BEATEN BY BLOOD AND LOVE: HOW I SURVIVED MY MOTHER AND BOYFRIEND ABUSE.

Añadido: 2026-05-19

[00:00:05]he hit me, I am Miriam Omondi. Today we are joined by a very resilient lady, a very strong lady. Throughout all that she has been through, she's still here pressing on. She's here to share with us her healing journey. So very close.

[00:00:47]Thank you kindly tell us about yourself.

[00:00:51]Okay. My name is Lilian Wamboi Njoroge.

[00:00:55]I am 23 years old. It 's okay.

[00:01:07]I'm a survivor. I mean, it's been difficult, but I'm glad I've arrived.

[00:01:19]Thank God.

[00:01:20]Ed.

[00:01:21]Yeah. For me, from my childhood until this hour I have arrived.

[00:01:27]Hmm. I want to share my story, that is, I impact other people so they know it's not the end, that is, no one loses hope, so welcome, thank you, you're free to share your story with us, yeah, thank you, okay, before you went, tell us about why you crawled up. I grew up with my mother, we used to live in Madhare, that's where I started living with my mother, that's where I started to know myself, I lived with her, the two of us, I didn't have a father, brother, sister, in one place, I was just with my mother, I grew up in different places like Madhare, where my brother lived, yeah, okay.

[00:02:31]So for this leaf of mine, that is, Nimesh and my parents, it wasn't easy, it was tough for me. I went through so many things that used to push me away for many things but I'm glad that day I didn't cry.

[00:02:53]That pressure also bothered me.

[00:02:57]There were times when my parent would go out to work at night. Like when he knew where he was going, he would leave me alone in my house. He locked me up with a padlock. So that's how he locked me up. I was alone at that time. I was very young, I hadn't even reached like 3 years old.

[00:03:18]He locked me up and went away.

[00:03:20]So you get neighbors who open the window to let me out. At least it's sunny or I can interact with other children.

[00:03:29]But if they can hear him coming, they take me back upstairs. He was very scared every time.

[00:03:41]So now he comes and takes out his anger on me.

[00:03:46]I don't know what he went through, but the frustration he had was that he would only give everything to me.

[00:03:52]M and it is taking me well.

[00:03:55]Ed.

[00:04:01]That is, take your time.

[00:04:08]So relax, take your time.

[00:04:23]Yeah.

[00:04:23]Hmm.

[00:04:25]That is, the ones with the name Mhm.

[00:04:29]My mother had already beaten me and done other bad things to me. I mean, I was wondering if I was his child, I wouldn't expect someone with a child to do that to their child.

[00:04:45]The type he was giving me was bad. Mh, I mean my parent would take it until things started to hurt me [snoring] [clearing throat] my mother used to take things, that is, she would become a drunkard, she used to drink, she smoked cigarettes, so when she comes that way in the morning, even if she might have a cold, she will still use her air, I don't know what she got me and how because I heard it was told by her friends, she wanted to throw me in the toilet, there was a friend of hers who took me, she saw me and felt ashamed, she went and took me and brought me back to her, so it really hurt me to know, that is, my parent still has the power to throw me away, to tell the truth, the mistakes that were made to her, she was punished, or what was done to her were my mistakes, so you would want me to be with her, she would show me the love of a mother, take that mother, I dream of someone I could confide in her, I would tell her this and that, but I wouldn't have that, I wouldn't have had anyone to tell her what I wanted, I couldn't tell her, I was afraid of her, I was afraid of her, my parent was strong until he can take a knife and put it on fire and burn me. he can take the roller that cooks chapati and hit me with it everywhere. I used to live alone until I didn't talk.

[00:06:46]For the person who bakes, talking would be difficult and he would see me.

[00:06:51]I talk to other children.

[00:06:53]He would refuse. I would stay alone and I would be alone. I would be locked up. I became a person locked up in the house [mikoromo].

[00:07:02]So it continued like this. It continued like this. It came time when he said I should go to his relative.

[00:07:10]I went to his relative. At that time I was let's say five years old.

[00:07:16]I went to Navasha. I went to stay there.

[00:07:21]I studied there. He said he would come and check on me.

[00:07:24]Which he didn't do. He went there and he was a band. He was just waiting for the moment.

[00:07:29]He would hear that it wasn't in his hands. He went and separated me there. I continued. I was raised. I was raised by his brother. He studied until he reached grade four. He took me there. I still repeated myself when I reached grade four.

[00:07:45]Mhm.

[00:07:48]It turned out he wanted to come to me.

[00:07:50]Hmm.

[00:07:51]But his brother never returned to him because his family knows what's going on.

[00:07:57]So they wanted me to come back to them.

[00:07:59]But the coins I found there are also good for me. They were also treating me badly but their parents knew it. And when I go to tell them, I see they are persistent in their denial. So you think I'm bad. I also lived there, that is, there is no place I can find that I am comfortable with, that is how I lived with them, it continued, it got to the point where I can remember my brother's child, he was going to school far away, he wakes me up at 1000 at my age, that is, I am young and it is night, and that place is, that is, a place where it is dark and you are afraid, he drags me to take me by force, but I take him to school, and there is his older brother who can take him, but that just wants to take me out, he frustrates me, that is, he pulls me when I say and they say it is a lie, I lived like that, I just said it is okay, I will just struggle, I studied, I studied, I got to the point where I fainted, because of my fainting, I drank someone's water, I was being given medicine, so I got sick, that is, I fainted, I drank someone's water, who was being given medicine, now I don't know what disease he had, so I drank that water and started to faint, you drank it in the hospital, I drank it at school, oh, at school, oh, at school, so I started to faint, he drank it at my work, and he always refuses to take him. At school, he would beat me and when he did, I also started having trouble with my nose bleeds. It was shinaigonganga then again I started having knee problems hitting me yeah so I saved where I was there I got married I reached grade f my mother sent her younger sister to come to me I came to you I went back to Nairobi I went back to Nairobi I found my mother living there and she is married m and at that time she was pregnant so I stayed with them I had my baby aka gave birth in 2013 a young man so we continued to live with them I was sent to school there it was called sunshine I went back there I still repeat while I left I was in class four m I went to this school I was sent back I went back to grade two grade grade fuku I went from grade f I came to Nairobi I was sent back I go to class two m so I go the more I go back I just go back m I continue like that my mother still the tab she had has not changed from has not changed still a man drinks taskara I eat jaba so and also the husband is also the same way m but he was a luya so we went here someone took the main place we moved to we moved here Kole m so I moved to school, but I was still a school mother.

[00:11:27]God told me to go to school. She found her friend and told her to enter a public school. She had refused so I stayed for like two years. She didn't want me to go to school. I stayed.

[00:11:43]Later, she responded. I went to her school, a primary school. I entered Kwan primary school. I entered there. They responded. I went back to class F again.

[00:11:53]So there I entered grade F. I studied up.

[00:11:58]I studied for one year. I wanted to enter class 5-10. I was stopped from going to school again. I said I don't need it. I'm not good at studying. I'll stay. I'll raise a child. I'll stay at home. I was looking after my child.

[00:12:13]So I lived at home. When it got to that point, I was very friendly with the teacher. Her name was Madam Jan. She was very nice to me. She used to send students to come and look at me.

[00:12:28]I explained to them what was going on when they came, that is, they would run up to the door and see the children. They were scared. They ran away.

[00:12:38]So I just responded. I continued.

[00:12:40]We moved again. We went to Dandora.

[00:12:47]I didn't go to school yet. I still lived. I lived at home. So I was writing in the books we were being threatened with school things I didn't tell my parents I knew even this was a lie I was with that uog my parents I know there is nothing he can give me nothing can be provided so he didn't tell me anything and I didn't call them anything I just sat there so I told him I saw the teacher's number in my books I called that number I called the class teacher he asked me where did you go I told him I was but I stopped going to school madam jena told me he would help me I told him he said they will call me to do it those are the police those who will help me go back to school so that time I called him with someone's phone I went to the shop I asked I had explained to the shop person I had been told by my mother to say I finished school so people didn't know they were sitting there reading your mother that's what she told you don't say you finished school eh she said I should say I finished school at that time I was sick so maybe someone would believe me I said that but now I trusted the shop person I explained everything he told me he would help me so that's when he helped me I called the teacher, explained everything to her, and said they would call my mother and pretend like they were the police and help me. So they called my parent and asked him why his child was at home, not going to school, and he was staying at home a lot. They wanted to know. So right now I'm at home when I get a call and I'm being called like that.

[00:14:29]My mother hung up the phone and asked me who told you to go to school? Who told you you didn't finish school?

[00:14:36]That's when my mother started hitting me, hitting me, hitting me, a battle that I forgot at that time. At that time I was almost to the point of death.

[00:14:48]he hit me like he hit everything was close to him even until he took this high hill mh he hit me here here on the head where it is sensitive it became a din hole so i was nose bleeding from blood on the head nose mouth like that but still your stop just wants me to see that i have left him he continued to beat me his husband took a chavis that is put in the mouth and put me there on the head blood stop first my mother told me that he will give me a ride he will tell the driver of the car to put me in a place that i will not know how to return so at this time i still don't know how i don't know places that much that you are staying in dandora still at this time we are still staying in dandora still m so this mother tells me he will tell makanga to give me a ride in the car i tell makanga to put me in a place i will not be able to return i will not know how to return. So I knew that was something on Friday, I knew that was what he said and it was something I knew that he would do, I didn't wait.

[00:15:58]So I had some savings that Saturday Friday Saturday Sunday Monday I sent the child to school after sending the child to school I never went back until today that's where you left from there yes and that's where I left because of my mother that was 2014 from 2014 until today I had not returned to our home that's where I left I got in the car I asked for directions I went to Koele I went I went to that school I was studying in that primary school I went I met the teacher the teacher asked if I could go and stay with him so I didn't respond I also don't know him very well so you wouldn't have responded like that because I know I study and people are also in a home nearby and there I responded to go to the children's home mhm so I went to the children's home at Kaan Rehabilitation Center there I am there I went and the teacher spoke to me telling them to come and stay and there I told them my story. So at that time we were called David and we used to call him David Dugwins. He was the one I found at that time, he accepted me, he welcomed me well, I stayed there, I just continued with my studies, I went to school and stayed normal.

[00:17:19]Hmm.

[00:17:20]but also here also it was n't these also there hm so also you didn't go through some challenges you see the one above was for girls m so you see the one above for girls who are flirting with me so also there it was hard it got there ju it was getting to the place i.e. girl i.e. they say hi until someone puts something on you you look like you've been there but not you i.e. just see you are very frustrated to put words on you just put words on you m there like there like some woods z we used to wear sweaters hm I had tuvice so you were going to school many people have them but you are told it's you you've got it even at this hour you're a stranger you've got it come I don't know at this hour I'm a stranger they're eating me this everything is me hm I just hugged I sat and studied so like 2016 I tried to escape escape from the children's home I didn't tell the teacher I went through there I tried to escape go to my friend who we study with but again I tried by the way I passed it up to the clothes up from there it's hard I tried I passed it up to the clothes I went out but again I saw also there it would be easy to stay with someone I do n't know I knew him from school so I just went back and tried again I just went back to sit and endure brother there is a squad I try to find out by the way I tried killing myself I remember I had some I had 50 dad at that time I got this rat and tried to go there in the corner I tried to grab he came and cried and picked me up I sat down his name was lea mh sat me down he told me not to try it it's not the end of the world what was going through what was going through your mind at that time you were in my mind I was I was I had arrived I saw no one loves me no one cares about me no one wants to listen to me no one wants to know that in me I want so I saw kill in myself that I will finish everything that my problems will end.

[00:19:47]He asked me there and I stopped, but it was still too late. If I just keep going like this. I got into trouble and started to get anxious, meaning that every day I would get closer to the exam, by the way, I was getting anxious, seriously, I was getting anxious, I didn't know what the problem was.

[00:20:07]It happened like I was going to do class 8 I came out of school and sat in a place where I didn't know what the pain was. It hurt me a lot. It happened at that time the manager had already gone home. I had arrived at about two o'clock. There I was in pain. I cried and cried but the pain got worse. I was taken to the hospital. The place was called Kona.

[00:20:41]They took me to a private hospital. They checked me after they did a scan. They thought I was pregnant. I was n't.

[00:20:51]They did it. I was told I don't know what I am and I have something. It's filled with water.

[00:20:58]I need to do an operation.

[00:21:00]Where is the water?

[00:21:01]There? There? There?

[00:21:03]So I didn't know what it was. So I didn't understand these things. I didn't know what it was. I refused. At that time I was in a few weeks for the exam. So until that exam I didn't die.

[00:21:16]I got up and took the exam. I still didn't do well. I was stressed. I could do the operation. I couldn't survive.

[00:21:26]My life would end there. I got up and went to my brother Soika to finish the exam.

[00:21:34]We were with him and he said if we were asked if there were people. they know them so i knew i didn't have anyone i knew i had put him in and he was the only one i was wearing so i said i knew i was the only one i was told you wanted to be brought back let's go in let's join form one okay okay yeah and at h the manager wanted us to stay there so he told us if someone knows relatives like this i said to me who i know so i was given someone we went with him until naivasha arrived naivasha so i knew they were staying i found out they had moved out by this time it's been many years since i left there i was young i got there to go there i found out my place is not there i found out it's my aunt but they have moved to another place hm they were known so it was easy to find them hm since they didn't recognize me so we were going back now he wants to go back to my work he came out he was the one who knew me he called me i called him he said ok that's mine they knew it was me they welcomed us we stayed and i was told my noo is not there he went somewhere but he will come so it's already too late it's already been 9a something we were seeing now the next day morning hm so this man came and he told them to stay there like f days and then I'll go back so that time I only brought two clothes to go up there I was told I wasn't going to stay long but I didn't know I was going to be separated there I didn't know the plans they had he was going to separate me there eh the one who sent you brought you here to eh and he tells me what plans they have so I told him you let's go with my father for how many days two days are the first day is over the second, third, fourth.

[00:23:35]Hmm. That day before he left, he told them to find a school for me, they would educate me and take care of everything.

[00:23:44]My husband said it was okay and said until it gets better, I can calm down and look for him. If we call his mother, she might tell us it's the wrong number.

[00:23:56]Ed.

[00:23:57]So my brother agreed with me to study there or he went. So the fourth day came when you called them and they said pick up the phone and I was surprised what was going on because at that time I don't have any clothes to wear, I found that there we don't fit the body so I have a body to wash so these hours and the clothes to wear so I was wrapping myself in a handkerchief and a t-shirt so I don't have any clothes to wear they deceived me m you took the phone there and there you took the part of the lessons that they were saying they were teaching me to return and I was there that's where they left me you felt come I felt bad I saw I came I came to throw the time I'm starting I'm going to study I'm going to enter come form one who is going to teach me mh so I feel really bad m so there ju I went there December six m on the date si it came Christmas we went to my and his grandmother's house in Ushago here in Kikuyu we went and cried there Christmas so I was there for hours your people I became part of them m hours they even talk they talk about your parent saying he fried you like this he is frying you so something really affects me m you know I ran away that day I looked I saw money would be in place for me I took the money I escaped and went I went back I went to that children's song they asked what you were doing back I told you you came and left me you didn't tell me you came to leave me there I'm helping you I went there you said no go back you called them they said even they know where I am my my they said they don't know where I am they have discovered I saw you with my skin when you arrived children som they told you to go back I was told to go back m go back there that's it I carried some strength so v I was told to go back m I knew now there is nothing here otherwise I will have to go back I left I parked some clothesh an hour later there is also a shop that we are given by people joining high school so I went with that shopping and carried some clothes m I went back I went shopping who are you given we were given by Ben we used to call him daden okay a nice manwa mzuri he was not support he supports people in so I went with that shopping and my clothes I went back there they argued with me they argued with me then I just kept sitting so it's January people should go back to school we went back and got dressed so that day My son and I were traveling that day, but he hit his head on the day he was born, but he didn't know he wasn't coming back here. From January, he started to get dizzy and dizzy and became seriously ill until he was taken to the hospital. The hospital told him he had blood on his head.

[00:27:14]So he got dizzy and dizzy and dizzy until he didn't leave the hospital.

[00:27:20]So at that time, we were at work, getting dressed, my eldest had already gone back to school, we were in college. The other one has already gone back to where he lives.

[00:27:28]We stayed with this little one, who was in class six at the time, and we stayed with them. So the little one has gone to school, I'm still at home because I should join form one. I was told by my nji that he wanted to see me, so we went on my way until the day I went to talk to my n well until I fed him well but I didn't know that was his last day I was going to see him or was there a reason for me to go to the hospital m we were just talking to me and he ate well and I was hung up on him or I continued but he should have I had held his hand but before he said I shouldn't go back to Nairobi he wants me to study here and I shouldn't go m and he told my a not to go they should find a school for me to study there mhm so I studied and I said that's where he gave up on me.

[00:28:29]That's when I realized that now I don't have anyone here, I'm starting to go back, I'm the only one here, I called my mother on a bad day, you know her number, I tried it, so that's the first time I've called her since I left her in 2014, hey, I called her and told her your brother passed, he doesn't care, he didn't care, he asked me why you were calling me, I killed him, he started talking, even the funeral didn't come, his brother passed, the next year his father passed, your mother's father passed, he also got angry, I'm still the only one I'm still calling, I called my mother and told her your father passed, he still talked badly, he didn't come, his father's funeral didn't come, he didn't interact with their people, he wants to know about their people. He just had a life where his father and brother didn't bother him so my friend looked for someone who could educate me. The students said they would educate me. They went to the village and I looked for someone to educate me.

[00:29:48]I found someone who could educate me. He was from KC. This milkman was the one who educated me up to form three.

[00:29:57]He was the one who educated me up to form three. So all he did was pay my school fees. You know, you must need a lot of things. You don't have anyone to look after me. My aunt doesn't want to look after me. At that time, I knew how to get down.

[00:30:11]So when I got down, I told her I was stealing someone. There I was stealing.

[00:30:13]I told her I knew how to get down. I could get down. She told me to ask my mother. She asked her mother. Her mother agreed. So I got down. I didn't know how to get down. People liked me. So many people came. When I got down, people were happy.

[00:30:30]So I got down. Many people came. My mother was happy. So I got down. She wanted to get up. She still supports me now. I don't have mangoes. I did n't carry mangoes.

[00:30:44]That's why money steals pens, pads, those things. a few days ago when he gave that money he wanted that money I got to a place where there is a day I save money I said now I should go to town and buy clothes I will come back with those clothes to my country he asked me what you have not given my child I said I have no one to give me money I have no mother or anyone here nearby who can buy me those clothes but this one is with him he told me no what he said he told me that will be possible you will stay where he wants I told him that is impossible so it happened and I answered him I said I have no one to support me he is with him at least you can give me money like this and like this you go where you say something you bring him but I can't bring it to me and we are now me and him look if you were bringing it to me I would see at least there is someone who cares about me but he goes he says like this he can buy clothes shoes but I have nothing he brings me there is something that means he would bring me so I was feeling bad I said that money I have it by going down that will be my support m continue so I was like that we were wrong with him about that and place When school closed I decided I wouldn't be sitting and I would look for where I would be coming to Nairobi I sat and looked for friends or anyone who would just see me I left there the day I came to Nairobi the day I returned my friends told me andaku said you are their maid while you are a sve they will use you to do this and this and this I do n't know how to tie something by hearing by the way Mh I went and confronted my m I told you I was told this and this he told me no he told me I can do something if he told him if you can do this to me things I have seen even that by the way you said tell the truth even that I have heard is the truth you said m you talked to me father he said it will be possible you will stay what I m ​​I kept quiet my he was doing me harm and torturing me no it got to the point I don't go down that much mh sa until I am dead you I don't know what to do come I had school things I tell my brother he will steal my school bag it broke in two pieces i.e. there is a little left it came out twice m I told my brother he stole my uncle's shoe He did n't buy me that shoe. I refused. I failed.

[00:33:25]What should I do? I don't know what to do. Mine had guards to hide it. Colgate to the best.

[00:33:30]That is, I shouldn't use nail polish until I use it.

[00:33:36]So I was walking down the street and sad. The shopkeeper gave me some. He was surprised and asked me what it was. Tell me, the one I'm staying with, what things does he hide from me? He told me that on certain days you miss something. You come and tell me thank you. He used to give me a Colgate brush. I was hiding everything. What kind of pen? I could n't imagine something like toothpaste. To tell the truth, you can hide it from me. What kind of toothpaste can you hide from me? I can't use it. So the shopkeeper used to give me those things when they run out. When they run out, he keeps giving them to me. The school was very far away. So I was hoping for transportation to get to school but I wasn't given it. But at my job, he will provide transportation to go to school. So where do we leave off on the stage? It's still going on with my legs like that. When I go back to school, I still have work waiting for me.

[00:34:38]Maybe I'll turn on the instruments. I don't know where to go. What are you going to do? I mean, they just want us to be completely divided. It got to the point where form three, those from home, are now showing up.

[00:34:59]Where are form three from home?

[00:35:00]Eh children's home I was just now they are showing up now I have reached form F 3 they are coming now they want to get together now that said mh I feel bad until the hour I was not talking to them I had to until the person who brought me came to the school I study m sa so that's why I was winning lonely until class I don't talk to people I had explained until my high school class teacher also so he came and told me there is someone asking you and they say he is not like this Remember this person mother came to the exam time I was on the exam day I told the teacher I don't want to see him m the teacher told me just go see him just go I told him no m I don't want to see him until a little hour I wanted their help to help me this hour they have come you know the day ati sa hiv until I was calling them to tell them I don't have until shoes saad is the one who is bringing me until school shoes I already have school shoes other new schools m above my primary teacher was the one who sent me money I bought those shoes eh so these are the ones who are showing up he has brought me a box of pads he has brought me school shoes now until I was wondering what these things they have brought me m by the way those parts I was giving school I didn't want m ju sa I was wanting you to start me here form one but you are coming to me I am going to finish school I dug there until my santi and he again wants to ruin my name sa venye You see the milk man and now he has arrived he has left the time to educate me m above he has been told those who are suitable to educate me have come not you see the one who has released now your auntie new have come have come so who to educate me this other one has left okay yes they have come okay continue he said they will pay me face what at this time I had eye problem hm I was told I will be sent not I was sent here west lions I had my eyes checked a also he also said I have eye problem what also they checked him we went back they said a my a he told them he has been living what has he paid me and what I went in les I told him he told me you are doing this and this we will return I told him that is what you were told and you believed even me you would come ask me what that is what has been m but no a my a he destroyed their minds telling them what a bad child what until he brings them in he shows them these mangoes I What did I do until he called people to testify that it was true that he had stolen all those things from me, so they saw that they only paid school fees but they knew I was not good, so the one who was sent was holding on to my aunt, so until the money that they were given to help me with it, they held on to it together and they became one, now I know that there is no one here, oh, I went to the real office, it was paid by people from the children's home, the children's home, who entered when I was in form four and form three, they paid the school fees, and they paid that a year later when I entered form four, they paid it, now everything is okay, I was not eating, by the way, I was already addicted to it, so I was entitled to be paid even for special meals, but it hurts me. When I got to Form F I saw that it was over. I left school.

[00:38:36]What month was it when I left Form F?

[00:38:38]I decided that I would go and look for a job. I just wanted to get out of that compound and see that I was with other different people. It got to me.

[00:38:48]So I called my friend who is in school. We are in Form 2.

[00:38:53]He told me that he would find me. I also got my first house job. I was getting paid 5,000.

[00:39:02]I think it was a lot of money. By the way, I responded quickly and came and told him that I had found a job. I wanted to go.

[00:39:12]Even the one who talked to you was happy that you had found someone to help her now.

[00:39:19]So I took some clothes and carried some clothes and went. It wasn't too far.

[00:39:23]There was another house in Navasha. Oh yeah I was eating you, I mean people like this, I went there and did it, I was working there, I was working for the police, he was a policeman, I was working for him, I had three children, I worked for him, they were good and they were good to me, at that time I didn't get a b, I think I got a girlfriend and they were just good to me, I lived with them well, so I became a div, I get money, I go back to my aunt, I don't have that spirit, I mean, he was So I go and when I get here, we don't have this, we don't have this, I buy, I go back, empty, I go back again, I work again, I go back to walk, who doesn't have it, I buy, so when it's about to be done, I go back to school, I take the exam, I go back, but that exam, I said I won't do it for him, I won't do it for him, it's like one month, so I looked for a friend, his parents can accept me, I stay for those months, his name was Faith, I'm very grateful that they accepted me and they understood me, judge me, so they welcomed me to their house, I grew up, I stayed with them, they gave me food, and I stayed with those people, that month, I did it.

[00:40:47]exam but I still agree since he keeps telling me that still rudeness what he says I haven't helped him I'm a prostitute maybe buying food and he told me I won't finish I won't finish school without pregnancy what m I took it all so one of his friends from my a told me we should tell you what you are doing what are you helping him I told him if we can go with him to the shop that my a takes me I just dressed like this the person from the shop can testify say m I went with him to that shop shop he said this is coming with his aunt here his aunt until he is the one who is picking up things he tells him he has this has until he comes back he spends all his money here sa there that's it that's it other people also believed me m they saw I wasn't there what they were told m so there that's it after that I said I won't go back I'll put it on again m I forget them too m so I made him take the exam and it ended after I made him take the exam there is an attachment teacher from there home I am the day I will finish it he was also helping me like that he told me the day you finish the exam you will tell me m I called him I told him I finished the exam m he asked me can you work in Kenya or outside Kenya m still I didn't think twice by the way I said outside Kenya above I just wanted to get out here and forget about everything I just decided there and then I quickly didn't want to stay in Kenya I told him I would not move if I had a B certificate I told him Eh so that's where I started the process there I searched he told me he was there and he wasn't in Kenya he was already outside Kenya I told him at his work he was doing those things he would help me so at his work he helped me his name was Yvon that is he helped me we did the passport process hm of the activities if hiv so now I had to leave again and I was working m I came to Nairobi m I came to Nairobi and stayed with his office hivon here in Kasarani we stayed with him m so I had to before those processes were completed until my day to travel m I have to just work I looked for a job I found a job not Kimau Kenyatta I got a job I went I was still a house m I had one child I was paid 7000 seven m I responded so I went it was only two bedrooms my I went m I went m I worked I also did my mother was good to me m My name is Julia. She had a husband. He was the only one who came out. She worked on the day I was told I should travel.

[00:43:43]But that day, I left work and went back to the office.

[00:43:49]She told me, "Oh, we told you, the time was over. It will be after maybe two months, three months. So I've been here for a month. I'm still waiting. So I had to find other jobs before these things end."

[00:44:09]So I remembered how I was visiting my friend. I saw a sign saying " house girls."

[00:44:15]I called her. So I called her. She told me, "Oh, before I went here, we went with this Yvon.

[00:44:25]Koja. She doesn't work. She told me, "Let's ask his friend. Let's ask his friend." Maybe he's in the grocery store. I went to the other side of the house.

[00:44:38]But when I went there, there was this woman who was sick. She had a stomach ulcer. So I was afraid. I could wash her. Then something would be done. Maybe you know, wait for me in the morning. I ran away. I didn't even call her. I didn't even call her. I did the work. I didn't tell you. I did n't want the money.

[00:44:55]I leave in the morning if they don't know and when I go after how long work for how long there after I didn't stay that day I arrived in the morning I'm not there you went I went I've seen my child explaining what to you what until you're just taking a shower so I didn't stay in the morning it arrived I left so I remembered the number I had taken I called it I called that number it was here I went to the office they were all here united m they told me they would find me a job I stayed there I arrived something at Useko hours I found a certain place m got that place the mother said I want a job and she has a very small child she has like two months m so she needs one month there something she hadn't stayed I had a child still small m I went I found another job another hour of house Karobangi m Karibangi North so I went there too m so going there there I found a mother with four children.

[00:45:54]Hmm.

[00:45:56]There is a first b who was 12 years old there and he was eight at this time and you are 14 at this time and he is a little boy and three years old. I worked for them and they took me and he had his brother too, he didn't have a wife there so he was living with his children and his brother but his brother had finished school and was just working so we were staying there and I worked for them and then I worked for them so the day came when it was my day to travel.

[00:46:28]I told them my mother told me it was a problem but my mother was hurt that day first she told me because I knew and I knew what your story was. My mother told me to leave my clothes and leave hers. I was surprised. You accepted me and you listened to me until I left everything I had and went.

[00:46:48]He accepted me so in that process we became friends with his boyfriend.

[00:46:56]But no one came to know.

[00:46:58]Oh, were you there?

[00:46:59]Eh, no one knew, it was just me and him.

[00:47:02]When the day of my trip arrived, the two of them took me to the airport.

[00:47:06]Hmm.

[00:47:07]Oh, they took me until I was about to board the plane to Mombasa.

[00:47:11]So I was taken to Kimon, not to Mombasa, and I took SJ to Mombasa to catch a plane there. He took me there and told me the truth, so I went.

[00:47:20]Hmm. I went and I was going to Lebanon. I went to Lebanon to work. So I was also under pressure. I get people who love me.

[00:47:34]What? He even loves me. The love I was looking for. I'm starting to see it now.

[00:47:40]So it started to bother me. What?

[00:47:44]I kept working. A month passed. I stayed.

[00:47:47]Now it's here. He tells me to hold on. I don't know how many years you'll be married. So I felt bad.

[00:47:59]I said no. This is what I've got.

[00:48:01]People care about me and people love me. What I wasn't supposed to show. Then I'll figure it out.

[00:48:06]I said I have to try.

[00:48:09]I'll go back to Kenya.

[00:48:11]So I go back to me. I don't go back to someone. I don't go back to a contract. It's a stupid thing I did.

[00:48:25]So I said it's okay. So I lied to the person who works for me.

[00:48:30]I told the Arab.

[00:48:32]He canceled. I worked for him too.

[00:48:34]He was difficult. You're an Arab. I don't know what to talk to him about.

[00:48:38]So I'm not used to talking to people.

[00:48:40]I'm used to being alone. It also bothers him. I don't leave him. I don't greet him, I don't tell him what he was calling. He tells them that he doesn't speak. He tells me to greet the Arabs. By the way, that's what they want. So I wasn't that kind of person. I was just a person who would sit and stay alone. I don't want those words. You want us to end up like that.

[00:49:03]So I said, "I'll take advantage of that." I told him, "I'm an Arab. I didn't do medical. I want to go back to Kenya."

[00:49:11]I told him, "I'm a Rashid." I started looking for all the diseases. I told him to respond. He responded. He took me to his office.

[00:49:19]There in his office, I sat with the eldest of them, the eldest of the people of Kenya. I stayed with him for a week.

[00:49:29]Hmm.

[00:49:30]I stayed with him for a week and they looked for my passport. That 's how I returned to Kenya. I went back to Kenya and called Lebanon. Paulo, let's go.

[00:49:51]So I went back to the airport.

[00:49:54]I called the lady.

[00:49:56]We were living there. I talked to her. She called me. I told her to come and look at the table.

[00:50:01]She told me to take it. She brought it to me. She said, "Look at the table." She said, "Come and pay." I took the table. The table brought it to me.

[00:50:07]The lady was not at the house that day. Her son was her brother. So her brother came and went down and paid. So I paid. I went into the house. I agreed. So I found the children. Are you the same? I had already been called.

[00:50:26]No, we want you to come back. Or are your people here?

[00:50:29]I don't know where they are. So the children are waiting for you to come back. So something was hurting me.

[00:50:35]I love children very much. So I felt bad. So when I came back, they knew that the employee they had with them had already left. They didn't know that I was coming back. So when I came back, I was already here. I started working again. I continued working. We just continued like that.

[00:50:57]So it got to the point where the young man who came back to me started again. And he had started again. move on mh so you get help he comes to knock on the door to ask him what m so if you can tell him there is nothing he is hiding from you m people and they tell you this guy has lived here so if I just keep going like this but I still don't know if I should go back up maybe about someone so it got to the point where I had to go to his sister m I tell his sister ch that is he has taken me his sister was trying to tell him anything I told him someone is coming but he is doing this and that to me but I don't want to know if I should go back m what happened he knew I went back up I am sick m so I didn't tell him m s he told me m I know who you are talking about ask who I told him it is brother I told him I knew I was a friend but I didn't know it was true but I saw it was true now I asked brother he told him he said he that's where we met so it went like this we found out there is a person who can't be caught they just accepted me like this I'm so hard work so they just accepted it like this my mother loved me until their parent I didn't get there mother got upset That is, he hit his leg and something cut his leg.

[00:52:23]He saw it so he had to come and stay with his child.

[00:52:27]So I was looking at his mother too.

[00:52:29]I looked at his mother well until she was very beautiful.

[00:52:34]So he didn't have any bad feelings. When his mother arrived at the place, we're going. We're going to leave everything. When we go there, people tell people that I'm his grandmother.

[00:52:46]So they ate someone. He noticed that it was true. It's mine. So people know this until today. When he got there, it continued. It wasn't a joke, but the boy still had that behavior. I'm very humane.

[00:53:05]You don't have this one, you have this one, you have this one, you have this one.

[00:53:08]M But he is very insecure. That is, my phone became his.

[00:53:13]Yeah.

[00:53:14]So even my phone already has a fingerprint reader on it.

[00:53:18]Fingerprint has placed his fingerprint.

[00:53:21]Hey, my phone rang. I'm going to pick it up already. He already took my phone, he does n't want to know who's calling me, but I know yours, he doesn't want to, for him, a man can cheat on a woman, for him, that's okay, so until my phone rings, he's received it, he's connected to us, if you were going this way on the street, someone greeted me, it's not a problem, he'll hit me, for everyone I talk to, he'll hit me, if he sees me talking to this person, he'll influence you.

[00:53:53]Having girl friends is bad. They will also talk to you.

[00:53:57]I won't tell them no. Until he stopped picking up my phone, now I still do n't have it. Whoever takes it, I'll go lock myself in the bedroom and see what they're looking at. It wasn't until later that I realized my phone actually had his fingerprint. The children don't know my password. So maybe he tricked the child, he already showed him.

[00:54:19]So that's when I knew I gave it up so the day he tried to ask her if she would n't open it she asked him why and since you were unaess come I don't do it she didn't hurt him no we bothered each other this way we bothered each other if we didn't talk for a few days we talked about it so it got to the point it got too much so his mother one day his mother came back again he should go to the hospital he has collapsed but the boy has gone with another girl there and he has gone with his sister's car and he should take his mother to the hospital from 1000 hours the doctor said the boy will be back in an hour so I called the taxi driver I told him if we go by motorbike then I will take him and I will go with the little child let's go the time we get off the bus the boy is sitting well in the car with another girl his mother his mother that is he was shocked this time that the lady ran away m that is he didn't even have that boy he didn't have that personality he said his mother is like I do n't know come tell him you don't have the right to add a singer to him I don't know what what I just said it's okay I responded so the boy continued like that it had gotten to that point He can tell me to stop the girl and talk to her until with that respect I stop the girl and talk to her or we are there she will stop and talk to her I am with her there m sadi you arrived there we sat down until he sold her what kind of behavior is that what he says no no he says yes we missed there are days we missed I am going to months until he can't eat money even eat he will eat the food that I will cook m or I don't want me to caress him let alone his advice m so I don't want it to get to the point where he wants to open a restaurant job.

[00:56:18]Yeah.

[00:56:19]So he had trusted me completely until he was going to leave for months, trusting me with his children and everything about him, so they told me I didn't want you to do housework anymore.

[00:56:29]Yeah.

[00:56:30]I want you to leave here and go somewhere else.

[00:56:33]M is right.

[00:56:37]So he opened a restaurant and hired a housekeeper, but he still wants me to stay with him. So I went to stay with him and I went to that job and we were working there, that job was still in the bank, and I went and I became the manager, so it got to the point where with the money I was getting paid, I decided to open a job, open a job, and I opened a salon on the side of the bank south, well, open a job too, I don't want him to give me more money, so I opened a salon, so I opened a salon, so there I left the restaurant job first. So I went to the salon and started to work with this one of mine, it was Nils and Dread's and that's it, so I opened it and I was working for a day and I went and I worked for a few days I closed it last year so I don't want it to be a problem, we were writing someone and it became a trust people there for work is being stolen what he told me to start wanting me to go and hold that job so when he was told that job I was going with him I told him what I can do to hold that job so I told him it's okay so I have someone who is good and I so it got to the point where we said it's okay we closed the job and the job also where it is holding so you get until I pay for that house and my pocket money so seeing that I agreed okay I sold everything I found someone who can buy that salon and with everything I agreed he told me to sell it I said it's okay for me to go there.

[00:58:14]So I went and started working at Roundan Restaurant and we did it.

[00:58:20]So it got to the point where his sister turned into a m, that is, before that he sat down, eh, Gonjeka, we were sitting down with him, his brother had already started to get married.

[00:58:34]Yeah.

[00:58:34]By the time we got to that point, we had already had a disagreement with him and I left the salon.

[00:58:39]Hmm. I've been sitting on the couch, I didn't want to, he has a headache, I don't want him to have a headache, he's not a child, he's a little child, he's crying, so everyone, now I don't want him to be angry, what's wrong, he wants people to go to the police station, we were told not to meet there, so we left, we went to rent a room, we slept, we came back in the morning, I don't want to talk, so that's when the guy woke him up, he wants to get married, and he did n't have enough money, I gave him my money, Mh, I met him the first time, I gave him a like, I gave him 23,000, to buy a few things, but it wasn't enough, I told him to give him 19 likes, I gave him 19,000, but it was n't enough for the rest of the rest, the second time I gave him 8,000, I gave him another 8,000, he said he'll just come back to me, I gave him money, so that's when my lover is with him and even all the things he does, I just give him my money, you know, you know, for his own, I have no responsibilities, no one, what did I spend money on? I gave him money, so that's when he started getting married, so I went with him, we chose I chose everything, what is the house he lives in, I washed it, but in the end, this is where it's going to get ruined, so he continued like this and I don't want him to tell me, you know you're going to eat, you know one day you'll come maybe cry, this is where I came to find out it will be true, Jani, his habit of leaving me, what am I doing, why didn't he come, I said, oh, at that time, you have something, it tells you, no, you don't know where the house is, I went to go, the first day I found him, and the girl kept quiet, we broke up, we kissed each other a lot, we broke up, we got back together, but at that time he wasn't there, he wasn't with his sister, okay, okay, okay, the day he came, he was drunk, he sent me a message, he's at the club, he's drinking, so he started to insult me ​​and my parents, so it hurt me, you know what, you're starting to insult me, why didn't he come, he wants food, and now there's a girl at work there, I'm serving him, I refused, so there was a guy at work or something, so we started talking at that time, he hasn't been home, like, a week, so we're just like that, we first talked. So there in the way that is to pass I pushed him he pushed me I hit the wall I got fine I ran away this time I heard it was something at 7 o'clock in the night I was rushed to the hospital so what was he doing he said no don't sue me what and what will I change what and I believe someone will change for what he saw he did until he took me to the hospital I don't want a day that's why he turned around he argued with him he said P that's what he was told that I wasn't coming there at night to him m he apologized he apologized he said it will happen again and he will do something like that m that still won't change we had a fight again still just on those behaviors mh so it came to a place ah I was no that is until it stays I have made a mistake until I sat I sat me and shoulder mh I responded forgive me stop he comes to apologize after that you have a day I went to the store m but I didn't know he was following me mh mambik he followed me I found my young friend he took me to buy k I buy I don't come out someone is caught in the shirts turn back it's him m he does n't know who he is he doesn't know what our relationship is He started wanting to hit me, I insulted him, he dragged me here, I held his hand, he hurt me, he dragged me to the house, I don't want to, I do n't want to, he asked me, when I was talking to people, if that means we slept with them, what's his problem? I pulled him over, we went, we talked badly, we kept quiet, we stayed like for a month, now I just continued with my work, what job did I respond to that, that's all there is to it, he apologized, I don't want to, he said this will interfere with it again, I'm up, we'll still get back together, yeah. Oh, it's come to a point where I can't help but see how sad I am. So at that time I wasn't working for him but I was with him and he told me he was going to a party and we should go and he would be happy if we went and it was because their party was only for girls. So I agreed and we went with them, he didn't know what to do, he told me, "Don't tell him, he doesn't know what to start arguing about." So I went with him to Mwambia m so one day I was still at my work before I closed I found my friend he told me Kifaru on Mombasa road if I can go I do n't want he tells me don't refuse you will be happy he is going to find happiness somewhere else even you are the one who will find happiness you went to eat we go m m I went he called me I didn't pick up his phone he called me and his sister's phone m I called his sister's phone m later I picked it up I asked him I was in Mombasa he told me what are you doing there I didn't pick up so I was arriving at 9am there I don't want he was still opening for me m halali early so I went in I asked him even what he said even I knew what so we are his sister and at his work yes he knows where I am but he doesn't tell me m actually that thing didn't end so I went to my work to come back m I found him on the stairs on the balcony m he came to me I don't know his s do you know he slept m where did you go you know what you are staying at night what for me I am at the end not can be you know you see you can't do it I can't go to rest or what I don't care where or what I'm staying here I saw I started even I should go and have fun I smiled m so it hurt him he saw and no it was annoying so for his sister's restaurant work m he saw there that's when he'll come again he came and started with a girl again there for work m we found out so we found out he says he's gone home now that I'm off he's here at home but he's going back there it became known he's started giving his s a bad reputation for his restaurant s he told him I'm not going back there he hadn't heard m I wasn't going yet just there m so it got to the point we had gone to his sister the boy was teaching someone who wasn't his m form f we went to go to school here last year we went to school at form fiko the boy we went to him we came so we had a party at the restaurant we were upstairs it was a club and restaurant m we were having a party that boy still but he saw his s passed they saw him and the girl had a crush so and he doesn't want him to be inside I know and I also went I saw so it started a fight it decided and I decided what you want to do m I don't want to tell you vav What do you really want? Are you looking for happiness?

[01:06:12]So I became so angry that I started deleting the way I can even make people upset.

[01:06:19]So one day I wore a short booty. He came there very much. He saw what I was wearing. It hurt him. We did n't talk. What are you wearing? What are you planning to do to send me home? I refused.

[01:06:37]So he decided to get angry and stopped this girl in front of people. He told me that this girl is my dem. I want her. I don't want her.

[01:06:42]So we argued there.

[01:06:48]So that girl was pulled out of that job. The day the guy was also told not to come back. That's when they all left me. The guy was pulled out of the job. He was told I would never go back.

[01:06:58]So we continued to stay like that. So I just continued working. Now I'm not done.

[01:07:02]I was told that his sister was sick. She wasn't home. She just came out like this. Okay, let's just be together.

[01:07:09]And he told me that he went home at this time. Your children are here.

[01:07:13]He told me that he went home. He sent me a video. He told me that I started to feel cold. He told me that I don't know what medicine to take. I told him but I called him and he gave me medicine. Okay. I told him okay or should I come like this eh he said just a step okay m it came to hours I went home m going home he has a real serious injury we were with him for a few hours he was just fine m he decided he refused to go to the hospital so the next day I said yes I stayed because I want to go to the hospital we were not two m the people are not young already very much stay with him so I woke up in the morning I just saw they are okay m I went to work mh his friend called me and told me he does n't answer the phone I sold him m I don't know I told him I left him to be okay and he just said they are okay I don't know how to go back I am with another piece he had another piece he has at home but I have locked the padlock I went with these other pieces back he is going to die here we found him covered in blanket ames the bed is full of water m so he even got a fever he was beaten by people we took him to hospital st francis kasaran I took him to see what happened that's where the decision to close the work happened he said let's close it I do the work up there also why is he being robbed by people like this m he said so these people told me this and I responded and I continued working on him and I worked on him now he said let's make some changes I was good with it I agreed so after I worked on him later he came to change he started to talk like this I do n't want that has changed so what does he mean he believes the workers what they do so where did he get to a certain girl she was luya he was just written yesterday he just found us there so people started coming meaning this one when he was told when he was told everything he believes so until you don't ask these what happened he believes this girl I got to a place I thought that this girl threw drugs at him now we don't even listen to her she is listened to so people were very drawn to work you write you are drawn to you are written they are drawn to you we didn't get there until I was like we don't listen to him about that until he talked to me until the front a also it was really hurting me he wondered what was going on remember until I would listen until that boy kij brotherake was telling me not to get angry to close that job m you finished your job eh singe Now that's what I said, I was there, by the way, I found my mother and my mother on the road.

[01:09:57]She told me not to react to closing that job.

[01:09:59]You'll just come and tell me.

[01:10:01]So I remembered those words. I said, "Even if it's good, I wouldn't close that job. It's going like this. If I were to go back, I wouldn't close it." I said, " No, it's okay." So I went back. I just sat down and said, "It's okay." It got to the point where I don't want Madani to show me that he's arguing with me in front of his friend. His friend is his friend. He tells him to bring all these people. So I saw that until I sat down, his friend doesn't have good intentions with me.

[01:10:31]Either he sees that love. I don't want it. He must have given it to me. Or he must have trusted me.

[01:10:37]I started hurting him because he trusted me so much that he had so much money. He trusted me the day I stole it.

[01:10:46]So they're surprised. I have to just get out of there. hm so he tried I told mom I asked her until I came and confronted her mom I asked her her name was liz hm what is her friend's name I came and asked her do you listen to her friend or what she tells me about her friend she told him this is the one who will come and finish you off m I knew here again that's what's going on m I mean my life I will mention what a good day or I will mention being happy is not my brother the one I went out on top of him yes he is not the one I stay with he also started m it had gotten worse so I got to the place until he fired me from work to go home what does he want he got to his place he said he wants someone to settle down so the boy we went to high school who was also teaching him was staying with us that boy his children should work m so he said he wants people to start settling down it ended trust you now m so even yesterday at now I don't know I was believing or m but I saw it was me so after he said let's start settling down m brother still stayed it came December last year mother old brother we just stayed well m so January hm that January just there just there So, let's still listen to him and him well during the month of Tembakua.

[01:12:21]So yesterday, he and I were ready, and he called me and apologized, so he called me to go to his party. I went to that party and found him with two young men and I am now friends of Dembia.

[01:12:38]Where do I want friends? I also have no friends. You wanted me to get close to you. It 's okay. So his best friend, his best friend, that young man sent his Dem to come to me.

[01:12:48]So that Dem came. It's been a while. I don't want him to know if we've gotten back together.

[01:12:52]He told me not to react to the action. What will happen to you?

[01:12:56]So the time has come. That day was my day off.

[01:12:59]Where were you doing?

[01:13:01]So the restaurant was still open so I'm off today so I went to the salon to get my hair done so now I called him and I went so that's why his friend was going to the party and he was looking for someone who could come up with two young friends there so we sat down and he came not hours had come I said let me go to the salon that day I don't want to go up where I am Yeah.

[01:13:29]So I said, "If I don't go home, they might hang me." But the girl didn't go home.

[01:13:36]Ed. They did return with him, but they found out later.

[01:13:41]Yeah. I'll find out later, I'll find out after his friends, so P said what people should interact with. M so later we came to a lot m after hours on New Year's Day and Christmas I was at work yee he came on New Year's Day he told me he went to the town you are from that day I am so in the morning I got it he called me five head f I called him again he picked you up he says so let me go check I had doubts v he tells me he still hasn't come back by saying let me go it's been about one hour we've been to work still sa there's busy so so I said let me get off work I told him to check work I'm going back mi I went to go I don't want where he is I told him where I am I'm there you went to the store I'm coming back at this hour he's not up but there's something I should give tell I've been out for a bit so I went to go to the door the guy told me he's not there O m I haven't told him I'm at the door but he's sending a message he tells me he's there I wonder does he know I'm at that door m by listening to the door I hear a girl talking I opened the door I said I shouldn't even go sa that's where I heard the girl said really this girl is [ __ ] you who is this girl why would you open that door the door was opened the door to be opened or the girl has clothes I mean, I don't know who the girl is, the best of that boy. I asked her, so you're my best friend. I said, no, what? I asked the girl what she was doing. The girl told me, this is my boyfriend. Hey, come here today. You saw each other. You've been together.

[01:15:46]I told her, who are you? What?

[01:15:47]Tell her. She said, no, I'm lying.

[01:15:51]Tell me, what? What?

[01:15:53]I told him that's what you said, and he told me to give him my phone number. Give him my phone. What did Demas see? He got up and said I don't know if he's going or not.

[01:16:02]The young man with the personality follows him. I was so shocked that I couldn't breathe that day.

[01:16:08]By the way, I sat down next to his best friend and he had already entered. You see, the judge said, " Even I don't know if they were together." dem he doesn't pick up maybe he does n't pick up my calls like this he says so my boy h this one of mine has followed that girl besake and put her up there I'm out of energy m I said ok hja he took me to work I went back to work m I called his mother I told him no his mother told me he wanted to be [ __ ] let's leave this boy I told him no I called him I explained everything I told him calm down we'll let them cry first then at first don't call me ok his sister who don't call him up first she will also be shocked first I don't say at those hours mh I told him don't tell him first so I kept quiet we sat we sat at the end of some day again I was now later it was his six he asked me where you are going these days now I was just free I told him should I tell you where you go or should I tell you where is that day you called me I told you where I am m I explained to him tell me the day I went I went I found this and this mh until he was surprised he will tell me until mh he stopped talking so we kept quiet so after that we talked m aki the boy still didn't stay at this hour so We are talking about someone else now, not this person, someone else at this time, they live in the same house.

[01:17:45]I said no, I will not die for anyone. So after that first date, that's when I gave up on the word relationship.

[01:17:53]Right now we are talking like this, he has a girl at home, that is, he will post or talk badly to me, what should I see and hear, that is, badly, tell him that I am not even here at this hour, the Lilian who was like this is not there, she has already left, and now I reacted like this, so it got to the point where we still live with this sister of hers, we work at this restaurant, and the young man who lives in the same house with us stayed to teach him how to cut meat like this.

[01:18:26]Ed.

[01:18:26]So I got to the point right now where you can be chatting and you see we've become friends now, I've been here since January, I don't want to be here before, it's okay, let's meet.

[01:18:43]This girl, this young man, I don't know what she started doing or what she was told, she couldn't be told to give it to me for work, what was it, now there was a day when people were tired, now I don't know, let's divide some people and let some go home, the others come in at 4:00 in the morning, I don't want to hear that, what did she say? He came and told me, no, you shouldn't do this, he went on strike, that's why I was stopped from going to work in January, I left on January 17, I stopped going to work, he told me, no, you're grown up, I don't want to, he said, at that time, he doesn't see the beauty, I did things for him, I've lived to do things for him until I've done many things for him, at this time, he doesn't see that, he sees that, first, he added to me, what did he do to me, he said, you want to go and stay with me, he told me, bad, he told me to stay with him and give him your things, so that's how he started using the story you told him, oh the story you told him, now that's how he started using it, it hurt me, so I was staying at home, I was still with him, after he said, I should go, so that time, I haven't started to go, I don't know, give me the money. My friends, when I was working, I didn't have any money, people were getting paid, so I was n't paying, I didn't have any responsibilities, you're staying with him, so I wasn't, so it got to the point where he said, "People, don't go, someone should start spending money on me, why did you arrange all my money, he sent me 69,000, he sent me [to clear his throat], so he said, "Bye, Friday before Friday," he said, "They're chatting," and yesterday there was a day when he was given a report, oh, my brother, his brother, the one who passed, so his brother also passed, so his phone after he talked to his phone, I don't know what he did, it went white, what did he do, he told me, I'll help him call a few people to inform him, he gave me my phone, I gave him my phone, yours on WhatsApp, I scrolled, so he saw the message that the guy sent me, who we're going to stay with, there's nothing, even you, I haven't thought of anything, he started talking to him, he said, "Oh, tell me." We talked, I gave him the phone, he talked, he actually took a screenshot of him using his bestie, the one who was making me gesture to leave, so work, so the day arrived, I heard people, this guy's brother. He's here, this mother is here, what's going on? I was called there, that's when it started. I don't know what you're doing. Yesterday, what happened? We were told. We were told.

[01:21:20]People should free the house you gave us by Friday.

[01:21:24]Let's get out of his house.

[01:21:26]So that young man, brother. The young man was told. His brother should just leave him alone.

[01:21:31]Lilian has someone to talk to. And this doesn't look good. That's when I was told. I took my things and went to your salon. I'll find a house. What should I free the house for?

[01:21:47]So I freed the house the day he gave me that house. He felt very bad about me. I couldn't imagine anyone could do this to me. He was afraid of me.

[01:22:00]So that day, his mother was also there. His mother was told. This is your favorite daughter, go with her if you're going to arrest her like that.

[01:22:08]But from today on, I don't want to see people around me.

[01:22:11]Ed.

[01:22:12]I left I went I went now I haven't already ransacked the house I went at that time I asked back not I am still coming now after a day we were told at the time I will never come back m I didn't come back but I still texted but I didn't even reply to the message I told you now I will do it come tell me to free the house I have no job I will pay for it come this house I will eat come what will I do?

[01:22:34]Yeah.

[01:22:36]No, you told me to quit my job and come to your job and do the work for you. The house is paid. Come, what will I do? I don't have any things. I failed so much. Where did I get so stressed? I cried. My mother was always checking up on me. She called me at night. My wife told me to go for a week and stay at her place. She knew.

[01:23:02]So I went and stayed there. That boy also broke up with me. I went and stayed at my mother's place. I stayed at my mother's place. I came back.

[01:23:11]So at night, I woke up and found my mother praying for me, crying. It hurts me. She says, "These days, those who will come to see my beauty, or don't remember what I did for them all. I just remember a little thing. Those who can take advantage of me will only be late for them." So mom, you can only feel the pain. She is with her. She cried there. She cried. I saw that I had to go back. I just had to go out and buy food. Now I saw that I would make him come. I had the money I had left.

[01:23:44]I went to buy gas. I just bought food. Little things. It sustains me. I had that. That's what I had. I tried. I called him so you get that guy and he was sending me messages what is a guy sleeping with a guy I tell him when he gets laid and it's bad m you didn't find me there with anyone so you know why I've been with you guys so much to beat this one even though you should listen to me and other things they can't even think of doing m yours doesn't trust me so I stayed from January that ah February m not I've been kicked out because my mother is there m I stayed alone and I was and I was stressed and I was until my head hurts and my nose bleeds really bad mh and the videos are there then I use my mother I tell him just look at you he doesn't have that rumas m he does n't care about this all that has to be done he does n't want to know he's there now so my mother lived to visit me so this time I got married he gave me several things I went to my mother he gave me things I came now there that's where I continued shopping maybe he got a truck he gave me m for yes I stayed there tomorrow looking for a job I searched still can't find m I found another promoter there is a promoter it was this super one to promote things imported from Kenya m I went it was here parlands m you go friday saturday sunday he did it m did it m did it so there it was me just asking for work so what i was thinking is friends now at this hour i got maybe friends at that restaurant that way everyone you are calling m wants to take advantage of you so i haven't told them what but even many people want to eat me i'm the one who helps me m so i saw let's call this one no like this if i call this i'll do it i saw now i don't have any friends m until then that's when i started even dating you i started deleting numbers why i do n't talk to people up there i can't find you so the day i went their friend This mother called me on friday i was with her m told me can you go to the funeral place stand up for me up there i'm going driving so i have an exam that day m i told her it's okay i told her and the funeral is there and now this mother i told her and she has agreed to go tell me until i called me i mean she told me it was a party she told me even i told her to go m she told her that she still cares about me until today m until she tells you to go m not me day i said stop I went to the salon and we agreed on a date. We also used to go to dreads. We met at the salon.

[01:26:39]So I stopped him outside and talked to him like this. He said no, we haven't stayed yet.

[01:26:47]I told him I just wanted him to help me find a job. Maybe he'll hold me. He'll help me stay. He said, "Avoid." I told him, " Okay."

[01:27:02]The rest. We went to the funeral. We won. It was good. We're fine.

[01:27:05]I see that people know about it. We won.

[01:27:08]We took a good picture.

[01:27:10]That's how we got to the funeral. We came to stay. We all drank. Now, everyone met me on a motorbike and took me home. I just went home.

[01:27:21]We didn't talk to each other anymore. I stayed there. I texted him again. I tried to appear even on or reply to my messages. When I called him, he would pick up the phone, not a message.

[01:27:36]At least he would read it as a reply. I'm trying.

[01:27:41]Now I couldn't. What should I do?

[01:27:43]I called his other friend and asked him if he could talk to him. He said, "No." So the one who was telling him about me leaving work.

[01:27:52]Now I saw that he also doesn't want to help me. I just said, "Okay."

[01:27:56]I stayed there.

[01:27:59]that time I am a snake to these people m the time who is with me who are their people who believe in me sistero eh fourth born m and first and second born are the two and their brother m they are the ones I talk to and their mother m hivo so it turned out we are just hiv so the mother helped me at this time I am not at work m i try best she can survive s her one is the one who helped me Yang at this time is the one who held me a little m or maybe someone a little until the teacher is helping me somehow yeah you come from far m and you're so strong and you go far amen there's hope.

[01:28:50]So how do you want people who see your story to help you? What I want is to maybe gain skills or get a job. I want to have my own job that I can do with all the support. I can also support the brother I am with who was sent to them. I can't live the life I've had and maybe there's someone somewhere who's been through maybe the same thing. What would you like to say to them? I can just look at the camera. I want someone who's been through the same problems as me. It's not the end of the world. I've tried a lot. I'm not into drugs or anything. I was leading. Maybe there.

[01:29:45]But I avoided it.

[01:29:48]That's your God and without God nothing is possible. That is, God is our everything, if we trust in Him, everything can happen. So we believe in God and everything will be possible.

[01:30:02]if someone wants to find you where can they find you and where can I find TikTok mh lilianua 009 in short nickname lili can I find Facebook lian lian mh can I find Instagram lilian m yeah number and my phone number is 0703 m 978 8 233 0703 978 233 Thank you so much for watching.

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