It Might Sound Strange, But I Wish You Pain

追加: 2026-06-01

[00:00:04]I know the title of this video sounds like a crazy hot take, but stick with me. So, we're going to talk about it.

[00:00:13]I want you to think about the most pain that you've ever been in in your life.

[00:00:20]Was it physical?

[00:00:22]Was it emotional?

[00:00:25]Mental?

[00:00:27]Think about it. Get that scenario in your head.

[00:00:33]How could I know what you're thinking. How could How could you wish anybody pain?

[00:00:39]I hate pain. I try to be as comfortable as possible all the time.

[00:00:48]I try to fix the pain whenever I have pain.

[00:00:54]It sounds so counterintuitive that I would wish anybody pain.

[00:00:59]I thought so, too.

[00:01:02]But I heard I was listening to Andy Grammer the other day, which is where I got this idea.

[00:01:10]And his song is called I Wish You Pain.

[00:01:14]And I was like, hold up. Wait a minute.

[00:01:18]Why would you wish anybody pain? Why would you wish the people that you love pain?

[00:01:26]Well, it is day 20 27 of my speaking challenge.

[00:01:33]I am practicing speaking every day while I play Minecraft so that I can get better at it because I have a fear of public speaking. I get social anxiety, and this is something a challenge that I've been doing that I want to improve in. Today's 20 day 27.

[00:01:57]And if you're new here, I so appreciate you watching and I hope you stick with it because I think this is quite important.

[00:02:08]As I sit here and get struck to death by baby zombies, I picked doing the trial chamber today for a specific reason.

[00:02:20]Because I think it represents pain and suffering in our life, but also because it's called a trial chamber.

[00:02:33]You go through various trials in order to get rewards and good loot. And I just thought it would be a good metaphor as I hide away from my pain and inside this little room.

[00:02:48]But Oh, also I wanted you to know with my videos, I don't edit them. I don't do retakes.

[00:02:57]Um I don't read from a script because this is how I want to practice conveying my thoughts.

[00:03:03]So, that all being said the Andy Grammar song that I heard, this is what the lyrics said.

[00:03:12]And just a sec >> [laughter] >> after I finish All right, let's let's go in here and read them.

[00:03:20]It said I know that it might sound strange, but I wish you pain.

[00:03:26]I love you more than you could ever know.

[00:03:29]Been here before and I just want to see you grow cuz everything that matters most, that's where it goes by a different name.

[00:03:37]I know that it might sound strange, but I wish you pain.

[00:03:42]And basically that just means that experiencing struggles in life, heartbreak, failure, just hard things.

[00:03:54]It's a vital part of growing, of building inner strength.

[00:04:02]And while I don't think really any of us would wish pain on anybody, it's just a profound way of saying that I love you and I want to see you grow as a person.

[00:04:19]So let's let's look back at the different ways that we we struggle in our lives cuz everybody struggles.

[00:04:29]That's just part of our world, unfortunately.

[00:04:33]And so if pain and suffering is part of our world, we might as well try to grow from it. We might as well try to learn and become better people because of it.

[00:04:50]Because through hard things, we can become more patient, we can become we can endure harder things, we can love more, we just we have a deeper understanding of life and of hard things.

[00:05:13]So I think about several instances or examples in life where one might experience pain or suffering.

[00:05:28]And first is in death of a loved one.

[00:05:33]Now, I've been very fortunate in my life to not have to go through this very much.

[00:05:41]I have lost grandparents.

[00:05:45]I lost my first grandparent, my grandpa, when I was in sixth grade.

[00:05:54]And I remember that was hard. It was difficult. It was sad, for sure.

[00:05:59]But we didn't live near our grandparents. They lived pretty far away, so we only saw them maybe once a year.

[00:06:09]That didn't make it less hard, but it wasn't the same as losing somebody that I knew better, that I live with every day.

[00:06:20]In fact, one of my worst fears is losing the people that I love most.

[00:06:27]My husband, my children, my immediate family, my even my extended family, or close friends. I mean, if anybody out there has gone through losing somebody close like that, I just I can't imagine.

[00:06:45]I've had close friends go through loss like this, and I just don't know how they do it.

[00:06:56]Of course, I wouldn't wish that kind of pain on somebody, but at the same time, that kind of suffering brings growth like nothing else could.

[00:07:14]And I wish I wish this world didn't have any suffering or pain, but it does.

[00:07:20]I mean, we could get into why that is, and people might have different perspectives on it.

[00:07:29]And perhaps I'll talk about that in a later video.

[00:07:34]But I think we can all agree that this world does have pain.

[00:07:41]So, loss of a loved one, that's that's huge.

[00:07:46]Loss of a friend.

[00:07:48]I think maybe the deepest pain of losing someone I had was when my fiance broke up with me 20 days after he proposed.

[00:08:01]That sure felt like a death to me.

[00:08:06]But it maybe in a different way.

[00:08:09]But because I was no longer seeing him every day and being with him and I had been planning a future with him and that all of a sudden was gone.

[00:08:22]So, I mean, loss can be experienced in several ways.

[00:08:34]But now that I can look back at it and now that I've gone through that through that I've learned a lot and if that hadn't have happened, I wouldn't have ended up with the man that I married today.

[00:08:51]I wouldn't have my husband now.

[00:08:53]Which ended up being so much better.

[00:08:59]Like not even compare not even comparable.

[00:09:08]And this is this is a tricky topic.

[00:09:12]And you know, I don't want to compare instances or even say say anything in a trite manner that that could be a misunderstood.

[00:09:34]But I think the fact remains that just like in this trial chamber I'm I'm fighting these mobs. I'm experiencing pain, if you will.

[00:09:51]To what end?

[00:09:53]Well, I guess I get some good loot sometimes.

[00:09:57]Maybe it's making me a better fighter.

[00:10:03]I know the the metaphor will fall short, but you know, in some in some respects, it's comparable.

[00:10:21]I think of physical pain that I went through.

[00:10:26]I've had a few different surgeries.

[00:10:30]I had my tonsils out when I was in eighth grade because I kept getting strep throat and the doctor well, you know, and strep throat is not good to have. It can mess with your heart.

[00:10:48]And you can get complications from it, and I was I was getting it several times in the antibiotics were you know, only so helpful. So, they suggested removing my tonsils.

[00:11:01]Well, that is a significant pain. In fact, that was one of the most That was one of my most Well, I would say that was the hardest surgery.

[00:11:12]It was the most painful recovery, anyway.

[00:11:16]But, if I hadn't have gone through that, if I hadn't have gone through that pain, then I would have kept getting strep throat and could have got much worse complications from it.

[00:11:32]And so, even though that was really difficult, I'm glad that it happened.

[00:11:41]My other surgery was I had appendicitis in high school.

[00:11:48]And that was a really big pain.

[00:11:52]And it took a bit of recovery time. I wasn't able to play sports while I was recovering. So I missed the rest of basketball which was tough.

[00:12:04]That's hard as a high school, you know, student.

[00:12:11]And I will tell you guys that it was very, very fortunate that um this appendicitis happened because the reason, well, appendicitis appendicitis is you know, I'm pretty sure you guys all know, but it was when your appendix gets all inflamed and infected and they have to remove it.

[00:12:38]Now this can happen for different reasons, infection and things like that.

[00:12:44]Mine actually happened because there was actually a carcinoid tumor that was growing right at the opening where the appendix connects to your intestines.

[00:12:57]There is a tumor blocking it off so it got infected.

[00:13:01]And had that not happened, the carcinoid tumor is a tumor that is such that it can turn into cancer.

[00:13:12]And because because the appendix appendicitis happened, they were able to find that and remove that tumor and save me from getting um cancer.

[00:13:28]About, you know, whatever type of cancer that is.

[00:13:33]And I just I look back at that and think that that pain and suffering that I went through for the appendicitis was so necessary and and definitely saved me from a a lot worse pain and suffering that could have happened in the future.

[00:14:06]And at the time, well, I've always been scared of hospitals and I hate hospitals and sickness and anything to do with that.

[00:14:17]And so I was terrified out of my mind, but you know, when I was experiencing the appendicitis symptoms, but at the same time I I just I knew that it had to happen. I knew that I had to go to the hospital and have it taken care of.

[00:14:38]And I just had an overwhelming peace about it.

[00:14:44]So that I I wasn't as scared as I should have been.

[00:14:54]And we could get into theological topics and perhaps I will in a later video, but I mean that could be it's it's own discussion. [snorts] So I'll probably save that for later, but so physical pain.

[00:15:22]And I know that there are people who deal with tremendous physical pain, maybe uh maybe chronic illnesses or cancer. Um Cancer has been in my family. I've had family members who have have serious cancer.

[00:15:43]Um And it's it's a scary thing. It's pain and suffering and you know, I wouldn't wish that on anybody, but at the same time, I've seen I've seen it make my family members stronger.

[00:16:02]And perhaps that is not the path that they would have chosen, but at the same time, you know, it it helped them become the person that they are today.

[00:16:20]Uh what other kinds of pain? There's emotional pain.

[00:16:27]You know, whether that's that that comes with loss, that comes with heartbreak.

[00:16:36]Um I've gone through heartbreaks in relationships, breaking up with my fiance, but also other heartbreaks throughout high school.

[00:16:50]And you know, they suck. Heartbreak sucks.

[00:16:57]But at the same time, it shapes you as a person.

[00:17:03]And you can become stronger, you can learn more about yourself, specifically in relationships, what kind of person you are and what kind of person um you get along with best or the kind of person that you need in your life.

[00:17:24]You learn how to how to love, how to be patient.

[00:17:28]These types of things.

[00:17:38]So, heartbreak.

[00:17:39]And as I'm thinking through all of these things, I'm thinking about my children.

[00:17:45]And it seems so counterintuitive for me to wish them pain. Like seeing my kids in pain is one of the worst agonies that you can have as a parent.

[00:18:01]And I hate it when my daughter scrapes her knee and is in pain or gets [music] hurt or you know, when they're sick and they don't feel well. I hate that. It absolutely kills me.

[00:18:15]But at the same time, if they if they have a life free of problem, just happy-go-lucky life, well, what happens if something really, really bad happens to them?

[00:18:36]They face a huge a huge problem, a huge trial, a huge suffering.

[00:18:43]If they don't have any experience with little pains along the way, then they won't be able to grow in strength to be able to face those kind of problems, you know?

[00:18:58]And I think about it Oh, man.

[00:19:02]I think about it like working out.

[00:19:08]Why do we work out? It hurts. Our muscles tear and if you're working out to get stronger, your muscles literally tear and it hurts and it doesn't feel good. But why do you do it?

[00:19:23]You do it because it helps you to get stronger.

[00:19:27]It helps you to be healthier.

[00:19:31]I guess in the same way the difficult things we face in our life builds our character, builds our strength, helps us to face more and more difficult things.

[00:19:46]I think about some of the things that I'm facing right now and if if I hadn't you know, have worked up to those things through all the maybe a little less minor things that I've gone through, I don't know how I would face these things.

[00:20:11]And I I can't imagine losing my husband. I can't imagine losing my kids. I can't imagine losing my parents someday.

[00:20:23]But I guess the hard things that we go through in life build us up so that we can face those things and obviously you know, if if you have faith in God, then he will help you be able to face those things.

[00:20:51]And I know that not all of my listeners are believers, are Christians.

[00:20:59]But again, I I'm not going to get into that topic right now, but that is something that has helped me face difficult things in my life.

[00:21:18]And gives it purpose and meaning.

[00:21:21]Okay, I am very lost.

[00:21:24]How do I get out of here?

[00:21:29]Is this a trial getting lost?

[00:21:35]I'm thinking of other trials in my life.

[00:21:37]Like right now one of my family members is going through an incredibly difficult time.

[00:21:46]And I can't imagine going through what she is going through right now.

[00:21:50]I can't get into specifics. I'm sorry, but I cannot figure out how to get out of here.

[00:22:01]But here we go.

[00:22:06]At the same time it is growing her in a way that nothing else like this could.

[00:22:14]And I sure don't wish what she's going through on her.

[00:22:19]I sure don't wish that kind of pain.

[00:22:22]And she would never would have chosen that for herself.

[00:22:26]But sometimes things are out of our control.

[00:22:34]And you know, we can try and grow and learn from them.

[00:22:48]Cuz suffering sucks, but it is part of life and there is beauty in the growth.

[00:22:59]In the things that you can learn in building the inner strength.

[00:23:14]What kind of things have you guys gone through?

[00:23:18]Oh, I was going to talk a little bit more about emotional pain.

[00:23:25]I've I've battled with different emotional problems like anxiety.

[00:23:34]It got really bad during a season in my life.

[00:23:38]Shoot, my pants broke.

[00:23:43]It got really bad for a while where I was having multiple panic attacks daily.

[00:23:50]I was really struggling with my health.

[00:23:54]I'm not going to survive this. Yes, I am. Be strong.

[00:23:59]Um but I was struggling with random things in my health, my my heart.

[00:24:07]Um it was causing severe anxiety.

[00:24:12]Like I mentioned, I'm super anxious about going to the doctor and going to the hospital, and this just all amplified that.

[00:24:24]And I was having problems just get you know, eating enough cuz I was struggling to swallow I think just with the severe anxiety and things like that.

[00:24:38]And that was that time in my life was the most difficult health challenge that I've gone through.

[00:24:48]And I I hope to never go through something like that again.

[00:24:54]But it did it did help me to grow as a person.

[00:25:08]Even though it was hard beyond belief. And I know probably a lot of you may struggle with su- various emotional suffering and pain.

[00:25:26]Pain that you didn't ask for, that you didn't want.

[00:25:33]But, I guess I challenge us to view it as an opportunity for growth as a person.

[00:25:43]And because you go through something difficult like that, it gives you such a deeper understanding of that thing.

[00:25:54]Of the thing you go through, and then you're able to relate to other people who go through similar struggles like that.

[00:26:03]And we can comfort each other because of the struggles that we go through. Because we can relate and understand what's what that's like.

[00:26:27]Yikes.

[00:26:34]So, yeah. Pain.

[00:26:38]Maybe a little bit of a deeper and heavy topic tonight, but it's something that we all face.

[00:26:47]Whether it's financial trouble, relationship trouble.

[00:26:54]Um one time when I was in high school, we had our house robbed. Somebody came and trashed our house and took a lot of possessions and as a little girl in elementary school, I got I think I was 6th grade. That was terrifying to have your space invaded and knowing [snorts] that these creeps were in your house and took your stuff.

[00:27:29]So, there's trials because of people that are evil and do bad things.

[00:27:40]I can't imagine you know, maybe some of you who who have gone through something where somebody has done something to you or your family members, whether they've hurt them physically or emotionally.

[00:28:02]Maybe on those people you wish them pain.

[00:28:05]Though, that's not necessarily I'd say a good thing.

[00:28:15]But, those those things are hard, they're difficult.

[00:28:25]They're difficult to face.

[00:28:32]So, what do we do with it? Where do we go from there?

[00:28:40]Well, like I said, there's all pain and suffering has a purpose.

[00:28:48]though we might not be able to see it for sure.

[00:28:51]Like I think of children and children who go through illness, children's cancer.

[00:29:01]And I look at that and I think what good could come from that?

[00:29:06]And maybe we would never understand.

[00:29:11]But if you're a believer, if you're a Christian, then you believe that God is working everything together for good.

[00:29:19]Even though that might be incredibly hard to reconcile.

[00:29:24]We believe that God is good.

[00:29:27]Even though we can't understand it.

[00:29:30]He's not causing the pain and suffering.

[00:29:32]He is in control, but the pain and suffering comes from evil.

[00:29:36]It comes from sin.

[00:29:41]And it comes from the wickedness of men's hearts.

[00:29:47]And maybe some people are going to disagree with me on that, but that's okay.

[00:29:59]Oops.

[00:30:06]It's a tricky topic and while I don't wish anybody pain and suffering, I do think that it is necessary for us to be able to grow as people.

[00:30:34]It's necessary for us to build character and inner strength.

[00:30:40]And do I wish that this world had zero suffering and that it could just function without it? Of course.

[00:30:48]But that's just not where we're at.

[00:30:50]That's not the reality.

[00:30:55]I think we should all have more compassion for people who are in pain and suffering.

[00:31:02]For sure.

[00:31:05]You just never know what somebody is going through.

[00:31:10]So a little word of kindness could go a long way.

[00:31:16]I think we need to be careful with our words on the internet. We can be hasty to maybe tear people down a little bit on the internet because we're hiding behind a screen.

[00:31:39]But I think we need to be uh more mindful of the fact that a lot of people are just going through a lot of hurt and they're looking for they're looking for a way to escape the pain.

[00:32:03]And if you've been following this journey I have something very important to me that I want to share with you guys on day 30.

[00:32:21]So maybe if you are curious and have more questions from this discussion I encourage you to watch that video and maybe you'll find some answers that you're seeking.

[00:32:36]And if people are driven away from the things I'm talking about, that's okay.

[00:32:47]Cuz they're important to me and and everybody's going to have their own opinions and thoughts and beliefs.

[00:32:56]And I understand that.

[00:32:58]And I have I'm I've accepted that and I've come to terms with that.

[00:33:06]So, a little bit of a deeper topic tonight, but if you made it this far, so so appreciate it.

[00:33:13]Um comment candle if you want to.

[00:33:18]My poor armor has been destroyed.

[00:33:21]Let's end on a little bit of a lighter note.

[00:33:24]And I'm excited because tomorrow is Minecraft Live.

[00:33:33]Uh some of you in my in the Discord pointed that out to me that Minecraft Live is happening tomorrow and I totally missed that. I would totally forgot about that. So, thank you for reminding me.

[00:33:45]Um I'm super excited for the new uh you know, the sulfur caves game drop and I'm super excited to find out what they have in the works, what's coming next.

[00:34:01]I can only hope that it is an end update, but I kind of don't think it is.

[00:34:08]I will be pleasantly surprised if it is an end update.

[00:34:13]I almost feel like they might do a major update for the holidays. So, like around Christmas time.

[00:34:20]So, I kind of have no idea what it could be.

[00:34:24]Do you guys have any ideas?

[00:34:28]I don't know. They they always at least have something something good up their sleeves usually.

[00:34:34]So I'm looking forward to that.

[00:34:36]And thank you guys so much for watching this video.

[00:34:41]I lost my pants.

[00:34:44]And thank you for your support in this journey. I so so appreciate it. Thank you for all your encouraging and supportive comments.

[00:34:53]And I will see you in the next video.

[00:34:55]Bye.

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