Reflecting on Mistakes and Self Growth | Mini Grocery and Seeds Shopping

[00:00:00]I look like [snorts] but who cares?

[00:00:03][music] I am like this close booking a ferry to Cebu.

[00:00:11]Wow, that's a lot, [music] guys. If you're in a relationship, it's not healthy to just stay quiet. I used to really hate confrontation until I realized the effects.

[00:00:34]So, I'm alone here. I don't want to film today because I have another pimple and it's so big. It's making me feel insecure. But yeah, guys, my order came. It looks so good.

[00:00:57]Guys, guys, I'm done eating. Today is Sunday, so there isn't a lot of tricycle going around. So, I'm gonna walk to the highway because I'm going to the mall. I have some documents I need to print for something very exciting. I will share it when it's confirmed, guys. I'm also going to grab some groceries. I'm just using this day as like to reset. Like when I feel like I'm going to be in my my head a lot again, then I just try to do something not to distract myself, but to just get out of my head, you know, because most of the time I'm just in my head when I'm at home. By the way, guys, I'm also going to start planting. So, I'm going to buy seeds, vegetable seeds. It's rambutan season nowadays. Do you guys know rambutan? It's like a lychi but with a weird shell. I remember on Netflix they call this like an alien fruit. So yeah, it will be red like that red soon.

[00:02:18]So I'm just walking here.

[00:02:23]It's so hot. It's humid.

[00:02:27]Wow. Look at the flowers.

[00:02:31]It's humid. This is actually the house that I want. Like just a bungalow and with a lot of garden space. Just look at that, guys. I don't think it's occupied at the moment.

[00:02:44]So, yeah, it's my dream house. I'm just passing by. And you know what, guys? I am like this close to booking a ferry to Cebu, but I'm just really stopping myself cuz I need to focus on this one trip. Yeah, good things comes to those who wait. This is our church, Mother of the Redeemer Parish. The way to the highway is here. So, I'm near the highway, guys.

[00:03:19]Thank you Lord.

[00:03:28][music] Hey guys, I'm here. I'm just looking around.

[00:04:06]Guys, shy vlogger activated.

[00:04:22]They don't have what I want, guys.

[00:04:25]So, I'm just going to get this dito tamele guys. Ayun gilaman pong kong.

[00:05:15]I hate growing tomato.

[00:05:18]Sweet pepper.

[00:05:21]My bok choy bok choy bok choy kang ng let's plant some flowers no nice zin sunflower I want small flowers sunflower that's nice I don't even I know how much this cost, guys. I'm just choosing. I think I'm going to go with Cosmos. Are more flowers here for oi petunia. Oh, I like this. Not actually sure. Or maybe this onion zia cucumber here.

[00:06:25]Wow, that's a lot, guys.

[00:06:28]There's one 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 Okay, let's do it.

[00:07:19]I look like but who cares? I just have this topic in my mind and I just want to share it. So yesterday was kind of like one of my down days and right now I just I don't know I just feel energized because I was so productive today. So one of the things that I learned is I know how to get out of a slump. Sad days but sometimes I just just don't have the energy to today.

[00:07:47]This is one of the days where I just like chose to do the hard thing and just did the hard stuff, which is to move. And also, I think listening to sad songs doesn't help as well because Olivia Rodrigo just released a whole album. She just wrote the most heartbreaking lyrics and just the melodies are just like it's just gets to me, guys. Yeah, that didn't help at all.

[00:08:15]It just made me cry and it just made me feel worse. I think the key is just to do something because I feel like if I am productive then I feel good about myself and that's when I get the energy and the dopamine to do more things. If that actually makes sense. When I was a little bit younger, I would think so much about what other people would say to me if I speak up or if I be myself.

[00:08:46]And this is also what I realize um these days that there will always be someone who will like you for who you are. in life it takes to find that specific person to make you realize that you don't actually have to try to be someone else except yourself to be liked and to be loved. I guess I already meant that someone but sometimes I don't know just sadness just takes over me. Hence I make videos like the previous video that I made. Some days I just choose to share my sadness. It makes me less lonely in my current journey. As I grow older, I just give like less about what other people will say to me. So now I'm also more open to criticism, constructive criticism that has good intentions. We can always feel if it's constructive or destructive criticism.

[00:09:42]There's so many things to realize about this life and that's I guess that's just the beauty of it. There is so much to learn and I am someone who really likes to learn and I like to just explore different stuff. What you learn shapes you as a person and that's what makes the change beautiful because it's a different part of everything combining into you. I don't know if that even makes sense guys. Yeah. So I give less I can take negative things more easily and less personally. I used to really hate confrontation until I realized the effects. If you don't release, if you don't say what you actually want to say, the resentment [clears throat] will grow and one day it will just burst. I always remember what someone said to me and that is the reason why I don't confront until I really had to. Things actually get better if you just learn how to control your emotions while also trying to get it out because a lot of people do not control their emotions when they're trying to get everything out. I have seen that and it's not what I aspire to become. That is why is I just stay silent most of the time. Even when I'm angry, I go into silent mode and that's not healthy at all. Especially if you're in a relationship, it's not healthy to just stay quiet. You have to say everything to your partner. And that's I guess that was where I failed before.

[00:11:29]Oh my god, my throat agrees. [sighs] So many changes. So many changes in perspective. I can't imagine like it's like every day I learn something new and then my perspective change. I'm still bad at being kind to my old self, you know, trying to understand why I did so many bad things in my life, so many wrong things. I guess if I also did not do those things, I wouldn't learn all of these things today. You know, as Dave said, mistakes is the best teacher. No, nobody said that. [laughter] Experience is the best teacher, but if you make mistakes in life, it is also one of the best teachers. I said that. I guess that it's for the yapping tonight.

[00:12:18]My back really hurts and I want to lay down now. So, yeah. Thanks again for listening to my yap today. It's kind of uplifting and jolly and yeah, cuz I have the energy to be. Yeah, I'll try to be as strong as I can as I've always been.

[00:12:38]I guess that's me. And yeah, this is my YAP session. Um, as I've said in my previous video, maybe I'm going to go live so we can talk on live. Um, yeah, it's better to talk on live because you can also like say your thoughts, you know, and not just me talking in front of the camera. So, I think I'm going to see you guys next time in a live. So, let me know also if you're interested in that. Again, guys, thank you so much for watching. Don't forget to like this video and subscribe also. I will see you guys in my next vlog or live. So, yeah.

[00:13:17]See you. Bye.