Real Reason I Went Offline & The Valley & Southern Hospitality Chat & Lots Of Snot

[00:00:02]Happy Friday everybody. Welcome back to reality watercolor. I am Sarah from Texas and this is our place to chat all the latest celebrity news, reality TV, all the things. Oh my gosh, this is going to be a day cuz um we do have some gossip to talk about. We do have some reality TV shows that I love to chat about, but I think I literally just made the decision um to share something very personal with y'all that I've been keeping from y'all for about a year now. And this has been a very emotional week.

[00:00:42]And um I just think it's something that I can't not share with y'all any longer. Um so anyways, let me get through the tears.

[00:00:51]Um don't write anything sappy in the comments. It'll distract me. I promise.

[00:00:56]Let's get into the gossip and the valley and southern hospitality because really it's crazy. Of all the shows I was going to talk about today, these are the two.

[00:01:07]The Valley exposed me to something a couple of seasons ago that I never expected that would come to be such a big part of my life. And today's uh today I was watching episodes 9 and episode I'm sorry. Yeah, episodes 9 and episode 10 of Southern Hospitality and Maddie also exposed me to something. So anyways, uh I I just think it's a a sign if you will. Not into signs, but maybe it's a sign if you will. But um literally I just don't think it's something that I can uh withhold from y'all any longer.

[00:01:47]So anyways, okay, gossip. Uh, Amanda and Wes were spotted at the airport yesterday together. This is just a day after their episode of Summerhouse aired where Amanda was basically told by Lindsay uh that Wes said that she was, you know, pursuing him. So, she clearly denies that. Let me go get some Kleenex because I'm already snotty, y'all.

[00:02:13]>> Y'all know I'm a crier. Oh my gosh.

[00:02:24]I don't want to scare y'all. I promise it's it's it's good. And and I'll also tell you uh a little bit about the uh yesterday the news if you didn't see Little Nause X's video come out. Uh that just really hit me. So, anyways, like I said, I don't know if I'm into signs or not, but uh I literally just made the decision to that I just can't not chat about this with y'all. So, anyways, we will get into that soon. Uh stop watching Bravo.

[00:02:59]Why?

[00:03:01]Uh don't tell me to start watching Love Island because I can't do that. Anyways, um, okay. Jen Affleck and her husband Zach have announced that they're pregnant with baby four. This is a couple on uh the Mormon wives that have I mean, they all probably have relationship issues, but definitely she has been very public with her marital issues and kind of hinted at moving out or something and talking about doing things alone and not really showing Zach on the videos. So, it was kind of weird.

[00:03:32]Um, but clearly they at least got together one time to, you know, get her pregnant with baby number four. Uh, so good luck to them. I I I don't even know what's going on with Mormon wives. I know that, uh, Taylor Frankie Paul is kind of dipping her toes back in the social media pond and posting and such.

[00:03:54]I don't know that she has all the brand deals she used to have. I don't know that she will get those back. I don't know that her TV show is going to come out. Uh, I don't know that The Bachelorette is ever gonna air like they said it would this summer. We're already halfway through June, so tick tock or everybody's going to forget about the darn thing and nobody's going to be interested in Taylor Frankie Paul. Um, on the upside of that, the flip side of that, Jelly Roll and Bunny XO announced their divorce. And I talked about this on Wednesday with y'all and it seemed like it was being tumultuous because, you know, his daughter was kind of unfollowing Bunny and kind of posted that she was going to chat about it. Uh, Jelly Roll had allegedly taken Bunny's information off of his Instagram profile. I didn't even check. I don't know if that's true or not, but now they both comment on it publicly. jelly roll at one of his concerts Thursday night. Basically saying, "This is the only time I'm gonna talk about this. She is my best friend.

[00:04:54]We had a great 10 years together. We will be best friends for the rest of our lives. I have nothing to say about her.

[00:05:00]Everything she said on her podcast is true." Which means he's co-signing on the information that she said that they are going to have a baby together and they'll be co-paring that baby together.

[00:05:12]So, if you know they have been trying in IVF and such for a while now, and I don't know if that means she's pregnant.

[00:05:21]I don't know if that means they went another route to have a baby, but whatever it is, he's in my opinion cosigning that they are in fact going to have a baby. Uh whether that's now or in the future, I I I don't know. Uh, but she has come out also on that same podcast saying that they got into this big fight, which makes sense with the separation date being the day before Mother's Day, that they got into a huge fight and she used the words, "Well, then divorce me." And apparently that was like the phrase you couldn't say in their marriage, which should be the phrase you shouldn't say in a marriage, right? Uh, yeah. So, they're still going to have a baby. They're the coolest, are they? Lisa in Kentucky says they're the coolest, most famous couple on the planet.

[00:06:08]Okay. Uh, she's beautiful for one thing.

[00:06:11]Uh, okay. Lisa just listened to it. Uh, oh, she says the daughter's not mad either. Well, I thought that was weird.

[00:06:17]Why did the daughter unfollow her then?

[00:06:20]Like, y'all know how I feel about an unfollow, Patri. Um, anyway, so I I do think an unfollow means something. So, I don't know why. And I don't know. I don't know his daughter's name. I'm just going by what the internet said. Maybe the internet's lying. You know what I mean?

[00:06:35]Like I What the hell do I know about Jelly Roll and Bunny XO? You know what I mean? Um Oh, really? H I know lots of people either have different religions or different levels of religion and they still make it work. Melissa says he has become more religious and I think it's what was the tipping point.

[00:06:58]Um, yeah.

[00:07:01]Oh, she followed him back. Lisa says she said it's just like a teenager thing.

[00:07:05]She just turned 18 and it's no big deal that she unfollowed her then followed her back.

[00:07:11]I mean, if y'all have teenagers, you know the follow and unfollow of it all is real, right? Like when people break up. What was that TV show I was even watching recently and they said they called a friend to say unfollow this person and they did. or was that on Jeff Lewis? I can't even remember. It was something.

[00:07:32]I I I don't think it has anything to do with the weight loss. They're both very clear that there's no cheating on each other. Nothing like that. So, I don't know. You definitely hear of stories where people lose a lot of weight and he's lost hundreds of pounds of weight and it either changes their partner's view of them. Maybe they like them heavier. Maybe they liked whatever personality or securities, insecurities that they had at that weight and they don't like the personality at the lower weight. I don't know. I guess it could have been something about that.

[00:08:08]Oh my gosh. Lisa says they said they're in the process of building a compound and he's going to give it to her in the divorce and it has several houses. Three houses and they're building the barn for all the animals. Wow.

[00:08:21]Sheep tons of money. Oh, Gay says Heather McDonald is friends with Bunny X. I would have never seen that coming and had a lot of info on her Patreon today, which I will not pay for.

[00:08:34]Anyways, okay. Also, it is Father's Day weekend. So, happy Father's Day in advance to all the fathers, all the father figures. Uh, anyone like me that has lost their father already. My dad passed away at 54 years old from cancer.

[00:08:50]He was an amazing man. and he only got to be a pawpaw for two out of his seven now grandkids. So, uh, and you know, the oldest was two and a half when he passed away. That the second one was 5 weeks old, both of my girls. So, they don't necessarily have, you know, memories of him, you know, for sure. But anyways, um, happy Father's Day to all of the all the dads and dad figures out there.

[00:09:16]Okay, let's chat The Valley. And I will tell you, so on the valley a couple seasons ago, there was uh a a story line that kind of got big that I understood at the time, but now I really understand. So on the valley, Danny and Nia have had kind of rumors that he's dark Danny and uh what have you, he when he drinks too much, this and that. She has also admitted that she was like homeless as a teenager and I think her mom had alcoholism or substance use issues. I'm not real sure, but something to that effect. Well, the word Alanon came up in that show and that was really the first time I'd heard of it. I've heard of AA. I've heard of the 12 steps, you know, all these things, but it never I never knew anyone personally affected by I I literally both sides, my side of the family, my husband's side of the family for generations. There's and many people on our sides have done deep histories of our families and we are in anyways doesn't matter. uh there's no history of mental health or substance use disorder or uh alcoholism in either side of our family. So I just don't have that experience and I don't really have close friends or family that have ever told me anything about AA or Alanon. So when the Valley brought this up years ago basically because Janet said something she probably wasn't supposed to but she said there's a rumor out there that Nia goes to Allen on. Well, little did I know a few months later I would be going to Alanon.

[00:10:58]So last June, June 23rd to be exact, 2025, a friend of mine took me to my first Allenon meeting and um won't go into all the details because it's I will tell my story and my story is that I have someone that I love that was diagnosed with substance use disorder and some mental health things, anxiety and depression.

[00:11:29]And relating to Father's Day last year, uh the day after Father's Day, we took that person to inatient rehab and they were gone for 55 days.

[00:11:48]And um I had no idea that the valley would have given me this little twink little thing in my brain of Alenon and that I would actually know what it was because when when somebody uh that day recommended I go to Alanon, I at least knew what it was. I knew that it was a support group for loved ones, family, friends, co-workers, daughters, moms, brothers, best friends, neighbors, whoever that has someone that they care about that has uh and they typically say alcoholism, but that's just because AA and Alanon have been around for so many decades. But basically any substance use disorder. um alcoholism, it can be a mix, it can be uh drugs, it can be THC, vape, it can be opioids, uh meth. I mean, it can be anything, right? Um anyways, but I was I was thankful that I had that uh little bit of information that that that I would have never expected the valley to freaking give me, right? So, uh, that is my tie to the valley, which has nothing to do with me being confused by Kristen Dodie on the last episode where she is accusing a fan, sorry, I'm really snotty, y'all. Accusing a fan of uh trying to take pictures of her daughter Ka when she was changing her diaper in a bathroom at the airport.

[00:13:27]I of course felt terrible for Kristen Dodie at that time.

[00:13:31]Uh, as the rest of the episode went on, I sort of wonder if she was exaggerating.

[00:13:38]The way I would love to hear from the fans that were in that bathroom and their take on it and if Kristen exaggerated or flat out lied saying that they were trying to take pictures of her daughter as they change as she changed her diaper. I just I can't even imagine that. It was so grossed out. so disgusted, so uh pissed off for Kristen when that scene happened early on in the episode. But then as this the the episode went on and her and Luke's fighting comes out more and more and more and more and they're literally they've got them both miked up so we can hear what they're saying to each other and what she's saying he yelled at her and said to her is so far from the truth. I now wonder if she was exaggerating or lying or kind of her perception is so off with this postpartum depression that she is actually experiencing things in very different uh very different ways.

[00:14:39]So I would love to know your thoughts on that. Um, Southern Hospitality again tied in and and affected me because Grace Lily, who's been on this the show for years, she's worked at Republic since 2016. So, Leva knows her a lot.

[00:14:58]Um, she finally came clean with Leva and let her know that, you know, that she is sober. She is not doing ketamine for like a month now at the time that this was aired or filmed.

[00:15:11]uh that she was in therapy uh you know kind of working on herself. It still made me sad that she's not yet invited back into the friend group, but I think that's kind of a work in progress and I do think she needs to work on herself before they can do that. You know, they clearly had this uh yacht party for Mattiey's birthday. Maddie is very public about her sobriety. I don't really know all of her details, but I feel like I feel like she got sober as a teenager if I've if I've seen the math right.

[00:15:42]Like she's definitely talked about it on Southern Hospitality, but yet she is a DJ. She works at a a club. She works at all-inclusive resorts. I mean, where people are drinking, her friends are drinking, her boyfriend is drinking. Uh doesn't seem to bother her, which is great. I think that's the sign of somebody that's truly in recovery. Um, but I do hope that she and Grace Lily uh come to be friends again. They do go on a trip because Maddie is going to DJ at this all-inclusive resort in Paakana Dominican Republic. And uh Michael's has ties to the Dominican Republic with his grandma living there. And at the end of it, so I watched episodes nine and 10 today. At the end of it, Michaels invites just a few people, TJ, the guy that he's kind of on and off again, which I sort of hope they get together, uh, his really good friend Lake and then, uh, Maddie and Joe, to this Roman Catholic church that he grew up when he would be in the Dominican Republic, and his grandma went, he was raised Roman Catholic. Now, as he's a recent out gay man, he has lots of emotions about that.

[00:16:55]So, uh, at the very end of it, she talked about the first three steps and how how, um, her higher power is what's gotten her through uh, her addiction and her stuff. So, now I know a lot about Alanon in the 12 steps. I've been going weekly, multiple times a week since last June. June 23rd, 2025 is my Allenon birthday, as they call it. I've learned.

[00:17:28]So, that will be celebrated very soon.

[00:17:31]Uh the person that I love is sober and um since the day they went into the in-person rehab, inpatient rehab and June 16th, 2025 and working a very solid program for themselves and in such a great place and our family's in a better place, But if you remember last summer, it seemed like all of a sudden that I just uh and it was it wasn't it wasn't a lie at all. The world was very political. Anything you said, everything on the internet was I mean it's still political, but it was hyperfocused last summer and it was just like oh my god, people were fighting in the Facebook group. It was just it was a lot. And um when we put the person that I love in impatient rehab, obviously I shouldn't say obviously because a lot of you probably don't have experience with this, but I'll tell you it was four nights a week of Zooms because eventually they were in a different state. Uh they started out in Texas and eventually we moved them to a different state for better treatment in our opinion. And um all those decisions, all that time was clearly very emotional and it took up a lot of time. The last thing on my brain was watching Bravo or listening to Jeff Lewis live, right? And I am not a good faker. There is no way I could have come on here and faked that. So for months, I completely was off social media.

[00:19:15]uh was not listening to Bravo, was not listening to Jeff Lewis live, was not posting, was not reading nothing uh for probably four and a half, five months. And that was the bulk of uh me and our family learning a lot and diving into this recovery world that I never ever ever ever ever ever knew about.

[00:19:47]And in hindsight, now that we're just over a year into this journey, I am so grateful.

[00:19:55]I'm so grateful that God uh what do they say? God can only give you so much that you can handle. Well, we felt like it was a lot. We felt like it was way too much. It was something we never ever ever ever in our lives expected to experience. Don't know why we thought we'd be immune to this, but we did.

[00:20:15]And uh we've now learned so much. We've jumped into the recovery community in all aspects.

[00:20:25]Um because of privacy issues obviously and respect I am with the consent of my loved one.

[00:20:40]I will talk about my experience through all this, which has been lots of ups and downs, more ups than downs, thank goodness, but that's not everyone's journey. So, when Little Nause X posted that video yesterday and I saw it on my Instagram, I don't even follow him.

[00:21:00]Um, I remembered talking about it cuz it was on TMZ when he was filmed in the middle of the night or late at night along the streets of Hollywood in like white underwear, white boots, clearly not making good decisions. We had no idea what was going on. I still don't know exactly, but he did make the video yesterday and say that he is just got out of rehab. I don't know if that's mental health. I don't know if that's substance use, alcohol. I have no idea.

[00:21:28]combination of the both. I don't know.

[00:21:31]But um sorry, I'm super super snotty obviously.

[00:21:37]Um and he said that he's doing well.

[00:21:40]Obviously that hit me because yesterday, last night specifically was the first night that I hosted a support group that I got trained for. It's not Alanon, but it's the same goal as Alanon. It's called invitation to change and uh it's become very important to me and I looked last summer when a friend shared a podcast with me. I got on the email chain, learned a little bit about it and then realized, oh, it had a link that said click here for a support group near you. And I thought, oh, okay, this going to be like Alanon. There's going to be support groups. I mean, I live in I live near Houston, Texas. Of course, there's going to be a ton to choose from, right?

[00:22:27]There wasn't there was none no support groups for this smart recovery invitation to change. There was a couple online and I'm just more of an inerson girly.

[00:22:39]So fast forward getting through the holidays, all the things. Uh the last couple of months I missed a couple of Wednesdays and that is because I was doing this online training that was almost 30 hours of online training to become certified if you will it well it is a certification uh to have the privilege of hosting this support group in Houston. So that started last night. So obviously with the little nause x of it all coming out the same day uh you know my very first meeting to host um starting a whole whole assort group that's never even been in the state of Texas much less Houston and um I just feel like not enough people talk about this. There's so much shame.

[00:23:39]There's so much stigma attached and I feel like as much as after the pandemic a lot of people talk about mental health and you know anxiety that's you know those words are everywhere that it's still not talked about enough you know what I mean no one still feels comfortable on your local uh chat group or Facebook group to ask you know about a therapist or uh an inpatient facility to recommend or uh you know substance use disorder or alcoholism, you know, what have you.

[00:24:20]And I've learned a lot about it in the Houston area. Thankfully, we do have great resources.

[00:24:29]Matter of fact, I didn't even know it, but Carney Wilson, who obviously I love from Jeff Lewis Live, um, and I've met her a few times.

[00:24:40]She's been very open about her sobriety all these decades. And I happened to be invited to a fundraiser lunchon one night, the the night before it, and I was like, "Oh my gosh, yes, I would love to go." She was the keynote speaker. I mean, what a crazy turn of events, right? Um, so, uh, that was great to see her up there in her own personality. I mean, she was definitely in her own personality, but obviously talking about something very different. Uh, and it was just so great to be in the audience as someone who's now in this world, if you will. So, thank you. So, don't know that we need to chat about this for the next 30 minutes. I would love to chat about other stuff or anything that's uh of importance to you, obviously. But, yeah, I just wanted to finally be honest with y'all because it was really hard to uh well, I I shouldn't even say it was hard to share it with you. I couldn't even say the words for weeks. I mean, I became a shell of myself.

[00:25:51]I felt like if I left the house, I was I don't know how what I felt. It was a very confusing, scary, unknown time and having very few people that I trusted to chat about this with.

[00:26:09]Luckily, I do have a few and that I really respect and trust.

[00:26:14]And um now over the last year I've got a whole army of people around me. Uh but not everyone has that. And it's one aspect of it is that it's not available in every city. The the the the the options that our family have and not only is it not available, it's not even practical for some. It is some of this stuff is so so very expensive.

[00:26:47]Lots of it is not covered by insurance.

[00:26:50]So people are making decisions that they never thought they'd be faced with, but they're also now facing financial insecurity due to some of these things. So um I have a whole new perspective on this aspect and obviously now when I hear of someone someone or a loved one or a friend uh who knows someone or has personal experience with mental health issues or substance use or alcoholism, I clearly have a lot more personal experience and empathy and understanding for that. So, uh, so I did read a couple of DMs last night when I got home. The meeting went great.

[00:27:41]Thank you. And, uh, it took a lot of uh, took a lot for me to promote it publicly. Uh, you know, uh, I am I really need some more tissue.

[00:28:00]Anyways, um, Lisa, thank you. Says, "The people that you're going to help are going to be appreciated, loved, and adore your big, beautiful heart." Thank you.

[00:28:12]Anyways, um don't need you to share anything that you have been through or that a family member has been through or a loved one.

[00:28:23]But if you feel like sharing, I want you to know that along with our gossip and celebrity news and reality TV that we uh are a safe space to talk about these things. And I don't want to say I apologize for not being honest about it when it was going on. I could barely say the words and obviously out of respect uh for my loved one. It wasn't my story to tell.

[00:28:53]You know what I mean? So yeah, I hope so. But there's so much stigma attached. not as much to the mental health because again like I said we started talking about that a little more after the pandemic but the substance use is such a stigma.

[00:29:11]Honey May says there's no shame and we're starting to be more open as a society. Thank God I live in Canada and we have great treatment options and we don't go bankrupt. Yeah, that is not the case. I have learned of so many families uh adult children, teenage children, husband, wives families that uh you know have to hire attorneys, have to spend money on treatment centers, uh prescriptions, uh counseling. It's crazy.

[00:29:42]Um trust me, those four or five months felt like forever to me, too. It was a rough time and um I definitely missed y'all. I missed my little hobby. I missed having my thing to little to focus on. And at the end of the day through Allen on and through invitation to change, I learned that I have to focus on myself.

[00:30:10]Whether or not the person in your life ever gets help, ever becomes sober, ever works their own program, you have to be okay because if not, they're never going to be okay. And you have to be okay whether or not they're okay. And I'm so beyond thankful that our loved one is uh sober and working a strong program, but um that's not everyone's journey and it can be up and down and there's no guarantees for anything for the rest of your life. Um thank you. I definitely think this will help someone and I feel like every time when the valley when they mentioned the word Allenon that's what got me knowing what Alanon was. I think before that I only knew of the term AA.

[00:31:01]So basically AA is for the alcoholic or person with substance use disorder.

[00:31:07]There is NAR narcotics anonymous but it's not nearly as widespread as AA. uh that is for the person uh in recovery suffering from substance use disorder.

[00:31:19]Alanon is the support group for family and friends or loved ones of that. So if I wouldn't have ever heard of Alanon, I would have on the valley, I probably wouldn't have been as open and known at least a little bit about what it was. Um Delis says, "My mom, hold on, was a big volunteer and helped start different projects. She was a teacher with kids with learning disabilities. She also started the first Sunday school class for kids with challenges. I love that.

[00:31:47]You know, and really it's like all this stuff happens. It's just when no one talks about it, it makes it feel very isolating. It makes it feel very shameful. You know what I mean? A honey May says, "This is my therapy three times a week. Thankful for you and all you do." Thank you. Um that's nice, Da.

[00:32:09]I love that.

[00:32:11]Yeah, which is easier said than done. I mean, give me a break. When your life's in chaos, that's all you focus on. And yet, that is one reason. That is the reason I went on Zoloft. And I was honest with y'all about going on Zoloft because I didn't want people to think that that was a negative thing either.

[00:32:29]And you I I I I am an open book and it's really hard for me not to be honest with y'all. Uh, but the anxiety. So, Zoloft is a prescription for anxiety and depression. I don't think I really fully knew what anxiety is because I don't have anxiety as like a social thing or a daily or weekly or monthly thing. I don't get anxiety attacks. I very much had uh situational anxiety. So when we were in the thick of things and everything was so uncertain and the the learning process and the curve and the emotions and the the the fear the fear the fear the fear was so bad I couldn't go to sleep. my thought process when um when Maddie said the serenity prayer which if you don't know what that means it's something that aa and Alanon narcotics and on all the things say all the 12 steps I think say the serenity prayer at the beginning and sometimes at the end of a meeting and she said it when they were going up on that dinner in the sky thing and it it's God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference. And when she said that, I realized she was calming herself down.

[00:33:53]And then later in the show when they're at the church, at the Roman Catholic Church, she talked about the first three steps which are uh you know uh admitting that your life is unmanageable.

[00:34:07]Then the second step is admitting that a higher power can help you with that. And then the third step is actually admitting that you will let your higher power help with that. So Katie says, "I've suffered with substance uses after losing my mom at a young age. It's so good that you talk about this. It affects so many people."

[00:34:25]It does. And you know, over the years, I've been told a lot of things by y'all in my DMs, and I've talked to y'all about things. Obviously, always kept it private.

[00:34:39]all sorts of things, you know, divorce, husbands dying, uh, so many things. So, so many things and um, it's always affected me. But when when you are affected by something like this personally, it's it hits you on a whole other level for sure. It's it's I say it like I say it like, you know, we always know that cancer is something that can happen, right? But if we knew that cancer hap if cancer happened to my child, you know, that would make it a real like that would hit you in the gut, right?

[00:35:17]That would be like this really happens.

[00:35:19]This did happen to everything. Um, and then you would always think if they had a headache, you know, if they were cleared and they were in remission, oh, if they had a headache, if something happened, you would think, oh, maybe the cancer came back. You know, it's kind of the same thing. But, you know, if you don't have a child with cancer or a major illness, you just think, "Oh, that happens to other people." You know, oh, that's terrible when it happens, but you don't have the same experience or empathy for sure. Yeah, the whole Nick Riner thing definitely affected me. Um, I think that happened before we knew the full extent of things. Melissa says, "You're very lucky and blessed.

[00:36:01]The treatment has worked. For many it doesn't. Nick Riner is a perfect example. I don't want to put this as if the treatment worked or not.

[00:36:11]Uh because nothing is guaranteed in life, especially in substance use disorder and mental health challenges.

[00:36:20]Um, I would say my loved one is very devoted and working their very own strong program and so are we.

[00:36:33]And we didn't just sit alongside and just hope something worked and threw money at something. You know what I mean? Um, Katie says, "12 steps 12 steps never worked for me. I had to find my own way and I don't feel like um so the reason I got trained and took the balls to start an invitation to change smart recovery support group in Houston is because there were none uh very few in the country to be honest with you and you do have to be trained for it but Alanon is important and life changing ing as it's been for me and the friendships that I've made and the fellowship and the support and just feeling like I'm not alone has been invaluable.

[00:37:27]But I can't say the 12 steps necessarily hit me like it hits other people. So smart recovery invitation to change is a little bit different.

[00:37:37]same goal to support loved ones of somebody that has substance use or mental health or any kind of harmful behavior compulsion.

[00:37:45]Uh but there's not 12 steps. It's it's very different yet with the same goal.

[00:37:51]So that's just kind of to me it's like somebody that loves zel as one way to get money from one person to another and another person that loves cash app. very different, you know, means to get money, but the same goal is to transfer money from one person to another. You know what I mean?

[00:38:11]Yeah. I I've learned so much. It's there's so much that goes on with this.

[00:38:18]There's so many people that have ADHD that end up with substance use disorder.

[00:38:25]It just to me it seems to really tie in.

[00:38:28]Uh, for sure. Don't start nothing says it's so easy to get hooked on stuff, especially for young people and the availability of party drugs doesn't exactly help. Yeah.

[00:38:38]Anyways, did not mean to make this a Boohoo fest.

[00:38:43]Uh, I did finally want to be honest with y'all and let you know what happened last summer and let you know that this is a huge part of my life and it has impacted the way I think about things.

[00:39:00]Uh, a lot of Bravo people, a lot of celebrities obviously come out with mental health challenges like Little NasX did yesterday with talking about uh bipolar disorder and I feel like the more people talk about this, you know, like they're famous, people are going to think, oh, well, of course they have, you know, they're famous. They got no, he could have had I don't know anything about him. He could have had this bipolar disorder undiagnosed. well before he was famous or a singer. I don't know. I don't know anything about him. What I do want is for people to realize that this happens everywhere. Every street, big cities, little cities, uh low economic status, high economic status, divorced families, single families, married families, it's it doesn't great parents, bad parents, you know, it Yeah.

[00:39:58]Anyways, uh yeah, so if y'all want to chat about something else, I would love that.

[00:40:06]Uh if not, we can keep talking now.

[00:40:08]Dolly girl says, "Of all days for me to late I want." Yes. Yeah, we did kind of start getting a little deep uh early on for sure.

[00:40:18]Anyways, um on a separate note, um yes. Yes.

[00:40:26]But that's what secrets keep you sick. So that's one reason I'm talking about it is because the more we push things down, the more we don't talk about things, uh the more when somebody else goes through this and they will and they are and they have been, they all feel very alone and very isolated and oh this is a me problem. Nobody else will understand.

[00:40:56]There are so many people that will understand. And if you want to message me with um questions about resources, obviously I know of quite a few now uh Nashville and Houston uh Texas area, but um if you just Google, it's very overwhelming. You know what I mean? Very overwhelming for sure.

[00:41:22]Um they are I don't love the Chryslies. You love the Chryslies, Lisa.

[00:41:30]She says, "I know all of you know the Chryslies are moving to Texas. I forget what city." I don't know either what city they're moving to. Uh if I don't go blow my nose, this is going to disgust.

[00:42:08]Okay. Okay. Okay.

[00:42:13]All the bitchers and moaners are going to be like, "Oh my god." I'm like gh.

[00:42:17]Um, yes, for sure.

[00:42:20]Cecil says, "I don't think you were being secretive or not honest. you shared with those when the time was right and you were ready, right? Um, don't start nothing. Says, I think self- medication is often the problem. Not feeling well mentally and trying to drown it in substances which consequently leads to addiction. It can and some people can use it occasionally or kind of come in and out of a problem situation and some people cannot.

[00:42:48]What happened to Christa?

[00:42:52]Uh, oh, that's right. Wasn't she a mental health expert that used to be on here?

[00:42:59]She was. You know, so many people come in and out that I never know often when people stop watching or listening or tuning in, whether it's a timing issue, whether they're watching as a replay, whether they just move on or get off social media. I I I don't know. Um, thank you.

[00:43:19]Thank you. Um, oh no, she's not. She's not. Anyways, we love Lisa. Michael, I am going to be out in the sun very soon.

[00:43:33]Uh, let's see. Oh, I need to Should I watch America's Sweethearts Dallas cheerleaders or Million-Dollar Nannies? I haven't started in the city. Like, seriously.

[00:43:48]Oh, Dolly girl says, "My Tamara sleep gummies are coming today. Dislike Tamara, but the gummies are amazing."

[00:43:54]I've heard different things. Some people say they don't help at all. I I don't know what I don't need that, but I went on Zoloft and I've since weaned myself off and I'm doing great. Um, I've been off it completely for about a month, but I weaned myself off very slowly. I was only on uh 50 milligrams, so I wasn't on that. I went from 25 milligrams to 50 and uh did help me sleep and not hyperfocus on the worry cuz I never knew that anxiety just meant your worrying to the excess to the extreme pretty much.

[00:44:31]Says it's going to rain here the rest of the day. I don't I mean it's literally Let me see what the UV is. Uh oh, it's already going down the rest of the day. Um, I don't know that it's going to rain. I don't know.

[00:44:50]Yeah, I just don't know if this season 3 is worth it. Apparently, this show has been on like, what was it on like USA Network or something like that for like 15 20 seasons and then it moved to Netflix? Uh, this Dallas Cobell is cheerleader show. I don't know.

[00:45:07]Um, oh, is it? Toys 5 is awesome. I cannot say that I've watched anything more than probably Toy Story 2. I mean, my youngest kid is 16, so we haven't exactly watched uh, you know, Disney movies or whatever they're called in a long time. But yeah, is it worth is it worth it if I don't know three, four, is it still worth it to watch episode or part five?

[00:45:38]Go see that this weekend. It's such a sweet and clever movie. Oh, okay. Maybe that'll be a good family movie for us. I heard Brandy is on that Calabasas Netflix show and she talks about sex in front of her son. Wait, why would she be on the Million-Dollar Nanny show, Brandy?

[00:45:59]Why would she be on that? Why would she be talking about nannies when her kids are like grown ass adults or teenagers?

[00:46:06]Hm. That is weird.

[00:46:08]Weird. Weird. Weird. Okay. Tin Snooze says, "You don't need to have to have seen them all. Go see it." Okay. Well, that sounds cute.

[00:46:17]A Lisa's going to take her daughter and her granddaughter.

[00:46:22]Thank you. Joetta says, "You're a tremendous support to your loved one.

[00:46:25]The fact that you've taken the time to educate yourself and open your home for these Well, it's not my home, to be clear. No support meetings that I've ever been to are in anyone's homes.

[00:46:34]They're all in uh churches or businesses, uh buildings that are intentional for AA meetings that are some that my loved one goes to that they love. Um I've never been to AA. There are AA meetings that are open, they call it, where anybody can go and you can kind of get a little more understanding. I've only gone to Allenon meetings. Uh but yeah. Oh, that's a different show. Calabas's confidential.

[00:47:06]Oh, good lord. What is that on? When did that start?

[00:47:11]Brandy is on Calabas's confidential on Netflix. Oh, jeez Louise. Did I miss that that started? I literally put all of When did that start?

[00:47:23]Oh jeez, y'all. There is just too much [ __ ] to watch. I've already got million.

[00:47:27]Now I've got to add Cowabasis confidential. Is it good?

[00:47:36]How am I Is nobody talking about it though? Like why is nobody talking about that?

[00:47:44]Crazy.

[00:47:45]Oh, Cecilele says, "I turned it off in the first 30 minutes."

[00:47:50]Amy says, "I watched the new season of the Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders and didn't think it was as good as the first two seasons." See, I only watched season one. I missed season two. I also It's really hard for me to watch their extreme possible eating disorders because they don't talk about it, but they just act as if they're size0000 and that's just normal for a 27y old woman. And I'm like, okay, what is this flow state? I don't know what that is. Somebody's talking about flow state. Makes me think about a period like heavy flow, light flow.

[00:48:32]Okay, if I had to watch one thing, rate them. Number one, put in comments Dallas Cowboy Cheerleaders on Netflix. Number two, Milliondoll Nannies, which is on Hulu or that other free one called Free Form. Or three, Calabasis.

[00:48:53]What's it called? Calabasas what?

[00:48:58]Calabasas Confidential on Netflix is number three. So number one put if I should watch the Dallas Cowboys cheerleaders season 3. Number two, Million-Dollar Nannies on Hulu or Free Form. Number three, should I watch Calabas's Confidential on Netflix?

[00:49:15]I don't know.

[00:49:18]Wait, what?

[00:49:20]She sent you a sticker. What does that mean?

[00:49:23]I believe it's people sending Sarah a money gift.

[00:49:28]What are y'all talking about?

[00:49:32]I have no idea what y'all is. Somebody sending me money. I mean the other day RN uh Explorer sent me money. Thank you very much. On a as a called a YouTube sticker. Okay. I should watch two and three. What are y'all? Do y'all see something about money? I have no idea what you're talking about. Anyways, um, oh, Michael says I should watch In the City. Okay. What is the gossip? Michael, I wish you would come on and update me on the gossip on this Kenny guy that's on uh, In the City. Yes. Is anyone following the Patrick Thai 90Day Fiance drama? Also think Andre and Libby have parted ways with TLC.

[00:50:17]Oh, good. I can't stand Andre. And Libbyy's just as bad. She's married to him and dumped her family for him. Uh, wait, what is Bring Me the Beauties on HBO?

[00:50:30]Watch In the City. Okay, so is that what I should start first? Okay, I mean, Summer House is in But y'all, a bunch of stuff starts soon. Like, it's crazy.

[00:50:42]Like, a bunch of stuff. I read off these the other day. Okay, there's America's Sweethearts, Dallas cheerleaders. There is, oh [ __ ] my thing went to August.

[00:50:51]Hold on. There is Calabasas Confidential. There's Million-Dollar Nanny's.

[00:50:58]Uh, NextGen New York City starts Wednesday, June 24th.

[00:51:07]Um, feel like a bunch of stuff is coming up soon.

[00:51:14]July 9. Big Brother starts July 9th.

[00:51:17]Real Housewives of Orange County premieres July 9th, season 20.

[00:51:22]Uh, feel like there's more. The Stacey Show.

[00:51:26]Um, maybe that's more August.

[00:51:34]There's a lot. House of Stacey starts Thursday, July 30th.

[00:51:39]I mean, jeez Louise, y'all.

[00:51:43]I think that's all the shows that we have. so far. Hi, RN Explorer. Quit spending all your nurse money on me. I mean, I thank you. Buy yourself a coffee. Can you imagine if a coffee was 20 bucks? Does anyone live where a coffee is 20 bucks? I'll let my husband make me some at free, but I will buy Luna 20 more dollars worth of to She's so terrible with toys, though. She doesn't play. We get so excited when she finally plays with one of our stuffed animals because she's so bad about that.

[00:52:16]I do hope House of Stacey is really good. Like, I think Stacey and B and her kids are going to be fantastic reality TV, but I don't know if it's going to be enough without all the drama of Vanderpump Rules. You know what I mean?

[00:52:31]Uh, wow. Michael Riley watches every Big Brother. He's seen every single episode, every season. That is a commitment.

[00:52:42]It is such a commitment to watch uh Big Brother. We we tried I think last summer. I do try to get uh I do try to get uh into that. I can't get this.

[00:52:59]Anyways, um yeah, I don't follow them, so I don't know much about what's going on them now except she does the podcast and maybe she did a podcast tour.

[00:53:12]Oh, Bring Me the Beauty. It's only three episodes. I love that. It's quite fascinating. I knew everybody for the most part except the crazy person. Wait, what's it about? What's also the one that people are telling me I need to watch that's about a murder? Somebody somebody in Texas cut out somebody's ba baby in their belly. Something like that.

[00:53:33]Oh, they cancelled Big Brother Canada a while back but just got renewed on another network for next year. Okay. Um, thank y'all.

[00:53:46]Uh, what else? We have just a few minutes. Anybody want to come on with a question or comment? I would love that.

[00:53:53]Let's end our Friday. Is a lot of people off work today? It's a uh so today has only been a holiday I think for like three or national holiday I should say for like three years but Junth is all about Galveastston Texas which is clearly y'all only uh Junth holiday Friday November 19th it's officially a national is a federal holiday commemorates the end of slavery in the United States. The holiday's name first used in the 1890s is a port manto I'm saying that wrong of June and 19th referring to June 19th 1865 the day when Major General Gordon Granger ordered the final enforcement of the Emancipation Proclamation in Texas at the end of the American Civil War. So no one told the slaves here. So when they learned that then it's it's Junth.

[00:54:53]So, everyone just kind of went, "Shh, don't tell the don't tell the people in Texas." [ __ ] up. Anyways, um, yeah, that sounds about right. 2021, it became a federal holiday. So, it's always been celebrated here a lot because of Galveistston being very near me, right?

[00:55:11]That's the one. Maternal Instincts.

[00:55:13]That's the one everybody told me to watch. Oh my god, I have so much to watch. Okay. What's the one you said, Michael? What's the one that's three episodes? I got to scroll back up on that one. Uh, Michael Riley, tell me again.

[00:55:28]Bring me the beauty. Okay. Good lord.

[00:55:32]Bring me the beauty on HBO.

[00:55:38]B A T Y HBO. And then Maternal Instincts I had in my thing and just forgot to watch it. But as you know, now my days are a little more. So, when Kelly Dodd is like, "Does that girl ever leave her house?" I'm like, "Wink wink." I do leave my house a lot, just so you know.

[00:56:00]Um, I swear she's Woohoo. Uh, Maternal Instinct is on Netflix. Yeah.

[00:56:09]Oh, suggest Oh, you want us to read Star Night? I don't know about that.

[00:56:14]Suggested reading Dr. Gabbor Mate.

[00:56:18]Gabbor mate in the realm of hungry ghosts.

[00:56:22]Um, oh, she's the youngest woman on death row in How old was she when she did it, Annie? Ew. Um, yeah, I think the banks are closed, too.

[00:56:36]RN Explorer says, "I think the banks are closed because my neighbor's a banker and he's outside in shorts and a t-shirt." I love that for him.

[00:56:43]Uh, I do feel like a lot more people are closed today uh for Friday for Junth for sure.

[00:56:52]Anyways, are you off or are you always off on Fridays? Are y'all retired and don't work anymore? A lot of us are of a certain age or you're like Michael Riley. I feel like Michael Riley was just born into wealth. Feel like Michael Riley never had to. Oh, Dolly girl says, "I'm in mortgages. were closed. No mail either. Oh, I did have to call. I got a call from the collision repair shop that had my daughter's car for over a month. Still didn't fix it.

[00:57:25]Put in a refurbished headlight that didn't sync up, collaborate, calibrate, whatever with her Volvo, all the things.

[00:57:35]It's been a process. So, at least I know Progressive Insurance is open because that's the insurance that the guy that hit my daughter's car sitting quietly in her school parking lot and did $9,500 worth of damage. How do you do that? How do you damage a car sitting in a draw in a parking lot?

[00:57:58]And his truck had like a scratch. Of course, hers has the damage is now up to $9,500 on the last invoice they sent me.

[00:58:06]So, Progressive is open because he called me and the collision repair shop called me basically telling me the new light is still not in. Like, oh my gosh, this this literally happened the last week of April.

[00:58:21]It's been insane.

[00:58:24]Yeah. Teresa says, "My friend's daughter went through the car mess for an entire summer. It was awful.

[00:58:31]Oh, I would love that. I would so read that book. RN Explorer says, "I can't wait till one of the kids of Kate Plus 8 is doing a book on his life saving life living with K." Oh, the boy the boy that she sent away.

[00:58:47]Um, it often sounds like and it Yeah, it it sounds like a lot of mental health stuff. I don't know how he's doing now.

[00:58:56]I think he's the one that lives with maybe his dad, John.

[00:59:02]Um, yes.

[00:59:04]God bless his It was just an accident. I don't know how he did that much damage to just the front of her car. This was just the front, the bender, the fender, the the hood, the lights. Apparently, the computers are in there, the cameras.

[00:59:21]Oh my goodness. Anyways, okay. Wait, what? I saw a birthday. Hold on. Annie's birthday is coming up. Annie, your birthday's July 10th. Happy happy birthday before that. But, you know, I'll see you talk to you before that.

[00:59:36]Uh, Dela says, "Still working at 63. I have two more years until retirement.

[00:59:40]Counting the days." Oh, the book comes out in October. Wait, who?

[00:59:46]Oh my god, I kind of forgot about that.

[00:59:49]Colin's book comes out in October.

[00:59:53]Oh, I might have to pre-order that. Uh ah Nikki says, "I work for a financial adviser and even though the markets are closed, I'm working." Um no, they didn't total it because it's worth way more than that. I know. And now we get a car that's been all in this jacked up wreck.

[01:00:12]She literally just got in the car. It was a brand new to her car. It had 17,000 miles on it. One of Colin's sisters lives with John also. I do feel like that sounds familiar. Anyways, um we are going to wrap things up. Thank you so much for being so understanding with me the last year. Hopefully this gave you a little more understanding of what was truly going on. Just realize you never know what somebody is going through. And I am proof of that because I am not a good faker. And I had to just completely go off social media and stop all the things that I love doing to work on myself and my family because I was a hot mess and in the midst of chaos and uh could only come back when I was uh out of the ditch, if you will, you know, obviously figuratively, not literally. And I appreciate y'all being there for me. And thank you, thank you, thank you for being amazing people to me. Y'all are so much more than just people that I chat with on a podcast three days a week.

[01:01:17]Y'all are truly my friends. Truly people that I care about. Truly people that I want to know what's going on in your life. I want to know your opinions on these ratty TV shows that we watch, these crazy crazy celebrities. You know, that just kind of was what binds us. But really, just uh caring about others and each other is what uh keeps us hanging out together. So, thank you. Thank you.

[01:01:39]Thank you so much. and I will see you live on Monday at 3 p.m. Eastern. Bye, friends.