Life Lately Vlog ✨ Losing my spark wasn't on my vision board.. rebuilding routines & finding balance

Added: 2026-05-13

[00:00:00]I literally had lost myself.

[00:00:07]>> [music] >> What is up, y'all? It's Shay Curry here.

[00:00:19]Welcome back to another video.

[00:00:20]>> [crying] >> Harlow, come on. Just jump. Are you content now? Yes, okay.

[00:00:28]The clips that y'all are about to see, they are a blast from the past, okay?

[00:00:31]There's still moments that happened that I want to share. We're just going to say this is like a FaceTime vlog. We're just catching up like family, like girlfriends, >> [music] >> cousins do because I want to clear out this old content. Oops, sorry, Harlow. I want to clear out this old content [music] so we can start fresh. Getting back to the fitness vlogs, I have been getting so many questions from my Instagram. If you are not following me on Instagram, go ahead and follow me there cuz I've been more active on Instagram than I obviously have been here on YouTube. But, my YouTube fam, I love y'all down. Like, y'all are my OG and I feel like I can be my more authentic self here on YouTube because this is [music] where I really started. So, grab a snack, grab some popcorn, whatever you got to do, and let's catch up.

[00:01:18]For me, I feel like God has brought me to a place where now I can see the beauty in things and I can just really have that hope and expectancy about the great things that [music] are going to be happening in the future and before I didn't I I knew I needed to get to that place, but it was hard for me to get to that place and I just didn't know how. But, now I am in that place, so I can really, really tap into focusing on me. I've done the work. I'm doing the work that, you know, cuz the work don't stop. You still have to make sure you're, you know, focusing on your personal development and your just just yourself, right? The self-care, the self-love, pouring into yourself. That doesn't stop. If you feel like you've gotten to a place where that has stopped, then it's time for you to [music] really back up, you know, power it back up. Like you have to get back to that because you do have to take care of yourself first, >> [music] >> and you cannot pour from an empty cup.

[00:02:11]Now, I was telling my mom that it was hard for me to really articulate what it was that I was feeling um the past year and a half because even though it's like you know [music] what you need to do, right? You know that you need to show up for yourself. You know, like for me personally, like let's say with YouTube, I know that I need to post. I know that I need to need to be consistent, but for me, it's like I really felt like I lost my spark. I felt like and not just with YouTube, but just in general, it's like, okay, well, what now? Like I just kind of felt like an a shell of myself in terms of how I was navigating day-to-day life. Like [music] even though I was putting on a brave face, and you know, just because you see somebody smiling or appearing to be happy does not mean that they are actually happy. Once that phrase was getting being thrown around in terms of losing your spark, that for me is what I felt like has happened or had happened um the past year and a half.

[00:03:12]Really unmotivated, really just uncertain, um kind of like second-guessing everything.

[00:03:20]I literally had lost myself, and now I feel like I am in a place where [music] >> [sighs] >> I I am ready to find myself again and get regain that spark.

[00:03:36]Figure out what it is that ignites me.

[00:03:39]And just really live life from a place of newfound healing and [music] like inner peace, inner joy, inner happiness, just healed and you know when you are happy to wear it it doesn't come from anything externally or what's happening on the outside or you know, validation from others or anything. It's like, no, validation from myself and validation [music] from what I know I have to offer and the woman that I know I am and what I bring to the table and [music] just the woman I know and I'm realizing and understanding and learning who God has called me to be. So, it's just going to be a year of me finding [music] that spark and bringing y'all along the journey with me because I understand that the fact that so many women have talked about um just feeling like they've lost their spark. You can lose yourself especially depending on the circumstances around surrounding how everything transpired, you know? So, my spark was gone.

[00:04:41]Honestly, I will be reigniting that spark and figuring out what things set me off by here, make me [music] happy, give me just that joy that [music] I feel like I had lost for so long. So, I'm excited. I'm excited and as y'all can see, when I talk, I don't get nothing done on this face.

[00:05:08]Like, girl, we only I've been beating this concealer the whole time. We ain't even gotten anything else done. So, yeah, y'all. I I just I don't know.

[00:05:18]Hopefully, what I said y'all can take something from it and you understand you can relate to what [music] I'm what I'm saying.

[00:05:26]But, um yeah.

[00:05:29]The spark was gone, honey. The spark was gone and for a while I honestly didn't know if I was going to get it back and what that even would look like to get it back. And now I'm [music] in a place where man, God has really really really done a work in me and for that, I am so grateful.

[00:05:51]So grateful and one quote that I saw recently is present, being present is better than perfection. [music] Embracing the moment, embracing the feelings, embracing whatever life is, what whatever [music] life is doing for you at that time in your life is so important. We're seeking growth, we're seeking progress, >> [music] >> we're seeking being better than who we were yesterday and really only focusing on the person in the mirror. Looking at what everybody else is doing and feeling [music] like, okay, damn, I thought I was going to be this place by this time and doing this by this and having kids, getting married by this age and that's not my reality, so what now?

[00:06:39]Focus on yourself. Focus, focus, focus, focus, focus on yourself and what it is that God is doing for you in your life. And with that, I don't care. You cannot fail. You cannot fail. So, yeah, y'all. I'm about to do this face though because I would talk to y'all and talk to y'all and talk to y'all till y'all blue in the face. I ain't got no battery and my face still ain't done.

[00:07:03]So, I'll see y'all in a little bit.

[00:07:12]>> [music] >> Hello.

[00:07:18]>> [laughter] >> Okay.

[00:07:25]Hello.

[00:07:26]Hello.

[00:07:27]Okay. Captain, Captain, Captain.

[00:07:31]Hello.

[00:07:32]She said, "Take your time.

[00:07:34]>> [music] >> I said, "Baby, I'm on the go.

[00:07:41]>> [music] >> I'm going to put my booty on it.

[00:07:44]Okay.

[00:07:46]You ready?

[00:07:47]Yeah.

[00:07:51]>> [laughter] [music] >> Now she still get whatever [singing and music] she want.

[00:08:03]I have a question for you.

[00:08:04]Do you wash your brushes or just buy more? Cuz you have so many. I should have did my brows. On the night party that we're getting into. So we got money, we got health, beauty, peace, love.

[00:08:22]I'm missing something.

[00:08:24]That's five. Give me two more. We need seven. That's our lucky number.

[00:08:29]Abundance. Abundance. Happiness.

[00:08:32]Joy. Joy. Eight.

[00:08:36]Prosperity. Ooh.

[00:08:40]Yeah. Growth, elevation.

[00:08:43]Level up. Level up. Level up. Level up.

[00:08:46]Level up. Level up. Level up. Level up.

[00:08:48]Level up. Level up. Okay, come on. Hot sauce. You don't love me.

[00:08:59]>> [laughter] >> Cindy Lou.

[00:09:06]Give me the song. I don't know about Cindy >> Cindy Lou Who.

[00:09:08]>> [screaming] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] >> 16 candles >> [music] >> burning [singing] away one night, watching them all burn my dreams away.

[00:11:20]>> [music] >> It's been up in the summer and I'm riding in my bed, on the back [music] of the bus, in a bunk with the band. Going so hard, got to choose myself.

[00:11:35]>> [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] >> I'm almost done with my half gallon. I just got a little little little little bit left, but we are done with our food. We did another little pasta mix. Honestly, that's like the easiest thing to mix up.

[00:13:35]>> [music] [music] [music] >> I like it baby.

[00:14:13]>> [music] >> I like how she rock [music] it. She bring that thing over and to the ground she going drop it. And pop it hard as she can. [music] She hurt me hard in the past because she all in her stash doing her mother dance, man. Look, little body cute in the face. She rock her heels to the bass. She take a sip when she wave and want to get [music] with Lil Jay after she dance on that pole. I pull my cash up quick and fast when that hit the floor. Now I got 32 flavors [music] of that booty licious bubble gum.

[00:14:45]Raspberry, grape, cherry, gummy get the signing bonus. I'm a young baby, not your ordinary lady. No need to drive crazy Lil Wayne for one [music] of baby on the daily after years of rocking my heels to shake my skittles. So we pop the >> [music] >> There's a man in the city that I love to taste his smoking on the hookah. He's the one to taste it just a little. Rock my hips to make [music] it wiggle wiggle in the ocean. And still she rock her hips.

[00:15:10]She rock her hips.

[00:15:13]She rock her She rock >> [music] >> her hips.

[00:15:17]She rock her hips.

[00:15:18]She rock her hips.

[00:15:21]She rock her hips.

[00:15:23]She rock her hips.

[00:15:26]>> I would say either that one or the Cobb salad.

[00:15:30]Cuz the Cobb got tomatoes, onions, eggs, cheese, avocado, bacon, grilled chicken.

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