, you know what? At the end of the day, a true trans person is just going to have to be anybody who transitions because we don't have a definition and nobody's going to give me one."

[00:09:48]And when I criticize these fine women for saying that anybody who takes enough exogenous hormones and changes their secondary sexual characteristics, note that I'm saying secondary sexual characteristics because you really can't change your primary sexual characteristics with hormones.

[00:10:11]No matter how much No matter how much you try. Yes, you can take enough testosterone to get a lot of bottom growth as a woman, but it will never be a real dick.

[00:10:20]Um these ladies, they're saying, "Oh, well, if you take enough hormones, then you can become a real woman."

[00:10:28]And that is a fantasy. That isn't real.

[00:10:31]That's not true.

[00:10:33]That is a lie.

[00:10:35]I have nothing against trans people, but I absolutely am not going to smile in your face and agree with a lie.

[00:10:42]I'm I'm going to I'm going to disagree.

[00:10:44]I've got to disagree. That is a It's a It's not true. It's not true.

[00:10:49]What I was saying in in this video that I did, this last video I did, when I was saying, "I would love that."

[00:10:56]When they were talking about those brain slides that they were looking at and saying, "Oh, yeah, there's a clear There's a clear difference here between a regular man and a trans woman and the trans woman's brain acts like a real woman's brain." That sounds so damn nice.

[00:11:14]It's such a pretty thought.

[00:11:20]I would love that.

[00:11:28]But that's not necessarily the way the world is going to work.

[00:11:34]Like, I'm not trying to demonize trans people or or put them down or make them seem any less legitimate, but let's let's be really really coldly factual here. Is it possible that being transgender is just a social contagion?

[00:11:50]Yes, it is very possible.

[00:11:54]And if it is possible, I am not going to shy away from that.

[00:12:01]I'm going to look it right in the eye and say, "Let's sort this out then."

[00:12:08]Not because I want to look good for right-wingers, not because I want to get pick-me girl clicks on my videos, but because I would like to know the truth about what is happening to me.

[00:12:24]Why am I like this?

[00:12:26]Why do I feel this way?

[00:12:31]What's going on with me?

[00:12:34]I thought you guys should probably know that.

[00:12:37]But so that's pretty much what this video's about.

[00:12:41]I hope you are all having a wonderful day. I hope you are all in good health, and I will talk to you guys later.