DMT wasn't that exciting to me

[00:00:00]My DMT experience wasn't as exciting as I thought, but I'm a bit worried about reactivations happening. So, if you haven't kept up with the Agua Anime for the past few years, this video I mentioned that I was going to do Bufo, which is DMT 5. It's not like the one that you take when you have Ayahuasca, right? Bufo is the strongest version of DMT. It's like the peak of Mount Everest on the psychedelic scale, right? With Bufo, it's not like what you see on Joe Rogan or what you hear where you see machine elves or whatever, right? Bufo completely knocks you out. It erases your ego for about 5 to 30 minutes. Then you wake up and feel this everlasting and unlimited love and your ego is still rebuilding itself for the coming weeks or months. You can still function with your everyday life, you know? The reason why I couldn't do it 2 years ago is uh when it was offered to me, I was in a really dark moment in my life. And then it was proposed to me again a few months back and I said, "I'll do it." So, today, as I'm recording this, we had a Bufo ceremony this morning.

[00:00:52]And with all my friends, I knew everyone in that room. I had a personal bond with them.

[00:00:56]The shaman put a mattress out because people roll around on the floor when they're on Bufo when they're knocked out in that state, right? He cleansed the room with some sage, made us a prayer, uh made us read a prayer rather, and then he had like this little pipe or something he would light up. I was actually the second person to go. So, my first friend, he took three deep breaths, and then on the third exhale, the shaman put the pipe to his mouth.

[00:01:16]And he absorbed the smoke for about 10 seconds, then he just collapsed. We put a blanket over him and covered his eyes with the rag, and he was just out for 30 minutes, just laying there. Then he woke up and he was like he looked at all of us.

[00:01:29]It was love.

[00:01:30]You're right.

[00:01:32]It was just love.

[00:01:35]And he felt like someone opened a trapdoor under him after those 10 seconds of inhaling that smoke, and he was seeing the four horsemen from the Bible. It was like dark and chaotic.

[00:01:45]Then the horsemen pulled back a black veil, and it was this bright infinite light.

[00:01:50]And he saw his wife and his son on a horse being guided by Holy Mary. And he said, he followed them, and while he was doing so, he felt this powerful sensation of infinite love and happiness. He felt like everything he needed was here for him. Just him and his family. And then he regained his sense of self again, and he was talking about how it reminded him of how important his family is to him.

[00:02:13]And actually, it motivates him to go even harder to give him more than what they already uh what he's already giving to his family. So, boom, he went. Again, I'm the second person, so here I go. So, the the shaman tells me to sit down. We read the prayer together. Then he tells me to do the same thing. Breathing in and out three times. So, I did so. Then I started inhaling the pipe. All the smoke going in my lungs and everything.

[00:02:35]So, I did that, right? And I remember just falling backwards. My eyes were flickering like my eyelids, rather, and my arms were trembling. I felt like something was pulling me. Like, remember my friend mentioned that trapdoor that just felt that just opened under him and he fell through it? I felt the trapdoor under me. But, I think my subconscious didn't want to go down. So, I was conscious still. Like, I'm not knocked out here. What the heck? It's supposed to be the strongest thing. I'm not knocked out. And he noticed, and he was like, "Do you need more?" I said, "Yeah."

[00:03:03]So, we did it again.

[00:03:04]This is my second dosage, which is uh it's already one dosage is already a lot. This is my second dosage. I was feeling still light-headed. Felt like someone was still trying to pull me away.

[00:03:15]And then I fell down again trembling.

[00:03:17]Then we did it again.

[00:03:19]Third.

[00:03:21]We did it again. Fourth.

[00:03:22]We did it five times, bro. I had five times the normal dosage of DMT, and I was not clocking out.

[00:03:31]I felt so embarrassed. And he's like, I for real, seriously, I was embarrassed.

[00:03:34]I was going to cry cuz I was like, "Dude, like, what the heck? You know what I'm saying?" He's like, "No, it's okay. It happens to people, especially those who are not used to taking psychedelics.

[00:03:45]Some people have a nervous system that makes them hyper-vigilant, and they don't pass out." And what he said is true, by the way, because th- this is an issue that is like personal to me.

[00:03:55]Like my body is very resistant to things. Like if I go to the dentist, I need higher dosages from that needle, okay? You can't just like numb my gums like that. Yeah, I need I need that extra, you know what I'm saying? If I ever get painkillers, I can't just take two. I need four to make it work for me.

[00:04:09]My body just doesn't react normally to normal dosages of stuff. I remember I had my wisdom teeth removed, right? And they were trying to knock me out and it didn't work and they were confused.

[00:04:18]I I said, "Why is this not working?" I told him, "Hey, listen, you got to up the doses for whatever you're doing, bro, because my body will literally fight against it. I could barely even sleep at night. I roll around for 30 minutes before I could go to sleep at night." This is a true thing. I even tried I I I take melatonin, doesn't work for me. Like I my body just has to it fights, you know? I'm not the type person to just relax and chill. It's not peaceful to me. I had this problem since I was a teenager. I have no chill. I'm always zero to 100. So, this even happened with the Bufo. This is what the the shaman meant. It was it didn't even knock me out and everyone who went after me was getting knocked out for like 10 to 45 minutes. And I felt bad because I was missing out. They're all saying, "I felt this infinite love from the source.

[00:04:59]I was able to move past my past trauma that I've been going through because now my ego was stripped. I was able to forgive people. I was able to forgive situations that I put myself into that I'm very hard on myself about. I forgive myself." And so like everyone's having breakthroughs. Meanwhile, I didn't even get to experience it, bro.

[00:05:18]Only person in the room not receiving infinite love and having their ego stripped. Amazing. Amazing. Anyway, so after this and now this goes back to what I was saying in the beginning of the video, where I'm worried about reactivations because when you do Bufo, you randomly go through that trip down talking about when you're sleeping or feeling very tired. That's That's what a reactivation is with Bufo. You like you'll you'll be in the middle of the night, right? You'll be in deep sleep.

[00:05:42]Next thing you know, you'll have like the whole trip again. Then you'll wake up and be like, "Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, what just happened?" And you're like, "Oh, dang, I just had a another bufo trip."

[00:05:51]Even though I didn't just take bufo, like it'll it'll last for weeks or months.

[00:05:55]It won't happen while you're driving or anything, but again, when you're in REM or deep sleep, it'll activate again. And with bufo as well, when you're awake, you'll feel you'll randomly feel this sensation of love and happiness. Like literally randomly. You could walk down the street and all of a sudden, boom, you feel all these positive emotions.

[00:06:12]This will last for weeks or months or again, for a whole year. It changes your whole brain chemistry. So, we went out to eat after the ceremony, right? We were getting ramen.

[00:06:21]And I And while I was sitting there, I was like, "Wait a minute, what the heck?" Like I'm sitting there, we're waiting for the ramen, we're all talking. I just felt like You know that feeling when you don't sleep all night and like you're just like, "Whoa, like you feel dizzy, like whoa, I'm Am I Am I alive right now?" Like I was getting that feeling. Like, "Holy smokes, I'm going to sit here and eat ramen. Feel like someone just tried to yank me.

[00:06:42]Someone just tried to yank my soul away just now." And like and I started to get sleepy too because of that, but everything was fine, right? So, I went home, I laid in bed, took a quick nap.

[00:06:52]And I would randomly feel that trap doors opening below me over and over again. I only had like a a 10-minute nap, a 15-minute nap. So, I didn't go into REM or deep sleep. So, I'm worried about tonight when I do go to sleep. I actually might go through the trip finally. I couldn't do it there because remember, I he he gave me five times the dosage. That's probably why I'm just like randomly feeling like it's react I think my body right now. I think I absorbed it, but I think subconsciously my body just my nervous system just Again, I can't chill. I can't relax. So, my body is like, "Nope, nope, nope, nope. I see you. Hold on. You're not doing this. You're not doing this.

[00:07:28]You're not doing this." And again, it just it Right now, as I'm recording this, it constantly felt like right now as in the middle of this recording, it just felt like something tugged at me.

[00:07:36]And I'm experiencing random rushes of happiness and love and just Like, like, "Bro, I love you." Like literally, hey, I I walked into 7-Eleven earlier today.

[00:07:45]I felt like I loved everyone in that store. I don't even know you, bro.

[00:07:49]I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. Hey, I love these protein bars. Like, I'm super mushy randomly or at least feeling like it.

[00:07:57]Like, I don't know. I just feel mushy, you know? I don't know. I just like, I don't know. I just love everybody randomly. I don't know what's going on with me, but it again just it just randomly hits me. So, again, I can tell it did hit my brain, but I got to I got to see what happens when I sleep tonight. I'm recording this about 8:00 p.m. my time. So, my video will be out tomorrow schedule. So, whatever happens, if anything, I'll update y'all. Anyway, after 2 years, right? Of multiple videos about this happening. I spoke about Bufo 2 years ago. Though, actually 3 years ago because one video is private. And it finally happened, right? Not as exciting as I thought. We'll see.

[00:08:31]I love you all. I'm out.