Your avoidant ex came back? Run... Here is why.

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[00:00:00]You [snorts] have been sitting with this one question ever since this card. Will they come back? And if they don't, does it mean you meant nothing? And if they do come back, does it mean it is real this time? By the end of this video, you are going to understand exactly what is happening inside their nervous system, what makes them come back, and when they go completely silent on you. And neither answer is what you think it is.

[00:00:29]For the last eight years, I have been researching toxic relationships and attachment theory. I have lived experience of these dynamics both in my childhood and past relationships. So, okay, let's do a full nervous system autopopsy. Two scenarios you know too well. If you've ever dated an outward fearful avoidant, you probably experienced at least one of these completely normal except far from normal scenarios.

[00:00:57]Scenario number uno, they come back.

[00:01:02]And when I say come back, I mean they come back like someone who just remembered they left the stove on while being on vacation in another continent.

[00:01:10]Come back. Suddenly they're crying, begging, even saying things like, "I miss you. I made a mistake. Please give me another chance. I cannot live without you."

[00:01:23]writing paragraphs like they just bought a human emotions expansion pack on a steam Springfield like wow look at that they can show feelings all of the sudden which wasn't in your relationship or and just go back to your old paragraphs and mirror your words to sound all healed and self-aware I mean you probably already wrote a script when you psychologically autoopsied your ex right like I it. Scenario number two, they they disappear so hard you start wondering if freaking interpol got involved. Also known as no conversation, no repair, no closure, rebound within 3 milliseconds, being completely blindsidized. It's like the previous relationship got got erased from their operating system overnight.

[00:02:18]like you know playing the Sims for 10 hours straight and then the damn laptop crashes and when you open it again everything vanished gone and you genuinely feel a sudden and very strong urge to commit crimes or something except this is not a laptop this is real humans and real nervous systems. So yeah, understandably the person also known as you who is who is left behind is just sitting there like, "Wow, wait, what just happened?" And then you go on that orange app, also known as Reddit, and read about this species and go, "Hello, are we dealing with the same human? Did I date two different people? I never saw this in our relationship."

[00:03:09]The answer is actually much less complicated and way more biological because the truth is that outward fearful avoidance are not running one alarm only. They are running on two gigantic biological alarms that fight each other like two drunk cousins at a Russian wedding. So, oh yeah, cousin number one is the attachment alarm.

[00:03:33]Cousin number two is the shame alarm.

[00:03:36]and sitting in the middle like that one exhausted aunt watching the chaos and thanking God every day she never had kids to begin with. That's the third creature called image restoration.

[00:03:50]And whichever cousin of those alarms wins that day decides to behavior. So yeah, same human different alarm winning the argument. And that is exactly what we're going to break open right now.

[00:04:06]Because the next part explains everything you could never make sense of. The attachment alarm, why they came back. The attachment alarm lives mostly in the lyic system, also known as the amygdala and anterior singulate cortex.

[00:04:23]basically the little brain areas responsible for bonding and social pain and deciding which human your nervous system is about to emotionally attach a nuclear bond to. So when a bond forms, oxytocin starts linking safety to that person. Dopamine starts firing around hope, anticipation, reunion and all that addictive brain chemistry. And slowly the brain starts staging that person like hey this human matters.

[00:04:58]So when that bond breaks suddenly the nervous system does not go okay well it was fun while it lasted.

[00:05:07]No the nervous system goes what the hell cute so now we're dying. The dopamine drops oxytocin signaling changes. The anterior singulate cortex starts screaming and social rejection lights up the same brain regions that processes physical pain. Physical pain.

[00:05:31]And when the attachment alarm gets loud enough in outward fearful avoidance, they come back. That's the cue when they come back. But they come back like someone who just realized the entire house is on fire and the insurance company is definitely not going to cover this one. Panic come back. Absolutely.

[00:05:52]They come back. So they start texting, calling, showing up emotionally like, "Please give please give me another chance. I miss you. I messed up. I hate myself for what I did to you." Life feels so empty without you. Honestly, in that moment, their nervous system is not thinking about shame yet because it is busy panicking about loss, which is also exactly why they now have the audacity to suddenly come back after what they did, begging for another chance.

[00:06:33]Just like an Only Fans girl who just realizes, wait a minute, taxes are not optional because their system is literally yelling, "Restore that bond immediately before this nervous system completely implodes."

[00:06:51]And that part is real. The panic is real. The missing you and feeling like you are about to die without you, that is real.

[00:07:01]But real doesn't mean healed. Okay?

[00:07:03]Real doesn't mean stable because real here just means the attachment alarm is currently louder than the other alarm. So if you take them back and quiet that alarm, go figure what's going to happen next. Yes, exactly. The same old cycle only worse.

[00:07:24]Because once the attachment panic calms down, guess who wakes up again louder than ever? Why they disappear? Yes.

[00:07:33]Hello. Good morning. Shame alarm. And it's not like they magically built any capacity to tolerate shame while they were missing sitting deep in the hole of self-pity. No accountability means they are the victim. So woo is me. That is their cycle. So yeah, unfortunately there is a second alarm. And this one, this one is an ugly piece of work actually.

[00:07:59]Attachment pain feels like someone punched you in in your chest with a wrecking ball. Like your chest just became a vacuum and up. Your lungs did not get that memo.

[00:08:12]Shame feels like starting your first shift at a strip club at a 90year-old.

[00:08:17]You enter stage and lock eyes with your grandpa sitting there in the front row.

[00:08:22]Yeah. Your your stomach drops, right?

[00:08:25]Because shame is not just I feel bad.

[00:08:28]Shame is identity threat. Their insula lights up. Their media prefrontal cortex gets involved and their brain starts doing a horrifying review of them like what am I in their eyes now? Do they see me as crew? Do they see me as selfish?

[00:08:46]Do they see me as a liar? Do they see the parts of me I pretend don't exist?

[00:08:52]And for the outward fearful avoidance, this is where things get really ugly because many of them can tolerate emotional pain way better that than they can tolerate shame. Sure, pain hurts, but shame shame annihilates.

[00:09:10]Pain says something bad happened and I'm hurting. Shame says I am the bad thing.

[00:09:17]And the nervous system hates that conclusion with the intensity of a toddler being told bath time exist hates. So basically when the shame alarm gets louder than the attachment alarm, the entire strategy changes because now the brain is not saying restore the bond. Now it's saying abort mission, evacuate the building, never return to the crime scene ever. So they go distance, silence, coldness, burn bridges, start a new life, new environment, new situationship.

[00:09:54]Sometimes a rebound so fast it looked like they had them in the trunk of their car the whole time. That fast. From the outside, sorry, from the outside, people go, "Wow, they didn't care." But internally their nervous system goes if I go back there I will have to face what I did. And for an unhealed outward fearful avoidant whose avoidance strategy is to hide behind the curtain that's impossible. They that can feel more terrifying that they crackhead bumping into the guy they still owe money to. The one from 2019. Not possible.

[00:10:33]And if they avoid you so hard that they start treating you like you do not ex exist, that's not just fear of rejection alone.

[00:10:43]It's actually also fear of their image getting exposed. And yes, it is dysfunctional, but it's the biology that's why they need healing. And yes, they deserve the side eye for that. And honestly, they should probably bring back those medieval shame parades where they drag you through town while everybody watches you get publicly humiliated, right?

[00:11:07]But wait, this is actually the exact thing that's happening inside their head. The only difference now is there is no crowd. It's just their ego standing there pretending that trial is not about them.

[00:11:23]And this is where things get extra messed up because between those two alarms sits the clown in the third layer. You know the ant.

[00:11:33]And this one is the sneakiest of all. If you like this so far, go ahead and subscribe and click that notification bell. Tell me, did they come back or is it still radio silence? Drop a comment below. The sneaky third layer. So, let's talk about that clown in the third layer, image restoration.

[00:11:55]And this one is very sneaky because from the outside it can look exactly like love and sometimes it is mixed with love. Sometimes it's mixed with panic.

[00:12:07]Sometimes it is mixed with, oh I look like the villain now. So what happens is that if someone confronts them right, calls them out or generously performs a full psychological autopsy on them and suddenly there's this gap, this gap between who they think they are and the thing they just did is visible. And while their ego c goes, this is unacceptable because now their identity is cracked.

[00:12:41]also known as their beloved. I think I'm the best partner, but I hurt you. I think I'm loyal, but I betrayed you. I think I'm loving, but I abandoned you.

[00:12:53]And the brain hates that contradiction because, god forbid, outward fearful avoidance face the reality they created.

[00:13:00]Right?

[00:13:02]So sometimes the nervous system tries to fix it and that is when you see them come back even after being fully exposed. Like they can literally be exposed and still come back like begging and apologizing explaining and not just because they miss you but because their ego is screaming.

[00:13:27]Plea, please do not archive this real version of me in your memory forever.

[00:13:35]Let me translate that for a second.

[00:13:39]Please do not let me face the reality I created.

[00:13:43]Meanwhile, you have been living it all alone alone. Well, they made you feel dramatic. So their behavior becomes, please do not see me as that person.

[00:13:57]Please let me fix this. Please give me another chance so the story about me is not permanently awful.

[00:14:06]And I have to live with the consequences of my own actions.

[00:14:11]That but this is image restoration.

[00:14:14]So the attachment system wants the bond.

[00:14:17]The shame system wants to escape the mirror. The image system wants to fix the mirror. And their behavior becomes this weird compromise between those three. Which is why from the outside it looks like they have three personalities fighting inside one's go.

[00:14:38]Because biologically speaking, well, they kind of do, except they're adults and they do have a choice to grow up. They just don't want to because it's uncomfortable. You know, woo is me. Meanwhile, inward fearful avoidance are getting burnt alive on a daily basis all while begging them to please at least just stop pouring the gasoline. And I'm not done yet. Because rebounds deserve their own breakdown.

[00:15:09]And so does the move they pull right when you have finally had enough.

[00:15:14]Rebounds. Ambiculous loss. When outward fearful avoidance rebound quickly, the person left behind thinks, "Wow, I meant nothing. Wow, they replace me instantly."

[00:15:26]But rebounds have absolutely nothing.

[00:15:28]Nothing to do with replacing someone emotionally. Okay, they are regulation.

[00:15:34]That's what they are. Also known as the brain desperately trying to stabilize something that just got destabilized.

[00:15:43]And sometimes the rebound is shame regulation because the original partner now carries the exposure. You saw things, you know things. Your presence activates the shame alarm. And when they face you, that feels like having a crack business at home. And the SWAT team is knocking on your door, their door.

[00:16:06]So the nervous system distances as best as it can, but still shame does not does not just disappear because the body still feels it. So the brain grabs the fastest available relief, also known as a new person who [clears throat] gives new dopamine, new novelty, new validation, who does not know the backstory, a clean slate, and their ego goes, see, I am still desirable.

[00:16:37]Pe people think they know me, but they know nothing. Actually, I'm not the villain my nervous system feels like right now. actually I am most likely the victim here. People are just trying to gaslight me. Like their ego can bring any narrative it pleases. And it does not have to contain any truth or logic at all. And yes, they know what's true.

[00:17:04]They don't have amnesia. They just ignore it. Kind of like when you hit your toe on the corner of a table, but you work as a kindergarten teacher. Your brain immediately loads the entire cursing vocabulary known to mankind.

[00:17:21]But instead, you just stand there in silence while your soul leaves your body. And one of the kids ask, "Teacher, are you okay?" and your smile and go, "Mhm, I'm fine." while internally experiencing several complete new dimensions of pain.

[00:17:39]So with that said, a rebound is not an emotional replacement. It is pure ego stabilization.

[00:17:48]Basically the nervous system is throwing crack at someone in withdrawal.

[00:17:54]Other times the rebound is attachment substitution.

[00:17:59]This happens when the attachment alarm is activated but the but the original partner is no longer accessible.

[00:18:09]Like they know there is no way you would take them back or they tried and you have boundaries and do not take back the cheating validation seeking mess they have been. So now the nervous system still wants attachment regulation but cannot get it from the original person.

[00:18:28]So the brain goes fine, next available object please, thank you. Also known as a new person, [clears throat] new dopamine, new reward signals and partial relief from attachment withdrawal.

[00:18:44]But this never works because there cannot be an other attachment love until real actual true healing happens. Then they can get secure love if they want.

[00:18:56]But this substitute attachment love is just them trying to gaslight themselves that they did not feel and lose the person they truly love.

[00:19:06]And by using this new substitute, they try to avoid withdrawal from losing their attachment love. So with that said, this rebound is not just about image. It is about withdrawal relief too. But still the same behavior with a completely different internal problem being solved.

[00:19:29]And that is why rebounds look so brutal from the outside because the person left behind is thinking wow I was nothing.

[00:19:38]While the reality is um their nervous system is fighting for dear life to not collapse and die.

[00:19:49]So now let's talk about the inward fearful avoidance side. So as you know inward fearful avoidance nervous system regulates the opposite way because when the bond breaks you don't go outward but you go inward like you go rumination analysis self-lame trying to understand every single detail make it make sense trying to do that trying to find the exact moment everything went wrong simply because the inward fearful avoidance system seeks repair through understanding.

[00:20:26]If if I understand it, it's repaired. So when outward fearful avoidance disappear with no closure, like so many inward fearful avoidance caregivers did, the inward fearful avoidance nervous system get stuck in something called ambiguous loss.

[00:20:44]Like the bond ended, but the emotional loop never closed. So months months later, the brain still randomly wakes up. Wait, why didn't they come back? Why did they try to fix it? Why didn't they try to fix it? How could they let me go so easily?

[00:21:06]They act like I don't even exist, like I'm a monster or something all of the sudden. Well, I guess I'm a monster now.

[00:21:12]I guess I didn't matter. And that last sentence is where inward fearful avoided torture themselves the most because the real translation is not you meant nothing.

[00:21:26]The real translation in the inward fearful avoidance system is [sighs] coming back would have required facing shame and vulnerability and our nervous system could not regulate that. And those are two very different sentences.

[00:21:42]And yes, sometimes the bond really was not that deep. Like sometimes the whole thing must dopamine and novelty and validation from the start.

[00:21:52]Ego stabilization.

[00:21:54]Unfortunately, that happens too. And people need to stop pretending that it does not because it does because sometimes you really were dealing with a distraction and rebound bond. And I get it. That that hurts. And it's disgusting how outward fearful avoidance use other people for ego regulation, their regulation.

[00:22:19]It is absolutely inhumane behavior in my book. But in the cases where the bond was deep and they still vanished, that is the shame alarm winning in the end.

[00:22:30]Because the deeper the bond was for them and the bigger the exposure, the louder the shame alarm. And the louder the shame alarm, the more the ego may decide, "Yeah, you know what? We are never returning to that crime scene ever again." Because if we do, we might get caught for the crime.

[00:22:55]So the brutal truth under all of this is that outward fear for avoiders often sit between two terrors. The terror of losing the bond, the terror of being seen inside the bond. When bond loss wins, they chase. When exposure wins, they run. And when both hit at once, they might come back trying to repair both the relationship and their image.

[00:23:21]But still, it is never real repair. It is never about you because they do not even know how to take accountability yet, let alone repair and face shame and have the capacity to hold you. Also, when it gets tough and when neither can be regulated, losing the bond or being seen inside the bond, they rebound. Not because they're over you, but because their nervous system is trying not to implode. And sometimes, as I will explain, they can do really manipulative things just to save themselves from being seen as the one who gave up. The ugliest move and what it actually means.

[00:24:05]Like you fight with your life to repair this relationship. You try everything, communication and patience and understanding. And meanwhile, they do nothing but waste it and throw you occasional prompts of false hope.

[00:24:22]But then when you finally had enough, rightfully so, and they know damn well that even if they came back and said everything you wanted to hear, when they know that then you still wouldn't give them another chance, that is when they pull this mo move.

[00:24:41]They come back and say all the things you have been bleeding to hear. It can be things like accountability and regrets and love, everything. But now it's too late because the damage is already beyond words and it makes you want to scream why now.

[00:25:01]Well, here's the ugly truth about that.

[00:25:05]When they do this, first know that they also could have done this every time that they chose to watch you break and did nothing instead. But back then they could not. They did not because they knew they had to live up to what they said. But now they can say it easily because they are so sure you will not take them back anyway. Because the truth is that the shame they already made you carry for them, it wasn't enough.

[00:25:39]They need you to become the villain in the story. They need you to become the villain in the story. Because if they can make it look like you gave up, then they get to sit comfortably in their victim chair and say, "I tried my best, but it still wasn't enough. I wanted to I wanted to make it work, but they gave up on me. There's nothing more I could have done." And that narrative protects their ego from facing the actual truth.

[00:26:11]Also known as that they pushed you so far you didn't have a choice anymore.

[00:26:16]That they made you feel so safe in that they made you feel so unsafe inside the bond that you had to walk away from the person you love. And this is absolutely brutal on your nervous system for the most obvious reasons. But trust is this.

[00:26:32]Okay.

[00:26:34]They did not come back to repair anything. They came back because they knew you would say no. They wanted the story to end without you being the the one who gave up. Why do they come back when you have moved on? This is the reason because they cannot live with themselves knowing they made you give up on them. Listen now, okay? Never trust them when they come back. It's not safe.

[00:27:00]It is never about you. It is image management and sometimes they're not even aware of it. And even if there is love somewhere underneath, it will never be protected over ego and self-image.

[00:27:16]And they will put you through that same cycle again. Only this time, they will also use you to rewrite the narrative so they do not have to face the consequences of their own actions. and intentionally or not, it really doesn't matter because the impact on you is the exact same.

[00:27:37]So no, they will not change. Okay? Not until real healing happens and that that they chose choose that and real healing takes a hell of of a lot more than some apology speech and some panic about image management. If they have not done any real healing, they do not have any integrity, restraint, capacity or basically a spine.

[00:28:03]They survive and adapt to please that ego at all cost. It is their survival strategy learned in childhood. And there is no love you can ever give that will change that because the ego does not want love. The ego wants control.

[00:28:19]Love cannot override trauma. And you are the living proof of that. And as long as they are choosing to protect ego and running from the person they need to become to keep real love, they will never be safe for real love.

[00:28:36]None of these situations says anything about you. Please let that sink in. No matter what the bond you had with the with them, okay? Everything it says is how outward fearful avoidance need to grow up and stop using people for their own benefit.

[00:28:55]And for the inward fearful avoidant listening to this this stop translating someone else's embarrassing survival strategy into your worth.