Who Are You Beyond Your Story? | EXISTENTIAL | 360 Days of Consciousness

[00:00:01]Hi everyone. Good morning, good afternoon, good evening.

[00:00:08]I am right now feeling a bit of a kind of an existential conflict because a part of myself uh wants to leave, don't want to stay here anymore, wants to leave the country. But um another part of me is like if doesn't want to go uh but I don't know how to describe the emotion because it's not fear. It's not I don't know. Um I don't know how to describe it but actually it's like if I don't want to face the world.

[00:00:48]Um so it's weird.

[00:00:52]Uh so um the feeling the the the topic for today is e existential which is um of course um existential consciousness what we are going to speak about and um and I was just thinking about that today that I was feeling like in this tiny crisis of existentialism um meaning that I I'm not I I am willing to leave the place. I'm I'm tired of being in Egypt. Um I don't want to be in Egypt anymore. I want to to go out, but at the same time, I don't want to leave, but not because I want to be here, but because I don't want to face everything that the world has today. Like when I start to think that I have to face all the PCR tests and all these things in Europe. um and then go to East Turkey and um and then go to Kyrgyzstan, a country that I have never been in. So I have no idea what I'm going to find. Um so these kind of things are like um messing with me right now. Like [clears throat] I want to go out but I don't want to go out.

[00:02:18]So also something that happens to me is that um even if I was born in Argentina and and last part of my trip is Argentina. I was born in Argentina and I know I have a mission with the country but I don't feel from there. So it's not like I am aiming to come back like I'm not coming back anywhere. It's like I'm just going to Argentina but it's not coming back for me. It's weird. It's like when people say you you will come back home for me it's not home. Uh for me it's a nice place where I can be but uh I don't know it's it's weird. So it's not feel this moved of going anywhere.

[00:03:01]Um so it's really weird.

[00:03:04]So I think that being here 360 days have been changing a bit my perception of how to to move through the world.

[00:03:16]So from this point of view, let's talk about existence.

[00:03:21]Of course, it's been tough to be alone here, but uh I've been connected every day, all the time with many things. But the real exam that we'll have is in August when I go to the North Pole and I will be two weeks, 15 days alone with no connection, not even WhatsApp. So I don't know how I'm going to handle that.

[00:04:02]I have no clue where this is going to take me.

[00:04:08]So a simple image of how to make a difference between two key words.

[00:04:16]So two main key words to exist and to destin.

[00:04:24]So what to exist means? It means ex go out started from where I am. So to go out from where I am to destin comes from the word de that means to go from one place to another.

[00:04:43]So what it is to exist?

[00:04:46]exist is to go out from one spot but no clue where am I going to to destiny is to go out from one spot but having for certain that I am heading to another one so now we know the difference let's talk specifically about exist So when we usually talk about existence to exist, we used to related with the verb to be or to stay.

[00:05:34]To be or to stay. And this is because one part of the verb to exist encodes that word. Stare means to be or to stay.

[00:05:46]So because of this we usually relate to exist with uh this verb here.

[00:05:55]This verb to be and to stay is a binary concept in ethmology because this verb is actually trying to explain uh the origin of this word is trying to explain in a binary concept if something is there or something is not.

[00:06:14]So that would be the just the the the reason why this word exist. This verb is to describe uh this verb is to describe exactly um the when when there's a sentence you need to describe is if the things that the the topic that you are talking about is actually there or is not there. Okay.

[00:06:37]So you have to describe this um this thing first to to keep going with explanation. So that's why this bird has been has been born because of that.

[00:06:51]So where comes the concept of existence?

[00:06:55]The concept of existence appears when this being here this this um this uh position here the zero turns into one.

[00:07:09]So existence is not defining the position of being or not being is defining the process from going to one spot to another.

[00:07:20]Okay. So, existence is not defining the states, it's defining the process. Okay.

[00:07:27]So, I hope you get this.

[00:07:30]So, we have here that to exist is that process here. So, it would be to go from one spot to another. So existence um remember it's not defining the path from going to the zero to the one.

[00:07:50]Okay, it's defining the process itself.

[00:07:55]So it has no clue where it's going. It just leaves one spot but has no idea where it goes.

[00:08:09]So here we have a very important clue to understand in this that we usually believe that we exist because we have a destiny.

[00:08:20]But the universe with this explanation is telling us something different. It's telling us that our destiny is to exist which is very different. So pay attention to this.

[00:08:32]We usually believe that we exist because we have a destiny and the universe says no your dy is to exist.

[00:08:45]So let's go understand why.

[00:08:52]So remember that yesterday we explained that the universe [snorts] is this one reality that expands itself to experience different options and it spread in different options. So it exists.

[00:09:23]It exists and the only thing that it knows is that it's coming back to one.

[00:09:29]The universe knows that it's coming to itself universe. So it's it's not actually going anywhere. [clears throat] It's not actually going anywhere. It's just the same spot. It's just the same the same place the same thing.

[00:09:52]So its own destiny is itself. It doesn't have to go anywhere. So why it goes out?

[00:09:59]Why it exists?

[00:10:04]So here is the existential crisis and question um of why the universe exists.

[00:10:17]If its destiny is itself, why to exist?

[00:10:23]Where it goes out.

[00:10:27]So in order to understand why we exist, we have to remember how we see the universe. Remember that there was a little person here, a human that moved through a horizon reaching a spot in the map.

[00:10:44]So we are nomads and we move through the horizon searching for this holy place and this creates the idea that we come from one spot reaching a destiny in front. This is a point of view that we humans have because we have been developing here in this world.

[00:11:10]So we see everything like that in the line.

[00:11:16]So remember that the reason why as a human we move forward and we are looking for something in front is because usually we have a problem here. We have a problem in the point of origin. So we start to move forward to leave the problem behind and find a solution. So here's a problem. There's a solution. So I have to go and figure out how to solve that problem. And this has been designed in our minds through millions of years of experiences of having problems in the place of origin.

[00:11:46]So whoever starts to travel going going away going out we start to look for new things in front in the horizon.

[00:11:59]We move forward always looking for solutions.

[00:12:04]So these experiences on earth has have created in our biology the idea that we always have to move from one spot to another in order to find a solution. If we have a problem, we have to find a solution in front to keep moving forward.

[00:12:22]So what we have done with the universe is to take the same things that happen in our planet in our species and put it in the whole cosmos. Like if also here the universe has a problem has a question and in front has the answer.

[00:12:46]So it has to move from one spot to another to find the answer to the problem the solution.

[00:12:56]So what do we think that the universe does? That the universe has a problem and it will reach many different ways and experiences to find tools to solve the problem.

[00:13:08]But here the universe, the universe doesn't find a solution here because the universe goes out from one spot and turns and finish its trick at the same spot.

[00:13:28]So it is not going to somewhere else to find a solution. It is coming back to the same spot because in the universe it's very different from what really happened in a human life in which we go from one spot to another to to solve a problem or to have a solution like like we come from the desert to find an oasis.

[00:13:51]The universe goes from the same spot and comes back to the same spot. It's universe comes back always to the same spot.

[00:13:59]So it's not the same.

[00:14:01]So the same thing that comes out from here is the same thing that comes back here.

[00:14:08]So actually for the universe the goal is not here is here.

[00:14:19]The goal actually for the universe is to go out is to exist.

[00:14:25]That's the only goal because it is coming back to the same spot. So why the universe would go out? Why the universe would go um would make something if the destiny is exactly the same.

[00:14:41]Basically because the only goal in the universe is to exist which is to go out from itself to experience to leave to sense.

[00:14:53]That's why the entire universe is assigned in order to keep going keep moving.

[00:15:01]to living experiencing once and again many things.

[00:15:07]So this is why for the universe the destiny is not to come back to to itself. The destiny of the universe is basically to exist.

[00:15:37]So now the thing is that if this one being is coming back to this one being.

[00:15:43]So the only goal is to come back to itself. This means that this being has never been gone has never created something outside itself.

[00:15:56]It's not that there is something out.

[00:15:59]Basically, this one is reflecting like in a mirror. Like if we have a mirror here and the only one being is reflected.

[00:16:13]And by this reflection, this one, this one here, the being is projecting itself what is within into the outside. It's projecting itself into the outside. But actually nothing really came out of it. It's just action that is being observed.

[00:16:37]So anything that exist in between really exist.

[00:16:46]It is just a perception.

[00:16:52]As I said, basically this only one being its only objective and reality is to come back to itself. So actually he never came out of itself um as a physical thing but it projected itself towards the outside.

[00:17:12]So its goal is not to come back here because it knows that it's just a reflection.

[00:17:19]The only goal was to exist to show and project what is inside towards the outside.

[00:17:38]So for example in the middle we have time and space. Time is something that cannot be measured. It's something that we can say it doesn't exist because you cannot touch time and time is different depending on where you are in this planet or another. It depends on the gravity. It just changed.

[00:17:59]So um it's all changed. So the time is is is um how do you say this word? Relative to the place where you are.

[00:18:17]Time is relative.

[00:18:20]So it's not actually true.

[00:18:22]And space also is not real because space is 99% void and only 1% matter.

[00:18:34]So actually the space is this relative feeling that um that works with our perception. We perceive smells, touch, colors, we listen. But all of that are just a perception interpreted by our brain. And our brain is just a way of this 1% organizing itself in order to understand the environment.

[00:19:05]So actually nothing in the space is real. Nothing in the time is real.

[00:19:12]All the things that are existing in the middle in between are just a perception from these two trying to experience itself.

[00:19:27]So now important to get this nothing of all this that we can perceive really exist really is is real. Nothing, nothing of this is real. But even though it exists, why it exists? Because existence is just different perceptions, different points of view that are moving along in order to find different ways.

[00:19:54]So to exist is basically to continue experiencing different new ways that is existence. So here we have a very different concept. One thing is real and the other thing is existence.

[00:20:12]Everything exist but nothing is real.

[00:20:21]We have 99% of existence and only 1% of reality.

[00:20:31]So the only way in which we can um so so anything that that we experience in our lives is real anything but even though exist and the only way in which you can find reality is by existing.

[00:20:48]So I know that this is difficult so I will try to go with this example.

[00:20:55]um all the matter all the things that you can perceive from the environment are made with atoms and subatomic particles. So all these tiny little particles are like the 1% surrounded by 90 99% of space.

[00:21:12]But now imagine this that this 1% this 1% is like the earth and the sun.

[00:21:21]Imagine like the sun is the proton in a in an atom and the earth is an electron.

[00:21:29]So in between the earth and the sun there's so much space a lot of space huge. But even though the gravity of the sun pulls the earth it pushes it a lot. So we spin around.

[00:21:48]So this 1% is able to expand that this 1% which is the reality controls everything that exists.

[00:22:02]So everything that we perceive that exists like my body everything is just magnetical perception is all the gravity the magnetical field of this 1%. So everything what we see, what we feel, what we touch, everything is just a perception.

[00:22:29]So this is why everything that we see that we experience exists but only the 1% is real.

[00:22:41]So this 1% is practically impossible to touch. It's impossible to experience because anything that you can experience is just existence but it's not real. So to go to reality you have to go very very very deep in this huge field.

[00:23:06]So distance is to go out from itself and it doesn't matter where you go. It's just the expansion uh it's just the the the expansion of the things going out moving along all the time. So basically existence is um is this moving forward is a projection that keeps me expanding. It's not a goal.

[00:23:34]A goal. Okay. It's basically existence.

[00:23:38]Um going out.

[00:23:42]It's difficult to explain something that doesn't exist.

[00:23:59]I can say that I exist but not that I am real. Because if I am willing to become conscious about existence.

[00:24:14]What we have to realize is that to exist is just a perception that comes from another perception.

[00:24:23]So everything is a perception of something else.

[00:24:28]So becoming aware being conscious about that is to accept that everything is a perception and to open to the possibility of existence of every perception.

[00:24:44]To become to be aware and conscious about existence is to realize that everything is a projection. Therefore, everything can exist is a potential existence.

[00:25:01]So this is difficult to understand mostly because our brain has been designed to understand that existence is to be but existence is not to be.

[00:25:15]Existence is not that. Existence to go out from a being that it is.

[00:25:24]Existence is someone is and it go out from itself. So it's a projection from that being.

[00:25:34]So to be aware of existence is to realize that everything is just a projection of only one being.

[00:25:44]And it's important to get this idea this because uh when we start to wonder about these concepts of the universe and existence and so on suddenly we start to wonder why do we exist? What is the goal of all this? If nothing really exists, why do I exist? Why can I think about this if I don't really exist?

[00:26:11]So we suddenly can fall down into these pots um and we can lose sense of the everything.

[00:26:21]So to understand the existential consciousness can helps us to get an important clue which is that in between all the potentialities that have decided to express I am one of them.

[00:26:38]I am existing because from all the possibilities the universe decided by myself to be here to exist and my body my personality has a an important goal which is to exist and I know that is complicated when we try to think as a humans saying but why or what But the universe will always answer to exist because we exist because I can't think I can exist.

[00:27:22]So it's not something that we aim to reach outside. It's about [laughter] existing itself.

[00:27:33]Basically this is philosophy for the matter for the body.

[00:27:38]So it's difficult. It's the philosophy of the body. So it kind of breaks everything what we are. So that's why it's difficult and we have to spoke about existence today because related to um cancer.

[00:28:04]One of the goals that we have to to make is to detach from existence.

[00:28:14]Detach from what we believe we are.

[00:28:18]And one of the biggest struggles that a being that is trying to survive needs to detach from is the idea of being real.

[00:28:31]to detach from the concept of reality of what we are.

[00:28:36]Remember that the topics of reality were spoken in other months.

[00:28:43]The vibration for today is the statement today is I am the root of consciousness.

[00:28:50]The code today is the note of in the sea of Labrador connected to Greenland related to the constellation of Taurus.

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